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lovethisfatcryptid · 1 year ago
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My life is so full of love and good people. I'm good at picking friends and lovers. Good job, me.
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goldsainz · 2 years ago
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HIS LUCKY CHARM — one shot.
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pairing: lando norris x reader
MASTERLIST.
summary: lando is disappointed you can’t make it to his home race, only to be surprised at the end.
request: “Hi! Could you write something about Lando and reader when she surprise him on race day. Lando is sad when she told can't do this on his home race bc something important with her work but after all she appears on Sunday on track. He is more than happy with that and archive good resolut be she is his lucky charm”
warnings: teeny tiny bit of angst, a probably not accurate depiction of the garage
NOTE: WHAT A RACE!! loved the lando+lewis podium, also oscar was great 🫶 anyway, to celebrate have this little thing, thank you sm for requesting bc this inspired me a lot (you kinda manifested the good result???) i added a shameless cameo in there, i just couldnt help myself! (the ending is rushed, ignore it😁)
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“I’m so sorry, Lando.” Is what you say to your boyfriend when you have to break the bad news to him.
“It’s okay.” His face breaks into a broken smile, with glossy eyes he holds your hands and brushes his thumbs up and down your palms.
“I’ll still tune in.” 
“I know.”
“I’ll be rooting for you.” 
“I know.”
You take your hands from his hold, and place them around his neck. You watch as his right posture lightly relaxes at your touch. 
“I don’t wanna miss it. You know I don’t.” 
You wish your job wasn’t as demanding as it was, that it didn’t make you fly to another country in the middle of your boyfriend’s home Grand Prix. But it does. And you’re not sure how to handle the emotional stress it inflicts on you both, and you sure hope it doesn’t affect him in a way that will mess up his race.
“And if I could make it, I would.” 
“It’s alright. It’s your job, I know it’s not your fault.” Even though Lando’s words seem reassuring, and he means them with his whole heart; you still feel guilty. 
With that, he stands up and makes his way to the kitchen of your shared apartment. You watch him leave, and with a heavy heart start to pack whatever stuff you need for your trip. It destroys you to see him sad so close to his home race, a time where he should be joyous, only worried about the car and nothing more. 
You’re not sure how you’re going to make it up to him, but you will.
Somehow.
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You were being a little secretive, and you were sure Lando definitely noticed. 
Your boss and you had managed to come to an arrangement which allowed you to be present for the race. It would all be very tight in timing, but nothing that couldn’t be accomplished. It involved a lot of overworking the days before, but it was very much worth it.
You could already imagine the face Lando would make when he finally saw you. Whether he got a good result or not, there was no doubt you wanted to be there with him. 
It took a lot of care for you to arrive at the paddock almost incognito, with fans already speculating why you weren't at his home race. Thankfully no break-up rumours had surfaced, but there were a couple hurtful ones that made you want to be present even more. 
But you knew that no matter how much Lando acted like he was oblivious to what happened around him, his silly act was simply that; an act. You didn't like keeping secrets from him, it felt wrong to have to blatantly lie to him whilst everyone around him knew something he didn't. Still, it would all work out in the end.
Lando’s family had been so happy to see you in the paddock. His grandma (who adored you) hugged you as tightly as she could, quickly bidding you goodbye when you told her you had to go to the garage quickly to get prepared for the race. 
There was no doubt that the tingly feeling of nerves creeped up on you the moment you spotted all the engineers and people moving around, getting everything that needed to be set up wrapped up so the race could go smoothly. Zak was already at the pit wall, and Lando was sitting in his car ready for the formation lap to begin. 
At the garage you spotted Florence Pugh, who had a McLaren headset on. You had seen her on the paddock, but wasn't aware of the fact that she had come to the race invited by McLaren. You tried not to freak out, you saw celebrities almost everywhere when you came to races or went out with Lando. Still, the actress had a special place in your heart.
It took a little of hyping yourself up, and confidence to walk up to her, but you did. You would be sharing the garage for an hour and a half, the least you could do is socialise a little. 
“Hi! I’m Y/N.” You said to Florence watching her turn around with a smile on her face.
“Hello!” She says, greeting you like you were an old friend. “I’m Florence”
“You’re a McLaren fan?” 
“Honestly, I’m more of a Lewis fan.” She said with a laugh, keeping ehr voice just loud enough so you could hear her.
“I get that. I mean, who isn’t?” 
The conversation flowed for a little more until the race was about to start. You excused yourself and moved to an area closer to the screen, where you could watch Lando close-up. You loved being in the garage because of the different screens and the attention to their drivers, that allowed you to experience the race in different ways.
Your headset was adjusted and you were awaiting the moment where David Croft would say it’s lights out. Your knee was slightly bouncing, but you tried your best to contain the nerves. 
“It lights out and away we go!” Exclaims David Croft, his voice echoing through the garage.
You watch as Lando has a great start, and it takes about a second for him to take the lead. You hear the roar of the crowd before you can even react.
“Yes! Go Lando!” You scream, your voice doesn't make anyone flinch because everyone around you has the same reaction. It is a sight to behold, a moment you are more than grateful to see live. 
“I can’t believe it.” Someone next to you says, and you can't help but smile. 
It is no secret how badly the season started for McLaaren. You watched Lando’s smile waver more than once, his faith in the team never wavering, but still. He was rightfully let down by the performance of the adr,a dn you had to reassure him multiple times that it wasn't his fault. Because he was doing the best that he could with what he had. 
So now, seeing him get to this moment, is absolutely deserved.
A couple of laps go by and Max takes the lead for your boyfriend. There is disappointment in the atmosphere, but everyone knows that P2 is a miracle and that Lando is doing absolutely great work out there. They all know how great it would be to have him finish in that position, especially since Oscar is P3. 
Getting a podium in Silverstone would mean the world to Lando, Which is why you're worried about what will happen when they pit. Whatever strategy they choose will determine if Lando gets podium or not, and you will not pretend to really know what happens or how they come up with strategies, but you hope that they dont mess up his race because of wrong timing or choose the wrong tyres. 
As you watch his car race, you suddenly see on the screen that one of the Haas cars has come to a halt. A safety car is deployed, which means a couple of cars will choose to change tyres. The whole garage groans when Lewis’s car comes out in front of Oscar’s after he pits, now challenging Lando’s position.
It’s like you can’t breathe between those laps that Lando and Lewis battle for P2. Everyone is at the edge of their seats watching them race against the other, and you hope that this doesn't end up running both their races. The last thing anyone wants is for them to crash, because going from that position to a DNF would result in disappointment for everyone involved.
“Come on, Lando! Come on!” You scream, your palms intertwined in front of you as you watch him fight for his position. 
Thankfully, Lando manages to maintain his standing and leaves Lewis behind him for good. The hard compound tyres he was pitted for are giving him a tough time, you know that it is not ideal. Not when he could've lost his position, but with just 10 laps to go your faith in him is over the roof. 
You’re on twitter, refreshing your timeline to see if there is anything you missed. The fans are so enthusiastic, their comments make you smile. Even if there are people out there who don't like Lando, there are even more who love him and want nothing but the best for him. 
You watch as Florence is escorted out of the garage since she will be waving the flag. You watch her face light up in excitement, and in all her excitement she still waves at you. You don't waste a second in waving right back at her, turning your head right after to the screens.
The moment Lando crosses the finish line the McLaren garage erupts in cheers. You hug whoever is next to you, a teary smile pulling at your lips. You cannot help the tears that fall down your face, you usually don't get that emotional during a race, but this is his home race and he is on the podium. If there is any time to cry, this is it. 
