#wish I’d been a prom queen fighting for the title

[swirlingyouintomypoems]

Feeling super super super!

[myarcadiandream]

[carm3n-carm3n]

wish i’d been the prom queen fighting for the title

[bee-writes-n-spins]

a/n- something random to hold y’all over til baby girl chuuya

marina and the decay of angels (and dazai)

dazai-

“wish i’d been a prom queen fighting for the title instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible, feeling super super super suicidal.”

dazai osamu was stuck being thrown into bad situations left and right through his childhood and adolescence

he had to learn to survive, as did everyone

he was in the mafia, running around and murdering, torturing, among other crimes

perhaps he just wanted normal teen tears that those things didn’t happen. just highschool, friends, relationships.

nikolai-

“instead of love, and trust, and laughter, all you get is happy never after.”

nikolai wanted to be with fyodor, which has always been clear.

he wanted to feel things, but felt it only made him weak. so he tried to give them all up and work with fyodor.

in attempting that, fyodor lost his life and left nikolai with sadness.

fyodor-

“need to purge the poison from our system until human beings listen. tell me, who do you think you are?”

fyodor’s goal from the beginning is to rid the world of sin. killing in the name of his god.

and which, he would let no one get in the way of his goals.

thus, he must punish those for their crimes. for their sin. for their poison.

sigma -

“i know exactly what i want and who i want to be. i know exactly why i walk and talk like a machine”

sigma isn’t human. that he knows.

normal human things don’t come naturally to him. he has to fake it.

and with faking it, one seems less human than ever. machine like, even. sigma became exactly like that.

a machine who, with just a push of a button, could be so easily altered and manipulated.

[cocaineheartz]

wish i'd been, a teen, teen idle

wish i’d been a prom queen, fighting for the title

instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible

feeling super, super, super suicidal

[habits-white-rabbit]

Giorno Giovanna // Teen Idle - Marina and the Diamonds

Yeah, I wish I’d been, wish I’d been a teen, teen idle. Wish I’d been a prom queen, fighting for the title. Instead of being sixteen, I'm burning up a Bible. Feeling super, super (super!) suicidal. The wasted years, the wasted youth. The pretty lies, the ugly truth. And the day has come where I have died. Only to find I’ve come alive.

[moriartyluver]

🦢 anon is back with the song analysis again

ok but teen fl + teen idle by marina is soo real

“I wanna be a bottle blonde I don't know why but I feel conned”- her feeling like liam is more privileged than her and feeling slightly jealous of him because she saw him as a white b who got everything handed to him

“I wanna be an idle teen I wish I hadn't been so clean”- revenge revenge revenge

“I wanna stay inside all day I want the world to go away”- her being an introvert as a teen and only ever studying and maybe occasionally socialising

“I want blood, guts, and chocolate cake I wanna be a real fake”- her putting on a facade

“Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible Feeling super, super, super suicidal”- the third line here is kinda like her being 16 and committing crimes ig?? Also fl low-key wants to unalive herself but knowing her she probably won’t try because of all her responsibilities

“The wasted years, the wasted youth The pretty lies, the ugly truth”- I know we didn’t get an exact thing abt fls relationship with Theo the pedo but I’d say it’s implied they probably did the deed. Like how when they were dancing in the Ashfordshire arc, liam said something abt fl having multiple partners in other aspects, also in the past chapter u mentioned that fl would visit Theo at night. I think she’d lie to herself and act as if she was just seducing him but really she was probably getting abused by him

“And the day has come where I have died Only to find, I've come alive”- fl having her grand duchess glow up post timeskip 👏 👏

“I wanna be a virgin pure A twenty-first century whore I want back my virginity So I can feel infinity”- fls issues with intimacy with Liam because of Theo. She probably never enjoyed the devils tango until liam came around because she was so used to using it for her ulterior motives 😕😕 also she always is getting fetishised and flirted with by the other noblemen to the point she felt she had to marry a guy she considered her biggest rival just to shake them off only for them to keep going and not understand how uncomfy she was

“I wanna drink until I ache I wanna make a big mistake I want blood, guts, and angel cake I'm gonna puke it anyway”- in the Noahtic arc, fl got drunk a bit and was probably using it as escapism for her issue of an heir. Also fls implied Ed ^^

