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the way that your blog was what i went to in order to get the slightest grasp on this drama and discourse... i've got a vague idea, but holy cow...
folks just need to re-learn how to moderate their fandom experience. i learned that as a teenager, when i started shipping something people considered "icky." block people, block tags... ugh. people frustrate me.
Well I hope my blog's been at least slightly helpful! I try to stay aware of the fandom's goings on, even if I don't always engage--though there are certain things I feel more obligated to comment on given that I am fairly well known
I do think for at least some of the people involved (though I obviously can't speak for them) this may be their first big lesson in moderating their experience. Keepblr tends to be a first/intro fandom for a lot of people where we learn how the hell to do it, what's courteous, etc. Especially with the recent influx and this being the biggest thing since then
And this is not at all to condescend--it's a genuine observation of just how things work. I myself learned via keeper. So I'm not mad at them for it, it just is a bit sucky to go through at times
I'm not worried either, though. We've been here before and we'll be here again. We'll get through it
#kotlc#kotlc discourse#quil's queries#nonsie#though perhaps there may be a wider fandom trend of outsourcing moderation#expecting other people to change their behavior according to others' preferences#so in that sense fandom as a whole needs to relearn#but on the microlevel. i think it may be some people's first run through#which may contribute#again! do NOT mean that to condescend or anything!#value neutral!#just how it is! not a bad thing!
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A central element of the myth of [Eleanor of Aquitaine] is that of her exceptionalism. Historians and Eleanor biographers have tended to take literally Richard of Devizes’s conventional panegyric of her as ‘an incomparable woman’. She is assumed to be a woman out of her time. […] Amazement at Eleanor’s power and independence is born from a presentism that assumes generally that the Middle Ages were a backward age, and specifically that medieval women were all downtrodden and marginalized. Eleanor’s career can, from such a perspective, only be explained by assuming that she was an exception who rose by sheer force of personality above the restrictions placed upon twelfth-century women.
— Michael R. Evans, Inventing Eleanor: The Medieval and Post-Medieval Image of Eleanor of Aquitaine
The idea of Eleanor’s exceptionalism rests on an assumption that women of her age were powerless. On the contrary, in Western Europe before the twelfth century there were ‘no really effective barriers to the capacity of women to exercise power; they appear as military leaders, judges, castellans, controllers of property’. […] In an important article published in 1992, Jane Martindale sought to locate Eleanor in context, stripping away much of the conjecture that had grown up around her, and returning to primary sources, including her charters. Martindale also demonstrated how Eleanor was not out of the ordinary for a twelfth-century queen either in the extent of her power or in the criticisms levelled against her.
If we look at Eleanor’s predecessors as Anglo-Norman queens of England, we find many examples of women wielding political power. Matilda of Flanders (wife of William the Conqueror) acted as regent in Normandy during his frequent absences in England following the Conquest, and [the first wife of Henry I, Matilda of Scotland, played some role in governing England during her husband's absences], while during the civil war of Stephen’s reign Matilda of Boulogne led the fight for a time on behalf of her royal husband, who had been captured by the forces of the empress. And if we wish to seek a rebel woman, we need look no further than Juliana, illegitimate daughter of Henry I, who attempted to assassinate him with a crossbow, or Adèle of Champagne, the third wife of Louis VII, who ‘[a]t the moment when Henry II held Eleanor of Aquitaine in jail for her revolt … led a revolt with her brothers against her son, Philip II'.
Eleanor is, therefore, less the exception than the rule – albeit an extreme example of that rule. This can be illustrated by comparing her with a twelfth century woman who has attracted less literary and historical attention. Adela of Blois died in 1137, the year of Eleanor’s marriage to Louis VII. […] The chronicle and charter evidence reveals Adela to have ‘legitimately exercised the powers of comital lordship’ in the domains of Blois-Champagne, both in consort with her husband and alone during his absence on crusade and after his death. […] There was, however, nothing atypical about the nature of Adela’s power. In the words of her biographer Kimberley LoPrete, ‘while the extent of Adela’s powers and the political impact of her actions were exceptional for a woman of her day (and indeed for most men), the sources of her powers and the activities she engaged in were not fundamentally different from those of other women of lordly rank’. These words could equally apply to Eleanor; the extent of her power, as heiress to the richest lordship in France, wife of two kings and mother of two or three more, was remarkable, but the nature of her power was not exceptional. Other noble or royal women governed, arranged marriages and alliances, and were patrons of the church. Eleanor represents one end of a continuum, not an isolated outlier.
