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[monster-noises]

I started writing another post that did More Details but I lost steam on it but I also don't Don't wanna post about it so I'm gunna talk about some silly Vile things in the Tags that I just spent like 40 mins in front of the mirror coming up with

[blckbrrybasket]

Disruption of Mind

Rafe Cameron x Autistic!Gn!reader

ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢꜱ: (quick) strangers to lovers, overstimulation, very slight angst, mainly fluff, Topper

ᴡᴏʀᴅ ᴄᴏᴜɴᴛ: 1.4k

ɴᴏᴛᴇ: canon divergent 🩶

Rafe and you had been dating for almost a year now. It was odd when he was finally left to find peace after Ward died. He had decided to stay in the Outer Banks, wanting to get serious. Obviously though, Rafe would still throw a party here and there. That’s how he met you.

He had found you speeding away from the party up the stairs. At first Rafe had assumed you were somewhat shady, running away so briskly, so he’d followed you. That thought was soon squashed when he saw your hand covering your ear, shoulder pressed to the other as you tried the knobs of different rooms. You definitely seemed more upset than trying to bang someone where you shouldn’t be.

Rafe’s brows furrowed when he followed you into his room that had swung open under your command. “You good?” He almost jumped when you did, your body pivoting towards him. Your eyes were wide and frantic and you sputtered over your words. “Shit- sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.” You nodded rapidly, too rapid for comfort and jerked your head to the door. “Too loud,” was the first thing he heard from you and he automatically closed the door.

There was a pause as Rafe considered the odd situation. “Better?” He prompted and looked over his shoulder at you. You slowly nodded and sunk to the floor, Rafe mirroring you shortly thereafter. What else was he supposed to do? Sure he could kick you out but he wasn’t blind. Something was up. Somehow he picked up to be quiet and he made no move to speak, even when your breathing evened out. Eventually you had apologized, embarrassed, yet he hadn’t accepted it.

To him there was no reason to say sorry and that thought only solidified when you hurriedly explained that you were overstimulated, a somewhat common occurrence. A few years ago Rafe would probably have had a different reaction, not able to understand so easily, but nowadays he liked the silence. He could relate to not wanting to have so many people around you. And while that wasn’t the only thing your autism affected he didn’t care, it was just another part of you.

That night he’d brought food up to you, leaving you with his number when you inevitably left.

Months later Rafe found himself with four tickets to go see Gunna in concert. It was a given that he invited Kelce and Topper, but he also wanted to invite you. If he could he would take you everywhere with him. The two of you ran over how the venue would be smaller with no seating, but you’d prep and bring headphones in case of overstimulation. Rafe was hesitant, not wanting to force you into an uncomfortable encounter. However, it was one of his favorite rappers and you’d do damn near anything to make him happy. How could you pass up the once in a lifetime opportunity?

After hours of reassurance that you’d be fine he was finally at ease with the idea of you coming along. He was excited, truly. Rafe had made sure that the group would arrive a bit early to secure a good spot without being trapped against the railing. By the time you made it to the front of the space, Rafe kept his arm around your waist, promising enough room for you in the crowd.

His tall figure bent to rest his chin on your head. “Havin��� fun?” Rafe murmured to you as the opener started, and you were. It was effortless to become fully immersed, jumping when instructed, happily yelling the lyrics, and leaning against Rafe for support when the crowd shifted. Being lost in the excitement caused a challenge to tell when you were reaching your limits. Kelce and Topper had retreated to the back after a while to grab waters. When they hadn’t come back the two of you figured the crowd had closed in, and they wouldn’t be able to come back to the front again.

You didn’t pay too much attention to their absence as you sang along and bobbed next to Rafe. He was too captivated by how ecstatic you seemed to care about the others. Time seemed to pass on its own, hours ticking by in seconds. Neither of you noticed how long it’d been till the crowd erupted, demanding for an encore. Seemingly brought down to reality, Rafe intertwined his hand with yours and used his height to weave through the crowd. People eagerly made room for you to pass, eager to get slightly closer to the rails.

Dazed by the loud music and lights you felt like you were floating through the venue. Luckily, Rafe caught Kelce and Topper’s eye and nodded towards the exit, signaling it was time to leave. They didn’t put up a fight, aware that the crowd was about to get worse when everyone made their way out. Leaving a song or two early always helped avoid shoving their way back to Rafe’s truck.

Once you pushed open the doors, the cool night air brushed against your flushed face. Rafe immediately turned to check if you were doing okay. Seeing your radiant smile made his heart soar. “Doing okay?” He spun you around to face him, hand falling to the small of your back when you bumped into him with a giggle. “Yes! Oh my god, Rafe, that was amazing.” A grin spread across his face as he couldn’t resist scooping you into his arms, dashing to his truck.

Behind him, Topper and Kelce protested having to run. “Keep up then!” He shouted above your laughter. Maybe if you hadn’t been so swept up you would have realized the signs of overstimulation creeping in, or if you had taken a moment to breathe you would have recognized the overwhelming nature of the situation. Sometimes you aren't able to, nobody is perfect. As Rafe flung open the door and helped you in your seat you felt the high energy beginning to fade.

It was an almost dreadful feeling, but you pushed through it. Adapt and overcome, wasn’t that the saying? You didn’t want to spoil anyone’s night! Yet you certainly didn’t expect the volume of Topper and Kelce when they hopped into the truck. They went on to scold a smug Rafe who simply turned on the truck, engine revving and music coming on. The overlapping stimulants hit your ears all at once, your brain near spasming at the speed of the environment changing.

The conglomerate voices made it hard to discern who was talking and what was happening. “Yo, you good?” Kelce tried, but failed to get an answer from you. The question drew the attention of Rafe as you leaned forward to try and turn the music off. God why were there so many dials on his stereo? The frantic movement of your hands desperately shutting down the sound dawned on Rafe. You were overstimulated.

Far too overwhelmed to realize it was mainly quiet now, aside from the radio and Topper, you tapped away at the controls. Rafe reached over, making sure not to hit your hand in the process, and shut off the music entirely. “Shut the fuck up.” One sentence from Rafe but it was enough for Topper to snap his mouth shut. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry,” You whispered in embarrassment, covering your face with your shaking hands.

Rafe leaned over to press a chaste but tender kiss to the backs of them. “Can I touch you?” He murmured. Normally, he’d mull over how Topper and Kelce perceived him, but not now. Not when you needed him. You nodded slowly, tensing momentarily when the palm of his hand settled on your head. He didn’t stay still for long, gently stroking your hair down to sooth you. “Nothin’ to be sorry for. It happens.”

“But-“ you started, but Rafe shut it down. “Nah. No but’s. We’re all fine, and ‘m sure Top and Kelce are too.” Rafe’s stern look at the two had them stiffening. “Yeah, yeah. We’re all good as long as you’re good,” Kelce responded. Topper sighed as if he were going to protest until he conceded. Honestly he was more pissed at Rafe snapping at him. “I’m fine…can we still listen to music though?”

“Topper,” Kelce groaned in annoyance at his insistence. You looked between the seats and smiled at Topper. “It’s okay.” And maybe it was, but they were all thankful that you couldn’t see the deadly look in Rafe’s eye. “We’ll play your playlist a’ight babe?” Hearing the tension in his voice you peered up at Rafe. “Are you okay?” Instantly, he softened at your gaze. “Always when I’m with you.”

As Rafe began to drive, he left his hand open and inviting on the console for you to hold whenever you felt comfortable.

[omgwhatchloe]

lets talk about sean macguire, or more specifically, his none-existent recovery and how it affected him before his death.

so as we all know, sean is captured by bounty hunters after the blackwater ship robbery goes horribly wrong. it’s confirmed in a side mission that he was tortured for information, most likely because ike skelding and his crew wanted to be the ones to bring dutch in as well, but he specifically mentions how they burnt his feet and pulled his teeth.

lets start with the affect of them pulling his teeth: it doesn’t take a genius to know ike skeldings bounty hunters are not fully trained dentists with numbing cream and injects, nor did they actually care about any of the long-lasting damage they were doing to sean, since they assumed he’d be getting hung and wanted to have their fun with him. that was the whole point, to torture him because any teeth related pain, i think we can all agree, is the worst of the worst. afterwards, he is seen struggling to eat, i think at least multiple people online have said they have noticed how he will only have one or two bites, or even none at all, and pour away the mostly full stew. i haven’t bothered to focus on anyone else’s eating habits, if im being honest, but i think i really picked up on seans because of the fact hes trying to eat with missing and likely damaged teeth. as we know, no one in camp really bothers to ask him if he’s okay or pick up on this, but this is not surprising as after all they are just codes and scripts and no voice actor has the time to record their characters entire life.

next, the feet burning: the fact they burnt his feet implies to me and gives me the idea that he was hanging from his arms at some point in his time of being captured and they had pretty clear access to his feet (ew). in camp, i did actually notice him walking funny like he was drunk, then having completely sober dialogue while limping along. though of course this game is not without its faults and glitches, and dialogue getting messed up is, in my opinion, one of the most experienced ones throughout the entire game, so perhaps this was him being drunk and accidentally having sober dialogue. but im going to pretend its because they burnt his feet.

