#which makes it hard bc how do i ask for his socials or to hang out without it seeming like I'm coming on to him

[carnallyricky]

ALSO I'm NOT aro after all!!! I think I figured it out and it should have been obvious but sometimes I'm just the big dumb

[porcupine-girl]

I had the weirdest possible Check Please dream.

Ngozi was going to do another volume, and we were all excited because Shippy and Taylor were finally going to get together.

Who tf are Shippy and Taylor you might ask?

Shippy, I immediately realized upon waking up, is Tater, but in this dream world somehow he got a different nickname and I don’t even know how. Idk if my brain was just like “he’s part of this popular ship and I’m lazy” or “Tater and Taylor would sound too cutesy and I really want this girl to be named Taylor for some reason” or what.

Taylor was not Vanessa with a different name. She had spiky lavender hair that looked a bit like this animal crossing hairdo:

But longer, like if it were lying flat it’d be about chin length, and of course in Ngozi’s drawing style.

I didn’t find out much more bc I woke up due to my husband getting up to get ready for work, but somehow when I got back to sleep, for once my brain deigned to continue my dream from before. It is apparently very invested in Shippy/Taylor (although after I woke up and realized Shippy was Tater my brain went back and forth between the two names).

So in the continuation, I learned that Taylor was already dating another member of the Falconers (I’m not sure I ever got his name), but he was very controlling and emotionally abusive and everyone on the team was hoping she’d leave him and kind of shunning the boyfriend socially due to his behavior.

Tater ran into her in like… a mall food court sort of location? And somehow their conversation led to him confessing his feelings but saying that it was fine if she didn’t want to be with him, just begging her to leave the controlling guy and saying he’d help her however he could just as her friend. She was clearly not quite ready to leave yet, but then her boyfriend called and when she said oh I’m at the mall and I ran into Tater so we were just hanging out he got really pissed that she was hanging out with another guy (in a totally public location, and being honest about it) without him and demanded she come home right away. And when she hung up you could see that having that conversation right after the conversation with Tater was kind of making her realize that she really did need to get out of it.

Tater saw that too and jumped on it, like “If you don’t want me to help I’ll call Jack and Bitty (which my brain then corrected to Zimmboni and Little B, it was like my brain was like helloooo this is Tater unlike you Ngozi would write him correctly) right now and they will come help you get your stuff, you can stay in their guest room, they would love to help.” And she was kind of mortified by this, like oh god does the entire team know??? And he was like, well. Yeah. Kinda. Everyone’s rooting for you to leave him, that’s why nobody talks to him or hangs out with him outside practice, we all know how awful he is. And she was like oh god, great, everyone knows how stupid I am for staying with a guy like him, but Tater was like no no no everyone knows how hard it is to leave that kind of thing but we all know you’re strong enough to do it as soon as you decide you’re ready.

And that was about as far as I got in the Shippy/Taylor saga before I woke up for good. I can only assume Jack and Bitty did come get her and let her stay with them, and eventually once she was over the nasty breakup she got together with Tater.

What’s really funny was that when I went to start writing this post I couldn’t remember her name, only that it started with a T and was like 6-ish letters long. I started the post calling her Tricia and was like no that’s not right, so I googled girl names that start with T and was just hoping that if I read enough lists of names something would click and maybe I’d recognize it if I saw it. Then I opened the first list and the very first name was Taylor and I was like OH RIGHT MY BRAIN NAMED HER AFTER TAYLOR FUCKING SWIFT HOW DID I FORGET THAT??

[softestkabru]

I think Fleki and Mithrun could be close friends into Mithrun's retirement

Theres an extra where Fleki talks abt staying with Mithrun on Melini like Helki stays with Milsiril but she gets talked out of it bc he's like "it will not be exciting I'm not planning on having adventures. Im going to make noodles and be retired. Plus you'll be stuck hanging around a bunch on non-elves" and Fleki's like 🤢 nvm ur right

But like, thats so fucking cute. She'd like his live-in, burnout, non-niece on Melini for the next 200 years or whatever

Thinking abt a "10 years later" kind of deal where Mithrun's canary squad comes to visit him and they tease him kindly about how much he's changed (he smiles a lot, he's a bit chubby, he's really domestic w/ kabru, he has an eye prosthetic that actually fits,he's very kind to them) and Fleki almost starts crying because she's so emotional about seeing Mithrun happy and recovering and she's like "i'm sorry we tease you so much, I'm sorry we were so mean to youuuu we should have been nicer 😭 you kept us safe and we didn't even care" and Mithrun is like "I know, Fleki, it's ok. You all kept me safe too and I'm grateful for that" and he invites them for a nice dinner at his and Kabru's home and they talk about how the queen doesn't really know what to do with the former canary prisoners so she's been trying to pair them off with their wardens to just have normal lives which has been going...... not completely great

So their Melini visit goes by and at the end of it, Mithrun asks Fleki if she'd like to stay with them and he tells her it's ok if she doesnt want to because it will be boring and he'll expect her to behave herself and she'd be seperating from Lycion (her bestie/ emotional support whore) and she cries and is grateful and has to think about it but she comes to say yes because being an socially outcast elf is a hard and long life and her future back there is so uncertain and Mithrun and Kabru have enough faith in her to offer her a place in their home and lives and she never thought anyone would ever give her that much credit again.

So, it's not always easy (i can imagine her getting on Kabru's nerves a bit) but she keeps Mithrun company when Kabru is away on business and that's very important to Kabru. Senshi comes around from time to time and teaches her how to cook so she makes meals for their house. She of course still has her crow familiar and is good with other larger birds of prey (she could get into falconing as a hobby) and Lycion comes to visit every once in awhile and theyre still close.

This got a lil long but i was floating around in my pool for an hour thinking abt this and for rlly emotional abt it :')

[unexpectedbrickattack]

Now hold on a gosh-diddly-darn minute, I noticed the entire time talking about a tipsy Peppino no one thought to ask this but what about tipsy GUS? I mean we saw him a li'l tipsy in the fastfood saloon escape, can I hear your thoughts about that/him please? Have they ever gotten tipsy together?

(I just like the mental image of the two alone, just being real giggly with each other (Gus just says "hey" and Peppi starts giggling which sets Gus off giggling) and being sappy goofs with each other <3)

HEEHEE u are so right and i am so sorry for withholding this information from the masses 😭

My homebrew for gnomes is that they are simultaneously hardy folk (able to eat virtually anything and immune to most poisonous creatures) AND extremely intolerant of alcohol. Theres no reason for that, i just like it alot :)

So Gus would be an extreme lightweight 😭 its SO bad; he cant speak clearly at all, he cant walk straight, he has the Worst hangovers and he wont remember anything from the previous night. The line between ‘pleasantly buzzed’ and ‘blackout drunk’ is so thin that Gus doesnt even try social drinking. If he MUST drink, it will be in the comfort of his own barebones apartment 😭 at least, until Peppino started hanging out with vigilante and his crew.

