#whilst doing a handstand

[shrimpalbuspotter]

Harry trying to prove Draco is a death eater but Ron and Hermione not taking it serious is the same as Snape trying to prove something was going on with Remus since hes ill once a month and disappears at night but Lily not believing it and I think that's so fucking funny. Why are they so similar in so many ways it's genuinely kinda crazy

[alchemist-shizun]

LMAO i was not expecting to be aware of the context this is great

Polyamorous relationships are not for everyone. Monogamous relationships are not for everyone. Romantic relationships are not for everyone!!! We are all different people with different needs, maybe just stop trying to condense the human experience into a homogenous gray monolith!!! aaaaaaaa

[wildernessfaery]

if you ever see me hanging upside down from the ceiling and crying, just know i’m having a good day ;)

[wonysugar]

it’s so over for me…. ch. 12

wdym y/n’s drunk??

word count: 2.9k

warnings: alcohol, weed and sex!! :]

tags: puppy kink, spitting kink(?), sub!aeri, dom!yn, bathroom sex, it’s a college house party idk what to tell you,,

there you were, in the middle of this horrible-decision-making-young-adults infested place, clothed in what you swore you wouldn’t even consider wearing. look, there was nothing else you could’ve done, it was around 11pm at the time, every store was closed, and even if they weren’t, you had like, no money. you had to work with what you had which was apparently a bunch of fuckass warm hoodies and sweatpants.

stopping yourself from just standing somewhere just observing everyone having fun, you decided to walk around after a bit. squeezing yourself through the unending piles of people drinking and smoking just by the front door. it reeked of marijuana as soon as you entered the house, but honestly, it was a college house party, what were you expecting?

at the corner of your eye, you spotted your two surprisingly decently dressed best friends, heejin and kazuha, standing next to the very cliche, very heavily liquor-filled red cups. heejin was wearing a black crop-top that very much showed cleavage with a black short skirt, the outfit completed by thin fishnets and thick black boots. kazuha, went for a more cozy look and wore a baggy white long-sleeved shirt under a brown graphic tee. her baggy pants were black and matching with her black and white converse.

you quickly rushed to get to them, waving at them as you still squeezed through. soon enough, they noticed you as you got out of the huddle of students.

“..what are you wearing.” heejin raised an eyebrow, her eyes slightly widened at the sight of the god-awful clothing before her. you shrugged, also eyeing her up and down.

“look. you know that i had nothing to wear! actually, let’s not mind my clothing, you wanna talk about the fact that you dressed up like a gothic slut?” you teased back, earning a small, amused oohh from kazuha.

“this is a college party, y/n, not bible study. everyone here is supposed to dress up like whores.”

you both subtly looked at kazuha’s attire, her innocent face looking back at the both of you just making the whole ‘loser girl who got lost on her way to the gaming café’ vibe look even more ridiculous. it’s okay though, she looked gay and confused enough to attract girls.

-

ning and aeri were watching this very random guy who’s been doing a very random handstand for about 20 minutes whilst everybody was hyping him up.

“holy shit he’s so fucking red.. he might actually faint from this oh my god??” said aeri, wiping away her tears of laughter with her finger while still cackling hardly at the scene. she was being careful not to damage her nails in any way. i mean, she got them done three days ago, they were precious.

ning glanced away to contemplate if throwing this party was even a good idea in the first place, that’s when she saw you watching your friends down whole cups of vodka and laughing with them.

well that answers her question!

she nudged a still laughing aeri with her elbow, annoying smirk plastered on her face as she still watched you from afar. “aeri, look at this.” she said, eventually, said girl looked in the same direction, still barely getting over the dude that was circled by people while he was practically doing acrobatics, “huh, what’s up?”

“isn’t that your girlfriend? you should go talk to her.” ning suggested playfully, earning a scoff from aeri. “also what the fuck is she wearing.” she quietly added, not realizing that she said that sort of outloud.

“i’m not going over there, she’s gonna like, judge me.” said the japanese girl, now gently rubbing on her arm as her expression morphs into one of worry. aeri uchinaga displaying nervous tics? that’s new.

“aeri, you’re the most popular girl on campus, everybody wants to either be you or be with you. if y/n l/n judges you, then you can jus-“

“where the fuck is jimin? we’re already all out of booze, god damn it.” minjeong interrupted, crashing into the conversation with absolutely no care about what they were talking about beforehand, which was typical minjeong behavior, so they weren’t offended.

“i don’t fucking know? probably making out with some girl?” aeri responded, wearing a cocky smirk while ning chuckled. it was very, and i mean very probable that jimin was doing someone right now. sure, she pretended to be homophobic when it came to aeri for shits and giggles, but that girl basically fucked everything she found remotely attractive. and that, included lots of girls and boys on campus, who were also coincidentally all rich?

“oh how lovely. well, we all wonder when that’s gonna be you with y/n! you fucking bitch..” she shoves her cup onto aeri as she mumbles that last bit then glares at both of the girls before walking away. in minjeong’s language, that basically meant “okay, thanks for letting me know! love you!” so they just sent her her way with a wave that she didn’t even get to see. ning immediately then turns back to aeri.

“okay, so, like i was saying! you should just be cool, unbothered, nonchalant. you know what i mean? who cares if she rejects you, there’s plenty of fish in the sea.” she said, trying to reassure her best friend and pretending like she didn’t completely rat aeri out to y/n not even a week ago at starbucks.

aeri, in return, only gave her an even more worried look, the one that she usually had whenever she sighed deeply and went “ughhh i don’t knowww..”, but this time she just stayed quiet. she was gonna have to watch from afar, yet again.

ning eventually gave up on convincing aeri to talk to you and went to go have well-deserved fun which meant finding minjeong and grinding on her just to piss her off. aeri, on her side of the room, was leaning on the wall and just kept staring at you, dramatically drowning in her own despair as she took small sips of her drink, sighing and biting her lip.

that’s when you two made unintentional eye contact, the both of you feeling awkward and quickly looking away, the ‘wanting to sneak a glance at someone but not knowing they were already looking at you in the first place’ cliche, if you will. that’s when aeri decided she needed to grow some balls! she exhaled sharply, taking one big gulp of her vodka, then gripped the cup in her hand for security.

she was gonna talk to you tonight, whether you liked it or not.

the next time you looked at her from across the room, she was already staring you down, which caused you to look back at her, trying your hardest to look intimidating, and also somewhat hot? you ran your hand through your hair, grabbed your drink from the table next to you and took a sip, holding very intense eye contact with her. the alcohol went down your throat, spiky, and you did your best in not grimacing. you were also hoping this wouldn’t start anything violent, considering that heejin went to go dance and kazuha was probably somewhere in the house, standing in a corner playing candy crush on her phone, so you were kinda powerless in this situation.

seeing you stare at her like this, all while swallowing some strong ass alcohol as if it was a regular tuesday for you turned her on way more than she’d like to admit. it infuriated her how pretty she found you in your ridiculous, bland, stupid, cute outfit. oh she was livid. she took one or two step towards you as she was practically guzzling down her drink, as if to challenge you.

oh it was on.

