#why would my Netrunner want to leave with such a dumb insensitive gonk

[kimarisgundam]

Not irl, just Cyberpunk Red drama again 😅

I just want to say that as myself, I feel so bad for my friend's Rockerboy character cos he's been through so much ;_;

And I feel super bad for backstabbing him as my Netrunner in the beginning of this campaign ;_;

BUT I need to be in character when RPing

My Netrunner abandoned her real name long ago. She goes by her net handle or by the name given to her by her sponsor (actually her bio dad...)

Only her elder brother calls her by her real name when he's exceptionally disappointed with her or when he's concerned about her

As myself, I get that Rockerboy is desperately trying to reconnect with my Netrunner. But as my Netrunner, him calling me by my real name is like an insult to my dead brother

I'm suffering from mild psychosis now. I'm not being rational. To me, it's like Rockerboy thinks he can replace my brother. Who does he think he is? How dare he use my real name >:U

I was vulnerable because I saw him as my first real friend. That's why I trusted him with my name. But he trampled all over my trust >:/

The worst part is he tinted her memory by betraying her trust. They exchanged real names when he shared with her a BD of them sitting under a starry sky far away from Night City

When my Netrunner saw the stars, she dared to dream of being free... which got her into the current mess she's in... but at least for once in her life she found the courage to go against Arasaka/dad. That BD was a precious memory for her

But my friend/Rockerboy just ruined everything by doing the one thing my Netrunner told him never to do 😠. Now she can't think of that day without feeling betrayed 😠