his none-existent recovery: i actually spoke about this on a different platform, and compared the recovery that arthur had to the one sean had, which they both deserved, and lets just say some people disagreed. according to them, a party is good enough! despite the fact, sean needs to heal, or at least get the chance to see a doctor, and a party is literally the opposite of healing time. he has just been kidnapped, certain he wasn’t going to make it, getting tortured, and mentally that’s going to fuck with you. but again, no one in camp really cares or notices and he doesn’t get to really actually recover from that. obviously sean was not upset about getting a party in the slightest, dont get me wrong, but for other users to claim that’s all he needs while we’re discussing it just seems a little weird to me. and something that has always upset me is the way he is immediately put back to work, that is what i mean when i say he does not get to recover properly, he is straight back on guard duty. and we all know guard duty involves being on your feet for hours, which is especially bad for poor sean who has just had his feet burnt. seriously, give my man a break (NEWSFLASH: A PARTY IS NOT A BREAK IN THIS SITUATION)

anyways, expect another post about his napping and sleeping habits because i honestly can’t wait to write about that (watch out hosea you’re gunna get slandered)

[vdragon-creations]

TMayNT Day 5: Best Leo

Day 5 of @tmaynt Prompt: Best Leo (from all incarnations)! Gunna be honest with you folks, this is a hard one for me! Mostly cause, while Donnie is my baby and is my favorite character and turtle in the whole franchise, Leo is the one I can relate to the most! I'm the oldest out of me, my little sister and my two younger cousins. I was often looked up too, took the blame for things going wrong, and was basically parentified for most of my life! I HIGHLY see myself in Leo in a lot of versions, so it makes picking one extra hard.

If nothing else, I'll go with 2003 Leo, again cause he's from my favorite version of the Turtles. But also cause I just really like what they did with his character as a whole! And him getting the scar and crack in his shell just felt so raw to me! A battle that leaves a permanent mark on any of the turtles alone is really insane, and it made Leo a better leader having to deal with it all. But through it all, he could still cut it up with his bro's, making him more then just "The Leader". (A bit upset that they didn't keep the cracked shell in Fast Forward or Back To The Sewer tho.)

In short, someone just PLEASE let this boy have a long nap! For fuck sake!

[thedragonagebigbang]

Bang Creator Interview: Tumblr: @ciellajess  |  AO3: CiellaJess

The Collaboration period has begun! In these quiet months before works are due, we want to foster a sense of excitement, camaraderie, and celebration among our participants. To that end, all participants were given the option of a formal interview by our mod, Dema, or an informal “ask-game” survey. We hope you enjoy getting to know our phenomenal creators as much as we have!

Interview with CiellaJess

CiellaJess and Dema talk Good Clean Solavellan Fun, favorite romances, and Veilguard plans

Dema: You're my first artist interview, and I am excited to talk shop. What inspires you to make art of Dragon Age?

CiellaJess: I just love the world and the characters. It's one of those things that just gets in my head and I can't let go of it. Every now and then I pull out a game, and get sucked back in all over again.

Dema: When you first played, did you start making DA art right away? Or did it percolate for a while?

CiellaJess: So I started DAO and DA2 multiple times back when they came out. I'm a giant RPG nerd and have a lifelong dragon obsession, but for some reason they didn't grab me and I always moved on to something else. But for some reason, when I tried Inquisition, it was just the right time or place I guess and I was hooked. I started art for that right away. Then I went back and plowed through the other games, no problem. I still mostly do Inquisition art, but I also love drawing my Warden too. Plus all the great companions.

Dema: Would you say you're primarily a character-artist?

CiellaJess: Completely. I wish I were better at landscapes and architecture, the ones in the game are fantastic, but it's never been my strong suit.

Dema: Mmmm yes. I deeply feel that, lol. The eternal struggle 😅What was your first piece of Inquisition art?

CiellaJess: A little two panel comic. I'd just beaten Vinsomer, shortly after the breakup scene with Solas. Dorian and Bull had gone down and it was just my Rogue Inquisitor and Solas managed to eke out a win. I had this little vision in my head of them happy and triumphant and looking at each other. The remembering that they were broken up. I had planned a whole comic, but only got around to the two panels. Them ecstatic and them remembering.

Dema: OOF

CiellaJess: Still probably the formative story for my whole Solavellan romance 😂

Dema: Solavellans sure know how to have fun! I'm trying to think how many times Solas has broken up with my characters....

CiellaJess: It's fun to have your heart broken over and over again, right??

Dema: Like, here I am again, crying into my popcorn. Do you have more than one OC for Inquisition, or are you fully devoted to the Saddest Elf?

CiellaJess: I've started a bunch. I keep trying to do an 'evil' playthrough, with a Trevelyan warrior that wanted to be a Templar. He even features in a fic I'm working on. But usually, some time after I get to Skyhold, I always  wanna go back to my Lavellan. I'm definitely a lil polyamorous when it comes to DA, but I have my favs for sure.

Dema: What are your top 5 romances?

CiellaJess: Solas, Zevran, Alistair, Isabela, Fenris. And Adoribull for bonus points. I've also been playing with the idea of [REDACTED], which is why I'm excited for the fic I got 😁

Dema: I am gunna redact that, but YEAH!!!!! I am excited for you! Related to collaboration: have you done a Big Bang before?

CiellaJess: Nope, this is my first one!

Dema: Welcome! What made you decide to join?

CiellaJess: I've done a few DA fic exchanges and they're always a blast. With DAV coming out, I was on the lookout for something like that. This seemed perfect!

Dema: We have gotten so lucky with the timing. Are you watching all the DAV news closely or are you enforcing some boundaries, haha? I'm personally vacillating back and forth between not wanting to see anything and going absolutely batshit over the tiniest crumb of a detail.

CiellaJess: Constant vigilance! 

Dema: Hahaha! What part has you most excited?

CiellaJess: I love the factions. Especially since it seems like they'll actually be addressed by the companions. Trying to figure out which I'm gonna try first has been hard.

Dema: Are you feeling equally split between them or are you between two or 3?

CiellaJess: Right now I'm leaning towards Shadow Dragons. My initial thought was Veil Jumper, but I tend to do elven rogue, and that felt like doing another version of Bellara. Then I read an interview that mentioned that Solas sees himself in Rook, and now I think that a former elven  slave that's working with the Shadow Dragons to try and rebel against Tevinter felt very much like young Solas. I'm really feeling that dynamic. Of course, that could all go out the window as soon as I get my hands on the game.

Dema: Haha, yeah, but it is so fun to think about!

CiellaJess: Definitely!! And I don't wanna miss out on the others either. Helpfully, my husband will probably go Mortalitassi, so I can watch him play that 😂

Dema: Brilliant strategy. Divide and Conquer. Thank you so much for your time today, it has been great interviewing you! I am excited to see your piece in a few months!CiellaJess: Yay! I'm so excited! Good luck with the rest of them!

[drifloonz]

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Strangle Red(Steven) cuddle headcanons for the simp n single plzz.

i was gunna go on hiatus and close requests temporarily bc theyve just been piling up but Ehhhhhhhhhh. This ones easy i might as well dripfeed people content. got nothin' else 2 do!

anyways

steven cuddling headcanons <3

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♡ man's got a grip on him. due to his extreme self-isolation and therefore under socialization, he doesn't really remember... how to like... hug well. he knows how to do it, but it's been years and he also isn't exactly aware of his own strength, y'know? this means he'll usually hug you really tight, more than he means to but he doesn't notice it's too tight, usually.

♡ due to this if you ask for cuddles, the first few times it may be kind of awkward because he's not really aware that he's squeezing you too tight unless you make it obvious ( eg making noise or looking really visibly uncomfortable )

♡ he's perceptive though, and he'll eventually notice this and loosen up a lot. he's a very good cuddler once this happens... he's almost definitely way taller*, bigger, and built* than you, so it's like cuddling with a big comfy teddybear. he's warm and nice.

*( i personally hc him as 6'5 or taller to a mostly unnatural/uncommon degree like idk 6'9+ ),

*( if you like your stevens more muscly or dad-bod-esk, which i HC his body being like that in his later adult life anyways. although he was very skinny, weak, scrawny and underate in his teenage after-incident years due to not taking care of himself in my own personal headcanons cuz' i mean. makes sense. checks out. depression and spiralling does a lot of that to a mf. )

♡ when you cuddle while he's asleep, his hugs loosen up a lot because he's genuinely happy and calm around you, especially when he's asleep. although, if he's having a nightmare or is visibly stressed he'll be squeezing you as if you were dying in his arms and he wasn't ready to have you go... huh. Might be related to that nightmare. And also the general fear of losing people he loves. #lol

♡ he loves making you feel safe, and if cuddles do that for you he's going to take almost every opportunity to let you do that with him. he especially finds it cute when you nuzzle into the space between his neck and shoulder, or lay your head on his chest. it feels... nice.

♡ he also makes small snores and huffs and mumbles when he sleeps. his chest is very rumbly and the vibrations feel nice against your body. probably the type to sorta sleeptalk. maybe even sleepwalk but that ones arguable, although i see him doing it. horrible mental image of him somehow sleepwalking while still cuddling you, so he's just carrying you while he groggily walks around his own house.