#It had to be said!#eleanor of aquitaine#historicwomendaily#angevins#my post#12th century#gender tag#adela of blois#I think Eleanor's prominent role as dowager queen during her sons' reigns may have contributed to her image of exceptionalism#Especially since she ended up overshadowing both her sons' wives (Berengaria of Navarre and Isabella of Angouleme)#But once again if we examine Eleanor in the context of her predecessors and contemporaries there was nothing exceptional about her role#Anglo-Saxon consorts before the Norman Conquest (Eadgifu; Aelfthryth; Emma of Normandy) were very prominent during their sons' reigns#Post-Norman queens were initially never kings' mothers because of the circumstances (Matilda of Flanders; Edith-Matilda; and#Matilda of Boulogne all predeceased their husbands; Adeliza of Louvain never had any royal children)#But Eleanor's mother-in-law Empress Matilda was very powerful and acted as regent of Normandy during Henry I's reign#Which was a particularly important precedent because Matilda's son - like Eleanor's sons after him - was an *adult* when he became King.#and in France Louis VII's mother Adelaide of Maurienne was certainly very powerful and prominent during Eleanor's own queenship#Eleanor's daughter Joan's mother-in-law Margaret of Navarre had also been a very powerful regent of Sicily#(etc etc)#So yeah - in itself I don't think Eleanor's central role during her own sons' reigns is particularly surprising or 'exceptional'#Its impact may have been but her role in itself was more or less the norm
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My bold take is that R.F. Kuang and Suzanne Collins are actually doing very similar things with their books/writing and both are doing it very well (but notably only one is getting criticized for it, for which there are many reasons, some fair and most not).
They are both making very specific and strategic points about the way that class, class consciousness and allyship, exploitative systems, propaganda, and rebellions work, just to name a few themes. And it’s far more interesting to examine their respective fictional worlds, both of which are heavily influenced by real-world events and history and hold it as a parallel to our own.
[It is also far more interesting to not boil their work down to shipping, “capitalism is the bad guy,” and oppression olympics for fictional characters with far too much projection into the real world.]
#i read babel at the start of the month and sunrise on the reaping at the end#both authors are fantastic and i think if you enjoyed The Hunger Games you would like The Poppy War trilogy and Babel#i agree with the criticism that Kuang can be a bit heavy-handed at times but also it makes sense to explain how interconnected it all is#(and usually that criticism is coming from people who are upset she implies “white people bad” more than twice)#Suzanne Collins is doing something quite similar in THG and even moreso in TBoSBS and SotR#both prequels are essentially political commentaries (discussing Locke Rousseau and Hume to name some)#but Babel gets criticism because it's too academic when it is explicitly historical fantasy in conversation with the time period?#which includes historical sources and literature and academia and philosophy#i may come back and elaborate more on the differences i think that are contributing to the reception to each work#(again some are fair some are unfair some are personal opinion)#R F Kuang#the poppy war#the poppy war trilogy#babel#babel an arcane history#babel or the necessity of violence#Suzanne Collins#the hunger games#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#sunrise on the reaping#bookblr
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*holds Dean Winchester up by the scruff of the neck* listen, it's not that i think bottoming would fix him--his problems and disorders are way too far gone for that--but i do think that getting artfully maneuvered into trying it by the only other human on earth with a hope of understanding all his goddamn hangups, only to discover that he's been a winner of the "body wired to experience earth-shattering prostate orgasms" lottery this entire time, all while Sam oh-so-solemnly insists it doesn't have to Mean Anything about anyone's masculinity, lots of guys etc etc etc, and manages to radiate only moderate levels of smugness about the whole incident--
well, i simply think that even if that wouldn't fix him, it would either give him a vigorous shake and a ready-made excuse ("fuck it, why look a gift pleasure button in, uh, whatever orifice it came with?") to let a whole bunch of shit go, or it would drive him into even more insane depths of overcompensation. and either way, the Study That Man Like A Bug girlies get to feast.
