#why cant i just be in a studio ghibli film

[ariiii33]

I rlly rlly want to impress my teachers but i have no motavation so i just sit in my room rotting in my bed thinking about what their reactions would be instead of actually studying

[inamagicalhallucination]

pm dazai time traveling and meeting the ada and them being freaked out by him and him scaring them and thinking theyre all idiots for trusting him and it all being angsty and shit is a very interesting take

but personally, i think if pm dazai ever time traveled to meet the ada, they would, without much thought, say or do something that shows that they genuinely like him and he would probably just pass out because he cant handle genuine positive emotions directed at him (see bsd wan)

kunikida: here have this drink so you don’t pass out and die from dehydration you bastard

pm dazai: ... why did you get me this one?

kunikida: it’s ur favorite?????

pm dazai: oh *passes out*

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pm dazai: so... you all think im ur friend

kenji: you are our friend !! we do all sorts of fun stuff together !! *thinking about all the times dazai helped him bring a cow into the office*

pm dazai: huh *internally screaming*

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pm dazai: *vaguely shifts*

yosano: oh are your bandages itchy? i have some spare if you wanna go and change them?

pm dazai: *dies but not in the way he wants to*

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pm dazai: im a demon; human emotions don’t mean much to me

ranpo: i’ve seen you cry over studio ghibli films, you’re as human as they get

pm dazai: oh

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pm dazai: you just accepted me into your agency?

fukuzawa, patting his head: of course 

pm dazai: *just fucking drops to the ground*

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pm dazai:

Jun'ichiro: oh hey, here, naomi and i thought you might be bored so we set up a bunch of movies to watch or games for you to play :)

pm dazai, on the verge of passing out, lightheaded: wh-what

naomi: yeah! we picked all the ones we thought you’d like :))

pm dazai: *falling to the ground*

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kyoka: here

pm dazai, taking the crepe: what’s this

kyoka: i went to get some and thought you’d enjoy this flavor.

pm dazai: *chokes and nods*

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pm dazai: why do you like me so much

atsushi: there’s lots of reasons to like you mr. dazai! maybe it’s because you always take care of me. maybe it’s because you’re funny. maybe it’s because you were the first human i ever met. it’s hard to pinpoint

pm dazai: *cries and passes out*

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bonus:

pm dazai, staring at the grave in front of him:

atsushi: i didn’t know your friend, mr. dazai, but i think he would’ve been very proud over how much you’ve tried, and how much you’ve succeeded in being a good person

pm dazai: im not a good person. even if future me has deluded you all to think-

atsushi: i think mr. dazai is a really good person. he may have done bad things before, but i think putting in the effort to change and be better is amazing. you help people through the agency, and you prove you’re a good person. maybe you’re not perfect, but we all love you because you’re you mr dazai :)

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i didn’t include haruno or katai because i was running out of brain thoughts sorry

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anyway since atsushi was horrifically abused his entire life, i thought it’d be interesting to have him call dazai the first human he met, because he’d be the first kind and real person he’d have met - since the orphanage was filled with people who tormented him, they’re registered in his head for the inhumane treatment they put him through if that all makes sense

anyway

i made a few people mention dazai being human since he has that whole thing of thinking he’s not

yeah anyway these are just my two cents feel free to add on or comment

[just-spacetrash]

11, 30 and 49 for the ask thing :)

11. What is your favorite Studio Ghibli film and why?

i think kiki's delivery service! that and totoro were the ones we used to watch all the time with my siblings as kids so ive grown very fond of it :D howls castle is good too tho!

30. What was the last thing you looked up on Google?

"lotro fishslap" no further context needed

49. If you chose to get a tattoo what would it be and where would you want it?

ive been brainstorming tattoos lately actually! id wanna get some fish somewhere, and a sun cause, you know, Sunny :D i just cant figure out where id want them

[thanatos1dahilias]

TYSM FOR THE TAG MOTH!! RAH!! :3 1. do you make your bed?

not rlly unless i have the motivation to and even then I do it shittily haha

2. what’s ur favorite number

i'd say 27 cause i have a weird emotional attachment to that number

3. what is ur job

i dont really have one besides the occasional babysitting for now

4. if u could go back to school, would u? still in school and though i dont really need to answer this one, i love school!! sounds silly but i just really like learning

5. can u parallel park

i cant drive help

6. a job u had that would surprise people?

im a jobless little prick so no

7. do u think aliens are real? yes because im secretly one.. /j but seriously, i think theres something out there and i fear for the day wattpad authors find it

8. can you drive a manual car?

once again i cant drive :3

9. what’s ur guilty pleasure?

those really horrid afton family reaction videos. like genuienly ill have the worst day ever and stay up watching those so i can giggle at them. that and asmr. asmr can be so nice !!

10. tattoos?

no but i have plans to get some when im older for sure

11. favorite color?

every shade of blue ever!!! blue is jst a really comforting color to me and i love it sososos much

12. favorite type of music? looks down in shame. i have such mixed taste its actually insane so uhm. basically ill

i hope this image explains enough. theres a lot of waterparks, mitski, the smiths, and stuff like that too!! i listen to every genre though ourhg. 13. do u like puzzles? normally this depends on my mood, but most often yeah!

14. any phobias?

idk if this is a phobia considering ive been trying to get over it. but i have such a massive fear of the dark due to isssuesssss! that and autophobia?? idk im a little bitch about being alone.

15. favorite childhood sport?

soccer!! i grew up on that shit because my uncle used to do it when he was little.

16. do u talk to urself?

yes. im delusional why wouldnt i ???

17. what movies do u adore? terminator 1 and 2 SAVE MEEE. and that song by the sea film. it fuckkked me up. ALSO THE CAT RETURNS. that shit goes so hard. and ofc any studio ghibli movie ever. and last but not least p3 movie

18. coffee or tea?

cofffeeee!! i love coffee and i want tea to die.

19. first thing you wanted to be when growing up?

normal. but were not getting angsty here so i think i wanted to be a teacher. i still do want to!! it sounds amazing to teach people and be there for them, and i know my nana and mom both work in schools and i want to follow that!!

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not forcing taglist!!: @mushed-kid @jake-and-johnnies-slut @torifuckingspring and anyone else who wanna join!

I was tagged by @hollyspn

I'll tag @beanmom @babyblue-mind @torturedpoetdean

Do you make your bed?

nopeee (living that Disabled Life TM where i'm in it more than out, so no need to bother lol)

What’s your favourite number?

3!

What is your job?

I'm an online essay writing tutor! (hit me up if you need help with anything writing related!)

If you could go back to school, would you?

I would LOVE to get like an MFA in creative writing, or just take art classes at a community college (but can't be 1. disabled & 2. broke af)

Can you parallel park?

technically? I did in the past (not well, but did it) but that was like...10 years ago lol and I am Not Able To Drive now due, again, to the fkn disabilities

A job you had that would surprise people?

not really a job, and idk if it is surprising? but I helped take care of my granny for a long while after her brain surgery

Do you think aliens are real?

yes!

Can you drive a manual car?

nopee

What's your guilty pleasure?

...destiel :D

Tattoos?

none :( but I want soooo many

Favourite colour?

yellow!

Favourite type of music?

folk punk, and whatever florence and the machine is classified as

Do you like puzzles?

sometimes

Any phobias?

SPIDERS (and really any bugs), heights, the ocean, snakes

Favourite childhood sport?

i do not like sports ball

Do you talk to yourself?

allllllll the time

What movies do you adore?

but i'm a cheerleader (it was my lesbian awakening lol), four weddings and a funeral, steel magnolias

Coffee or tea?

suuuper sweet tea (i'm from texas what do you expect)

First thing you wanted to be growing up?

