#with soooo much unnecessary information

[carlytayjepsen]

this taylor era by era book is..... not great 😭

[reminiscentrainclouds]

The Dragon Prince season 6 spoilers below! Just a bunch of my thoughts because boy do I have a lot of them!

I still can't believe the way that whole switcheroo trick with the pearl backfired on Callum. It was so painful to watch because I knewwww it was going to happen the minute he decided to carry the fake down there by himself. Rayla was literally offering to go down there with him!! It would have been so easy for both of them to go down there just in case! I mean, the fake and the pearl both looked exactly the same; it would be easy to make a simple mistake and confuse them, so you'd want to make extra sure you were taking the right one with you!! Callum's confidence is very admirable, but considering he was so worried about it, he really should have been more cautious!

I just really like the way that part of the plot played out. This whole season had soooo much irony in it, but especially with this whole thing. The second it was revealed to be the fake pearl, I was like, "Yippee I was right!!" But also, "They're doomed." Because!! It's left completely unattended!!

And then Sol Regem started attacking Katolis and I was like NOOO IT'S ALL COMING TOGETHER. Although at first I was thinking it was gonna get like, smashed or something in the rubble and that would release Aaravos but man. MAN. There was so much more in store, that was a wild ride... Don't even get me started on Viren's sacrifice. I hate him and I think he got what he deserved, both in terms of what he lost and the crushing guilt he felt, but man. I was really sympathizing with him ever since he got revived, and that last scene with him hurt.

But it was a satisfying and fitting conclusion for him. He had intended on swearing off dark magic and attempting to right his wrongs, but instead, after a lifetime of sacrificing other lives for magic, he ends things by sacrificing his own life, which was already stolen after being revived anyway, to help save the people of Katolis. Sucks that he ultimately was convinced to use dark magic again, as if it was something he could never really escape, as if he never really learned anything, but the big difference was that he was sacrificing no other life than his own here. And he did help people. I'm probably massively misinterpreting everything because my interpretations are always kind of off...but he's just a really interesting character.... He made a lot of bad decisions but I understand his motivations, and I feel like he was really quite Doomed By The Narrative, pushed into a corner and faced with two equally bad decisions in many cases. He's the kind of bad guy who I really wish could have had the opportunity of not being a bad guy, y'know?

Aaravos is much worse and much less redeemable to me, but I feel a similar way about him. Like I Get It. Can't relate to what appears to be his thirst for revenge but I can understand. Learning about what happened to his daughter makes me angry on his behalf! The fact that all this had to happen in the first place hurts a lot! All this could really be blamed on that council of Startouch Elves, for what seemed like an extremely unnecessary punishment for his daughter. Although I'm curious about what more information we might get on the whole cosmic order and everything, I don't know. Taking Aaravos's child like that was unnecessarily cruel though; regardless of how serious of a crime or whatever giving humans magic was, there's no way she had bad intentions, and it's not like killing her would reverse what happened. AUGH anyway. What a season.

[obeymeimaginesandrambling]

Witch MC

Lucifer

It doesn’t change much of his behavior towards you, honestly. However, knowing how to use your magic makes him even more hesitant to form a pact. 

He does tend to ask about magic because I have a personal headcanon that human magic and demon magic are different and each human culture has different forms of magic. 

Likes to watch you work, not he’ll really admit that openly, whether you’re doing something as simple as taking notes or actually performing magic. 

Mammon

Wary as fuck of you at first. Our boy has had some bad experiences with witches so… He’s pretty quick to relax though. 

He whines when you’re studying instead of paying attention to him though. Will believe you if you tell him you can do crazy shit. Threaten to turn him into a frog and watch him freak the fuck out. 

He will ask for magical solutions to the most mundane problems. You have to tell him “No” quite a lot if you don’t want a lot of unnecessary work. 

Satan 

Soooo curious about your books. Whether it’s whatever fiction you read but especially any of your books about magic that he might not have. He will not so subtly read over your shoulder when you’re taking notes. 

You guys accidentally form a magic book club as you guys lend each other books back and forth. 

Study dates. It’s a thing that happens a lot to the point that the others sometimes get jealous and try to drag you out of Satan’s room. It doesn’t usually doesn’t work unless Lucifer gets involved because you two have been in there all day or something. 

Beel

Will ask you to magic up food instead of doing the work of cooking. You do have to inform him that magic is also work and you still need components and such. Lowkey, do actually do it for him because he will have the biggest look of awe on his face. 

Don’t have him in the room with you when you brew potions or anything like that because he will lose his impulse control and eat ingredients or drink the potion itself. Accidental guinea pig. You will spend quite a bit of time fixing this because he ate something he wasn’t supposed to. 

He tends to stare a lot. He’ll be snacking and watching you while you work. He doesn’t tell you but it’s because he’s nervous of spells going wrong and you getting hurt. Will put himself between you and anything dangerous if he sees it going wrong. 

Levi 

Usually has a list of things he wants you to get when you go to get things for your spellcraft. It never has anything to do with school or work, he just doesn’t want to leave the house. 

He’s actually kinda curious about your specific type of magic since every witch is a little different. He rarely asks though. You will get passing questions if you choose to work in his company. 

He tends to start playing more games with witches in them without even noticing it. 

Asmo 

He thinks you work too much. You have to explain that it can be dangerous for you and others if you don’t keep on top of your studies. Still drags you away from studying from time to time for a “self care day”. 

He’s used to Solomon’s bs so your “odd” habits don’t really phase him. He even tends to remind you of things you need like if you’re running low on something he knows you’ll need for a spell he knows your planning. 

He likes to mess with your hair while you’re reading or working. It’s oddly soothing. 

Belphie

Drags you into his nest to cuddle while you study. He will not take no for an answer. Beel will bring you two food and drinks upon request so Belphie reasons that you don’t need anything. Whines whenever you get up. 

Isn’t really interested in your work itself but will listen if you need to talk outloud to someone. Is petty enough to hide your books if he thinks you need a break. 

Will force you to sleep if you haven’t for awhile for whatever reason, studying, insomnia, whatever.

[guaxinimraccoon]

WAIT A MOMENT How much does Tobias know about his curse? If I understand correctly he knows about the fairy prophecy (?), but he does not possess the information that his father was a human...

Wait

Does Tobias think he got cursed JUST because his unknown father once rejected a fairy?

Btw I absolutely adore your characters and the way you introduce us to their stories step by step, please keep up the amazing work!!

That's correct!

Stefan and Elisa told him a fairy was in love with his dad and he wouldn't leave his mother for her, so she got so mad she cursed Toby.

Yeah, of course he thinks that's very dramatic and unnecessary, but fairies are famous to curse those who wrong them in some way, imps try to never anger a fairy and to be in good terms with them at all times. Many fairies take advantage of their power, as sources of all magic, and make irrecoverable things just for being angered at someone.

So Toby didn't really find that soooo absurd, but he still sorrows that his father was so unlucky to have met such a cruel woman with such a strong power.

(And omg thank you so much 😭😭 I can be very insecure about my story and characters sometimes, so those words are a truly relief!)

[bananaguyboi]

Posting my Yandere simulator idea here because I felt salty for waiting an hour on r/osana, only for it not to get attention >:(

Yeah, call me petty, and impatient but c'mon man, I wasted 1 hour writing this skskksksks- and I also want to quickly hear people's ideas and suggestion soooo-

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𝙈𝙮 𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙖 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙎𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙈𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙙

Inspired by u/LuckyLyre's idea where instead of Info-san saying who the rival is, and telling us instructions on how to kill them.

What if We, The player, had the option to collect information about the rivals, and senpai by stalking them?

Like think of it like this, on the start of the game, You 𝘿𝙊𝙉'𝙏 know anyone other than their names, the rumors you've heard about them, or what club they're in. Hell, you don't even know much about senpai, or who your next Rival would be. You kinda just have to figure out as the week passes.

𝘕𝘰𝘸 𝘛𝘏𝘐𝘚 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘯 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘴, 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦.

You can either do 𝙎𝙪𝙧𝙫𝙚𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙎𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜. You know, by following the individual around, even following them outside of school. Observing what places they like, and avoid. Secretly eavesdropping them arguing on their phone. Breaking, and entering into the individuals house without them knowing. Look through their private journal. Rummaging through their bag, and lockers, and even try stealing their valuable stuff. Breaking and entering again- So on, and so forth.

On the other hand, you can try 𝘾𝙮𝙗𝙚𝙧 𝙎𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜, where you stalk the individual on the internet. You know the drill. Look into what hobbies they're in, complaints about life, and their usual posts. Or try Installing a spyware/tracking software on their devices. Then, look into their private account, and maybe try hacking it to see some private information. You can even dm the individual's personal hater, or creepy fan to join forces with you, because yeah, why not🤷 You can blackmail, doxxed, expose the individual for their nasty work, or befriend some of them, and just be a toxic person while still remaining charismatic, and seemingly friendly to manipulate, and let them do dirty work for you lol.

( Also, I'm not sure on how Ayano would know how to doxxed, or hack someone since in this concept/method, info-chan's existence is completely 𝙧𝙚𝙢𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙙 because i thought she was unnecessary lol, so feel free to tell me ideas me in the comments, It'd be a huge help! )

Anyways- 𝘼𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙎𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙄𝙙𝙚𝙖 is you could try looking into the rumors/ gossips of the certain individual. Ok, alright, i know this isn't really stalking, but I thought it'd be a fun addition.

Obviously, you don't have to talk, and ask about the individual's info all the time, but you can sneakily add them in the conversation without the person knowing because yeah, ✨charisma✨, and the person would slowly go through the gossips they heard, what they saw the individual do, or just bad mouth about them idk lol.

And now after gathering all the information, you get to use your phone, notebook, or the board thing at home to document on what you discovered, and how this could possibly be of help to you, like you're some some kind of detective investigating a crime scene lol. ( Well, you don't really have to write it manually, the game will handle that for you lol, so whenever you discover a new information, it will automatically update your phone, or notebook sksks )

( Also, My idea for the notebook/phone system is kinda the same as the 1980's mode, except it's more vague about the instructions you're given, and you have to explore the school to know what it means Plus, I thought it’d be fire if the notebook had sketches/ drawings in it suggesting ideas on how to kill, while still not saying exactly how to. Like drawing 'osana's hair getting stuck in something' Type of stuff

And you know what? these drawings would play a HUGE factor of showing Ayano's sanity. Like just imagine early-on the game, the drawings looks innocent, and simple, just a rough drawing of an object here and there, But as you kill more, and more people, the drawings gets more detailed, more unhinged and more unsettling. Idkk lol, just a fun idea hehehehe )

Now back to the topic of stalking! How does this help in identifying the rivals? 𝘽𝙮 𝙤𝙗𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙎𝙚𝙣𝙥𝙖𝙞, 𝙤𝙛 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚!

You'll learn who he talks to the most, and just process the info about the girls, and distinguish them from the actual rivals. Like- Didn't you just observe the way that lady just twirl their hair as they speak to senpai? or the way other lady puts on their lipstick, and makes high pitch screeches as senpai enters the room? Oh? What's that? The lady who was violents moments ago is now looking like an angel infront of senpai? And the stoic, and stubborn know-it-all is smiling gently whenever senpai praise them?? What do you mean the very sad, depressed girl is now beaming with sunshines, and rainbow whenever senpai ever slightly walk near them? Pssshht, there's no way they're the rivals, amirite guys😊😊?

Yeahhhhh, it's kinda easy spotting who the rival is because i didn't want this to be too complicated, but to add challenge to this, there are other ladies who are flocking in senpai's way who AREN't rivals, but just happen to have a crush on senpai. THE REAL RIVALS are the person who makes their first move, and ACTUALLY TALKS TO HIM SKSKS

I know this might sound too complex for the game, but I honestly prefer it this way because it makes me feel smart, and it rewards me for gathering info. It also gives you a consequences, like imagine wrongfully targeting some girl, and getting exposed for it💀 lol

The BACKLASH you have to deal with would be wilddd

𝘼𝙣𝙮𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨- 𝘿𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙜𝙪𝙮𝙨 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙨/𝙨𝙪𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙣 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙚? 𝘽𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙄 𝙬𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙤𝙥𝙞𝙣𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙘𝙚𝙥𝙩𝙨 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙙, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙨𝙮𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙢 !!

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I just copy and pasted what I said there because yeahhhhhhhh- also please do leave suggestions, I'm desperate ya'll😭😭

[waffleslashermaster]

Aw man I love your missing children and Charlie designs, they are soooo cute!!

Could you maybe tell us a bit more about them?

Thank you so much! I'd love to talk about them, I'll try not to yap too much haha

Charlie is a prodigy and a very smart kid for her age. Despite this, she's known to have quite a wild imagination, insisting the animatronics at her father's Diner are alive and that their all her friends.

Susie and Jeremy are siblings. Although Susie is a very friendly and outgoing girl, she can be too trusting. Her brother is in charge of keeping an eye on her, but he gets constantly picked on by other kids. Their family has a chihuahua named Carl.

Gabriel is very witty as well as stubborn. His mother is a teacher at Hurricane's local highschool, and she expects a lot from him, causing Gabriel to at times have far too much on his shoulders, as well as an unnecessary amount of after-school activities.

Fritz is a big fan of Freddy's. He's also known for being a very loud and hyper kid who's hard to keep track of. However he showed to be very talented in sports, particularly soccer.

No one knows where "Jane Doe" came from. The only information on her is that there was a birthday party scheduled at Freddy Fazbear's Pizza who no one showed up for.

That's all folks!

[johaerys-writes]

Do you block these people who spend their time complaining about TSOA, Patrochilles, Patroclus, Achilles, etc etc? Bc before I wouldn't block it unless it was a bot or really unbearable because I thought "ah unnecessary", but then I started blocking more people simply bc they frequently showed up bringing topics I didn't care about and my life on Tumblr became really great. But if you block it and it continues to appear, then idk... maybe your algorithm is simply more infernal than mine

Yeah same, I used to be really reluctant and didn't want to block anyone but honestly blocking and muting and blacklisting is the only way one can have a positive online experience imo and I suggest everyone do it! But unfortunately there are certain topics that are brought up again and again ad nauseum and Tumblr likes to throw those posts in my recommended and FYP pages for some reason, and as much as I block I can't catch everything lol! So like I often scroll in bed in the morning before getting up (bad habit lmao) and then I'll see some random post regurgitating the same tired discourse and it sucks, man! It blows!! It hurts my feelings lmao!!!! Like these are my blorbos you're talking about, be kind 😂 Some are easier to ignore than others, and like I GET that a lot of people don't have the same understanding of tsoa and the iliad and patroclus and patrochilles etc etc that I do and that’s fine, everyone's entitled to their own opinion but like...... a lot of it is based on wrong information or complete misinterpretation of the canon or someone managing to read a passage or event in the shallowest way possible and idk WHY the algorithm decides I have to read these things every few days lmao. I just think it would be sooooo much simpler if we could all enjoy the things we enjoy and not shit on what others enjoy, there is enough room for everyone and no one has to be excluded! If you love warrior Pat for instance and aren't a fan of non warrior Pat, just engage with that and hype the works that show that or better yet create your own art/writing/whatever, without trying to take those that love non warrior Pat down a peg. It's literally so unnecessary and ruins everyone's time. Especially when we're talking about characters who have been around for millennia and there are bound to be hundreds if not thousands of different versions of them. From Homer to Shakespeare to Madeline Miller to Hades game, everyone created their own versions of those characters and they're all valid and no one's worse or lesser. It's simply a matter of preference (or if you're REALLY brave and wrinkly brained you love every single one of those versions and go feral thinking about them and never know a moment of true peace LMAO)

I don’t often talk about it here bc I don't like to spread negativity or start drama or rain on anyone’s parade, and ignoring those posts is the simplest thing in the world (just keep scrolling), but like there are certain topics that keep coming up over and over and over again and I WISH ppl would see beyond that, it's literally not that hard and I promise you'll be soooo much happier for it

[fatexbound]

@epitomees said:

As much as Kotone wished to involve the others for her plan, she knew it wouldn't please Shinjjiro in the slightest. A quiet, reserve, and hardened guy like him refused most, if not all of the dorm's hangout sessions unless they were a one-on-one deal. No large gatherings, and definitely no unnecessary attention drawn to himself. This made it all the more difficult in figuring out a decent strategy to celebrate his birthday. For one thing, the red-head only recently acquired this information thanks to Akihiko-senpai, which didn't give her ample time to prepare something for the occasion.