Gustavo LIKES drinking! Its just hard to find a good balance, and THATS bc he simply doesnt know how alcohol works. Peppino is like:

“Look ‘ere. All of these have a number somewhere on the bottle. Or a percentage. Lower the number, the better it is for you.”

Gustavo is like !!! Oh!!! That is very helpful! What would you recommend for me then?

“Probably…2-5%. 5-10 proof. Small 'a numbers.”

Gustavo nods, interested. He points at a bottle he recognizes from the last time he came here and got shitfaced. “That one up there; do you know how ‘a strong that one is? Or should i ask the bartender?”

Peppino squints at the company label. “45%.”

“Oh!” That makes sense. “Well what do you usually drink?”

“70%.”

“Oh!”

Peppino recommends some of the LIGHT light wines, the ones that barely have a hint of anything. Theyre sweet (which Gustavo loves so very very much) and for the first time in a very long time, he Stays buzzed instead of immediately faceplanting into being blackout drunk.

Hes very. Playful. Is what Peppino would describe a tipsy Gustavo. He hesitates to use the term ‘flirty’ because that is not whats happening. But hes like. Clearly entertaining some gruff looking men like five times his size as they ramble drunkenly about random shit like ‘waow….thasso cool…and then what happened???’

Its funny at first bc Gustavo is so fucking TINY that all you can see of him, in the group of men as they yapyapyap about some inane shit that Gustavo wont even remember, is his tiny little tail 😭 It is less funny, however, when Peppino catches himself rambling about work and Gustavo is like (ears perked; tail swaying) ‘mmhmm. wrow…thats ‘a kinda nice…what else did you do??’ Peppino is like *buffering* (‘something is happening right now that will need to be addressed at a later time. Do not forget DO NOT FORGET. URGENT!!!!’)

Otherwise Gustavo is just a silly guy. Vigilante will make a joke and he laughs so low and deep that he sounds downright villainous 😭 Peppino will point out something stupid on the TV and like hours later Gus is like ‘…heeeuehuuueee…..do u remember [insert stupid reference] and Peppino will giggle. Peppinos affinity for throwing around ilus are met with Gustavo going ‘😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊’ with absolutely no way to even pretend to mask it.

Gustavo has fun being out in the saloon but he really enjoys drinking in Peppinos house. Its not nearly as loud as the saloon and theres usually homecooked foods like breads and soups (Because Peppino stress-cooks ALL the time). Brick gets to stay indoors instead of waiting outside the saloon, so Gustavo gets to mess with his soft fur contentedly. He just gets to be cozy; its quite nice 😊

[campgender]

Hi, my friend has a chronic illness that flares up sometimes and we've been wanting to hang out but it has gotten cancelled a couple times lately bc of her not feeling well enough on the day. I want to ask her how she feels cuz I care abt her a lot and want an update but 1, I don't want her to feel pressured or like I'm asking just to ask can we hang out now, and not bc I care abt how she's feeling (does that make sense? I may be overthinking this) and 2, I genuinely wanna know how she's doing but idk what to say if she responds with her not being better, sometimes u don't feel better and that's ok but I always want to offer comfort somehow or just convey my friendship? but I feel the same everytime and don't want to sound repetitive ?

Any thoughts?

this is really kind of you & it means so much to me that you want to support your friend & are putting so much thought into it! my response is inherently based in my own experience to an extent & everybody’s different, but a lot if not all of this is stuff i’ve heard regularly from other chronically ill people. of course, don’t say anything you don’t mean – if some of this isn’t the case for you, just adapt accordingly :)

i understand worrying about being repetitive but i think that’s totally okay to do! for one thing, it can be difficult to remember things period when you’re ill, especially during a flare, & for another, internalized + societal ableism is a hell of a force. it never hurts to have a reminder that not everyone is trying to force ableist expectations onto you + your friendship & that someone cares about you!

i think you can definitely tell your friend pretty much what you told me! like, “hey, it’s okay if you aren’t feeling up for responding but i just wanted to check on you! not trying to pressure you to hang out or anything, i just care about you & how you’re doing”

honestly the most important + supportive thing people have ever told me is that it’s okay if the answer is “bad.” i’m literally like surprised pikachu meme every time somebody offers to let me vent about having a rough time & then it helps me just to talk about it. it’s really socially unacceptable to talk about chronic pain & a lot of people get frustrated when you’re complaining about the same thing & there’s not really anything they can do, so just the opportunity to be like “yeah shit fucking sucks right now” means a lot.

obv the appropriateness of this depends on the person & their relationship to disability but most of the time i’m very like, radical acceptance / embracing / etc about the fact that i’m probably just gonna get sicker, so sometimes when i’m having a rough time emotionally & am like “what if i’m this bad for the rest of my life” my gf (who doesn’t have chronic pain / chronic illness) will say something like “then i can’t wait to be there with you ❤️” & it’s more meaningful to me than i can begin to put into words.

again everybody’s different but for me one of the biggest things is when disability stuff just… isn’t a big deal to the other person. which, it’s totally okay for you to need support from others when someone you care about is going through a hard time & when things change! but abled people are constantly horrified about like, every aspect of my life, so being able to talk casually about symptoms & somebody mirror the mood / tone i set – laugh if i’m joking, be upset about the ableism i experience & not my body itself if i’m complaining about people being weird about it, taking things as they come – is so affirming.

other things that have been helpful + meaningful for me are friends sending me notes, stickers, & art in the mail – having something tangible can make me feel more “real” & part of the world, something i struggle with due to being homebound – & peer support around medical neglect, which often just looks like talking to someone after a doctor’s appointment & them reaffirming my reality / experiences & saying i didn’t deserve to be treated that way.

oh one other change in language i’ve made over time & probably picked up from a few other ill people in my life is a sort of realistic encouragement – there’s not necessarily anything wrong with “i hope you feel better soon!” because like, i get that the message is well-intentioned, but it can be awkward & difficult to receive when you don’t know if that’s gonna happen. instead, i try to tell people something like “i hope you get a bit of relief soon” or “i hope things are a little easier tomorrow.” a 7/10 pain day may be horrifying for most people, but when you’ve had a streak of 9s, it can be a much-needed taking the edge off, & i try to make space for that breadth of experience in my language.

i’ve answered a few similar questions before so i’ll add my “asks” & “faq” tags on my chronic illness blog in the reblogs if you want to browse! much love to you & your friend and feel free to lmk if you have any other questions 💓💓