I think the first thing was an artist? but I'm not sure. I had a lot of things I thought of doing, including but not limited to: baker, photographer, author (doing it!), teacher (also doing it!), and garbage man (???) (this was because I thought how they got to ride hanging off the back of the truck looked fun lol)

[aurora-daily]

AURORA’s Reddit Q&A (July 13th 2021)

Kmilalv: Hello aurora we love you, I'm @ aurora.s_love on instagram ✨✨🥰🥰🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️ Aurora: oh hellooo!!!! Exportmusic: Meep Aurora: meep < 3 Lisxnne: WELL HELLO AND THANKS FOR YOUR NEW SONG! 🙏🌟💕 Aurora: HELLO!! and thank you for being open to it 24681357900: Thank u for making music Aurora: thank you for inviting it into your heart Emergency-Club-7529: This is have some upper case , it's the real Aurora Aurora: yes!!! Helloooooo brunamombach: hello ✨🃏🧚🏻‍♂️🤘🍇🍄🧚🏻‍♀️ when are you coming do Brazil? so glad to see you here!!! Aurora: I think I will be coming to Brazil next year  I love being in Brazil because I feel like it awakens my heart and soul to be there !! Brunamombach: if you were going to an souless island, what book would you bring with you? 🧚🏻‍♂️🍇🍄🧚🏻‍♀️🤘🃏 kisses from Brazil Aurora: I would either take: "The name of the wind" and "a Wise mans fear" or the LOTR trilogy. Or the "Mistborn" trilogy. or "warbreaker" or "the good omens" or "the ocean at the end of the lane" or "Anne of Green gables" or "The alchemist" or just all the books in the world oh no I cant decide

all DanParis: Hey have some karma you cool bean 🤌🏼 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿 Aurora: thank you < 3 Ok-Estimate8468: Tell us something you can tell us about the second track on the Cure For Me vinyl, “Potion For Love”. I'm very curious...

Aurora: its the song I decided for the B-side of the vinyl, and I will probably release it digitally one day too. Its the sister song to "exist for love" but from the other perspective. where love does not fill you up, but love has left a big hole within you < / 3 Ok-Estimate8468: Did you get a lot of unfollows and hate from bad people due to Cure For Me? Aurora: I got a little hate from homophobes, and also abelist, and racist comments from people claiming there was nothing wrong with their mindset. BUT it does not bother me. and I will never stop speaking up about the things I find important. because.. what else would our meaning on this earth be? if that makes sense. Some people have attacked me personally, but sadly mostly its people defending their own hateful ways of being. I cant even imagine how it really is to be a victim of racism or violent homophobia, so I feel like the least I can do is to try the best I can to show support. and speak up. and be an ally.

So a bit more short - yes, and I really dont mind!!!! unfollow me if you find speaking about equality and the right to live, and love and be loved unsettling <3 thank you for this question! Ok-Estimate8468: How was the process of creating the studio version of Cure For Me? I heard your first acoustic performance and saw that it's much smoother than the studio, so I was curious to see how you managed to create another even more amazing version. Aurora: Me and Magnus just played around, and we really tried to go with our emotions, and to be playful and to not think too much about what was "AURORA" or what was even...pretty! we just laughed! and danced! and did what felt lovely to us.

I think this is why the making of this song is one of my favourite memories, and also I think that is why it sounds so playful! because it is!! it was like playing a game. and I did also play alot around with symbolics in both the lyrics and the way this song is produced. it all has a meaning you see... but of course I will let you figure that out yourself!!

Pingouiin_: What's your favourite mountain around bergen ? Aurora: mine is Løvstakken!! and Magnus loves Ullrikken!! but important to NEVER stop a Norwegian person walking on the mountain. just say. a quick hello and wander off your own mind. become at one with nature Whoamiandallthat: Thank you for existing, I love your art and you inspire me so much 💙 You are one of my favorite artists 😊 And just the other day I found out that you are just two years older than me, and so successful... I'm wondering how it was for you to become so popular, did you feel like people thought you needed a cure? I'm also in the sphere of arts - filmmaking; but I feel like my films are not good enough... I have a YouTube channel with some videos - if you ever see this comment I would like for you to check it out 😊 Aurora: Ive felt through my life like something was a little off, ive never resonated that much with the people or the "system" around me! it didn't bother me so much even though I. was teased a lot for it ( so again I was very lucky) but I never felt like I understood the world and my place in it. or how I. could fit in, in this worlds society and with other people ! and becoming "famous" which I dont really feel that I am, but I guess that I am a little "known" (meep) was very strange, and very hard to handle at first. as impressions affect me a lot, and noises and people etc. but with time I got better at handling all these impressions, and avoid getting a.. sensory overload! and I am so happy now, that I can look directly at strangers and actually listen to them, and understand them, and even love them I guess what I am trying to say, that ive now understood that this is the very thing that connected me to all of you. and now I see my place here on this earth. and I see all of you, and you give my life so much meaning!! Lets_Fight_Dragons: Firstly I wanted to say I recently discovered your music and I love everything about it. I have two questions, I hope that’s ok 1. How do you start writing songs because I’m trying to get into songwriting and I’m not sure how you write such amazing songs 2. What’s your favourite song you’ve released? Aurora: 1. well I dont really know. ( I am sorry!!) but I feel like it started really natural for me.. I. kind of just sat down with my piano.. and then I started playing around with the Keyes, and I figured out I could make an endless amount of melodies by simply pressing the keys in a different order!! remember finding this extremely magical (I was around 6 years old then) and after a while I started adding lyrics, and I just spent time looking into myself, trying to figure out. - what do I want to say? what do. I need to hear in a song? what do the world need to hear in a song? and etc. I always think about songwriting as storytelling. and I always start out by figuring out what story I want to tell, what matter I want to dress, or what pleases me, or annoys me with the world, or what emotion I need help dealing with!! and then I write a song!!! and if you feel like its difficult to come up with melodies, I would recommend finding a song you like, and learn the chords of it (or find an instrumental version. online) and then you make your own melodies on top of that! many of the songs of the world share the same chords, and often the melodies on top is the thing separating them. music belongs to all of us, and its clear that every song in the world comes from the same magical source. 2. I think its the seed. or couples creatures!! or infections of a different kind!! tiffnoir: Our dear AURORA, your b-side A Potion For Love is helping me a lot (broken heart since a few days ago). I wanted to ask (if I can haha) if would it be included at the upcoming album, or maybe a relaxing, vintage video for it? Thanks for helping all of us with your music ^_^ Aurora: thank you som much for letting this song into your heart  after writing exist for love, I figured that I should also make a sister-song that could belong for the ones with a broken heart as well  it will not be on the album, but for you I will try to put it on the deluxe version FedahpWithThisWurld: Hello, Aurora! I'm a neurodivergent person and I have always felt a lot of shame over being the way I am, like I'm not good enough. Your music makes me feel better and it makes me feel that being me is okay. Thank you for that.  I want to know how you manage to be so confident? Do you ever get nervous before a show? Aurora: hello!!!! I have had a lot of similar experiences with myself in this world too.. so I am very sad to hear you've lived your life with this feeling I think after a while I understood what makes me different also makes me special. and special is good. and if you think about it, special isn't even that different, because in one way or another we are all... unique. but of course, some people have had to fight their. way through life more than others.. making it less easy to learn how to love yourself. and accept yourself. I guess, now I've surrounded myself with good people who understand my quirks and sensitivities, people who give me time. and space to be me. I have also been lucky, because I have a family that have always encouraged me to be myself. and to love myself. and I guess that is why I am trying to convey to all of you now, because now we are like al little family. where being who you are - is cool. and you're cool. and were all cool. and I get nervous all the time, of all sorts of things! but I just accept that feeling as a part of being human. its uncomfortable yes, but I know at least it won't kill me! 3charmplease: What was it like recording for Frozen? Aurora: it was magical  and also slightly scary. but it felt safe and good calling at the mountains. and I feel warm thinking about it. especially now. cause my father just walked over to me with five little strawberries in his hand. he gave them all to me. and they were so small, and sweet. im currently sitting in my childhood home, right next to the very piano where I wrote "runaway" and so many other songs. Tiny-Sink-2397: Boom shake shake shake the room Aurora: that was actually during the recording process of Cure For Me! Tiny-Sink-2397: I thought it was!! Seemed like an epic party Aurora: YES Joelynxyzs: what's your favorite movie ? Aurora: Practical magic BUT ALSO THESE: The LOTR triology ALL GHIBLI MOVIES avatar once upon a time in Hollywood Hannah the perfume fantastic MR. fox Star Wars: a new hope rouge one isle of dogs the hunchback of Notre dame! the arrival stypop: If you were to get the chance to work on a sequel to another Disney movie, which one would you want it to be? Aurora: since Disney owns Lucas films I would love to be a part of the Star Wars universe  or to play either a magical fairy, witch mermaid, forest nymph, or a scary beast!! WE WO brisot: The masks in CFM remind me of theater plays, do you ever watch any and how much of an influence for you is the art of acting? Aurora: this era of my life is very influenced by the ancient times where theatre was all they had. no CGI or special effects etc. and I really wanted all these videos to feel very authentic, and down to earth! The shell in "exist for love" was handmade by someone, and I painted all the masks in "cure for me" myself! so I like it when it feels... human Clear-Champion-1833: i love you Aurora:

