#which like. I am very used to hearing that i get called little lady ALLL the time and i know its just. like its just ! it’s a neutral thing

[cetoddle]

it really drives me crazy when like. okay u know how a lot of southern ppl tend to call people especially women like honey or sweetie or little lady like things like that (idk i’m sure there are ones for men too but i am a women so that’s what im familiar with) that’s just what they do they use terms of endearment like that very casually. it drives me crazy when people take those things as being condescending and insulting. like i get it i guess. but also that’s just like. that’s just how it is over there it isn’t coming from a place of malice (most of the time)

[kookie-vith-suga]

Unification

Word count: 1624

Warnings: A little angst but mostly ugly fluff

Author’s note: Wow I finally did it and finished that third part. I had it saved for like four months or so...

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Distance  -->  Closeness

unification

/ˌjuːnɪfɪˈkeɪʃ(ə)n/

Definitions: noun; The process of being united or made into a whole.

How slow time can run when you are really looking forward to something. But eventually the week had passed by and I had entered the plane last night. It was around 10 am as I stepped into the arrival hall. A little disorientated I looked around before spotting Jin with a great bouquet of flowers in his hands. The last remaining meters I ran towards him to throw myself into his arms. It was overly stormy and considering that he had a girlfriend probably inappropriate. But in that moment I couldn’t care less. Because for this short second he belonged to me.

“Y/N I have missed you so much!”, he hugged me a little tighter.

“Me too, Jin”, I nuzzled into his shoulder.

“You must be exhausted from the long flight. Let us go to me so you can relax a little before the event tomorrow.” he let go of me and picked up my suitcase.

I nodded willingly also the loss of contact made me frown for a second.

We arrived the house where he lived in a little over 20 minutes. I gotta say I was perplexed about this place. Not only was it huge. The interior decoration was beautiful. Everything was harmonising with each other.

“This is so beautiful! You can really see that a woman is living here.” I gulped. Saying that felt like a slap in the face.

“Umm..really...funny that you say that since she...umm nevermind”, he started to hem and haw., “Should I give you a small tour? Of course you can stay with me if you want”, he quickly changed the topic. I looked over to him out of the corner of my eye. Why is he reacting like this?

“Sure. Will that be okay with Kathi?”, I asked.

“Yeah, she is not going to be home anyway”, he answered briefly while turning around.

I got the feeling he was hiding something so I persisted on that topic. “Oh really? She is not coming to such a important event of you?”

He hesitated a little before he answered: “Of course she is coming! She just has a important shooting. But will be back tomorrow for the party.”

“Glad to hear that”, I tried to let it sound sincere.

“Now let us do the tour!”, a smile danced over his lips again as he reached for my hand. I could not help but blush a little. If he looks at me that way the world is suddenly a good place.

The night was very short. We talked a lot about his the past years and how the restaurant grew.. The glowing in his eyes every time he mentioned it warmed my heart. He is truely happy here.

We just reached that huge building were his restaurant was located. A lot of people already gathered in the lobby. They were all holding a glass of champagne in their hands. It was only short after that they offered us one as well. Jin went away to great the people and invited everyone to sit down. I guess there was a seating plan since everyone seemed to know which spot was theirs. I stood a little lost in the middle not sure where to go and how to act.

“This way, Y/N.” Suddenly Jin was back at my side offering his arm for me to link it with him. I did as said and he lead me to a table at the front of a little stage. All tables were decorated splendidl. Basically like the rest of the restaurant. I felt like I was at a wedding.  As the perfect gentleman Jin is, he pulled a chair out for me to sit. I showed him a thankful smile. He sat down next to me.

“Are you not gonna talk to your guest?”, I asked overly surprised.

“Y/N you are my guest of honour and I have not seen you for long. I have plenty of time to talk with them in the future. Who is important tonight is you.” His smile was so loving I nearly fell for it.

“Thank you. I am happy and thankful that I can be here to share this experience with you.”

His hand reached over to mine and squeezed it. I looked at him with a small smile and intertwined my finger with his. He did not remove his hand from there on so we stayed like this. The more I enjoyed every second of our time together the more the remorse spread in my chest knowing that everything was temporary.

A little later they started serving a variation of exquisite courses. One better than the other and like this the evening went on.