♡ speaking of sleeptalking, this definitely isn't me projecting a headcanon i got from a character.ai rp, but he'll often sleeptalk about you, or when he's having particularly good dreams he'll be reminiscing on his nostalgic days with miki, and audibly saying and doing the things he's doing in his dream. this leads to him awkwardly petting you in real life thinking you're miki and not being aware of it unless you mention it to him, in which he'll get embarrassed but try to play it cool and also ask if you liked it. it's a little cute, though.

♡ speaking of, miki sleeps at the foot of you two's bed and takes up half of the bed /hj

♡ technically related, he sometimes hugs you in public ( if you somehow get him outside in the public eye ) if he's jealous, but it's moreso "putting a protective arm over your shoulder" type gesture. he'll also just do it as a protective measure even if nobody's making him jealous. he's a little paranoid of you replacing him or finding someone better, because to him it probably isn't that hard. Bpd moment.

♡ he will not tell you this outright but he really likes the feeling of your hands running through his messy, tangled hair when you two cuddle. it's nice. if he could purr He Would. he does make little rumbly chest vibrations with his noises sometimes which, close enough ig

♡ if you snore or make any noises or sleeptalk or do anything like that, he finds it very cute and endearing. if you sleeptalk especially he might quietly respond back just to see if your very unconscious brain replies to him. he's curious. and finds it cute to tease you even in that state.

♡ if you two are a little further in your relationship, he'll often give you some slow, chaste kisses when you two cuddle. he doesn't do this earlier mostly because he's sort of bad at knowing when the right time to do that would've been, or if you'd like it... so he still doesn't do it often, unless you initiate it a lot. then he gains that confidence back and teases and kisses you a lot more often.

♡ you will Not escape his arms if he doesn't want you to. they're big and he's strong. if he wants 5 more minutes when you two wake up, you are HAVING 5 more minutes. unless he feels particularly merciful and lets you go, or if you get out of his arms when they're loose ( aka when he's sleeping, since they loosen up a decent amount if he's comfortable and asleep )

♡ steven's almost always the big spoon due to him enjoying it a decent chunk more since he likes being protective and holding you, but in most cuddling hcs i like to think the both of you are facing each other when you cuddle anyways. equal amount of attention and cuddling. that's how steven likes it as well, i'd think.

♡ speaking of which he is very clingy with you and cuddles and hugs indulge him. he can just keep you there if he wants. he's usually nice enough and will let you go if you complain enough or really need to do something ( eat, go to the bathroom, shower, whatever )... but he finds it funny to keep you there sometimes. he'll never genuinely not let you go unless he's feeling extremely overprotective or had a really bad nightmare and wants your comfort but is too afraid to directly ask.

...or he's afraid of you getting hurt like how miki and also mike but steven doesn't want to think about mike did when he let his guard down, and then becomes overprotective due to that, since he's afraid of leaving you alone without him and thinks you'll get hurt.

♡ anyways! on a lighter note he's so big that you could probably sleep on top of his body and he wouldn't mind, probably. he sort of likes the weight. you Are his weighted blanket that he needs so desperately but is too lazy to order off of éBay ( get it. é. like the pokémon é. god i should make a pokemon irl blog with my sona or something some day. anyways. )

♡ semirelated by technicality in the sense that its about touching him, please god massage steven. specifically his spine and his back. his borderline scoliosis quickly became Regular Scoliosis after the incident and it's only ever gotten worse. he will appreciate it. he also will do the same if you also have back problems which tbh if you're reading this, you probably have back problems. [ PROJECTS MY ISSUES ]

♡ very good cuddler but he is clingy sometimes and very strong overall very good 5/5 star review on yelp ( i dont know why i end every request with this it's sort of hard to end requests in general )(*&^ )

thank you for requesting !

[honkbird]

so is coop elden ring where horo’s horny tuber problem from wednesday was about or is there something else getting cooked up

There's probably some minor bloopers in terms of art n code n testing stuff horo's gunna talk about some time ehehe but yeah.

For reference I did all of the pngs in 2 sets-- one group i did in a day was entirely drafts for a proof of concept and then after a 4 day burnout period i redrew them all in another afternoon for all the talk sprites, mute sprites, etcetc

but yeah the silly png thing on wednesday was the expressions were a little too 'im getting railed' which was Very funny to realize. Though on the Elden topic I might vent here a bit.

onto the venty stuff: I am a very shy person. Whenever I have a post that gets too much traffic, I shut down entirely. I had a bluesky one that did numbers and I proceeded not to touch that account for days from social anxiety, if that says anything about my resilience.

Castle Crashers a long while ago with horo and space was an . experience, and for the most part I held up fine I guess. I was mute as usual, occasionally I was shaking, typed Sometimes in chat, etc

Elden Ring wasss . worse? The act of playing it was the same (mute, nervous sweat, shakes, rare typing-- i said maybe 20 things in a 7 hour stream) but I had a teensie weensie panic attack and had to leave the voice call slightly prematurely in the end of stream ehehe. I dont know if they noticed because it was super fucking late but thats the best outcome I could've asked for. Heavy breathing, high heart rate that I could feel all over, the Usual. I'm thinking of Maybe stepping out and getting someone to replace me because I genuinely can't handle any form of presence. I like horo I like space I have a work relation to Labby but , yeagh.

I don't mean to be a downer! It was fun most of the time! It's just that I end up feeling "live on camera" every now and then (specifically to communicate meaninfully i needed to type in space's live 450+ viewer chat) and my guts twist and my hands shake; but for the most part I could at least handwave and say I was bad at the game to cover up.

Not sure what the point of spilling my innards publicly is but yesh sorry for all that. I'll either be missing the next Elden Ring stream or maybe I might work out a system to minimize my meta exposure to the stream.

[thesquishysquash]

Summery - 2012!leo x shredders' offspring!reader

Warnings - confession

Reader's gender - male

Genre - fluff, angst

Rating - pg

A/n - I had this idea for a long while. I know no one is gunna make something as cringy as this but me, so, here I am!

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It was another long night. Your sister wasn't even your sister, your father is actually evil, and you were lied to all your life.

You stood against a wall of a roof, letting the wind blow by. Thoughts of what you should do next ran through your head.

"I knew you would be out here." A familiar voice spoke out from the shadows, you scoff softly, tiling your head to the stars. "And I knew you would find me." You respond. Your words sounded troubled, bothered even.

The blue masked turtle didn't want to ask why you sounded so hurt because you could get more upset about it. Leonardo stood next to you, the ends of his mask swayed in the breeze.

Your jaw was clenched, your eyes slightly watery. Leonardo gently places a caring hand on your tense shoulder. You soon begin to break down, slowly letting everything you bottled up and spilling it out.

You had your head on leonardo's shoulder and sobbed softly into it.

"Why would he lie to me...? What did I ever do to him.." you asked through sniffles, leo wiped you tears with his thumbs, you needed some comfort.

"The shredder is a ruthless man, I'm so sorry you had to put up with him for so many years." Leo says, you nod in agreement. You sat down on the ground with little to no idea on what to do. Cry some more? Confront shredder? Turn to the good guys? You were troubled. So, so dearly troubled.

You hands laid flat on the ground to hold yourself up, "you are so amazing y/n! I would probably like to spare with you.. maybe you could teach me something." You chuckle at his sweet comment, "thanks, but you don't have to lie to me. I know I'm repulsive."

Your words must have hit leo some where tender, because he was shocked and upset you said that.

"What!? How could you say that! I understand your shredders' biological child but- you can't just throw yourself under the bus like that!" "Why not? Everyone else already has."

Leo hugged your hand with his tightly, acting as if the moment he released, you would disappear. "Your brother's don't trust me, splitter hates me, heck- I don't think I should even be around you!"

"And you said it yourself! I'm shredders' son! Like, the worst person to be related to! I'll never be a good person."

Before you could go any further of putting yourself down, leonardo wrapped his arms around your stressed figure, it took you a while to process.

"I think.. I think I like you.. more then a friend, more then a best friend! I want you to feel okay and safe.." those words were the last thing you would think to come out his mouth, your cheeks got hotter every second leo had his arms on you.

"I think I like you better then space heroes.. heh," leo laughed, you chuckled at that. Maybe, this wasn't so bad..

Leo adjusted you and himself so you were facing one another, looking into his baby blue eyes, they practically captivated you.

You snuck a kiss on Leo's cheek, then resting your head on his plastron, all within the time that it took him the time to process.

"Kari is not gunna be pleased with with news.." you joke, "thank you for be here, leonardo."

[icarusthelunarguard]

This Week’s Horrible-Scopes

It’s time for this week’s Horrible-Scopes! So for those of you that know your Astrological Signs, cool! If not, just pick one, roll a D12, or just make it up as you go along. It really doesn’t matter.

This week we’re going to find you a new friend that will love you and listen to you all you need. That’s right, we’re getting you.. A PET! Let’s get to picking… and may the best pet WIN!

Aries 

You’re getting the Prehensile-Tailed Porcupine. Originally from Central and South America, they are large rodents with an odor reminiscent of human BO… meaning if you carry it with you you’ll have plausible deniability. This week… lose the Axe Body Spray.

Taurus 

Hey, everybody else? Don’t laugh. Because Taurus is getting a Dik Dik! It’s a tiny antelope species that have been kept as pets in the past, being sold at a hefty $6000 price tag. This week start planning for what you’ll be feeding your Dik Dik… because you’ll have to explain to the PetSmart Employees that you're NOT being lewd.