<3

Jicuhrabbitkim: How do you like your fried eggs cook!! I like it when its very crispy!! Aurora: as long as its from a local farm that has free healthy chickens that walk about freely and eat good food I like my eggs crispy too. GhostReaper3: Hi I have a question as well: How do you keep positive? Many people including myself find this difficult sometimes so it would be good to hear your technique or way of keeping upbeat and positive! Also, thank you for sharing your music with us! Aurora: I know what you mean, i've struggled with it myself at times. but I guess I tried separating in my mind what I can do something about, and what I cant? if that makes sense?? we are all just here on this planet. and though we all seem to be going though the same things we still feel so alone, in our thoughts and in our minds. And I've been very aware that with music, and with this fandom we can all finally connect, and see each other, and know that we are not alone! and if there is one thing I love, it is to dance a little after I've cried. I think its important to. shake these emotions out of our body. like animals do! and then I made CURE FOR ME. because I thought about all the warriors out there feeling. a little crazy... after isolation! or after being depressed! and being l rocked in with their families that might not accept them for who they are.. and I thought I needed to make a song for us all, that felt a little uplifting. and uniting. just so we know where not alone, and just so we know that we are worthy.. of everything! and that we are worthy of celebrating ourselves!! ALWAYS! aniri003: Were the dancers freestyling in the last part of the video Aurora: YES! I told them to put their freak game on. And they were amazing. L_pls_use_revive: Hei Aurora! Apart from inspiring me with your music for emotional people, I also dicovered my love for Norway and the Norwegian language through you - now studying it in my second year at university. Tusen, tusen takk! I want to visit soon when traveling is safe - So which place should I not miss out on? Have a great life! Aurora: I think the whole of Norway is worth visiting! there are so many beautiful places. and beautiful people! I would ofc. recommend Bergen! (haha!) but also places like Tromsø, Trondheim, Stavanger, lofted and The Geirangerfjord and the Northwest!!! HAHA KakSetoKaiba: How's the progress of the album that you've been preparing which will be released after your death? Aurora: its going well, I take one song for every chapter and I put it on my death album instead of the album I'm making  its going well. and im excited about it! maria_fernandez_: This is not a question but I just wanted to tell you that discovering you and your music has been the best thing that ever happened to me. What your music makes me feel cannot be described in words. I love you so much. Greetings from Spain!! Aurora: thank you!!! applepieaurora: Whats your favorite pie? 🐉 Aurora: apple pie  and blueberry pie!! Ok-Potato7244: Thanks for sharing your time ... a warrior here to welcome you...Have some tea...And i don't need a cure for disliking keeping animals in cages...Especially birds...💚... Aurora: thank you pekaraseva: what do you feel when you perform Ioadk or Adkoh for people? Aurora: I feel so full of emotion and love and despair I could almost explode  and its wonderful. I also feel insanely connected to the audience when I sing these songs.. I. think. its because they are such important pieces of my soul targaryenblood02: omg what do you think cure for me would smell like? 🐛 Aurora: like something Brazilian! like Asai! or caipirinha! or Brigadeiro!

sproutingephemeral: Hello Aurora, Thanks for your new song, I've gotten quite addicted to it😊 I have a question that might be a bit difficult to answer. I am a Warrior from the U.S. currently without a clue of where I should be and what I should be doing. I'm done with school, and in the process of moving to a new town with my parents. I'm applying for jobs, but I feel like I can't find my reason for being in a smaller area with not many people my age. I feel like my parents are trying to mold me into a certain person, which doesn't feel authentic to me. I probably should be making more of my own decisions at my age, but I'm a bit scared and confused, if what I think is deemed too unrealistic or out of line with their expectations for me (like a childhood dream?). I tried talking to them about it, to little success. Is there something inherently wrong with me? Or am I just being spoiled or lazy? I read about how you were initially opposed to starting your career until your mother convinced you to change your mind. How do you know whether or not to trust in your parents' plans for you? On a lighter note, do you prefer cookies that are more soft (chewy) or hard (crumbly)? I don't need a cure for...my autism, and tendency to talk regularly to my deceased cat at his grave (??)😿👼 Looking forward to seeing you in New York! Take care❤❤ Aurora: you should ALWAYS. only do what feels right for you. this world is very absurd, and people tend to think they know what is meaningful and what is important. but we all know, money and success isn't important beyond what you need to simply survive. this one life is yours. and you should be just who you want. and do what feels right for you. because its yours. its only yours. drink tea. work hard. be lazy. dance. be shy. laugh, cry. drink wine and eat good bread. be good. fight for something you care about. and either live for your work, or work a little and then just... live. get a garden, grow tomatoes, get a cat. or a dog. or a parrot. life can be so random, and it can be both so little, and so large at the same time. some days were meant to TAKE chances, and live. and sometimes were just meant to exist. and do nothing. you should never feel guilty for not "being enough" because you are enough. just who you are. just how you are. is enough. good luck on your strange journey my warrior, maybe our paths crosses and maybe they dont. but know, when you walk out of your door, that anything can happen! and the whole world is yours. Hippolyte_gray: is the name of the next album hidden in your previous songs ? Aurora: mayyyyyybeeeeeeeee rashadalt: what do you think about your fans who are racist/homophobic etc.? Aurora: I feel sorry for them. because I know I cant be easy l living a life so full of hate. and even spending your precious. time on this world bringing other people down. and I know how easy it is for people to be driven by fear, and how difficult. it can be to have an original meaning and stand up for what you really mean. so I dont judge them, or hate them,

but I do feel sorry for them. and I am also very disappointed in them. because its such a. waste of human potential to live your life in the paths of hatred.

but as long as we face hate with love, we will eventually win. when we show them. we are not the enemy, just people trying to make a better world, I think, and I hope that eventually we can all agree that being able to live, and being able to love is a human right. Brivera726: I noticed you said you would bring LOTR trilogy with you to an island- I’m reading them for the fourth time right now  I feel like if Galadriel sing songs it would sound like you! Anyway I really like your art so yah just keep doing u- love from PFC Rivera, USMC Aurora: this is then est thing ive ever read thank you Aurora: I am. sorry people, but my time here (for tonight) is up </3 but I will probably be back looking at your questions and thoughts because I did really. enjoy this. and I. love you all so. much.

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[the-stray-liger]

Thoughts on Ponyo, then?

I don’t usually watch ghibli movies or talk about them bc I don’t like Hayao Miyazaki but man I do have a soft spot for Ponyo

IMO artistically it’s the most beautiful ghibli film I’ve watched-the backgrounds carefully rendered in what could be a mix of watercolor and color pencil, the cheerful palettes, the depiction of marine fauna? it’s like lasagna for the eyes. I love the stylization, the character designs, and specially the way the sea is animated, that’s like my favorite thing about the animation in Ponyo (I adore the sea, I love the water, and I think that’s one of the reasons why I’m very partial to Ponyo). I’m a little bitch so just being exposed to things that are beautiful makes me cry

Now adding to that there’s the writing-it’s simple, it’s magic as seen through the eyes of a child, it’s easy to understand and it’s about love. Sousuke’s mom loves Sousuke, Sousuke loves his mom, Sousuke loves the old ladies at the home and Ponyo loves Sousuke and it’s just that simple!! It’s a movie about love and it always moves me to see the relationship between Sousuke and his mom (I was raised by my mom so that’s a Special Topic for me), and Sousuke telling Ponyo’s mom that he will love Ponyo no matter what makes me so soft

ngl I would fistfight Miyazaki but one of the thigns I cant get enough is the way studio Ghibli depicts elderly ladies-I love so much the old ladies at the home, they look so gentle and fun, all of them different and full of life, and seeing them running around when they’re underwater and playing like schoolgirls makes me tear up?? just thinking abt him makes my eyes watery I can’t explain

Anyway that’s my thoughts on Ponyo thank you so much I’ll be here all week

[drangues]

ASDFGHJKL I HATE MATH IT SUCKS,, IM AWFUL WITH NUMBERS AND FORMULAS AND SEQUENCING AAAHHH- But! I hope your tests go well, hopefully they’ll be manageable. And remember to rest if you need it!!! And Atsushi trying to protect drunk Chuuya from being attacked because he was Nice To Him and Byakko likes him so why not??? Is so very much like him, I love our tiger boy. Then he kinda controls his ability for the first time to protect someone else. (Nyanon, 1/5)