[tinukis]

Random but... Sabosan modern au thoughts?? (if you like it, of course) 👀

modern au my beloved (also sabosan in my asks i cheered)

anyway !!! i love modern au So Much and like there will be many different versions because im indecisive <3 but my favorite one is college au (thank you one piece academy for being my inspiration for some things. like thank u for giving me cafe worker sabo???) + im a college student as well... not that i have a social life but it'd be nice to have your favorites in your situations. i wont lie, it's hard to imagine ace and luffy in college. maybe ace has a better chance but luffy? hard to imagine unless hes into gymnastics or something but anyway this is about sabosan

sabo and sanji meeting is inevitable thanks to luffy. but it was more like passing by and just meeting luffy's friends at their house. however, sanji cannot keep his eyes off sabo and he hoped that no one would notice (they did. except sabo) out of respect though, no one brings it up or forces it out of him. they do tease him here and there but it all falls on sanji's shoulders and he gotta deal with it himself. but luffy is always willing to help if sanji asked. luffy tells him where to meet him and where he works, he doesnt have every little detail as these two were just the biggest ones.

again, sabo works at a cafe so sanji decides to go there and check it out in his free time. sanji just chills there and straightforwardly asks to talk to sabo (doesnt specify what) and bc he was luffy's friend, sabo was willing to listen. he does ask to go on a small break for this as he thought it was something urgent but a small talk was fine. i think sanji was a little awkward on how to approach this cause he honestly had no idea how exactly he felt about sabo (still questioned his sexuality poor guy) like did he have a crush on him or simply felt like being his friend? who knows! anyway sabo carried most of the conversation til sanji felt more comfortable to open up a little bit. they do have a great time talking and bond about luffy before sabo had to work again, but he invited sanji out once his shift ends.

after hours they end up strolling around the neighborhood before it got too dark and sanji really liked to be around his presence. he seemed very gentleman like, too. and sabo's relationship with his coworker/friend reminded sanji of luffy and another certain redhead. sanji noticed that sabo was able to cook and offered recipes which sabo was eternally grateful for. as the day ends, sanji thought he hit it off with sabo well. and even before heading home, sabo handed sanji his phone number so that they could make plans to hang out more or even just talk over the phone. (though it kinda complicates things more for sanji bc first off he had a "love at first sight" moment when he laid eyes on sabo, and every time he saw him whenever he'd visit luffy, it was hard to Not Look at sabo every time his presence is felt. and now sanji finally mustered up the courage to talk and officially befriend sabo just to get his number at the end? not only that they technically went on a mini date after his shift? even if it was a little stroll, sanji would be lying if he said his heart wasnt going to jump out at any moment)

on sabo's end, he admired sanji and was grateful to have someone like him look after his little brother in his stead sometimes. as mentioned before, sabo did Not notice sanji's glances at all so he was a bit surprised that sanji would talk to him.

theyre dynamic in modern au is friends to lovers but also mutual pining bc theyre silly like that

[dear-space-cadet]

Hello! I’m sorry for spamming your notifs, but I was going through your Franz posts (I’ve been in love with this band for the past 2 yrs) and I’ve never heard about the Alex dms. Can you further expound on this? I’ve tried looking it up using different keywords but I’m not getting anything and I’m trying to figure out how to more ethically consume the music I love and keep calling myself a Franz fan. Sorry again, and thank you for sharing your story!

Hey! Thank you for being here!

A lot of the girls have only come to me privately and I don’t have any screenshots of my DMs with Alex but basically what you need to know is throughout the 2010s, Alex would form platonic but inappropriate bonds with young girls who interacted with him on social media, mostly Twitter and later Instagram. In some cases, Alex would meet up with girls irl and hang out with them in their city.

In my case in particular, he told me not to tell anyone we were talking. I was 13 when he first DMed me and we stayed in contact until I was 17. It was never anything inappropriate in a vacuum, however it was very very wrong for him to seek validation and affirmation from teenage girls. A lot of us share the experience of going to him for advice and him feeling very satisfied by helping us. Like I said, he would hold a lot of things over our heads and would be ‘disappointed’ if we did something he didn’t approve of — like telling people we were talking, or drinking coffee (he hates coffee), or playing ukulele (what’s his deal???). He’s really charming and has a way of getting in your head. He makes you feel special and then takes the attention away from you. He makes you fawn. He makes you need him.

Where it gets freaky is when a sex worker reached out to me and told me that my story concerned her bc she hooked up with Alex and used the same protective and fatherly tone/language he used with me while they were hooking up. He mentioned being older than her, being old enough to be her father in particular, and feeling like he had to protect her.

I know I don’t have screenshots of any of this and that makes it hard to believe but like I said, these girls came to me in private, and in my case, I don’t have access to the DMs anymore and I don’t have any screenshots. Alex likely still has them all on his end but obviously he’d never hand them over lmfao. I deleted the 2015 DMs when my parents found them and got locked out of the account with the 2018 DMs. I can ask around to see if anyone has anything they’re willing to share publicly, but it’s not rly my business

My statement from 2023 is here

Also, in order to be an ethical Franz fan, I’d recommend just not directly seeking interaction with Alex, especially if you’re under 18. Alex seemed to have stopped doing this (at least to my knowledge) when his relationship with Clara got serious/went public, which all the more points to it being a sexual thing. Especially since a lot of the girls he DMed have similar traits.

Be safe, look out for your younger friends, and thank you for listening and believing me. It means a lot

TLDR: Alex DMed and kept up friendships with a lot of teenage girls non-sexually in the 2010s, and while that’s not inherently inappropriate in a vacuum, he exerted power over them and found some sort of gratification in giving them special treatment and then taking it away