Gemini  

Get your passport in order because your pet will be the Raccoon Dog. Also called Tanuki, this has an uncanny resemblance to a typical raccoon, but it’s a canid from East Asia. They are one of the few federally banned species in the United States, but they are often kept in Europe. So this week, find the German Consulate and apply for a visa. 

Cancer Moon-Child 

Your animal will be… the Hyrax. Resembling a marmot or some other common rodent, the hyrax is the closest living relative to elephants and fairly related to manatees. At 70cm and 5kg, it’s the closest thing to a Vaporeon you’ll ever own. Do your own jokes.

Leo 

Honestly, your pet is going to be one of the most symbiotic relationships on this list. You’re getting the Asian Palm Civet. Yes, THAT Coffee-Enhancing Civet. Fortunately for you and your coffee habit It’s about the size of a house cat. This week… we’re putting you on Decaf. NO! You are NOT allowed to appeal this punishment. You EARNED this one!

Virgo 

Your desire to be Unique plays out again - your pet will be… the Jerboa. Imagine if you took a kangaroo, crossed it with a mouse, and… well, that’s about it, really. They’re cute, all-but impossible to find in the Americas, and bounce around like no one is looking. This week mix and match things you normally wouldn’t. Like, say… Your Socks!

Libra 

Get some clay. Make the head of a fox with it. Now pull those ears up more… MORE! There’s your pet: the Bat-Eared Fox. This African fox will help you with your gardening because it’s an insectivore. This week… actually START that garden you’ve been meaning to for the whole winter. 

Scorpio 

Your sick sense of humour is bringing you a pet in the form of a Tennessee fainting goat. The adorable, inquisitive, teachable little cutie who, when startled, turns into a goat-shaped mannequin. You want to stop that fainting for a while? Stop giving it water for a couple days. This week, YOU try going three days without water and see how YOU feel first!

Sagittarius 

Not the most exotic pet, but you’ll get one of the cutest: the Chinchilla. On the bright side, they’re pretty docile. On the bad side, they are nocturnal and are most active at night. This week, switch your work schedule around so you can spend quality time with your dust-bath taking friend.

Capricorn 

Better be ready for a long-term commitment, because you’re getting a Sugar Glider! Actually, better make that Two. They’re social animals that live upwards of 15 years, and they need to have companionship. This week, learn how to sew a little sugar glider diaper for them. You’re gunna need it.

Aquarius 

Proving that we’re not out to get you, your pet will be… the Capybara! These enormous guinea pig relatives are the largest rodents in the world, and have the sweetest temperament. They are semi-aquatic and require a pool of water to swim in. This week, look up pictures of Capybara and see that they literally charm all other animals to like them.

Pisces  

Finally, we have for you… the Muntjac Deer! They are compact enough to live indoors, being about the size of a medium dog, and are pretty intelligent, trainable, and live well with other pets. The Good side is their droppings have very little odor. The Bad side is… their droppings have very little odor. This week TRY to remember that you don’t have The Smartest pet of them all. The vet said to leave the light on at night and lay some newspapers on the floor for it… NOT that it’s reading.

And THOSE are your Horrible-Scopes for this week! Remember if you liked what you got, we’re obviously not working hard enough at these. BUT! If you want a better or nastier one for your own sign or someone else’s, all you need to do to bribe me is just Let Me Know! These will be posted online at the end of each week via Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook and Discord.

[ashacadence]

Part of the difficulties I have with just design in general being “okay how can I make this character mine and not accidentally or unintentionally look like someone else’s” but it’s just a forever spiral of ‘everything has been done more or less.’ It’s gunna look like something to someone at some point. Nothing can be done other than just having your own style and differences/nuances to go “ya that’s mine.” Plus just always nice to see people coming together with similar ideas and talking to one another and gushing over similar interests. But as far as design I try to picture them by face first then down. From how do they smile to their personality or vibe I want to portray. From there it’s about body then potential abilities/skills/career whathaveyou then build up a mini background then expand. Sometimes a world is created around them or they are just another addition to something I’ve already made. Sometimes I get a head of myself and think of too many things at once and I need to do better at writing them down rather than keeping it in my head and eventually losing it. XD the hazards of memory.

It would have to be Vivienne. I love vivienne. She’s that nice brain rot I can fall back on and indulge in different alternate universes while main bigger main stories and hers are taking a back burner. It’s just nice to have a very freestyle and adaptive character to bounce around with.

My most difficult character to draw or write would maybe have to be Alraeon. He’s got a vocab list and the brains that I don’t have and imagined him having.

Art or talking to friends to splurge ideas with or listen and also media usually to like movies or games usually help light a fire in me to do stuff.

Dr. Lancet, he is a doctor that runs his own clinic in the lower ends of the city with affordable services for those in need and living in poverty. I created him maybe two or three years ago. He was actually an adopt and his design was a bit different. He has a glass like faceplate and slightly different structure and color placement but still same palette.

6. Lancet usually goes thru difficult decisions as a medic/nurse and doctor all in one from how to save a person’s life from human to alien to running his own business and even having interpersonal relations with some unsavory patients that test his patience too. He’s got his own baggage and sins but he is rather blunt with a soft heart at least even if he tries to hide it under a reserved mask. Hard to express without a face but words and hand gestures do get his points across. But he will face difficult things unflinchingly and just soldier through them like a chore.

7. Either his face or his legs. He sounds like a horse coming down some hallways with the way his feet are shaped. Lol

8. I want him perceived as not only as a caring individual who does good work but someone who has some demons that he can’t face alone. For all the help he does he tries to mask a lot of his pain and self hatred. He’s not a very sharing guy.

9. Well 8 kind of answered that but I would say his lack of openness and maybe a bit of a control freak about his business and the way some operations are done since he was programmed to do things a certain way. He is capable of learning a new method by research or on the fly from someone too. He may argue with the latter throughout on effectiveness but if it works it works then it’s just added to his options list.

10. What would be your oc’s favorite ice cream?

-dr. Lancet can’t eat ice cream but if he did he’d probably like vanilla.

I tag: @squigglysquidd @wafflesrock16 @dexianylilia @cold-neon-ocean @generation1point5 @relay314

Anyone else is more than welcome to partake if I haven’t tagged you.

Thought I’d try a little something but also just answer or reblog and/or store and such. Thought I’d start a oc questionnaire and world building train.

What are some difficulties you had/have when coming up with designs and lore for your character vs now that you find yourself may or may not be struggling on? Could be personality to design traits/style to progression in story. Anything.

Favorite junk food oc of yours you like to indulge in. Why?

Least favorite/most difficult?

What gets your creativity juices bubbling?

Introduce an oc. How and when were they created?

If said oc above was given a difficult situation how do they handle it?

What’s the most notable feature about your oc?

How would you like your oc to be perceived?

What’s a flaw of theirs?

And finally…just tag people. And come up with a random number ten question.

That’s the skeleton above.

[ilikeswishcheese]

Here is my full review of Don't Look Up.

I give it a 5/5.

im not going to go over the plot, just what i think of the movie overall.

Its an obvious exaggeration of the impending doom we face with climate change, but also can be applied to a number of human level threats we face like corona or even homelessness.

It takes big shots at the political scene in America and how cold hearted they are when it comes to saving peoples lives/losing lives, but also its hyper focus on re-election rather than doing whats right (right in the sense of benefitting the most) for the entire country. It also takes shots at major tech companies, BASH is the apple + facebook of the story whose CEO tracks data on everyone while also being extremely greedy for more money.

The story is spot on, in its deviation from trying to save earth by blowing up the comet, because the CEO diverts everyones attention from saving lives, to making billions of dollars. He then fires all the scientists who speak up againts this process which is again completely accurate. If a climate scientist told an oil executive to stop mining oil for the sake of the planet, of course that scientist would never work for that company again, it makes sense (very loose analogy, definitely not concrete as moving our grid from coal and fossil fuels to green electricity is a whole complicated mess i can't get into here). Companies are built from the bottom dollar and profit incentives are what keep them competitive, but nothing should be more motivating than keeping everyone alive and keeping everyone healthy.

Kate and Randall are super relatable characters. Kate who has a nervous breakdown when she first hears the news and needs to self medicate, but also her complete and utter rage when no one shares the view that she has. It would make me so mad if i knew the world was ending and had the data to back it up and no one listened or cared, but also if they had tried to make snarky comments about their ex-wife while doing so. Also after she gets put off the grid and is told to never talk negatively about BASH or anyone else, she meets these locals who are kinda conspiring other ideas as to what the coporate billionaires are gunna do when the comet lands, and Kates snarky reply about them not being as smart or as evil as we think they are, in my view is completely accurate. CEO's like jeff bezos and elon are not purely evil, they are trying to run companies (making profit), and are really good business men who see the possibilities of making lots of money while simultaneously inspiring new tech which i think is a good thing, but can be done in way more charitable fashions.

