#why.... do i owe him money ????
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GO FRENCHIE GO!!!!
#Nevermore#Nevermore Webtoon#Webtoon#HOOOOOO BOY A BIG ONE TODAY! PLUTO BACKSTORY LOOK AT HIM AND HIS TWO WHOLE EYES#Ngl I thought he already was in Paris with the buildings outside#Oop there’s dad uhhh hey Buddy don’t hurt Pluto#Yeah he earned his own money (working where I wonder) he can spend it how he wants to and see the lights!#Him yelling at his dad mmmm so good Pluto voice very fun to do#OW WHY’D YOU CUT HIS EYEBALL THAT’S SO RUDE#NO IT’S NOT TEARS (IT IS) IT’S BLOOD YOU IDIOT LOOK WHAT YOU DID WHAT DID I JUST ASK YOU NOT TO DO#YOU’RE THE ONE WHO’S NOT A MAN#ACK MONTRESOR an aside the way they went in between flashbacks and current day this ep was very well done#NO WHY DO YOU HAVE A MACHETE SIR PLZ DON’T USE IT ALL HE HAS IS A CROWBAR#Gosh it’s just like Shiloh there were no bullets butcha pulled the trigger and what does that say about you#NO DON’T CUT HIM BUT YES DUKE CAN GET OUT OF ANYTHING (DID PLUTO KNOW WHO HE WAS WHEN HE WAS ALIVE) IT’S ALL PART OF THE DAMN TRICK!#OH NO NOT THE WATER TORTURE CELL#DARN GUY ON THE SIDE WHOEVER THE HECK YOU ARE I NEED TO LOOK THROUGH POE AGAIN#LOOK HOW PANICKED HE IS GET HIM OUT OF THERE#DON’T CHANGE THE SUBJECT YOU IDIOT IT’S NOT ABOUT PRAISE PRAISE CAN’T DO ANYTHING HERE DON’T SMILE AT HIM WHILE HE’S DROWNING#MANIFESTATIONNNNNNNN OMG I’M SO EXCITED TO SEE HIS SPECTRE CARD AND DESIGN AND VIBES AND AFTER THIS LENORE WILL BE THE ONLY ONE#AND I HAVE AN ART PIECE LINED UP I LITERALLY JUST NEED HIS SPECTRE DESIGN AND THEN IT’S LIKE DONE SO SO SO SUPER EXCITED!!
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Me when I'm listening to the most stupidest story about my mom giving my brother $1500 for a down payment for a 2nd car while his in the shop for a deer hitting him and him losing the nonrefundable $1500 cause he drove 2 hours away to a scummy dealership and he didn't get approve for enough credit from the bank
#like... idk maybe cause I don't have a son but does anyone else have experience with a mom acting delulu for their son???#like... 1st she paid $17k for the brand new 2022 which he traded in behind her back so he can get a 'fast car'#he got in an accident in the fast car mom put the parts to repair on her credit cards#since now the fast car wasnt pretty any more with mixmatch parts he traded in that car for a lexus for payments#which is dumb cause the whole excuse on why he traded in the 2022 cause he didn't want payments#he hit a deer with the lexus and i guess he thought they was gonna total the car cause he was already looking for a new one#but they gonna fix the lexus but he still went to try to get that car...#and that lady just agreed to it...#he owes her thousands of dollars...#she keeps on saying 'oh well he got a new job making $17 an hour and plus he's working a part time he's gonna pay me back#he's been saying that since he traded the 2022 and he barely paid you anything...#like why are you enabling his impulse purchasing???#he thinks these cars are like toys or something and you just letting him use your cash and credit like that...#then she's like... 'well I would do the same for us' referring to us other daughters#but like... we're not idiots that would purposely put you in these situations...#why on earth does he need a 2nd car??? he only making $17 an hour plus a part time job??? you live at home??? why did you agree to this???#just tell him no for once????#idk I feel like I'm going crazy or am I just super stingy with my money and credit score?#callyie chat
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WHY DID MY UNCLE JUST HAND ME A THE ALBATROSS TTPD VINYL UNPROVOKED
#I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WTF#HELL I OWE HIM MONEY WHY DID HE GIVE ME THIS#I'M FREAKING THE FUCK OUT#the tortured poets department#ttpd#taylor swift#📀: the tortured poets department#🎤: taylor swift#cee speaks into the void
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it was never my life to live and he didn’t fall for the real me… he fell for an accessory and thought he could just change the label while things stayed the same