-

“heyy kazu, have you seen y/n? i can’t find her, she’s not upstairs nor is she in the basement.” heejin asked, leaning on the table. she wasn’t exactly worried about where you could’ve been, just weirded out. you’d usually stay in one place for a whole event then go home after a few hours.

kazuha, looked around, slightly tipsy, but still being able to articulate proper words, “uhhhhh no? last time i saw her she was downstairs chugging down booze. knowing her, she’s probably drunk as fuck right now.”

heejin furrowed her eyebrows hearing that whole sentence, “drunk?? what do you mean y/n’s drunk, she never gets drunk???”

-

you snatched the random vodka bottle that was conveniently next to you, ignoring the wasted frat boy whining and telling you to put it back, then you take a step of your own towards her. you very aggressively take off the lid of the bottle and chug it down, which you very quickly realized was a really bad decision. since you barely drank in your day to day life, you were already sorta drunk, so making out with the bottle and drinking all of its fluid was not helping. you felt your vision go blurry.

several, and i mean several minutes of taunting each other, getting voluntarily tipsy out of your minds and getting progressively closer to each other, you ended up face to face. her hooded eyes piercing through yours. her face slightly flushed from alcohol. her bottom lip swollen from the amount of times she bit into it while looking at you and oh my god her eyeliner looks really really really well done? you wished you could do it as good as he-

focus, y/n. this is war. confront her, ask her why she’s this much of an asshole all the time, why she’s been on your ass ever since you quote retweeted that definitely-not-pretty-at-all picture, why she totally has a big humongous lesbian crush on yo-

suddenly, you felt her lips on yours, hungrily kissing you, seemingly not giving a fuck about who sees. her hands roaming your body, gently tugging at your hoodie as she made out with you.

what the fuck?

what the fuck??

wow her lips felt nice?? you confusingly kissed her back, with just as much desperation. you couldn’t lie that the kiss was making you feel some sort of way, especially with the manner that her hands sneakily cupped your ass as you allowed her tongue to roam your mouth, quietly whimpering at the feeling. she wouldn’t hear it anyways, not only was she completely out of it, but the music was also too loud to even hear anything of the sorts.

she pulled away for a quick while, hazily smirked at you and gently grabbed your wrist, leading you into what seemed like… the bathroom? you really couldn’t tell, your vision was a blur. you quickly put the bottle somewhere on a counter close by before entering the restroom.

the only thing on your barely functioning mind at that moment was kissing aeri again.

-

“there you are. i’ve been looking for you for what felt like hours.” said minjeong, staring down at a red-eyed jimin, sitting on the couch holding a lit and rolled up joint whilst giggling.

“sorryyyy, i was exploring this one girl’s body right then some really hot guy joined in? shit was wild minjeongie you should’ve been the-“

“i don’t give a flying fuck about all of that yu jimin, we’re out of booze, fix it. quickly.” coldly ordered the shorter girl as she crossed her arms, making the taller one groan annoyingly.

“oh my goddd girl, i put a bottle on the table downstairs, just drink from that.” whined jimin, taking yet another puff of her almost finished joint.

“yeah, i was going to until y/n took the bottle. i have no fucking clue where she put it, so get up and go get more.”

-

there you were, leaning on one of jimin’s bathroom doors, hand on the knob to block anyone from entering. aeri was pinning you to it, her head in the crook of your neck, kissing and licking on it while her hands rest on your waist, fingers occasionally digging in.

your top was off, because according to her, “it needed to go”, which could mean multiple things ranging from sexy to just mean, but you were too drunk to even comprehend simple words, so you shrugged it off and just took off your hoodie for her, leaving you with only your bra.

with time, she went further down with her mouth, getting to your collarbone and placing hungry kisses there, then to your barely clothed boobs, where she did the same thing. you could feel her smiling stupidly against you as she kissed them, then she wrapped her arms around you, unhooking your bra.

she put her mouth on one of your nipples as soon as they were exposed, making you gasp at the sensation that was amplified by 10, thanks to the alcohol you consumed earlier. one of her hands now groping your other tit and playing with the bud. you felt her other hand tease your lower stomach, slowly sliding it down your sweatpants.

“fuck aeri..” you quietly moaned out, feeling her smirk against you yet again, gently rubbing her long fingers on your clothed and embarrassingly wet cunt. it angered you, how horny she got you.

she pulled away from your chest, looking at you cockily as she slightly tilted her head, “you’re so wet for me y/n, i thought you hated me?” she scoffed.

does she ever shut up?

you rolled your eyes, now annoyed, “god, you’re so fucking infuriating.. use your mouth for something good for once and just eat me out already. you’re the one who dragged me in here, so shut the fuck up and do something.” you saw how aeri’s smirk dropped a tad bit, oh how it amused you. she definitely wasn’t expecting you to be this.. demanding. it, very surprisingly, turned her on. a lot.

she was always the one doing the talking, she was always doing the ordering, now why were you always the one to make her discover things about herself, damn it?

you groaned at her. she was looking at you like some baffled dumbass. you grabbed her straightened long brown hair in a swift motion, earning an unexpected but very welcomed whine from her.

“did you not hear me? take my pants off and get on your fucking knees, i don’t have all night.” you sternly said, watching how her eyebrows furrowed, she really didn’t like the idea of you being in control of things and it showed. yet, she obeyed, like the good little bitch she was, she obeyed.

as soon as she pulled your pants and panties down, aeri got on her knees and looked up at you with glossy eyes, probably tearing up from the pain she felt on her scalp when you pulled on it. that poor girl, her expression a mix of anger, lust and fear of what you might do to her.

in response, you could only chuckle, seeing her this vulnerable looking, completely at your mercy, it did something to you. you never thought you’d enjoy this, especially due to the fact that you’re usually the submissive one in these types of situations, but it seems like the alcohol was doing the speaking for you.