I was having heated conversation with the lady who was sitting to my right side about the formula of the chocolate soufflé when I spotted a familiar face at the entrance, dressed in a long tight dress with sequins. I choked on my last word and spun around but Jin was not sitting next to meanymore. He just stepped on the stage and was handed a microphone.

“Hello ladies and gentlemen. My dear guest and close friends. I want to use this moment to thank all of you for coming. It means a lot to me that all of you stayed with me and helped me through times that were hard! And even if it did not seemed like that but these times did exist. So this is not only my earning but the one of all of us combined. Thank you”, His eyes were fixed on her before he bowed deeply, “Since we are already talking about important people in my life I cannot forget to name that one persen. She inspired me from the very beginning to never stop working on my dreams and-”

That was the last thing I had heard. As fast as I could I had left the room not wanting to hear about the reality. Maybe if I get away as fast as possible I can stay in my play-pretend just a bit longer....

It was the same moment my heel cracked and I fell to on the cold asphalt. I cried out in pain and tears welled in my eyes. This is what I get for desiring someone’s love who does not belong to me. I buried my face in my hands and started crying.

“Y/N!”, I heard someone calling me. I was scared to raise my head. I knew who it was and I knew what will happen now. That fucking scared me.

“Oh my god, are you okay?” Jin was now closer.

“I am fine”, I tried to regulate my voice so he could not hear that I cried, “You can go back! The other guest must wait for you!”

“Why did you leave, Y/N? I was about to hold a little speech and all I see is you storming out.” Jin asked softly caressing over my head. I bit down on my lip to prevent more tears from falling. I did not even stop when I tasted blood.

“I just needed to catch some air”, I tried lying again.

It was silent for a while. I hoped he maybe believed me and really left. I raised my head to check and I saw him leaning against the wall. He seemed to be lost in his thoughts.

“Was it because of what I said? I had been afraid that confessing that way could be too much. But you need to believe me that I do meant what I said. Every word.” He kneeled down in front of me and took my hands in his. That was when he noticed my tear stained face. A shocked expression formed his face. “Is it really that bad to hear me saying “I love you”? I know it is not fair to inquire that from you but I need to know if our love has a future. Or if it was just a figment of mine...”

My head felt like exploding. My brain was not able to comprehend what he just said and connect it with the situation before. “W-W-W-What?! You love me?”, I studdered.

“Yes! That was what I said.”

“But did you not say you love Kathi? What happened between the two of you?”

“We broke up short after I came here. That was when I started writing you.”

“But you never said anything...why did you never said anything?! ”, I yelled. It was a sudden anger that overcame me. I let it out by drumming my fists against his shoulders.

“I know. I know I should have but I wanted to surprise you with this.”

“This is not okay, you know! Why did you waited so long?! Do you know how much I have suffered because of you?!” Everything I had bottled up was coming out now.

He put his hands on top of mine. “I wanted to be someone you can be proud of....That is why I waited for so long. I wanted to have something I could present you. How could you love a loser that had been not even close to our dream?”

“Our dream?”, I repeated. Lacking in words to say. Alll I knew was that the anger was blown away. “But Jin I have loved you from the very beginning. After my first day I knew that I wanted to be with you... You alone have always been enough for me.” I slung my arms around his neck making him fall backwards. I now had the chance to witness the most heavenly sound I knew...His laugh.

This is true happiness. We together.

That must be it...sorry for the super cringe...still suck at fluff ;)

♥ Stay tuned for more stories ♥

[jonnieandkaykay]

Kayla goes to Lisbon, Portugal

Belated Lisbon post!

So first impression, Lisbon was kinda weird! I don’t know how to describe it really. Maybe it was the neighborhood we stayed in, maybe it was the white tile sidewalks blinding my poor little nightshifter vampire eyes, IDK!!! 

MAYBE it was the TERRIBLE overnight train we took to get there....

So, first of all, Antonia and I are leaving Madrid. The subway info said we had 2-3 stops to get to the Chamartin station to catch the overnight train to Lisbon. Well that was a LIE - 13 stops later, we have eaten away all of our buffer transit time, and are sprinting up three gigantic escalators. WOOF. Then we find out we are platform 15, almost the furthest platform away. So we are running down this giant hallway, stopping at the ticket printer which looks nothing like the one we printed our tickets from for the last Renfe train. So we said screw it, our only hope is to get to the platform. After receiving the biggest eyeroll of the century from ticket counter lady, she magically scanned our QR codes on our tickets which, let me remind you, are NOT TICKETS despite the fact that you can clearly scan me in (thanks Renfe, GET WITH THE TIMES IT IS 2017 DO YOU HEAR ME), and FINALLY we were on the train. The conductor was looking at us like, these bitches are never going to make it back here in time if we make them go print their tickets. Well thank goodness they let us on.