And then he gets protected in turn and finds someone who Gets Him, just a little bit, and aaahhh I’m very very tired so I’m not sure if I’m writing well but Chuuya and Atsushi! Feelings!!! I’m having very intense feelings about them finding companionship in one another and thinking the other’s ability is amazing and beautiful!!! I’m not articulating very well but I want that,,, I love them both and I want them to be friends and take care of each other aaahhh. (Nyanon, 2/5)

Moving on, I’m glad you think it’s a good story idea! Admittedly, it came about because I wanted to come up with my own mythology. Yes I’m a mythology nerd, no I’ve never gotten over it. But anyways, I ALSO LOVED IT AS A KID IT WAS SUCH A GOOD SHOW,, I miss it, the designs were so cute,, but poor Atsushi would be so embarrassed- Not because he doesn’t like dresses, but because it’s much more,, Attention grabbing? Than he’s used to wearing. (Nyanon, 3/5)

Though I do wonder who his Tomoyo would be... Not Kyouka, since it’s funnier and also cuter if she Doesn’t Know, since then she can go on and on about how Cool Atsushi is without realizing and Atsushi can’t say anything to stop her with giving himself away... Maybe Yosano or the Tanizaki siblings...? Oh, maybe Lucy is his Tomoyo! I could see her convincing him to dress in frilly clothing and running around with him, and I like their friendship quite a bit. (Nyanon, 4/5)

Anyways, I have another (somewhat nebulous) AU Concept: Atsushi and everyone in some kinda Studio Ghibli film! Not sure which specific one, though, because I think they all have potential- My Neighbor Totoro is a more fluffy one, but Princess Mononoke has some really cool ideas that’d work with the characters... and of course there’s Howl’s Moving Castle and Castle in the Sky, I’m a sucker for both of those. (Nyanon, 5/5)

ill,,try to rest,,,,God Help Me,,,im not expecting to pass (and dw grades dont Depress me!!)

i !!! understand! your feelings!! CHUUYA AND A T S U S H I ! ! F E ELINGS . A A A A also we love mythology nerds in this house i appreciate yall so much info to feed me a lazy cunt who cant search shit up AND YES THE DESIGNS OF CARD CAPTOR SAKURA WAS SO CUTE A A A A A A AAAAA (lucy does sound cool as tomoyo btw owo!!)

STUIDO GHIBLIII pls if its dazatsu it is DEFINITELY howls moving chastle idk i can just imagine dazai screaming over his hair colour change and him saying “a heart is a heavy burden” and atsushi being so strong and kind and saying “ive never once felt beautiful!” just,,,y e s (kyouka would be in kikis delivery service .)

[electronegasteve]

MUTUALLY DUMB QUESTIONS

Tagged by ya gal @bunny-boyler

If you’re tagged:

a) skip questions you don’t have an answer to and

b) add a question of your own before tagging other people to do it.

QUESTIONS SO FAR

- What was the last movie you watched and would you recommend it?

Shrek 2. Highly recommend. If you hate it get oot my swamp cause I hate you.

- if Lemony Snicket wrote a book about you what would the alliterative title be?

A series of tragic misconceptions

- What's a song lyric that hits hard?

"Don't try to fix me I'm not broken"

- What is a word you can never spell right no matter how many times you try?

Liqueur

- What was the last thing you baked?

Um probably the carrot cake I made about a couple months ago

- Which Studio Ghibli film would you most like to live in?

Spirited away probably

- What will always be a Hard No for you?

Ketchup on macaroni like are u okay?

- What's a reason you should be Canceled?

I cant cook unless its basic shit you can bang into the microwave.

- What is the most aggressively ugly piece of clothing you own?

I have no fashion sense so probably all my clothes 😂

- When was the last time you screamed aloud and why?

Tonight cause I was called lazy for not gettinga customer drinks. On my break. Girl.

- What's a basic life skill that you either don't know how to do or just plain suck at?

I don't know when to keep my mouth shut if that's an acceptable answer

- What's something that's Not Scary that terrified you as a kid?

Ladders. instability freaks me out.

- What was the last expensive thing you purchased?

I bought a hot chocolate maker machine and I dont regret it one bit.

- What is something that bugs you that probably shouldn't?

When people dont get to the point and tell a 3 hour long story over something that should be 2 minutes

- Pick a team of Pokemon to have in real life.

Gengar, mismagius, dusclops, chandelure, Rotom and Drifblim

- If you were an RPG character what weird non-combat item would you wield as a weapon?

A goblet

- What's a conspiracy theory that you actually believe?

Surely there is intelligence of other worldly life we ain't being told

- What’s your number 1 nostalgic childhood tv show?

Black hole high!!!!

My question: do you believe in reincarnation?

I'll tag @ass-master-2000 @boredtojeff @circumcising @crushchris @nic-tu-po-mnie

[tessacxstello]

hello im (F, 24) an idiot and forgot to post tessa’s (F, 22, fictional) intro!

pls bare in mind most of this was written 5+ years ago n i haven’t written tessa since 2015...... but lets get this show (LOCKWOODRP) on the road (DASHBOARD). 

tw school shooting, tw bipolar disorder

art hoe. always covered in paint. why?? she bad at painting

the mark rothko jackson pollock kind of bad tho wher people are like.... omg.... revolutionary..... its a badly drawn vagina

fuckin loves astrology, but cant take it that seriously bcos one of her bfs was a gemini so there’s some lenience there. but she WILL blame her hormones and mood swings on the positon of mars

embodies pure sunshine. 

one of those really annoying people that can go through the most traumatic shit and still find a positive spin. 

cares so much for others but does not really care for herself n it’s meant she just bottles up all this shit n when someone asks her how her day has gone she just falls on the ground like tht bit in midsommar when florence does that loud wheezy noise and sits down 

has never really had much money at all. learns to make-do with what she has. loves upcycling!! her bookshelf is made from cardboard which she’s reinforced by pappering it over with pages ripped out of thrifted books. her sofa is an old car boot which she’s repainted, put on wheels and stuffed w cushions so that it’s actually bearable to sit on.

her knitted cardigan? its made out of wife material.

knits all the time. will crochet you a christmas scarf. if ur lucky you might get a knitted jumper with a penis in a santa hat

still sleeps with cuddly toys n then wonders why ppl dont think she’s mature enough for a serious relationship

very passionate about Sister Doing It For THemselves!! raised by a single mom who worked her ass off so that tessa could do fun activities after school, have lelli kelly shoes, and go to college (not necessarily in tht order of importance)

tessa was born out of wedlock as the result of an affair between her mom (a journalism intern in her early 20s) and a new york times editor. 

the editor offered to pay tessa’s mom off to have an abortion, but she was like fuck u and told the papers he’d done that and used the money to cover the cost of her internship which they refused to pay her for

and because of the scandal, he ended up going through a pretty messy divorce with his wife, and losing custody of his kids. so as a child  tessa was seen as the cause of a divorce and received mutliple letters from the editors wife (to tessa personally!) and his kids saying how she had ruined everything, but her mom moved them to another town so tessa didn’t have to deal with that crap. 

her mom worked 3 jobs to put her through school, so in return tessa pushes herself incredibly hard to succeed. needs a break and a hug and to get laid to be honest. 

an old soul. likes old films, old music, old people. only recently got an iphone 5s so not really with this century yet

very sweet and soft and kind but also a fucking mess and won’t listen to anyone else’s opinion. she’ll take comfort, but not advice. 

feminist buddhist bisexual vegetarian for human rights and animal welfare. standing on a soapbox shouting about the climate in the quad, shoving flyers into your hands. flyers everwhere. she turns up at your grandmas funeral and shoves one into her mouth. she’s stolen the mic from the vicar to talk about pandas.

says “mother of pearl” and “heavens to betsy”.

had an affair with her married piano teacher and he’s now facing a custody battle and his wife is leaving him and tessa has completely internalised that guilt despite her being the victim in the scenario

aesthetics: paint splattered jeans, loose curls spilling from a scrunchie, thrifted blouses in bright yellow, guzzling coffee in the library at three am when a term paper’s due, shoddily illustrated campaign posters to save endangered species, polaroids plastered to your bedroom walls with scribbled dates on the frames, jumping into a stack of autumn leaves, jumping off piers in the summer months and stripping off your wet clothes on the beach, digging your thumbs into peaches to leave a bruise, smoking with the extractor fan on to hide the smell, bath bombs, letting the girls at lush rub samples all over your skin, cacti with knitted bobble hats, decorative pillows and sun and moon blanket throws, basic bitch fairy lights hanging from every single window, painting the name of the boys you’ve loved inside your wardrobe door.