“come on, get to work puppy.”

she kept eye contact, exhaled heavily as she closed her eyes a moment, giggled nervously as she mumbled a small ‘what the fuck am i doing.’ then, ended up going in.

her tongue gave small puppy licks to the entire surface of your slit, messily tasting the slick that was coated all over it, eventually teasing also your folds and entrance. you threw your head against the door you were leaning on, running your hand through her now not-so-straight hair, so intoxicated that you couldn’t control the noises that came out of you, you just kept calling out her name, you just kept muttering how much of a good bitch she was being for you, and she loved every second of it.

aeri, apparently was too, heavily intoxicated, because whenever she gave a suckle to your clit, or even when she inserted her tongue inside of you, she just couldn’t help but let out every noise that wanted to come out of her mouth. humming and moaning your name against your core, even digging her new nails into your hips and thighs.

“open your mouth baby.” you ordered, running your thumb across her wet bottom lip.

“m-mhm.” she moaned, looking up at you with teary eyes, her mascara running down her cheeks, her eyebrows upturned as she stuck out her numb tongue. you spat in her mouth, still rubbing her lip with your thumb. she didn’t even bother to question it, she just swallowed it like the stupid, desperate whore she is for you.

despite how exhausted you might’ve been, despite how blurry everything was to you at that moment, despite how confused you still were about everything, one thing you did know was that she was making you feel soooo good, you couldn’t stop using her pretty mouth, so much so that you planned on using it all night long.

-

“no seriously where the fuck is y/n?? i’m not leaving without her jimin.” yelled a very worried, very tipsy heejin, screaming at jimin while kazuha, the only one remotely sober at that moment, held her back from jumping the other girl.

“damn girl, relax.. your friend is probably somewhere upstairsss.. i’ll send her off tomorrow whenever she wakes up, okay? now please, leave.”

and just like that, the door was slammed shut on both of your best friends’ faces. they processed all of it, then had to call a cab to get them home safely.

while in the car, they were both praying you were okay, and that you were sleeping soundly somewhere in that house.

they thought of every possible scenario that could’ve happened to you,

but aeri tonguefucking you all night in the bathroom definitely was not one of them.

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[ruewrote]

𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠.

PAIRING: rafe cameron x fem!reader WARNINGS: mentions of a breakdown GENRE: angst SONG INSPIRATION: give me love by ed sheeran WORD COUNT: 891

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you'd often stay in on the weekends, not like your friends who either drank or got high. it wasn't particularly your scene.

it was the end of exams week and everyone was celebrating for not having to put in any more sleepless nights of studying, well most did. others knocked back drinks trying to forget how badly they think they did.

it didn't take long for you to find a cheesy rom-com, a large platter of snacks balanced on top of your legs, halfway through the movie picking up your phone and mindlessly scrolling through instagram.

a smile tugging at the corners of your lips as you scrolled through a video of jj maybank doing a handstand whilst drinking from a keg, everyone cheering and laughing after he succeeded. he was walking over to the camera and that's when your phone started to ring.

rafe.

not knowing why but a lump formed in your throat making it hard for you to swallow, your stomach churned as you pressed the phone against your ear.

"i-i need you. please..." his voice was so quiet, so broken.

that was it all took for you to be up out of bed and out of the door. his soft cries and deep sniffles worried you more as you ran to his house.

it felt like you could hear every beat of your heart, nothing in that moment mattered but him.

barging into the cameron residence which seemed to be empty for the most part.

calling out his name, as you made a beeline straight for his bedroom.

the large pieces of shattered glass on the floor didn't go unnoticed, some family photos were either on the floor or lopsided too.

the door to his room ajar, letting out a deep breath as your fingertips grazed the solid surface before fully pushing it open.

you've never seen him look so small before.

his chin rested on his knees, his arm wrapped around his legs bringing them closer to his chest as his shoulders shook. his hair covering most of his face.

slowly kneeling beside him, shuffling closer to his shivering body.

he lifted his head up, making eye contact with you.

"oh rafe..." your voice was gentle as you reached out to cup his cheek, thumb brushing away the tears that fell.

the skin of his nose a rosy pink, his eyelids puffy from crying, but his eyes... carried something so much more.

the grief. the sorrow. the confusion.

tears flow down his cheeks freely as he nuzzled against your palm, having felt it had been long enough, you pulled him into your arms and held him as he cried into your neck.

"im so sorry for c-crying, ill be fine."

you felt your heart break a tiny bit more and just embraced him tighter against you.

"you never need to apologize to me. ever. and certainly not for crying." tears of your own stung in your eyes as your hand stroked small circles on his back.

it had been hours since you found rafe, he was now safely tucked into bed fast asleep and you were bent over cleaning up the larger pieces of glass, then sweeping the smaller ones into a pan.

readjusting the frames of the rest so they were straightened.

there were a couple of times when things were like this. when rafe would randomly show up outside your bedroom window or he'd call you from toppers house phone needing you.

it was more frequent over the last couple of years. you didn't mind it. the people around you did since you always dropped anything and everything for him, but he'd done the same for you in similar circumstances.

whether it had been an argument with your parents or your friends, even if it was just protecting you from some random creep. he was there.

but you do have to admit this had been one of the worst conditions that you had found him in and it worried you to no end.

after finishing cleaning up most, if not all of the mess you went down and got yourself a glass of water, sliding open the door to the back porch.

a light breeze brushed against your skin as you leaned against the concrete railing, watching as the waves of the sea washed over one another.

continuing to slowly sip at your drink as you closed your eyes and took all of it in, trying to find a peaceful state of mind before going back in the house to sleep.

that was until you felt a large hand delicately trace over your shoulder, tensing up you opened your eyes spinning around to whoever it was. soon relaxing when you were met with the familiar sleepy blue eyes of none other than rafe.

a soft smile stretched across his lips as you rested your head against his shoulder, letting out a sigh of relief. leaving a playful tap on his bicep for scaring you.

"what are you doing up?" you questioned as you looked up at him.

"noticed you were gone and got worried..." he spoke quietly, sheepishly smiling as he left a peck on the top of your hair, wrapping his arms around you.

