#will is hannibals god blah blah blah

[kuroshika]

honestly im thinking about how hannibal is a firm believer in god but like he also doesnt really say which god. which is soooo funny to me because he sure as hell isnt catholic / christian, because he knows of and follows the teachings of (not in a religious sense, but in the sense that one might follow the news or whatever) other religion’s gods. but in that same vein, he’s also self-identified as a monotheist, so he places his faith in only one higher power, but still recognizes and indulges other deities and religions. he’s sort of accepted and delved really deeply into multiple branches of organized (and unorganized) religion spanning over many different cultures and yet its still unclear which religion he really does follow. he’s made himself above religion while functioning within the inner gears of religion, if that makes sense ??? like he’s set himself on a pedestal that is above the other religions while still relying on those religions to hold his stand up. something something the ripper likes playing his own god.

[godblooded]

ari aster’s shit is painfully important to me. why? well because hereditary isn’t happy but he touches on a lot of things you wouldn’t imagine burrow all the way into my heart and just kind of take root there.

i’m authentically stoked to see beau is afraid. FINALLY.

[regression-1863]

is it smart to put this just like, the day before AO3 goes down? no. will i do so anyways? yes.

“They didnt ask me to kill myself,” Will snapped, glaring back at Hannibal. In the darkness, he looked more like a shadow, a creature, some mix of the demon in his mind and Hannibal.

“Didn't they?” Hannibal stood straighter, “or rather haven't they? Every new case Jack sends you on, everytime you step into the killer's mind, they’re practically begging you to snap.”

Hannibal's hands found its way to Will’s face from behind him., holding it, “The real question,” he leaned in towards him, “is whether you’ll bend…” Will heard a snap, “or break,” Hannibal whispered, his hands lingering on Will's broken neck before the darkness overtook everything.

TLDR: SOMEONE HAD TO WRITE SEASON 4 AND I DECIDED IT WILL BE ME. WHOS GONNA STOP ME, GOD? THAT MF CAN STRIKE ME DEAD IF HE SO PLEASES. (rated teen for violence and manipulation and blah blah blah smut is not going to happen.) (probably.)

more stuff under the cut!! but anyways, dont mind me coming back to writing after like 3 months of doing. not that.

Rating:

Teen And Up Audiences

Archive Warning:

Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Category:

M/M

Fandom:

Hannibal (TV)

Relationships:

Will Graham/Hannibal Lecter

Will Graham & Hannibal Lecter

Alana Bloom & Will Graham

Alana Bloom & Margot Verger

Alana Bloom/Margot Verger

Characters:

Will Graham

Hannibal Lecter

Alana Bloom

Jack Crawford

Additional Tags:

note that the major character death tag is not mentioned

because I said so

Angst

anngst

Angst and Hurt/Comfort

Comfort

eventually

but like

Okay anyways

i love that "will grahams dogs" is a tag

Post-Season/Series 03

Manipulative Will Graham

he deserves to be a littel manipulative

as a treat

[gladiatorcunt]

something something hannibal’s relationship/view with/of god in comparison to his relationship/view with/of will & the need to show both his old and new god that what he believes he’s being falsely punished and judged for is in fact beautiful and natural because he simultaneously wants to be superior yet also wants approval deep down blah blah

[mlobsters]

supernatural s12e23 all along the watchtower (w. andrew dabb)

CASTIEL Kelly. I told you I'd put this together. I'm very good at following instructions.

cute

welcome back, friend-o

said it many times before and i'll say it again, so glad to have pellegrino back. man, he's just so creepy as lucifer. can't get over it. they can give the same lines to someone else and it never quite lands the same

LUCIFER All right, well, I'd love to chat with ya, but, uh, why waste my time, right? It's not like you matter. I don't need to put on the old Sam suit anymore, do I? DEAN You know, if you think we're just gonna let you walk – LUCIFER Oh, hey, Dean! I know you fellas are gonna try, you know, whatever. Whatever you're gonna try. But you can't kill me. You've never been able to kill me. And with, uh, witch bitch gone, you can't put me back in the Cage, so like I said… you don't matter. Okay? Buh-bye. Buh-bye.

is rowena actually dead? i was under the impression she was in other later seasons but i don't actually know. that would be a crappy way to go out, to be sure. i know they like to kill people off, but hell, meg got an amazing episode before she was offed. made me cry! meg!! gonna assume not until proven otherwise

KELLY I'm just saying, the checkout guy looked at us like we were super weird. CASTIEL Ah, you'll get used to it.

lol. (unwanted baby tip though, even non-half-archangel newborns grow super fast so you never know how long a size of diaper will fit. some are too big for newborn sizes almost right away! lol)

what in the world. did she just leak some lucifer baby juice on the truck through her hand

how very hell-ish. so who's our mystery guest. old angel, god, benny, hell-au!dean

KELLY Hi, Jack. It's, uh… I'm your mom.

ps my youngest kiddo is named jack lol

s12e23 / star trek: generations (1994)

have to get back to the nexus!