It looked like he'd get his wish, after all. A quiet, neglected day...so he thought.

Once the school bell announced the end of the day, Kotone quickly typed out a message to Shinjiro asking him to meet her at the fountain, implying a sense of urgency near the end. Avoiding the dorm seemed to be her best option if she wanted to draw him out of his room. She took residence at one of the benches, setting down a brown paper bag off to the side and out of view. It looked ordinary, non-suspicious, nothing for Shinji to worry over when he arrived. The sight of his signature maroon jacket brightened her smile more. She waved him over, enthusiastic in her gestures as it was quite common with the SEES leader.

"Glad you can make it, Senpai!" Once he joined her, Kotone carefully rummaged in the paper bag until she pulled out his first gift. A cupcake packaged in a cupcake-shaped plastic container for easy transportation. "I was wondering if you could um....try my new baking creation. I made it in cooking club! Felt a little experimental this time around, aaaaand well...knowing you and all, I figured why not hear how it tastes from the best!" She scooted a little closer only for her to start pointing out the cupcake's flavor and appearance. "I used a vanilla cinnamon flavor for the base, then added in some brown sugar and caramel mixture as a filling to give it a sweeter, subtle flavor. The icing was a little harder to make though since I was going for a vanilla caramel whipped texture."

But it looked pretty good! She thought it came out decent, but she knew Shinji would be the final judgement.

"I hope you like it-OH! Yeah, hang on! I got you something too while I was waiting!" His second gift ; a manga book. "I only read the back description soooo I'm not sure how good it is, but it's about these demons that enter a cooking competition in order to becoming the Lord of the Underworld's personal chefs. I thought you'd enjoy it!"

Shinjiro's birthday | Accepting

Shinjiro rose from his bed at his usual time, although sleeping until it got dark and forgetting about this day was a cruel temptress. If only food and water weren't necessities for the human body to function properly... he'd be fine with it. Zero attention, zero care apart from his old childhood friends who each got him something special on his desk. Even a simple birthday card was nice but meaningless to him.

There was no point in celebrating anything when he didn't know when his time would be up.

And yet, someone messaged him while he was getting a drink from the vending machine at the station. Opening up his cell phone, he noticed the name on the screen. Kotone - their leader, who was asking him to meet her at the fountain of Paulownia Mall for some kind of emergency.

As if he cared, but he went there anyway, taking his time. The sight of red hair in a ponytail told him that he found her quickly, and as he expected, her cheerful demeanor was still ever so present in contrast to his broody mood.

"Ya don't have to act so innocent. Aki and Kirijo told you, I'm guessin'." Why wouldn't they? Those idiots were still causing him trouble. "Whatever. Lemme try it." Taking note of her description, he rotated it in his hand, looking it over before taking his first bite. "Hm... light and fluffy, not overcooked..." He murmured thoughtfully. "The brown sugar is a little too much with the vanilla cinnamon, but overall... a good effort." That's the highest praise she'll ever get out of him.

He was baffled by his second gift, raising an eyebrow. "Demons... who want to become personal chefs? The hell kinda shit do they come up with? I'm not much of a manga reader, but... I guess it's worth a shot. Just..." He groaned in irritation, scratching the back of his head awkwardly. "Don't bother with spending money on me, no matter how cool ya think it is. It's fine. It doesn't matter that much."

[epitomees]

'(n˘v˘•)¬' for Kotone! give Junpei and/or Ryoji a compliment? :3c

Send '(n˘v˘•)¬' for my muse to compliment your muse

"Junpei is the most loyal and bravest friend I've ever had in my life." That's to say she never really had many friends since coming to Port Tatsumi, but that's a bunch of unnecessary information no one needed to know. "Seriously like, he's been with me since the very beginning, and I know at first he tried playing tough guy to hide how nervous and scared he truly felt. He didn't need to stick around and help us, but he did anyway." At first it was for his own agenda, but his true goals turned around the more he became close with the team. And with herself.

"If I'm ever stuck in a dangerous situation all by myself, I know I can rely on Junpei to swoop in and lend me a helping hand no matter how scary things may be."

"...I don't think this would come as a surprise to him, but Ryoji's genuine curiosity about life and establishing connections with others is something I find so endearing. He's super eager to learn about everything that's around him, ask questions about things he's never seen or experienced, and he's soooo willing to try new things. It's like I'm looking at an excited little kid exploring the outside world for the very first time." His childlike innocence and awe always made her smile, even laugh when they were together. He found so much enjoyment in the little things of life.

She wished she could feel that again.

[zunniva]

The Wallflower part 2

So this is part 2 of The Wallflower,been writing and rewriting for weeks. I wasn't sure which way I wanted this to go. Still not sure I like it, but I hope you guys do

Also... I'm sorry if I'm making absolutely no sense when I mention the dom/sub aspect. I'm not that well educated in it but I hope I'm not offending anyone with that short part ❤️

🛑 Warnings 🛑 Sexual activities, strong language, some violent behaviour, mention of SA and r**e

“Is there a reason your fucking guard dog ALWAYS seem to be answering the phone when I call?” fuck... I shouldn't have answered. I know better by now! It's been about a month of Eddie answering every call and Laura hanging up on him.

“Well...what can I say. He's faster than me” I sigh

“Bet you tell him to answer, you don't want to talk to your own sister?”

“Not really, no”

“So? Are you coming home any time soon? Or do mum and I have to go to fucking Nowhere, Indiana if we wanna see you from now on? That is if I'm ALLOWED of course” she's so bitter, and it makes me feel soooo good

“Why wouldn't you be allowed to travel to Indiana?” I love playing stupid with her

“For fucks sake, you know what I mean! Well I guess having a guard dog is pretty easy when you have money” she snickers

“Laura, careful” I say “I don't have the best patience when it comes to you any more”

“You think I care if you try to insult me? Sweet sister, I am the mean one here. I bet this Eddie is just someone you're too NICE to throw out so he's there spending your money. Well...don't come back here crying when he leaves you”

“Never have truer words been spoken Laura” I say

“I KNEW IT! I'm right, he's not your boyfriend just some loser you paid to tell me that”

“I meant that you're the mean one” I smile “what's really the problem Laura? Are you lonely? Is that what's triggering this excessive calling? Used to be every other week you'd call to insult me. Now it's every other day... Jealous much?”

She lets out a scoff “Why would I be jealous of YOU?”

“Well, I'm happy now. And I've made good friends which then makes that question unnecessary for you to ask. I haven't heard you brag about your friends in a while, or any of the myriads of men you date...” I knew this would hit the spot

“I don't have to tell you EVERYTHING about my life” strangely her voice isn't as confident any more

“Well, you've been telling me everything for years now...to make ME jealous so I mean...what's changed?”

I hear keys in the door and Eddie comes in. He looks at me, looks at the phone and raises an eyebrow like a question. I nod at him and roll my eyes.

“You ok?” he mouths at me and I nod and he smiles and goes to the bed room to change out of his work clothes

“So now you're not even listening to me?” Lauras voice breaks through my admiration of the guy that's undressing in my bed room.

“Whaaaat?” I sigh

“I said that nothing's changed... I just don't feel you need to know about my personal life” her voice is getting less and less confident by the minute

“Strange, you've never been that considerate in your life. Look I don't have time for you now, Eddie just got back from work so we're having dinner”

“Of course, the hired help got there. Well I beat him today so you can just send him home. Well ARE you coming home at all?”

“I was planning on taking Eddie with me to Seattle for mum's birthday. I can close the store for a couple of days then so it might be good timing” I sigh, she really doesn't need this information, I wasn't going to bring him until Christmas but then I thought that if I could get the awful meet and greet done with earlier than that it might not ruin my favourite holiday.

“Riiiight, and then when mum's birthday arrives he 'has to work' or someone in his 'family is sick' or something right?” her snappish tone is back

“Whatever Laura, have a good day. I'm sure you can discuss this further with Eddie next time you call” I hang up before she starts up again

I pinch the bridge of my nose and inhale sharply.

“What's to be discussed with me next time?” I hear from the door to the bed room. I turn and I let out a moan. Eddie's standing there, naked and glorious.

“Oh, just how you're my hired man. You don't love me you're just annoying her for the money. You know...the obvious” I say and I lock eyes with him as I slowly start walking towards him unbuttoning my dress as I do

“Oh, yeah that! Damn she caught me” he smiles not letting me go with his stare “I mean I have noooo interest in you other than the pay check” he mumbles as he starts to stroke his hardening cock “no interest what so ever”

“No I can tell, totally uninterested” I say as I unclasp my bra and throw it behind me. I step out of my panties just before I reach him “I mean if it wasn't for the obvious lack of interest I might fuck you some time, but as it is...I mean why bother. Right?” I smirk

“Don't you fucking DARE put those clothes back on!” he grabs me and presses me up against the bedroom wall, pinning my arms up over my head with one hand. The free hand quickly moving down between my legs, fingers sliding in to my folds with ease. “Do you get wet just looking at me sweetheart? You're soaking” he purrs at me as I moan at his touch

“Have you seen you? Of course I get wet just seeing you” I pant and I move my hips so I can meet his hands movements.

He tuts at me “Nah pet. I'll be doing the touching here. You just be a good girl and take it” he smiles at me

“Yes, master” I whisper and it has the same effect now that it had the first night I tried calling him that. I'd been reading a particularly spicy novel before he came here that night, the girl in the book called her man 'Sir' but I didn't think that suited Eddie. Then I thought of his roll as dungeon master in Hellfire. So that night when we were making out he asked me to take off my panties for him. I answered him 'Yes...master' and he fucking lost it. He makes me so comfortable in my own skin, which just a few months ago would have been something I'd never ever think would be possible for me.

“You're gonna kill me sweetheart, making me so fucking horny calling me master like that” Eddie growls in my ear as he pushes his fingers in to me with a squelching sound. My knees wobble a bit and he chuckles softly “what's got you weak in the knees honey? Could it be this?” he smiles and lets one more finger slide in to me and I buckle under his touch. Eddie quickly catches me before I slide down the wall completely, swooping me up in to his arms and carrying me to the bed. “Wanna spread those amazing thighs for me sweetheart?” his grin is so sexy is takes my breath away. I do as I'm told, spreading my legs as wide as my body lets me, making Eddie smile even wider “there it is...fuck I love watching you do that babe” he murmurs at me slowly creeping up the bed towards me eyes locked on my pussy.

He sits down on his knees between my legs letting his hands play over my breasts and down my tummy. “So fucking soft and warm, God I love your body” he's in his own world now and I love him for it. His hands reach the inside of my thighs and Eddie grabs a handful of the soft flesh in his hands, growling deep down in his chest as he does. Then he finally leans in and lets his tongue slide up my slit from asshole to clit in one go making me yelp from the sudden impact. He begins sucking and running his tongue in circles over my clit while letting one hands fingers slide in to me again reaching that soft spongy part inside that makes me melt like snow in his hands. I squirm, I writhe and I moan like I'm possessed from his touch, it never fails. He knows my body like it's been his for years and years. The orgasm hits like a freight train and I'm pretty sure I sound like some kind of banshee. Before I can even come down from my high I feel Eddie pushing him self in to me, one thrust and he's in to the hilt. He pauses for a second, eyes closed and a smile on his lips “fuck yeah babe, this is it... God I've been longing for this all day” he grabs my hips and starts moving, slow and deep at first. He feels so good, filling me up like he's made for my body and my body alone. His thrusts get faster and he's making the sexiest sounds imaginable as he fucks me. His hand moves in and he begins working my clit again with skilled fingers, knowing exactly what's gonna make me fall apart again. “There you go babe, scream my name... I wanna feel you cum all over me...” he's fucking me so good and I can feel that knot in my stomach growing larger as he pushes me closer and closer to the edge of sanity. “That's my good girl, fucking me like no other... cum for me...” he growls and I let go

“EDDIEEEEE FUUUUCK!!!” I scream as he sends me over the edge one more time following close behind. I feel him pulsate in me and hear him let out the most delicious groans as he fills me up. Then he slumps down on the side of me pulling me in real close kissing me deeply

“God dammit woman! I love you” Eddie's panting and smiling at me

“Love you to....master” I say winking at him

“Well aren't I lucky” he mumbles in to my lips as he keeps kissing me “I have found the best girl out there”

We lay there for a bit cuddling. Eddie gets up on his elbow and looks down at me

“So...how bad was she today?”

“Laura?” he nods “nah not too bad actually. She just went on about how you were someone I hired to act like my boyfriend. She keeps referring to you as either 'the guard dog' or 'the hired help'...she's so jealous it's killing her. Mean as it might make me sound I LOVE it” I say and I blush a little

“Sweetheart, with all the shit you've told me I can't blame you” Eddie chuckles and pulls me in closer hugging me tight “as awesome as this is... I'm kinda hungry” he says

“What? You always eat when you get home from work, did something distract you today?” I smile in to the pillow

“Did something...?” Eddie laughs “Hell yeah, I'd say something distracted me. The sexiest god damn book store employee there ever was made me go all feral because she's so fucking hot” he tickles me making me scream with laughter

“LET ME GO EDDIE MUNSON!” I scream as he pins me to the bed tickling me all over “Or there will be no more sexy book store employee for you” he lets go with a pout

“Awww...mean” he says with a wink

We get out of bed and I start dinner as Eddie takes a shower and changes in to more comfortable clothes. He's basically living here now, almost all of his things have found their way to my drawers and closet. Nothing we've discussed it just kind of happened slowly over time. I've noticed and I'm thrilled. I want to talk to Eddie about it but I don't quite know how to start up a conversation like that. Some things still make me nervous, talking about relationship things is one of them. I always have this little voice in the back of my head saying I've gotten ahead of myself, that I've misread the situation, that I've misunderstood Eddie...things like that. Then we have what ever talk we need to have and everything is fine, just...my fucking mind.

We eat dinner, Eddie praising my cooking as always.

“Hey, I wanted to ask you something” I look down at my hands trying to swallow that lump of uncertainty forming in the back of my throat

“Yeah?” Eddie beams at me like he always does making me feel safe and loved...but still the lump is there

“So... I mean... It's been 3 months, I know it's probably too soon to even mention this but... If you'd like...this is a big apartment” my voice no more than a whisper at the end

“Sweetheart... Are you trying to ask me if I wanna move in with you?” Eddie smiles and takes my hand

“Well...” deep breath “yeah” still can't look at him

“Babe, look at me” he says and I do, his smile is wide and reassuring “I would love to, been thinking about it myself. Can't even remember when I slept in my own bed last. Not even sure I want to sleep there again, it would be too empty without your soft body to keep me company” he says and I let out a big relaxing sigh “Did this really make you nervous? Asking me if I wanna move on with you?” he asks me surprised and I nod in response “But why?”

“I...don't know. Maybe it's the fact that all I've ever known about relationships is what I've seen my mum and Laura go through. They were always in such a hurry with everything and nothing ever lasted... I guess I was afraid I was moving too fast for you and that you'd get cold feet” I admit looking down at my hands again. I see Eddies big hands enclose mine in a warm embrace

“Kat, c'mon... I'm not easily scared, you know that. Besides I love you too much, you're not able to get rid of me. So don't worry about that. I mean... I've basically been living here since that first week haven't I” he chuckles “I went to the trailer the other day, realized all my stuff is here. So it's not like I live there any more. Only thing I need to get is my guitar and some other small things, all my clothes are here. So it's not really you who need to ask me if I wanna move in. It should really be me asking if you're ok with me already having moved in”

I look at him then I get up from my seat and I walk up to him sitting down on his lap and pressing my lips to his.