"awh, did ya miss me?" a playful laugh left you as you continued to tease him until he had enough of your games and threw you over his shoulder, taking you back to bed.

you were glad that you had him and he was glad that he had you.

© ruewrote.

[katsu28]

for dad!steve can you do maybe a pool day or something? and maybe one of them falls in; and after picking them up out of the water, Steve comforts them and helps them to not be afraid to go back in. sorry this was weirdly specific😭

no no this was a fantastic request, i've missed writing girl dad!steve so much u have no idea

dad!steve harrington x reader, maisie and nora harrington from this fic make their second appearance, parental guilt (idk if that needs a warning but just in case!), 2.1k

Summer in Hawkins meant popsicles, ice cream, and most importantly—pool days. You were fortunate enough to have a house with its own backyard pool, because wrangling Maisie and Nora into the car and across town to the community pool would be near impossible. It would probably be easier trying to calm a cornered bull. 

The girls wanted to go swimming the moment they woke up, barreling into your bedroom at the crack of dawn and leaping onto your bed to wake Steve and yourself up.

You’d been the lucky one to receive a smattering of sloppy kisses from Nora all over your face as a wake up call, but your poor husband had caught Maisie’s sharp knee to the nether regions as she crawled up towards the pillows, jolting awake with a pained groan. 

After breakfast and sunscreen, you’d quickly gotten them into their swimsuits while Steve prepped the pool for the day, and now you were sat under the big umbrella watching Steve and Maisie do tricks in the pool. Well, Maisie was doing tricks—Steve was pretending to be the judge, giving her a score out of five for each flip, roll, or attempt at an underwater handstand. Naturally, every trick got full marks. 

Steve had taught Maisie how to swim in this pool so she knew it like the back of her hand, but you still kept an eye on the two of them whilst letting Nora nap with you, half on your lap and half on the sun lounger you were settled on. She’d tuckered herself out fairly quickly by splashing around on the steps of the shallow end with you for a good half an hour. 

Maisie clambered out of the pool with a gleeful giggle, darting back around to the middle of the pool, probably to jump in again. 

“Walk please, Mais!” You called, shifting forward gently so as to not wake Nora. The warning had barely left your lips when her foot slipped on the slick concrete, and it was like everything started moving in slow motion. She toppled sideways into the water, hitting the surface with a shrill cry that was soon swallowed up as she went under. 

You went to get up, but you weren’t moving. Why weren’t you moving??? 

“Oh shit!” Steve cursed, leaping towards her within a split second. He’d only been a few feet away when it happened so he got to her fast, but it seemed like forever with your heart pounding loudly in your ears the way it was.

You felt trapped in your own body as you watched Steve scoop her out of the water swiftly. She emerged wide eyed and coughing and shaking like a leaf, already curling into his chest.

He waded over to the shallow end to climb the steps, carefully but quickly hurrying over to where you were. You passed him her towel so he could wrap her up in it to ease her trembling and she immediately threw her arms around his neck, burrowing into him with a whimper that soon turned into a full on wail. 

You suspected it was more from the shock than anything. Maisie was a strong swimmer, but there really nothing that could’ve prepared her (or you, for that matter) for this kind of thing. Your heart ached at the way her little shoulders shook with sobs. 

Nora chose that exact moment to rouse from her slumber, blinking awake with a tiny yawn. She looked confused for a split second at the rest of you now all around her, but the moment she spotted her big sister crying, her lower lip began to wobble too. 

You were quick enough to gather her in your arms before she erupted into tears too, and that made the rope of guilt knotting in your stomach grow even bigger. Why were you so fast to console Nora, but froze when it came to saving Maisie? 

Steve glanced at you, giving a reassuring nod as you both soothed your crying daughters. 

“Hey, hey, you’re okay, baby. You’re fine, I’ve got you,” He murmured, patting Maisie’s back in a calming rhythm not unlike the way he used to do when she was a baby and wouldn’t stop crying. It seemed to calm her a little bit, because her sobbing soon turned into choked hiccups then shaky sniffles. “Daddy’s got you.” 

He wiped her tears away with the edge of the towel as soon as she gave herself a few inches of space away from him, shifting to accommodate her as she switched positions to sit in between Steve and yourself. She leaned into Steve’s arm that was still wrapped around her loosely, cheek squished against his bicep. He let her sit there for a while, waiting until she’d stopped sniffling to speak. 

“Did you swallow some water?” He asked softly, smoothing her hair back and away from her face. Maisie nodded feebly, twisting her grip on her towel. “I bet that was scary, wasn’t it?” Another nod. 

Steve sighed sympathetically, rubbing a hand down her arm. “You’re so brave, did you know that, monkey? You were scared but you were so, so brave about it. Mommy and I are so proud of you.” 

“So proud, baby.” You agreed, leaning to kiss Maisie on the top of her head. She still looked unsure, eyebrows furrowed as she looked off into the distance. “Tell you what—to show you how brave you are and how proud we are of you, I’ll make grilled cheese for lunch. How does that sound?” 

That got her to perk up a little bit. She tilted her head at you, wiping her nose with the back of her hand. “Can I help?” She asked quietly. 

“Of course you can help, baby. C’mon, let’s go.” You passed Nora off to Steve, who lifted her into the air to make her giggle, and hefted Maisie into your arms, propping her on your hip with a grunt of effort. She always liked to say she was “too big girl” for you to carry her anymore, but you knew she secretly adored it. 

Steve was a different story. Maisie wormed her way into her dad’s arms every chance she could get, using him like a human jungle gym whenever he stood still for more than ten seconds. You didn’t mind at all. In fact, it always warmed your heart to see how close they were. 

Maisie climbed onto the kitchen stool you’d pulled up a little ways away from the stove, placing everything you handed her down on the counter. Her legs swung idly as she sat. 

“How’re you feeling, baby girl?” You asked softly, testing the waters. You knew you had to talk about what happened, but you certainly weren’t going to push her if she didn’t want to. 

“Okay. My heart’s not beating real fast anymore.” She shrugged, waving the spatula you’d tasked her with holding around in the air. 

“That’s good! That's great, Mais, I'm so happy you're feeling better."

Maisie bobbed her head halfheartedly. "Can I put the cheese on?"

Message received, loud and clear. This was a conversation for another time, and that was completely okay.

The smell of grilled cheese filled the air quickly, and the sandwiches were done soon enough. Steve brought Nora in when you called for them, settling her into her booster seat at the counter as you slid a sandwich sliced into sticks in front of her. Maisie was a little more particular about the presentation of her food, but you knew what she wanted. 