[figula]

dayblogging (at 4am)

had a minor tiff w/ ben over asking him to wear a mask @ work for a few days which ended up fine but the thrust of it was: me: i dont understand why it's so hard for you to give your boss a heads-up that you're gonna mask for a few days bc you're geting married in <2 weeks and want ti minimise any disasters + we're currently in a covid surge ben: no one at work wears one and i dont want to be the only one. office politics + environmental pressure etc me: *silent bc i cant think of a nice reply to that one* ben: ill ask if i can work from home this week :| he also was like "i didnt realise me saying no would upset you?" and i was a bit like ...do you think i would ask you to mask up for the fun of it all?!?! anyway w/e w/e i do understand how shit it is to be the only person wearing a mask, it's really embarrassing + esp in a workplace environment where you need to be v concerned w/ how people are viewing you innit. like the social cost is real + i know his office is v quiet as well but like. we're literally getting married in <2 weeks and covid can take like 10 days to clear (or more - last time it took ben 10d) so just take thi one for the FUCKING TEAM, BEN anyway w/e im happy he said he'd work from home (it should be fine - his work seems v reasonable) bc that seems like a good option btwn social cost @ his job + just raw dogging the oxygen also i do understand the social pressure when no one else is wearing a mask which is why i get in there first and either lie or exaggerate massively to anyone i come across. or just tell the truth, depending on what's best. like the other day when i took my wedding dress in for alterations i said to the tailor like "hiiii - sorry about the mask, im just super paranoid about something going wrong <3 :)" in my least threatening tone + he was like Of course honey :-) and that was that. i have also used the excuse that my mum has cancer (which was half-true lmfao) and that i live with a "highly vulnerable person" (absolute lie) like if you're in a situation where you're never gonna see these people again just like make something up or explain first or whatever the fuck lol

we basically spent all evening/night (it's 4am and i just left our bedroom lol) hanging out in our bed (with the above argument only taking up about 10m earlier on) trading pokemon on pokemon go / battling on pokemon go / watching tiktok / having sex

oh god i nearly forgot - HE BROUGHT HIS WEDDING SUIT HOME + he looks so fucking good, like an old worldy gentleman, 3 piece suit with this incredible lining fabric + like little bits of pink sprinkled throughout

i painted our nails to match again

[xbittersweet-nostalgiax]

Every now and then I find myself wandering back over into one of my old fandoms (and I mean OLD, I was into this when I was like 8) and my brain goes "Hey you remember your OC? Let's make them Fit Better."

In this case it's Xiaolin Showdown and the OC in question is Yvette, aka Eve or Evie, who is also the Dragon Of Wood, but in the way that Jack is the Dragon Of Metal (since they're not on the Good Side, except they eventually will be bc it's my story lol)

She's also Jack's childhood friend who just sorta hangs around his basement-garage-lab-thing and tries to keep him out of any serious trouble—they definitely have a sort of Feminine Guy & Masculine Girl thing going on as well as the Red & Blue trope too bc she has blue hair (blue is also associated with the wood element, at least according to Wikipedia)

It's mainly just fun coming up with how she blends into the episodes; her outfits and behavior, how she changes things just by being involved, her relationships with not just Jack but the whole cast

Especially stuff like the episodes based in the future bc her older self is still by Jack's side, making sure he takes his meds and doesn't drive his scooter into a ditch or whatever....they're also married by that point and there's a whole bit about ppl noticing the matching rings (which Jack 100% made himself bc of course he would) and present day Jack kinda freaking out about it bc What Do You Mean I End Up Marrying My Best Friend??? and Yvette's just like Huh Cool bc she's significantly more chill than he is (but lbr that bar is kinda low lol)

And of course we've got her relationship with Good Jack which is pretty sweet bc she gets even more protective of him, and their dynamic in the timeline where Chase doesn't drink the soup is so beyond sweet it's positively diabetic....like, they have matching sunhats and she helps him braid his hair to keep it out of his way as they garden

But yeah Yvette's whole vibe is very chill and kinda lazy—at one point the main crew asks her why she goes along with Jack's plans and she's like "idk it's something to do I guess" bc just like Jack she comes from a rich family and doesn't exactly have a whole lot going on bc she is kinda spoiled

Yvette has a similar story to Katnappe in regards to how she met Jack—fancy party at his parents' mansion that she ditched to go down to the basement, only they were elementary school aged and Yvette chose to befriend him instead of being...catty lol

Their parents actually think the relationship could be beneficial, both socially and financially bc Rich People, so they mostly get left alone

Yvette's mom is french btw, but her dad is american(specifically Louisiana bc why not)—she's traveled back and forth quite a bit and has some odd quirks from being raised with both cultures (she can speak both Parisian French and Cajun French, and she likes to switch between the two to mess with her mom)

Funnily enough, this means Yvette has moments where her and Clay have some things in common—tho Texans and Cajuns are two very different creatures....still, things like iced sweet tea and biscuits & gravy are southern staples they bond over

....idk I just felt like rambling about her bc she feels pretty solid and the whole thing is just fun to think about, especially since it gives Jack a person who is always 100% in his corner even when she's physically carrying him away from a situation bc he needs to chill tf out and also shit's about to go south

Like seriously tho...dude needs that bc some of the later episodes especially get kinda rough for him—iykyk—and at the end of the day this is all wish fulfillment and my wish is for the narrative to not beat him with the short end of the stick on a regular basis....so I gave him a kickass girlfriend who keeps his shit from getting wrecked too hard (they still lose, I just get sick of the narrative adding injury to insult if you know what I mean)

[thefishesbite]

Diary Entry: 10/28/2024 || The DRAMA

Sorry for not posting recently, but a huge drama happened ON HOCO DAY which has taken up most of my time. It’s a big doozy!!! Also sorry if it’s written bad, my brain has blanked a lot of this out due to how fucking terrible it was— and it’s almost midnight (that’s why it’s the 28th not 29th bc I STARTED THIS on the 28!) by the time I’m starting this post so exhaustion is KICKING IN. But I know I would forget to write if I didn’t write now.

On homecoming day, early in the morning, I had sent a follow up text to my friend— Owen— about us being dates to the dance. This was based on a previous joke that I had remembered— where he was complaining, about a week before homecoming, how his parents were asking if he had a date to the dance. I jokingly said we should be dates to the dance. He agreed to be dates with me— both during that moment and the morning of the dance (which was 10/19, a Saturday). Suddenly, I got a message from a different friend claiming something about Owen— specifically about us being hoco dates and how it’s a bit of a.n issue, because he has a crush. On exactly who, I didn’t know at that moment— but I found out two hours later, from the same friend, that he in fact had a crush on me. A little awkward, but I’ve survived other people having crushes on me. I also found out that he realized, around the same time, that I did not like him back— that I liked Luca. (IMPORTANT!!!)

Throughout the day, Owen repeatedly continued messaging me about Luca. It was obvious jealously, but was put too far. He also was just acting in a manner that was uncomfortable. At one point in time, he asked to see my outfit early— but asked in a manner that was very uncomfortable for me, repeatedly asking with very little time in between. He claimed he was doing this because I was “dressing up for Luca”, even when I actively told him I was not and that I do not dress up for others. (Btw, super strange thing to think especially because it was HOCO!) He also refused to listen when I said that our fake homecoming date was just for all around jokes and not to make Luca jealous. I hoped this would just be a message thing, that due to the different media of talking in message and in person, he would drop it once we talked in person.

He did not.

But, I shut him down quickly— telling him that it was time to stop, that my world does not revolve around Luca. I ended up not having another conversation with him in person that night, since he walked out early (which was quite relaxing for me, since I was a little stressed over how he was acting).