#for some unholy reason there is honest-to-god 'my take is Correct and Mandatory' top/bottom discourse in the maintags these days#so here's my contribution. a heartfelt pitch for putting this guy in an ant farm and studying him (I Want That Twunk Obliterated edition)#if you are categorically opposed to even entertaining the idea then great news! no one's making you! my taste isn't the boss of anyone!#in which case may i cordially invite you to help your team pull its goddamn weight in the Just Fucking Scroll Past That Shit olympics#wincest#dean winchester#sam winchester#supernatural
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Sometimes you have to repeat to yourself "I want the wrestlers I like to work wherever they feel they'll be happiest and be able to do their best work, even if I would prefer they be somewhere else"
#staring at the spot on the aew roster page where mariah may used to be#(which presumably means she is headed Elsewhere)#regardless she was part of one of the most iconic storylines in all elite history#I will miss her contributions to toxic yuri in aew :(
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yuusha didn’t have anything else to wear so💥
#girl stop looking at me like that#the way i draw yuusha’s braid so inconsistently#anyways uhhhhh#unintentional sequel to my jamil art this morning???#or honestly this can be considered a totally separate incident#make up your own conclusions i guess because i dont know myself 😔#i just wanted to draw her in jamil’s sweater 😔💪#[—✦-#twst art#twisted wonderland#twst#twst yuu#twst yuusona#(💜) yuusha tala#-✦—]#also-#it’s daylight savings here#which means our clock went back one hour#im eepy but cant eep#but also it may be because i steeped my tea for longer than i shouldve#my heart is. palpitating#(and the coffee this morning prob also contributed uhhhhh)#this is all jade’s fault#i’m FINE yall can ignore this fjdndjsj#lil lore update by me#(✧) my art
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Question about Couya! Since she is a bastard what are the reasons about her being brought into the main family by her father. Was it genuine care for his child or a way to save face politically/socially? Is her birth mother alive? Do you think she would have had a better life growing up anywhere else?
This is in large part due to how cultural perceptions and legal punishment of adultery varies between male and female citizens, looped into the very strictly patrilineal kinship system.
By legal definition, the word for 'adultery' applies only to situations where a man has an affair with a married woman, or a married woman has an affair with any man. Other forms of affairs (eg a married man having an affair with an unmarried woman) are wrapped into a broader set of sexual misdemeanors and aren't often charged or punished in practice, and the punishments are comparatively minor (if an unwed woman's father pursues charges, the man in the affair is likely to just pay a fine). On a social level, extramaritial affairs in general are certainly not Approved of and seen as lowly and dishonorable, but the average response is significantly less harsh/more willing to entertain Nuance with men than with women.
In this society there's differentiated shades of bastardry depending on the contexts of the child's birth, as well as a distinction for 'nameless bastards' (has not been claimed by their biological father or maternal grandfather, or claimed in adoption).
a) A child born to an unmarried woman via an unmarried man: non-issue for father, potentially serious social harm for the woman (especially if she has never been married and expected virginal, much less severe as a widow or divorcee). The child will not be notably disadvantaged in of themselves (their status will depend more on whether they are claimed and thus provided the social security of a family patriarch), the father will experience no hard disadvantages in claiming them.
b) A child born to an unmarried woman via a married man: mild sexual misdemeanor for the father carrying levels of social shame, even more serious social harm for the woman (often framed as not just loose but a manipulative Seductress of a married man). The child might experience minor to moderate social disadvantages, the consequences of the father claiming them are purely social and will not typically be severe. (Couya is this)
c) A child born to a married woman via an unmarried or married man: both man and woman have committed a crime and can be severely punished. The biological father can technically claim the child but will be disincentivized from doing so. This is the form of bastardry most comparable to the conventional definition, in that it is heavily stigmatized and has effects on concerns of kinship and inheritance.
In addendum to this, if the adulterous wife's legal husband claims the child, this may be punishable if determined to be active concealment of adultery (which is also a crime), and has EXTREME social consequences either way. (Either you're a cuckold too stupid to notice that your wife has been skipping out on you, or you're a MEGAcuckold adultery-accessory willingly rearing another man's child after being horribly shamed by him).
(This is separate from adoption- a man who marries a woman with an unclaimed child after the fact (whether it was a product of adultery or just a general out of wedlock birth) and claims the child is an adoptive father, he is not concealing adultery or being cuckolded.)