Once Nora was done, you cleaned her up and transitioned her seamlessly into her afternoon nap before coming back to where Steve and Maisie were. He looked up at you, sending you a grateful smile. 

“Wanna go swimming again after lunch, monkey?” He asked casually, leaning forward on his elbows. Maisie balked, focusing hard on pushing the crust of her sandwich around on her plate. “Mais? How ‘bout it?” 

“I don’t know.” She mumbled, peering up at him through her lashes. She looked nervous. You didn’t blame her. “What if I fall in again?” 

“I’ll be right next to you the whole time. If you jump, I’ll catch you. If you fall, I’ll be there to pick you right back up again.” Steve promised, tucking her damp brown curls behind her ear. Maisie had always been a daddy’s girl through and through, ever since she was born. If anyone could get her to give the pool another try, it was him. 

Her mouth twisted into a small frown, but she wasn’t outright refusing. “I don’t want to fall again.”  

“Brave girls—which you are—they fall, but they get right back up and try again.” You chimed in. 

“Mommy’s right.” Steve nodded. “The trying again part makes you even braver than you are now. And you’re already super brave, my love.” 

All the talk of bravery seemed to get her to make up her mind, because she sat up straight in her seat, puffing her chest out. “Tomorrow, Daddy.” She decided, nodding determinedly. “I promise.” 

“Yeah?” 

“Yeah. Because I’m brave.” 

“So brave!” Steve rounded the counter, giving her a double high five before turning around and letting her climb onto his back. “M’kay, let’s go get all nice and clean so we can jump onto the couch and watch movies for the rest of the day!” 

Maisie giggled her approval, tightening her grip around his neck as Steve took a lap around the kitchen before coming to a stop in front of you. “Can’t forget to give Mommy a kiss!” You presented your cheek for a kiss and got one from her, one from Steve, and one from both of them at the same time for good measure. 

Even though Maisie had seemingly completely recovered from it and was back to her normal cheerful, energizer bunny self, the whole situation still weighed heavy on you for the rest of the day. Steve noticed but knew not to say anything in front of the girls, just giving you an extra squeeze or slightly longer kiss in passing. 

It wasn’t until hours later, when the girls had long since gone to bed and you were both turning in for the night that he brought it up, sliding under the covers and propping himself up against the headboard. 

“Wanna talk about it?” His voice was soft, the touch of his hand on the small of your back even softer. 

You inhaled an unsteady breath, willing yourself not to let any tears fall when you spoke. “I feel guilty.” 

“Oh, honey. Why?” 

“She went under and I—I froze. I couldn’t make myself move even though I know I should’ve, Steve, I’m—am I a bad mom? Does that make me a bad mom?” 

“Whoa, hey, c’mere.” Steve pulled you against his chest, wrapping his arms around you tightly. You let yourself melt against him, bunching your fingers into the soft cotton of his t-shirt. His heartbeat was steady against your palm and it soothed you, just a little bit. “No. You’re not a bad mom, okay? You’re an amazing mom. You just…you were scared, and that’s completely normal. Hell, I was scared too.” 

“But you reacted. You went to go save her, you got her out of the water. I didn’t do anything. I couldn’t do anything.” 

“You stopped Nora from crying. That’s a reaction.” He pointed out. You knew he was just trying to make you feel better, but remembering it made you feel even worse. Steve noticed again and shook his head rapidly, squeezing you tighter. “No, no, I know what you’re thinking and that’s not what I meant. I’m just saying that you shouldn’t feel guilty about freezing up because nobody knows what they’ll do when something unexpected and scary as shit happens to their baby. You’re only human, sweetheart.” 

He resituated himself so he could look you in the eye, holding your gaze as firmly and reassuringly as ever. “Scary things are gonna happen. It’s just part of having kids; part of being a parent. You’re gonna learn from this and next time something happens you’re gonna be ready.” 

“How do you always know what to say?” You sighed, slumping back into his embrace.

He chuckled, pressing a kiss to the side of your head. “It’s one of my many talents, thanks for noticing.” 

“Many talents?” You were fighting a smile but probably failing miserably and Steve could tell. 

“Yes, many talents. Along with cooking, cleaning, shoulder massages, my Kermit the frog impression—” 

“Hold on. I’m gonna need you to rewind it back to shoulder massages,” You interrupted, aiming an innocent look up at him. “I feel like that particular talent requires a hands-on demonstration, so if you could just do it on me right now, that’d be great. For research purposes, of course.” 

“Oh I see, you set me up. Very well played.” 

“And that is one of my many talents.” 

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[nighthoundsworld]

WE BACK ! told you I wouldn’t be consistent. Anyway Part 2 ! Of my Head canons that are 1000% true for the Next Avengers and with everyone either getting on Spring Break or getting off of it. Today’s topic will be about ✨Morning routines✨

James

Even though James usually acts like his Mother. His hard work and dedication is from his father. He’s an early bird like him. He takes his morning routines very seriously as he’s always the first one up. Nothing like A mere 100 handstand pushups, 100 sit-ups, 100 pull ups and an easy 13 mile run to start the morning

But nothing beats his breakfast protein shake he makes from scratch that always leaves the others wondering just how he functions in the morning

Torunn

Whenever Torunn wakes up she never forgets to pray to Odin and her Father. She prays that The all father is watching over her and her family and that when the time is ready she has secured her place in Valhalla. Once she’s done praying Torunn always presses a kiss to her fingers before placing those fingers on the framed picture of her Father and smiling

Torunn’s usually second in the kitchen behind Pym. And thanks to him he’s categorized everyone’s meal plans in separate sections. Torunn’s favorite breakfast always being Honey Nut Cheerios

Pym

If it wasn’t for James Pym would easily be the first one up. He only looses to James by 30 minutes as his alarm is set to 6:00 am while James naturally wakes up at 5:30. Pym wakes up at the same time every day on the hour and immediately the first thing he does is play an entire game of speed chess that takes a grand total of 1 minute and 30 seconds against the automated robot he designed. Whoever wins he tally’s up and not to brag but he has a current streak of 180-0. Pym is sully out the door in 10 minutes but not before he glances at the portrait of his parents hung up in his wall

He may not be able to beat James in first one up but Pym’s always the first one in the kitchen as he gets straight to work making his listed meal depending on what day it is