“I wish I wasn't such a narcissist I wish I didn't really kiss The mirror when I'm on my own Oh God, I'm gonna die alone” - fl has slight self esteem issues imo so this lyric makes sense especially because she seemed to be a little meaner as a teen and rightfully so bc her brother literally died because of the British ofc she won’t like any of them. In like the second chapter fl made a comment abt dying alone and I thought that fits

“Adolescence didn't make sense A little loss of innocence The ugliness of being a fool Ain't youth meant to be beautiful?”- fl was suffering since she was like 9 and I don’t think anyone reached out to her tbh if she was really killing whole families at 16. She was probably hella merciless and numb poor girl. She also probably lost her innocence because of Theo and other weird noble guys

also she fits seventeen by marina too. If she was an mtp character she’d probably get angst edits to that one bit “I was brought up as a baby well you don’t know fuck about my family could never tell you what happened the day I turned seventeen the rise of the king and the fall of a queen”

fl is just sooo Marina coded idc

ALSO I AM BEGGING YOU TO GET SOME REST GIRLIE. u usually update like every day. We don’t need u losing sleep over false lovers I promise. Get ur beauty sleep 🙏

Stop this is literally a whole essay 😭 u are right abt most of it tho

Theo is literally such an asshole I’m glad fl killed him and tortured him

Bro was 20 and courting a 16 year old but wasn’t even following proper etiquette rules

Fl finds it so difficult to be affectionate with Liam all because of that stupid mf.

Grand duchess fl 🛐

Fls parents tried to reach out to help her with her grief when she was a kid but they were both suffering themselves and they were trying to find out who was responsible for fls brothers death while also suffering responsibilities as the grand duke and duchess. They tried but fl shut everyone out because she only wanted revenge

Fl also has really terrible self esteem issues but she doesn’t let it show at all. From her perspective William was just an asshole and she felt like it was unfair everyone treated him better than her. Paris and rory esque relationship tbh

Tbh fl would get edited with like every Marina song she’s just that Marina coded

Also I’m currently on holiday so I’m trying my best to get some rest after my exams. I’ll try to be constant with updates but tbh I don’t think I’ll update until I’m back home because my internet keeps getting fucked up lol

[prettybunnie]

‘I wanna be an idol teen I wish I hadn’t been so clean , I wanna stay inside all day I want the world to go away . I want blood guts and chocolate cake I wanna be a real fake, yeah I wish I’d been I wish I’d been a teen teen idol , wish I’d been a prom queen fighting for the title.’

[stcllarvm]

{cis female; pansexual} Is that MEG DONNELLY spotted in the Capitol? No, it’s CALLIOPE HALE who is an NINETEEN year old who is from DISTRICT 4. SHE is in the Capitol because SHE’S a MENTOR. SHE has been described as CARING, but also STUBBORN.

basic facts:

full name: calliope adriana hale

nickname: callie

birthday: july 4th

abilities: music, marksmanship, sword fighting, survival, & trident throwing.

occupation: mentor district 4

+ traits: caring, brave, loving, & protective

- traits: stubborn, shy, haunted, & damaged

intro:

calliope was the only daughter of a fisherman, her mother died in childbirth with her.

most of her childhood she spent her free time with her father, the two had always been very close.

in the academy calliope wasn’t the best fighter, but she also wasn’t the worst.

she did have quite a few friends in the academy, and would make money by making clothes for her friends and other people.

when it came to the games calliope never thought she would be in them. her family didn’t need money and her father always told her to never to volunteer for the games. no matter how confident she felt.

but when it came to the reaping, her best friend was reaped. her friend was born with issues with her legs, so calliope volunteered to save her best friend’s life. and because of that her best friends older brother volunteered for the other tribute to help protect calliope.

her games: (tw death) calliope joined the career pack knowing that it was her best chance at surviving. she never trusted any of them, except her friends older brother, who was her district partner. he told her that he had promised his sister to protect calliope during the games. it’s what kept the rest of the careers from killing her off. during one night her and her district partner decided to kill off the rest of the career pack and they did. it led her partner to be extremely injured and later died do to them. calliope decided she would win the games for him. she used all the skills she had learned in the academy to win the games and go home.

but once she went home it was hard for her father to look at her. she had broken his promise and he acted like he didn’t recognize her. it led to calliope having a hard time forming relationships with people after the games.

the only person she could was her secret partner. she was the only person calliope could trust after the games.

when it comes to calliope as a mentor she is very quiet and doesn’t really give advice. being too haunted by her own games to successfully help people.