A child born in an affair can be considered an heir to their biological fathers (descent and kinship is fully patrilineal and on a Basic level it doesn't matter who the mother is), and can very smoothly and legally be claimed when the affair was not considered criminal adultery. The concern on that front is social perception rather than material legal consequences or kinship issues.
Couya's birth mother was an unwed servant working as a housekeeper for her father Saizen, so the Crime of adultery did not take place. It would be considered a minor sexual misdemeanor, and the woman's father was not about to pursue charges against a nobleman who could Ruin him (and had also formally expressed that he would claim the child, which meant he would not be saddled with a nameless bastard granddaughter). So the concerns here were entirely social.
The affair might have started beforehand but the pregnancy that produced Couya occurred after his wife's third viable pregnancy ended in the premature birth of a underdeveloped boy deemed necessary to euthanize (and tbr would Not have survived either way). This was after Livya Haidamane had a couple early term miscarriages, two viable but very difficult pregnancies wherein one child was very weak and sickly for the first several years of life, and struggled to conceive every time. A lot of people are going to be at least a little sympathetic to a married man having an affair and claiming a bastard in this context. It's definitely ideal and practical to have more than two children, and his wife (while not outright infertile) clearly could not reliably bear healthy children. (The average response is going to be "Well he shouldn't have done it but like, I get it")
Couya being claimed by her father was a mix of genuine care and saving face. Initially it was MUCH more the latter than the former. Saizen made attempts to hide the servant's pregnancy and to keep his own wife out of sight during the late term (to prevent the baby appearing after his wife had been seen Extremely not pregnant). But there's some levels of care involved, he could very easily have fired the pregnant servant and had nothing to do with his bastard and she would have no recompense whatsoever. The choice to keep and claim the baby and ensure its entrance into the world bore as little social scrutiny as possible is an act of care for his own progeny.
This was Not an act of care for Couya's birth mother (beyond the fact that concealing her pregnancy would benefit her in hiding that she is not only Not a virgin prior to marriage but had a child). She probably would have been about 17-19 at the time and was fired a few months after giving birth, and most likely never saw Couya again after this point (if she did, it would most likely be in the context of seeing her as an adult Odonii in public and noting her to look Scarily familiar). She has an Okayish chance at still being alive, she'd be around 50 (and a person who survives the high infant mortality and birth casualty rates stands a good chance of hitting their 60s), though she could very well be a casualty of the drought+famine.
Whether or not Couya's life would have been better is kind of a mixed bag. She had an awful fucking childhood in large part because her adoptive mother Livya Haidamane hated her. (Livya was ultimately a pretty horrible person but not just like. An Evil Bitch. She had A Lot going on and Couya was a living breathing insult to her and reminder of like, every one of her dashed hopes and dreams). Couya is also autistic and presented very intense symptoms as a child in a society that is Not equipped for a mass-understanding and support of cognitive differences. But she still did have an immensely privileged life with profound physical/economic levels of security inaccessible to the vast majority of people in this region, including her birth mother. Saizen also actually Liked her and cared about her, he just wasn't a routine physical presence in any of his children's lives.
Had she been left with her biological mother, she would be in a very disadvantaged situation as a nameless bastard to an unwed mother. Her biological grandfather may or may not have been willing to claim her, and her mother would have great difficulties in finding a husband (which is ultimately necessary for the security of women in this society). I think her mother was a relatively kind person but not like, a perfect angel. She would probably have complicated feelings about her bastard daughter, especially one whose very existence materially disadvantages her and was very, very difficult as a child. So this probably would not have been a good situation for Couya either.
If you broaden the question to ANY other family completely divorced from the circumstances of her birth, yeah it definitely could have been better. But in her case it's like either "Life of grotesque socioeconomic privilege but in an abusive household" or "Life of profound socioeconomic disadvantages in a household that Probably wouldn't have been this abusive but certainly wouldn't be healthy". There wasn't really a good option for her.