“I love you freak, and I'm so happy you've moved in” I say as we part “another thing I was meaning to talk to you about is my mum's birthday. It's in 2 weeks, are you able to get some time off work and come with me? I kinda let it slip to Laura I was thinking of bringing you, so if I don't she'll have all the ammo she'll need to ruin the whole weekend” I look at him

“I think that's doable, wouldn't wanna leave my best girl in the claws of the devil all on her own. Hey, what if we make it a road trip? Maybe Robin and Casey wanna come along, I remember them talking about visiting Casey's family. And what the hell we'll bring Harrington as well, he could do with a change of scenery” Eddie smiles at me hugging me tight

“Sound like a good idea, I'll call Casey and see if that'll work for them. Should we be keeping Steve or do we send him along with them?” I giggle

“Let's keep him with us, maybe that's what your sister needs? A good guy with a big cock and a fat wallet” Eddie laughs

“Jeeesus Eddie, I didn't need to know that about Steve” I laugh “maybe that's what SHE needs but I hardly think Steve needs a narcissist with a spending problem and a foul temper” I say on a more serious note

“He'll be fine, he's not as meek as he seems” Eddie kisses me “thanks for dinner by the way it was lovely as always” he says “wanna come with me to get the last of my things then?”

“Sure, I just need to clean this first” I say and I get up

“WE need to, c'mon do you think I'm expecting you to do everything around here?” he gets up and collects the dishes from the table as I take the leftovers in to the kitchen.

When we're done cleaning up after dinner we head off to the trailer park to gather the last of Eddie's stuff. There isn't much left as he said. His guitar, some photos and a few books. He stands in the door to the trailer and I can see his eyes filling with tears, it's been home for quite some time after all. I go up and I wrap my arms around him

“You're sure about this? I wouldn't want you to leave if you're not 100% sure you wanna live with me” I say

“I'm a 1000% sure babe, just...this place holds memories...not that many good ones but still. Hey can we invite Wayne some time? I want him to see I did make it out of here at last” his voice breaks at the end and my heart fills with love for this sensitive dork of mine

“What kind of a question is that? Of course you can invite your uncle to your home. Just 'cause I wouldn't want my family within a 100 miles from Hawkins doesn't mean you can't have your family come over any time you want. It is YOUR home to now” I tell him and he smiles at me and gives me a long hug

“OUR home...wow...that's insane. Hey...I'ma be livin' with a giiiirl” he chuckles “think about all them cooties”

“Dork” I say and I laugh at him as I pick up the bag of photos and carry them to the car. On the way home we stop at Family Video. We head inside only to once again be met by Steve sighing behind the front desk and Robin loudly arguing in the stacks. “WHY CAN'T YOU JUST GET IT IN YOUR THICK SKULL THAT TOM CRUISE SUUUUCKS”

“Hey Buckley....Gareth” Eddie calls in towards where the sounds are coming from

“Hey Freak...can you come get this...I think it belongs to you” we hear Robin call back and Eddie chuckles and heads towards them, not sure who he's really saving

“Hey Steve” I smile at him, can't for the life of me stop my eyes from glancing down his body quickly without him noticing

“Hey Kat, what's up” he smiles back at me

“Not much, been to pick up the last of Eddies stuff from the trailer”

“So he's officially moved in now? Like 3 moths after he ACTUALLY moved in” Steve laughs

“Something like that” I laugh with him “hey... I wanted to ask you if you might wanna join me and Eddie in Seattle in like 2 weeks. Mum's birthday is coming up and Casey and Robin are coming with us for a road trip. We just wouldn't wanna leave you behind”

“Cool, yeah I think that'll work. But you sure you want me to tag along? I'm not going to be in the way?” he asks

“No, of course not. I was thinking at first that you maybe wanted to go with Robin but I know that Casey's family hasn't got that much room. Mum does and she's been saying she'd wanna meet my my friends. We've been getting along better now...there is of course the matter of the devil incarnate thou...”

“Your sister? Yeah I think I can take her” he smiles

“Eddie said something like that” I suddenly blush

“What the hell, why are you blushin all of a sudden? What has he said to you?” Steve is looking very amused

“Oh....just...”

“I told her that her sister might need a nice guy with a big cock and a fat wallet” Eddie comes up to us laughing

“C'mon Munson...don't embarrass your girl like that” Steve scoffs at him but there's a hint of a smile on his lips

“I wasn't lying so...” Eddie kisses me on the forehead “sorry babe” he mumbles and smiles at me

“S'ok...just...can't help but look now” I whisper at him and he roars with laughter. Steve probably has an idea what that was about and he blushes and shakes his head at us

“Morons...the both of you. But I'll come with...what am I to do if you all lave anyway...might as well deal with the devil” he smirks “and for the record... I can get a hotel room. No need to house me, my cock and my fat wallet” he laughs

I sigh and shake my head “whatever you like Steve. But I'll tell mum you'll be coming with us so she's prepared for one extra guest at the table” I say

The 2 weeks before we leave are quiet. The store is slow, not a lot of customers right now. Mum was thrilled I'd be bringing my friends. She even insisted that I invite Casey and Robin over for lunch. Something that's never happened during the 17 years I've been friends with Casey. This guy she's with must be a real gem, making her act this civil towards me. Laura is still a story all on her own, she still calls almost every day. I still let Eddie answer and she goes off on him telling him he's a loser, a hired help, a fucking thief for stealing my money from me etc. It's going to be so much fun setting him lose on her in a couple of days. She still thinks I'm coming alone, she has absolutely no trust in Eddie actually showing up.

The trip is awesome, we take a couple of days off all of us so we can take our time driving. We leave Wednesday and we reach Seattle on Thursday late in the evening. I take the last part of the drive seeing as I know my way around. We drop off Casey and Robin at Caseys parents house and then we drive the five minutes to mum's house. It's weird seeing it, I feel like I just left a couple of days ago at the same time as I feel like it's been years. I dread going in but Eddie gives me a reassuring hug and Steve a big smile.

“Lets go grab these bulls by their balls now babe!” Eddie says and takes my hand. We go up to the door and I knock. We hear footsteps and a very handsome and kind looking man opens the door.

“Hello, you must be Katherine! I'm Henry it is so nice to finally meet you. Ruth has told me all about you” He smiles a warm smile at us and steps to the side so we can enter

“Hello Henry, I wish I could say mum has been telling me all about you to but I guess we've mostly been talking about me. I have heard your name and some stuff about you though” I say feeling I need to be honest

“Well, I'm not much to brag about” he chuckles “Welcome you 2 as well, where are my manners” he says looking over at Eddie and Steve

“Hey man, I'm Eddie. Kat's boyfriend this is our good friend Steve” Eddie shakes hands with Henry

“Eddie and Steve, yes I have heard about you to” Henry smiles at them and I hear my mum coming from the kitchen

“Are they here?” she enters the hallway wiping her hands on... A APRON?

“Since when do you wear aprons?” I can't stop myself

“Well hello to you too honey...” she hugs me and looks me up and down “you look good sweetie. And I wear aprons when I cook” she smiles

“Cook? You know how to cook?” I'm confused...are we in the right house

“I'll tell you all about it. Now aren't you going to introduce me?” she glances at the boys

“Sorry...of course. Mum this is Eddie, my boyfriend and this is our friend Steve. Guys this is my mum Ruth” I say dreading her reaction

“Eddie, so good to finally meet you” she smiles so widely I'm beginning to suspect I AM in the wrong house. She even gives him a hug... what the hell is happening here? Then she turns to Steve “and Steve, I have heard lovely things about you. It is nice to finally meet you as well” she gives him a hug to and I feel like I need to sit down

“Is she here?” I ask

“Who? Oh Laura...but she's on her way I suppose” mum looks nervous

“Well...ok. I need the restroom, I'll be right back” I say

“Me and Steve will get the things from the car” Eddie smiles at me

“You do that, thanks” I say and I head to the downstairs toilet. I splash my face with cold water and I look in the mirror. There is something so wrong here...who IS that woman? Could it all be Henry's doing? Then that man is my new hero... I like this version of my mum, she's never before told me I look good. Making me suspicious though. I go back in to the hallway, I hear mum and Henry in the kitchen laughing. Weird sound in this house... But where are the guys? It shouldn't take them this long to get a couple of bags? I look out the window and my blood freezes. They're standing by the car having a smoke and well...she's arrived... I open the door and I head outside

“Laura” I say and she spins around with a great big smile. I sneak a peek at Eddie who's got this mischievous smile on his lips and Steve has the same look. What are they up to?

“Kaaaat... You came” my sisters voice is so fake it hurts my ears

“Yeah? I mean I did tell you I was coming so”

“Well... I see I was right” she has a very smug look on her face

“You were right? About what?” Eddie and Steve are giggling quietly and suddenly I get it. She hasn't figured out who they are. They haven't told her

“Well, we can talk all about THAT when we get inside. I was just talking to these goooooorgeous guys here” she gives them a dazzling smile

“Oh...” I fight the urge to laugh out loud at her.

“Where's your car by the way? Don't tell me the hired help has wrecked it and you're stuck with THIS?” she points at the car we borrowed from Eddies boss so we'd all fit and we wouldn't have to take 2 cars. I look over at her as I take the bags out of the trunk and then I throw the keys at Steve.

“I did no such thing... Hello Lucifer...” Eddie smirks at Laura

“Yeah...that's Eddie...and this is Steve our friend” I say and we all laugh at the look on Lauras face as we take our things and head back inside “Are you coming in or are you just going to stand there all night?” I ask as I'm about to close the door. Laura isn't making a single sound, she just walks up to the house and past me as quick as she can. She's not even looking at Eddie or Steve she just rushes in to the kitchen

“Oh that was...priceless. She was flirting SOOO heavily with us the second she turned the corner and saw us” Eddie laughs

“I've never seen her that speechless” I say “I kinda like it” I snicker “I'm going to take the bags upstairs, you go join the others in the kitchen” I kiss Eddie and I take the bags

“You need help?” he asks and Steve nods

“Nah, I'm a big girl I can handle them” I smile and I head up the stairs to my old room. I open the door and I'm instantly back to feeling as small and insignificant as I did the last time I was in here. God I hated this place... I put our bag down on the bed then I head to the guest room to leave Steves things in there. I finally convinced him it wasn't a problem having him in the house, he needn't get a hotel room for 2 nights. I hear footsteps behind me as I'm putting his bag on the bed

“Seriously?” Laura is fuming...now I recognise her

“Seriously WHAT Laura?” I sigh with my back still turned at her

“That's who you're paying to act your boyfriend? You couldn't have... I don't know stuck to YOUR league? You really think anyone one of us believes that perfect specimen of a man is for REAL your boyfriend? C'mon Kat... And Steve? How many hot men are you paying to try and convince me you have a life?” she scoffs at me “You might be able to fool mum and Henry, but I know you Kat. You are not the girl to bag a guy like that. Why the hell would they be friends with YOU? The most boring and insipid person known to man? What are you going to do to yourself when the money runs out and they leave you? Huh? Gonna come back here and hide at mums and become the wallflower again? Jesus fucking Christ Kat, you should have left them at home, I'm not falling for that” she's so angry and I feel like crawling in to the walls, how is it she can make me feel this small. I haven't got any answers for her, I know her and now she's going strong. She won't listen to anything I say, she's made up her mind. They're hired help both of them. I'm standing there head bent trying to find words when the door is flung open and all I see is a shadow as Laura shrieks and then I hear Eddie's low growling voice. I look up and I see him holding her by her throat a few inches of the ground pinned to the wall

“If I hear ONE more thing coming out of your mouth that belittles Kat I will fucking END you! Why the FUCK are you here if you can't act like a human being? Huh...you fucking bitch” Eddie is furious

“Eddie...let her go she's not worth it” I say quietly

“Do...you...understand...me?” his voice is no more than a deep vibrating note. I see Steve coming in, he looks over at them. He goes over and he puts his hand on Eddies shoulder

“Hey man, not worth it. Kat's been telling us what she's like, what did you expect? This one can't act civil so just ignore her. Saw it the second she stopped outside, she's nothing but a brat. I wouldn't waste my time even trying to tame this one, ugly insides make awful outsides” I'm shaking to the core, Laura is going to be 100 times worse from this

Eddie's eyes are black as he slowly lowers Laura to the ground.

“One more word... Just one...” he growls. Then he turns to me “you ok babe?” he wraps me in his arms and kisses my head “sorry if I scared you, I noticed she disappeared from the kitchen when we came in there. I was worried” he looks down at me and his eyes are back to the delicious brown color they usually are. I glance at Laura who's standing by the wall holding her neck staring at us. She looks over at Steve who shoots her a disapproving look and sighs. Then I can see she takes a deep breath. Fuck no...

“WHAT THE HELL! This is fucking unreal, you pay people to abuse me now?” her voice is high pitched but with a hint of nerves

I feel Eddie tensing up and gritting his teeth. He lets go of me and spins around. I grab him

“No Ed, please. Leave her... It's 2 days then we never have to see her again. Just... I agree with Steve this devil can't be tamed. She's never going to be anything but a bitch to me. You can kick her ass from here in to next month and she still won't believe I'm not paying you. Let her think so, I don't care” I'm staring back at her “let's just have a good time with mum and Henry and this one can sit in her corner sulking”

“THIS ONE? So your sister is worth less than some asshole you pay to...” *SMACK* I strike the side of her face with every bit of frustration I have in me

“I have no sister” I growl and then I leave the room, hearing Eddie and Steve gasping then Eddie comes running to catch up with me

“Jesus babe, that was one hell of a slap... I'm so proud” Eddie chuckles and grabs my hand stopping me from stomping down the stairs. He pulls me in and gives me a deep kiss “are you ok though?” he says as he lets me go

“That was...cathartic” I say “never thought slapping my sister would make me feel alive” I look back at the door to the guest room “Where's Steve?”

“I don't think he wants to leave his stuff alone with...that. He'll be right down once she leaves the room” Eddie says and we head down the stairs again. I see mum at the bottom looking worried

“What...did she do?” she says

“She was being Laura” I tell her

“Oh...”

“Well... I guess she'll come crying about it later. I smacked the shit out of her and told her I haven't got a sister any more” I say “after Eddie pinned her to the wall and told her he'd end her if she said another word....which she of course did. She'll be fine once her fragile ego has healed so I give it 10 minutes” I scoff

“You...hit your...her?” mum sounds surprised

“Well... 'bout time someone did wouldn't you say?” we hear Henrys voice from the door to the kitchen. I think I love this man!

“Well...yeah” now I need to sit down, mum agreed...

“What the hell has happened to you?” I say unable to stop myself

“Well... I've tried to change. I was” she clears her throat “court ordered to therapy after I threw a fit in the grocery store.” she blushes

“You what now?” I say and Eddie is slowly trying to give us space “No Eddie, stay” I say and I take his hand

“Yeah, not my proudest moment... But I met Henry, so it wasn't a complete waste. I...haven't been talking to her for almost 2 months now. My therapist made me see just how venomous she is...and that she's been turning me against you” I see tears in my mums eyes, I don't think I've ever seen her show emotion like this. I am not entirely sure I trust this...

“Well...yeah” is all I have to say to her “the two of you have made my life horrible”

We hear stomping from upstairs and the sound of a door slamming shut.

“Well I guess we can count her out of dinner then” Henry smirks

“Not a fan?” Eddie asks

“Not even a little...” Henry scoffs

Steve comes down the stairs and he whispers something in Eddies ear, his eyebrows shoot up. “You sure?” he asks Steve and he nods in response

“What?” I say

“I'll tell you later” Steve says “well Ruth, sorry about that. Can I help you in any way?” he turns on the Harrington charm and my mother is lost

“Oh...well...thank you Steve. You can open the wine if you don't mind?” she blushes and giggles at him

“Passed over by a 20 something guy...I'll be damned” Henry chuckles

“Oh hush now...” mum smiles at him. We head in to the living room and sit down making conversation with Henry. He really is a very nice man. So far from any guy my mum's dated before.

