#why do it do this to myself
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(also feel free in the tags to clarify Why you made the choice you made!! :0c)
#polls#tumblr polls#For me I think the top ones would be the House. The Money. or the Friend Group. But I ultimately might would go for the house#JUST becuase it would be my Dream House which means it would already meet mostly all of my specifications#and what I might be looking for. which would save a lot of time searching or customizing/rennovating.#Also because I could use that as a way to leave the US lol.. like .. if I get to choose my dream location.. couldnt I just choose some othe#country?? But I wonder how that works. Can you legally 100% have full ownership of a property in a country yet not be a citizen of that#country?? Would you show up and be like 'erm.. i own this house.. so i shall now live in it' and theyd be like 'uh no. you cant live here#despite owning the house. leave.' ??#So I think the initial process of 1. scraping together funds to actually MOVE myself and my most valuable belongings physically#TO another country. and 2. figuring out how to STAY in that country . might end up being difficult.. BUT. if I could just work that#part of things out then.. dream house?? security for once in my life?? stability?? :0#Though the $1mil is enticing it's also like.. I feel .. with the way housing prices are now... that's not much???#it's a lot I guess if you plan on like.. investing half the money and staying in an apartment for 5 years while you grow your wealth#or something. but if you're a 'I Need Stability NOW' ready to settle down person who would be most interested in owning a property rather#than nice clothes or a car or whatever other investments you could make then.. eh..?? It seems like unless you're okay with living in#a small town or kind of far away from the city - even some SMALL houses in majorly populated areas in the US will be like#$600.000 - $900.000 or something. like that would be MOST of my money. Which I know you could just pay partially and make#payments on it but idk.. in the option of just outright owning the house it seems like it'd end up being cheaper.#Plus I would want to own it fully asap because I'd be afraid of losing it somehow otherwise. like it being taken for medical bills or#something. which I thought was supposed to be - not IMPOSSIBLE - slightly more complicated legally if you actually have#paid off the house in full. I guess the issue then would be utilities and property tax and such. But I feel like thats overcome-able??#Like I could just stipulate that my Dream House has a little furnished addition or something and then find someone#with money and be like 'Look you can live in this extremely nice area with amazing ameneties and updated everything and ALL you have#to do is give me money to cover the utilities and property tax.'' or something like that. Like the little furnished addition is nicer#than the actual house. they have their own pool and spa and movie room or something and Ill also cook all their meals for them#or whatever (how luxurious it would be depeneds on how high the property tax actually is/how much I would need to entice them into#why it's a good deal for them to pay it for me lol). idk... something like that.. ANYWAY#I asked a few people I know though and one of them answered they'd rather have a romantic partner. the other one said they'd like#to be able to choose someone to die lol.. So I'm curious what people value the most
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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the curse of adhd:
i will remember with absolute clarity, when the thought strikes me that i have a text to send someone, that this is the fourth time in three days i've attempted to send this specific text
i will forget, in the time it takes me to pick up my phone, that i picked it up intending to send a text
#every time#managed to actually send it today!#but also i have been reminded to post this by the fact that i just had a task to do in two different rooms just now#so i turned the light on in the room i was getting to second because my brain would go 'oh why is the light on that's weird'#and check the room and it would remind me to do the second task#in the less than five seconds between turning the light on and exiting the room#my brain went 'oh the light's on better turn that off before i leave'#and i had to manually catch myself#PLS.#adhd
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To celebrate pride month I've decided to make a part 2 of the killing transphobes post since it was given a community warning. (🚗🔨⚒️💥)
LIMITED TIME OFFER:
For every note this gets I will kill one (1) acephobe AND one (1) arophobe with my bare hands.
#google is the best search engine#google posting#google#pride month#aromantic#asexual#aroace#lgbtqia#why do I do this to myself#my dear notes will never recover#oh wait that's right I hate a/arophobes#pride#lgbtq#woah#25k#that's insane
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joel & ellie + coffee or joel introducing ellie to coffee vs. ellie leaving coffee at his grave to say goodbye
#the last of us#ellie williams#joel miller#tlou#tlou hbo#the last of us hbo#tvgifs#dailyflicks#cinemapix#pedro pascal#bella ramsey#tvedit#tlouedit#thelastofusedit#tlouhboedit#chewieblog#tuserpris#tusercora#useraurore#L.edits#why do i do this to myself??#as if the games didnt break my heart enough
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good livestream and good night gamers
#thing that I'll wake up tomorrow and probably ask myself “why do I make that”#minecraft#endman#the creaking
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chilshi week day 5: cuddling + kiss
stills under the cut!