You are almost running to the barriers, waiting for the moment that Lando steps out of his car and goes to celebrate with the team. You are wearing his merch, something that will surely stand out to him, enough that in his podium haze he will spot you. 
He goes up to the team, his helmet now long gone, and that is when he sees you.
You who told him you couldn't make it, are suddenly there. 
In a flash he moves in front of you. You cannot tell him anything because in an instant he is grabbing you, squeezing you so tight he lifts you up from the ground in excitement, you giggle right in his ear and he is sure that that is the most beautiful sound he will ever hear. He is careful not to take the barrier with him, not wanting a warning from the stewards.
After a couple seconds you pull back slightly enough to see his face. Your hands waste no time in grabbing his face and placing his lips right over  yours. Lando reacts almost immediately, melting right into the kiss, the adrenaline from the race still pumping through his veins. You can hear some cameras click, and the cheer from some people, but you ignore it.
You have to pull back eventually, not because you want to, but because there is so much to say and not enough time, not to forget the fact that he has yet to go to the podium.
“I cannot believe you’re here.” He whispers right over your lips, his sticky forehead pressed against yours.
“I couldn’t miss this.” You say, watching as his lips pull into a grin.
“I was pretty cool out there, wasn't I?” You snort at his words, separating from him but his hands never leave your waist.
“Oscar was really cool.” His grip on your waist tightens, “I haven’t properly congratulated him yet, actually.”
Someone from the team says something to him, you're sure they're telling him to wrap your conversation up because he has to go up to the podium. 
“You were great out there.” You tell him, your eyes holding all the sincerity in the world. You watch his gaze soften at your words, and he places a quick peck as he finally lets you out of his hold.
“Of course I was,” You shake your head at his smugness, “My lucky charm was here.”
You cannot help the tears that well up in your eyes at the softness of his words. You know that the celebrations and compliments are not over, but for now they are. You step back a little from the barrier, seeing as he is rushed to the podium and joins his fellow drivers on the steps. 
You smile up at him, watching as he grabs the champagne. He moves it around a little and then hits it against the ground, effectively bringing back the iconic champagne spike he does whenever he is on the podium. 
Lando sprays it everywhere, and you're almost sure a little hits you. Your theory is confirmed when he is smiling widely at you, like a kid caught doing something he should but isn't the least bit sorry. You laugh at his antics, which in turn makes him smile even wider (which you're not sure how it's even possible). 
When the champagne runs out, his gaze catches yours once more. You mouth an “I love you” to him, watching from afar as he blushes. A second after he returns the sentiment, mouthing it back and blowing you a kiss.
You thank your boss in your head for letting you be here with him, because if you hadn't been here with him you would've sure felt horrible for it. 
After all, Lando needs his lucky charm with him and you're more than happy to oblige to his wishes.
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twistedtummies2 · 5 months ago
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Leona's Sadism
So, someone sent me...an EXTREMELY long Ask basically questioning why I keep saying Leona is a canonical sadist, and arguing against that fact. Rather than answer the Ask directly, I decided it was best to sort of answer in my own words, since I know I can get pretty long-winded myself. XD I should point out that when I say things like this, I'm partially exaggerating/joking. (Though only partially.) The one thing for sure we can say on that front is that Leona is certainly a canonical jerkface, which is part of why he's fun. To quote an Internet video: "He's a d*ck...but he's a NICE d*ck!" That's why I love him; he's such a colossal ass a lot of the time, but then he'll flip around and show another side, and it's fun. XD HOWEVER, I am only PARTIALLY exaggerating/joking because Leona is, in fact, at least slightly sadistic in the game. There are multiple occasions throughout his appearances in the Main Story, Vignettes, and so on where he will deliberately do things to make people miserable, make people angry, or make people scared. He ENJOYS having that kind of power over others and dangling things before them before snatching it away. He does it a lot, sometimes with comical results, sometimes more severe ones. He also clearly takes pleasure in watching others in pain during his darkest moments, such as the clear relish he showed and the mockery he exhibited when using his Unique Magic on Ruggie. That's certainly a bit more than just being, say, "mischievous," which you could argue in other instances. NOW, OF COURSE, that last example IS a very extreme one: Leona was basically having a mental breakdown at that point (which the Asker did point out, hence why I'm bringing it up), and wasn't totally in control of his emotions or actions. And he DOES seem to regret it at least a little bit in the aftermath. But the point still stands...when pushed to his limits, so to speak, Leona can be EXTREMELY cruel. It's also worth pointing out that this isn't just an inference; OTHER CHARACTERS are fully aware of this in-game. My favorite example is when Azul defends himself at one point (I think he was talking to Jamil, but my memory may be wrong here) by stating that he "doesn't take pleasure in other people's suffering, unlike Leona." Which, of course, is SUCH an ironic statement, since Azul does, in fact, do that...but there IS a key difference. Azul typically only takes pleasure in that when it benefits him in some material manner. He enjoys having power over people, too, and watching them squirm and dance and play his games...but it's specifically because he's getting something out of it that's tangible. Leona just does it because he's a jerk like that. He doesn't get anything out of turning Ruggie to sand, he doesn't get anything out of mocking Idia after ruining his costume, he doesn't get anything out of teasing Azul before destroying the contracts. He literally just ENJOYS doing stuff like that and - with the exception of Ruggie - shows neither remorse nor apology.
Leona can be cruel. And he can ENJOY it when he's cruel. That's sadism, plain and simple. It's not about inflicting physical bodily harm on others, and while it CAN mean one "gets off" on causing others misery, it doesn't necessarily HAVE to mean that: a character can be described as "sadistic" without that specific stipulation. When I say Leona is a sadist, I simply mean it in the sense that he can, in fact, show sadistic tendencies at times. He's not the only one in the cast who's like this, but he IS one of the ones where that part of his personality is a MAJOR character trait that others POINT OUT in the story and dialogue. In terms of my kinky nonsense and weirdness, I basically just take that simple fact - that Leona can be a jerk and, on some level, enjoys watching others feel bad for his own enjoyment - and take it to its natural extreme, so to speak.
I should also point out this makes perfect sense given Leona's source material. A LOT of Disney Villains clearly relish their own evil, and Scar is no exception: there was no REASON to give Mufasa that taunting "Long Live the King" before hurling him to his doom. There was no reason to pretend to still be a kind and caring uncle to Simba before siccing the hyenas onto him (a fact many have argued over time), there certainly wasn't a reason to whisper his little secret into Simba's ear before attempting to kill him. Scar is DEFINITELY a sadistic villain: he enjoys being nasty just because he enjoys it. TL, DR: Leona is a canon sadist in the definition that he can be sadistic in his actions, other characters in-canon are VERY aware of this fact, and there are multiple examples of these points within the game and the manga alike. On top of that, his source inspiration is also a sadistic character, so this makes perfect sense as an element of Leona's own personality. This doesn't mean Leona Kingscholar can't also be nice, or funny, or even cute, and it doesn't mean he necessarily "gets off" on those sadistic actions in the literal sense. But one also shouldn't ignore the fact that he can, in fact, be a big fat meanie-face when he wants to be, for basically no reason at all. I hope I have explained myself with clarity. XD
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quigzahhutt · 1 month ago
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ok so. it's not new years here yet BUT. time for a post
this year I like. literally so much happened. at the start of the year I was neck deep in the DC fandom, and then Persona 3 Reload came out and ruined my life, and then literally a week after finishing the game, my friend Michelle was like. "hey, have you ever heard of F1?" and then subsequently destroyed my life even further. and now I write fanfic?
the trajectory was hey, this Oscar fella is pretty cool. and then it was omg his little American buddy is kinda silly. wow actually Logan's teammate. Logan's teammate. hey do you guys know about Logan's teammate, Alex Albon? he's pretty neat. I think they should kiss
and then as mentioned before, I started writing fanfic this year which was pretty wild? I had literally never written anything like fanfic before like. ever in my life. and its so funny because the idea for my first ever fic was basically in a feverish haze of "what the fuck. there are only 40 or so sargebon fics and I've read them all. well. time to do it myself" and then I did. and now I've posted 15 fics of them since
which is also a crazy thing! I've posted 20 whole fics in just 8 months, which makes these stats all the more insane like ???