“So... Were you also in therapy when you met mum?” I have to ask

“Well, no. I worked in her therapists office, at the front desk. I fell for her the instant she walked through the doors her very first appointment” he smiles widely

“Is that...ok?” Eddie asks with a tentative tone

“No, it was frowned upon when they found out. Since then I've switched workplace so that it won't cause a problem. I'd rather be with your mum than keep that job” he looks at me “I do love her Kat, and I hope you and I will get along. Seeing as I don't...with that” he makes a gesture towards the second floor. I laugh

“Well, very few get along with that so don't worry. I think you and I will be just fine, you seem like a real good guy” I smile at him

“Great! I'm actually from Indiana myself, so I would love to take your mum on a trip there. Maybe visit you also?” he says

“Sure, that sounds good. She needs to get away for a bit I think” I tell him and Eddie agrees. We hear movement from upstairs, a door opens. I can feel my whole body tense up, no more. Eddie puts his arm around me and pulls me closer whispering in my ear

“Babe, relax. I think the worst is over an done with” he looks at me with a smirk

“What do you know?” I ask and Henry looks at him with the same question in mind

“Not my thing to say” he tells us and then he says nothing more

Mum and Steve have finished in the kitchen and call for us to come in to the dining room. We head in there and we see a very grumpy Laura at the table already. Mum is looking at her nervously and Henry draws a deep breath beside me. My mind is racing, I don't want to do this...couldn't she just have stayed upstairs until dinner was over.

We start eating, the conversation isn't as natural any more. Seeing as we have the devil at the table...she's glaring at us all. Not saying a word just mean looks and small snorts at things we say. When we all grab seconds of the delicious meal mum made for us Laura can't restrain herself

“Really Kat? Like you would need seconds” my heart sinks and I put the fork down instantly. I can feel Eddie vibrating next to me and his breathing is strained. Then I notice Steve in the corner of my eye, holding his hand to his chest with one finger up. Patting his chest slowly with it looking straight at Laura. Her eyes widen, then she looks down.

“Ahem...sorry...that was mean of me” she says and I damn near pass out. So does mum and Henry. We all stare at her... what in the actual hell?

“Uhm...yeah...that's nothing new?” I say. She looks at me anger in her eyes, I can tell she NEEDS to say something but she's fighting the urge so hard. What did Steve say to her before he left her upstairs?

A deep sigh escapes her “Well...still it was rude of me. Eat as much as you like” she says through gritted teeth

I look at Eddie who has tears in his eyes from trying SO hard not to laugh at her. I make a questioning look and he shakes his head. “Later” he whispers

Dinner is pleasant enough, the atmosphere is weird after that, whatever that was. Everyone is just waiting for Lauras next meltdown. But when were all done and mum gets up to clean the table. I see Steve staring at Laura who blushes and gets up hastily “I can do it mum. You sit” she says and starts clearing the table

“You...can? Are you sick?” Mum and Henry are staring at her in disbelief and so am I. Laura is 21 years old and has NEVER ever help clear the table after a meal. Something is really weird here

Laura laughs a strained laugh “No...just thought I'd help” then she scurries off in to the kitchen

“So aliens DO exist?” Henry says with a chuckle “either that or she's hit her head real hard or she's in dire need of an exorcist. I mean is everyone seeing this or am I dreaming?”

“Maybe she just...realised how she's been behaving?” Steve says a little TOO innocent

“No hell no, this is somehow your doing Harrington. I don't know what you did or said but fuck it...keep doing it” I say and I glare at him “but just so you know...either you move here or you take her home with you. I am not taking her back the way she was before” I point my finger at him and mum nods in agreement

“Me? I've done nothing...” he says and not a single soul in the greater Seattle area believes him

“Yeah right, and I'm the god damn pope...” I say and Eddie breaks down next to me

“I've always wanted to know what the pope has under that robe of his” he laughs “guess I'll finally find out” I poke him in the side

“Idiot” I laugh

The rest of the night is ok, we're still all walking on eggshells around Laura just waiting for her to snap. We can see she wants to but she's keeping a very close eye on Steve all the time. Then it hits me... something Eddie and I were talking about after I called him master that first time. Dominance... Steve is being dominant with her...so my sister is a submissive person? Eddie had explained some things he knew of the practice to me, he said he learned some of it from a friend. I think I know the friend... But Laura...a sub? Makes absolutely no sense to me. But it's the only thing I can think of...

Later when were in bed I turn to Eddie

“So he's being a Dom with her isn't he?” I say

“You figured it out did you? I thought you might, seeing as we talked about it. But yeah, that's what he whispered to me 'this is a mean one but I think I can break her' is what he said. Say...has she EVER been nice to you? Like even if it's just been for a short while?” he asks and I have to think long and hard

“Yeah...when you mention it. There's been like...maybe twice she's been civil with us” I say

“Bet that's been when she's had some sort of a relationship?” Eddie's smiling now

“Yeah...maybe...yeah I think so” I say

“Right...probably when she's been with a guy who could give her what she wants. Domination... She's probably wanting it so bad but can't find it and that frustration is what's fuelling her anger. And that anger is then directed towards the more submissive one in her life...you. Only you're submissive in another way than her. Yours isn't a lifestyle it's what she's made you. Fuck...of course it took Steve to realize this. I would have never figured it out” he chuckles. It all makes sense, from what little Eddie told me about it. She needs someone to control her in every way or she'll just lash out. At me...because I'm easy to break.

“BITCH” I can't help it “so she's been having all these pent up needs and taking that out on me...from way back when she started dating guys basically...that's when she became real mean”

“Guess so...it's no excuse by any means. But maybe...just maybe Steve can make her a little bit better?” Eddie looks at me

“Oh I doubt that... That demon isn't tameable...” I say

“Give Harrington some time, you'll see” Eddie smiles and pulls me in to his chest “Well no matter what I still love you so much. AND I was fucking turned on when you bitch slapped the crap outta her” he giggles and kisses my neck “My babe is such a badass” he mumbles letting his tongue play on the soft skin under my ear. I gasp and grab his hair

“Yeah? Making you all hot and bothered when I show some force does it?” I moan as Eddies hands have found my breasts kneading them and pinching my nipples

“Oh yeah, you looked so fucking hot” his kisses have moved down my neck to my breasts kissing the nipples, tugging softly at one of them with his teeth. I grab him and I flip us over, making me straddled over his hips looking down at him. I start moving my hips against his hardening cock.

“Yeah? Too bad Steve's taming her then...” I smirk, rolling my hips against Eddies bare skin. His hands trail my hips and up towards my breasts again. I smack them away “Nope... No touching until I say so...keep em above your head” I say with a stern voice, Eddies eyes widen and turn pitch black as he exhales loudly and slowly raise his hands above his head.

“Good boy...keep em there no matter what” I say giving him a small wink. His eyes are locked on me. I sit back a little so he can see my pussy clearly. I'm already soaking wet and he can tell by the dark patch on my underwear. I stand up over him and I slowly start moving my body to an imaginary song in my head. I let my hands play all over my body until they reach my panties. I grab the lining with my thumbs and I ease them down slowly. I step out of them and I take a small step up towards Eddies face, I let my hands slide in between my thighs and I spread myself open for him. Letting my fingers run through the slick of my folds and circle my clit.

“Fuuuuuck babe... I wanna help, can I help please” he moans

“Nah...you can watch.... Any touching and I stop and we sleep” I say locking eyes with him, Eddie sighs and nods. I back up a little and I kneel down again, sitting myself down on his cock that's twitching like mad underneath his boxers. I rub myself over him, kneading my breasts while I do. Eddies eyes are nearly popping out of his skull. I stop and I look at him “Now I'm going to rub myself all over this delicious cock until I gush all over it...as for you...you can't cum until I say so” I wink and Eddie whimpers in response. I pull down his boxers, his cock slaps up against his stomach. I sit myself down on his cock letting it slide in between my folds. I rub all down the length of it, moaning as the head rubs over my clit. At first I go slow, making sure to lean back so Eddie gets a clear view of it. His eyes are black and he looks almost crazy squirming beneath me. Once he moved his arms down towards me but I stopped and I shot him a meaning smile and glanced up at his arms. He quickly pulled them up again and secured them under his head.

“Sorry babe, didn't mean to” he groans “you just look so amazing, and you feel soooo good”

“Mmmm...nothing compared to how you feel rubbing against my wet pussy. Gonna make myself cum soon rubbing my clit on your cock” I pant as I pick up the pace of my hip movements. I can feel it in my stomach, I'm about to come undone all over Eddie I'm rubbing myself faster and faster against his hard cock making him cry out in desperation

“Fuuuuck...can I please put it in, god I wanna feel you cum around me...please babe” he's whining now.

“No....gonna cum and then I'm gonna smear my juices all over your shaft...then maybe you can fuck me” I moan locking eyes with him as I feel myself growing closer and closer to orgasm. Eddies hands are tangled in his hair, grabbing handfuls of locks just holding on for dear life so he won't accidentally touch me and ruin this. I smile at him and I grab my breasts and I start playing with them as I feel the tension rising and suddenly I snap and I cry out his name as my pussy gushes with more wetness all over Eddies cock “Fuuuuuck Ed...God that felt amazing” I pant and I can tell he's going crazy underneath me waiting for the all clear to touch me. I lean forward so my breasts land on his chest and my pussy hovers just above his cock. The head is just at the entrance, one move and he'll slide right in. He's shivering under me, moaning and breathing deep. “Wanna fuck me handsome? You were such a good boy for me, come on, do what you want to me” I whisper and in one instant Eddie's arms are wrapped around me, his lips pressed against mine and his cock shoved deep inside me. The sound he makes is pure need, a guttural deep growl. He sits me up on his lap and then tips me on my back, not letting go or sliding out for a second. Then he begins fucking me with a desperation I've never felt before

“Fucking hell that was the hottest thing ever...God I thought I was going to explode... I love you so fucking much” he's groaning in my ear as he plunges in me with deep thrusts “please babe, cum on me again, I wanna feel that squeeze” he moans in my ear before he slides his hand down and start working my clit with his fingers. “I'm so close now...fuck babe....such an amazing pussy” the knot in my stomach is growing and I can feel another orgasm coming in fast, the way he sounds and the way his cock slides against the perfect spot inside of me. It hits like a ton of bricks again and I once more cry out Eddies name and I hear him moaning my name as he follows me close filling me up with his warm seed. We're lying there panting, Eddie slumped down on my chest.

“Fuck I love you Kat” he whispers

“Yeah? Well not as much as I love you” I whisper back and I place a kiss on the side of his neck making him shiver. He rolls of to the side and gets out of the bed and goes to the bathroom and gets a warm towel to clean us off with. Then he crawls back beside me and wraps me in his arms

“Well, if Harrington could do that to your sister she might become tolerable” he chuckles and I shake my head

“Eww Ed, I DO NOT want to think about Steve fucking my sister...however pleasant it would make her” I giggle. We joke around about this for a little while and then we settle in and fall asleep.

The next morning as I head down to the kitchen I'm met by my sister, alone... I flinch. What's going to happen now... I have no one with me. I glance at her

“Good morning Kat... Coffee?” she says and I nearly drop dead

“Ehm...sure. Thanks...” I'm thinking there has to be a catch. She hands me a cup and sits down at the table flipping through the newspaper. I stare at her, sipping on the coffee...well it doesn't taste poisoned... I sit down on the edge of the seat ready to bolt any second. But she just continues reading the paper and drinking her coffee. I relax a little and I look put the window for a bit. I kinda missed the view from mums kitchen, that being pretty much the only thing I've missed about this place

“So... Last night” Lauras voice cuts the silence and I jerk “I was...out of line”

“Aren't you always?” she may be civil but I haven't gotten there yet myself

“Perhaps... I don't hate you, you are my sister after all. I do understand if you hate me...I'm not stupid, I've given you no reason to like me. Steve...ehmmm...well we had a conversation last night after I yelled at you in the guest room. He.... I....”

“You're a submissive person aren't you, and he's a dominant? He's pretty much what you've been looking for? What you need to feel at ease?” I ask and I look at her with interest, how will this be accepted. Me knowing

“Oh...you know... I didn't think you...understood such things” she says, straightening herself a little and I can hear she's doing her best not to snap

“Well... We talked about the practice a few weeks ago me and Ed, just last night I got it...what happened between you and Steve. So I asked Eddie if I was right in my suspicions”

“Well aren't you all well informed these days” she snarls, there she is...

“I wouldn't say well informed...just... me and Eddie have a very open discussion about sex. I can ask him anything and he'll answer to the best of his abilities” I say wanting to be honest with her

“So you got yourself a manwhore that's been around I see... Well as long as he's not on the payroll I guess I can be supportive” she snaps

“Now now” I tut at her “what would Steve say about this change in attitude?”

“Don't fucking push it you have NO idea what you're talking about. Fucking wallflower, that longhaired freak up there probably took your virginity then filled your head with all sorts of crap so he can mould you in to his own sex toy” her temper is searing now but mine isn't far behind

“DON'T FUCKING TALK ABOUT SHIT YOU HAVE NO CLUE ABOUT LAURA! I fucking lost my virginity when I was 19, I was fucking molested and abused by some asshole at a party YOU made me drive you to so don't fucking talk about me like you know anything about what I've been through. I wished I had a sister back then to talk to but all I had was you, a selfish mean fucking bitch demon in sheep's clothing. Don't for a second think that I'll like you any better just because Steve can be what you need...you're still the devil spawn that made my life a living hell for so many years. What...cat's got your tongue? No snappish remark about how I had I coming because I was shy? No? Nothing?” I stare at her and I can feel how crazy I look right now, I've never ever raised my voice like this at her. She's pale as a ghost and all she can do is swallow audibly “What Laura? No comment? Not a single snarky thing to say about your sister being fucking raped at at party you made her go to? You know what...go straight to hell and stay there” I get up and I storm out of the kitchen leaving her there, tears are flowing down my cheeks as I storm up the stairs and in to my bed room. I throw myself on the bed and I cry so hard.

“What the hell happened? I'm snoozing and all of a sudden here you are, a fucking crying mess? What did she do? Babe...talk to me” I forgot about Eddie in my emotional state

“She...and... I... I yelled, I told her about the ass at the party and I told her to go to heeeeell” I say between sobs. Eddie pulls me in close to him, rocking me and kissing my head as I let the tears fall.

“There, there babe it'll be ok. You wanna go home? We can rent a car or get a flight and Steve can pick up the girls tomorrow and drive my boss's car back” he's stroking my head

“No, we still have mums birthday dinner tonight. She's been great, and I really like Henry. But if Laura stays I'll go to Casey's until tomorrow. I'm sorry I'm done now” I sob

“I get that, but I can't let you go alone... I don't wanna be here without you” Eddie kisses me

“She just made me so angry... And once again she was attacking you. Now you're a manwhore wanting to keep me as a sex toy because I'm so innocent you can teach me all the things you want to use me for” I smile up at him through my tears

“Me use you? Yeah right...like last night you mean...I felt I had a lot of power there” he smiles and gives me a kiss

Suddenly we hear commotion downstairs, shouting and furniture scraping against the floor. I look at Eddie confused and we get out of bed and head out into the hallway. I hear my mums voice booming from downstairs

“I WANT YOU OUT OF THIS HOUSE! I heard Kat... I heard what she said happened to her, all because YOU needed a ride. I'm as much to blame for making her take you... But you were supposed to have her back. Don't you fucking roll your eyes at me missy... Get your things and get out before I throw you out. I have no doubt there is a, what did you call him? A longhaired freak upstairs with no hesitation if I ask him to help me” I look at Eddie and he's as shocked as I am. Steve appears behind us

“What the hell happened this morning?” he asks

“All hell broke lose apparently... I think your services aren't needed any more. At least not to help this one” Eddie smirks at him

“Yeah? Make friends?” Steve says

“Does it sound like it?” I say with a dark tone

“Oh... She went off on you again? Should I...”