#I think I've overemphasized the Social consequences of adultery/bastard children and underemphasized that committing#or abetting adultery is Illegal and punished pretty severely#But in this case nothing about Couya's birth was considered 'adultery' by societal definition and in being formally claimed by her#father (with no reason to question that he Is her father) the rest of her family is obligated to treat her as full kin wrt familial#obligations and inheritance#Livya Haidamane was also expected to fully behave as her mother and like. This happened after suffering through very difficult and#traumatic pregnancies. Delivering a premature son and watching him be euthanized. Then her husband IMMEDIATELY#knocks up a servant and most people around her are kind of like 'yeah not a great thing to do but I get it' because she was Only able#to push out two relatively healthy kids. And then she has to treat the Living Embodiment of all this as her daughter who happens#to also be an extremely difficult child.#This kind of changed the whole trajectory of her life and was not something she had Any means of processing or coming to terms with#and instead Coped with by severely emotionally abusing said child and pitting her against her disappointing son while idolizing her#eldest daughter thus contributing to the production of three really fucked up adults.#Also note that 'claiming a child' overlaps with but is not the same thing as 'raising a child in your household'#A claimed child takes the father's family name and is considered legal kin. This has very practical applications and means that#you and the rest of your family have lifelong legal and honor-based familial obligations to this child.#A father (or grandfather) may deign to raise a bastard without claiming them which can provide physical security but does not#have Kinship and its structure of familial obligations backing it. So these two situations can be materially different and affect#the trajectory of a child's life.
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This is seguing out of a moment of getting really quite annoyed, but:
Is Iron-Blooded Orphans the only mainline Gundam . . . *anything* to have had a woman as a major creative figure on the writing/directing side?
A lot of the links on Gundam Wiki dead-end when they go out to Wikipedia so I've never been able to get a firm idea if that's true, but my impression has generally been that most of the main writers and directors have always been men, even up to Witch From Mercury and G-Quacks. Which is something I have seldom seen mentioned in discussions around the franchise's handling of stuff.
This is not to comment on the contents of the individual series one way or another, more that I'm curious about it from a perspectival, um, perspective.
#gundam#I know there have been a whole bunch of female artists who've contributed at various points#but not on the writing side#there may well be key manga series I am overlooking#since that is a wild and woolly region into which I have seldom dared venture
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ok so ive been. Thinking. about @okartichoke ‘s ace avian AU- specifically vulture Godot bc ya :]
ANYWAYS ITS TIME TO DO MATH FOR FUN!!!
Vultures have some of the largest wingspans, aside from seafaring birds like albatross and pelicans! so i got real curious about Godot’s wingspan being a bearded vulture n all
For atarters, here they are next to people!


I’m gonna be using the averages of all tge size ranges for this btw
The average bearded vulture stands at about 2 feet high, with an average wingspan of around 8 feet.
This leaves them at about a 3rd of the height of Godot, who (according to the wiki) stands at 6ft 1in! I’m rounding down to 6ft even for sake of ease
Taking the wingspan and tripling it, that would leave us with 8ft x 3 = 24ft wingspan
For reference, each wing would be around
11 FEET LONG
(subtracting around 10in for the shoulderblades, based on my brother lol)
this would be about 2 godots on their sides for EACH WING.
anyways i know there was the question of how godot’s wings ended up coffee stained, have you considered he consistently knocks the coffee pots over with his GIANT BIG WINGS
#wheeeee math!!!#anyways assuming the poison had neurological damage#he may not have a great sense of spacial awareness or balance anymore!#that would also contribute to why he cant fly- you reaaaaly need a sense of balance for that lol#breaking news: man brews 10 post of coffee#knocks 8 of them over with he wings#sir where are you putting those#anyways bearded vultures have thinner wings#may do the math for their width soon idk#hope this makes any sense at all#my notes app looks insane rn lol#ace avian#godot ace attorney#math#kind of#tbh his wongs could be longer i averaged a lot lol#mossy rambles#mossy talks#idk which im using now lol#ace attorney au
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hey did you know that if you overuse your foot due to "prolonged standing, walking, or running"
or dragging around 100+ lb furniture
it can make the top of it swell like a balloon and make it extremely painful to the touch?
cause i sure didn't 🙃
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From one perspective, Vergil's "that day, if our positions were switched" speech was kind of stupid of him. Materially, Dante's position was not that different from Vergil's. They both lost absolutely everything, and were forced to start living alone and on the run at eight years old.
And yet, if I suggested that Eva being present and taking the time to offer Dante even a sense of safety didn't actually matter, Dante would manifest in my home and slap the shit out of me.
It might not have made a difference materially, but Eva led by example, her demonstration of bravery and love stuck with Dante for his whole life.