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u guys are unbelievable and I literally like. never imagined that anyone would read my silly little fics ever so like. thank u all for the support !! it's so insane idk I never imagined this result, especially in such a short span of time, AND I'm a newbie like. wow. thanks guys :((
and also like the community that I've found myself in is CRAZY like wow. I know so many people now? people who care about me? and who I care about? and who encourage my ideas? and like, are generally just so cool? so like. shoutout to all of my mutuals and followers and just. I would @ everyone who has made an impact on me this year but 1) that would take forever and this post would get way too long and 2) I would forget someone and would feel so so so bad bcuz so many people have been really cool and special to me this year
ANYWAYS. HAPPY NEW YEARS GUYS I LOVE YOU ALL A LOT AND HERE'S TO MANY MORE !!
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arcadianmoonshadowjedi · 1 month ago
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Heya! I just watched the last two episodes and oh yep, that got resolved quickly, and even with a lot of fun haha! I'm satisfied with it as well!
The thing with TDP is, I kinda never know which story element is just a smaller matter that will be resolved within a couple episodes, and which events will be spun into a whole multi-season arc, so... I wanted to talk about the brothers' separation at length in case Ezran decided to keep the grudge for a longer while.
I understood that things were complicated and that Callum was torn between two people he loves. I don't deny that he had reasons other than Rayla and that Ezran was difficult to approach in that moment.
I guess I find myself identifying more with Ezran's position because his world was, in comparison, still faaaar more complex than Callum's. Callum's motives were clear and personal. But Ezran, while having the same personal complexity, also had to keep up a PUBLIC persona on top of this at all times. Plus, he still is barely a teenager, while Callum is now almost an adult (Idk their canon ages).
What I'm trying to say is, I guess, that my brain is heavily influenced by The Queen's Thief book series at the moment, which touches upon the private vs. public image of Royals, their need for ceremonial pretense, their need to stay guarded and their struggle with trust, in a much more detailed and weighty way than TDP does. Also, the King's status as an absolute and representative figure is much more emphasized. With this in mind, Callum is an ass for abandoning the Child King who is his brother who just experienced the catastrophe of having his Capital destroyed who is not doing well emotionally because he just had to look into the eyes of his father's murderer for the first time since it happened.
I know, I know, I know. It all wasn't that bad, it worked out fine, the feelings they harbored weren't that destructive to their relationship or maybe the overall end-of-the-world threat they were facing helped them to put the scene at the river behind them. Also, Ezran had Aanya and held his spirits, and was ingenious enough to think forward even without any of his other allies present. He was his own person (something he learned in a previous season, I believe) and so I am proud of him for standing strong. TDP isn't TQT. Still I'm grateful for its behind-the-scenes look into a complex Royal experience because it helps me interpret depth into my fave boi Ezran.
Thank you for responding! The brothers are good, even Rayla apologized, Runaan stated his case and Ezran let go of his resentment, it's all good in the archipelahood. The river scene simply caught my attention because I thought the dynamic it provoked was suuuper fascinating.
Cheers!
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Definitely decided to finish another rewatch esp since I started my first watch at 3am before answering. I would disagree about calling Callum an ass though because he wasn’t planning on leaving his brother at first, he did try being a mediator between him and Rayla and had an entire conversation with him before things escalated as elaborated in my previous answer. Callum only chose to leave when he felt like Ezran wasn’t going to hear him out and saw that he was even willing to escalate violence against both Rayla and Runaan. If anything, Callum staying not only would’ve resulted in him getting arrested, but his relationship with Ezran would’ve become more strained especially if Callum wouldn’t have able to do anything besides nod to everything his brother was doing even if he disagreed. Like I’m not saying that Callum handled the situation perfectly or ideally, but he does tend to act in the heat of the moment, depending on what the situation demands of him often without much prior planning or thought. If anything, I think the time they spent apart helped them cool off things between them and realize how much the two needed each other. I might actually make a separate post on this whole topic going into further detail about all this and the complexity of the whole situation from each character’s stance and perspective.
Thanks for the ask and I hope this answered more of your question 😊
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ts3-rauh · 12 days ago
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Requests and commissions
My page started to grow (and thanks to all of you, I love you folks, you flatter me <3) and I got asked about taking commissions, so I had to think how I would want to approach it
Untill now I did conversions only when I felt like it and what I will use in my personal save, so basically I just shared what I did for myself and I still have a table of personal plans, but now I understand that eventually people will want me to convert something specific before the queue, which probably I on my own will convert years later if not never, ignoring it for the reason "I don't see my sims wearing it".
I am not here to monetize of the work and creative labour of others, so the only way i see it justified - if you SUPPORT CREATORS OF ORIGINAL MODELS, and If you want to commision me - after I confirm I can do it - I will ASK FOR PROOF, for example, screenshots of donating to creator's ko-fi, patreon paid level of subscription etc. and after that you are free to decide what tip you would like to leave me for my part in bringing asked cc to The Sims 3.
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Note that my main purpose is to support The Sims 3 community in general, so commisioned cc will be posted on my page free to download and use for everyone
What I do and don't do
I specialize in hair convertions from TS4, mainly clayfied
2. Some creators don't allow conversions and I will not go behind their back for it.
3. I don't convert cc created by citizens of the country that is destroying mine.
4. A few clayfied hairs may look bad in TS3 sharp lighting, so I will tell about it, but will complete conversion if you are okay with how it looks, cause maybe it's just my brain shinanigans
5. I don't know yet how to convert from other games and I don't do hairs higher that 20k poly for several reasons:
-It doesn't belong in sims, I don't want to be responsible for someone's GPU shortening it's life-span and lags/freezes/crushes
-TSRW on my computer screams and dies when I try to put anything too high poly for the game here
BUT I can try to lower polycount for asked high poly hairstyle and manage to do conversion. It's just I can not guarantee the result, all will depend on how given hair will cooperate (sometimes I can just lower poly density, sometimes I have to delete some hair strands and there is no other way around) and how my TSRW will react to it.
Quantity
For bulks I for now will start with up to 5 in one go to not become overwhelmed, since my perfectionism makes the process very time consuming.
Time
The perfectionism, yeah. One complex (in mapping, has nothing to do with appearance) hairstyle for both genders and different age groups can take me up to two days. But why so long?
-I add chunks of undersides if the hair doens't have them and is transparent around forehead (It's not artist's fault, ts4 and ts3 heads have different geometry)
-Manually rig hair longer than shoulders for smooth movement
-Make ALL LODs, icluding the last one, and each is different for game optimization (except for my earliest conversions, for every cc I do LOD0 and LOD1 are also different)
-Make a lot of adjustments in general
Price
Just how you feel about it to make me and original creator happier :D
My ko-fi
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lupercals · 15 days ago
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How do I write someone with bpd? I know it's not canon but like I'm absorbing that headcanon
The best i can say is to research and read people's experience but ill explain some of my own :^)
Under cut cuz this might be long + talk about bpd idk if it's triggering for anyone so better safe than sorry
People with BPD have constant strong mood swings, it can be due to a trigger or just happen randomly and we can go from extremely excited to empty or from sad to happy etc you can probably guess this but it's absolutely out of our control and we can't do much besides try to change the mood to a positive one again. For me usually it's triggered, like im happy and then i see something that upsets me and then get sad or angry or jealous, it usually lasts for a few hours so i have to spend the time trying to distract myself with music or doing something i enjoy, it doesn't always helps but most of the time it does.