LOL scrambling for an assist from sam, maybe not your best bet what with sam and lucifer's history

SAM Crowley…why did you do it? Save Lucifer– What did you want? CROWLEY I wanted to win. I perverted Mother's spell, put Lucifer in a vessel of my own making because I wanted to win. You have any idea how many people have made a play for my throne over the years? Lucifer, Abaddon, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Too damn many. I thought if I could put the Devil on a leash… my own personal nuke, no one would ever dare challenge me again.

talk about embarrassing, good grief. i'm not sure crowley has the capacity to feel embarrassed really? so at least i'm not feeling it really either, except from a distance. he's not really bothered, i'm not really bothered! i'd like to think crowley would know better than this, but then everyone has their weak spots

curious where this "i hate my job" thing is going. sam seems dubious (as is right). but another thing i love that they generally keep to with crowley is he's playing a long game, almost always. reminds me a bit of a line about hannibal (though crowley is more mushy human regularly than hannibal is honestly)

hannibal s3e2 primavera WILL GRAHAM Hannibal follows several trains of thought at once, without distraction from any. One of the trains is always for his own amusement. ABIGAIL HOBBS He's playing with us. WILL GRAHAM Always.

CROWLEY Well, whenever there's a world-ending crisis at hand, I know where to place my bets. It's on you, you big, beautiful, lumbering piles of flannel

true and also buttering them up but also getting in a dig, all around very signature crowley, yes please and thank you

CROWLEY So if you'll forgive my transgression, I'll make it worth your while. DEAN Which means? CROWLEY After we put Lucifer back in his cage– together– I'll seal the gates of Hell. You'll never see another demon again, apart from, of course, yours truly. MARY You would do that? CROWLEY Why not? They stab me in the back, I'll happily stab them in the front, the sides, and right up their little black-eyed asses. So… we have a deal?

LOL he wanna move into the bunker too?

CROWLEY This is what you do when I'm not here? Type? DEAN Yep.

haha crowley see it's boring being the good guys too

now what are the odds that crowley does stay there, sitting down, and shutting up :p

DEAN Saving your ass. SAM You and Kelly just taking off was a stupid move. But there's no way we're letting Lucifer get his hands on that kid. It ain't happening. DEAN Look, Sam's right, okay? We'll work through our crap. We always do. But right now, we are here to get you, get Kelly, and get gone.

interesting, feels like sam rarely gets mad at cas. he was actually a little angry here, guess risking lucifer getting jack because they skipped town was a hot button

(ok i went to go look at the script to see if it said what he was thinking and wow a ton of stuff here didn't make into the episode. crowley being wayy too human and more. ok actually all of this is way different than what is happening, i gotta stop reading)

CASTIEL It's a doorway to another world. DEAN Anoth– What, like Narnia? CASTIEL No. No, through there it's Earth, but…but different. It's a– it's an alternate reality.

haha my hell-au!dean batshit suggestion not sounding so batshit!

SAM So it's a Bizarro world? Or – or like the place we got zapped to where we were, uh, uh, actors on a TV show. DEAN Oh, yeah. The supernatural wasn't real. SAM Yeah. DEAN And you were Polish.

:p silly

LOLOL oh my god hell-au!BOBBY! i did not go batshit enough. laughed until i was wheezing

CASTIEL As I said, it's– it's Earth. But this Earth is locked in eternal war between Heaven and Hell. There are armies of angels fighting hoards of demons, and the few humans that remain are caught in between.