Monday-Bacon and Eggs

Tuesday-Omelet

Wednesday-Waffles

Thursday-Pancakes

Friday-Ceral

Weekends-try James Protein Shakes

He always cleans up before the others get there but trust him before they do it looks like a cooking show was being hosted beforehand

Azari

Out of everyone Azari has what people would call the most normal schedule. He wakes up at a fair time and the most he’ll do is splash some water on his face to wake himself up. Always smiling at the two separate pictures of his parents before he begins to start his day

Now even though he’s the most normal in waking up his kitchen skills need the most work as he for some reason refuses to use a glass to drink his morning beverage. Weather it be Orange Juice or Milk everyone immediately groans his name when they see him drink from the carton or jug. Added with Pym’s “and at least put a shirt on” as he has a knack for not putting ok a shirt until 11. We get it, you have fancy tattoos that light up, cool. At least he has the decency to make his own batch of waffles in the morning and he’s not scared of sharing

Francis

We’re lucky if Francis even wakes up in a single digit time span. He’s the master at hitting snooze before the alarm even has time to go off. And usually when he does get up he just rolls out of bed and lands on the floor before taking another 15 minutes of shut eye

Every single day Francis is the last one to make it in the Kitchen and every single day he asks the same question whilst he scratches his Platinum Blonde hair “Hey what’s there to eat !” As I’m pretty sure you can guess his sanctioned eating area is usually empty

[dribs-and-drabbles]

15 people, 15 questions

Thanks for tagging me @colourme-feral, @wen-kexing-apologist and @thegalwhorants! I wrote this at night on Christmas Eve but then tumblr ate the post when I moved it from my drafts to my queue, so I had to write the whole thing again...

1. Are you named after anyone?

No. My parents had a difficult time deciding on a name and just eventually landed on the one they gave me.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Well that depends on what kind of crying... I teared up last Wednesday when my furniture and belongings arrived from being in storage for 17 months. Tears rolled down my cheeks and my breath hitched a few times when I watched ep 6 Last Twilight (damn you Aof!) nearly two weeks ago. But the last time I ugly sobbed was whilst watching a musical in June, but I was feeling especially emotional about my temporary living situation at the time.

3. Do you have kids?

No.

4. What sports do you play/have you played?

I don't play any now (but I do go to the gym) but when I was a kid I did gymnastics and then dance (although that's not a sport). I played different sports in school but only because I had to and they weren't any I really enjoyed.

5. Do you use sarcasm?

Sarcasm? Who, me?! Nooooooo never.

6. What's the first thing you notice about people?

Probably their posture or body language.

7. What's your eye colour?

To be honest I'm not sure. There's grey and bits of blue and green and even brown but I wouldn't be able to call it a colour. I used to say hazel but then I realised hazel was more brown than my eyes are so I don't really know.

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

Oh happy endings for sure. I mean, I'm on (this) tumblr because of the qls I watch so it should be obvious.

9. Any talents?

I can hold a handstand for 30 secs (I've also managed 1 min in the past but that was a while ago now) but that feels more like a party trick than a talent. I guess I could say dancing. Oh, maybe guessing the time usually quite accurately.

10. Where were you born?

In the UK, specifically England.

11. What are your hobbies?

Apart from going to the gym, handstanding and watching ql series? I'm currently obsessed with the clothes from the shows 😅...but I also like to go for walks, sometimes I play boardgames, and I like to read (I've been mainly reading fan fic recently though). I also think about lego a lot (and now I have my own place I might get some sets - bonsai tree my beloved) and I used to write but it's been a few years since I last wrote anything.

12. Do you have any pets?

No. I've had cats in the past and I'd like another cat at some point but not for a while.

13. How tall are you?

I'm not 🤭

14. What was your favourite subject in school?

I can't remember now but probably geography...but more geology than countries...or creative writing. There was a point where I enjoyed maths...but didn't study it beyond 16.

15. What is your dream job?

I'd actually like to be able to not work, or to only work part time. I've been lucky to have actually had my dream job and I'm very grateful for the opportunity/experience.

So that's it! I guess I should tag 15 people since that's the title of this game, so here goes: @grapejuicegay @telomeke (I know you've been tagged a few times) @respectthepetty (I know you've done it already but I wanted to tag you anyway) @celestial-sapphicss @dimplesandfierceeyes @chickenstrangers @wen-kexing-apologist (I know you've already done it as well but leaving this tag here anyway) @waitmyturtles @lurkingshan @my-rose-tinted-glasses @slayerkitty @ranchthoughts @belladonna-and-the-sweetpeas @btwinlines @starryalpacasstuff No pressure obviously. (bonus tag for @absolutebl because I like it when you answer these kinds of things using only photos /gifs)

[tom-at-the-farm]

I hate Swifties because I'm jealous of your cult and also because there's such a wealth of material for you to draw on when discussing her songs because she has dated and beefed with like everyone. Meanwhile I'm like dying at this Miley Cyrus song, it's such a throwaway from her new album but it's the most hilarious thing to me and I'm obsessed with whatever she's talking about, because I don't understand it:

What is she doing on a handstand?? What sex thing can you possibly do on a handstand, especially whilst using one hand only?? Is this normal? Because if I tried whatever this may be I would immediately break my neck before even getting to the depraved sex act in question. It would be embarrassing and tragic.

I have no one to discuss this with because I tried googling it and every source was like "this is about the Lesser Hemsworth." Because that's like the only notable person she's been involved with? But also who cares who it's about, why won't you explain the handstand thing

[zahlibeth]

tag game: bold what applies to you tagged by @shitouttabuck and @lesliesknopes thank youuu 💖 I have tried very hard not to overthink it 🙈

APPEARANCE: i’m over 5’5” // i wear glasses/contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery // i have or had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i typically wear make-up // i don’t often smile // i am pleased with how i look // i prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backwards

HOBBIES AND TALENTS: i play a sport // i can play an instrument // i am artistic // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // i can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks // i can do a handstand

RELATIONSHIP: i am in a relationship // i have been single for over a year // i have a crush // i have a best friend(s) i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend // i met up with someone i have met online

AESTHETICS: i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sun rise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colours // i find mystery in the ocean // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season

MISCELLANEOUS: i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities // i enjoy mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least three dogs

I enjoy the irony of NOT picking 'i pay close attention to colours' whilst also meticulously colour coding this. i contain multitudes

i will tag: @folk-fae, @randomnon911stuff, @rewritetheending and you reading this if you want to do it and say I tagged you so i can see

[www-ghost-com]

things that have happened at my school’s production of newsies so far:

- our jack and our crutchie trying to flip and land a water bottle on top of our davey’s head

- the crutch being half the size of our crutchie already

- our pulitzer doing a walking handstand whilst repeating his opening line

[arobinwithoutbatman]

Tim is a ridiculously intelligent and stubbornly independent 16 year old boy. So whilst he is incredible at stealth, Detective work and hacking, he will still occasionally do something really dumb.

