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kindacreepy-kindaugly · 2 years ago

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Actually told Mr. V we're probably gonna talk about some of. His issues. In therapy, sometime soon-ish

He took it surprisingly well? Kinda just tried to laugh it off, like he always does when he's uncomfortable but doesn't want me to think it's a big deal

#doll #never realized how confused he gets when i ask before doin somethin. i was kinda doin it just to. sorta normalize it for us but.#how'd i never notice that before? did he just hide it better til now?#i thought the whole not rly understanding how actual legit consent works thing was just an excuse for when he didn't #listen when i'd ask him to stop #but.....i guess it really does go both ways? it's like he doesn't remember he doesn't always havta go with it either?#n someone sayin no playin hard to get or whatever is just a normal part of it for him.#especially cause angel's used him as. a means of self harm basically. so i guess maybe he just figured that's how we wanna do it #i really thought he was bein obtuse on purpose n i guess partially it was that. not wantin to question the things he's done before #but also he really seems to have trouble understandin it. like whatever yaoi brainrot d*bcon crap just is normal to him #not the first fucked up media influence i've noticed him havin taken as a core part of himself but. it explains a lot.#i just hope he sticks with this. tryin to learn how these things work in healthy relationships instead of the toxic crap he's used to #with both us n vx #so far it seems good but. he's backtracked before. plus i'm probably not always the best influence cause sometimes i'm startin things #i don't even rly wanna do but do em anyway. it's compulsive. n a bad combination with someone that can't tell where the line goes either #cause then afterwards i feel like shit n it's probably not helpin the way he sees himself either. it's not even his fault #it's one thing if he doesn't listen or take what i say seriously but sometimes i think it's fine til we're finished n the anxiety hits #why does everythin havta be so goddamn complicated #spdrvent

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