#sorry y’all I’m probably gonna be venting about this the next few weeks#still getting over the sudden ending of this SR and I’m working my way through it#wait why am I apologizing it’s my blog 😭#mine#SB chronicles#it will probably irk me for a while that he thinks I’m at fault for the way things ended when it was entirely him#and he will probably think of me as sensitive and petty and a hoe that was just after his money and he’ll be all the more bitter#towards women after this and I feel bad for whoever he picks up after me#he’s just on a cycle of rebounds…. not healthy at all#his punishment is who he is and no woman in her healed mind is going to stay with him once she realizes who he is#he will end up alone sooner or later#or keep running through women bc he eventually takes his facade off#maybe white women can handle all that emotional abuse but not me baby#I like my men respectful sweet patient and kind and good at communication#I still can’t believe I was going to date him for real and before I could get those words out#he immediately showed me why I would have regretted that decision#I somehow dodged a bullet but still experiencing pain and feeling like I was owed more good times with him#I just wanted a few more months of all the good…..#but there were a lot of things that irritated the shit out of me and I’m forgetting to remember those things#I’m romanticizing our time together#I mean it was wonderful while it was good but I hated hearing and smelling his fucking gross f*rts#that is definitely something I will never get used to tolerating from a man#or how easily distracted he was or how he didn’t like to sit inside of moments like I do#how he often gave me the illusion of choice but then we ended up doing whatever he wanted#I definitely would think ‘oh I can’t wait to never deal with _____ again’ and now I don’t have to 🤷🏾♀️#I just miss the affection attention and sex and how I felt disconnected from my sad reality when I was in his world#I just liked his world#it was rich and quiet and high quality and carefree
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i know this is something i’ve written (& not posted because im shyyyy), but what if jacks lost both chrysi and azure and jst went insane because of it. what then, huh. and what does he do when, after hundreds of years of cruelty and evil, he finds himself face to face with both his soulmates and he realizes he can never be the companion they loved. what then.
#the thing is that chrysi and azure don’t care. azure watched chrysi tear a man’s jaw off that morning.#chrysi watched azure implode a man to a mass of broken bones and eviscerated flesh w/o touching him last week#objectively chryzure did more fucked up things than jacks jst casually. for money. for their job.#but the fact that jacks tortured himself for so long bc he thought he lost both chrysi and azure forever….. they’re kinda impressed#jscks is like the dog that destroyed everything the moment chrysi and azure left the house bc he thought they were never coming back#LIKE he’s jst ‘i’m a monster.. i killed thousands with my kiss.. made lover betray lover… i’m an immortal and cruel fate that can’t love’#& chrysi and azure are like OH i thought you did like something BAD. or worse i mean. we were only gone for 400 years why’d you start cryin#chryzurejacks is everything to me… bc okay okay#i kinda want castor to be the reason that chrysi&azure died#which is why he owes jacks an unforgivable debt#& once chrysi and azure get reincarnated castor’s like THANK GOD I WAS SICK OF DOING FAVORS FOR JACKS W/O ANY PAYMENT#((bc ofc chryzure would work with castor before reaching out to jacks.. gotta keep jacks feeling insecure and jealous in all ways 😘))#idk if i’m making sense but i loooove immortal jacks & his two soulmates that keep on fucking dying and coming back later#cant you two jst be NORMAL#s.chryzurejacks#memorie.txt
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its also like . ok sry im going on bc im tired and ive upset myself lol but its like. to have somebody who knows i grew up in poverty call me greedy and selfish bc he pressured me into moving up here when i didnt have the money so i Had to rely on him financially. and then i couldnt pay him back while i was literally unemployed. to have him call me greedy and selfish and entitled and lazy was. insanely upsetting
#like he knew that a lot of the money i earned went directly to paying my families bills and literally feeding them and he still. said that#to me. and then when i got upset he spun it as me being irrational and playing the victim and always guilttripping him like. idk. idk.#i try rly hard not to think abt that bc it just makes me feel horrific but like. i was already so insanely paranoid about spending money#any Non essential purchase made me spiral and then that just made it. so much worse . i told him from the start i didnt have much money and#he said it was fine and i told him from the start id pay him back as quickly as i could and he said it was fine and then he just#he completely ghosted me he never talked to me he slept downstairs and he spent more time with one of our roommates than he did me#and now i. know why he did that lol#but whatever. but he iced me out and the only time he ever talked to me was to tell me i was being greedy for not paying him back#or if i literally fuckjng. begged him to do skmething with me#and then hed spend like 1 hour completely checked out but