studies fine art and philosophy, and wants to become either a lecturer or the first woman president. vibe wise, very similar to leslie knope, missy from big mouth, and basically the naive everygirl with a high opinion of themselves trope

gets drunk off like one double vodka lemonade because she’s small and she’s a pretty messy wild drunk. it’s when slutty tessa comes out, and the next day she’ll thoroughly regret every choice made and decide she’s never drinking again and cutting out all men and starting daily sudoko

on the cheerleading team and is a flyer, which she sees as a HUGE responsibility and she works really hard to make sure she’s on it for her team. one of those get up at 7am and go to the gym before school types its sickening

she had a really traumatic time at high school because there was a shooting in her school. she was in the next classroom when it happened, and she lost one of her friends in the shooting. she had to take two months off school, was diagnosed with depression and put on anti-depressants because of it. in her 2nd year of uni she was rediagnosed with bipolar disorder and anxiety, which she’s now on medication for. she can be really good for several months at a time and feel super creative and determined (she actually finds manic periods helpful for her creativity n art, n sadly sometimes doesn’t take her meds in these periods to push herself more which is obvs super bad.....). but when the bad periods come they can also last months n she had to take a semester out of school last year because of her mood, so she should be a senior by now but she’s retaking junior year

she attends weekly stress-management sessions prescribed by her doctor which she finds pointless.

very childish in the sense that she can only see her own point of view and kind of views herself as the “protagonist” and thinks her ideas are super important and life changing and she IS Destined for Greatness! despite being pretty much average af

pinterest board.

STATS

age: 22

height: 5'2"

positive traits: kind-hearted, gregarious, selfless, philosophical, open minded, idealistic, courageous, feisty, charismatic, loyal, adventurous.

negative traits: stubborn, hot-headed, reticent, escapist, self-destructive, easily led, naive, troubled, complicated, stepford smiler, envious, overdramatic, explosive.

distinguishing Marks: heart-shaped birthmark on the right of her chest, splattering of freckles across the cheeks during summer months, full lips, large eyes, porcelain features, long wavy hair, tattoo of a bird and a cage on her ankles and a basic bitch arrow tat on her wrist (srry to anyone with an arrow tat).

skills: jack-of-all-trades, talented pianist, perceptive, knows the correct way to throw a punch, good survival instinct, is able to remain calm in stressful situations, endures, artistic, excels in academic studies, hard-working and self-motivated, expert liar and talented actress.

likes: wolves, vintage thrift store fashion, old leather-bound books, left-wing democratic politics, cigarettes, poetry, John Hughes movies, cold coffee, hot tea, the sound of laughter, staying up til 4am having deep conversations, Tchaikovsky, having deep conversations about life, stationary, DC Comics, horoscopes, winged eyeliner, cats, knee-high socks, house music, abandoned buildings, studio ghibli, the smell of the earth after rain, Wes Anderson films, herbal tea, old people, solitude, esoteric things, the smell of freshly baked bread, Charles Bukowski, the moon.

fears: death, oblivion, global warming, losing those she loves, isolation, clowns, guns, enclosed spaces.

nicknames: Tess, T-Dog, Tessie, Socrates, Princess, Sunshine Girl, Florence Nightingale.

alignment: Neutral Good

MBTI type: INFP

BIOGRAPHY

tw school shooting

Her story begins with Cordelia Costello, a twenty-three year old college drop-out, turned beautician, turned columnist, turned intern at a local publishing company. She was a youthful, beautiful, siren of a women, always surrounded by an aura of enigma and an entourage of men. It was no surprise to the gossips in the office that within six months working at the company, Cordelia had added to her list another title – mistress to Franklin Hozier, the Editor of the New York Times. After two blissful months and three hundred and twenty seven orgasms, Cordelia decided she wanted a baby. Franklin laughed in her face. Feeling isolated and used, Cordelia continued her affair with her boss’ boss for another month, before deciding to take matters into her own hands.

It started with a turkey baster.

Soon the infant cries of a baby girl graced the world, her wrinkled skin puckered and pink as her mother held her in her arms, glancing upon the most beautiful thing in her life. Once Tessa, named after Cordelia’s favourite literary heroine, entered the world, Franklin left her life and things took a turn for the better. Despite living in a rented one-bedroom apartment in Staten Island, on what little money Cordelia had saved, Tessa’s childhood years were filled with nothing but the happiest of memories. Times were tough, but what they lacked in money, the Costello’s made up in love. While Tessa was at school, Cordelia did odd jobs cleaning, child-minding, working in local nurseries, in order to save up enough money to give her daughter the best start in life.

Despite what she had been led to believe by television shows and teen movies, the first few years of High School were some of the best years of her life. Tessa threw herself into a multitude of activities that High School offered her, including the drama club, the orchestra, choir, badminton and the school newspaper. While she certainly wasn’t considered ‘popular’ at school, Tess had a wide circle of friends and acquaintances. In fact, High School was a place where she made some of the greatest memories of her life, but come her final year, it was also a place where she was haunted by some of her worst.

On the January 17th of Tessa’s senior year of high school, a shooting took place in Westville High School. For two hours Tessa locked herself in a supply cupboard, her head between her knees as she tried to stay silent despite the screams of horror from the corridor. Eighteen students were caught in the crossfire, two of which were Tessa’s best friends. Bouquets of flowers, laminated photographs, Teddy Bears in cling-film bags attached to balloons littered the streets as families and friends came to pay tribute to the eighteen students withered before they had a chance to bloom.

It took two months of therapy before Tessa could return to school. Some of the survivors could never return due to the horrors that their eyes had laid witness to. Sometimes Tessa felt like a part of her had died with the friends that were stolen from her too soon, but one thought kept her going through: she had survived, she was alive and breathing, and she could not afford to loose a second of the precious time she had been granted on this earth. Despite the nightmares that continued to haunt her each night, Tessa found in the aftermath of the disaster a new sense of motivation. She began applying for scholarships for colleges without her mother’s knowledge, in the hope that her academic success would be enough to carry her through further education. Thankfully, it was, and after three torturous months of waiting Tess was offered an arts scholarship to her dream school, Lockwood University, where she hoped she could finally start to rebuild her life.

THE PRESENT:

Life at university was like a separate world. Students came and went like moths among the whisperings and the tequila and the stars. In this new world, Tessa was exposed for the first time in her life to alcohol, drugs, and the sexual appetites of other students her age – though she politely declined all three. Instead, Tessa threw herself into the vast array of activities in the hope that by distracting herself she could escape the terrible flashbacks that continued to haunt her. Tessa joined the lacrosse team, despite never having played before, and took up cheerleading discovering a new talent; she joined the musical theatre group, and the film club, and even set up her own acapella singing society. But despite how much she tried to throw herself into student life, her past hung around her like a bad smell, and with the added pressure of the Sinking Ships zine, Tess began to feel the weight of her secret tying her down like a pair of shackles around her wrists.

PERSONALITY:

If someone was to describe Tessa in a single word, it would most likely be ‘bubbly’, ‘open-minded’ or ‘sweet’. But they would be wrong – Tessa is not bubbly, or sweet, or stubborn, or hotheaded, or fiesty, or infectious, or any of the things the world see her as, but merely a numb and lonely echo of the gregarious, halcyon girl she once was. Tessa Costello was one of life’s enigmas. No one knew who she was, for to each person she met she wore a different mask – she dripped confidence, or was painfully shy; she was an exhibitionist, or a brooding wallflower; she took things too seriously, or not seriously at all. She was an actress and the world was her stage, each person she met a different member of the audience in the performance of her life. In truth, Tessa no longer even recognised herself. Insecure, and self-destructive, she tried to hang on to the extroverted, mischievous pieces of herself that everyone had once loved, but day by day it got harder to know what lay in the vacant holes blown through her mind. While she was stubborn and hot-headed, Tessa always saw the best in people, which meant that she was easily led astray. While she had grown up learning to be street smart and astute, she was idealistic and allowed silly fantasies to cloud her mind. By nature, she was passionate, which lead her to misimagine and romanticise those she met. Despite the hell she had witnessed, and the anxiety that feasted upon her, she believed that people were innately good and that to have courage and be kind could cure anyone of their sadness – yet she was unable to cure herself.

