#wildcstwinter / toulouse.

[beautysenshi]

location: evermore museum + gallery ♡ @wildcstwinter

while mona had always enjoyed visiting the museum , those visits became more frequent within the past month . she'd always to do the same thing : wander around the building for a couple of hours , then come back to the same painting only to sit before it like a lost child , waiting . not even mona herself was sure of what she was waiting for , maybe a sign or some kind of guidance . anything . usually anything associated with venus brought comfort to her heart and a great big smile to the senshi's lips , but now it was all disappointment . the only thing she felt was grief , and a deep sense of regret . she failed . again , and now rei was missing along with half the town . ❛ maybe i'm not good at this stuff anymore , ❜ the girl mused quietly , clutching the orange transformation pen in her hands . how was she supposed to help protect the earth when she couldn't even protect her friend , or evermore ? rubbing her eyes briefly , mona set the pen beside her on the bench . maybe someone else would find it and make better use of the item ; it was a perfectly functioning pen after all . or maybe artemis would find them and pass the job on , either or . just as she was starting to step away from her spot , mona caught herself almost bumping into someone , which prompted her to make a squeak - like sound and stumble back . ❛ aah ! thought you were a moving statue for a second there ! oof , ❜ an awkward laugh . mona liked to thing she was good with improvisation , but she really wasn't . ❛ sorry 'bout that ... ❜

[jazzykitten]

Continued from here for @wildcstwinter

The moment the invitation slipped from his brother's lips Berlioz felt more trapped than he already was. He didn't know what to say. When was the last time the two of them had spent any time together? If we're both just going to walk away from this and make shitty decisions can we at least do it together? The words echoed over and over and over again in his head. Berlioz had still been trying to process all of Toulouse's words before the sudden invitation. The younger man felt a hole burning in his pocket where there was a small bag of coke he had. It's not like he was going to go to work without it. He needed that instant after shift high. Berlioz swallowed hard as he pieced together what he was going to say. He had enough coke to get him through the awkward hell that this most likely would be for the both of them. All he would have to do is go to the bathroom. That was completely normal. He knew he would have to find an easy escape the moment he stepped foot in Toulouse's apartment. It was kind of scary to think the brothers lived so close together but were so distant from one another. It gave Berli an unsettling feeling. He'd doesn't even remember ever going there. "Fine," he finally spoke, "lead the way."

[ladamemarie]

marie was conflicted. with toulouse, she tried to be more honest with him because he was the safer brother to be vulnerable with. at the same time they were all so twisted in their own shit that she didn't want add to his burdens. she was a failure, really. for not being able to keep her family together...for never being enough for them all. for destroying herself while they did the same to themselves and sometimes each other unintentionally. she would never call her family a burden or too much, but sometimes it could feel like everything that was happening was suffocating. shaking her head she just gave toulouse a tired look. "well, if we all went to family therapy like i have begged, maybe we would be getting somewhere with that." she was being snippy and maybe a little bit unfair but it wasn't like she hadn't tried. "i'm sorry....all of this is just so...fucked." she couldn't think about how mother was handling it. it would just break her more. "but we have to....figure something out. for mama." @wildcstwinter

toulouse couldn't help but frown at that comment, hating to even think about marie being the one to find their brother holding on for dear life. the visual of berlioz being in that state was enough to send the older man spiraling... but the knowledge that marie was the one to save him didn't make it any easier to stomach, if anything, it made it worse. it was just another reminder of how much of a failure toulouse had been in this whole thing; unable to stop his brother from getting to that point in the first place, unable to protect his sister from the true horror of it all... and then to not even TALK to berlioz and sit here, asking marie what she knew ?? ❛ i'm sorry, ❜ toulouse apologized, practically beginning to inhale the contents of his beer bottle, already halfway through what would no doubt become one of many drinks tonight. ❛ i don't either, and i have no idea how to ask... i can't even imagine how mom is handling it.❜ toulouse made a mental note to go see her at some point, even though the thought of seeing the hurt in her eyes was enough for him to wince. ❛ i just don't know what happened... where everything went wrong. for all of us.❜