technically sitting in the same room as me and i just. idk. that relationship#genuinely like. fucked me up. and now i reakize it wasnt Just since i moved here and a lot of the like. stripping me of.my identity and#pressuring me into doing. certain things when i wasnt comfortable with them and guilttripping me if i did try to stand up for myself. now i#realize that had been going on nearly since the start but it fucking. rly hurts. basically#and to top it all of he knew i struggle with very severe depression and i have since i was a kid and he knew i specifically struggle a lot#with hygiene and he knew how gross that makes me feel. and he still called me disgusting for it. and in every argument he had he would#hold the fact i owed him money over my head and i judt. i dont know what i was supposed to do. and i realize now there was jothing bc he#was already. yk. and probably had been for a while but it just. rly fucking sucks basically.#like even now a few months out i get genuinely nauseous when i buy something that isnt Absolutely essential.#and i try to force myself to buy like. a small nice thing for myself every once in a while i buy 1 coffee and 1 breakfast food every week#on saturday to try n like. make sure i know its ok 4 me to do that and it doesnt make me selfish but like. it still makes me feel sick
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genuinely haunted still by how all Lucien ever wanted was to escape the Run, how there was all that bad blood between him and the Jagentoths--how both Molly and Lucien's older brother are killed and buried in the snow in Shadycreek--
#aLSO#still wondering why lucien's parents owed money to the jagentoths anyway?? they...they were performers--#what#what were they doing#in addition to making deals with hags--#alSO#a member of the jagentoths family going after lucien himself only for him to be spared because of A MEMBER OF THE CERBERUS ASSEMBLY??#I FEEL LIKE THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN BIG NEWS IN SHADYCREEK??#anyway im just saying#if animated mighty nein gives us anything with lucien's family or history with the tombtakers and the jagentoths when they get to#shadycreek#ill go feral--#also#something something molly being resurrected because the nein truly loved him and all they ever wanted was for him 'to be here and be whole'#promising him he wouldnt be empty anymore#and lucien's parents abusing their children#tearing elric back against his will as a hollow empty puppet and never actually caring about him as a person
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I feel like too many people don't understand that a bad person having normal human traits does not suddenly make them a good person
#& every person who thinks that way is sooo susceptible to abuse#like that's not a joke or anything like for real if you keep treating people as 2 dimensional#then you fall into the trap of ''they did 1 nice thing for me so they must not actually be bad''#you're allowed to like bad characters without scrambling to justify & write off their terrible actions & personality#like dude youre so desperate to not be caught liking something deviant youre using the same tactics as a H*rry P*tter fan#anyway i hope those people who like that asshole from ST never meet a Billy irl#cuz ive lived with Billys irl & it's not fucking fun. it's not interesting. it's living with an abusive piece of shit#just admit you think hes a good person because hes attractive. like youre fooling no one#if he didnt look like that youd call him a fucking freak. but he doesnt so hes just ''interesting to pick apart''#i can give you insight into that kind of person's brain: they literally would abuse you. they don't care. they think you deserve it#they can do nice things all they want but the ''niceness'' never quite reaches the same level the ''meanness'' gets to#theyre always paired together. they bought you an ice cream that costs less than a dollar? you owe them money plus interest#the reality of the situation is that every time someone like me sees you guys doing that#fawning over some asshole abuser & calling them perfect & explaining away their behaviour?#it literally sets me back. it makes me so fucking mad because that happens in real life. it's why the abuse never gets stopped#no one believes you because ''well they were nice to ME & look nice so i dont believe you''#i know how much you guys hate acknowledging apologism but like. that's abuse apologism right there
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Why is it that when I'm sick, finishing work late because a load of people didn't show up and ongoing work drama, stressed about my upcoming essay and still have a hour walk before I can get home, my dad is apparently kicking off and threatening to kick me out when I'm not even there??