Like i said there there's this specific thing a lot of people with bpd experience which is feeling empty, im not sure how to explain it well but to me at least it's like i become numb to all of my feelings and everything just feels dead, the feeling of numbness isn't calming at all and to me at least its definitely not better than feeling sad, it's an emptiness that usually makes me desperate to feel anything again and makes me do bad things to get that result, i really do imagine Ren would be the same and either trigger himself or hurt someone/destroy something for the rush of it, self harm is a very common symptom of bpd, it can come in multiple different ways too be it cutting, hitting yourself, drinking, smoking, practicing unsafe sex, etc
Another thing that is pretty common between people with borderline (at least from my experience and from what ive seen others with bpd say) is the desperate need for attention and affection, it's haunting, really. It never leaves and it never feels like it'll ever be satisfied, and people usually can go very far just to try and get that attention they crave so deeply, this is something i see a lot in Ren, so many of his actions were out of the desperation to have something, to feel something, to be loved, to be adored. It's something he rarely experienced considering his childhood + his lack of friends and getting kidnapped, plus, he admits that he loves Strade and if I remember correctly he does say in btd that Strade was the only one who showed him love, he also literally eats Strade's heart to have a part of him forever. This attention seeking behavior never left Ren, neither did the desperation to be loved, this can be seen even in Fox who risks his entire career and reputation as soon as mc showed him the slightest bit of genuine affection, his desperation to keep them alive after the 3rd show when you beg for his attention and love affected him so deeply he was willing to lose it all to have you. (So real king!!!)
With bpd there are also fps, it means favorite person, and it's people who people with bpd are emotionally attached to and rely on for comfort and support, this doesn't seem to bad right? The problem is that for a lot of us we experience extreme reactions to our fps having positive interactions with anyone who isn't us, this happens for a lot of reasons, abandonment issues, our lack of emotional permanence (which ill be getting into soon), insecurities, trauma, etc. I personally fully believe Strade was possibly Ren's first fp and the attention Strade gave him only fed this obsession and dependence he had developed for Strade, I also believe Lawrence could possibly turn into an fp or have been one in the ending where he doesn't kill Lawrence but that's harder to tell, mc also could be one in the endings where you stay alive with him.
Little note here; a person with bpd can have a healthy relationship with an fp, it's all about boundaries and communication but this is ren hana we're talking about he doesn't know how to do these things
Fear of abandonment is such a huge thing good god it's genuinely terrifying a lot of us experience it so much because bpd affects relationships heavily and makes it extremely hard to form lasting bonds for multiple different reasons, this is more personal but i feel it's so hard to make friends because when someone shows interest in me i become so emotional i try so hard to please them and show them in worth sticking around and usually end up pushing them away erm awkward but i feel like this would happen with Ren too, becoming too obsessed with pleasing someone that he ends up displeasing them and at the display of that he panics and either leaves or he makes the person leave (leaning more on the first option considering that ending where he runs away after discussing with you)
Lack of emotional permanence, ok so like for me this is genuinely the worst of all, basically if we're not being shown affection and love constantly our brains convince us that it's no longer there or that it has never exited all together, this makes it really hard to form bonds because you may act impulsively and block someone out of fear of getting hurt or you may upset then by constantly asking for reassurance or any other reasons, i don't remember if in game we have any display of this so i won't talk about it related to Ren and just related to bpd because this is a big thing in our community too
Having an unstable view of yourself is extremely common too, someone with bpd might think they're a good person one day and then be convinced they're a monster the next, at least in my eyes Ren struggles with that a lot, besides also struggling with knowing who he truly is which id say is a common feeling between people who have bpd as well, in game we even see him switch personas to better fit the mc's actions, he wants to please them so desperately he changes himself to see if it'll make them stay with him, and to a very interesting detail in that switch is how depressive his actual self (the one with the gray hoodie) acts in contrast to his Strade persona, his Captive persona and the way he was acting in front of Lawrence and Mc, he's a scared insecure person underneath his confident act, someone who craves love and closeness and affection like the air he breathes but has no idea how to acquire it since all he's ever known is pain and violence.
There's a lot more to bpd but i feel like this is a decent-ish start? I really recommend researching more :^) Also remember not every person with bpd has the same experience this is written based off my symptoms, my experiences and the experiences ive see other people with bpd report and also an analysis on Ren's behavior based on the symptoms of bpd, hope this helped at all sorry for my bad writing ^^
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meloms-ao3 · 7 months ago
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[AO3 Specific] I know that this issue has been talked about a lot already, but I want to say something about it too, as I fell into this trap a few days ago.
Hits👏 and👏 Kudos 👏don’t 👏define👏 how 👏good 👏your 👏work 👏is. Period.
I catch myself staring at the hits-and-kudos counter on my newer and older fanfics an awful lot these days. And as soon as something that I am very proud of doesn’t get as many kudos/hits as I hoped for, I get sad. 
This is not to say that we aren’t allowed to feel sad about that! It’s a normal reaction, and don’t let anyone tell you that you are “too sensitive“ or that you “care too much“ about that. Of course, we are allowed to care about that, we all want and need some sort of validation for the work we put into a fic at the end of the day.
Now what happened with me though, was that I let those low hits/kudos take over my motivation, almost destroying it. 
The thought “Why even bother writing when people won’t like it enough to give kudos anyway?“ was like a little gremlin in my mind, biting and punching down on my motivation.
What did I do to get away from those thoughts? I closed all my writing folders, put away my writing paper and didn’t open Ao3 for a day. 
Don’t get me wrong, I love Ao3, I love writing. But even a hobby you love and adore can make you feel bad at times. Especially when you feel like you are not succeeding in it. 
Results from this self-prescribed detox: 
I opened Ao3 again and instead of being sad about those 2 kudos I went “Hm, nice.“
Distancing myself from writing, though it was only for one day, kind of pulled me back into my preferred mindset [which is: Not everything is for everyone]. This will obviously not work for everyone, but I felt like I could share it since it might help one person out there who is in a similar situation as me.
All our fics are special, all our fics are valid and don't let yourself get discouraged!
Sending much love to all the writers out there ❤️
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ray935sworld · 1 month ago
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OH MY GOD, HELLO, MOM, I'M ON TV. I would like to thank everyone who helped me achieve such a great result! I was even given a tag, 😭 I’m crying, God, I’ve already managed to convince myself that it was too intrusive. Thank you for such a detailed answer, it’s so sweet.🌹
«Like "Everything Rossi related = bad = danger" and Luca got unjustified caught up in it.» - I've been desperately trying to formulate something like this, SO YES, I absolutely agree.
Besides, it always seemed to me that in his opposition to Vale, Luca obviously remains without much support. I sincerely love academy boys, but to be honest, from all of them only Peco has the strength and real understanding of this situation, but he doesn't seem ready or doesn't want to argue, maybe he just doesn't like the idea of confrontation with someone. (Especially with Vale, because he is literally considered the heir of Valentino, his disciple, and destroying this illusion of an ideal mentor will destroy his mental state. Although he is obviously aware of the unpleasant truth of this story, he clings to this myth, while carefully trying to avoid a direct clash with Marc, as this obviously contradicts his moral code. An honest player. It's obviously easier for him that way. Can I blame him for that? I don't know, to be honest).