[allrevved]

liberty tag dump!

-ˏˋ✧   give it a shot ; fantasize every movement.  /   LIBERTY: IC !  ☆ˊˎ-

-ˏˋ✧   warmth in her heart  and heat between her thighs.  /   LIBERTY: ABOUT !  ☆ˊˎ-

-ˏˋ✧   pick my petals off and make my heart explode.  /   LIBERTY: HC !  ☆ˊˎ-

-ˏˋ✧   soft as silk ; sweet as honey.  /   LIBERTY: AES !  ☆ˊˎ-

-ˏˋ✧   sleep with your head in a pool of moonlight.  /   LIBERTY: VISAGE !  ☆ˊˎ-

-ˏˋ✧   wish i’d been a prom queen fighting for the title.  /   LIBERTY: 01 !  ☆ˊˎ-

-ˏˋ✧   only to find i’ve come alive.  /   LIBERTY: 02 !  ☆ˊˎ-

-ˏˋ✧   i’m forever chasing after time.  /   LIBERTY: 03 !  ☆ˊˎ-

-ˏˋ✧   i’ll always belong in the sky.  /   LIBERTY: 04 !  ☆ˊˎ- 

-ˏˋ✧   when you’re around me i’m radioactive.  /   LIBERTY: & KIESEL !  ☆ˊˎ-

[givemearmstopraywith]

happy ten years of electra heart the lyrics "wish i'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible feeling super, super, super suicidal" hit exactly the same in 2022 as they did in 2012 

[lvmcn]

maggie hoyle’s tag dump !

[deejayrpstaylorsversion]

Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, 𝓉𝑒𝑒𝓃 𝒾𝒹𝓁𝑒                        Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible                                                            Feeling super, super, super s̸̪͇͇̜̯̒ư̵̫͇̬̠̗̍̀́̅͜͠i̷̡̡̩̠̻̣̗̐͗̎͘͘͝ͅc̴̩̭͗̓̈̍i̶̫͛̿̔̒̒͜ḑ̸̧̜̬̞̺͕̥͛͗̔̀̕͜a̵̹̖͉̳̘̥̅̄́̃̽́͘̚l̴̛͇̩͍͊͗̔̐͋̍͜͝

[mariacallous]

MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS - Teen Idle [Live]

I wanna be an idle teen I wish I hadn't been so clean I wanna stay inside all day I want the world to go away I want blood, guts and chocolate cake I wanna be a real fake Yeah, I wish I’d been a Wish I'd been a teen, teen idle Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible Feeling super, super (Super!) suicidal The wasted years, the wasted youth The pretty lies, the ugly truth And the day has come where I have died Only to find I've come alive

[perspectivestarters]

Perspective's Sentence Starters; Electra Heart (Part II)

POWER & CONTROL

"Power and control."

"Give a little, get a lot."

"That’s just how you are with love."

"Yeah, you may be good looking, but you’re not a piece of art."

"I’m gonna make you fall."

"Women and men, we are the same."

"Love will always be a game."

"Think you’re funny?"

"Think you’re smart?"

"Think you’re gonna break my heart?"

"Human vulnerability doesn't mean that I am weak."

"All my life I’ve been controlled."

"You can’t have peace without a war."

LIVING DEAD

"Everyday I feel the same."

"I can never change."

"Was it really worth it?"

"Did I really deserve it?"

"I'm living dead."

"I haven't lived life, I haven't lived love."

"Got bubble wrap around my heart."

"Waiting for my life to start."

"Every day it never comes, permanently at square one."

"When it's late at night, I'm so dissatisfied."

"The weight of an empty life will lessen in the moonlight."

"I think of all the men I could have kissed."

TEEN IDLE

"I wanna be a bottle blonde."

"I don’t know why but I feel conned."

"I wanna be an idle teen."

"I wish I hadn’t been so clean."

"I wanna stay inside all day."

"I want the world to go away."

"I want blood, guts and chocolate cake."

"I wanna be a real fake."

"Yeah, I wish I’d been a teen idle."