“I don't care if you wanna keep up this thing with her but don't ever bring her near me again” I say and I look at Steve “not EVER, you hear me? She can go back to whatever hell she crawled out of and stay there. I am done now”

“Noted... It was just a little fun, I wasn't planning on it becoming anything. I was just doing it to try and help you Kat. I would never chose her over our friendship. She can find someone else to dominate her the way she wants to. We leaving or...?” he hugs me

“Nah, I wanna celebrate mums birthday. But as I told Eddie, if Laura stays I'm going to Casey's until dinner. And then I think I'll crash on her couch until we leave in the morning” I say

“Sounds like you won't have to go anywhere” Eddie says and pulls me to the side as a furious Laura stomps up the stairs not looking at anyone of us. She gets her things and she storms down the stairs again and out the door.

“Good fucking riddance I say” Eddie shakes his head and goes back in to the bed room to get dressed. I stay in the hallway with Steve

“Are you disappointed it didn't go further? I sorta figured out what was going on last night...” I ask him

“Nah, I mean it just ONE side to me. And I have a feeling your sister would be more of a brat than I would be able to deal with...don't worry sweetie. I'll be fine, it was a fun night though” he winks at me

“OH...yikes...well...ok then. Not just us then” I say and I giggle

“Nope...sorry” he smiles

“It's ok...just never mention it again” I say

“Deal” he laughs

“What are you 2 laughing about?” Eddie comes back out to us

“Oh you know... Steve using my sister as his personal cock warmer last night” I say and laugh so hard tears roll down my face and Steve looks like he wants to crawl under the carpet and hide

“Well, good boy Harrington!” Eddie high fives him and Steve blushes even more

“Fuck the two of you... This isn't going to die down is it?”

“When we tell Buckley you mean? No it'll live in infamy” Eddie roars with laughter

“Fuuuuck” Steve turns and heads back in to the guest room leaving us laughing in the hallway.

The atmosphere in the house changes drastically when Laura left. We all have an amazing day, Casey and Robin come over for lunch and my mum actually apologizes to Casey for any and all bad things she's said to her over the years. Casey drags me to the side and asks me if my mum's dying or something. I laugh and tell her that apparently being court ordered therapy for throwing a fit in a grocery store does wonders to people. Casey has to hold the railing to the stairs to keep from falling down laughing. I tell her about the incident this morning and she hugs me and tells me it's probably for the best.

Mums dinner is a success, much thanks to me and my cooking. Henry and Eddie seem to have made it a competition to see which one of them can compliment me the most in one sentence. I don't think I've ever felt this good in this house, I tell mum this as we're in the kitchen cleaning up after dinner. We tried telling her no, she shouldn't have to on her birthday but the woman wouldn't listen to reason.

“I'm so sorry I never listened to you back then Kat. I kinda suspected something had happened to you but...well...yeah” she looks ashamed

“Mum... Even if you'd asked I don't think I was ready to tell you anyway. I wasn't planning on telling now either it just came out...in anger” I say and I take her hand

“But...did he force you, hurt you?” she's pale as a ghost

“Force no... he fooled me though. I thought he liked me so I gave in....then he turned heavy-handed on me. It is what it is mum. It can't be undone. It's all in the past now, Eddie's helping me heal” I say

“I like him, he's a real gem sweetheart” she smiles

“He is... So is Henry mum, I really like him” I tell her

“Oh, good” she smiles and I look at her

“He's asked you something hasn't he” I smirk

“Well...yeah...he did. This afternoon when you were all in the living room talking. He cornered me in the kitchen” she says and takes out a box showing me a beautiful ring

“Oh mum, that's gorgeous. I'm happy for you... I'm not saying all is forgotten, but we've made progress haven't we?” I say hugging her

“I hope we have Kat, I want you here for my wedding... I want you all here, well almost all of you”

“We'll be here I promise. Just let me know the date so I can see if someone can mind the store for me”

“Yeah how's that working out for you? Have you spoken to....Stella? How is she doing?”

“It's great mum, right up my alley. I spoke to her last week, she was beginning her tour of Asia. So she's got quite some time left on her trip, but she sounded like she's having the time of her life.”

“If you don't mind...could you have her call me. If she has the possibility... I wanna pick her brain on a destination for our honeymoon” Mum smiles at me

“I'll tell her, not sure how often she can call but the next time I speak to her I'll ask” I say

The next morning we're all up early. We want to get going as soon as possible so we won't get home to late the following day. Mum hugs me so tight and cries a little as we leave. It feels strange leaving again, but also it feels like this chapter is finally done. And if I'm lucky Laura actually IS gone from my life... I hope. I'm so done with her... I do hope for mum though that they can mend some of their relationship. But who knows, maybe she'll be at the wedding maybe she won't makes no difference to me.

We arrive in Hawkins the next day, late in the afternoon and as we go to get my car from Eddies boss I sigh deeply

“We're home Ed... We're finally home”

“Yeah we are...” he sounds confused

“No I mean... This is home, Seattle never felt as good as this does. It never felt like home, not even now coming back did it feel like a home I left. I felt like... I don't know a place I visited when I was younger?” I try to explain what I'm feeling but I'm not sure I'm making sense

“I get it, I think. I mean this is the only home I've ever had so... But it feels better now that I'm sharing it with you that's for sure” Eddie smiles at me “So how you feeling about your sister? Really?” he asks

“Relieved, annoyed, angry...but most of all so fucking done” I say

“So, you're ok with the outcome?”

“I never thought we'd get to have a good relationship in any scenario. Even if Steve would have tamed her and turned her in to a purring kitten would I have been at ease around her. She ruined this all on her own and I'm ok with her being gone” I say

“Well as I said... Good fucking riddance” Eddie beams

Life was good before this trip, life is better now! I talk to mum once a week, her therapist had her write down all the things she knows she's done to me and then he wanted her to talk to me about them, hear my side of it and really listen to ME when I tell her how it effected me. It's just as good for her as it is for me I think. We cry a lot, and we laugh. There is hope for a good mother daughter bond in the future... Laura hasn't been in touch with either one of us.

So yeah, bringing the hired help with me was a good call... Maybe I ought to give him a raise...or maybe a ring...

[neowinestainedress]

hii honey! i missed you and your long asks so much alskjs. i always feel bad when you stay up late for me but it also makes me so happy cause what do you mean you couldn’t stop reading?

don’t worry about it i really love writing this long asks cause i need you to feel appreciated because of your amazing writing i seriously mean it and i won’t stop saying it!!

being her would solve all of my problems (even for just one day, just the time to transfer the money, taylor, please)

exactlyyy like i only need a couple of hours as her so i can transfer me SOME of her money (not even half of her fortune i swear)

re-reading this now is so funny cause he really thought he was a genius for that adsjldslk

he really thought he did something 😭 and this reminded me of a saying/meme?/phrase we have in spanish that it’s the opposite of “you ate” which literally translates to “i wanted to inform you that you did not actually eat, in fact, you fasted, you starved yourself, your job was to kill it and you fixed it, you did not serve but you removed the plate” idk why but it is soo funny to me especially because the boy who created this had an argentinian accent and that makes it sound so much more funny (to me at least)

you going insane over him is such a mood 😔

no but did you see the clip from the fan meeting?? i am still losing my mind over it like he’s so insane for it….. (https://x.com/hyeokfs/status/1819689552992420004?s=46&t=pSPb58cQQjSKbyQAmjRu7w)

THIS! but also I was good, they didn’t have a last kiss

THANK GOD or i wouldn’t be alive rn

he’s such a loser and he has been since day one, i love when i write him like this

and i LOVE YOU for writing him like that

i didn’t know this song but you’re right this IS his song omg (and it’s so good)

IM BEGGING YOU you NEED to listen to taemin i swear he is so good i’ve been obsessed with him for years when i tell you he was my only kpop artist in my 2020 spotify wrapped i DO NOT play about him. (never gonna dance again pt. 2 changed my life forever)

renjun was my favorite character to write i need him as a best friend (special mention to yeri, my other evil baby)

yes they were like the best characters ever because they were super funny my #bestfriends

PART 2

“all i do is sit and think about you,” YOU GOT HIS ASS

no but you know what’s crazier? haechan actually recommended this song back in 2019 sjdhsjxjsk

WAIT but why does crazier fits them so well especially the start “I'd never gone with the wind, just let it flow, let it take me where it wants to go,'Til you opened the door And there's so much more, I'd never seen it before.I was trying to fly, but I couldn't find wings, but you came along and you changed everything” and “Baby, you showed me what living is for, I don't wanna hide anymore.”

STOP they are so cute and the fact that crazier fits them so well i love them so muchhh my comfort couple<3

the way I was tempted to put “so high school” in the playlist…

you should have!! it fits them soooo well

they truly are the perfect example of “dumb and dumber” but i loved writing them like this. it could’ve been a mess if they dragged it for too long or if I made it end up in unnecessary angst but i’m pretty sure i wrote the right amount of tension and “not knowing what we are” without making a mess.

YES your writing was perfect cause you “dragged” it long enough to be fun and interesting it was the perfect length to develop and show their relationship. And the "not knowing what we are without making a mess" part SO TRUE

he IS an icon and he IS the moment

we fawking miss you renjun 😭☹️😔😞😢💔

perhaps you could share…

you see, i kinda want him only for me… and it’s so crazy because i’ve been a fan of nct (haechan biased) since 2017 and i’ve always found him soo pretty and handsome but lately i look at him and he literally gets even more pretty everyday this is NOT fair i want him so bad

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK I NEED TO KNOW IF AT LEAST ONE PERSON GOT IT OR I’LL GO INSANE

WERE YOU HINTING #NOREN??? i could feel the tension between them….

i fear this were the war flashback from the sour universe (tbh hits different too, but i don’t know if you read that) and now you fear when you can smell the angst around the corner lmao

the other day i was kinda sad cause i found some old stuff and i reread sour and omgg why do have to be such a good writer i was about to throw up and then kill myself because of the anger and sadness and about hits different i read the first part (cause i wasn’t active here when you published the second part) so i just need to finish the review cause i started it back then but first i need to reread it cause i don’t remember too much and i think i will read it tonight so expect to see my review of the first part soon!!! (UPDATE of when i'm editing this: i already read the first part i just need to finish the review and let me tell you one thing... YOU ARE FUCKING CRZY REBS)

i killed you 5 times already 😔

that’s when you know you’re a good writer… if i don’t want to kill myself it means your story didn’t make me feel anything

does it show this is a kink of mine? (what is the non-sexual term for kink please i don’t know)

SJDHSJXSJ YOU’RE SO REAL BECAUSE I LITERALLY LOVE THAT TOO (i don’t know how to call it maybe a liking??)

THANK GOD THEY’RE A CONSTAST STAR IN EACH OTHER’S HEART THO

OMG YES YOU’RE SO RIGHT

I’m happy you liked this cause i wasn’t sure of putting this part til like the day before i posted it jajsoasioa i know people don’t usually go crazy for this but i HAD TO make a call back to what inspired this story.

no because i always love when you include lyrics of the songs that inspired the story like in sour but i wasn’t expecting it here so this surprised me and i loved it!!! you made the correct decision

right? when they’re not at each other’s throat they work too well to not be an iconic duo, the music industry needs them. i also love the idea of that being the time where they can be more competitive, you know? i don’t know why i didn’t write that but she still writes songs so you can imagine their writing sessions didn’t change much.

i think the idea of them not losing their competitive side is so important and cute to see cause that’s how they were and how they met and how their story started so them still competing in a healthy and fun way is such a smart and lovely thing to keep!

YOU COULD’VE WAITED FOR THE REVIEW NOW I FEEL SO BAD 😭 but you know i love your comments they make me so, so happy so a bigger thank you for writing all of this when you should’ve been asleep!

noo don’t worry about it i really mean it when i say i enjoy your stories they make me feel so many things and they are super fun so they are definitely worth to stay until late🩷

honey thank YOU for sending that to me. i always wanted to write an academic rivals to lovers and you gave me the chance to write this. and i’m happy you’re happy with how i wrote it cause even if it wasn’t a request i’m always so nervous about everything i write lol. yeah adding angst would’ve been useless and i love adding angst but this time just wasn’t right. i really loved writing this so reading all of this makes me SOOOO happy i genuinely can’t explain it (if it makes you feel better i also think about all of them a lot, i hope renjun and jeno didn’t kill each other yet)  

omg i also love the academics to rivals to lovers (i love the enemies to lovers trope so anything similar/related i will eat it up). nono and i can’t say it enough but i really do love your writing every time i see a new update from you i get soooo happy!!! also pray for jeno 😔🙏🏼

tbh i don’t have many good news unfortunately BUT i saw taylor live twice!!! this is literally the only highlight of my year lol because i haven’t been very lucky when it comes to work (i basically only work for free every now and then for “experience” so yeah 💀) or my love life. what about you?

oh noo :( wishing things to get better for you for the second half of the year<3 and omgg two times i’m so happy for you!!! i also saw taylor last year but i had to travel to argentina (i don’t remember if i had said it before but i’m from chile) i had SO much fun i was truly happy to see her finally after waiting for more than 12 years and honestly my show was the best one (at that time) since she sang a remix for the first time (is it over now + out of the woods) and also travis was there so she changed the lyrics to karma is the guy on the chiefs coming straight home to me. the screams for that part were INSANE and i loved every second of the concert i miss her so bad and i wish she would come to chile too:(

and about my life… here’s a little summary:

i broke up with the guy i told you about (cause i liked him but not as much as he liked me so i felt like it was unfair for him)

my thesis traumatized me so bad cause my guide teacher left me ALONE i asked him to reunite several times and he never replied so i literally did it all by myself without any revision until i finished it

i defended my thesis so i officially graduated back in february

in january i sprained my ankle SO bad that i couldn’t walk for almost two months so i spent my birthday in bed and i had to defend my thesis sitting sjdjsk

i no longer have a best friend. in fact, today is her birthday and i decided that i would wish her a happy birthday and it will also be the last time she hears from me so i’ve been kinda bummed because of that (since last year actually but that’s a long story…)

i’m going to the dream show 3 in 30 more days so i’m so excited since i bought vip + soundcheck!!

i never stopped working at the place i did my last internship so they hired me but they’re underpaying me (they’re paying me about €590… so yeah that also has me a little bit sad? tired? bored?) but i know it is my first job and lots of my friend haven’t even found a job since we graduated but idk i think it's too little for the amount of work and do + one girl who doesn't know anything earns more than twice than me just because she's friends with our superior

since i have a job i will have to call in sick the day before the dream concert so guess they’ll pay me even less this month because i will miss 3 days 😭

i’m going to see a.c.e and i bought a fan sign so i’m also super excited about that (but not my wallet rip) !!!

my graduation ceremony is in two more weeks so i’m also happy about it since i'm graduating with honors and my outfit is arriving tomorrow (and i bought the sabrina shoes? the ankle ones so pray that i don’t trip and embarrass myself)

and i think that’s all about my life sorry for the tmi about everything 😭

it’s alright i loved the ones you wrote here. also i might have to hire you for the future fics cause you think of so many good and fitting songs, they’re always perfect. sometimes i struggle and i always end up with the same ones

haha is my very useless talent but i get you sometimes i end up thinking of the same one the whole time i read a story

also while i was reading your answer i realized i had so many grammar mistakes that’s so embarrassing i should not write english texts when it’s so late and i’m sleepy so i apologize for that (it is literally 2:50 am right now) 😭

and i thinks that’s all for now, have an amazing week rebs, ily, read you very soon (as i said, by the time i edited this i already finished reading hits different part one and i'm sorry in advance...)🩷

and i will never stop thanking you!!

exactlyyy like i only need a couple of hours as her so i can transfer me SOME of her money (not even half of her fortune i swear)

no for real, i don’t need much, she probably won’t even notice something is gone

he really thought he did something 😭 and this reminded me of a saying/meme?/phrase we have in spanish that it’s the opposite of “you ate” which literally translates to “i wanted to inform you that you did not actually eat, in fact, you fasted, you starved yourself, your job was to kill it and you fixed it, you did not serve but you removed the plate” idk why but it is soo funny to me especially because the boy who created this had an argentinian accent and that makes it sound so much more funny (to me at least)

I FOUND THE VIDEO AND I’M SCREAMING i will start using this from now on

no but did you see the clip from the fan meeting?? i am still losing my mind over it like he’s so insane for it….. (https://x.com/hyeokfs/status/1819689552992420004?s=46&t=pSPb58cQQjSKbyQAmjRu7w)

he looked unreal every video that would pop up in my tl would make me want to jump off a cliff

and i LOVE YOU for writing him like that

we came a long way from sour!haechan!!! (i still remember when someone asked me if i would ever write him "not like an asshole" lmaoooo)

IM BEGGING YOU you NEED to listen to taemin i swear he is so good i’ve been obsessed with him for years when i tell you he was my only kpop artist in my 2020 spotify wrapped i DO NOT play about him. (never gonna dance again pt. 2 changed my life forever)

taemin’s like that one idol i don’t stan but love, yk? i know some of his songs, and i know he’s such a good performer but i never really got into his music. i will listen to it then!!!