I still don't believe Vergil would have internalized that in the same way that Dante did if their positions were, indeed, switched. Then again, if it was Vergil in the house instead of Dante, Eva might have chosen some more pertinent words for him, something he really needed to hear. And if Dante was alone when he was attacked, who knows how he would have turned out?
#shoutout to my friend @strengthofmayhem's ''fateswap'' au which i may or may not have contributed to#devil may cry#my thoughts#vergil dmc#dante dmc#eva dmc#quen speaking
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So we're fully in lunatic hours, huh. Just every one of these women have fully lost their goddamn minds. And not even, if I may be so bold in my loving-insane-women opinion, in a fun way. Misty-fucking-Quigley is, by several leagues at this point, officially the least certifiably insane person, which I never would have considered a possibility during season 1. Cool cool cool, just keeping up 👍
#i officially have no fucking clue what is happening on this show any longer#ive always been very disinterested in the 'what is the It could It maybe be real??' angle so i have been bored to tears this season as the#ADULT --not the currently being traumatized thus have reason to 'believe'-- tai lottie van and now apparently melissa out of NOWHERE have#entertained. there is no 'it' you crazy bitches the only It you need is Intense Therapy-and-heavy-medication.#at this point they're almost just doing shock value kooky crazy which feels really bad in contrast to callie struggling#(who tbh im increasingly convinced played an accidental hand in lottie's death & part of what's changed her tune on shauna was hearing#the glee in teen shauna's voice on the tape when she herself does NOT feel glee about what death she allegedly may have contributed to)#i also think callie did it bc shauna taking the blame and sacrificing herself-- and finally facing consequences-- in her daughter's place#is the only thematically relevant or interesting theory keeping me at all invested in the adult storyline currently lol#*callie AND poor sammie who the showrunners may have mostly forgotten but I certainly have not!!!#ive assumed her ex-wife hasn't called the cops on her because she knows how poorly mentally ill black women are treated by the system#but omg these women are actually criminally insane babe make the call save tai literally from herself 🙏#yellowjackets#dani talks about tv#yellowjackets spoilers
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Digging through some of my twst WiPs and ah, yes, my “5 things” fic.

#the five things are five senses in this case#but I kinda wanna do the 5 stages of love with them too#also need to finish my GenDice 5 stages#I tried to start a 5 things challenge in the jojo fandom but I was the only one creating for it#maybe someone with reach will do a twst challenge I can contribute to#otherwise I may just go back to ‘give me two characters and a prompt’#which is how I ended up writing a Idia & Malleus one shot#this is also why there’s a fic on ao3 titled ‘snausages’#as if I need more things to write#that 100 followers offer isn’t off the table but I have fewer followers now#maybe I’ll throw some prompts on a spreadsheet and ask someone to pick a number#it could happen#fic musing#silbek#silsebe#sebesil
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"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"
I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming
#Kind of like some post I saw a long time ago talking about how even the meanest shittiest most difficult to get along with#elderly people or whaever still deserve to have some sort of systems in place to support them so they're not just relying on the#grace of relatives or etc. who may not be able to deal with them. Not saying that I'm like mean and cruel or anything#but the fact of the matter is in most social situations either I am compromising or the other person is. Not in like an ~`ouuu im so weirdd#nobody willever understand my quirky swagg hee heee~' way but like a.. Just factually the things that make me happy and comfortable#are often incompatible with people. The way I communicate and process things is different from the way other people do and that#is always a barrier. I cannot have ''easy''' interactions. Even with 'understanding' people there is nearly always a significant#amount of effort. You can't walk into a group of people and then be like ''okay you guys all have to wear#masks and you also cant play music too loud and also we should communicate turns of speaking very clearly so group conversations#arent too stressful. and also i need this and that and we have to do this and that and '' etc. etc. You CAN. And some people will#go along with that. but they will ALWAYS secretly resent you for it. You will be the one person they're relieved to not have to be around.#theyre glad when you dont show up since they can go back to doing things however they want and not masking and all these boring#annoying things. OR you can say none of that and just deal with the loud music and the talking and the unmasked people. but then#YOU'RE compromising. and no matter how nice they are it's exhausting to be around and youre just further alienated#while in the presence of people and uncofmrtoabel the whole time.