#ace is a mess#+Extra#personal#apparently hes kicking off about the fact i 'chose to pay off my loan' which isnt true i didnt get any tuition loan this year so i have to#pay it out of pocket and unlike some students i absolutely will not be receiving any financial support to do so so im working to pay it off#and hes apparently fuming about it and is bringing up the fact i owe him money cus when i asked for a nee laptop for Christmas for uni#and repeatedly specified that i just wanted the cheapest most basic option possible and even found several under the budget for gifts#my dad decided to get a more expensive one with a bigger screen which is not what i asked for or needed!! a bigger screen makes it#ten times more cumbersome to take to class for notes and assignments and ive ended up still having to borrow uni laptops regardless all#cus hes got some ongoing issue about me having my own finances & not being financially dependent on him so he keeps making a point about it#hes so transparent that its all a fcking control thing as it has been since i chose what i wanted to do at college and he didnt approve#and i didnt change it and stuck with it regardless because my career plans have nothing to do with him honestly#btching that if i can afford to pay off my loans i can afford to pay him back which i cant! i cant afford my tuition thats why im staying#over summer to keep working so i can pay off my debt im not paying it off i never had it im in debt! and if i dont pay it i wont be able#to continue with uni whereas he technically still owes me 2k he can be fcking patient about his money which i knew this was gonna happen#when he kept insisting there might not be cheap options available despite me finding multiple 🙄#you know i get asked a lot why ive ended up at unis so far north when im from the south and its like i had to get away being half a days#drive away is the only way for my parents to physically leave me alone theyll still hound my phone but thats what airplane mode is for
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i mean it’s just kinda crazy cause. and forgive me if i sound somewhat spoiled here but. this trip im doing to take more credits and get experience and make connections etc is obviously expensive and i talked abt it with my parents. a lot before trying to do it. and somehow my dad didn’t understand that yk we would have to pay for it. ??? and is putting me in this spot of ‘figuring out what we’re gonna do about it’ and it’s like dude. i mean i’m going i paid for my fucking flights you know i’m. regardless i’ll be there. and i make $10/hr i have not been able to work consistently and when you don’t have thousands and thousands of dollars just sitting there accumulating more interest it doesn’t fucking last. like what exactly do you want me to say? i’ll drain all my accounts and give what little i have to you? tldr my main point here is the only way this man truly shows any kind of affection is through money and since he fucked me up im glad to take advantage of that lol like why wouldn’t i. so to have it thrown back in my face is just um an awful feeling. like im not even worth this to you. this is just too much. it truly does feel like someone put a number on love and im just not up there
#it’s not like we ever took trips or vacations or had super nice things or even. you know. like fucking furniture#and to be clear even when he does help me out with stuff it’s held over my head so it’s truly not even a good way of showing. love.#if you want to say that. like of course i’m grateful that i haven’t had to struggle to make ends meet in the way many people do because i#have his money and i’m not trying to pretend i don’t but like. i’ve also had fucking anxiety attacks thinking about spending money and#basically how much i would owe him for my whole life. like how do i buy myself out of obligation here.#and i never could rn i don’t have Money money#but he truly pulls the same shit he does on my mom like ‘well where does it all go???’#dad. i don’t have piles of money sitting around. oh i made 2000 at my summer job? wowzers incredible that goes so fucking fast#when i’ve had to pay to break my lease and something else for school and bills and groceries#and yeah ok let’s not pretend i don’t sometimes go out with people. and everything’s so expensive now. but even so i have a heart attack#any time i spend more than like 20 dollars so. i usually don’t.