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SAM Yeah. John Winchester, our father. BOBBY Doubt it. He's dead. Been dead over 40 years now. Only reason I know about him is this Hunter I ran with, Mary Campbell. You get a few pints of shine into her, and she always told the same story about the man she loved– John Winchester. Azazel killed her about 10 years ago. SAM Cas, what the hell is this? CASTIEL This is a world where you were never born. It's a world you never saved.

haha so it's like SEE this is what would have HAPPENED if mary didn't make the deal with azazel!!!! so she did the RIGHT thing!!! you know i don't think she had a choice since heaven and hell were behind the scenes pulling strings, so i never felt like mary needed absolution, but okay then

MARY Okay. I think they're less than five minutes apart now. It's almost time. How you doin'? KELLY I'm dying. MARY I know. KELLY But that's okay. 'Cause wouldn't you die for your sons? MARY Yeah.

usually pregnancy/labor doesn't get to me but man this is pushing my weepy buttons unexpectedly. some of this being too relatable to when my jack was born (without the anticipated imminent death). they also deployed the mushy music

DEAN You know, Cas has faith in this kid.I hope he's right. But me? I have faith in us. You, me, Mom, Cas. And Crowley. Sometimes.

sweet and cute

shove lucifer into the nexus!

cute. and padalecki's hair always looks best to me when it's a little disheveled

well crowley surely can't be dead after this apparent self sacrifice too, right?

and now cas going in to fight when they're trying to seal the nexus. we're maxing out the drama

cas dead but what, soon to be revived by jack? chuck? somebody. and lucifer pulling mary into the nexus while she uses her amped up brass knuckles to..... punch lucifer in the face a bunch. hoookay. which conveniently now decides to seal with them both inside. with a dead?? crowley

i went back and read through the (production draft) script and things were moved around and a lot was changed/removed. i have only recently gotten in the habit of skimming the scripts when available more regularly for the ep i'm on, so i dunno how common it is for them but so far i haven't seen one even close to as many differences from script to screen that this had

[zapgraptrash]

42, 4 ocs of your choice :)

as in 42 (x4) times? i'll do that and do number 4 just in case i misread lol

42. Let them vent for a second, without the fear of being judged. What would they like to say?

slyger: WHY is it that OTHER ANIMALS can eat their own kind and it's accepted as part of NATURE, but when I do it, i'm A CANNIBAL and a MENACE TO SOCIETY? i'm not even fully human by the arbitrary standards! i'm sure PLENTY of other people would think this is STUPID if they too were to eat another human. it's not like i even do this ALL THE TIME either??? it's all STUPID, FUCK SOCIETY, HANNIBAL LECTER WAS RIGHT.

zapper: YOU KNOW WHAT REALLY GRINDS MY GEARS? grappler: taking multiple dicks at-- zapper: WHEN PEOPLE DON'T PUT THE LIDS BACK ON THINGS. HOW HARD IS IT TO DO? YOU WERE JUST USING THE THING, YOU WERE ABLE TO REMOVE THE LID JUST NOW, WHY IS IT SOOO DIFFICULT TO PUT IT BACK AFTER? grappler: is this because of the toothpaste or the pringles? zapper: YOU LEFT THE FUCKING CAP OFF THE TOOTHPASTE AGAIN??

dom: why do Hot Dogs come in Package of 10 but the Buns come in Package of 8? for the People who don't have a Bun with their Hot Dog people might say. but a Hot Dog with no Bun is just a Sausage. if you want Sausage, why would you buy Hot Dogs? there is no Substance to a Hot Dog Sausage alone. the Bun and the other Filling is part of the Dog as a whole. if you want Sausage alone, that is when you get Bratwurst or something. it makes no Sense to Dom why Buns come in 8 and Hot Dogs come in 10.

jeffrey: it's sooooo hard to be surrounded by MORONS all the time! in fact i have dedicated a paragraph of crticism to each of these empty headed freaks i am forced to be surrounded by, day in day out-- thaddeus: nobody has time for that. jeffrey: babe no i need to-- thaddeus: send post.

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4. What is the thing they like the most about their friends and what is the thing their friends like the most about them?

grappler can answer this since blah blah his colour is the Harmony colour in the pride flag

i mean what's not to like about me right. i'm a fuckin riot, i'm the coolest person they know.

do i gotta give a reason for all of em? well ok i guess. they're not listening right? this shit is so lame.

uhh granox. he's hilarious and he doesn't even try to be. just the way he says shit and when it takes like 3 seconds for his brain to catch up that's hysterical.

ricky now that she isn't like our boss anymore, she's actually cool as hell. ultimate wingman. wingwoman whatever. she'll literally big anyone up and make em believe they can do anything. everyone needs someone like that in their life y'know.

dom, if you like ever wanted a friend who will dish out the physical affection, she's the one. i know it sounds big cringe but her hugs rule. and she like hangs on to your every word, she like remembers the smallest of things

thaddeus i mean uh have you seen him? yeah he's hot as hell and oh my god he sure knows how to [REDACTED]. ok but like fucking aside, he like knows a ton of shit? once you get him talking he'll talk your ear off about something and it's like, so cool to listen to? always the quiet ones.

does masuyo like consider me a friend? well i hope she does i guess. she's badass. like in the effortless way. not many people can pull that off.

slyger sucks ass hahaha he's a big fuckin baby. (is he listening? no? ok well you know the animal people he draws? what the fuck that's awesome man.)

i'm not gonna talk about zapper fuck him haha. he like knows how annoying i think he is already.