I love Bez, he's a crazy cute little gremlin, but he eats Valentino's words for breakfast lunch and dinner and really thinks Marc is some kind of evil (maybe it's not that bad, he's probably a little confused, there's even a Pecco influence here. But their relationship with Marc is complicated in the the strangest sense of the word. Incredibly interesting to explore. I think that when the dust settles, they can even be friends, it's hard not to love Bez, he's so ridiculously stupid, but sincere and sunny, he and Marc are so similar in this. I also don't rule out that Bez secretly admires Marc, kind of "he's a terrible villain, but soooo damn cool, I hate him").
And there's Cele, my beloved suffering boy, who clearly won't be appreciated, so his word doesn't mean anything at all. I even think that he will have a strong mutual sympathy with Mags after all (I love the idea of his endless little arguments with Vale and the fact that he is the least susceptible to hatred for Marc, because he was too young and direct to understand the reasons for this behavior, I imagine how he even loudly admires Marc at the ranch during training in the presence of Valentino, and Bez and Peссo tell him to be quiet and not to say stupid things. And he's like, oh yeah. The elephant in the room. Why is he here all the time?). So yes, Marc obviously likes the little provocateur right away, I think he will even take care of him a little more, which Cele will greatly appreciate.
Therefore, it seems to me that when Luca tries to talk to Vale somehow (before their serious conversation with Marс), he is obviously brushed off or laughed off or downplayed by the extent of the problem, and since he is in the minority, he has nothing to cover. He remains unheard (although I think Vale NOTICES this, as well as the fact that he fails to deceive Luca in a sense, but so far, it's probably not such a big problem)
Perhaps, by the way, because of the manipulation, Luca also doesn't quite understand what really HUGE damage Marc has done because of all this. The conversation obviously puts everything in place. Highlights dark spots. Arguments in disputes are getting tougher, now the truth is known to everyone. Valentino has to actually hear it and (OH, HORROR) think about it.
OMG MOM! MOM SOMEONE THINKS I'M COOL! MOM LOOK AT THE LOVELY MESSAGE I GOT!
Okay to be fair I don't think the academy boys were actually in a position to disagree. I mean Luca as Vale's brother is/ was probably a lot more free since he knew that Vale would support him even if he privately disagrees with what he did in 2015 and the next years. Like Vale loves Luca. And Idk if it's just a projection of mine but even it isn't as visible I can't imagine them not having a close sibling bond even with the age gap. (Like Vale as a star literally going with his then 5 year old brother to those baby races and him just grinning and smiling when kid Luca was on the garage. Kid Luca had a kids shirt during one of Vale's championship celebration. LIKE COME ON. they are close! I can't be the only one) so obviously Vale would support his baby brother. But a bunch of kids that had only been the academy for a year or even less with no/ not yet/ not a strong emotional bond? It would be pretty easy to kick them out again and cut the support so I can imagine that that is a big reason why none of the academy kids spoke up. Plus they were literal teenager, most around 17-21, not yet in MotoGP so realisticly none of them would speak up to not lose the favor of the famous, magnificent, legendary Valentino Rossi and instead just go along and show their support.
And as soon as you tell certain lies long enough you believe them so I 100% can see Pecco accidentally gaslighting himself in the we hate Marc agenda. Bez is running ahead at that point ngl. He is a crazy fan girl listening to EVERYTHING Vale says. But Bez can't help but admit that Marc is successful. So it's like you said this "He's so cool. I hate him. He's maestro, I wanna kick him off his bike and make it look like an accident" like father like son.
Cele saying stuff like "OMG did you saw that overtake from Marc against Acosta? That was sick! How did he do it?" And Pecco just pushed his elbow in his stomach with the biggest "SHUT THE FUCK UP" look and Cele is like 🤨😐😬 ups.
And Franky has been dealing with Vale too long. Like since the end of 2000s early 2010. So he excatly knows how Vale is doing what and he just wisely deciding to be a neutral party like "Not my monkey not my circus" and since it's Franky, Vale actually let's him.
And oooh I love the idea of a confrontation talk. I thinks it's something like Luca really trying to get to the bottom of this and keep asking Vale questions like "Why do you think he lied about you being his childbood hero? Why do you think he wanted Lorenzo to win? Why do you think he wants to beat your 9 championships? Why is that so bad? Why are you destroying your own legacy with this? Why do you wanna go down in history as an old man unable to adapt to being beaten and instead accept/ prefer to be remembered as the 9 time champions whose conspiracies were more crazy than any overtake?" And Vale just sits there slowly running out if answers cause normally his arguments went in circuls but THIS.
And then Luca leaves him to think about it and slowly everything sinks in. I think Luca is the key element. Like when your little baby brother tells you, your actions are pathetic and points out why, you maybe stop thinking. Because Yeah, Vale is a hero too many. To the academy boys. To most of tbe young riders. And a million anonoums people. But at the end of the day an older brother always wants their little sibling to like and admire them. And I think it's the hurt in Lucas eyes and the clear disappointment about how his older brother went down, that will be the ultimate wake up call for Vale.
Anyway that's just some quick thoughts, hope you liked them
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erinelliotc · 10 months ago
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A tip I give as a listener and music lover: don't give up on songs after listening to them for the first time.
You know, one thing I've learned from my experience listening to music (and which I'm confirming even more now that I've started listening to Will Wood) is that sometimes it's not that you think the song is bad or meh, sometimes you just haven't listened to it enough. Sometimes it's not that you don't like the song, you might actually like it and just not be in the mood to listen to it at that exact moment. And especially if you're listening to several songs at once for the first time, you may not absorb them all well, so it's important to listen to them again other times.
This happened to me with a lot of The Living Tombstone songs. I'd listen to a song for the first time and think "That was kind of weird, I didn't like it very much", or "That wasn't bad but it wasn't good either", then I'd decide to listen to it a few more times, usually at other times, and then I'd start to LOVE the song.
Now this is happening to me with Will Wood.
Before going to the main topic I'll contextualize the following: I discovered Will Wood through "I / Me / Myself" on TikTok (don't judge me I'm trans okay 😭 this song means a lot to me. This is still my most listened song of his so far, but "Front Street", my favorite Will Wood song, is almost taking the top spot) because of an edit (made by @flowerpuff09) with Double D from "Ed, Edd n Eddy" (my biggest hyperfixation) and it immediately became a song I listened to every day almost all the time for many weeks and I even made 4 Eddy edits with this song (first I realized that the song on Spotify wasn't exactly the same as the one in the edit, and then I discovered that there was a demo version and an official version, and I ended up loving both equally in different ways). So in another Ed, Edd n Eddy edit on TikTok, this time an Eddy edit, I discovered "The Main Character" and loved it, and then I discovered that it was ANOTHER fucking Will Wood song! At that moment I thought I should listen to the rest of his songs because it was already the second song of his that I loved, and so I did.
The first time I listened to all of his songs (January 30th), I added to a playlist the songs that I felt I really liked from the first time I listened to them. If you're curious to know what songs they were here's the list so you can judge me (observation: I listen to the 2015 "Everything is a Lot" album except Aikido and EIAL / Destroy to Enjoy, and to the 2020 Remastered Version of SELF-iSH):
6up 5oh Cop-Out (Pro / Con)
Skeleton Appreciation Day in Vestal, NY (Bones)
Front Street
Thermodynamic Lawyer Esq, G.F.D.
Chemical Overreaction / Compound Fracture
Cotard's Solution (Anatta, Dukkha, Anicca)
Hand Me My Shovel, I'm Going In!
Suburbia Overture / Greetings from Mary Bell Township! / (Vampire) Culture / Love Me, Normally
2econd-2ight-2eer (that was fun, goodbye.)