Randall who gets a slight taste of power and uses it to cheat on his wife, is a jerk for not going back to his wife when he got the chance, but him realizing his wrongdoings and realizing that he just wants to live his normal day-day life with his family again is super relatable. Im sure some celebrities love that lifestyle of constant attention but im sure there is a breaking point where all of the attention and the niceties are overwhelming and the mundane family activities seem like heaven. Peter's speech to Randall while showing him the new mining drones was perfect. I truly think that CEO's like jeff and elon think they're more than just business men, that they are the natural evolution for humanity. Using the capitalist system and flipping it to be for the benefit of everyone overall. Even though this analogy is accurate, i think the execution on jeff and elon's attempts at getting to space have been so far, too show-off, and not enough achievement oriented. (although i'll admit i know nothing about how they could improve). His part about the 9 types of consumers, and how Randall is someone who thinks they have a high moral compass but also just engages in all the pleasures that modern societies offer is deeply relatable. I feel so in line with that consumer type. I feel i have such a high moral compass and that i would never invalidate another human being, or perpetuate climate change and try and fix world hunger ect, gets clouded when i realize how small i am in comparison to the huge systems we currently have in place. I too go back to the base pleasures that society has to offer, and run away like a field mouse.

The reason i give this movie such a high rating is because of its accuracy of its analogy. It is the perfect metaphor for climate change but i think it could be applied to corona (loosely).

Almost 4.3 million people have died from covid as im writing this. thats 4,260,000.

So many people died because of this virus, and still, wearing masks, getting vaccinated, being tested were all politicized, and scrutinized by both left and right.

When the entire species is put againts a life or death scenario for MILLIONS of people, we can't put our petty political disputes away. We can't seperate identity politics with real politics anymore. whichever side of the aisle you leaned during the 2020 election meant you were prone to believing certain things like mask mandates or going outside (spreading the virus) or not.

That is infuriating and makes me as mad as Kate did during her first talkshow scene. How can people be so ignorant and blind, that their actions have consequences and that the political stance they hold shouldn't influence how they react to scientific discoveries or recommendations.

we have stories of anti-vaxxers who get covid and switch sides because the vaccine might save their lives. But that is way too fucking late to drop your ego and identity politics. You shouldn't have to be put in the ICU and told you have a couple weeks to live before you allow science and facts to lead your life. This part isn't a great analogy to the movie, but its not until people saw the comet with their own 2 eyes did they believe it. Letting politicians and other people think for you is so incredibly dangerous and its very clearly the theme of this movie.

Some movie critics who have reviewed this film say alot about if its funny or not, or if its entertaining, if its pacing is right or whether or not it was heart touching while also serving as good satire.

I hope whoever wrote those negative reviews never gets a say in critical analysis ever again. A point the movie was trying to show was how people right now are so focused on whats entertaining in shows and movies, that they don't analyze what the piece of art says about humans. Not every movie needs to say something dramatic or profound about humanity, but every piece of good art does. So take a minute, reflect on what values you hold when reading the news and reacting to things politically and ask yourself if you're being realistic, or reacting how politicians and CEO's want you to react.

[dotstronaut]

HEY DID YOU KNOW that four years ago, I had a full AU idea for Miraculous Ladybug that integrated Felix and Bridgette as the original Parisian Chat Noir and Ladybug and inserted them into the canon timeline by making Felix the younger brother of Gabriel Agreste? 

If you want the rundown of the AU and basic plot (and the reasons why I will never finish it), it’s under this read more:

Felix and Bridgette have the same roles they do in the pilot. Felix is a little less social than his older brother, they were close when they were younger but grew apart as time marched on and Gabriel met and married his high school sweetheart, Emilie. I was going to make it so that Emilie Agreste was the original Moth miraculous holder. The old man gave all of them their miraculous secretly, so it’s likely very few of them know who the others are. Emilie and Gabriel are either given theirs as a unit, or Gabriel finds out his partner’s identity on his own.

Felix tragically dies while using his bad luck during a particularly tough job (conflict is either caused by general bad juju/negative emotions taken to the extreme OR the holders just save people from regular disasters and crime) and the current Ladybug is beside herself with grief. (In my headcanon, miraculous ladybug either doesn’t fix death OR because there’s no akuma to purify, it just doesn’t have the same amount of power.) She may have had a crush on Felix at school, but she had become quite close to Chat Noir during their time working together. Possibly at that point they had grown up and ended up together as a couple, even. 

Tikki, in an effort to save Bridgette from the trauma, uses her miracle to fix what was broken and also wipe Ladybug’s memories. (Or this may have been a deus ex, more than one miraculous being used by Bridgette, something like that.)

Gabriel witnesses all of this and suddenly realizes he has lost his brother. He didn’t even know Felix was Chat Noir. When Felix gets killed by his bad luck, Gabriel blames the miraculous and kwami and steals Emilie’s moth miraculous and stashes it away with his Peacock Miraculous. He becomes obsessed with the miraculouses and with his failure to protect his little brother. They have and raise their child, Adrien, but their relationship quickly degrades due to his controlling and abusive behavior, and eventually she runs away to try to regain control of her life. Gabriel’s role in the show is shifted by this. He owns two miraculouses and is desperately trying to find the old man and the rest. When a new Chat Noir and Ladybug appear on the scene, it enrages him. He starts using the moth miraculous to try to steal theirs in a misguided attempt to save them from the miraculous and themselves. This makes it Extra Dangerous for Adrien to be found out by his father, as Gabriel blames Plagg for his Felix’s death.

If you’ve read this far, the big twist, the big surprise ending? The young woman who gave up her memory of being Ladybug rather than feel the grief of losing her partner? It was gunna be Nathalie. Gabriel’s loyal assistant, who upon having no memory of her role as Ladybug and therefore no memory of much of her youth, was taken in by Gabriel and given a job so that he could keep an eye on her and make sure nothing else happened to her.

Over the course of her boss acting as Hawkmoth, she encounters Ladybug and Chat Noir a few times and has niggling memories and reminders. Of course at some point the memories would be unlocked at just the right moment, or to prevent Hawkmoth from doing something heinous. I was never sure how this AU was going to be resolved, but it explained some of why Hawkmoth is such a dick towards two kids and why he wants the miraculous so bad (he wants his wife back, but it’s possible he may believe the power of all four would be able to bring Felix back for himself and Nathalie).

It’s too bad the network approved/published a super racist comic where Marinette interacts with super-stereotypical “gangster” African Americans (plus Marinette is naked/wearing a cardboard box and assumes they are going to kill her - you know, fun for the whole family!) It’s too bad the show’s creator defended the comic and called those who were upset ‘sjws’ and looking for racism where there was none. :)

It’s also a shame Astruc was such a dick to members of his audience in general and treated them like they were idiots for wanting to identify with a struggling teenage girl playing the villainous rich-girl role (and wanting to see her redeemed and grow as a person). He straight up insinuated that a struggling teenage character was evil and never going to change her ways! :) So that’s the other grudge I hold in addition to the racist comic thing.

No shame to anyone who is still in the fandom, because the characters were super sweet and relateable, and it was a really fun sandbox to play in. But these were dealbreakers for me, and as I don’t trust the show or Astruc anymore, I will probably never return to this idea or the Miraculous Ladybug franchise ever again. But like, if you’re reading this and you still care about these characters and think it would be interesting to explore this idea, it is absolutely up for grabs! You can take pieces of it or the whole AU, I do not mind at all. I appreciate credit but it’s not required. You can also reblog my other fan art and AUs for this show if it floats your boat. 

[dontjudgemeimawriter]

for syndicate, feel free to talk about Unsent Letters and Scraps, pls? :3 - 🔮⛈ (@enchanted-lightning-aes)

Hi hii!! I'd love to see something from the Unsent Letters file!🤩💞 and if you wanna share the drawing of the Reaper House, or explain what it is—👀👀👀 -@sleepy-night-child

Coupling these together

So "Scraps" is when I was writing, got stuck or realized I didn't like where I was going, and backed up to a previous version. I saw somewhere to never delete, so instead I cut and paste it over to this document. For a sneak peak, there's a scene in there where Terran and Mika, after chatting in a cafe, run into Abigail (Who much later in the story Terran figures out has taken Jodi). I realized that them running into each other created more problems than it added anything, as I didn't want Terran to figure out that Abigail had Jodi too quickly.

the Reaper House: "The reaper house" is just Terran/ Zachary's house, because their house serves as the HQ for their subgroup of assassins, the Reapers. I probably will not keep this because tbh this is an odd layout. But at one point I wanted a sense of where Terran's room was in relation to Zachary's office:

After all the dnd planning on Roll20 I've done lately I feel like I could do this better... but eh.

Now, the said thing about sharing an Unsent Letter is I can't preserve their carefully picked handwriting fonts. But some background: I did this hoping to get back in touch with them during a period of not writing. They're intended to be letters written from the characters from different points that they didn't intend to send-- but I wouldn't consider them canon, like these letters canonically exist. I also found them all being about Terran even when Terran wasn't involved... almost like Terran's the main character or something? I'm gunna share Raymond's (In Google Doc's Waiting for the Sunrise font) under the cut. This takes place before the story, when Raymond is planning on returning to Calson City to attend Dante, and it's addressed to Mika.

Dear Mika,

Hey, betcha didn’t expect to see my handwriting again, huh?

So, yeah, I’m alive.

I’ve been thinking about sending this for a while, but I’m not supposed to, so I’m just writing it out and if I ever decide to send it, then I will, but I more need to write it. Well. To you. I don’t know what I’m saying.