The next day, a group of us hung out— including Luca. Suddenly, mid-hang out, Owen messaged me an immensely uncomfortable message of “you touching Luca rn?” out of nowhere. When I promptly got irritated and told him to stop outright, he blamed it on another friend and stopped messaging me for a while. At this point, I was both overwhelmed and irritated— it felt he was going down the path of not listening to my boundaries no matter how hard I set them. He began to ignore my feelings.

On Monday, I heard that he actively began to pray for Luca and I to fail— so that he could sweep in and be “Prince Charming”. Unfortunately, the same day, I had to regurgitate this information (minus the fact that this started due to me having a crush on Luca) to Luca himself. I told him of Owen’s strange obsession with the two of us, how it got borderline uncomfortable— but I quickly told him I was figuring it out, Owen was told to stop and hopefully would. Once I got home, after some quick deliberation with my friend who knew what was going on, I blocked Owen on all but one social media platforms. This was to ensure he could apologize, but also to limit interaction. It was becoming glaringly obvious he did not care for me— he was dehumanizing me, actively ignoring my feelings even if I made them blatantly clear.

The same night, he messaged me. He began begging for my friendship back, instead of actually apologizing, to which I put my foot down and told him I couldn’t be his friend again. I stayed serious and tried my best to stay calm— to which I’ve been told I did a well job by others. He attempted to manipulate me by claiming he couldn’t eat or sleep due to his feelings on this matter. I continued to stay strong, not wishing for him to become so dependent on me. Nothing worked, he never apologized and simply continued begging— so I put my foot down and left the conversation, blocking him soon after.

I guess this is what set him off. I don’t remember much from Monday onwards due to it being immensely stressful, but I’ll try my best to recap truthfully. He quickly became irritated with me, deciding that I was hateful and rude— he decided that I was not having my feelings ignored, that he was the one being dehumanized. On Tuesday, he attempted to get another person on his side via lying. I had already begun collecting screenshots of Owen’s misbehaviors and any proof that we had of Owen not listening and such— since he continued claiming he didn’t know what he was doing wrong, despite being told many times— so that we could show others. He was beginning to grow more and more absurd in his claims, becoming irritable. He began to show signs of an unstable mentality towards this issue.

On Wednesday, I found out he was threatening me with going to the school to file a sexual assault case— because I had joking sat on his lap once. He explicitly sexualized me and that action, which was taken completely as a joke in the moment and for a while after, solely because he decided to hate me. He hates me so much he sexualized me, in order to “get back” at me. At this point, after waiting nearly a week, Carlos and I rushed to tell the rest of the friend group— so that they may know whats going on, in case Owen attempts to lie to get me removed from the group. Luckily, the whole group understood— we had screenshots of immensely uncomfortable messages in which he obsessively asked for outfit photos, was extremely jealous and such.

We also got videos of him claiming many things: I was not accepting of him when he came out (not true) so he deserved to not be respectful towards me and my boundaries, I was “acting interested” (also not true! I literally hadn’t done anything past sit on his lap for a little hot second to piss him off), that he could get too angry and kill us all (us being the group), that he felt entitled to not respecting me because he didn’t view me as human for some reason (literally WHAT) and more.

The next day, a small group of us most affected— Carlos (someone Owen went to who helped feed me information), Nico (a boy Owen was immensely close with who helped us get even more proof of him being terrible) and I— went to the school’s counselor to report the situation. On Friday, we got taken out of class and told her our side of the story. The same day, Owen was pulled from class and told to stay away.

Let’s hope it stays that way. In writing, especially with how my brain has blocked out most of it, it doesn’t sound like terrible— but it felt like my life was falling apart for a second. This entire experience forced me to witness the absolute horrible way men thing. I was treated as a sexual object because he got mad— and I guess his only true rebuttal, because I was right in my ways, was to turn me into just a simple sex doll. He even did it before being mad, though at a much less sexual sense and more of a relationship sense. He dared not conceptualize the thought that I could be living without being in a relationship, so he always mentioned Luca or tried to get with me knowing I never liked him back. He actively hated me for standing my ground, for simply setting a boundary that WE couldn’t be friends (not that I couldn’t dare see him or such), and actively said he wouldn’t respect my boundaries because of the lies made up in his head.

The entire week after hoco I wasn’t sleeping well or eating well— I wasn’t even doing school work— because u was so terribly beaten down. I feel this situation has triggered some kind of trauma response or SOMETHING. I still cannot do school work because I mentally can’t handle it, I’m physically unable to sleep and just wanna lay around all night and still can’t eat normally. Hopefully I’ll go back to the way I was, especially with school work. I’m caught up mostly for this week, but I’m super behind for last week. I need to catch up but I can’t really handle doing the work to actually catch up honestly.

Owen tried to blame me for not sleeping and eating well— guess who also hasn’t slept and ate well this ENTIRE situation.?? Luckily now it’s done since Owen can’t go near me due to school regulation, if he does he could get suspended. Now I can relax and we can go back to how life was before this week-long drama, just minus one person.

[cyberthot666]

ok I wasn’t gonna say anything but I can’t stop thinking about it now. last night my coworker, who I also consider a friend, his gf came in and I’ve been trying to befriend her cause I want her to like me. we’re all 3 aries 🥴 anyway, I’m usually painfully awkward with her no matter how hard I try cause I can get bad social anxiety with people I don’t know well and I’ve realized I lean heavily on people pleasing tendencies so I can feel crushed if someone doesn’t like me even if I don’t know them or like them 🙄 anyway, I thought for once we were having a good conversation and it was flowing. I complimented her nails and then we talked about nails for a long time. I sent her a picture of these vitamins I use. we’ve given each other book recommendations. it had been really slow for the last couple of hours with just her and another regular in there. all I had left to do was clean. it was bout 30 minutes til close and I was sure no one else would come in. I went in the back to sweep real quick and she ordered some food. just a little snack, which I had no problem making. I even went to slice fresh cucumbers for her. then when I came back out this annoying girl that’s a regular came in and everyone started squealing. and I was thinking oh great. I sat her food down in front of her and she acknowledged it but didn’t thank me. so I was like oh. that just told me A LOT. ok so she’s being fake nice to me for my coworker’s sake. cool. got it. will no longer bother her with my chit chat when she comes to visit him. I really thought she seemed nice but things got awkward when she realized I’m older than her and not younger????? lmfao. anyway, her and this annoying girl started talking like besties and then that girl ordered 4 dishes. 30 minutes before close. she also brought two trashy ass behaving men in with her. so now I’m pissed. I had my music playing loudly in kitchen cause that’s how I usually passive aggressively signal to customers that kitchen is about to close. I brought all the food out to annoying girl and she was polite & thanked me. then an order for like 3 big dishes rang in but they were all spelled wrong & I was like wtf and walked back out to the coworker I’ve been having a weird situationship with and both his brothers and another guy who works with us all hanging out at the bar. so now there’s like 10 people in the dining room being rambunctious af bout 10-15 minutes before close and the shelf we’ve been asking to be fixed for months just collapsed for the 100th time so I started getting pissed off and didn’t even talk to him. all I said was hi & bye and you could tell I was upset. after I was off I went to the dive bar behind us to play pool with some of the girls I work with and that coworker’s gf was at the bar the moment I walked in and I said hi :) really nicely and then later when he got there they were being weird in a corner by themselves. I was going to say bye as we were walking out but he just looked at me then looked away. I was like damn. is she mad I went to grab him extra sour cream for his lunch earlier or? I do little favors like that for everyone I work with. idk I was just trying to figure out what it is I did but maybe she’s just one of those girls that sees competition in every other woman idk. but anyway I’ll know not to waste my efforts anymore bc I really don’t respect people who can’t at least thank their server when they drop them food. that’s a huge red flag to me especially considering she also works in a restaurant.