I / Me / Myself [demo]
I / Me / Myself [official]
…well, better than the alternative
Outliars and Hyppocrates: a fun fact about apples
BlackBoxWarrior – OKULTRA
Marsha, Thankk You for the Dialectics, but I Need You to Leave.
Love, Me Normally
Memento Mori: the most important thing in the world
Your Body, My Temple
When Somebody Needs You [Song]
Tomcat Disposables
The Main Character
Against the Kitchen Floor
Willard!
Then I listened to my 23-song playlist non-stop for almost 3 weeks. And even the songs I already liked seemed to get better over time after listening to them more times, like "Marsha, Thankk You for the Dialectics, but I Need You to Leave.".
One day while reading Reddit, I saw some people commenting about not listening to "Euthanasia" because it was too sad, then I decided to watch the "Euthanasia" music video and ended up crying and loving the song, so I added it to my playlist. 2 weeks later, I added "Mr. Capgras Encounters a Secondhand Vanity: Tulpamancer's Prosopagnosia/Pareidolia (As Direct Result of Trauma to the Fusiform Gyrus)" to my playlist too after giving it another listen and really liking it (I was trying to increase the number of songs on this album because I felt sad listening to only 3 songs, even though it's a small album). A few days later I added "Ferryman" and "The First Step" after watching a video compiling the best parts of Will Wood's songs. Almost a week later I decided to give the "Everything is a Lot" album another listen and then I added "White Knuckle Jerk (Where Do You Get Off?)", "(Cover This Song) A Little Bit Mine" and "Lysergide Daydream". I also added "Venetian Blind Man (Song)" after seeing someone on Reddit say it was an underrated song, listening to it again and realizing it really was.
And something unusual happened. Somewhere in the middle of all this I also removed "BlackBoxWarrior – OKULTRA" because even though I liked it the first time I listened to it, it became a song I kept skipping, then I realized I didn't like it that much (please don't kill me. I know a lot of people love this one, but I found it to be my least favorite on "The Normal Album"). Whether I like or dislike a song ends up being about the sound, not the lyrics, mainly because English isn't my first language, so I end up not caring that much about the lyrics. It's not that the lyrics aren't important to me, what happens to me is:
If I like the sound of a song, and the lyrics also talk about something I like, identify with or find important, the lyrics come as a bonus so I like the song even more
If I like the sound of a song, but the lyrics have nothing to do with me, the song is still just as good for me
If I don't like the sound of a song, but the lyrics talk about something I like, identify with or find important, it doesn't change anything for me, it doesn't make me enjoy listening to the song one bit
Basically, the lyrics make songs I already like better for me, but they don't make a song I don't like better, or a song I like worse.
Fun fact involving me not being a native English speaker: besides Will's lyrics being very abstract in general, I'm also not fluent in English and I never made any effort to pay attention to his lyrics either, so I had no idea what "Tomcat Disposables" was about. But every time I heard it, I became inexplicably extremely sad and melancholic and even teared up even without knowing what he was talking about. One day I decided to look for the meaning and now I know that it made perfect sense to be sad about this song, and of course now I feel even sadder than before listening to this song. He did a really good job of making the melody capture the sad feeling of the story.
So from March 15th until the day before yesterday (for 1 month), I listened to this playlist of now 30 songs. So the day before yesterday I decided to listen to his albums again, and now I just added one song after another. The more I listen to his songs, the more I realize that I actually really like them. The songs that were added practically all at once were:
¡Aikido! (Neurotic/Erotic)
Everything Is a Lot
Destroy to Enjoy
2012
The Song with Five Names, a.k.a. Soapbox Tao, a.k.a. Checkmate Atheists! a.k.a. Neospace Government, a.k.a. You Can Never Know
Dr. Sunshine is Dead
Laplace's Angel (Hurt People? Hurt People!)
Cicada Days
That's Enough, Let's Get You Home
Um, I Mean, It's Kind of a Lot
Half-Decade Hangover
Vampire Reference in a Minor Key
Sex, Drugs, Rock 'n' Roll
White Noise
Yes, I like "Destroy to Enjoy" more than "BlackBoxWarrior – OKULTRA", leave me alone. And yes, it took me a while to like "Laplace's Angel (Hurt People? Hurt People!)". It's my second least favorite song on "The Normal Album", but it's still good enough for me to put on my playlist. I swear, I REALLY wanted to like this song more, considering that "The Lorax" and especially the Once-ler were hyperfixations of mine in 2021. And yes, it took me a while, but now I love "The Song with Five Names [etc etc insert 4 more names here ...]". "Cicada Days" also finally got a special place in my heart, but the one I'm listening to most from the album "In case I make it," is "That's Enough, Let's Get You Home", the ending really touches me.
Anyway, now I have a playlist of 44 songs. I may still add more, but in general I'll enjoy listening to all of his songs (except "You Liked This (Okay, Computer)" and generally those that are only instrumental), even the ones I don't consider favorites (the ones that aren't on my playlist).
Then that's it. Give a second, third, fourth listen to that song you didn't like. It might even become a song you love and listen to all the time.
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You want to talk about doomed payjay sooo badly. I went on a huge rant about it yesterday and im curious to see what you think about it (also thank you for causing the payjay nickel incident that killed me)
YOU BET I DO!!! also im glad my superchat affected so many payjay fans, i find the result of it quite amusing
my favourite kind of doomed payjay is when their mental illnesses intersect... it's also fun to exaggerate them. ive found a lot of people like delusionally jealous oj? whenever i bring it up people get excited. to clarify, it's. pretty much just yanderizing oj LOL! here's some of the issues that can occur with delusional jealousy (disclaimer: i don't believe oj would ever do these. this is just a way i like to explore his character and push his jealousy and possessiveness to extremes for fun! at the very most, oj would fantasize about this, but he'd try to push the thoughts of it away because he'd think it makes him a bad person.)
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ive been wanting to draw some of this for funsiessss. make that man go crazy bonkers insane like im monika ddlc turning up The Yandere Dial on yuri
another thing that's fun to explore is paper's need for attention!! my friend is better at explaining and detecting paper's hpd than i am, but i still notice some symptoms and scenarios myself: paper making a big deal about getting possibly eliminated while sitting on the bench, paper dramatically telling oj to go on without him then getting upset when he Does That, paper socializing quite a bit and generally being pretty extroverted, etc. and that can be. fun to think about! mind you i think more about oj's npd and bpd but i, of course, love paper a lot too. my friend suggested this, but paper feeding into oj's obsession (paper is oj's fp to be clear, umm i can give proof if someone wants?) to get attention & fucking things up just so he has to fix it and help him and Observe him is fun to consider. there's also the fact paper is bullied and shunned pretty often both in ii1 (remember apple) and in the hotel (they canonically just. destroy things. and paper has to fix them), and he's often not given attention other than to be useful... which kinda explains paper's eagerness to help in canon! id say it started off with paper trying to help people a lot in ii1, then they got used to it and started to assume he'd help all the time in the hotel, which he just went with because it's The Only Time they give him attention. also is why he canonically likes to cook :) he loves the reception it gets!
i like divorced payjay, but i don't think it would happen realistically. they're together for life. it definitely gets hard sometimes (they're both Suffering in general) but they're never ever Ever going to give up on each other. and that's beautifullll ahh my little Worms
um. i just realized i rambled more about their respective mental illnesses than doomed payjay LOL welllll it causes problems in their relationship ok
if you want you can send me an ask rambling about doomed payjay... id love to see what you were ranting about yesterday!
