#will be giving surgery updates

[cloudy-skyes]

Hello everyone!! Just a fair warning that I will be going into surgery tomorrow (nothing really bad, just wisdom teeth removal), but because of this I’m focusing on my college work before I become a useless blob for the next week.

Because of this, updates will probably be slow for the next week, but I’ll still do my best to work on your requests! Thank you all so much for supporting me, it means a lot <3

[stil-lindigo]

DONATE THROUGH PAYPAL

DONATE THROUGH VENMO

Safebow, led by raindovemodel over on instagram, is a grassroots team currently doing their best to evacuate almost 200 Palestinian individuals from Gaza.

To do this, they had to raise over $300,000 in a very short amount of time. Amazingly, they not only raised that amount, but surpassed it to the point that they'll now be able to buy prosthetics for the hospitals they work with.

However, Gofundme has thrown a spanner into the work by going completely silent and holding up over half of their funds.

They are on a time crunch as they desperately try to recoup their money before the border closes. Please donate to their Paypal, Venmo or Zelle. Their window of success is genuinely a matter of days.

[sorrcha]

life update: had to leave my job thanks to long covid. i'll most likely have a job again by late november, just one that doesn't pay as well.

i don't need to open commissions yet, but requests are open. i'll take as many as i can get- especially since i'll have a lot more free time starting in two weeks.

while i don't need additional financial support right now, many others do. i'd like to nudge anyone reading this towards gaza funds and world vision. gaza funds hosts fundraisers for palestinian families. world vision provides hurricane relief to the southern united states.

[tsnbrainrot]

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[coochiequeens]

When redditors are admitting that the accusation of transphobia is thrown around too much I get more hope that people are seeing through the rampant narcissism in the TQ+ community .

[mulders-too-large-shirt]

i had planned on finishing s1 tonight but i am not feeling the greatest at this moment (sad!) so hopefully i'll get around to it tomorrow... and then i'll make a favorite moments from s1 list, one for each of our main characters separately and one for their best duo moments!

[californiaquail]

i have minor ass surgery this afternoon unfortunately (cyst) and i made the mistake of watching youtube videos of the procedure. fear

[greyias]

I've literally never interacted with anyone on here (heavy social anxiety turned me into a lurker before I could even post) but I went through what you're going through with your mom right now with my dad as a kid and it sucks. So. Much. I know there's probably nothing I can say that'll help or make you feel better, but for what it's worth, I'm sorry, and you're not alone. I'd say I'd pray for you guys but I don't want to overstep any religious boundries, so I'll just say good luck. ❤

Thank you for the kind words, Nonny, I'm sorry to hear about your dad and hope things are a little better/easier now. It has definitely been a Week™ (or week+ at this point) on this side of things, and I appreciate the support ♥

The situation seems to be an ever evolving beast, but at least as of this moment I'm writing things seem to be back on an upswing? It's definitely one of those situations that has to be taken one day/one moment at a time because it gets to be a little much otherwise.

[jimothystu]

um?????

also fucking finally a Monahan update

[somethings-monstrous]

Content warning: abuse mention and description below the cut, mild sui ideation mention, some csa related talk. Me/Us venting, you guys know the drill. Keep scrolling and stay safe out there in the Tumblr wilds, ya'll.

I didn't want to know.

I didn't want to know how she is doing.

I didn't want to know she still lives with them.

I didn't want to know what she is doing.

I didn't want to be reminded of her.

I didn't want to feel the aching void left behind by the child I helped raise.

I didn't want to remember how they slowly made her hate me.

I didn't want to remember how that hatred began to stain my skin in purples and blues.

I didn't want to remember how they tried to use her to drag me back.

I didn't want to remember her words of hatred and anger immediately followed the next day by mock understanding when guilt and fury failed. "I get why you left. They never listen." As if I walked away because of clogged ears.

I didn't want to remember her kind words dripping with poison mixed by our mother.

I didn't want to remember the puppet she became in their failed attempts to drag me back.

I didn't want to remember how my silence finally made her drop the act..her hatred for me lashing out from every word spilled across the screen.

I didn't want to remember her mocking me for being afraid of them knowing my address..and the next day finding the cops at my door.

I didn't want to remember how she witnessed so much of what we survived, and still chooses them...and how I cannot fault her for it.

I didn't want to remember my grandmother telling me that she saw him dragging me though the house by my hair, kicking and screaming with bruises around my neck and arms. The riding crop still in his hand. Dragging me to the bathtub to try to drown me again.