[aajjks]

BC!JK

he doesn’t want to? why not?

can’t he see that you’re a girl who can’t make up their mind to save their life, you’re clearly obsessed with your ex, you have a cat, you’re an over-thinker, and you have no social life. you’re everything a guy would literally hate and actively avoid yet here he is putting his heart out in the open and it has your name written all over it.

jungkook still likes you after all these years despite you both not ending on the best terms and it’s unbelievable.

you’re sure he’s seen and met so many other girls that are 1000% better than you yet here he is claiming to still have feelings for you. claiming that he can mend your heart and be the best man for you but only if you give him one chance.

he wants another shot at your heart. he messed up the last time but this time will be different because he’s different and neither of you are sure if you’ll see each other again if the answer is no.

“wow” you say a bit flattered by jungkook’s confession.

“i’m gonna cry a lot and i’ll probably want to be alone a lot too” you follow up but that doesn’t steer jungkook away because he understands how you feel.

“if you’re okay then…i’ll stay. i’ll call danielle and tell her to go back home. she’ll probably be mad but she’ll understand” you shrug before picking up your soaked bag and telling jungkook you’ll be in your room to freshen up and once the door of the guest bedroom closes, you don’t get to see jungkook being ecstatic that you decided to stay.

“hey danny, where are you?”

“i was just about to call you! i just left!!”

“YOU JUST LEFT?! danielle!!”

“i’m sorry, i’m sorry!!”

“well, don’t worry about it. you can turn around, i’m staying with…with jungkook”

“……..huh?”

“i-i said—“

“I KNEW SOMETHING WAS GOING ON BETWEEN THE TWO OF YOU!! are you two fucking or something?”

“eww, danny no! he’s letting me stay until i get my own apartment”

“mhm, sure he is. you don’t have to sugarcoat y’know?”

“shut up, danielle. i told you it’s not like that. we’re just—“

“fuck buddies?”

“wha? no!”

“sneaky links?”

“danielle”

“mutual care bears…for now”

“PLATONIC, danielle. it’s platonic. plus, it’s only until i get my apartment. once i find a place in my budget then i’m gonna leave”

“whatever, now tell me about this break up”

“let me wash up first then we’ll talk, ok?”

“okay. you better call me back too!”

“i will! i will!”

you hang up the phone and open your soaked bag and just when this night, okay seriously, WHY is your night going left like this? most of your clothes are soaked from the rain and although it’s 100% your fault, you just can’t catch a break.

“jungkook?” you softly call for his name with hopes that he heard you and before you can call his name again, he’s at your door wondering if everything is okay.

“uh, i’m fine it’s just…do you have an extra pair of clothes i can borrow for the night? some of mine are wet from the rain”

Did you just ask him for clothes?

He doesn’t have any women’s clothes in his house that’s for sure so maybe he will have to give you his, which he is more than fine with, but… would you be comfortable with wearing his clothes?

“Uhhh yn I don’t have any female clothing here… would you like a pair of T-shirt and a pair of pajamas? They’re mine.” it’s hard for him to look at you without blushing. He knows that Your night is really bad, but his night is just right.

He will really get to witness you wearing his clothes.. a guy’s biggest fantasy is to see the girl he loves in his clothes….

And he’s about to experience that….

You will look so adorable in his large, clothes, and he is not going to let this opportunity go so before you can give him an answer he’s off to his room and he’s taking out his clothes, and like an excited boy, he’s running back to your room.

“HERE.” he literally throws the clothes in your hands, unable to hide his excitement, “go shower, do whatever you want and I’ll prepare something for us to eat… and I gotta go check on my dog… trust me he will not bother you.” he assures you because he just told him that you don’t really get along with dogs….

You will learn to love him that’s okay. And he knows that you’re really awkward with him…. So Jungkook just leaves you to your business before going back to his room and he is also taking a shower, and it’s a quick one because he knows he has to cook for you, so after he’s done he hurriedly puts on some clothes.

And while he was showering, he was literally beaming with happiness because you’re literally in his home… with him.

It’s like his wildest dream has come true.

Jungkook doesn’t really bother to dry his hair, soon he’s off to the kitchen. “Hmm what would yn like?” he thinks to himself, before deciding to just grill some beef for the both of you…

I mean, he doesn’t really know what do you like but he’s sure that you would love beef…

Honestly cooking is therapy for him… and he humming to himself, singing his heart away… that is until you call out his name

“Oh yes, yn?”

He turns around, and he swears to God that.. he’s forgotten how to breathe.

There you stand in all your glory- in his clothes. He cannot believe this earth.