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forthedancingandthethriving · 7 months ago
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Thinking about the Abyss Time Travel Arc idea you had in these posts (think it's awesome by the way) and thought to myself "what if after they stop it the timeline isn't completely back to normal?" Like, they made sure the changes it wanted didn't happen, but a lot of crazy shit happened while they were in the past so a few things are... not necessarily Bad, in fact a few are pretty Good, but mostly they're just...Different. (also anyone who was involved in the arc remembers the old timeline but not the new one Because Rules of Time Travel)
As a few examples of possible New Timeline Changes:
Toad's house and 3's Coffee & Bombs have swapped locations, which is the first sign that things aren't completely back to normal.
Bob got elected mayor of New Donk City during Bob's Last Stand. Somebody faints from this revelation.
Mario and Peach are engaged, which is a bit awkward since they only just got back together during the arc but thankfully doesn't cause any real drama since they both remember the old timeline.
Melony actually managed to free Axol in the Zero WotFI and they've been a couple ever since. This does cause drama since Melony was involved in the arc and now has to deal with essentially replacing the version of her that succeeded where she failed. So that's more guilt on top of the guilt she's already been dealing with the past few years for losing him in the first place.
Instead of being completely destroyed Movie Mario managed to survive as a string of code like Juliano and Gohma did and managed to reconstitute as a Duplighost months ago. No one knows this, so he's been free to scheme under everyone's noses. (this doesn't necessarily have to be a result of the timeline changing but with the way it's revealed to the audience it's heavily implied to be)
"Think its awesome by the way" :D
BUT OOOOOOO!!! I love all of these a lot,, especially with Melony saving Axol. Ooooooh, the angst,,,,,,
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7surreality7 · 5 months ago
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Jimin on AYS
For a good part of episode 1 of AYS, I had this irresistible urge to pull out Jimin's beanie and throw it far, far away so that he could never get it back. That beanie does him NO favor I swear apart from keeping him warm obviously but, well, is that important though? Is it truly necessary, Jimin? Could you not just get rid of it and let our audience benefit from the full view of your dazzling face, the enviable porcelain skin, and your gorgeous hair! Bear a little cold weather for us, can you?
Jokes apart, I feel that for some reason he wanted to keep it exactly that way. Sure, this is only my opinion but, in the first episode, it seemed like he wasn't all in there. Something was holding him back. He probably was unsure about this whole thing for reasons best known to him. On top of it, he also suffered agonizing tummy issues, got randomly hit on the nose by JK's elbow which resulted in excruciating pain for the entire night, and got annoyingly bitten all over by all the mosquitoes during trekking. Jimin was just about holding on and kept going due to his commitment to the show but physically and mentally he wasn't all in. No surprise then that he wondered aloud many times during the trip whether this was a good idea or complained that this wasn't what he was expecting from the trip. Also, the reason why he kind of hid himself under that beanie, probably. 
The good thing though? As the show progresses, we see him loosen up, feel better, and be more at ease. In all the following episodes, we see him truly letting go and having a good time. By the end of the fourth episode he even declared that he was sure about doing this! . 
A few Jimin-related thoughts I had during and after watching the episodes till now, in no particular order:
Jimin is proud of his car parking skills and is critical of other people's parking skills. He judges a driver as good or bad based on how well they maneuver the car while parking, according to his standards, lol. I would FAILLL miserably.
You might have come across the theory that your bias is your bias because they're the most like you. Or because you see yourself in them. I do believe that it is very true. I have believed it for a while now but I am more convinced after watching Jimin in the show. In episode 1, when JK and he are eating something at the brewery, JK starts analyzing how that particular snack would have been made and then proceeds to say something like this can be made easily and kind of starts explaining how to. Here Jimin laughs and remarks that he admires JK for his type of approach. Whereas, if he were to find something that was a lot to his liking, the first thought in his mind would be how he needs to earn more money so that he can buy a lot of that stuff. Hahahaha. Seriously, Jimin? That's the thought in your head? I mean, you are a multi-millionaire aren't you? You can easily afford things. But, how adorable and just how relatable was he? Omg, I died laughing at that moment when it struck me why Jimin is my bias because this would have been my exact same thought as well.
Jimin makes me want to pull his cheeks and go so kiyowo! multiple times. How the hell is he so different in real life from his on-stage, fire-in-his-eyes, will-destroy-you-with-just-one-glance, sensual performer image? One of those mysteries of the world that might remain unsolved. 
Why does Jimin get so surprised when someone recognizes them? Does his self-confidence also undergo a magical change just like his appearance when he's not on stage? But, like I said , the theory of your bias being the most like you? I get him. I do. I am nowhere comparing myself to JM here but I am him, seriously. Thinking that you are not good enough even when the whole world is practically worshipping you for being so good at what you do, ha!
Jimin loves, loves LOVES to baby both JK and V. However, Tae lets him, whereas JK resists. I have observed that JK prefers to project a grown-up and macho image of himself and most times he doesn't want to be babied by JM. Several times during the show he has reacted by saying "I am fine" or "you don't have to do that" or "it's okay" to the various approaches taken by Jimin to baby him as a way to stop JM from doing so, lol. Yes, JK, we get it. You are all grown up now. 
I think Jimin loves the idea of getting old. Several times on multiple occasions, he has mentioned how he turns 30 soon and how his body is not the same as before. But to me, it seems as though he is rather looking forward to being in his 30s and cannot wait to leave his 20s behind. He is looking forward to a more stable, laidback lifestyle in his 30s as opposed to the supremely hectic and constantly on-the-go one that he and the boys have led in their 20s.  Again, this is just my opinion as a fan, which I have formed by paying close attention to his words and the way he talks about this whole age issue.
I could go on and on but then this post would never end.
ciao!
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artemis-is-an-idiot · 6 months ago
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I posted this on my twitter but its not very often I am inspired to do deep dives into things so I thought I post it here too. For context, someone posted a twitter tread talking about Winx Club and its influence on future media. In that thread, there were a few untrue statements that upset people. One of which was about Sailor Moon.
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This started a feud between Sailor Moon fans and Winx Club fans, and as fandom do, they resulted to pointing out the problematic flaws of each show. This once again, dregs up the "Sailor Moon endorses incest" argument. I kinda have an issue with that statements so I took it upon myself to give the proper context for that scene. My tweet was as follows;
In light of this Winx club/Sailor moon thread I want to talk about the "incest promotion" in Sailor Moon. Is there an incest kiss? yes, actually there's 2. Is it promoted as a good thing? NO. I do not condone incest in any way shape or form but there is context behind the kiss in sailor moon that explains it. Sailor Moon in no way states that what happens is a good thing.
To give context, the kiss in question is between Mamoru (father) and Chibi Usa (daughter). Chibi Usa travels to the past in an attempt to save her millennium from being destroyed.
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Even though she is technically 900 years old (no this is not one of those arguments) she is still physically and emotionally a child.
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She is about 5 years old when she first travels to the past. and guess what, that's usually the age where daughters love their fathers and want to marry them in future. their father is their main representation of men and how relationships work. She admires her mother and wants to be like her but also feels distant from her and she is constantly teased that she is nothing like her and not a true heir. this leads her to steal the silver crystal, inadvertently causing the downfall of the future millennium.
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When she travels to the past she is guilt ridden, all the while still having complex feelings about her parents. Usagi isn't how she thought her mother would be based on people told her about her, and she actually finds Usagi more relatable, but she doesn't show it in front of her. Mamoru stays fairly consistent in personality in both past and future, so he says like the same father to Chibi Usa. Chibi Usa still loves her father and she also enjoys antagonising Usagi over it.