#it’s just sooo… 😵💫 like. damn yeah i do wish i had parents that just Took Care of things and i didn’t have to worry. but it’s like. i do ta#money from him and then i’m just expected to grovel forever and ever#which is why i do need to be more financially independent from him i literally can’t wait for that day i need to make actual money at some#point but i am just not someone who can work full time and go to school and the only way i qualify for my scholarships is if i go full time#and graduate on time so. here we are 👍#abby talks#aaaaand post. lmfao
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Thanks for your post explaining the situation surrounding Mariusz quitting his job! You write: "As someone who lives in Wrocław and is a student at its Music Academy I can only tell you - he was... not much liked, to put it lightly, by the Big People". By all means, he was a celebrated opera singer in Europe and the USA. What made them dislike him so much?
oh goodness gracious, i really cant say, why would you even ask me that! im the last person who'd engage in such shameless gossiping!
sike lol
i never heard anyone say he was not a great artist. no one doubted that. people only questioned whether he was the right guy for the job, only having experience as a singer, a perfomer, no matter how renowned. or rather, the main issue was - how much, having no experience in the position he now occupied, he was earning. because that really was an insane (and i mean. INSANE) amount of money.
Ołdakowska getting the job of the director was also a pretty controversial thing, so automatically, people who weren't in favour of her winning, didn't also like Kwiecień since she was the one who chose him for the job.
then there was the issue of the changes Mariusz wanted to make. he was in favour of promoting young, new singers and hiring big names for guest performances, ergo, many of the singers who had already been hired full-time for years by the opera house in Wrocław stopped getting big roles etc. no roles - no money (or rather, very little money, the bare minimum actually). this, coupled with the amount Kwiecień was earning... well.
he and Ołdakowska also promised Big Things but sadly they both got the jobs in the beginning of 2020 and we all know what happened then, not much could actually be done when the entire world was more or less paralysed by the pandemic.
and yeah, that's more or less it. id say, tl;dr in the end it's always all about money. and some personal beef he may or may not have had with some people, i really can't say cause that's all i know.
#please remember that in the end we're all just sipping tea and gossiping here. i say what i know what ive heard.#but do take into account that i generally tend to Not Know Shit on many topics so. yknow. dont take my word for godsent truth#no matter how tempting it is 😇 having said that.#i personally know some young singers who worked with him and never heard them say a bad word about him#but then again#being a nice person doesnt magically erase other things that you fucked up#i stated my personal opinion on the issue with the changes he made that not everyone welcomed in the previous post#so i wont say a thing about that here#the money thing... look. he stated his price. someone had to agree to pay him that amount. they could have said 'no sir that's fucked up'#but they didnt. they hired him for that amount and it's not like. illegal or sth. the morality of it is a different thing altogether.#and ngl i am biased because ive been a huge fan of mariusz since i can remember.#but the truth is - i know if the same thing was done by eg n*trebko or someone i dont like id absolutely drag their ass through dirt#and say it's a scandal so.#thankfully its not my job to have an opinion about him as a person. all i know and care about is that he is an amazing artist.#a spectacular actor. a decent baritone. and it is to him that i owe a huge part of why i fell in love with opera in the first place so#there you have it#mariusz kwiecień#opera tag#gossips uwu
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Ludicolo. Read the tags.