[grilledcheese-8008]

January 2023

Start with Cesar and I are no longer together. Saw Tellez two nights ago and made the realization that he began it. The talk on September 3rd, 2021 Then Salazar ended it completely on Aug 2, 2022. Anyway, so a lot of bs came with that "break up" that had me stressed the fuck out. Had a 9 to 5 desk job at Texan Credit. Didn't last very long Feb to July ish. In October, took the boys and me to Lubbock, tx for a TU and ADTR concert for a couple of days, paid for by me. Hotel, transportation, and they took care of their food expenses. That shit was a blast. Asked them at the concert if I were to break up with Cesar, would they stay friends with me? Knowing myself I'd never accept them or believe them bc they were friends first. They said yes that I was one of the boys. So. That was a lie bc they all took me off most social media. That's cool. Not hurt about it bc yk me never believed we were friends. Opened up a credit union account. Took over Thelma's Toyota payments but since I'm being nice. I'm letting Cesar use it while he tries to save up for a car of his own, and he sends me the car payment. Anyway, works garbage. It's only 3 managers now. Ricky is gone to another store. I work 3/5 evenings. The ones she doesn't work. At some point i was drinking after every shift bc, it was that bad and with all bs, I was going thru with bd drama. Spying and lying and being creepy. The last post mentioned Grandpa. He passed the morning after we were there outside his house watching him with mom. Got the call on lunch with my supervisor. Sent me home after. Went to Mexico with them to put him with mom's mom. I'm getting the hang of being alone.I just need to figure out this babysitter shit bc I hardly see my baby which is something else that was stressing me. House-wise, they did the floor before the split. And Nacho just painted my lr and kitchen couple of days ago. Need to pay off the phone so I can have my line. Keep wanting to write my stories but it's hard. Idk how to manage my time. I'm always fucking tired. I sleep in until I go in to work. Sparing an hour or less to see my baby before going in. Work... is taking away our 10 ot hours and bonuses. So yk gotta find a way to make up for that on the side. But hey I'll only have to work 4 10hr shifts. Gives me 3 days with my baby. Salazar-wise... everything's great so far but that's (I think anyway) bc he doesn't know me, yk? I told him from the first day... I got a kid so yk... that means I'm looking for something serious and long-term. Feeling he feels the same. I express how I feel about him every time I'm with him and he always assures me he feels the same too. Cool. Just that my mom and Thelma want to meet you and those are important ppl in my life and he said he'll talk to my mom. Gotta let him know what that means coming from my side. I tell him also, I'm not trying to make you do anything you don't want to do. Idk man. Supposed to see him today. Also have 13 tattoos total. Every time Thelmas comes home for drill we kinda get a new tattoo.

[warmuse]

The original ask should come with content warning, but since I can't grab their brain and do it, I'll slap it on myself

CW for weight judging, appareance judging, borderline abliest based on judging someone's performance and worth by visual appearance of sickness

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Wow it seems in this fandom it's just normal and not rude at all to speculate openly about someone's appearance and make wild conclusions, right?

No one is saying rockstar life or smoking or their schedule is healthy for the band but the current obsession that Damiano is sabotaging himself (and no one else in the band?) and placing the blame subtly on him doesn't sit right with me, don't you think?

No I don't care whether the conclusion was right or wrong, of course Damiano is tired from touring, making multiple big energetic gigs per week and travelling all over the place in strange beds are exhausting to anyone, of course having to go through so many commitment to one so anxious as him would take tolls which may or may not result in him smoking visibly more. It's the language and attitude of these people lording over their "blorbo rocker" or whatever that makes me roll my eyes so hard I can see the back of my own socket. To be called naive or dumb bc "I didn't see the warning sign" is just as dumb. Warning sign of what? Lung cancer? They have that stuck to every cigarette, do these people think Damiano is illiterate?

So what do the "Damiano's health experts" propose? Gonna shout at him to stop smoking? Boycott the streams bc he is not "in a healthy weight"? (Also pointing out someone's weight in this society is kinda gross, dont you agree?) Ask to control his diet because you don't find him in a desirable meat-to-fat ratio? Damn Damiano must have so many doctors and dieticians, the way people just throw comments about his appearance. Apparently in this age and in the world wide web, an adult human deserves to be judged like a farm animal in a fare riight? Because he's a frontman of the band and suddenly all things that you would feel uncomfortable and rude when shouted at from a stranger across the street becomes ok?

Being a fan is an one-way street, I'm afraid, no matter how much you love them you don't know everything, you shouldn't know everything, if you think you have rights to commodify and own one person's entire behavior go and reflect on how social media and parasocial marketing has given you a brainrot

Also, what about Ethan or Thomas? Do we not care about their health, too, or they're better people than Damiano who must do everything wrong and so immune to cigarette? Thomas and Ethan must be "dying and in horrible places" because he smokes and sometimes accompanies Vic partying? But sure they are totally fine! Ethan looks fine and unchanged so it's Damiano who is only doing "irresponsible behavior" clearly! Who's gonna walk up to Victoria and ask her to stop partying so much bc if she becomes a good girl she wouldn't get sick (a hyperbole anyway)? Wasn't there someone on this very app who were bold enough to speculate on her genetic pool because her mother died of cancer and she sometimes misses interviews? Do these people stop for one microsecond to think and go "hang on, is this something I can ask to a celebrity in public without looking like a nonce"? gods, is it possibly bad and toxic to buy their tour tickets because by making them work more, we're sabotaging their health?

It's not about "ignoring the obvious bc of rose tinted glass" it's about "being respectful of their life choices" by gods some people in this fandom sure sound like they need to go back to stanning fictional people who can be molded into zero problematic behavior so that they don't get to lash out to a total stranger (no going to their gigs multiple times doesn't count)

Okay but look at pics from 1-2 years ago vs now he looks older and looks sick, it's not make up

His face looks tired his eyes are becoming sunken, he lost weight, he's smoking more even his demeanor has changed

Everything is different about Damiano seriously something is off

He's not okay, it's not just the smoking it's the face the behavior and it's VERY apparent that he's not okay take off the rose colored glasses and look around look at all of them from 1 year ago to now and who looks the least okay? Damiano, the tour is taking an awful toll on everyone but Damiano is visibly in the worst state look at the facts and everything else he's not okay and we have to admit that

I think the tour is taking a toll on him and everyone else. They really need a break.

[murkycran]

Human!Dreamling AU

Hob is a former soldier turned history professor (original, I know)

Dream is a successful author; he writes under the pseudonym of Morpheus because he likes his privacy

Dream starts sitting in on Hob’s history classes because he’s doing research for his next book

Which would fine and all, if only 1) he had bothered to tell Hob that rather than just showing up one day, and 2) he wasn’t so distracting for the actual students in the class

As it is, Dream just starts showing up after class one day and Hob is like “um?? Can I help you???”

Dream: “your Department Chair said I could be here”

Hob: “well no one told ME that”

It starts off a bit contentious; Dream refuses to tell Hob what he’s writing about, just asks vague questions, and his attitude makes Hob feel inferior or like he’s being judged

In truth Dream is just an awkward idiot who has a hard time talking to people, hence the need for writing under a pseudonym and saving his privacy

Hob, finally reaching his limit with feeling like he’s being judged and deemed inadequate, asks why Dream doesn’t just sit in with the other history professors

Dream, getting huffy and defensive, says “my sister praised your passion and depth of knowledge in your field, but if you truly find me so bothersome, I’ll find someone else”

Hob: “sorry, did you say sister?”