[osbcrne]

and Will called to them for help so many times during season 1 but they literally ignored him when he's literally this half dead shaking dripping hallucinating feverish mess. And then they straight up turned him away when he went to jail. Like- who WOULDNT chose hannibal there??

But still, it was premeditated- Hannibal is the only person Will could go to, and that's exactly what he wanted. then will manipulated hannibal but he realized in himself oh shit i like being evil with him but then he had internal denial and then mizumono and blah blah we know what happens-

Even though they manipulate and try to kill eachother back and forth they feel comfortable and seen and understood with eachother and that's just so 😭😭😭i fucking can't with them oh my god

one may call Will’s behaviour codependency but let me say

literally everyone turned away from Will when he was only SUSPECTED in crime (Jack, Alana, etc), and most of them were always a bit scared of Will’s instability, but Hannibal never did anything like that

he was like ‘oh you tried to kill me once, you’ll probably try again, tell me then how would you like to do it’

who wouldn't fall for this? i mean WHO

[veryspecificnostalgia]

animal + cannibal by ke$ha

original release: 2010

[lilgynt]

i can’t think about how hannibal literally took multiple children away from will i want to eat glass

[catastrophic-crisis]

society if the "super" and "lock" in superwholock were instead something else

[roaringheat]

"ive never known myself as well as i know myself when im with him" BIH HELLO???

[shinelikethunder]

I missed Hannibal fandom when the show was airing, so I have no idea whether I’m voicing an Accepted Opinion or an Unpopular Opinion or wading into longstanding discourse...

...but goddammit, I loved Abigail for herself and her own weird interiority and issues, and she deserved so much better than to be made into a hallucinatory mouthpiece for the part of Will that’s still desperately in love with Hannibal Lecter.

(I say this as someone who both Ships The Thing and enjoys the fuck out of s3 and how trippy it is. Doesn’t matter. Doesn’t even matter how clever the writing is and how you can tell by the total lack of interiority that something is off and this clearly isn’t Real Abigail. No matter how much I enjoy shameless OTP content, I do not want it delivered via the tacky, gratuitous waste of a character I originally enjoyed.)

[acesstark]

I like to think that post-fall, Will is the first to make a move and close the last bit of distance between himself and Hannibal— but it took a very frustratingly long amount of time for him to do so.

Hannibal absolutely could have done it first, but he wanted Will to be the one to come to him. Maybe it was a tiny bit petty, a sort of payback for Will running off and marrying someone else and not seeing him for three years, maybe it was Hannibal wanting confirmation that Will wouldn’t leave him this time. (He was mostly being petty, though.)

Hannibal flirts, heavily, because they both know how Hannibal feels and he loves seeing Will squirm. He lets his hands linger on Wills shoulder for longer than necessary. He unashamedly, appreciatively, drags his eyes across Wills form early in the morning. He stares down anyone in town that glances at Will any longer than a few seconds, silently telling them to back off.

Will notices all of this, and obviously knows how Hannibal feels about him. It’s almost uncomfortable at first, Will still hasn’t completely admitted to himself what he knows deep down he really wants (being deep in denial is what will graham is best at).

It builds, though, the more he clocks the look in Hannibals eyes when their gazes meet, when he begins to appreciate Hannibals possessiveness when they’re in public, when he realizes he’s gone days without thinking of Molly and the life he abandoned, when he finds himself waiting up for Hannibal to get home— home— late into the night.

It all hits its peak after a particularly frustrating night for Will. Hannibal’s found his way into Will’s dreams, last nights dream being particularly vivid, and Will lies in bed for a moment after waking before he realizes that it wasn’t real. He stumbles his way out of his room, smelling coffee from the pot Hannibal always has running before Will wakes up, and he enters the kitchen to find Hannibal at their small dining table, coffee mug in hand and eyes trained on Wills movements across the kitchen.

Will blushes, the knowledge of being watched making him feel like Hannibal can see what’s going on in his head, and turns his back to grab a mug from the cabinet above the coffee pot.