TWITTER:

@500daysoftessa: i blame disney films and musicals for my high expectations of men

@500daysoftessa: i am in love with the boy who works at starbucks. today i asked for a double latte and he gave me a tripple, which i think is proof that my love is requited. our children will be smart and talented and beautiful.

@500daysoftessa: little known historical fact: pharaohs were burried with their hands crossed over their chests because it was a popular belief there would be countless water slides in the after life.

[zackinthegreen]

Random questions ALL ANSWERS

Bored waiting for a ride home so i guess ill answer them all

1. Museum date or aquarium date? Why?

--museum. just got reaction

2. Describe your favorite type of weather.

-- Cold and Still

3. Name a subject/topic you know a lot about.

-- nothing

4. Do you have any friends or know anyone with the same name as you?

-- no friends but a couple people in my middle/highschool had the same first name

5. What’s something most people love that you hate?

-- uhhh I mean theres some food stuffs, pineapple, milk apparently

6. Who knows the most about you personally?

-- probably no one

7. If you could create ANY mix-up or mythical animal and have it be brought to life, what would it be?

-- Theow idk why

8. Do you think everyone in our lives serves a purpose, or are some people just there?

-- no one has a purpose

9. How do you feel about getting your picture taken?

-- HATE IT

10. Any guilty pleasure/s?

-- all things I enjoy come with not an insignificant amount of shame and guilt

11. What is your favorite Studio Ghibli film and why?

-- Havent seen any of them

12. Do you always make eye contact with people when you’re speaking to them?

-- I try to but I dont like to a lot of the times

13. Have you ever self-harmed?

-- as a kid I would slam my head against a wall but I dont think that really applies

14. What’s the nicest compliment you’ve ever been given?

-- don't really remember

15. Have you felt butterflies in your stomach today?

-- not today no

16. Did anyone/anything get on your nerves today?

-- yeah. Film club and the terrible way its run

17. Is there something you currently want, that you can’t have?

-- to be a ghost

18. Who was the last person to make you feel embarrassed or uncomfortable?

-- myself

19. Think of the last film you watched. Who was your favorite character in it?

-- i guess the last movie I watched was the lighthouse but that was a while ago. Fav character the seagull

20. What are you known for?

-- am I know for anything?

21. What is something you are skeptical about?

-- a lot i guess

22.If you have a job, do you prefer morning shifts or evening shifts?

-- morings if it's not too early

23. What is something you are most confident about?

-- nothing

How about something you're really insecure about?

-- my ability to communicate

24. What do you think in general of girls with short hair? How about guys with long hair?

-- I noticed a trend in highschool of frequently crushing on tall girls with short hair. boys with long depends

25. With films in languages you do not speak, do you prefer a dub or a subtitle?

-- it depends on a lot

26. If you wear makeup, what are your preferred brands?

-- dont wear make up

27. What part of a person's body do you usually find the most attractive?

-- I dont really know

28. What/which music are you currently listening to?

the dreadnoughts just released a new album

29. Do you find smoking unattractive?

YES

30. What was the last thing you looked up on Google?

--Petey Wheatstraw

31. What is the 10th picture in your phone gallery?

-- a half finished cardboard model of ds9

32. Would you ever dye your hair an unnatural color?

-- every time a movie with the joker comes out it delays me dying my hair green

33. What job would you be terrible at and what job would you be good at?

-- I'd be bad at a lot. doing okay at current job of AV lab monitor

34. Do you think forgiveness is mandatory to move on from something?

-- yes

35. What did you think was cool when you were younger?

-- I'm not sure I ever thought things were cool. like anything you could possibly do isnt cool. existing is uncool.

36. Is there a place that makes you sad to return to?

-- not that I can think of right now.

37. What's the best advice anyone has ever given you?

-- lay low

38. Have you ever treated someone badly just because someone else treated you badly?

-- yes

39. What's your favorite lyric from your favorite song right now?

-- FEELING LIKE A DEAD DUCK

40. What was the last thing that completely took your breath away?

-- walking up some steps

41. Is it true that if you can't love yourself, you can't love another?

-- I hope not

42. What's the most positive thing you could say to yourself right now?

-- it's all gonna be fine

43. What time of the day feels the most magical to you?

-- in the mornings when I'm the only one awake yet.

44. Were you a cute baby?

-- I dont think there exists a human baby capable of being cute

45. Is there something you wish you had said sorry for, but never did?

-- something said to Kass back at Drew U

46. What is any creative talent you wish you had?

-- drawing, writing, singing, playing music, acting

47. Do you think you'd make a good teacher? Why or why not?

NO. bad at communicating and cant deal with people well.

48. Do you think it's possible to fix a "broken" relationship?

-- I hope so

49. If you chose to get a tattoo what would it be and where would you want it?

-- I dont think I would get a tattoo

50. When was the last time you stayed up past midnight and what were you up to?

-- maybe about a month ago. feeling bad about some stuff I said.

[daddy-bean-boy]

FMP - Table Top - Evaluation

Earlier this year I wrote my project proposal, proposing the idea for my FMP that I had imagined. The original idea is different in a few ways but ultimately the final product reflects the proposal’s intentions. Other than my admiration for the 1930′s aesthetic which I wanted to achieve, I also wanted to improve my skills outside of my “comfort zone”. I planned this through having a live action side to my animation. This was the part which I knew would create the most challenge, and I can safely say it was. I had to prepare what settings I would have the camera on, create a filming environment that was suitable for the animation and include tracking points. I succeeded in creating the environment I wanted to film in, and I even thought my camera movements came out smooth. This was all from the help of tools I practiced with such as the glide rail. This helped get a smooth panning camera shot I needed of the table. Aside form what when well with this portion of the FMP, I would definitely improve the contrast in which I filmed in. The light bloom of the room gave an overly saturation scene in some cases and this makes it very hard to motion tack using after effects. This is what I am most disappointed with. The tracking in some scenes brings the characters I have drawn, out of the world as they slide because the tracking is unstable. Despite this however, I have gained experience in media creation that I wouldn’t have if these subtle difficulties weren’t there, because then I wouldn’t needed to have found out how to improve them.  I’m now more knowledgeable of Adobe software like After Effects and Premier Pro because of this. Specifically with my interest in animation, I would now be able to more carefully prepare myself when composing animation over a live action scene. With learning about software and cinematography, a lot of my aspiration was based on the appeal I have of old era animation from the 1930′s. I wanted to recreate the fluid movement and pioneered techniques that are all but unseen in today's industry. At the time of writing my proposal, I was unaware of how many rules an set backs this level of animation restricts you to. This is where my first major turn in the road had to be realized. I would not be able to perfectly recreate the style of animation with the resources I had. And this was okay, it just meant my animation would be more a homage to it. This was due to me using a computer for animation, as it would be impractical to hand draw within the given time. However, despite digitally creating all the animation I found I can still create the fluid and smooth motion. I found out that among the society of classic animators (Because there are animators who purely use tweening and bone tools etc.) there are 12 rules that following will bring frame by frame animations to life. This is what I decided I would follow as closely as possible while animating, even creating a practice animation in preparation. I had eventually re used this animation after much more practice and changed it ever so subtly, however it had a big impact on the realism of the movement. The most important thing to me, even from the proposal was learning what I now know to be “form”, moving a 2 Dimensional character believably in a 3rd Dimensional way. Now that I’ve come to the end of the project time, I’ve been given perspective on how long this animation takes and why industries have elected to using quicker less costly methods that sacrifice quality. A great help for me during the lengthy process was actually critically watching over animated shorts and films. I watched a lot of Studio Ghibli movies while making the FMP and listening to the studios methods. The films animation is so fluid and believable. Creator Hayao Miyazaki, gives a lot of credit to “people watching” saying almost every movement is based on the way he’s seen others move. This gave me a lot of thought and motivation to keep drawing even when I had little motivation. Time became the biggest obstacle in the end. As I plan on still producing the rest of the animation in my spare time, I discovered ways to make it feel less of a chore. In my original proposal, I had about a month of time allocated to production. While this seemed like enough, I didn’t factor in all the bits that get in the way. For example, keeping up with blogging. I needed to explain everything I was doing and learning through out. This is because while I was producing it wasn’t just drawing, I kept making each key framed drawing based on knowledge I had from the principles of animation. Each key frame I wanted to have Arching Motion, Slow Inns and Slow Outs, Squash and Stretch, and finally Exaggeration. The biggest incorporation that took more time than expected was anticipation and overshoot. This is having frames before and after slowly build up and release the momentum of an action. These were the main principles I focused on. Having to consider each one with each drawing made it much more lengthy than I had intended. I see this as good in a way, because if I was speeding through, then all the high level animators who say frame by frame takes years would false. Although, I have complete just over 50′s which is around the length I had originally intended. My miss sight was with story. Where I had wrote the story of the animation, it would’ve been impossible to fit it all in a minute. This lets me know I had carried myself away with a complex story that had a beginning, middle and end. I should have stuck to a simple plot, maybe not even having the second character “Shaker” who didn't make it into the FMP (as of hand in). 

