#will delete this later

[rinksrats]

I’m drawing a sidney crosby paper doll because I’m being piloted by a brain worm and this is something it likes to do sometimes, but if anyone thinks of any classic sid looks please shoot me a message I’d love some ideas

to be completed:

- puka shell necklace sid

- rimouski, bubble helmet sid

- tim hortons ‘employee of the month’ sid

[vivika-ka]

For anyone in the ASPEC community, how did you find out you are in the ASPEC spectrum? I’ve been grappling with my identity for a while now.

Getting super personal for a minute but as someone who grew up in a small town in Brazil where even the concept of being LGBTQ+ was considered a sin/taboo during the time I was a child and teen (I’ve been told it’s somewhat better now!), I’m still trying to understand my own sexuality now that I’m out of there and have the opportunity to even explore how I feel.

And thinking back on my intimate experiences, I never felt anything while engaging in them. I’d enter some sort of limbo, idk. Just complete numbness. And I felt absolutely awful after—I’d be extremely depressed for days.

Like, I know only one instance when the journey of being together with the person and even light activities (that felt genuine) made me feel enjoyment and love. And there were the rare times I’d want to engage in sexual activities, when I felt in love with the person. But when it got to the activity itself, zilch, I felt nothing. Which made me feel guilty.

I still have difficulties knowing what spectrum I fall under. On one hand I’d say I’m panromantic asexual. On the other hand I’d say I’m just pan asexual. But both experiences (romantic and non-romantic) rendered me numb.

The thing that confuses me is, I love romance. I love love, if that makes any sense. But when it comes to me in the equation, it often (but not always) falls flat? So I get to the question of, “Am I aromantic too, then?” And I fall in this rabbit hole of scattered identities. And admittedly I often find myself falling into some sort of traditional line of thinking (thx Protestant and Catholic upbringing 🫠)

Anyway, I’m in a constant state of trying to understand myself and my sexuality, and even feel pressured at times to have a specific answer, given how it seems extremely important for people online.

Most people seem so sure. They know with such certainty, I find myself envious at times. Given that I often find myself at a lost. And that usually makes me feel…incomplete, for a lack of better word. I feel like I don’t belong anywhere. Idk.

[amajorchord]

Drawing clefdraki again after Francis streak peace and love on planet earth

[cheery-bomb]

[sunny1927]

Random thought: I like giving characters a little gap in their teeth’s (out of nowhere. I just think it’s cute and simple)

Just. Wanted to share that. Yeah

[applesoftgaze]

Shimmy shimmy ya shimmy ya shimmy ya mm drank swalala mm drank swalala swalala

[simsimulation]

This isn't terrifying AT ALL!!

[nettleclanstale]

GUYS.

HAZELSTAR WAS A CALICO THIS WHOLE TIME AND I NEVER NOTICED.

[ozarkthedog]

Some people use likes as a bookmark and may not have read them yet...

your attitude 🤮

I already know this but there are other ways to save fics to read. Your drafts?? A side blog? Or maybe just reblog with a ‘TBR’ tag??

[nell0-0]

Too tired to draw, what is this curse. I wanna draw so badly but can't even focus on the screen, augh

[winterarmyy]

i want rant for a bit. bare with me.

look,, i just want to be alone. that is how i recharge my mental state; to calm myself down, to process the waves of depression that none of my family knew or even noticed tbh. i really cherish my alone time. that is how i find peace after a long day of living in this reality. i need my personal space, especially after socializing with people all day. do you get it? i hope someone here gets it because today has been a hard fucking day and i just want peace by sleeping ALONE.

long story short, at the end of this entirely irritating day, me and my mom & bro is staying over my sis house and i'm supposed to be sharing a room/bed with either my mom or my bro. i refused both because i don't want have anyone close to me right now. so i offered to sleep on the couch at the living room. no big deal, right? does not fucking concern anyone at all if you think about it. plus i'm used to sleep on the floor either way. so a coach is great. point is, i just want to be alone, at least give me that space when i'm sleeping.

then, this is my conversation goes with my sis:

older sis: *seeing me prepping to sleep on the couch* why are you sleeping on couch?

me: i want to sleep alone.

older sis: why? just sleep with mom. what's your problem?

me: i just, i don't want to.

older sis: she is your mom.

me: i know and i don't wanna sleep with anyone regardless if it is mom, bro or you or anyone else. i just want to be alone. i need space.

older sis: it's just one night. why do you want space anyway?

me: why can't i just want it? it's not that i'm bothering anyone. i just want to sleep alone. *proceed to lay on the couch and pull my phone up, ignoring her*

older sis: *continue to glare at me for a solid 3 mins then she said walked away while rambling and mumbling things like...* i don't understand why do you need space? being fcking dramatic. the only time you'll need to be alone is when you're six feet deep in your grave. when you're dead.

me: *continued to give silent treatment while aggressively writing this*

ps: the whole conversation, my sis voice keeps getting higher and angrier. and i simply had a monotone and resolute. so tell me why tf is this woman so pissed about me wanting to be alone? meanwhile, my mom don't really give a shit where i sleep. it's just 'sleep'. you do what's comfortable for you, she said.

[hanafubukki]

WHHHHHEEEEEE I HAVENT SLEPT FOR….awhile….and counting 😆🥰

….im going to knock out …eventually

Someone send lilia or malleus to wake me up if no one hears from me hahahah 🥰🥰💞💞

[amajorchord]

Two fully colored posts and im alreayd back on the grind im insane

[cheery-bomb]

my fishnets again

[pezhead]

Apologies to the any tmntaucomp specific asks I didn't answer. I won't be answering those since Age Gap is no longer in the comp, and I'd like to focus my attention on other art/projects/etc~

[sunny1927]

I forgot to mention, the animatic I’m currently working on right now is actually for a competition (basically a film competition, I won’t get into any details for personal reasons but yeah).

So wish me luck on winning this-

(I’m probably gonna need it)