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The events that lead to the kiss are as follows, Chibi Usa ends up taking the group to the future and explaining what happened and revealing who she is. A lot of stuff happens and Chibi Usa ends up running off into the time vortex by herself because she feels that no one needs her. In her weakest moment she is manipulated by wiseman (the bad guy) and given a corrupted version of her 5 year old dreams.
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Mamoru, upon finding out she has run away, naturally chases after trying to make sure she is safe. Unfortunately for him, he can't go one arc without getting brain washed by the bad people, it is chronic. He is brainwashed and now does whatever Chibi Usa (Now Black Lady) tells him to do. In her childish mind, she wanted to possess her father and now she has been given the power to do so. In no way shape or form is this a consensual kiss between father and child.
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Sailor Moons greatest strength is her love, but it is also her biggest weakness. Black Lady knows this and flaunts her "relationship" with Mamoru in front of her to shake her, hence kiss.
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None of this is consensual or portrayed as "good". It is a portrayal of a child's complicated feelings being manipulated for someone else's benefit.
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willel · 2 years ago
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The problem I see is that most ppl who are currently asking for interactions/conversations between Joyce and Jonathan tend actually to have a narrow and somewhat distorted perception of their relationship, and that’s mainly constructed from Jonathan’s alleged perspective, btw. I think that’s the point other people are now reacting to.
But do you not see why people might be framing this from Jonathan's perspective right now in the grand scheme of things?
In season 1, Joyce's character was fixated on her boys , Hopper, the government, and supernatural plot.
Season 2, Joyce was fixated on Will, Bob, a bit of Hopper, the government, and the supernatural plot.
Season 3, Joyce was fixated on Hopper, the Soviets, and a dash of the supernatural plot at the end.
In season 4, Joyce was fixated on Hopper and the Soviet plot.
As a fan of the Byers family overall, you gotta think, "In what way can you bring back the family dynamic in an interesting way that won't lead to complete disaster, but can be tense with a little drama but the outcome would be overwhelming good?"
So then you look at her boys which she's been separated from for 2 seasons.
For Will, it's pretty easy. He has his sexuality arc going on right now. Although Will didn't outright say it, Jonathan made it super duper clear he already knows and accepts him.
We know Joyce is gonna accept him too and I'm sure HE knows that as well, but it still takes a lot of courage to come out and say it to someone. Even if he doesn't, would be nice for his mom to give him a similar or maybe even more obvious pep talk about how she loves him no matter what. Could apply to both his sexuality and maybe whatever supernatural stuff he's going to go through.
Joyce and Will are easy and done with.
Now you look at Jonathan. What is Jonathan dealing with? He's literally destroying his life because he feels personally responsible for taking care of his family. He lied to his family and girlfriend about school and is letting everything crumble around him.
So then, as someone who loves the Byers family, how might some Byers family moments fix this?
I think the obvious answer would be Joyce finding out he lied about the school situation since she's been anxiously waiting for his college acceptance letter while he's at high school. I think it's obvious upon finding that out, she would confront her son. I think it's obvious when poked even a little bit, all of Jonathan's troubles would come spilling out whether he wants them to or not.
I can't say how fast that subplot would be resolved after it all gets out in the open, but without a doubt I think the result would be exactly as they were in season 1. Even when they were bickering or Joyce was scolding him it always resulted in hugs and understanding (ESPECIALLY that time when she was frustrated with his 'I can do it myself' attitude, the EXACT same issue he's having right now)
Like, is this not from Joyce's perspective?? Jonathan is her son. She doesn't like it when he acts like a lone wolf and takes on too many responsibilities whether it's killing a monster or working when he shouldn't.
This is the character arc Jonathan is going through. She's had to put up with this behavior before in season 1 and we already saw exactly how she'd resolve that. A confrontation. A stern talking to. A pep talk. Reassurance. A hug. Some tears.
They keep saying "We're going to circle back to season 1" and yet people seems to have forgotten how Joyce and Jonathan were in season 1...... things weren't sunshine and rainbows but they made it work. They were adorable and loving.
Like of course, people will talk about what Jonathan must be feeling right now. But it's because these are all things people hope Joyce would notice, just like she has in previous seasons, and save her son from his misery.
I'd like to finish off by saying, again, THIS DOES NOT MAKE JOYCE A BAD MOTHER and I still don't know how people can jump to that conclusion after reading all this. She's without a doubt the best mom on the entire show and the only competition is Terry Ives. Like.... Joyce is grade A material, no wonder every man in the solar system has tried to get with her.
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safety-writes-noms · 1 year ago
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Hello I noticed you got a lot of spider verse asks and not a lot about your ocs so I guess I’m gonna have to do the prying myself. How did unu and mark meet? Why does a god need an avatar? Etc. I am interested in your little guys
GASP MY FIRST ASK ABOUT MY OCS????? I was wondering if anyone actually wanted to know about them or if they just wanted to see spiderverse stuff (which I still love, the hyperfixation is still going strong)
Unu is a fire deity (or minor god, take your pick) whose main objective is to hunt down demonic creatures who have seeped into the mortal world from his world. Unfortunately he himself can only go down to earth for short bursts of time to eviscerate the monsters because his body isn’t meant to exist in theirs.
If he stays too long, things will start to get blurred, resulting in either the two worlds crashing into each other or completely ripping each other apart. His ultimate goal is to seal the rift to stop the creatures from spilling into the mortal world. He has to find the one on his realm and the on on earth.
The monsters also have that effect of essentially destroying earth except it’s a slower since they’re not as strongly energized as Unu. So to help, he’s enlisted humans (avatars) for the past few hundred years to aid him.
He gives them a small share of his abilities. Not enough to start ripping holes in the earth’s space but enough juice to kill the creatures (I haven’t thought of a good name for them yet :o). In return they get enhanced strength, longer life spans and some of his abilities (manifesting fire, some immunity to sickness, resistance to the sun/skin cancer etc.)
he trains them in the dream scape where his mental body and the human’s body can exist freely. It’s also how he introduces himself to them. If they agree to be his avatar, he bonds with them so he can transfer his abilities without them getting injured internally.
This csn’t really be reversed easily and almost always results in unu getting very attached to the avatar and being determined to keep them alive for as long as possible so that they can live happy lives once they stop being avatars.
Unu selects humans by their physical traits usually, but some humans can actually pass on the bond to other humans in extreme situations + they have to be close to the next human.
Now that I’m done with the exposition I can finally get to the questions you asked! Sorry for it being long :((. Anyway Unu’s past avatar, (mark’s older brother) died in battle with a pretty bad monster and mark happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time, resulting in the bond automatically transferring to him bc of his closeness with his brother, roman, and the situation.
Mark and unu actually kinda hated each other at first, unu because he really misses Roman and mark was never supposed to be an avatar (especially since he’s literally 13 years old) and mark because he saw unu as the person who basically killed his older brother.
They met in the dream scape, mark agrees (forces unu to make him an avatar) to be an avatar because he wants to get justice for his brother despite unu’s insistence that he seriously shouldn’t (he can’t really stop mark since the bond is already in place.) eventually they get closer, talk out their issues, all the hurt/comfort. And mark gets better at fighting demons.
unu grudgingly trains him because he’s not asshole enough to send out a kid (even though he’d rather not send mark out at all) and plus in honor for roman since he does genuinely feel completely responsible and guilty for his death. Which is also why he trains mark really hard.
So sorry this is so long and probably kinda hard to get since I’m not good at explaining. Here’s a doodle :D I tweaked mark’s design a little bit and changed his hair since I didn’t really like it.
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Unu actually can exist in a very watered down form of his on earth. Usually the impact is so minuscule that regular humans can’t see him, as shown in the doodle. He’s like a little ball of fire.
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