"Wish I’d been a prom queen, fighting for the title."

"Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible."

"The wasted years, the wasted youth."

"The pretty lies, the ugly truth."

"The day has come where I have died, only to find I’ve come alive."

"I wanna be a virgin pure."

"I want back my virginity, so I can feel infinity."

"I wanna drink until I ache."

"I wanna make a big mistake."

"I've come alive."

"I wish I wasn't such a narcissist."

"I wish I didn't really kiss the mirror when I’m on my own."

"Oh God, I’m gonna die alone."

"Adolescence didn’t make sense."

"A little loss of innocence."

"The ugly years of being a fool."

"Ain't youth meant to be beautiful?"

VALLEY OF THE DOLLS

"In the valley of the dolls, we sleep."

"Got a hole inside of me."

"Born with a void, hard to destroy with love or hope."

"Built with a heart, broken from the start."

"Now I die slow."

"Living with identities that do not belong to me."

"In my life, I got this far."

"Now I’m ready for the last hoorah."

"Dying like a shooting star."

"Pick a personality for free."

"Back to zero, here we go again."

"I can feel it coming to the end."

HYPOCRATES

"That’s the lesson that you teach me."

"So hypocritical, overly cynical."

"I’m sick and tired of all your preaching."

"Who are you to tell me who to be?"

"You’re my last bone of contention that could break at any mention."

"You’re the last wall that will stand tall till the end of the world."

"I know you only want to own me."

"That’s the kind of love you show me."

"You tell me one thing and do another."

"Keep all your secrets undercover."

"You let go of me."

"You played the martyr for so long that you can’t do anything wrong."

FEAR AND LOATHING

"I lived a lot of different lives."

"Been different people many times."

"I lived my life in bitterness and filled my heart with emptiness."

"There is no crime in being kind."

"Not everyone is out to screw you over."

"Maybe they just want to get to know you."

"The time is here."

"Baby, you don't have to live your life in fear."

"It's clear of fear."

"Don't wanna live in fear and loathing."

"I wanna feel like I am floating."

"Got different people inside my head."

"I wonder which one that they like best."

"I'm done with tryna have it all and ending up with not much at all."

"I know a light will burn on when they blow me out."

"I wanna be completely weightless."

"I wanna touch the edge of greatness."

"Don't wanna be completely faithless."

[sarcasmco]

*:・ﾟ✧ task 005 ( erica )  ✧・ﾟ:*  

highlight: do it like a girl - morgan st. jean

.001 ✎ do it like a girl - morgan st. jean ( misogyny tw )

「 anything that you can do, i can do it better / while I'm bleeding / every dollar that you make, i make a percentage / call it even 」

.002 ✎ confident - demi lovato ( sexual tw )

「 i used to hold my freak back / now i'm letting go / i make my own choice / bitch, i run this show 」

.003 ✎ teen idle - marina ( suicide mention tw )

「 yeah, i wish i’d been a, wish i'd been a teen, teen idle / wish i'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title / instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible / feeling super, super (super!) suicidal 」

.004 ✎ til it happens to you - lady gaga ( loss tw )

「 you say i'll pull myself together, pull it together / you'll be fine / tell me what the hell do you know / what do you know 」

.005 ✎ don’t play - halsey

「 when i'm out, clothes on lay away / tryna take back what you say to me / i don't give a damn what you say to me / there ain't no time for games with me 」

notes & honorable mention below

honorable mentions ✎ 

no body no crime - taylor swift (you really don’t want to mess with erica’s friends; she is not afraid to take action, whatever that may be)

notes ✎ 

the order is loosely tied to erica’s life but is also just vibes. all her life, she’s felt the weight of being a girl, always being held to a higher standard and getting less for it. after talking with dustin in the russian tunnels, she did have a change of mindset about being herself, judgements be damned. she’s smart - she was a nerd, and she was proud. however, since finding out about the upside down and all the horrors that came with it, she did feel a yearning for normal life again. she wanted to fight for titles instead of fighting for her life. whenever people try to help her through it, she won’t have it, because they truly don’t know what she’s going through. she feels as though she can rely on herself (or maybe that’s because she’s only comfortable being vulnerable around herself under most circumstances). she’s grown, and she’s tired. no more games with anyone.