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myheartxmyman · 9 months ago

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And you saying things like 'yes I know it happened a lot, but other people don't act out the way you do', is such a horrible thing to say. If we would have been just friends at that time you wouldnt have said something like that, ever! And for the strange case that you would have had the audacity to say so you would have been 'my friend'. Really, I am again in shock off how rude I let you treat me. Sometimes I change perspectives, I am one of my girlfriends and you become her partner. Honestly I would tell her to leave him for good. And if she wouldn't I fear there would come a time when i would throw my fists at him. At least if I would see her unhappy again and again. If her boyfriend would say something like that around three times it would have been to often. Mistakes happen, but what repeats itself again and again is not a mistake; its a pattern.

#and to be honest I feel like you wouldn't call what you said a mistake #you would find a way to approve of what you said and wouldn't see a fault in it #and then you are trying to tell me you are empathetic #sad about that is that I also used to see you as a man who's full with empathy #when we were friends you always showed me the understanding and empathetic side of you #but while being in a relationship while being beaten down by life again and again and again you told me I am wrong #you blamed me #you made me feel even worse #you basically told me to stop feeling what I did feel #you warned me you would leave me if I wouldn't get my shit together and accept the fact that Louis and my Dad are gone #that was approximately between the end of July and beginning of August #you didn't treat me with your core values 'loyalty / trust / respect' when saying those things in my face #your words made me feel like I am wrong #like I am not good enough #I felt blamed controlled neglected not seen not heard unworthy not important and also threatened #that's why I asked you 'where is your empathy?' or 'you're not empathetic towards me at all' you answered 'all my friends say otherwise'#yes I bet they do I would have too #why did you treat me with more compassion #with more respect more empathy more warmth when we were just friends? Why did you behave in such a 'not Vince' way #I often feel like you treated me better while we were friends #I could always count on you those days #I had your attention #you were actually listening to me #you were always careful about my feelings #I felt safe being with you and in your presence #why did you treat me so cold while I was already 10ft deep?#why did you chose to abuse me after saying 'Let me show you a love that doesn't hurt'? '#why did you lost your temper during some fights but after the accident never again? This proves you chose to get violent #it was an active chose of yours #it wasn't an aggressive outburst in the

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