PART 2

no but you know what’s crazier? haechan actually recommended this song back in 2019 sjdhsjxjsk

I DIDN’T REMEMBER IT OMG SMALSKAL

STOP they are so cute and the fact that crazier fits them so well i love them so muchhh my comfort couple<3

they really are... i will miss them a lot

the way I was tempted to put “so high school” in the playlist… you should have!! it fits them soooo well

i feel like i already put too much taylor swift everywhere, i don’t know for how long nctzens can tolerate this

YES your writing was perfect cause you “dragged” it long enough to be fun and interesting it was the perfect length to develop and show their relationship. And the "not knowing what we are without making a mess" part SO TRUE

this makes me happy cause these dynamics are always tricky to write so i’m glad i didn’t make a mess

we fawking miss you renjun 😭☹️😔😞😢💔

i hope he’s doing okay and i wish the worst suffering on everyone who caused him pain

you see, i kinda want him only for me… and it’s so crazy because i’ve been a fan of nct (haechan biased) since 2017 and i’ve always found him soo pretty and handsome but lately i look at him and he literally gets even more pretty everyday this is NOT fair i want him so bad

no but fr he gets prettier each day, what does he drink and eat and he doesn’t even sleep or rest how is this fair

WERE YOU HINTING #NOREN??? i could feel the tension between them….

YES I WAS AJKSIOSA my babies

the other day i was kinda sad cause i found some old stuff and i reread sour and omgg why do have to be such a good writer i was about to throw up and then kill myself because of the anger and sadness and about hits different i read the first part (cause i wasn’t active here when you published the second part) so i just need to finish the review cause i started it back then but first i need to reread it cause i don’t remember too much and i think i will read it tonight so expect to see my review of the first part soon!!! (UPDATE of when i'm editing this: i already read the first part i just need to finish the review and let me tell you one thing... YOU ARE FUCKING CRZY REBS)

i’m honestly surprised i didn’t receive death threats in the asks after the sour series cause NOBODY was happy about anything in that story lmao. the second part was a mess cause tumblr sabotaged the post lmao you probably wouldn’t have seen it anyway. WHY AT NIGHT OMG STOPPPPP i don’t care you love my stories so much GET YOUR WELL DESERVED SLEEP (oh okay i hope you didn’t stay up to finish the review...)

that’s when you know you’re a good writer… if i don’t want to kill myself it means your story didn’t make me feel anything

right, i like this point of view

SJDHSJXSJ YOU’RE SO REAL BECAUSE I LITERALLY LOVE THAT TOO (i don’t know how to call it maybe a liking??)

i thought about and i think it’s probably just a soft spot, right? well i love that shit if somebody doesn’t do it for me RIGHT NOW i will die

no because i always love when you include lyrics of the songs that inspired the story like in sour but i wasn’t expecting it here so this surprised me and i loved it!!! you made the correct decision

i ate and left no crumbs (unlike donghyuck)

i think the idea of them not losing their competitive side is so important and cute to see cause that’s how they were and how they met and how their story started so them still competing in a healthy and fun way is such a smart and lovely thing to keep!

as a lover of this trope, i hate when they just stop, when it’s enemies to lovers it makes a bit more sense but if they have a certain personality and ARE competitive that’s not going to go away babe, just make it healthy and you’re done.

noo don’t worry about it i really mean it when i say i enjoy your stories they make me feel so many things and they are super fun so they are definitely worth to stay until late🩷

crying, shaking, throwing up, i love you

omg i also love the academics to rivals to lovers (i love the enemies to lovers trope so anything similar/related i will eat it up). nono and i can’t say it enough but i really do love your writing every time i see a new update from you i get soooo happy!!! also pray for jeno 😔🙏🏼

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

oh noo :( wishing things to get better for you for the second half of the year<3 and omgg two times i’m so happy for you!!! i also saw taylor last year but i had to travel to argentina (i don’t remember if i had said it before but i’m from chile) i had SO much fun i was truly happy to see her finally after waiting for more than 12 years and honestly my show was the best one (at that time) since she sang a remix for the first time (is it over now + out of the woods) and also travis was there so she changed the lyrics to karma is the guy on the chiefs coming straight home to me. the screams for that part were INSANE and i loved every second of the concert i miss her so bad and i wish she would come to chile too:(

thank you, i hope that too! yeah you told me you’re from chile! same, the last time she came here was 13 years ago and this was my first time so i was so happy. i also was so lucky cause the second date she wore my favorite outfits and i was on the floor so i could see her from up close. i got “the one x wonderland” and “I almost do x the moment I knew” and then “red x mr perfectly fine” and “getaway car x out of the woods” (can’t believe we’re somehow twins of a surprise song, this is such a nice coincidence). i hope that for you, but i feel that she saw how many international fans there are and how much we love her so i feel she will add more cities next time!

i broke up with the guy i told you about (cause i liked him but not as much as he liked me so i felt like it was unfair for him)

yeah i remember about him. tbh it’s better this way, you were honest and that’s all that matters

my thesis traumatized me so bad cause my guide teacher left me ALONE i asked him to reunite several times and he never replied so i literally did it all by myself without any revision until i finished it i defended my thesis so i officially graduated back in february

omg not us being twins even in this cause mine did that same!! love to see it (i hope they both choke). also i don’t know how it works there but here they get paid for it, i had to pay a tax of 600€ just to do everything on my own. but you did it! i’m so so happy for you!!! what did you graduate into? (if you want to tell me ofc)

in january i sprained my ankle SO bad that i couldn’t walk for almost two months so i spent my birthday in bed and i had to defend my thesis sitting sjdjsk

omg how did you do it? are you alright now or do you still have check-ups to do?

i no longer have a best friend. in fact, today is her birthday and i decided that i would wish her a happy birthday and it will also be the last time she hears from me so i’ve been kinda bummed because of that (since last year actually but that’s a long story…)

were you friends for a long time? friendship break-ups are the worst, i’ve been there a few times, so i can imagine how you feel. did she reply? (if you want to rant, I’m here)

i’m going to the dream show 3 in 30 more days so i’m so excited since i bought vip + soundcheck!!

IF YOU DON’T COME HERE AND TELL ME EVERYTHING I WILL HAUNT YOU DOWN!!! LIKE VIP AND SOUNDCHEK!!! LET’S GO (but also, if i didn’t miss new updates, renjun won’t be there, right? why can’t you never see the 7 of them?😭😭😭)

i never stopped working at the place i did my last internship so they hired me but they’re underpaying me (they’re paying me about €590… so yeah that also has me a little bit sad? tired? bored?) but i know it is my first job and lots of my friend haven’t even found a job since we graduated but idk i think it's too little for the amount of work and do + one girl who doesn't know anything earns more than twice than me just because she's friends with our superior

i hate this world so much, 590 is nothing, like you can’t survive on your own. and the fact that you work more and get paid less than someone who doesn’t know how to do her job drives me insane. i hope you can find something better soon or that at least they raise your pay

since i have a job i will have to call in sick the day before the dream concert so guess they’ll pay me even less this month because i will miss 3 days 😭

it’s worth it, this time it’s worth everything. fuck the job (your wallet doesn’t agree but i don’t care rn)

i’m going to see a.c.e and i bought a fan sign so i’m also super excited about that (but not my wallet rip) !!!

YAS! you’re living your best life i’m so happy for you (i don’t know anything about them but if you want to and let me know how it was, i would love to know)

my graduation ceremony is in two more weeks so i’m also happy about it since i'm graduating with honors and my outfit is arriving tomorrow (and i bought the sabrina shoes? the ankle ones so pray that i don’t trip and embarrass myself)

i’m sure you’ll be the pretties. did you buy a dress? (i don’t think i know what you’re talking about, i’m picturing sabrina carpenter but i don’t think i’m right…)

and i think that’s all about my life sorry for the tmi about everything 😭

nooo don’t apologize i love reading everything!!!

haha is my very useless talent but i get you sometimes i end up thinking of the same one the whole time i read a story

very useful to me actually. but also, right? like when a song gets stuck i just keep thinking about that and i can’t think of anything else for that story i hate it

also while i was reading your answer i realized i had so many grammar mistakes that’s so embarrassing i should not write english texts when it’s so late and i’m sleepy so i apologize for that (it is literally 2:50 am right now) 😭

i’m replying now that it’s afternoon and i’m sure there are just as many mistakes, but we have an excuse for this so it’s fine!

and i thinks that’s all for now, have an amazing week rebs, ily, read you very soon (as i said, by the time i edited this i already finished reading hits different part one and i'm sorry in advance...)🩷

i always reply in the weekend i hate it here, i’m sorry if i make you wait. i will read the hits different one, not sure if i’ll reply later or tomorrow but i can’t wait!!! have a good week too!

[mekatrio]

well regardless theyre still so shit tho bc they still emphasize on the shit timeline which originates from hyrule historia soooo... -___- also this cringe ass sentence like yeah we'll value the localized narrative over the original narrative bc that makes sense. like what. you can value them both and write abt them both yknow. or even value All the different localized interpretations like yknow A WIKI SHOULD DO....

also this sentence. lol. lmao. LMAO. firstly HH does not even have any credited writers, eiji aonuma is listed as a Supervising Editor!!! and shigeru miyamoto isnt even listed in the credits, dude literally just offers a foreword.

^credits of hyrule historia. idk why someone spilt ink on florent's name poor guy.

also HYRULE HISTORIA ITSELF!!!! tells readers not to take the fucking timeline too seriously like!! literally saying 'is BELIEVED to be true' and 'merely collects information' almost like this is just shit they made up as a marketing campaign for skyward sword HMMMM????

^page 68 of HH

even EIJI AONUMA HIMSELF!! says the storylines of zelda games do not frickin matter too much (and this is not the first time he says it nor will it be the last (HE SAYS THIS A LOT.)) IN HYRULE HISTORIA!! PAGE 238 IN HIS AFTERWORD!!!

anyways zelda wiki will always be so so so fucking lame and lame and LAME for still marrying themselves to a timeline that is very obviously just a marketing thing for skyward sword which even the gamedevs of zelda have already abandoned with botw. like the timeline is #Over and never existed in the first place and trying to hamfist the "canon" of a series into a narrative that doesnt even exists just hurts the wiki. and with the added stupidity of valuing NA content over other languages hurts the wiki even more bc imagine all the derivative zelda works that they are NOT writing abt. like the amount of japanese novels + comics + whatever there is an abundance of rich zelda history in the Real World that they just disregard as not important to write abt.. though ill give them some credit bc it seems that recently (in 2022) theyve begun to add some pages of materials that historyofhyrule had scanned ages ago. fucking FINALLY.. baby steps towards improvement is nice to see 😁

which means theres finally a page for Trans Masc Zelda!! not a fan of the giant Non-Canon banner which i find to be entirely unnecessary bc like.. in a franchise multiple canons can exist yknow. KILL UR IDEA OF A SACRED TIMELINE-ALIGNED CANON and also the historyofhyrule page isnt properly linked but whatever... its nice to see it actually get a page.

but also Thievery is still a page which is um... hm. Hmm

omg i was abt to start bitching abt fanwikis as i love to and was about to hound on the zelda wiki again for still considering hyrule historia as canon but on their new website they?? dont even hv HH listed in their canon policy so... ???

[alaanz]

Ok, I’m calm now (and no longer drunk) so I’m gonna do my best to put my thought together from the eclipse ep 7. I haven’t rewatched it yet, still recovering.

First off. WHAT THE FUCK GMM. Yo, I analysed the shit out of that kiss and then u go and uno reverse that shit. Mannn, it was such a good kiss and fits their relationship and the moment so we’ll that I’m honestly kinda disappointed that its not their first kiss. But we gotta keep moving I guess. This also reveals a lot about akk. Man FULLY imagined a whole ass scene of him and ayan kissing. Like we obviously new he was into ayan but this just confirms it all the more and shows his internal conflicts. He’s grappling so much with all of the new information that’s just been thrown into his life through ayan and then he starts to develop feelings for this new rule breaker. Literally just had a breakdown on a beach in front of said rule breaker too. Tbh I’m not surprised he didn’t kiss ayan. There’s just too much going on in his life at the moment for him to jump ahead into something else new while the rest of his life is still unstable. So while, yes he is attracted to ayan and maybe wants something more. In that moment, he wasn’t ready to take the next step. By not kissing ayan, he allowed himself a semblance of steadiness that he can rely on where nothing new is throwing him off kilter again.

AHHHHHH. The character development is to die for and I absolutely love it. After that whole evening of being able to let everything out and take off the weights that are crushing him, it has allowed him to gain a slightly more objective look at what is going on in his life and look at what his own opinions on everything is. Chadok still has a hold over akk and can still control what he does to a degree, akk is no longer blindly following his orders and is actually paying attention to the things he’s doing slowly but surely. Rose tinted glasses and all that good shit. Mannn, I loved that scene between akk and the three Jums (I think that’s their names?). There was such a breakthrough in the relationship between the protestors and the rule enforcers. It wasn’t hostile and aggressive. It’s starting to remind me slightly of Dan and his story in Not Me. Akk doesn’t necessarily want to be doing these things, or well, in the aggressive way that Chadok wants them done, but he doesn’t really have a way out of it. Akk still had to do what he was told to do, but he made sure not to make it more difficult than it needed to be. The protestors are always the ones being told that they’re being too difficult, that they need to be quieter, they need to be less prominent. But this time instead of the prefects saying this again, they themselves took a new approach and took it down a notch. It’s not the protestors that are making it harder than it needed to be, it was the rule keepers and the unnecessary force that they used. Akk instead said that HES SORRY to the Jums and politely took the megaphone out of his hands and then turned away. There’s nothing else that he had to say because there’s nothing more he wanted to say. He did the minimum that he knew he needed to do and nothing more. Because he doesn’t completely disagree with the protestors anymore. He’s starting to see their point of view on things and why their actually protesting. He’s asking his own questions on why he’s doing what he’s doing.