Terran will be mad if I do send this by the way. But mad at me. As long as Zachary doesn’t find out, it’ll be okay though, so be really careful about that, but I know you will, because I think you know to and know that that’s dangerous.

I’m really sorry, I’m really sorry for every time I don’t send this, or tell you in some other way. It’s not that I don’t trust you. Not at all, and I want to keep trying to tell you, to get you out of there. But it’s difficult. Which is making excuses. I keep making excuses, I’m sorry.

I can’t, though, not right now and I haven’t found a good chance, and I really wish I could ignore Terran’s instruction here. But here’s the thing, okay, and I’m hoping you understand. My life was in his hands. Completely. I was not the one fighting to live, and he had no reason to to the extent that I never expected him to. But my impression was wrong— yes, despite you saying I was too forgiving, it was not quite enough to ever thing he’d let me go. But he did— not just let me go, though, because that would be one thing. My life was in his hands, now his is in mine. And yours, though it always was because this whole situation is my fault. So it’s not that I don’t trust you. It’s that you and someone else I care about may die, and even then I have to restrain myself from running for you and telling you or not sending this or giving you any hints. Because it’s not worth your life, and it’s not worth his. Even if you don’t care about his life.

Please understand I do, though? I don’t think you really will, I kinda know I shouldn’t, but I can’t help it. I do wish I could hear it actually. Go on, tell me why caring about him or trusting him at all is stupid, a terrible idea, that he’s not worth it. I want to hear your reasons, I’m not good with coming up with any even though I think it is a bad idea. Other than saving me, is he worthy of me caring this much about? Tell me how stupid it is, that he hasn’t deserved it yet, that I have no evidence really for thinking he’s a good person or reason for forgiving him.

Here’s some ammo for you. I might like him? I know you’d say that was dumb, classic Raymond, of course, that’s why you forgive him for everything and also why you shouldn’t because it’s not reflective of him. But I did want to tell you that. I don’t know, because maybe it doesn’t matter because my impression of him is wrong, or because so what if it’s when he’s not focusing because what matters happens when he is. But I will say this. He cares about others more than I think he realizes or lets himself. Maybe it doesn’t matter because actions matter. But it counts for something I think. And from what I’ve seen, he is trying. I’m trying to be careful, though, not trust him too much.

Do you remember how we’d talk about escaping? Even before Mom died. How we fantasized about leaving the city, going out on long drives and finding somewhere new. Maybe it was less escape then, more adventure. When we started talking about colleges and learning to drive. We always talked about going together and Mom said we might not want to. Do you think even back then, we knew that something was wrong with the city?

I think about that, and then I realize that Mom knew about the syndicate, didn’t she? Must she have? Do you ever wonder why she didn’t leave? Was she stuck here somehow too, or did it just not seem like a danger?

Is it weird, after all that, that I’m longing to come back? It could be wanting to return to where you are—there’s a part of me that really hopes you’ll discover it by accident, then I won’t be betraying him.

I want to tell you something. Whenever we talked about college, I always imagined Dante. Do you remember when we’d go, and Mom would show us the walkways and we’d sneak into the buildings? Even when we talked about leaving, I wanted to go to Dante, to return there. I kinda hoped I’d find another one out there, but I couldn’t. But it didn’t really matter, elsewhere did have good schools and we could talk about escape.

The thing is, there are other colleges that don’t bar Nyps from a psychology major— that’s why, Dante doesn’t— but they aren’t as good. And they’re farther away.

So, I’m coming back. And I’m going to avoid you, I’m going to be careful. But even if you don’t understand the Terran stuff, I think you will understand this. I need to come back, I need to study psychology, and I need to go to Dante.

[light679]

A little about Leonchampionheart

Hey guys! Figured I could do a little ‘about me/my blog’. Mostly because I’m procrastinating writing in my WIP or getting actual work done. 

So, general things: 

I’m a grad student first and foremost. I definitely don’t commit to any regular posting or writing schedule. Partly because my schedule is crazy and I also have periods of non-motivation. We’re all a little dead inside, it’s fine. 

I’m primarily a Leon/Pokemon Sword and Shield blog, but that being said, I’m down to talk other games and other things entirely. That being said, characters other than Leon, Piers and somewhat Raihan will take a little longer for me to write just based on me not writing them as often. I like to make my writing accurate/high quality, so I will need to do a little digging on the canon character before diving in. The only topic I tend to avoid here is politics. I need some safe spaces to come after yelling at my relatives for being politically stupid. That being said, please DNI if you’re a Trump supporter/racist/homophonic/TERF/ableist, etc. If you’re here to spread hate or anything but good vibes and love, this isn’t the place for you. You’re also not gunna have a good time. I’m hella bisexual. I write gay content. I write smut. 

I’m currently not screening who follows me/can message me. Please don’t make me take that away. I like meeting new people. That being said, if I don’t follow back, it’s nothing personal. I use tumblr exclusively for Pokemon-related content and prefer to keep my feed that way. Pokemon is currently my escape from reality. 

I definitely try to tag all of my writings that are nsfw tagged as such, and tag with appropriate content filters (e.g., for my OC ship, I tag it as “Leon x Light”), and try to account for any triggers that I can think of. That being said, if there is something I haven’t caught/something that triggers you, PLEASE reach out and let me know so I can start doing so. Tumblr is the place I come to have a good time, and I want that to be able to be the case for others too. Also please send me asks because I love procrastinating my own work for the requests of others. 

I love making Pokemon friends and am an incredibly socially awkward potato, so don’t hesitate to reach out if you ever just want to chat/get to know me, or obsess over Leon. I have a disgusting amount of Leon pictures pinned on Pinterest at this point in my life, and I have no shame in sharing them, ask my mutuals 😂. 

While I’m not ashamed of having a nerdy side, I tend to keep this blog/my fanfiction content and my work/adult life pretty separate. Therefore, I’m pretty private. If I’ve told you personal information as a mutual, I trust you XD 

I think there’s only one or two of my mutuals who know my irl name, and it’s not something I give out much. Feel free to call me by my tumblr handle, my OC name (Light), or whatever else ig lol. 

Finally, if you know me IRL, no you fucking don’t. 😆

[hoplessdreamer9796]