Hob served in the army with Death, who was a combat medic

Death and Hob kept in touch after being discharged from the army, but they both kind of got busy with life and only occasionally saw each other on social media

While Hob went on to get his degree in history and teach, Death got her PhD in medicine and opened her own practice

When Dream complained about needing to do some research on an era of history for his next book to Death, she suggested Hob and talked about how good of a teacher he was. So Dream pulled some strings and got permission from the Department Chair to sit in on Hob’s classes.

Hob is a little embarrassed - he considers himself a pretty average professor and doesn’t have the same years of experience as some of the other professors - but feels honored that Death recommended him so highly

Ofc before he can actually say anything like that, Dream leaves because he’s Offended and needs to sulk

Feeling a little bad about how they parted (only a little bc Dream can be an ass when he wants to be), Hob reaches out to Death again and tells her about it. She’s pretty much like “sigh yeah that’s Dream for you, dw I’ll talk to him”

Cue her calling Dream and calling him an idiot and telling him he needs to use his words more rather than expecting everyone to simply accommodate him.

Death uses Older Sister Voice to strike a blow!! Dream sulks about it some more but realizes she’s right and shows up to the next class Hob is teaching

He doesn’t really apologize but he does say he overreacted; Hob DOES apologize for misjudging Dream, however. He’s still willing to give Dream a shot now that he knows Death specifically recommended him to Dream

Hob tried to ask Dream about the books he’s written before but Dream Will Not tell him what his pen name is; hob also tries to ask what the current book is about, and Dream still won’t talk about it

This is all frustrating to Hob, bc if he knew even what genre Dream was writing he could probably help more than by just giving a basic history lesson. He could be specific about what he tells Dream, give plot relevant info, etc etc.

Dream dgaf tho and plays it all close to the vest bc he doesn’t want someone ‘interfering’ with his writing process. It irks Hob, but he comes to see it as a game, trying to figure out Dream’s pseudonym from little clues in their conversations.

Leading to not only many more classes where Dream shows up (Hob’s students are INTRIGUED bc who is this man randomly hanging around our professor?), but also some one on one meetings either at Hob’s office or at the New Inn over drinks. Dream even offers to pay Hob, but Hob insists he just pay for the drinks when they go out, bc he sees his talks with Dream as a favor to his Death, who saved his life more than once out in the field

What started as a rough partnership evolves into a comfortable friendship over months, as their meetings eventually start to progress past just talking about history to other topics. They get to know each other outside the original context of their meetings by talking about things that, yknow, friends talk about. Food, hobbies, family, past experiences, etc.

I think the tipping point for Hob realizing he’s got a crush on Dream would be him coming into the university building where he teaches one day and seeing Dream talking to another professor.

All the social studies and liberal arts are taught in the same building. Dream showed up early for Hob’s class bc he thought he heard a different professor reciting Shakespeare to their class once. He likes Shakespeare ofc so he thought he’d show up a little early to listen to the Shakespeare class out of curiosity. He ends up in a discussion after the class ends with the professor. The professor, named Will (bc I think I’m hilarious), is an English professor who teaches a class on Shakespearean Literature to third and fourth year students.

On his way to his own class, Hob sees the two of them talking after the Shakespeare class ends, and feels a little weird about it but he has a class to teach so he ignores it

Or at least he tries to. The feeling grows when his class starts and Dream is nowhere to be seen for at least the first 30 min of class. When Dream finally does come in, it’s the latest he’s ever arrived and it bugs tf out of Hob so much he tells Dream after class that they can’t meet that day bc there’s a faculty meeting that Hob forgot about.

Dream is a little surprised and disappointed, but is okay with putting their meeting off for another day. After he leaves, Hob finds himself wondering exactly why he told Dream they couldn’t meet, bc now that Dream’s gone he regrets lying and just wants Dream to come back. Now irritated with both himself and Will the English professor, Hob goes home for the rest of the day to grade papers. If there’s a little more red on the essays than there normally is, that’s only bc his students had a particularly hard time with the recent unit and not at all bc he’s mad.

Hob doesn’t have any classes the next day, but he does actually have a meeting with the Department Chair about next semester’s classes, so he goes to the university. After his meeting with the Chair, he happens to walk by Will the English professor’s class out of curiosity and sees Dream sitting in the back of the class. Hob gets aggravated all over again, stewing outside the closed classroom door (it’s one of those with the window on the door) and thinking not very nice thoughts about Will the English professor when Dream looks towards him and sees Hob at the door. He looks surprised.

Without even thinking about it Hob automatically leaves bc shit! Dream caught him standing outside the class like a creepy stalker! Fuck. Hob drives all the way home mortified and cursing himself before he realizes he’s blushing all over. Cue the realization that hey maybe this is about more than just his friend becoming friends with Will the English professor.

I have more for this AU, but this post is getting a little long for mobile so I’m cutting it off here (for now…)

Now with a Part 2!

[sebsxphia]

Ok seb I CANNOT stop thinking about asshole frat boy jake pining after a really sweet, shy, wallflower type of girl 🥺 like she’s really quiet and doesn’t have a ton of friends and doesn’t really go out much, but her roommates drag her along to a party at jake’s frat house bc “you need to socialize” but of course they end up leaving her alone and that’s where Jake sees here standing all alone against the wall sipping from a red plastic cup and just looking absolutely miserable. He thinks she’s gorgeous so he walks up to her, ready to use all his charm and woo her into his bed for the evening.. but she’s not having any of it, not falling for his usual tricks because she’s smart enough to know what guys like him want. But Jake enjoys seeing how shy and flustered and blushy she got from all of his compliments and flirting, so he makes it his mission to try to win her over, inviting her to more frat parties (which she always very politely declines), sitting next to her in a class they share together and doing everything in his power to make her laugh because her sweet, quiet giggles are the only thing that makes the boring class bearable, spending lots of time in the campus library that he never dared step foot in before because he found out from her friend that she works there, maybe even asking her to tutor him or help him with a paper just so he could spend more time with her. And he’d be so shocked by the fact that he’s met someone who has him wanting to change his slutty frat boy ways because he’s genuinely starting to like her beyond just wanting to sleep with her 🥹

I CANNOT BEGIN TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS TROPE DEAR ANON SJNDAKKSNKDSJ

because all of jake’s friends would tease him for always hanging around you and actually wanting to study instead of party all the time, but jake would defend you with his life, even if you weren’t in the room with him at the time.

he loves seeing you enjoy a completely new side of life that he’s never experienced before. working hard and being proud of what you achieve, spending time on yourself, enjoying the quieter moments. he relishes each and every one of those moments with you.

thank you so, so much for this wonderful idea my dear anon!! mwah!! 💌💖🫶🏼