Now, what I know of 1984 comes from what I’ve seen this show and that’s pretty much it, so I’ve only got a limited sense of this book, but I can understand what it’s aiming to say. So I’m soooo glad that akk saw it and actually decided it was worth his time.. He’s got questions about the way things are run at Suppalo and his role in everything. Even if he still can’t see the way he fits into everything and his role from an outside pov. To himself he’s a rule keeper, but he’s always thought that the way he does things is because he wants to do them like that. Because it was necessary to do it that way. Akk’s now questioning the reality of this thought but he still doesn’t quite grasp the wider picture to see what’s actually been going on behind everything. He asks ayan “do you think there is someone in real life who is brainwashed like the main character in the book?” to which ayan easily and quickly replies “you” which akk gets pissed off at. There’s so much going on here. Akk is aware and acknowledges that the main character has been brainwashed by the government. He objectively knows this, either from his own observations or from being told it, but he’s still aware, and yet he lacks his own ability to make the connections between the main chapter and himself. It’s such an easy observation to everyone around him and the viewers but because he’s the one from everyone’s observing he can’t fully grasp the whole image. He’s getting there, but slower than everyone else is. He was either pissed of at ayan for insinuating that he was brainwashed because he still doesn’t believe that what’s going on with him is actually brainwashing by Chadok, or because he’s slowly starting to understand that he is in fact under Chadoks control but is pissed at himself for letting it happen to him. As we’ve seen, Akk likes to think that he’s in control of his own actions and opinions but there a part of him that knows this isn’t fully true. As with his reaction in ep 6. This is something that I’m still not sully sure of yet but hopefully we’ll learn in future episodes.

There was further development in akk and ayan a bond this episode that I am very grateful for. Ep 6 allowed akk a chance to let some of the weight off and finally rely on someone else even for a moment, but ayan still hadn’t had this yet. Ep 7 allowed this for him tho. For starters ayan invited himself to go on the club trip to akks house. It’s most likely as a way for him to get closer to akk and learn even more about him but it could equal be for another reason. Simply that he just needed to get away from everything. Akk probably thinks it was about getting at him more, but Ayan may have just needed a weekend to get somewhere away from all of the memories of his uncle. Pretty much every place we’ve seen so far is somewhere that either Dika went to or both ayan and Dika went too together. Ayan going to akks house though is somewhere new for him. There’s no connection to his uncle and it allows him a moment of solace away from everything.

As we know tho, that plan quickly backfired with Dika being brought up at the table with lan doing an impression of him. I knew immediately as seen as the words left his mouth that this was the direction they were going with this scene and I was anxious the whole time just waiting for it to happen, which it did. It also says a lot about how kan views Dika as a person. I can’t remember if it was just akk that’s shown to say negative things about Dika before of if kan also did. But with Chadok and waree, the impressions were making fun of them and laughing but with Dika he was actually nice with it, not trying to make a joke but instead being genuine with what he was saying. I appreciated this scene.

Anyway back to ayan. This obviously beings up memories that he was trying to avoid and everything quickly went downhill. Ayan is at breaking point with all of his emotions just below the surface at all times. It only takes the slightest thing to let them out. It was obvious that akk new something was wrong with ayan when Dika was mentioned but he let him have his space and didn’t try and question it infront of the group. It was only later on when he noticed that ayan was sat outside that he asked him about what happened. Ayan tries so hard to try and look like everything is under control but that mask was quickly slipping and akk could see it. Ayan offered him a shoulder last ep and akk returned the gesture this ep. They’re gained a sort of balance in what they can offer each other in terms of support. They’re both there for each other when they know no one else is. And ayan took that shoulder to cry on. He’s obviously got trust issues but it says a lot that instead of flat out saying he’s fine or running away, ayan instead took him up on the offer and showed a new part of himself to akk. He let himself be seen, something he doesn’t do. He’s so scared of letting anyone else in only to be hurt again like he was with dika. But he’s taking steps towards trusting akk, and being vulnerable. In doing this he’s giving a part of himself to akk and trusting that he won’t take it and break it. I love this scene and the acting from khaotung is actually incredible. His ability to change emotions so quickly and express himself is so amazing to see.

And obviously we’ve got that scene at the very end of the ep where it looks like ayan is leaning into kiss akk. I don’t know if this is going to be their first kiss of if their first one if the one we see from the trailer. In the trailer we can see that ayan asks permission to kiss akk so it’s possible akk rejects the advances on the boat. Akk is losing what little control he has over his carefully constructed life and so ayan going into kiss him without asking first if this is something akk wants might be too much. Akk needs that sense of control right now and so it’s likely he’ll reject the kiss. I guess we’ll see when ep 8 comes out.

Also is it just me or did ayan suddenly expecting akk to come out with the truth come out of nowhere. I’m not sure if I’m remembering it wrong or if it’s a translation error but I don’t remember akk promising to tell the truth. He said that he was going to stop pretending to be the curse. Either way I’m kinda pissed off at ayan to be honest. Once again it feels like his sense of morality and higher social status is clouding his sense of judgement to a degree. I understand that ayan wants there to be consequences and to see Suppalo burn but I don’t think making akk confess is going to do anything. And I understand that what akk did were crimes and there should be repercussions to what he did. But let’s not forget that he did this either under the direct orders of Chadok or as a result of pressure from Chadok. Either way, akk wasn’t doing these things of his own volition. Ayan is aware of this but still expects akk to confess. If akk did confess that would effectively be the end of everything for him. There’s no way that Suppalo would back akk up, they’d just use him as a scapegoat like Chadok had always intended for akk to be. Akk would then have to be expelled from Suppalo with his scholarship being revoked. The likely hood of him then getting into another good school like Suppalo is a million to one. Akk is relying on suppalo and a scholarship to get into uni. But if he confessed all of this would be gone. He’d have to go back home and likely wouldn’t be able to afford to go to uni so would end up taking the same line of work as his parents. And what he did as the curse would forever be on any legal documents which may make it hard to do much in the future. With all of this, ayan is so easily asking akk to confess like it’s a given. Akk has all of this to consider but it’s not something ayan has to worry about at all and so doesn’t even consider it. And then he keeps asking akk to confess to which akk rightly keeps asking for more time. I don’t know, it just kind of annoyed me that ayan was doing this when we’ve acknowledged the social divided in a past ep. But I guess it makes sense as even back then nothing big happened with this info. It just kind got slotted away into the back of ayans head.

And for the love of god someone tell me what the FUCK Namo is doing cos I’m about to lose it. This man just shows up with the main cast like it’s no biggie. I’ve already written in my past eclipse post on what I think namos role will be in all of this but honestly the suspense is killing me. At the moment he’s just kinda there with a few odd lines thrown in here and there but nothing big has happened yet. I know it will tho so it’s just a waiting game until he starts to have a bigger role in the movement of the plot.

My god this was a long and probably over analysed post but it was fun to write so who cares. There are likely some spelling mistakes and wrong autocorrects that I’ve missed so I apologise if that’s the case. Next ep is looking to be that start of akk and ayans romantic part of their relationship so it’ll be interesting to see how it fits into the plot and how the pressures are going to affect their relationship in return. Anyway, thank you if u read all of this, I appreciate it.

[haikyuu-sins]

Hey!!

Ok, first of all I love your writing, it's just soooo good and second, since I saw the requests are opened I wanted to ask for a little scenario, ok here we go.

So it's Law x fem!Reader from the strawhats and both crews are fighting against some kind of enemy and their army, this enemy it's like a mad scientist and shots the reader with a strange sustance but nobody really notices because they are fighting and she doesn't want them to get preoccupied.

The things is, some days later strange white marks begin to appear on her skin and yes, it's the amber lead, she tries to hide it but at some point Law sees it and when I don't know, I will leave the rest to you.

Thank you so much ❤❤

Thank you! I loved how interesting this request was! I hope you enjoy :) (I realized too late into this thatI didn’t make them a strawhat so my apologies for that! I’ve been trying to work on this one for so long and it slipped my mind :( also I’m sorry that this kind of ends a little abruptly, I wasn’t sure where I really wanted it to go in the end

Warnings: Getting shot/blood

****Law x Reader

This was supposed to be quick. An in, out kind of deal. What was going to be a quick trade, ended up being a ruse. When Law was finished with his end of the deal, which was healing a member of this scientist’s crew and in return he’d give Law a medicine that he had been looking for that he would only be able to get from this island.

But things went south as soon as the deal was finished. It all started happening so quickly that you almost didn’t have time to react. Once the sound of a gunshot filled the air, Law was quick to act. He was already after the ringleader and was telling the rest of the crew to fight and stay alive until he got back from dealing with the scientist.

The once peaceful surroundings were now a small battlefield. You watched Bepo and the rest of the crew fighting with the others and you had your own hands full with a few of the men from the other crew. But what you didn’t notice was that there was a sniper off in the distance with a fresh batch of bullets that were coated and infused with different diseases; new and old.

His sights were set on you as you seemed to be giving his crewmates the most trouble. There was so much noise on the battlefield that you didn’t even know where the next gunshot came from. All you knew was that you felt a sharp pain in your thigh, then moments later, another right above your knee cap. Your mind went white for a moment. The searing pain made your head go blank before you felt a fist connect with your face that brought you back to reality.

You wanted to pass out but Law told you all to stay alive because he knew that you could handle yourselves. That meant you couldn’t afford to lose consciousness. Law put his trust in you and the rest of his crew so you needed to show him that you could be trusted.

Blood trickled down your left leg and your pants were sticking to you uncomfortably. You felt useless not being able to even use one of your legs. But no matter how much it hurt, you put your weight on it and continued to fight. Another bullet came your way but this time you sensed it. There was something different about this one. It almost seemed to have some sort of heavy aura around it.

You deflected it with the knife you held in your hand. The bullet ricocheted off and hit one of the men you were brawling with, and straight into his shoulder.

He hissed in pain, not knowing what exactly had happened, but when you saw what that bullet began doing to his body you realized why it was so different from the other two. His skin started to melt from where the bullet entered and he screamed in agony. Your eyes were wide with fear, hoping that that wouldn’t be your fate. While your skin wasn’t melting off like his, you knew that there had to have been something wrong with this bullet as well.

But you didn’t have much time to process what could happen to you because the fighting continued and now you had the added bonus of trying to figure out if there would be a bullet coming at you. In a moment there was a sharp stinging in your side. You heard no gun shots but there was a clear wound in your abdomen.

Within minutes though, everything suddenly stopped, you and the rest of the crew had taken notice that there was a slight blue tinge that covered the area. In that moment, you knew that you could finally relax. Your legs buckled under you and the next thing you knew, you were in the sub.

You ached. Your entire body ached and you heard a soft beeping noise right beside you. Slowly your eyes began to open and you squint. The bright lights nearly blinding you.

Law glanced over and heard the rustling of the bed sheets. “Don’t touch the IV, Y/n-ya.” he spoke as he watched you reaching for it. You sigh and your hand falls onto the bed. “And don’t even think about moving.” he stood from his chair next to you and gently pushed your shoulder down.

Your voice was hoarse when you spoke softly. “Is everyone okay?” glancing around the room, you noticed that there was no one else but you and Law.

“Everyone is fine. I was able to patch them up. You one the other hand were the one who had the most damage done. You were shot three times. I’m not sure why but I couldn’t find the bullets even though there wasn’t an exit wound.”

He had even used his Scan on you thanks to his Ope-Ope no mi but still wasn’t able to find anything wrong. For some reason, you thought it would be a good idea to omit the fact that a bullet that was aimed for you hit someone else and melting the man’s skin off. There wasn’t anything wrong with you now. But what you didn’t know was that the bullets were still inside you. They had dissolved and a deadly and what was thought to be an incurable disease was now making its way through your body.

“I’m going to run some tests-”

“Please, I’m fine! Will you just let me get back to work?”

The look on Law’s face said it all as he turned to you. ‘Absolutely not’ was plastered all over and you knew better than to argue with him, but you felt like a terrible burden.

“You should be doing Captain things, not treating me.” you slumped back into the bed.

“You seem to forget that your captain is also your doctor.”

Your lips made an ‘O’ and your cheeks flushed slightly. “I didn’t forget...It just slipped my mind for a second.”

“I’m going to run your tests tomorrow. You’ve lost a lot of blood and need rest, so I’ll leave you be for a few hours and come back to check on you. Let me know if you need anything. You shouldn’t be in too much pain but I can put more medicine in your IV-that you better not take out-if you need it.” With that, he left the room while you glared at the IV that was stuck in you. It was best that you left it in and you knew it, It soon didn’t worry you anymore and before you knew it, your eyelids fluttered close with the darkness of a promising sleep overcoming.

It was about a week before Law let you out of the infirmary. He made sure you were okay to walk on your own, and he wanted you to take antibiotics for another week in case of an infection. The tests he had taken all came back normal for now. Nothing was out of the ordinary, but he still wanted you to check in with him every so often.

Law was wary of letting you out of his site, something had been worrying him about the fact he couldn’t find the bullets but you spoke of nothing out of the ordinary no matter how much he knew tried to get the information out of you.

The next time Law saw you, you looked like a ghost. He noticed how your knees were trembling and quickly urged you to sit down, guiding you to a chair. “I told you to come by and see me if there was anything wrong, Y/N-ya.”

“I’m fine… really. I’m just a little tired.”

His grey eyes narrowed slightly at you then his brows furrowed. There was a spot in your hair that hadn’t been there before that was beginning to go white--not grey like a normal aging person, but white. Quickly, he grabbed your arm and shoved the material of your sleeve up. You had no strength to pull back and his eyes now widened when he noticed the white patches that were covering you.

“Law it hurts… Everything hurts. I ache all the time and it feels like there’s nothing I can do to make it stop.”

“Why didn’t you tell me about this?!” the taller man quickly scooped you out of the chair and rushed you into the infirmary.

“That bullet…I think there was something in it.” you managed to croak out. “One of their guys got shot with a bullet that I dodged and his skin, it started to melt off his body.” You knew that he’d be scolding you after this, not telling him all of the details the first time is one of Law’s pet peeves.

“This could have all been avoided if you told me this in the first place!” While this would be an easy fix for Law, he was still upset that you were putting yourself in unnecessary pain. You didn’t need to suffer and if you weren't stubborn then you wouldn’t be in this position. He knew exactly what it was like to have this incurable disease, but you were lucky enough to have a captain who could cure anything. Including Amber Lead.

He put you on the bed in the infirmary and it didn’t take him long to get this out of your body. On the way there you had passed out which did make it easier for Law work, but he was scared. This disease was supposed to be gone. So how did this scientist get a hold of something this deadly?

One thing he did know--he wasn’t going to lose anyone else to this forsaken illness. Not again. He had already lost his entire family to it and he would be damned if he’d let it happen to his crew.

It only took Law a few minutes to finish this up and make sure that all of the Amber Lead was out of your body. He ran tests on you all throughout the night, almost never leaving your side. It was comforting knowing that the first face you saw when you opened your eyes was him. Though you knew he probably wasn’t the happiest with you, you did know that he would always do his best to save you and that’s why your eyes were opening in the first place.

Besides the quiet beeps of the monitor, the next thing you heard was his gruff voice. “You sure do leave out some important information when it’s needed.”

You bit your lip. “Sorry…”

“I don’t think ‘sorry’ cuts it when you nearly had a death wish. You’d be dead if you weren’t here with me, you know that? What you were shot with was a bullet that had Amber Lead poisoning which is normally incurable.”

“Guess I’m really lucky then, huh?” you smile weakly over to him, hoping that maybe he’ll see the bright side. “I’m alive at least, that counts for something, right?”

“Yeah, you’re lucky enough to be alive so you can do all of the extra chores around the sub.”

“Oh come on!” you groaned out in protest. “This is what I get for pulling thought and making it out alive?!”

“No. This is what you get for nearly getting yourself killed for leaving out information that could have prevented this from getting as bad as it did. Maybe next time you should think twice about being as stubborn as you usually are.”

“But that’s my best quality!”

“Trust me, you have better qualities than that, Y/N-ya.” and with that, he left the room, leaving you with a pink tinted face.

[elithilanor]

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As a recovering rper as well, I certainly understand the love for OCs! I’m a little picky, though (hence the no y/n and reader insert) so I’m honored you like her as much as you do! I actually have a pretty good idea of who she is, but I’m leaving her nameless so readers can enjoy the reader insert.

Yes, one of my favorite genres is whump and hurt/comfort soooo. Poor Haldir.