The research I did throughout my FMP was the foundation to everything that I made the film on. The live action cross animation was heavily inspired from the video made by “PWow” on YouTube, entitled “How to make the space jam effect in after effects”. It walked through using after effects to track the motion into a null object and us that tracking information to move the animated character. This had a large impact on my project because it’s literally what let me compose characters into a world as if they are sitting in that plane and moving with it. Obviously like I said this effect I didn't use to its best ability. With more carefully thought out lighting and use of objects. Something through research I found, in Rodger Rabbit, a film I used as inspiration for it feature length use of pioneering animation and live action, they had used objects in the live action footage that mimicked the 3D space of the character that would be imposed over the footage. This let the artists know how they would appear in that space, how the light might affect it and also, if the camera moves, the animator will know exactly where they should be. I think if I recorded live action for animation again, I would do this. It would’ve allowed me to make a much smoother tracking scene for him, by drawing over the top of the cup in real life, following its shape as the angle changes and the camera pans. I even might have just skipped the camera pans all together. Saving myself the trouble of having to track could’ve given me more production time. This would have given me more time, however I learnt a lot of how after effects works and interacts with information to create motion, and that will lead me to being able to create better things in the future. I said in my proposal that I might use a mood board to remind myself of what research I had done and what from it I should use within my animation that I would reflect on. I actually found that the aesthetic comes with simple and appealing character design and the animation itself cant just be a reference to a mood board, it requires more critical thinking. This is where my research lead me to the most useful influence I had when drawing, these being the “12 Principles of animation”, which I originally discovered from Allan Becker, a legendary YouTube self made animator, but written originally by Ollie Johnston and Frank Thomas. These were two Disney animators who wrote this in the book “The Illusion of Life : Disney Animation” in 1981. Not quite the 1930′s but the principles were based off all Disney learned of animation over the years of making movement look as though it were living movement. While it made my animation appear much better than I would have expected, I think it would have helped if I had delved into each one, with practices and experimentation on them. I could’ve done quick sketch animations that would individually go through them. I said how I wanted to post a lot of my research based on YouTubers and entertainment that inspires me, I think I did well keeping to this and it still remains one of my favorite ways to motivate me. I never feel more like animating than after watching a well animated short of film. However, I do take all my inspiration from similar things. Studio Ghibli and Disney classics both use flowing hand drawn frame by frame and the YouTube Animators I watch also take inspiration from them. This actually worries me because a lot of people who take their inspiration from one source end up creating “unintentional rip offs” which end up becoming someone else’s work through your hands. And that way there no creative thinking to the production. With this in mind, my future animations will be less an homage to a style, and more of an exploration of my own animating style and being more experimental, so there’s less restrictions limiting me to possibly become tunnel visioned when animating.

Taking all that I can from this project, I’ve been left in a better place than when I started for sure. Though my actual animation hasn’t reached its conclusion, all that I have gained from it is more than worth it. I’ve never had an incentive to be overly interested in cinematography, however, I wanted to experiment regardless to see if I could create a believable character in a believable world. Not believable as in it were real, but believable in the sense that its weight, appeal and body language could make sense if it were int he world its presented in. This was the goal I wanted to achieve. All these came into factor when I was researching. Aside from the composition, the second thing I wanted to achieve was the aesthetic. This mostly came into play when choosing character design and the frame by frame animation. There where a few secondary features I used to add to this, such as the film grain (dust and scratches) that I layered over the top of all the footage. These were commonly present in movies of the 30′s because all films were physical strips that could be damaged. All these attributes I believe made the 30′s aesthetic. I’m very pleased with how it looks and I think it was successful. The main thing that brought the believe-ability away was the poor tracking in some cases, where you can see the tracking slide along surfaces. This is something I will take steps to avoid in the future, hopefully to make an even more believable character. Overall, my appreciation for the style is stronger than before, I know how difficult and thought provoking frame by frame can be. Tracking might be something I use scarcely in the future and live action backgrounds can be a refreshing break from animation. For my aspiration of becoming an animation artist (in-between animator and higher) these things will certainly bring me closer to being able to fit into that work environment and understand the process behind it so that I might one day direct my own feature animation.

[chiaraeliz]

do... do all of them...

lol only for you I’ll do this

everything’s under the cut! also I'm not going to answer the ones people did individually now, sorry!

1. have you ever been in love?

yes

2. who is your favorite artist?

as in music, panic! at the disco and twenty one pilots

3. what is your favorite music genre?

i like all types of music, mostly? not a fan of older music for the most part, though

4. have you ever had a penpal?

nope!

5. are you single or in a relationship?

very much single

6. what color are your eyes?

green

7. what is your favorite word?

mmmm I'm really bad with words i can’t think of anything

8. do you play any instruments?

i mean i played viola in 4th grade then quit to do flute in 5th grade, then quit that half way through the year because i got bored. does that count?

9. what is your favorite color?

i don’t have a favorite color, but i like specific color combinations?

10. do you have any nicknames?

oh my god the amount of names I’m called on a daily basis is ridiculous it’s too many

11. what is your favorite flower?

any type of lily because it reminds me of my cat, lily

12. what qualities do you find attractive in a person?

i find people who are empathetic, funny, and passionate to be great

13. do you have any pets?

two cats and two dogs

14. have you ever traveled outside of your home country?

yes! I’ve been to italy and japan

15. what language(s) do you speak?

fluently, i only speak english, but I’m learning italian in school and taking japanese classes outside of that

16. who was your first crush?

this boy that i went to preschool with that i met again in middle school, oh my god it was a mess

17. do you wear glasses?

yep!

18. what is your favorite pastry?

macarons are my shit

19. do you prefer swimming in a pool or in the ocean?

both are good, unless the ocean is at the beach near where i live because that beach is a dump

20. bright, dark, or pastel colors?

pastel

21. what is your favorite social media app?

tumblr

22. what is your sexuality?

i don’t really like labelling it, but basically I’m bisexual

23. do you have any siblings?

i have a brother

24. what is your favorite scent?

you know those fall types of candles? just all of those

25. where do you want to travel to?

japan again france would be cool!

26. what is your favorite film?

i really like studio ghibli movies, even though i haven’t watched many

27. who do people say you look like? (celebrity/family member)

hmmm people don’t really tell me i look like someone often , but when i was watching orange with my dad, he said i looked like the main character

28. who is your best friend?

@stupidlambforever​ of course

29. what is your dream job?

i’d love to do something with art, but i know that doing that will make me not enjoy it as much, so probably something in the medical field

30. do you know how to drive?

yep! i got my drivers license in may

31. who is/was your favorite teacher?

at the moment my art teacher, she’s very nice

32. are you a feminist?

idk i don’t like getting political here 

33. what is your zodiac sign?

capricorn

34. do you enjoy reading?

it depends on what I’m reading- like hell yeah fan fictions great, but that shit i have to read in english bores me to death

35. do you have any hidden talents?

I’m surprisingly flexible for someone who doesn’t move much

36. have you ever dyed your hair?

nope im boring

37. what is your favorite thing in your bedroom?

well, it wAS my elizabeth figure until all of my books decided to collapse and the oNLY THING TO FALL WAS THIS FIGURE and now her head is snapped off. lovely

38. what is your biggest fear?

death

39. can you whistle?

kind of, but not well

40. do you make your bed every day?

my mom does because i have to leave for school really early so i don’t have time in the morning. thank you mother

41. do you have any tattoos and/or piercings?

i have 3 piercings on both earlobes, and i want to get a tattoo at some point

42. have you ever been on a roller coaster?