if yes, feel free to name drop!!! and id love to hear why 👀
#goddamn motherfucking ludicolo#hate that fucking bastard#was trying to beat some raid dens to get some experience before the league at the end of shield#playing offline so have to use bots#I swear to god beating Zygarde in the raids with BOTS was easier than this#Zygarde took about 10 tries before beating#Ludicolo took over 30#NOT BECAUSE I WON BUT BECAUSE I GAVE UP ON THE FUCKER#I have never dealt with such difficulty in pokemon#beat elite four in unova without healing#beat elite four in kalos with one Delphox#beat Kieran in three tries#DYNAMAX LUDICOLO FUCKING STOMPED MY ASS LIKE I OWED IT MONEY#the rage I feel in my soul when I see#fucking Ludicolo#I refuse to catch that bastard anymore because I never hath known such fury as a bastard Ludicolo scorned#that man had fucking plot armor of the goddamn gods#ANY POKEMON I USED DID NOTHING AND WOULD TAKE UP TOO MUCH TIME TRYING TO DO LITERALLY ANYTHING#IT. JUST. KEPT. HEALING.#and the rain would weaken my teams moves#AND IT’S SO FUCKING BEEFY WHY IS IT A GODDAMN TANK#THAT MAN HAD MORE HEALTH THAN A FUCKING SNORLAX AND BLISSEY COMBINED#goddamn motherfucking Ludicolo ass bitch#still hate him
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SO CLOSE. to drawing that stupid man. bitch of an earth
#i keep thinking about him i hate it here#that stupid man being local puppy anduin wrynn#this is the world torturing me /j#in reality theres nothing wrong about any aspect of this im just dragging my feet#my post#world of warcraft#<- for blog tagging purposes#why did they do this to me. blizzard you owe me money for this. pay me money#your little blonde boy is living rent free in my head
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some day i want so badly for anyone whos listened to my compulsive-lying ass sister to line up and tell me all the shit shes said to you to make you think im bad or weird or whatever. and then also give me 20* dollars for making my life worse by believing her lies that ultimately made me isolate myself and want to kill myself for doing literally nothing fucking wrong.
#(*the amount of money owed is subject to increasing based on how much you discarding me and resenting me has harmed me)#now since shes an alt right qanon maga creep maybe you'll be able to see that whatever tf she said about me was actually an#admission from her. where do you think i learned to say certain slurs? didnt just pop out of nowhere.#mood#vent#her AND my brother tbh. bc both of them talked shit and made shit up to make people look at me as less than.#tho my sister was more intentional and strategic about it bc theres something wrong with her#do yall think any bigoted shit i might of unintentionally said just came out of nowhere? no dude it EXPLICITLY came from them and my dad#also but mostly from them since i was around them more often#i was PARROTING THEM#THEY probably got it from my dad bc they are around him more often.#why in the fuck would your first instinct be to believe the youngest in this family must have just *naturally* been bigoted.#are you fucking kidding me. how fucking stupid do you have to fucking be.#stupid AND in denial. yall want a reason to hate me bc you think im cringe. be honest. be real about it.#id rather you have the fucking balls and admit its bc you think im cringe.
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also she had rufus in her fucking room again when i keep telling her to leave him the fuck alone so now a 20$ groomer visit is gonna be 60$ i DON'T FUCKING HAVE so i can have them bath him again because he smells like fucking piss now.
#txt.txt#SHE STILL OWES ME MONEY FOR MAKING ME MISS WORK.#SHE OWES ME AND ALSO FRIENDS OF MINE /THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS/ LMAO IM GOING TO BECOME FUCKING VIOLENT#'why can't you bath rufus reese' because i'm not physically capable of it any more#because he likes to hide in the far end of the tub which while cute#means i have to reach across the tub to try and get him and i just can't do it anymore
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i have grown up in a similar situation although different and much less extreme. my mum is in the lower half of middle class, but my dad is at least upper middle class (we do not know the full extend of his wealth). in their marriage they had separate finances and one joint account to cover household expenses to which they would contribute equally - at least in theory. in reality my father would continue to give the same amount of money even amidst inflation (this includes the 2008 crisis) and slowly slowly his contribution wouldn't even cover his own share of expenses and my mum had to reach into her own savings to keep the household running. in regards to day to day expenses (grocery shopping, clothes, toys, school supplies etc.) i had basically the same experience as if i was raised by a single mother.