I didn't want to remember that in my idiocy and denial, I called our mother and told her our shared daughter saw. Looking in through the window with our cousins. Crying and afraid. Too young to understand. She was only 7. She shouldn't have seen. I never wanted her to see.

I didn't want to remember that the next time I saw her, I could tell she was no longer happy to see me. My own stupidity shining through the distrust in her eyes. I'll never know what they told her..but it worked. I handed them the knife they used to sever our bond. Stupid. Foolish. Ignorant child that I was.

I didn't want to remember how she wanted me to support her vitriol towards him, the hurt looks when I refused..staring into my mother's black eyes through the review mirror, watching me..waiting for me to slip up and give her an excuse to take her from me. The glass I walked on just to keep seeing her. Nausea as I gently told her not to talk about him like that. Tinge of disappointment in those black eyes that I passed the test..then glee at the sight of pain in those blue-green eyes staring at me..wanting solidarity against the stupid oaf she had hated since she saw...never knowing how much she didn't see. Never suspecting. Too young and innocent.

I didn't want to remember what I did to protect that innocence. 10 years old, telling him we would kill him if he touched her. Standing guard at her door night after sleepless night. Years of standing guard. The terror when I fell asleep on the couch one night and she came to me shaking almost violently. "Did he touch her? Did he hurt her? Did I fail?" Relief when she just had a nightmare and was cold from sleep. No blood. No bruises. No pain. Sleepy eyes still innocent and unknowing.

I didn't want to remember how painful my existence has been for her. That my survival has meant her pain. Even with her hatred...I knew it would hurt. I knew..but I knew she was safe..they wouldn't hurt her. They needed her to grow up normal. Needed one kid that wasn't a fucked up walking red flag for abusive family. They wouldn't hurt her. She was safe..but dripping poison..and the pain I caused by walking away just added to it.

I didn't want to remember that she became cruel like them. Hatred and disdain..racism, homophobia, cruelty on her tongue and hardening those eyes that looked at me with more and more loathing.

I didn't want to remember how my abuse and trauma took away her sister. Left her with anger and hatred and grief. A void where "mommy number 2" and her jealously guarded sister once dwelled.

I didn't want to remember her child's rage at being told we were only half sisters. "We are all sisters, not just half! She's my sister. You're my sister!" Tiny arms wrapping around me..jealous little creature clinging to me, glaring at the offending person who dared point out that we didn't share a father. (If his blood flowed through my veins I would have emptied them years ago..but that wasn't something she should ever know.)

I didn't want to remember that I was the only one who could get her to smile for pictures. The blue of her dress. The last movie we watched together, curled up on my "bed" in the garage, every extra penny I could scrape together spent on making her happy..spending time with her. Taking her shopping. To the movies. Normalcy..and apologies for the future I knew was coming. The inevitable severance. The hope I could stay until she was old enough to understand..or ask why.

I didn't want to remember coming home from her 15th birthday with fresh bruises as my last gift from her, knowing it was the last time I'd see her..failing to keep myself from hoping one day she would see through the lies and manipulations clearly enough to ask me why. To want to know..to reach out.

I didn't want to remember how that hope withered and rotted when I realized I could never trust her not to be a puppet for our mother.

I didn't want to remember the guilty relief I feel, knowing she will never know what they did to me. She will never know how broken we are. She will never see the monsters lurking beneath their skin. That me leaving is the worst thing that happened to her before adulthood. It aches, but I am grateful that I am the worst thing to happen to her.

I didn't want to remember.

I didn't fucking want to remember.

I didn't fucking want to know.

[hardtchill]

“an MCL, meniscus, scar tissue etc”

I’m getting the vibe it wasn’t any of these. But I also think Christen flat out would’ve said she’d be out the whole season if that was the case so idk

Yeah, i'm just hoping here tbh. I feel like the 2nd surgery would have dealt with scar tissue. Really the only thing that could have happened is her tearing an MCL in training but if it was lingering they would have dealt with it during the second surgery.

As i said, to me it feels like they tried to avoid the revision with the 2nd surgery but it didn't work.

[jupiterbyrd]

ive been playing sims 4 for YEARS now and i only just now had a baby with father winter

and it was twins

which was great because im doing the 100 baby challenge so i want multiples to help speed up the process

[awkwardexxodus]

AND YOUR GLASSES NEED A NEW PRESCRIPTION

girlie that's not a random headache u are dehydrated malnourished over caffeinated over stressed and sleep deprived

[gingrrfrog]

the ao3 curse exists...

my poor puppy has to get surgery because of her knees and i am devastated even though she will be alright. because i don't know what could happen, updates will be a little slower, but will happen--please be patient with me while my little girl gets her procedure.