#Which I'm not saying the only form of community is a group setting specificially but just giving that as an example lol#I just wish there were a better option than ''well learn to socialize normally or just suffer then'' . Which I know is not what people are#saying. I guess I just always feel a bit scared when 'community is the answer'. Since its not like 'oh im just socially anxious and need to#get out of my shell~!' or something thats really that remedy-able. It's like.. my mostly unchangeable physical health issues combined#with the mostly unchangable literal way that my brain processes sensory informationand other things means that interacting with#others in a normal and easy way is incredibly difficult and often exhausting especially to maintain in any longform fashion. So then#when it's like ''the answer to staying safe is to maintain longform social connections!! :3 just reach out!!'' then.. ermm... O_O#also I'm not even one of the cutesy shy emotional hermits that's nervous. I'm the Bad Stereotype emotionless robotic cold seeming#looms in the corner of the room type of thing so people have less pity on you in that way. -_- ANYWAY gghj#I need like.. a designated social representative or something.. When I did work in that bookshop forever ago they gave me a#person who basically was just with me to help communicate with others on my behalf and supervise me and stuff. I need that.. Some#more extraverted person I can latch onto and they can maintain the Social Support Network for me and I can just be their +1 to all#of the Social Things and community. I have helpful skills I can contribute to other people and stuff it's just like.. I cant socialize lol#I cook food or something for you.. then you keep me in contact with Community.. a deal. (but then what about when I'm too sick to#contribute? as is often the case. there's not much place for people like me in communities sometimes i fear.. sigh.) ***
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"Stan favors Mabel and Ford Dipper" WRONG!!!
#We see them interact less due to their personalities.#Mabel is attracted to Stan much quicker#due to her nature of getting on other's good sides and wanting to be friends#as well as outgoing.#While Dipper was still unsure about his feelings of this for all intents and purposes stranger#Mabel would have squeezed her way into his life already. Dipper is not good with people#and insecure#so he takes Stan's jabs seriously just like he does with Mabel. Mabel and Stan have a love language#that include a few insults that have no real feelings in it.#He wouldn't catch on and participate or (depending on when) tell him straight up he doesn't like it.#Dipper is in it for the mysteries and locks himself up while focusing on it. It's on his mind the entire show.#Ford wasn't meant to talk to the kids. He was even avoiding Dipper until an accident happened and he got caught up in the game of ddmd.#Not to mention that the episodes almost always contribute to the story#even filler ones. They may not progress the plot but they will reveal sides of characters or show them growing or changing.#Ford was in it so little that they needed to squeeze the most out of the time which led to little Mabel and him filler.#He didn't have any problems with Mabel unlike how Dipper had some problems with Stan so that wasn't an issue to address#they love each other ur honor#gravity falls#my ramblings
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Who is Bláthnaid youve been Bláthnaid posting recently who is she?
Girl (gender-neutral) in my noggin <3
#sometimes you go 'hm well ive questioned whether im plural/a system for a multitude of reasons but its probs nothing <3'#and then your mental dialogue begins containing a worrying amount of chanting that 'my name is blaithnaid my name is blaithnaid'#and if it were chanting a male name you could put it down to genderisms#but eimear and blaithnaid are both girl names so its not that#so u just gotta accept u have a very insistent voice in yr head#and then when u say 'its ok u dont have to show yourself if u dont want' your body untenses by itself#so she seems to have at least some external control#and then u spend the next 2 months questioning your entire thought process. cheers blaithnaid. communication is hell#dropping all pretenses: ive been trying out a framework where Me is not a singular construct but instead a collection of parts#by observing noticeable shifts in my demeanor and thinking in order to learn about the cogs that make up my machine#and its hard because they want to be a machine. and because I am the product of the machine#there might not be a me-shaped cog at all. in which case its difficult to interface with the cogs as the product#because we live on different planes. plus yknow all the repression and avoidance of introspection ive been doing#this metaphor is potentially more confusing than what it started with. uhhh morethanone.info < website that may be relevant#although i dont find myself fitting the typical mould (no memory barriers and getting an identity out of these cogs is like pulling teeth)#(which contributes to the idea that this is entirely an artificial construct of my creation as opposed to an observation of a natural state)#(to which i am choosing to ignore ^_^ or maybe go Well does it matter if its fake if it works)#idk. follow-up questions welcome. blaithnaids not the only one with a name but a lot of them are hard to spot and thus name
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