Like trying a new coffee brand that has way too much caffeine. Or attempting to hop over the railing on the mezzanine instead of using the stairs. Or seeing if he can ride a skateboard while doing a handstand. Or messing around with experimental tech that's now taking him across the multiverse. Or making pointless shapes on the machine they use to make new armor pieces.

Because even genius 16 year olds don't have fully developed brains yet and for reasons even he couldn't tell you, he's gonna occasionally do something stupid and risky because the judgement and risk assessment part of the brain hasn't quite matured yet

[estrela-rogers]

PHOTO ID: Jason Todd in his Red Hood gear. He is doing a handstand, kicking an enemy, whilst saying: "I'm a distraction."

why yes you certainly are

[kiboufashion]

calisthenics program - Energyelite

It is vital to notice that fitness encompasses a lot greater than weight lifting and long-distance running – it, in reality, refers to your frame’s capacity within itself. Enter the calisthenics program an intense but user-pleasant exercising form to develop one’s muscle groups, strength, and flexibility using truly one’s very own body weight. Are you prepared to go into the area of body transformation in calisthenics? Let’s build comprehensive software as a way to screen the whole lot you want if you want to attain achievement.

Understanding Calisthenics program The phrase “calisthenics” derives from the Greek “kalos” and “stheonas”, which in Latin method beautiful strength. It is a form of exercise that is most effective for your body weight in resistance. It isn’t the most effective push-ups and pull-America but it involves quite a few other actions that include dips, squats, lunges, planks, and so on. Calisthenics sticks out due to its flexibility — it can be tailor-made in the direction of the wishes of a beginner, in addition to a professional athlete.

Crafting Your Calisthenics Program

Assessing Your Fitness Level

However, before you soar into this, you want to be sincere with yourself approximately where you’re at health-wise. This makes it possible for one to set reasonable goals without causing harm at the preliminary stages of the evaluation method. Establish a baseline by way of testing your energy, flexibility, and persistence degree.

Setting Goals

The key element in any fulfillment tale is the intention placing. Ensure they’re unique, measurable, conceivable, relevant, and time-sure (SMART) for smooth monitoring of improvement.

Designing the Program

Warm-up: Do small, dynamic stretches and a bit of warm-up before leaping in.

Skill Development: Practice actions similar to squats, pull-ups, and push-ups. Focus on form and method.

Strength Building: Move on inside the subsequent degree, and upload circuit education. Focus on precise muscle groups.

Flexibility and Mobility: Add stretching and mobility exercises to grow your range of motion and keep away from accidents.

Rest and Recovery: Give ample time for resting days to your frame muscle tissues to recuperate, build, and heal.

Sample Calisthenics Routine

Day 1: Upper Body

Push-ups: three sets x 12 reps

Pull-ups: 3 units x eight reps

Dips: 3 units x 10 reps

Day 2: Lower Body

Squats: three units x 15 reps

Lunges: Each leg does 10 reps in 3 sets.

Calf Raises: three units x 20 reps

Day 3: Core and Flexibility

Planks: 3 units x 30 seconds

Leg Raises: 3 units x 12 reps

Stretching: Fifteen minutes of weight training using large muscular tissues

Essential Tips for Success

Consistency is Key: Remain on course together with your ordinary, but push yourself slowly but surely.

Proper Form Matters: Use training strategies that lessen damage dangers whilst maximizing gains.

Nutrition and Hydration: Eat wholesome foods, drink water, and exercise frequently.

Listen to Your Body: When the need arises, relax and do not paint via pain.

Progression and Variation

The thrill of continuous self-improvement and exploration of modern actions makes Calisthenics enormously captivating. However, for each initial mastery of calisthenics plan superior options may be practiced. For instance, going forth, flow from easy push-ups. To diamond push-user switching from general squats to pistol squats is full of recent dimensions of problem making the muscle mass continually at the alert country for improvement.

Overcoming Plateaus

It is unavoidable for one to attain a plateau at any point of undertaking an exercise. Include different exercises, more reps and sets, fewer rest breaks, and also incorporate isometrics. Additionally, you can consider discovering intricate ones such as muscle-ups or handstands to rekindle your advancement.

Mobility and Flexibility

Calisthenics mainly deals with strength but the focus should also be placed on mobility and stretching. These include incorporating yoga-styled movements or specific stretches to increase the range of motion, decrease the risk of injury as well and add strength using calisthenics.

Mind-Body Connection

However, calisthenics gives more than simply physical advantages—it strengthens the thoughts-frame connection. Cultivating consciousness in workouts through attention to shape, stability, and controlled motions. However, it extends outdoor exercise activity because it increases recognition, accurate stance, motor skills, and average body recognition for the duration of normal sports.

Community and Support

It’s a wholesome, thriving calisthenics community. Joining online boards, social media organizations as well and local meet-americaalso can also be another way of motivating everyone and sharing understanding.

Adapting to Challenges

Calisthenics could be very flexible and bendy. Its practice wants a minimum of no gadgets, making it one of the quality exercises that may be practiced practically in any vicinity. The adaptability of this program makes it best for a journeying person or those who can not benefit from getting the right of entry to a gymnasium or are seeking out an exercise that surpasses physical boundaries.

Tracking Progress

Progress tracking is critical in each health program. Keep a correct report of your exercising, degree overall performance metrics, and take before and after photographs at appropriate durations so you can see how lots your frame has modified. Secondly, it performs the position motivation which tells you who you had been and who you are now.

Final Thoughts

A calisthenics routine is more than exercise, it’s about the usage of your entire frame as a tool for overall fitness. It is going beyond normal education, helping people develop energy, and flexibility, in addition to mental longevity. Let calisthenics remodel your general method of fitness, and include the procedure.