THANK YOU FOR THE MINUTE DETAILS RECOGNITION. Yes, I’m essentially creating a Marchwarden system in my head for Lórien due to these fics and I am doing completely unnecessary research about it. I don’t have OCD, though! Just a raging hyper fixation due to my adhd and other neurodivergencies and a background in history that makes me need Correct Facts (for the purposes I’m using them for anyway). Actually, I gathered the developing Warden system in Lórien from another wip, but since it’s super steamy and therefore prob not your cup of tea: Lord Celeborn is the top and Lord Marchwarden followed by 4 Chief Marchwardens under him based on the cardinal directions (north, south, east, and west). After that I’m toying with Head Wardens, etc. The top structure is what I’ve figured out the most. As stated, Haldir is the Chief Marchwarden of the North, which is the forests above the major cities and spans from the Mines of Moria to the west. He’s also kind of the unofficial favorite of Lord and Lady Celeborn because he’s so capable.

The spider venom idea does not come from me! I’ve read it in a ton of Mirkwood world-building fics because I’m a slut for them! Esp Barduil fics following the Hobbit movies. Sorry not sorry 😂🤷‍♀️. I think this is one of the fics that talks about it as an example and also I really like some of the familial relationships between Thranduil and Legolas here on ao3.

So like here’s the thing, babe (affectionately). These are your requests and you have Haldir hcs based on your fics. While I certainly can’t fully erase my own Haldir hcs (and quite honestly, we don’t disagree on much and I’ve adopted/solidified a few of your hcs into my own such as Haldir’s poetry and writing), I’m writing this for you. So I’m trying my best to stay within the bounds of your world as well because my Haldir and his relationships are a bit different, honestly. These are your requests, for you. So it genuinely is a collaboration since I’m using as much as you’ve provided me as I can as long as it doesn’t super disagree with my Haldir. 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 So I’m glad you like it 😈😈😈😈 And while this is an exception series, I also love them so I think we’re stuck with them lololol

Her mother is from the Greenwood! I have Ideas about her family. WIP on that, though, so no information to give out yet.

Thank you! I’m trying to make her a good healer based on my just overall knowledge of how a helpful and good healer should be. While I’ve got a very rudimentary knowledge of herbs, I have no knowledge of medical procedures because I’m incredibly squeamish so I hope you don’t mind missing out on anything there.

I’m asexual, specifically demisexual! So I’ll never write something in which character A finds character B immediately attractive because I literally cannot understand that and therefore cannot write it. I’ll also (probably) never write something in which two or more characters have a sexual experience with each other unless they have at least a perceived, previous relationship with each other even if that fic itself isn’t written. Aces for the slow burn romance, I guess? 😂

Anyway, I just want you to know that I appreciate you and your commentary and kindness and willingness to send me lots of fics. I prefer having at least some prompts because it helps me focus on something concrete rather than going in like a million directions. So please send more (Sotwk, but also others!)

A Healer’s Touch, An Herbalist’s Kindness P1

Concept: See above

Request for: @sotwk​ This one is a bit more from Haldir’s perspective than OFC and honestly I found it a little more difficult to write, so I hope this is to your liking! I decided to split this up into sections just because a) it was getting long and b) really different vibes were going on between the initial meetings and the later visits/excuses to see each other. So here’s the initial meeting! This one’s a little angsty, but it’s mostly up from here, promise!

We’re probably looking at another 3-5 parts depending on flow. So strap in for the ride lol. Yes, there’s also definitely a writing shift because I was testing new styles, but decided it has its time and place. Hope you don’t mind!

Tags: way pre-relationship Haldir x OFC (healer/herbalist and future wife); emotional hurt/comfort; emotional whump! Haldir poor guy, he’s really going through it it’s been a rough season for the wardens out there!; angst

TWs: injury and light blood descriptions; anxiety and panic attacks; some situational self-loathing

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“Círan, you cannot be serious!” Haldir exclaims as he struggles against the other elf’s hold preventing him from marching back into surgery.

“You would leave my brother in the hands of an apprentice with this?” His voice is tight in outrage.

“Chief Marchwarden!” Círan snaps. “She may be recent to us here in The Golden Wood, but not to her skills. Chief Marchwarden,” their voice then softens, “Haldir, please. Rúmil is in good hands with her. She recognized the symptoms as soon as the rider came and has been preparing the whole hours since. Please, let us work.”

Haldir bites his tongue as he watches the unknown elleth briskly cut open the dressing he’d wrapped himself around the jagged wound on his brother’s chest and side and begin flushing it with an alternating mix of clean water and a pungent brew of dark herbs, only some of which he recognized. He can just see her tilt his brother’s head back and produce a vial before the doors swing shut, cutting off his field of vision. 

Haldir takes a shaky breath then reluctantly nods before forcing himself to step back and off to the side. He clenches his jaw and sits in the chair provided by Círan before the healer goes back to assisting with the work ahead.

Haldir, The Lady’s voice sounds clear in his head, startling him from his worry. Celeborn tells me the patrols have destroyed the orc holdout responsible and are bringing in the poisoned blades to the healers for inspection. Expect them within the hour. I have already let Nestál know, as well. How is Rúmil fairing?

Haldir closes his eyes and takes a deep breath before responding, willing away some of the adrenaline and underlying panic in his system.

No worse than before we set off, my Lady. The new healer apparently has seen something similar before and she’s taken the lead in his healing. He says, a touch sardonically.

Ah, slight amusement and warmth filters through their óswanë link. Yes, I imagine she has. She pauses before adding.

Haldir, rest. Let the healers take care of Rúmil. Orophin is on his way in from the Northwest outpost, as well. You take care of our people well, let them help you. Take this time to be with your brothers, we’ll hold steady until your return.

Haldir flounders for what to say and his hands clutch at his own over cloak now torn in three separate places and soaked through with his brother’s blood. He wants to argue but knows he can’t. There is nothing for him to argue against.

Of course, my Lady. Thank you.

Be at peace, Chief Marchwarden. Today has been a dark day, but all will be well. She soothes before withdrawing from his mind.

Haldir sighs and begins to compile a list of all the reports he’d need to complete and patrol routes they’d need to revise. He rubs his temples and settles in the chair for the long vigil he knew he’d have ahead of him.

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“Marchwarden?” A soft voice breaks into his thoughts over which paths they could secret into the mountain sides above Moria. 

Haldir jolts back into awareness as the elleth caring for Rúmil steps into his line of sight, worry flooding his system. He goes to stand but she waves her hand at at him.

“Is he-?”

She smiles softly, her eyes tired. “As long as your brother makes it through the night - and there’s every indication that he will, just a precaution - then he’ll be fine. It will be a delayed healing process due to the venom, but we all are certain he’ll make a full recovery.”

The relief Haldir feels makes him weak in the knees and in hindsight, he’s incredibly glad that she let him stay seated. He now feels guilty in more ways than one, too. He clears his throat.

“Círan says you’ve encountered this before?”

“Ah, yes.” She looks grim. “Spider venom.”

Haldir blinks in shock, wondering if the new but not-new-to-them apprentice realized how ridiculous she sounded. “You must be mistaken. The Children of Ungoliant are not here in such a way; they’re regional to Mirkwood.”

“Yes, Marchwarden, I’m aware.” She bites out then releases a breath, running a hand through her tresses, messing the already loose braid down her back. “I did my herbalism and first aid training in Imladris, but my mother is from the Greenwood.” Haldir raises an eyebrow at the emphasis feeling as if he would smirk at her if he had the energy left in him.

“I’ve spent much of my life there assisting their healers with the reactions to venom. Its fortunate I’ve learned to always carry vials of antivenin on me or else we’d have to dispatch riders to Lord Thranduil for supply and it likely would be too late for your brother.”

Haldir feels a shiver run up his spine, wiping away his slight amusement.

“You must understand that just because you have no spiders means little. Orcs join forces with them and can coat their blades in the poison; it’s very common in the Greenwood and surrounding areas such as Dale. I’m just surprised. I’ve never heard of the practice extending past the forest’s borders. Nonetheless, Nestal is informing Lord Celeborn and Lady Galadriel while Círan and I monitor Rúmil. I’ve already made contact with Lord Thranduil to inform him and request additional antivenin be sourced and sent here to Lórien and to Imladris lest they head that way, as well. Orc sightings have been also steadily increasing along the road paths, as I’m sure we’re all aware.”

“Sauron.” Haldir curses. “It seems everyday his range increases and the grief he brings to all lands intermingles with the love already there to be found.”

A smile touches her lips briefly, “Yes, the bastard.” Haldir startles at her bluntness and stares at her.

“Ah, apologies. We have a tendency to be more informal in the healing halls.” The ellyth clears her throat and gestures towards the recovery wing. “I’ve set up a cot near Rúmil for you along with a stand and a couple other things you may need for the evening. Given the availability at the moment, I’ve also set up another space for hm. I believe Lady Galadriel said you had another brother?” She questioned and moved closer to the door, indicating him to follow her.

“Yes, our younger brother Orophin.” Haldir responds, gathering his things.

“Will he be needing medical treatment, as well? I can alert Círan and Nestál.”

“No,” Haldir replies as he stands and moves towards her. “He’s been at post in Nanduhirion.”

She nods at his answer, but looks as if she was parsing out a riddle in her mind’s eye.

“Near the Doors of Moria in the Northwest. Rúmil and I were attacked near the main borders above Cerin Amroth closer to the Northeast.” Haldir says, a touch impatiently, as they move into the next room.

She mutters something from behind him, but Haldir doesn’t hear her as clearly as his training should have him. Instead, he stares at his brother’s form lying prone in a healer’s bed, chest rewound in fresh bandages and a thick, acrid poultice the color of decaying moss and leaves laid over-top every inch. Rúmil was paler than perhaps his first several months out of their mother’s womb and despite his sleeping state for the last several hours, his eyes were sunken in his face and ringed in darkness. Almost as if Rúmil had already met the Death the healers had been trying to prevent.

“-warden. Haldir!” A voice gets louder in his ringing ears and a hand tightens on his arm. He looks down at the short ellyth standing concernedly at his side. He towers over her, he realizes. She’s on the shorter side for an elf. He wonders if she has any Mannish blood in her line.

“Haldir.” She says again. He’s unsure if he hears her as much as sees her lips form his name. She smiles a little as she catches his eye, but the crease between her eyebrows gives her worry away. “Can you understand what I’m saying?”

It takes him a moment but he nods.

“Your brother is doing very well given the situation and with no complications, should pull through just fine. He just needs rest and treatment every few hours. Nod again if you understand me.” He nods. Despite his initial annoyance with her presence, her voice is incredibly soothing to listen to. Something about her is soothing to him. Perhaps her healer’s training.

“Haldir, breathe. In. Out. Can you do that for me?” He forces a stuttering and shallow breath into his lungs.

“Good,” she soothes, “again.” He feels warm at the nape of his neck and repeats the action at her guidance. His sight clears at the edges, bringing him back into awareness with his body. He hadn’t realized how out of focus he was or how close he was to loosing consciousness.

He hadn’t realized a lot of things today. Some Marchwarden he was. Some brother he was, Haldir thought bitterly, tightness rising in his chest again. 

He feels a slight pressure and absentmindedly looks down at the hand on his arm pulling him towards his brother. The ellyth gently guides him to sit on the made cot next to Rúmil‘s and sets his things down on a stool nearby before pouring an already steeped, hot cup of tisane from a full-brewed pot.

She presses the mug of tisane into his hands and Haldir clutches it as if were a lifeline she had thrown out into his drowning hand in the fast-moving waters of the Celebrant instead.

“Drink, Marchwarden. It will help, I promise.” She says gently and he’s suddenly reminded of what she said earlier: I’ve set up a cot near Rúmil for you along with a stand and a couple other things you may need for the evening.

He looks around the space as he sips on the tea provided, scalding his tongue in the process. Tea; mugs; a heated water pitcher, basin, and rags; his bag; pillows and a cot with warm linens made for the cool nights; a reading candle and his brother’s condition report nearby if he wishes to update himself on Rúmil’s progress; and a small platter of fruits, cheeses, bread, and a jar of honey.

A couple of other things, Haldir thinks incredulously. This ellyth had gone far beyond any duties in providing for a family member of an injured patient, Chief Marchwarden or not. Especially one who had been treating her and her healing skills as callously as he had been thus far.

“Marchwarden?” She asks, pulling him from his thoughts.

“Chief Marchwarden of the Northern Boundary.” Haldir can’t help but snap back out of instinct. He immediately regrets his words and goes to apologize, but finds his ability with words too, have finally escaped him.

It’s been a gruesome day and a longer month and an even more grueling several years. He’s not sure he could say the words he wants to express even if he could think of them in the first place.

“Well, then, Chief Marchwarden of the Northern Boundary.” The ellyth states sharply, then pauses and eventually sighs.

Somehow, she still sounds kind when she begins again, “I’ll be back in a couple of hours to check on your brother’s progress and change his bandages. Círan will do hourly rounds until then. In the meantime, I suggest you get some rest. It will be a long night.”

She’s quiet for a moment before she shakes her head slightly and smiles tightly at him then speaks as she runs her eyes over Rúmil. “Please alert us if there’s any serious changes with your brother. Goodnight.”

The ellyth briskly walks out the back set of doors in the room, deeper into the healing halls.

Haldir sighs and sets his empty mug down, rubbing his hands harshly over his face before laying down and staring at the panels in the ceiling.

Just another tally against himself today, Haldir thinks. He can’t even gather himself to be civil with the elf tasked with more than adequately saving his brother’s life after he couldn’t do it himself.

He’s tired, he realizes. A deep, bone-aching tired that lends itself to tides pulling him out to sea.

In the morning, he’ll see what he can do to mend his transgressions from today, he thinks, brain slower to map out possible plans of action than normally.

His yawn cracks his jaw and his eyelids begin to droop of their own accord.

The tisane, he belatedly registers. Made of valerian root, lavender, and rose hips.

Haldir snorts and grins as he begins to drift to sleep. Clever minx.

[firelord-frowny]

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so

since my mamma is a really really really really big primary support in my ~mental health treatment~ journey, I usually include her in discussions with doctors about what exactly the plan is, so my mamma can have all the necessary info to support me along the way.

UNFORTUNATELY this has the side effect of her bringing shit up with the doctors that i think are soooo unnecessary lmao like.

we're talking with the psychiatrist about what meds the psychiatrist thinks i should try, why i should try them, and what problems will specifically be solved by it. we're talking about things like my difficulty controlling my attention, difficulty initiating tasks, difficulty overcoming anxiety enough to actually Get Things Done, etc.

and then my mamma decides to pipe up and ask the psychiatrist, "what about how much she doesn't like being touched?? See, look what happens." And then she fuckin reaches for my shoulder and I flinch away and give her hand a Very Displeased Look and i'm ike, "why are you reaching for me???"

and my mom is like, "see? why does she do that? how do we get her to stop?" and im like MOOOOOOOOM THIS IS SUCH A FUCKING NON ISSUE OMGGGG THE ONLY PERSON WHO'S ANNOYED BY MY AVERSION TO BEING REACHED FOR IS YOOOOUUUUU

and then the doc starts explaining about obsessive/compulsive behaviors and whatnot, and im facepalming bc just... no! no! no!

AND THEN my mom is like, "and another thing! let's say I touch her on the knee. Then she squirms and rubs both of her knees to make them even! what's up with that??"

AND I'M LIKE MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM

SO FUCKIN WHAT IF I PREFR TO BE SYMMETRICAL OMGGGG IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVE A PANIC ATTACK IF SOMETHING ONLY TOUCHES ONE SIDE OF MEEEE

and i was so !!!!!!!!! >:( because the psychiatrist, based on that information, decides to prescribe me prozac instead of lexapro, bc prozac is ~more effective with compulsive behaviors.~

And I was soooooooooo miffed! and so i start explaining that yes, i do have weird lil Things that make me squirm, but it's SO trivial! it's a complete non-factor in terms of my ~mental health issues~ that actually DO have a negative impact on my lifestyle.

anyway, the doc changed her mind a few minutes later to change the prescription back to lexapro.

but goshhhhhhhhhhhh mom mind ya business!