In reality, it happens quickly, but to Will it felt like years. One moment, his back is to Hannibal, the feeling of eyes on him a weighty presence, and in the next, there’s a solid body pressed up against his backside. Hannibal, somehow right behind him, reaches up to open the cabinet above their heads and pulls a mug down, placing it in Will’s hand before the man even gets the chance to turn around.

When he does, he meets Hannibal’s gaze immediately, and something in it is so heavy and openly wanting that it makes Will gasp, a little ohmygod that he knows Hannibal hears perfectly based on the way he tries, and fails, to conceal a small grin.

“Not God,” Hannibal murmurs, soft and low into the small space of air between them. “But close.”

Will thinks for a second, I want to kiss him, and he does.

…

Blah blah blah they live happily ever after eating people and being homosexually in love The End.

[adhdphilosopher]

i need, i NEED, something lighter and more fun to break up the incredibly heavy air of every day. and yet?? my brain is like “you told your classmates you would report back with your opinion on hannibal s3 so you gotta watch the entire thing tonight/tomorrow. no breaks”

[kaijuposting]

Some observations on Newt Geiszler

Newt thinks Hermann is a bit loony sometimes, and he isn't afraid to show it. When Hermann proclaims that "numbers are as close to we get to the handwriting of God!", Newt immediately responds with a baffled, yet very amused "What?" Then he mocks Hermann by mouthing "blah, blah, blah" and making mouth movements with his hand. Newt will absolutely clap back at Hermann. When Newt says that he thinks that the kaiju are attacking under orders and Hermann responds with "that's impossible," Newt immediately reacts with "Is it impossible?". When Hermann doubles down, Newt gets pissed and yells back "You know what, why don't you drift with a kaiju?!" Newt recovers quickly from being flexed on - Hannibal Chau stuck a butterfly knife up his nose, and short while later he's perfectly calm. Newt only has so much patience for Hannibal's shenanigans, too. He makes this perfectly clear when he says "Guess who's back, you one-eyed bitch? You owe me a kaiju brain." And sure, he's shaking, but that's literally because a kaiju just tried to eat him. I think most people would be pretty shaken under the circumstances. According to this deleted scene, Newt wasn't exactly thrilled with Raleigh Becket's attitude, and he very quickly made it known. Raleigh thought he was going to have the last word when he put his hand on Newt's shoulder and said "trust me, you don't wanna," but Newt fights back and basically makes it clear that he thinks Raleigh is all violence and no brains. The only reason the argument stops is because Stacker Pentecost cuts it off. So basically, Newt Geiszler is full of piss and vinegar. He can more than hold his own against any snark Hermann can throw at him, and he doesn't let anyone else walk over him, either. He's no delicate little flower; he's a bitey little varmint. One can't really imagine things going well for anyone who tries to meddle in Newt's affairs; he is not subtle, but he is quick to anger, and he will laugh at you. (God help the poor fool who tries to get Newt and Hermann go on a date, let alone kiss before they feel good and ready for it, for this soul would face both of their wraths. I think it's safe to say that when this happens it's going to happen on Newt and Hermann's schedule, and not a moment before.)

[mlobsters]

supernatural s15e5 proverbs 17:3 (w. steve yockey)

the ghost pepper jerky thing was pretty cute, minus the gagging. reminds me of this local jalapeño jerky i bought at some i don't even know what thing in a giant corporate building when i was working as a temp doing the most tedious data entry job over the summer one year in phoenix in the late 90s. it was luscious. always chasing that jerky dream

padalecki getting to flex all sorts of different characters. demon blood!sam, lucifer!sam. so, we going with this is just nightmares? not visions? reminds me of when he was so certain the visions he was getting were from god and never considered they were coming from lucifer in whatever season that was. 11? just with all his history, would think visions might be up there in the list of considerations whenever some weird ass shit is going on in his head. but who knows, maybe he has had vivid nightmares like that before so he brushes it off. if i wanna fill in the gaps for them

DEAN Look at you. You look like a baby. SAM Me? Look at you. DEAN What? I look exactly the same.

cute cute. what is that picture of sam lol. wiki says that's s1 sam hair but his hair never looked like that in the show :p

via the wiki

Sam and Dean go undercover as U.S. Wildlife Service agents, with Sam taking the alias "Agent Mark Hamill" and Dean using "Agent Dean Ford". Sam and Dean last used these identities in 1.03 Dead in the Water. "Deep cut", originally a music term, generally means an obscure reference that only people with an intimate knowledge of a topic will get. Additionally, when Eric Kripke was pitching Supernatural, he used the phrase "Star Wars in truck stop America", and described the characters of Sam and Dean Winchester (then Harrison) thus: “If Sam’s the good kid, Dean’s the troublemaker. If Sam’s Luke Skywalker, Dean’s Han Solo.”