Conclusion

It is more than a training session, it’s far lifestyle style with admiration for bodies strong or vulnerable, flexible or rigid. This holistic approach is right for assisting one to reap a stronger and bendy body with the calisthenics training program. In your calisthenics trip, you have to be happy; experience it, appreciate the gains, and relish the change in frame and mind.

[that-trans-chick-named-lunar]

get to know me ask game

thank you @bbs-butt for the tag!! It's been never since my last confession

RULES: bold the ones that are true and tag 15 people to do it (imma be real with u here chief... its early in the morning and I can figure this out so I'll just mark it)

APPEARANCE

blonde hair // I prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // ++I have one or more piercings++ // ++I have at least one tattoo (got my latest one like... yesterday so thats pretty fresh)++// I have dyed or highlighted my hair // I have gotten plastic surgery // I have or had braces // I sunburn easily // I have freckles // ++I paint my nails++ // I typically wear makeup // I don’t often smile // ++I am pleased with how I look++ // I prefer Nike to Adidas // I wear baseball hats backwards

HOBBIES AND TALENTS

I play a sport (na bro...I just move heavy things) // I can play an instrument// ++I am artistic++ // ++I know more than one language++ // ++I have won a trophy in some sort of competition++ // ++I can cook or bake without a recipe++ // ++I know how to swim++ // ++I enjoy writing++ // I can do origami // I prefer movies to tv shows // I can execute a perfect somersault // ++I enjoy singing++ // I could survive in the wild on my own // I have read a new book series this year // ++I enjoy spending time with friends++ // ++I travel during work or school breaks (whenever is appropriate, rn for example I do not travel, I work)++// I can do a handstand

RELATIONSHIP

I am in a relationship // I have been single for over a year // I have a crush // ++I have a best friend who I’ve known for ten years(been a fucking second hasn't it opd chap)++ // my parents are together // I have dated my best friend // ++I am adopted++ // My crush has confessed to me // I have a long distance relationship // I am an only child // ++I give advice to my friends++ // ++I have made an online friend++ // ++I met up with someone I have met online (sure did buckeru...met loads of these creeps already! Some are very very nice... actually all of them...come to think of it)++

AESTHETICS

++I have heard the ocean in a conch shell (how exactly is this aesthetics?)++//++ I have watched the sun rise(I mean...yes? Every day?)++ // ++I enjoy rainy days(actually thats fair... though to be totally honest I enjoy most days)++// ++I have slept under the stars++ // I meditate outside // ++the sound of chirping calms me (can hear it rn!)++ // ++I enjoy the smell of the beach++ // ++I know what snow tastes like++ // I listen to music to fall asleep // ++I enjoy thunderstorms++ // I enjoy cloud watching // ++I have attended a bonfire++ // I pay close attention to colors // +++I find mystery in the ocean(if mystery means: new species, new survival strategies, new things to learn in a biological sense then yes)++// ++I enjoy hiking on nature paths++ // autumn is my favorite season

MISCELLANEOUS

++I can fall asleep in a moving vehicle(not whilst driving it but otherwise yes)++// I am the mom friend // I live by a certain quote // I like the smell of sharpies //++ I am involved in extracurricular activities(if u know what I mean)++// ++I enjoy Mexican food(I enjoy most food)++//++ I can drive a stick shift(oh...so this was made by an American huh? Fuck automatic, I want to be in control of the god damn car all right?!)++// ++I believe in true love(depending on what this means, yes I do)++// ++I make up scenarios to fall asleep++ // ++I sing in the shower(rarely)++// I wish I lived in a video game // ++I have a canopy above my bed(I have been growing a viny plant for years now, it is large enough to couver my bed)++// I am multiracial // I am a redhead // I own at least 3 dogs

This is the point where I tag people I suppose.

@noireshot and @honigsenfsymbiont that would be very interesting!

And given I don't actually know how many dogs you have (I do but don't tell anyone) @peppermintbiotics of course...ya fucking legend!

[d3comp0se]

a small list of strange but fitting things I have done whilst I've been manic

TW: just everything i say here lol

since being diagnosed with bipolar 2 i have realised that when i do really weird impulsive stuff i am not being crazy, i am just manic. this is a list of things i have done which aren’t entirely self destructive (lying) because 1. i am bored 2. i like making lists and 3. i just came out of a month long depressive episode and i am THRIVING:

- got a bus to the city at night and walked around for two hours straight in the freezing cold whilst smoking the shittiest cigarettes i have ever had (i do not smoke) and listening to Natural Devotion by Spirit of the Beehive on repeat

- tried to order a hoover at 3am. it didn’t work luckily

- cancelled my train ticket so i could stay at university an extra day to play Minecraft 

- gone clubbing every night for a week, put myself in debt and slept for 2 hours a night just to do it all over again

- slept in my (now ex) boyfriends car because i didn’t want to go home and wake up my family at 3am

- posted an invite to a party on a massive field to everyone on my snapchat, despite not knowing more then half of them, and then proceeded to watch four of them get alcohol poisoning, one get their bike stolen and one to try to rob maccies 

- dated people i did not intend to date, only to break up with them as soon as i was depressed again (this one actually sucks and i do apologise)

- got high on LSD with a bunch of people i barely knew, ate three jumbo bags of Haribos, have a conversation with one of their pet cats and fall asleep on the sofa for 10 hours

- bought a skateboard? never used it? gave it to my sibling who actually could use it.

-  applied to an agency that could ‘link me up with big connections at Netflix’ and truly believed that i would be famous. it was a scam and i’m pretty sure they have my bank details

- had a dream that i formed a band, proceeded to call up my friends at 5am telling them that we HAD to start a band RIGHT NOW. they played along with it which was cool but once i snapped out of it they told me how it would probably never happen 

- put myself in debt multiple times (currently still am but savings exist for a reason)

- applied for a ton of jobs without knowing much about them but being convinced that i would get them. this one is actually good because it landed me a job and i actually made a fair amount of money! before i was fired because i decided that i didn’t ‘deserve’ it and never turned up. 

- tried to self delete multiple times but failed at each one. couldn’t jump in front of a train because it had been cancelled. couldn’t OD because i only had weak sleep pills from Boots and i ended up just having a really long deep sleep with dreams about talking animals or some shit. guess the world wants me to stick around a little longer.

- tried to become a cheerleader. i can’t even do a handstand.

good news: i am in therapy now and will be medicated soon (hopefully).

do it all for the plot :)