all while my father made several times more money than her that he was just pocketing/spending on things for his own enjoyment. those things included family vacations several times a year (among his solo vacations that were about just as frequent and up to a month long, and during the time he spent on those vacations and often even after he would not contribute a dime bcs he had too many "expenses" - those times were the hardest financially). those family vacations were very costly but at the same he would look for any way to spend as little as possible on us (me, my mum and our pets). this included things such as buying rotten food bcs it was cheaper or not buying me (a small child) water when i was thirsty in over 30 degrees weather bcs it was "too expensive". all while he got to enjoy all the luxury he wanted. after those family vacations he would also refuse to contribute any money for running the household. and let me be clear - he was making insane amounts of money whether he was on vacation or not, he actually barely went to work ever (he would work 2-5 hour days how many or little days a week he wanted to and it would not affect his income).
he also pushed me to go to private school (which i would attend for 8 years) that he promised to pay for - he payed for the first 2 semesters, was late on payment on the 3rd one and when he didn't pay for the 4th one i was faced with the threat of being expelled. my mum ended up having to take from her own savings so i could stay in the school he wanted me to go to. that school tuition continued to be a major burden on our family for the next years and was one of the reasons i decided to drop out and complete my high school education at a different school in a long-distance program.
and i don't even wanna bring all of his emotional and mental abuse into this, this tirade is long enough as is. just know that everything i have described here and also everything else he would twist into either him being the victim or it somehow being the fault of either me or my mum.
so yeah, the description of being an exotic pet feels fitting. i was an exotic pet for him and my mum was the animal handler.
thankfully since my parents divorce there is the threat of legal investigation into his finances (which would for sure put him behind bars) looming over him if he doesn't pay alimony so he's been paying like clockwork. that money has allowed me to support myself in uni while also taking care of my mental and physical health. so i do recognize and see that my position is still very much privileged in certain aspects, but ever since i was little i lived in a world of dual class - half of my experiences, especially day-to-day life was pretty much lower middle class; the other half was very much upper middle class. and it is really confusing for a lot of people including me sometimes that i did grow up in a large suburban home and went on several vacations a year but at the same time sometimes we would have to cut down on our grocery expenses to get by and i would often have to wear clothes that i grew out of.
As a kid, when your parents are poor, you're poor. If they don't have money, that means none of you have money. But if someone's parents are rich, that doesn't necessarily mean the kid is. Sometimes rich peoples' kids aren't rich kids, they're just some rich freak's exotic pets that can talk but aren't allowed to.
#im also no stranger to money being dangled in front of my face in exchange for spending time with my abuser#or even having to suffer abuse so there was a slightly bigger chance the abuser would give us money we needed#and also my father and his treatment of me is a major factor in me developing certain conditions that very much impact my ability to work#and therefore make money#so in conclusion: i do have certain privileges because of my father's wealth#but my position and experiences are not the same as an upper middle class kid's with normal parents#and again: my thing is not as extreme as other people's i just simply felt it was related to the conversation and wanted to share#also just random tidbits that didn't fit anywhere else:#both my parents are of working class background and my mum was actually better of growing up than my father#my private school was very cheap for a private school one of the cheapest in the country actually#which is the reason why we could somewhat afford it even when my father decided he's not gonna pay for it#oh and my country has free public uni which is largely the reason why im able to attend so easily#also the main reason why we have a comfortable middle class life now is bcs during the divorce agreements#my father made a mistake out of laziness/ignorance which resulted in my mum getting a big chunk of money per court order#together with him being unofficially pressured by a close friend to give my mum the money he basically owed her#i lowkey still can't believe we had such good luck in the whole divorce thing
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