very kind of... cheeky shots. the slightly goofy outfits, the taxidermy, her being so low down and looking way up. i see this is another speight jr directed episode

we're pushing hard on this dean will protect the girl who was attacked thing, which seems like setting up for failure

this getup is very cute on sam, not gonna lie

ANDY I didn’t want to hunt people in the first place. Dad would never have – JOSH Dad is dead! JOSH Look, hey. If you don’t want to hunt people… we’ll stop.

LOL the brothers and the younger one doesn't want to hunt and dad is dead. except the hunting is eating people

JOSH I don’t lie to you. I look out for you. So, we’ll stop.

see, just regular brother stuff

DEAN Do I like it? I do. I mean, there’s bad, don’t get me wrong. A lot of bad. Still, feels good to help people. You know? ASHLEY Did you ever want to be anything else? DEAN Jimi Hendrix. DEAN No, not really. I’m where I’m supposed to be.

confirming he's still in on the job and life and all i guess. speaking of, what about sam's crushing grief and depression from last episode

jesus christ. we had one vampire kid offering himself up to be killed last episode, now we've got a werewolf brothers murder suicide

15x05 / hannibal s1e1

LOL what. is chuck just having a laugh or something.

lilith, really?? this reunion tour is so far beyond out of hand :p

LILITH Was dead. Yeah. In the Empty, sleeping the big sleep, until the boss brought me back. SAM The boss? Lucifer? LILITH God. I was supposed to get rescued and in a moment of sweet relief seduce Dean, blah blah blah, obviously that’s not happening now, so – oh, well.

should have gone for an older body if that was the case, i don't think dean's really down for 22 year olds anymore

really doing the greatest hits here. now sam gets a visit from demon!dean in his brain while he has yet another concussion

LILITH Word for word. God… he is not exactly Shakespeare. He’s more of a low-rent Dean Koontz. I had to listen to his whole, quote “writing philosophy”. And his very weird, very pervy obsession with you. Then it always ends the same. One brother killing the other. I mean, this world… he could’ve ended it in so many ways, and… he likes that one. You know, I guess that’s why you had to see the werewolf brothers die the way they did, ‘cause… foreshadowing.

like, the meta shade is getting to be a LOT. i'm not arguing being while i love sam and dean, i don't often like the plot. but if y'all agree, be better :p

i like the actress who is playing lilith though, she seems to be having fun with it

DEAN That Cas? SAM Yeah, straight to voicemail. Again. DEAN Yeah, well. We gave the heads up on Chuck and Lilith, so… what else are we supposed to do?

i thought the whole breakup with cas thing was a bit out of left field but whatever. dean was being an asshole so, good for him taking a break and staying incommunicado

DEAN So, what? We’re just stuck in his… in his maze, still? And now, Lilith is back. I mean, what’s he gonna do? Just throw our greatest hits at us?

mmhm.

SAM Dean, my dreams, or visions, or whatever… they all end the same way. With us killing each other. DEAN You’re just telling me this now? SAM I-I thought they must’ve been some form of messed up PTSD, but… but what if they’re not? What if I’m somehow seeing Chuck’s endings? You know, different ones.

see, that is one of the few bright spots of the late-late seasons. they actually talk about important things in a semi-timely manner

DEAN How would that be possible? SAM ‘Cause of this. When I shot Chuck, the bullet wasn’t a bullet, it was uh… a piece of me. Right? So, what if it created a – a link of sort, you know? I mean, what if – what if I don’t… what if somehow, I’m in his head?

okayy that's not the explanation i was expecting. the bullet was a piece of him? i thought it was just energy. guess i wasn't really paying attention to the technobabble explanation either

feels like it's been a while since dean's really broken down like this and gotten emotional. usually in the big emotion scenes with sam, dean's the one that's keeping pretty steady. but can really feel some of the despair coming through this time and like he's actually choked up

i think i've been a little confused/judgey about how it seemed like he was very emotional in the early seasons and it just locked up tight, like jackles wasn't going there because xyz reason that wasn't necessarily a show reason. which is silly, he's all-in on the show and character. so i'm sure it was a character choice. but i guess the shift felt unnatural to me? maybe it'll make more sense when (i'm saying when, not if) i rewatch it. or maybe it's not as stark as i'm remembering it