I’ve been on many

43. surfing or skateboarding?

neither

44. are you a dog or a cat person?

i love both, but cats like me better so they win

45. what is your favorite animal?

cat

46. do you have a skincare routine?

uhh i wash my face at night then put on this moisturizer but that’s it

47. what time do you typically go to bed at and what time do you wake up at?

i go to bed at 11-12 usually then wake up at 6

48. what is your favorite memory?

(i already answered this but i cant figure out how to link to a post on desktop so lets just copy and paste)

hmmm i have a lot that are coming to mind, but can the entirety of the time i went to japan count? because that was great

49. how tall are you?

5′5″

50. what is the best gift you’ve ever received?

the trip to japan i went on for my 16th birthday

51. do you have a garden?

nope, but i do have a bamboo stalk(??) i have in my house. his name’s maurice

52. do you like bugs?

butterflies are pretty from far away, but otherwise no

53. what is your natural hair color?

kinda lightish brown

54. what is your favorite food and drink?

all food is v good for the most part and i mostly only drink water

55. do you want kids?

yes! very badly lol

56. what is/was your favorite class?

my art classes i have this year and italian

57. what color shirt are you wearing?

light blue to dark blue ombre sweater

58. if you could time travel, what year would you go to and why?

2010, so i could tell my third grade self to not quit figure skating because i love it now, but when i tried getting back into it i broke my wrist twice and had to give that up

59. what is your skin color?

white

60. hugs or kisses?

both

61. have you ever drank alcohol?

yeah, in italy because its apparently fine for 13-15 year olds to drink there. but other than that no

62. have you ever done drugs?

nope and i’d rather not

63. netflix or youtube?

youtube

64. ice cream or frozen yogurt?

ice cream

65. succulents or flowers?

flowers

[yuzuria]

was tagged by @hatsvmei like more than a year ago and never did it but since i found it now im gonna

The rule:

1. Go to this website. www.random.org/lists/ 2. Pick 15 characters from any fandom or whatever you’re into. 3. Tag five or more people.

tagging @notcoolhajime @notacoolname1 @piduai @lunosamentelunitoo @serahne @magioftheseas @alconnow @niabu-chan  if you guys only wanna though!

4. Have fun!

1. Mom/Dad: imai nobume, lmao i cant be nobume’s wife but i can be her and kagura’s daughter, sounds fine 2. Your sibling: jack vessalius, are we gonna be siblings from his daddy side or mommy side??  3. Your Grandma/Grandpa: kikyo... my first love is my dead grandmother... wait this sounds like that one studio ghibli film 4. Haunts you: matsuda yasuke, ghost matsun is good or just him wanting me dead, either is good 5. Your boyfriend/Girlfriend: diamond(hnk) o-o-ohhh /////// 6. Your ex: kamishiro rize, HOW, BEING HER GF IS MY LIFELONG DREAM??? unless she met eto and dumped me which is understandable 7. Your best friend: vincent nightray, im y elling im in the problematique club 8. Proposed to you: lapis lazuli(hnk) yyy eess ////////// 9. Your boss: kiryuu nanami, hell yes im gonna go to india and be chased by surfing elephants with her 10. The random person you met at the bar: komaeda nagito, if i met komaeda irl i’ll probably ignore him, sorry hon 11. Your rival nie mingjue, im gonna be a helpless rival he can cut off my head and parade it around however he wants 12. Gave you your first kiss: sayaka maizono, c-cutie....... 13. Drunk and singing karaoke with:  jin guangyao, why am i hanging out with problematique people 14. Played 7 minutes in heaven with: olivier mira armstrong, you bet i wouldn’t last like 1 minute in here, either she killed me or i fainted 15. Gave you your favourite dessert: lacie baskerville, it herself she gave to me <3

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1. Mom/Dad: 2. Your sibling: 3. Your Grandma/Grandpa: 4. Haunts you: 5. Your boyfriend/Girlfriend: 6. Your ex: 7. Your best friend: 8. Proposed to you: 9. Your boss: 10. The random person you met at the bar: 11. Your rival 12. Gave you your first kiss:  13. Drunk and singing karaoke with:  14. Played 7 minutes in heaven with:  15. Gave you your favourite dessert: 

[bctrlzzz]

why cant i just live in a studio ghibli film man

[lost-at-hacketts-quarry]

back when i used to play TSR hardcore, this was my favorite thing. i'd give my sims full autonomy and just let them vibe. i was excited when the sims dropped the werewolf pack around tq's release, but it's just anthro wolves essentially and im...not too big on those werewolves so i didnt get it LOL (no hate to anyone who prefers those though!) im very much just in love with domestic life and the romanticization of it, so that probably contributes to why i love this idea. make life like studio ghibli films, you know? but yeah, i actually started making the TQ cast some months ago...im unsure if i'll ever post pics though because i did use a lot of cc and cant remember everything i used/where i got it, so i'd feel wrong posting it without being able to give credit, you know? but yeah i made nick, abi, and started on dylan :)

This is absolutely me projecting but

the sweet and comforting thought of the Hacketteers all being neighbors or housemates and them just being friends and being happy makes me very soft,,, not like a gross hype house situation but genuinely just friends all being together and hanging out and wehehehe <3

[sunnysidewrites]

11 Questions Tag Pt 6 (jesus)

i was indirectly tagged by the lovely jane @wennjunwho​ 34 years ago!!! im only doing this now bc its recently been brought up again rip a lot of tags somehow always end up circling back to me for some reason when im boring as h*ck!!! so im adding it on to my never ending 11 questions tag LOL

Rules: Answer 11 questions from the person who tagged you and then make 11 more for the next people that you tag

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6

1) What is your happiest memory?

probably the day i met my ults in person!!! truly the highlight of my life

2) If you could have any super power which one would you have?

answered in part 5!!

3) Anything you want to tell me?

JANE U ARE SO BEAUTIFUL INSIDE N OUT!!!! i always love chatting w u, whether its abt how weird the american educational system is or the struggles we writers go through!! u and minnie are 2 cuties :((( im so glad we’re mutuals!! we can relate to lot of the same stuff n ur hilarious n so so sweet u dont give urself enough credit for being!! ur writing kILLS ME ALL THE TIME HOW DO U DO IT!!! i love u lots n i hope ur doing well n taking the time off as needed for ur health <333333

4) Top 3 songs that mean the most to you?

answered in part 2!

5) You can take your bias on a trip anywhere, where would you take them and what would you do?

oh my gosh ok hmm im a hopeless romantic sappy ass so im gonna take my hubby jinyoung 2 paris!! plus ive always wanted to go there n it would be amazing if i went w him LOL we would probably go sightseeing and chilling in cafes and just explore the grounds!! can’t forget abt the eiffel tower!!!

6) What’s your favorite movie?

i dont have one there are just way too many i like rip i used to have one but that was when my movie knowledge wasnt very expanded lmaooo im always down for disney and studio ghibli films though!

7) What’s something about you that you like/ love about yourself?

im ur ultimate mom friend to the max. i love being there for others n i give out very thorough, thoughtful, and heartwarming advice. i outmom everyone!! i check up on my friends often and bring stuff in my bag that only moms would. i like to think of myself as highly empathetic and compassionate bc of how deep my emotions run so anything dealing w emotions is an utmost priority for me and for my loved ones!!

8) How do you greet people? (Im very curious about this one because Ive been forced to kiss people on the cheek my whole life but most countries arent as touchy feely)

ah, it depends on who they are! if it is a complete stranger, i would just formally introduce myself, and i would give them a handshake if they’re an authoritative figure. if it’s a close friend, then I would tackle them with a hug and scare them LOL if it’s my family, it’s a hug and a “hi”!!! my sister n i have very,,, unique ways of greeting each other, let’s just put it that way

9) Whose your favorite person in the entire world?

oh jesus i dont have someone like that but i rlly value my family and my closest friends even when my fam is testing me n drives me over the edge on a daily basis :)))))))

10) Sunrise or Sunset? ( Please elaborate as to why, I’m aso very curious)

sunset!!! OH RIP OK EDIT: I FORGOT TO ELABORATE WHY LOL sunset colors are the only time i tolerate orange bc i dont like the color orange but the mix w the pink in the sky is just so ethereal and puts me at ease

11) What’s your favorite movie of all time?

isn’t this basically the same as #6 LOL either way i cant pick a fav!!!

yall know the drill pt 2 im tagging ppl once i stop the spam!!! n i think i have 2 more to go!!!!