#chilshi#pots n picks#potsnpicksweek2024#chilchuck tims#senshi of izganda#dungeon meshi#my art#fanart#dungeon meshi fanart#suggestive#partial nudity (obligatory pantyshot)#45 HOURS. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF#but seriously i am so proud of this#even tho i still can’t draw sheets rip
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10 years later
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itafushi#itafushikugi#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#least heterosexual group photo ive ever drawn tbh#u have the kings of subtle pda and their judgy lesbian third wheel#this does remind me a lot of the kind of art i used to do jhgdjghdfj#specifically that one furuba main trio piece i did forever ago. same vibe better art#anyway......i tried my best........ i tried so hard#i do not know how old they look . the goal was 25/26 but atp i've gaslit myself into thinking they look the same#especially megumi im so . throws hands in the air in defeat#but idk what else i can do cries at least i like it??? i think???????#i don't know!!! if they look younger than 25 whatever!!!!!!!!#why is it so hard fr me to make chars look older im gna slam my head against the door#maybe its fine. idc <- (lie)#in other news itfs are married fight me abt it . yuuji rockin the right hand ring fr Lack Of Finger reasons#also i am Eating nobara's fit . she might also look a bit younger than intended the more i look at her gDI why cant i have nice things#new hairstyle carrying tbh. i think she would a. grow it out and b. switch the side she parts it on to make Seeing easier#god just take it all tht really matters 2 me is low pony nobara and Rings On Fingers itfs#i did my time in yoi i know how to make wedding bands Work
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guess what i watched on new years (a redraw kind of)
#hee hee#it was cute#(disclaimer i do not subscribe to d+ so my dollar was not going there iykyk)#pjo#percy jackson#grover underwood#annabeth chase#my art#fanart#hoo#i had to take silly pics of myself 2 get percys arm hand thing right#and then just cropped it bc yea#i almost gave annabeth the hair i did in the last one but i thought#why do i feel compelled to change her hair to fit the old image i had from the books and not the others#and i drew her actual hair from the show#and it looks sm better
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I am not minecraft-ey guy but this new mob looks so cool
#minecraft#minecraft creaking#tree#wood#anthro#kinda my take on this fella#do you ever look on critter in some kind of media and just go#“damn why I didnt think about it myself”
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-But you do smell especially like flowers today -I took a shower.
yay, first Jegulus fanart ever (and my first fanart in YEARS). This was supposed to be a Florist!Regulus and TattooArtist!James but I forgot to draw his tatoos so it's just florist regulus. ദ്ദി •���• )
I didn't realize how small the speech bubbles were but this took me A WEEK and there's more jegulus fanart waiting to be drawn so, zoom it.
Anyway, hi.
#jegulus#regulus x james#starchaser#regulus black#james potter#marauders#marauders era#marauders fanart#art tag#marauders fandom#im so tired but ITS DONE#so so so many flowers and plants#why do i do this to myself
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Day 44- GERUDO TOWN
Bug Zapper 9000 worked too well. Not only did we get the terrifying normal corpses, we accidentally found its brood mother that can summon localized sandstorms to protect its underlings.
At least it got chased away by Riju’s lightning. Big win.
This totk au is called familiar familiar! It all started when zelda didnt fall back in time and devolved into wild violence
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#nightmare nightmare nightmare#i am never drawin this many frames every again why do i do this to myself#loz#critdraws#art#botw#zelda#link#familiar familiar au#lonks diary#tears of the kingdom#breath of the wild#riju#chief riju#totk riju#totk zelda#totk link#bularia#gerudo#gerudo town#queen gibdo#gibdo#loz au#tloz#the legend of zelda#gerudo desert#loz comic#the gibdo queen carries a locomotized sand storm to protect it from the sun#its a tad evil me thinks#long post
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You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side
#m/cc#mine#I tried extremely hard to word this nicely because I KNOW people don't mean bad and often even know there are unique challenges#and believe me I know the challenges of invisible disability too!!#I have invisible disabilities!#but as someone who has also been at least visibly 'off' since they were 10 I am SO SICK of invisible disabilities being hailed as like#a unique extra oppression that us lucky visibly disabled people don't have to deal with#there are challenges to invisible disabilities that visibly disabled people DON'T have to deal with!#but you need to understand that *the reverse is also true*#there are MASSIVE benefits to being able to lie about your disability for example#or not dealing with the overt ableism that comes with your disability being obvious to everyone#*I do not have the option to pretend I'm not disabled.* that is never an option I have#I walk weirdly. I use a mobility aid now. my speech and face are 'off.' I lean to one side#for a long time I wore sunglasses 24/7 and often didn't make sense. I sometimes can't speak or won't react to others#for the most part people will always know that at the very least something is wrong with me#and more obviously I have people telling me they'll pray for me; telling me I can't do things I'm already in the process of doing;#wanting to shake my hand to tell me I'm an inspiration for not killing myself; giving me dirty looks for existing in public#and yes. I'm aware that this is very much an in-community issue. I know the average abled person doesn't know invisible disabilities exist#that's why there's so much awareness happening for it#but as a visibly disabled person I get SO TIRED of constantly hearing 'I wish my disability was visible :'('#it's just 'I wish I had your disability!' but from other disabled people
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Patrolling on the rooftops.
DDVAU created by the fantastic @xmaruu11 and @kitsuneisi
#ddvau#ddvau fanart#ddvau cuteguy#ddvau hotguy#grian#gtws#gtws fanart#grian fanart#desertduo#scarian#desert duo vigilante au#goodtimeswithscar#goodtimewithscar fanart#hermitshipping#double hearted#my art#i never want to render wings again#why do i do this to myself
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uh-huh
#I NEEEEEED TO GET COMFORTABLE SHARING SILLY DOODLES AGAIN idk why i stopped#my art#firestar#fireheart#sandstorm#waca#wc art#warrior cats#warriors#in my brain im doing a backflip. u guys just have to trust me its really cool#half of this is me poking fun at myself LOL u guys know how it is
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Alcohol can't kill Logan, but it can affect him. Wade can't kill Logan, but he can—oh.
#I MADE MYSELF SAD AGAIN HELP#there’s SOMETHING about this parallel#ughhhh#poolverine#deadpool and wolverine#Deadpool 3#ryan reynolds#hugh jackman#logan howlett#wade wilson#HUGH WHY DO YOU MAKE LOGAN LOOK SO SOFT WHILE LOOKING AT WADE#WILL I EVER BE NORMAL ABOUT THEM??!#they’re in love bye#deadpool wolverine#deadpool x wolverine#deadpool 3#deadpool vs wolverine#my gifs#marvel#mcu
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