#willry mention again lol

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Headcanons - Glitchtrap ✷

What a silly rabbit! Have some thoughts on William Afton's latest and certainly not greatest form of supposedly "living forever".

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❋ Glitchtrap is first and foremost, a ghost. He may be taking the form of an annoying little computer virus, but this is still William Afton in the non-flesh. He has the ability to jump between electrical currents with relative ease, giving him access to all sorts of screens and wires. His favourite digital spots to hang out are various security cameras in the Pizzaplex, and most of all, Vanessa's home PC.

❋ As a ghost, Glitchtrap's anatomy is very unique. He could technically take the form of whatever he wants to look like, but of course he chose what appears to be a very personalized version of Springbonnie. He has fabric for skin with a hand-stitched kitschy appearance, complete with plasticky eyes, nose, teeth, and whiskers. The polyester faux fur fabric conceals cotton-white plush innards. Glitchtrap still has organs of course too, but they're suspended in cotton and poly-fil rather than the good old blood and tissue.

❋ By the time that Glitchtrap exists, he is a shell of a man. A pathetic excuse of a representation of William Afton. In fact, he barely truly remembers who he used to be. Strongly affected by a form of post-traumatic amnesia, he only remembers selective details about his life. He remembers the most about his kids, his goals and aspirations, his talents, and particularly his past business partner, Henry. His warped memory only kept things that were deemed "important", naturally. He fantasizes about Henry frequently still, daydreaming about a romanticized version of his past with him, even remembering some events that didn't actually happen. Subconsciously, part of him believes they'll be reunited again somehow someway. Ignorance of reality is to blame for that belief.

❋ This form of existence has, for lack of any better words, royally fucked up his sense of personality as well. Most of the time he acts like a bastardized version of his past stage personality of Springbonnie. This manifests as him being overly childish, stubborn, careless, apathetic, selfish, manic, and reactive. Glitchtrap prefers not to think about such things, and acts without thinking most of the time. He is very much aware of who he is, William Afton, but in the way that he might do a double-take if addressed by that name for the first time in a while. He is still just as murderous, dramatic, and cunning as he once was as well, encouraging Vanessa to carry out his vague "legacy" for him since he is largely unable to do so as a ghostly computer virus. He does have the ability to possess her as well, but is simply too lazy and prefers to watch her willfully do his bidding.

❋ Glitchtrap struggles with his sense of identity. This has carried over from his time spent as Springtrap, and his dissociation of self has only gotten worse. The contrast between Glitchtrap and William is vast and unnerving. He believes himself to be better than he's ever been, and worse at the same time. If he were to look in the mirror and see his past human face, he would not fully recognize it as himself any longer.

❋ In one way, Glitchtrap could look in a mirror and see himself. His real self. Due to some innate retained sense of humanity, his virus form's head can be ripped off and removed to reveal a shadowy and glitchy form. Underneath the rabbit's face, lies the broken visage of a human. Behind glossy purple eyes, there will forever be silver-blue ones. No facial features can be visibly discerned besides those haunting, iconic eyes now surrounded in black or white shadow. Perhaps it is better for this silhouetted version of the self to be hidden, since seeing its existence greatly distresses Glitchtrap. He pretends it doesn't exist, but why would it exist if he didn't secretly wish for it to still be there? He controls his own ghost's appearance, after all. Part of him craves humanity.

❋ And through all of this dissociation and amnesia, there are infrequent short periods of lucidity. A precious few hours when this miserable ghost is more William than Glitchtrap. It's horrifying. Distressing. Agonizing. He doesn't know where he is. He screams for help, no one answers. Vanessa is no help to him, he refuses to speak to her when he's like this. She keeps her distance. William despises who he's become, filled with self pity. He cries and thinks to himself that it isn't fair that he should have to live like this. Oh, but isn't it fair? Isn't it justified? Shouldn't a murderer such as himself have to live in the very same life that he condemned others to? A ghost in a machine. Trapped. It's rather fitting, I think. Glitchtrap is indifferent, he quite likes his life in a poor woman's desktop computer. William disagrees.

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Not sure if this technically counts as sketchbook, since it was done with ink on lined paper >>; But eh, I have had a frustrating week or two (which I’ll explain shortly) and really needed some Springy-Boi vent art. I was mostly trying to practice perspective, but it all sucks lol except the profile shot. I actually really like how that turned out.

The bottom two drawings are Spring (for a fantasy game I’m planning) and just a random human person for nothing in particular at all.

The rabbits on the top are from the Mana series. They’re the series mascot, the Rabite/Rabi. As my hype for Legend of Mana HD approaches, I started playing Final Fantasy Adventure (Mana 1), but unfortunetly I softlocked myself 6 hours in (halfway through) and I can’t be bothered to restart. I was pretty peeved for a good five hours this morning and it’s also why I haven’t slept in about... 22 hours. But you guys know that about me by now, I think. So, my next thought was to move onto Secret of Mana, but I was playing that on my PS4 before it died (and it’s not worth fixing), so again, I don’t want to redo the game again right now. Trials requires you to redo the game three times for the full story and I just...

Other stress is some family/friend related matters--nothing super serious but even extended family I’m really irritated with is having problems that you don’t let anger get in the way of going on and it’s just a lot.

There is good news, though. My sales are completely organized and although I had to deal with two returns, they’re going well and I’ve almost reached my meager savings goal. On that note, let me just say, courtesy goes a mile. One returner was frustrating, near-ghosting, and rude and honestly I can’t even deal with them. The other one needed a few hours to consider, but we ultimately decided on a mutual return for the item and I’m fine with that. I kinda regretted selling it anyway.

For those outside the US, we’re finally getting stimulus checks (the most recent and I garuntee the final round of them... I think this is the fourth in a year?). My wife can finally get an ok desktop PC, so I spent time cleaning off my old art desk for her to use. I’m excited to see her get back into her fangame (not FNAF) and maybe some fanfiction (I been begging her to write her Willry idea for months). She’s also getting some new, expensive shoes (the kind for work, to help her feet) and some much-needed wardrobe stuff. Meanwhile, I might get a SNES themed pro controller for my switch (I’m on the fence since its $90-$130) and pay off some preorders (so. much. Aerith. and FNAF). After my cat is fixed, though. And groceries. So most of my check can go to savings, thank god. Oh, I wanted to get a new gel mousepad of Spring Bonnie (not lewd, I swear) but the only one doing custom ones in the style I wanted is $50 and I can’t justify that.

While organizing for all the reasons I’ve mentioned, I got to set up my Springybois (sans the plush, he’s my cuddle buddy): 

Purple Guy: I love all of these things, but this [Springtrap], this is great!

Star Ocean mascot bunny cameo activate!

One day I’ll explain my llama/Inca obsession...

Sorry about the tangent. I don’t really have anyone to vent to except you guys (well my wife, too, but she hears this all the time). I’m gonna get back to my coffee and try and finish something for this blog because I’m slowly realizing my momentum for this fandom has died a little--but that always happens after I hyper-fixate on something. Doesn’t mean I don’t still love it, I’m just not inspired enough to actively make a ton of content. In fact, I realized I needed some down time and that was part of the reason I planned to play the Mana series, but for reasons mentioned before, that’s kinda fizzled out. I’ll probably be addicted to Mario Kart 8 Deluxe this week, though.