BTS 8th Member - Your Friends

Best Friends: Kim Hanbin (B.I from Ikon. (Pretend he’s still in Ikon and YG didn’t snake one of their best artists.) Your mothers are best friends and so when you moved to Korea, he was the only person you knew so you clung to each other. He was also one of your best friends through high school. He is your best friend and you both have always been there for each other. The both of you tried alcohol for the first time together, which you stole from his father’s liquor cabinet. Were there for each other’s first relationships and first heartbreaks. You were there for his parents’ divorce at 12 (I made this up idk if it’s true). You ditched classes and went to go sit on the roof of your apartment building to talk about your futures together. His aspirations for music and yours to live peacefully. In your friendship group he is the grandfather that clings to his youth. He hates any physical activities other than mountain hiking but loves going on nights out. You both even got matching tattoos as soon as it was legal, and it will be explained later. “You can’t push me away Y/N! So, get angry, scream and shout but I’m not going anywhere! I’m your best friend that shit doesn’t work on me!”) Park Shinhye (Despite your age difference you two are best friends, you consider each other sisters. Grew close because you both work in the entertainment industry but both don’t have girls around you, you by being in BTS and her by being an actress so when you both met at an award show soon after BTS debuted you clicked. You both were there for each other threw everything. She’s one of your best friends and you often have movie nights when you’re both free. She cried for you when BTS won a daesang for the first time, that moment went viral. BTS walked off the stage, and were still visible by fans but near backstage, and you two ran at each other like dramatic losers as she was crying more than you were and you were both shouting at each other to stop crying while continuing to hug. Fans love that moment and your friendship. She often states that you are her best friend both in this industry and in life. “I never really thought it was possible to connect to someone like that. But I honestly think that in another life we were sisters.”) Min Sooah (Best friend from high school is your secretary, for now, and is one of your pillars. You would not be able to function without her. There’s an ongoing joke that she is basically your mother, you worry her to no end. She is very grateful to you. After her father broke his hip and was not able to continue working, she had to drop out of university to go to work. You gave her the job as your secretary despite her not being qualified. You needed someone you trusted, and you knew she would work hard. Now she is one of the most important people in your company. She is the Dad of the group always complaining about how “I gave up my youth to look after you brats and none of you have time to spend with me? Okay I see how it is. Daehyun this is your influence on them!”) Ok Hwayoung (Best friend from high school now she is your personal shopper. After university she became a personal shopper, and you thanked the sky’s because she chooses all of your clothes to pack when traveling or when you have formal business meetings. You like buying clothes but you hate the process of shopping and trying things on, so you tell her what pieces you want, and she’ll get it. She also organises your wardrobe ‘cause she’s OCD like that. She also is a hopeless romantic and is constantly trying to talk you and Hangyeol into giving up your partying lifestyle because, “How are we supposed to have a group wedding if you don’t let yourselves find the ones you idiots?!”) Lee Hangyeol (Best friend from high school he owns a mechanics and auto repair shop and he is the only one you trust with you cars. He is also the only one of your best friends who encourages you attitude towards your love life as he is also not into committed relationships. You're both each other’s wingmen. You guys are basically the epitome of lads’ lads when around each other. You’re the loud, annoying people in a bar gassing each other up to chug your drinks down. Whenever one wants to go on a night out the other is always down. “Who needs a relationship? Tequila is just as good. Gives me a fun night and then when the fun wears off it give me a headache and regrets. That’s basically a relationship.”) Tae Daehyun (Best friend from high school he works as a pd on tv shows mainly running man. He was also on the track team back in high school. The two of you often go out on runs together. After seeing what the industry is like behind the camera, he worries a lot for you. Especially since he knows no matter how crappy you feel you’d rather down the nearest bottle of alcohol than talk about it. So, he always tries to let you know if you need to talk, he’s there. Also hates how much you and Hangyeol drink and always tries to make sure you guys eat a proper meal before going out and drinking. He’s also the one in your friend group who can be bothered to cook, he got so offended when he found out you hired a personal chef but then he tasted her food and is okay with it. He’s the Mum of the group. “What the hell is wrong with you all? You can’t throw a knife at the apple on his his head! Are you crazy? See this is what I have to deal with Sooah. But if you weren’t so busy working, you’d know that!”) Ryeo Chungae (Best friend from high school and she works on the public relations for your company. When she first joined your company, she always felt like she got the job because she’s your friend, but you wouldn’t have given her the job if you didn’t think she could do it. She went through a hard time when her boyfriend cheated on her with her old boss. Instead of being scared of falling in love again she wants love. Trying to convince you and Hangyeol that it’s is amazing when secretly she is glad that you won’t be able to get hurt. She is a pushover in all aspects of life except for work. When it comes to work, she is a force to be reckoned with. So instead of staying at her old job with her boss she resigned after making a scene about the boss sleeping with her boyfriend which got said boss fired. When she is with all of your friends, she is also very outspoken and opinionated. However, when it comes to people she isn’t comfortable with her anxiety acts up. You and all your friends are protective of her in situations where her anxiety gets bad. Her ideal life is a Hallmark movie. “One day I’m gunna meet the man of my dreams. He’s gunna be tall and handsome and most importantly he’ll take me away from all of you dumbass motherfuckers.”) Hak Daeho (Best friend from high school he works at Songsun’s shop as and is in charge of customising cars. He is the one that never wants to go out and always wants to stay home. He prefers a night in with his friends than at some stupid club where Y/N and Hangyeol ditch a half hour after arriving, most of the time. He doesn’t have the best relationship with his family after they found out he didn’t want to become a lawyer like his parents and siblings. His parents kicked him out and cut him off. Y/N payed for his college tuition even though he protested, you just said it was a loan and that he can pay you back someday. However, after he had been able to save up to pay you back you told him to shut up and buy a damn apartment which is what he did. Thanking the universes for his friends. He stayed in an apartment with Hwayoung, Daehyun and Chungae during college and no matter how many times he couldn’t pay rent his friends always had his back. It also helped that every time you visited you stocked the fridge and freezer. He thinks of you all as family more than he does of his own family. “You guys are a bunch of fucking idiots. Like you’re my family but damn you guys are stupid.”) Park Soomi (Best friend from high school. She is the most subscribed to female Korean youtuber with 11 million subscribers. She is also and ambassador for Jeonsa cosmetics although at first, she didn’t want to be as she felt like it would be using her friendship with you to her advantage. However, after you convinced her to accept, she did. You also knew that you could trust her since she has always been honest with you and never expects anything from you. You also knew that she would be advantageous for your company so it’s not like you’re just giving her money your promoting your company through her brand. After you explained this she reluctantly agreed. She is the loud, chaotic crackhead of the group. Constantly doing dumb shit. “Hey guys my pineapple was being difficult long story short we no longer have a microwave.”) Im Kyungmin (Best friend from high school, he is a part of Soul & Bones, a hip-hop and house dance crew. When you were younger all of your friends would go to his contests. Everything you learned about dancing you learned from watching that crew. You always loved the way their dancing looked and the atmosphere they created. But you were realistic with your situation knowing you’d never get to dance. When Bang pd wanted you to be a trainee you were hesitant, but he practically dragged you to that audition. And during trainee days he helped you with your dancing. He says your better than him now, but you know you’re not. Soon after you became a billionaire Soul & Bones were set to end. Their investor pulled out and most dance crews are under entertainment companies unlike soul & Bones. Kyungmin was devastated, Soul & Bones was his whole life. So, when you decided to fund it he was conflicted. On one hand he was thankful and on the other hand he was guilty. But after you told him what the crew meant to you, how you were also friends with everyone else in the crew and couldn’t let it end when you could do something about it he was on board. You however made it clear you don’t own Soul & Bones you just pay for things. Now it is considered the best hip-hop dance crew in Korea and one of the best in the world. He is the one in your group who seems high most of the time but isn’t. “I think that pizza is thinking shit about me... I’m gunna eat it not ‘cause I want to but because it needs to die!”) Close Friends: Mark Tuan (You met at a BTS and Got7 collaboration for and you both clicked immediately because you were both from western countries, you were both raised in similar cultures so you had become close friends easily. It is also less lonely when you both miss your home countries if you’re around each other. It was surprising because your personalities are the opposite, but you bring him out of his shell. Whenever you guys meet you always speak in English and it’s a relief for both of you since it is your first language no matter how long you’re in Korea. You both also relate on how different your home countries’ standards are compared to Korea in terms of public image, behaviour and many other things. It’s very easy to be your true selves around each other. ) Choi Youngjae (You guys are the same age so you clicked easily. Even though you’re closer to Mark you’re still close to Youngjae. The guy is literal sunshine it hard not to like him. There is also a group of idols born in 1996 who he is a part of.) BTS and Got7 are both close to each other so you are friendly with all the members. But you are the closest with Mark. Woo Jiho (Zico. You both met when BTS and Block B did a collaboration at mama. Namjoon and him knew each other but they weren’t that close, so it was unexpected when you and he hit it off. You are both close friends and hang out when you can. He often asks for your opinion with his music and the two of you once spent an entire night just messing around in the studio. He says that you are one of the only people to get him to take a break, when he’s in work mode, and to have some fun. Clubbing isn’t really his scene so you and Jaemin often have to beg him to go out drinking with you guys. He used to have feelings for you but after some time in the friendzone he realised he is okay with you not having feelings for him as long as you are in his life. No one knows about the feelings he had for you.) Lee Jaemin (A YouTuber who has 7 million subscribers. The two of you met through Jiho and got along very well because you both like alcohol and clubbing. However, he maintains a clean public image, so your company is fine with you being seen in public together. Your members aren’t very fond of him since the time he showed up at the dorm drunk looking for you and threw up in a plant. They think he is a bad influence, but you know what he was going through and know he’s a good person. He feels like he can be himself around you without feeling judged. Yoongi really hates him and the friendship you two have.) Kang Yujin (She is an Instagram model who has 18 million followers and 2 million subscribers on YouTube. She met you and Jiho through Jaemin. However, once the public found out about your friendship many thought she was using you in order to work with Jeonsa cosmetics. But you knew this wasn’t true. Yujin was the kind of person to drive to McDonald's for you at three in the morning when you had a nightmare about your father and wouldn’t tell her what it was about. The kind of person to kill spiders for you even though she’s scared of bugs too. And due to the public’s reaction, she was scared you would end up thinking the same of her. You told her how you knew what kind of person she was and in order to make a statement to the public you both posted a photo together on her Instagram announcing her endorsing your company. She is a very close friend and an older sister figure to you.) You, Zico, Jaemin and Yujin often go bowling together or go out to eat and are also drinking buddies you are very close to them. The four of you are often spotted in public together. Kang Seungyoon (You both met through Hanbin and both of your personalities go very well together. Musically you both also mesh very well together. You both also often play pool together and he gets triggered at how he’s played longer but you kick his ass at it. Whenever you both have the time you go out for food and drinks and spend all nigh playing pool and all night, he complains that you’re a cheater and he won’t stand for it. He’s a very good friend.) Kim Jisoo (You met her first, soon after they debuted, in the bathroom. The two of you clicked and then you met the rest of the group through her. It was easy to become friends with them due to BTS and Blackpink both being at the top of K-pop, so you were a lot more understanding of each other’s situations. She is a very close friend of yours and is an older sister figure to you. She always gets excited when you send her the new launches of Jeonsa cosmetics and does vlives talking about it.) Kim Jennie (Despite Jennie being introverted you charmed her during your first conversation. She found it very easy to talk to you despite being slightly nervous and you were her sunbae. She was surprised how easy it was to talk to you. You are a people person, and she is not so like most other extroverts she’s met she thought you would clash but surprisingly your personalities match very well. You bring out the fun in her.) Lalisa Manobal (Lisa. She looks up to you a lot in terms of your dancing. She is very clingy towards you when you meet, and you love her crackhead energy. You learnt to speak Thai early after BTS’ debut, this made Lisa feel like she could connect to you on a deeper level. You have also helped her with the racist side of K-pop, her being Thai and you being half Arabic you’re both no stranger to how harsh netizens are. As you have been going through it for longer than her you are able to comfort her (kind of because you’re emotionally stupid but you try and push that aside for your friend).) Park Chaeyoung (Rose. She was also born in a western country so when she met you it helped her feel less homesick. You both often talk about childhood TV shows together and relate to each other when people talk about Korean things from their childhood that you have no idea about. Even though you’re from different places it’s nice having someone who understands the difficulties of moving from western culture to eastern.) Kwon Jiyong (Gdragon. You guys met backstage at an award show when BTS and Bigbang met. The groups are casual with each other, but you and he became very close especially because you’re friends with many YG artists. You also both like to party a lot and often go out together. He views you as a very close friend and is often nagging at you to eat and rest properly You try and hang out whenever you both have time.) Matthew Kim (BM. You two met during an inkigayo. He got lost and was swearing in English. So, you approached him and asked in English if he was okay. You helped him find his way back to his dressing room. He knew who you were and that you were British as BTS was well known then. However, he was expecting you to be arrogant and was pleasantly surprised with how nice you were. You and he got along well as you have similar personalities. Both extroverted. The two of you also quickly found out about your shared love of partying and clubbing and now you often go out together.) Peniel Shin, Ashley Choi, Amber Liu, Stephanie Young Hwang (These are some of your other western born K-pop friends.) Red velvet (You are good friends with the group mainly Joy as you are the same age. You, them and Blackpink try to go out together when you can. Irene is also very protective over you and sees you like a little sister.) Park Chanyeol (You have very similar attitudes you were good acquaintances but then you both worked together on the Goblin ost (Pretend it was you instead of Punch p.s I love that song so fucking much.) He always tries convincing you to let him drive your cars and you always say no. He’s a very fun person and you guys have a good laugh together.) You’re friendly with the rest of the Exo members but the closest to Chanyeol. Your best friends are: Hanbin, Shinhye, and all of your friends from high school. However, you are still close with the rest of your friends.

