#why do queer podcasts with eye motifs keep hurting me

[bisexual-caleb-widogast]

Just finished epsiode 18 of malevolent and wow, that was incredibly intense and overwhelming. It was the first episode I've had a visceral physical reaction to so far. I feel... hurt? betrayed? confused? proud (of arthur)? worried? Uneasy. My chest hurts from holding my breath and panicked breathing and the pit in my stomach. I can't believe John said those things. And while I'm relieved they're back together I'm uncertain on where they stand with each other and scared for whats to come.

Damn this podcast has reeled me in.