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penultimate

you wanna be a wee bit sad today? GOOD. -nutpunches the testes of your heart- as usual, tumblr fucked my italics and I’m channeling Kung Lao today--gunna nap instead of do shit about it

shaolin rowdy boys pining implied - LiuLao, uh hmm what else? Just Lao in this one. Nothing juicy

Broken Timeline

“Do you know what it is like?” He speaks to no one, his voice barely above a whisper, alone in the Shirai-Ryu’s famous Fire Gardens. There is a koi pond nearby, with a small cascade of water dumping its contents into the clear water from a stream that seems to loop all the way through the picturesque gardens. It is almost unbelievable that one of the two deadliest assassin clans calls this place their dojo and home. His reflection ripples back up at him as he turns to watch the fish and he frowns. “Huh?” He grunts, “DO you?”

Of course not, he thinks bitterly, how could you—how could you know what any of this is like when you are so… so perfect. His frustration mounts and he pulls the wide-brimmed hat off his head and sticks the bladed edge angrily into the dirt next to him. In times of distress, every teacher he has ever had has told Kung Lao that meditation is an acceptable, even laudable solution. He swallows down the thick, ugly lump in his throat and chokes on his resentment, which he knows is foolish, bratty, and misdirected. It is unbecoming of a White Lotus. He knows what Lord Raiden would say.

 “Release your anger, Kung Lao,” Lao rumbles in his best imitation of Raiden’s thundery voice, “it will only consume you.”

 He scoffs, picking up an orange leaf and examining it without really seeing what he is observing. His eyes scan the veins and cracks without absorbing any of it before he tosses it into the pond. It is light and does not go as far as his mind wishes it would. Color settles high on his cheeks as he props his chin on one hand, elbow on his knee. 

 “Tell that to future you, Lord Raiden—frying your favorite student and letting the spare…” He reaches up reflexively to rub his neck where he can almost feel the pressure of hands wrapping around jaw and shoulder, wrenching his spine and ending his life. Well… sort of. He and Liu Kang had recently come face to face with their revenants and, while they, the living Shaolin, had been successful, seeing himself, torn, ashen, cracked like the earth after a volcanic eruption, with such deep hatred in his eyes… it had been, to say the least, jarring. 

 It jars him even now as he observes his own, sharp, dark eyes in the pond once more. A fish surfaces to beg for food, prodding at the leaf. Unsatisfied, it sinks once more, flashing its beautiful orange-and-white body once and disappearing in the depths.

 “How can I release something that is part of me?” He tilts his head back, running his hand over his bare scalp, feeling the growth of a few days, craving a razor. He has become so accustomed to a lack of hair that any little bit makes the leather cap he often wears begin to chafe. Today, it is absent as he and the others have been instructed to rest before the assault on Kronika’s keep—the realm and home of a titan. He does not relish the thought of entering Netherrealm on his own steam, but it is, he thinks, perhaps a bit better than doing it on someone else’s watch. 

 Supposedly they will, if all goes as planned, be utilizing Kharon’s fleet to sail the blood sea. The ferryman of hell can evidently be persuaded to help them right the wrongs Kronika has committed upon the people of this timeline (and evidently many others, though his understanding of such things is beneath what one might call rudimentary). For once, Lao is content with the “it is not for us to know” explanation. Thinking about this, about any of it, makes his head spin. And spinning is usually his specialty. 

 Of himself, he thinks he has done well, has kept his cool as best he can, has done anything and everything Raiden has asked of him, would gladly do it again now that he has seen the god’s power in action properly and has gotten to know Raiden the way Liu Kang always has (or the way his faith has propelled him to believe and thence to know). Lao is, at least for now, somewhat content with the work he has done. He has contributed to a real, tangible cause and that does, indeed, feel good. But it is not good enough. It does not settle entirely upon his restless spirit. He cannot decide if it is his doubting nature, or if it is something else which drives him now to continue this one-sided dialogue.

 “Do you know why my parents named me Lao?” His smile is harsh and bitter, like the rare sunlight over Arctika. In theory, it is the sun, but in practice, it is little more than chilly, diffuse illumination. Lao pauses as if waiting for a reply, but the fish and the breeze offer none, so he continues. “A prophecy.” His shoulders sag and he slumps a little, staring at his hands. They are strong hands, calloused and scarred with many healed cuts—and some not-so-healed. They have served him well, but, like everything else in his life never well enough. “I think they just wanted me to be like my ancestor, you know? The Great Kung Lao—so they call me Lao and hope that I… do not dishonor him.”

 He allows the silence to hang in the air, accompanied only by the burble of the stream and small waterfall that feeds the pond, the whisper of leaves dancing in a light breeze, and whatever sound sunlight makes when it falls gently upon the earth. In the distance, he might, were he to concentrate, hear the voices of his friends, but his attention is only upon the here and now, directed inward. 

 “They are more worried about being dishonored themselves.” Lao scoffs, leaning back and watching the sky overhead. Large, fluffy clouds glide serenely above, unaware of the turmoil in his heart—perhaps uncaring. He wishes he could let it go. He wishes he too could simply cease caring and simply do his duty as the ideal, humble monk. “But I cannot,” he growls, “because I AM not. I… fear and I doubt and I fight harder than anyone else just to be… second best.” If that.

 Orphan or not, Liu Kang should have been named after the Great Kung Lao. It is he who carries the legacy, even if Lao bears the name and the blood. Much rests upon that name in their ancient and venerated clan, so there is much to dishonor. Lao has become skilled at repeatedly doing just that, whether he means to or not. It is difficult to say what, if anything specific, had been the “final straw” which pushed him toward the rank of black sheep, sacred name and all. 

 At least I am not the only disappointment in the family, he thinks bitterly. It is an unkind reflection and, though he has only actually met his nephew a handful of times, briefly, and of course when the boy had been much younger than he likely is now, he does not equate their struggles. All the same, he considers, I would become his friend, I think… if I survive this.

 Plans for return are far from his mind. In fact, Lao has come to grips with the fact that he will not be coming home at all. “That should bring the honor I was missing all these years,” he opines, stretching his legs out to either side of the rocky edge of the pond and bending over them, stretching his limbs and breathing deeply, trying to follow Raiden’s imaginary advice. Even without the thunder god’s pedantic scolding, Lao knows that this, too, is a selfish thought and centers himself to banish it, as well. He finds himself attempting to banish many thoughts these days, and they are only coming on more strongly. 

 Bending first to one side and then the other, Lao stretches, breathes, and then sits back up, straightening and re-folding his legs. The sunlight glints off the edge of his hat, still lodged in the earth nearby as he lays his hands in his lap in the old meditative pose, closing his eyes. His chest expands and contracts with forced slowness, all effort concentrating into wrangling, controlling, and releasing the thoughts which buzz about his mind like bees. Outwardly, he is the picture of serenity, the perfect monk.

 He supposes that this is how it must remain. Until he can prove himself worthy, he will always be the number two Shaolin. That is not what rankles him most, however. It is that Liu Kang is absolutely his biggest fan, his most ardent supporter, and actually listens to him when he does express doubt. How can he harbor any harsh feelings toward or in relation to someone like that? 

 I love him, he thinks, and he’s going to walk right into his death… I will follow him, because that is what I always do. If Liu Kang is the lamb to slaughter, then what does that make him? What abbertoire awaits them in Netherrealm? Is Raiden yet again leading them into a massacre? His hands are balled into fists upon his lap and the meditative serenity is lost. He feels tears sting the corners of his eyes. 

 “I love you, Liu Kang.” And it is too damn late to do anything about it.