So we settle in to our seats, realigning our expectations as we realize the website was a lie and NO we do not have reclining seats and NO we do not have Wifi or plugs. I was pretty unperturbed by this only because we had an old school Renfe train for a short leg of our previous journey, so I knew the lack of Wifi and outlets was a very real possibility. So, granted that we had to return to the dark ages and survive this 10 hour trip sans wifi and outlets, of course we made our way to the dining car to purchase a bottle of wine and try to come down from my almost anxiety attack of trying to board this goddamn train. 

Sleeping was rough - I was lucky because I had two pillows, one for my neck and one for my butt, but I kept waking up to each stop wondering if it was ours. I mean hell, Lisbon is so close to the coast, if we miss our stop, where are we going to end up, the OCEAN?! But you never know. So anyways, I thought we could rough this overnight train out, but in the end I was so glad this was the only one of our trip, because when we deboarded at 0800 and that sunlight hit my poor little sleep deprived eyes, I knew that we SIMPLY could. not. even. that day.

Our hostel was Angels Inn Guesthouse. I have to say, we ended up inadvertently saving the best for last on this one! The facility was amazing - so clean, awesome rate, we had a private room with two beds AND a huge wardrobe AND a patio off of the room AND the kitchen and *freeee* laundry right across the hall. #winning all around, I would say. We got there around 9, and all but begged for early check in after that awful train ride. They were super nice, but just didn’t have the room ready yet. So there we were, two zombies just wandering the streets of Lisbon until we could JUST TAKE A NAP ALREADY. 

Post glorious six hour nap in our amazing hostel, we enjoyed a late night dinner in the main plaza, took a walk, and saw a giant impressive looking arch thing (yeah, I’m more often than not super ignorant with names of landmarks and stuff. oops). Then we had a chill night of doing FREEEE laundry woohoo. 

The next day we had brunch at Sama Sama, an amazing little vegan crepe shop with excellent coffee, smoothies, fresh juice, and crepes. Disclaimer, this place is also good for non vegans like myself :p

We then took the train (a DIFFERENT ticket than the metro so pay attention!) to the Oerias coast for a couple hours of kayaking in the sea. I was so excited to enjoy some nature, and even more excited that I got to learn how to be the back person in the kayak so that Jonathan doesn’t have to do all the work forever when we double kayak! The waters were pretty rough, but we had so much fun. At one point, our guide tied us to his kayak with this leash thing so we didn’t get swept away by the waves. We also got to see a few landmarks from the coast. 

After kayaking, we had a three course seafood meal at some random restaurant. Of course we couldn’t go ALLL the way to the coast and not have seafood. Then, we went to Belem and saw the tower of Belem at sunset and the monument nearby. A pretty productive day of kayaking and sightseeing, if I do say so myself.

Later that night, we went to some club, which was actually pretty good for a Wednesday. And then the shit hit the fan when I decided to take a taxi home. Anyone that knows me, knows I just can’t be anywhere away from home unattended or I will get lost beyond comprehension. Well, I couldn’t go to Europe without having at least one of these experiences. First of all, Antonia knows this. Second of all, there were taxis out the wazoo right outside this club. What could go wrong?! Well, the taxi dropped me off at the wrong street corner, and I don’t speak a lick of Portuguese, THAT’S WHAT WENT WRONG. So there I am, at the wrong exit of the Anjos metro station, thinking, I can get myself out of this! The other exit has to be somewhere around here! So I walk around and around and around, can’t find it. I turn on my data plan. Roaming is shit. Google maps is just the blue dot (me) chasing the red dot (hostel) in some cruel white abyss because none of the maps, not even the grid would load. Damnit damnit damnit. So I’m *this close* to calling Jonathan to have him help me navigate when I find the second taxi, who takes me to the right place. PRAISE THE LORT. Then 10 minutes later Antonia walks in the door around 0500 and is super confused about why I’m awake and talking Jonathan on the phone all upset - it’s because LOST HAPPENED. Anyways, nothing bad happened so all’s well that ends well. 

Pics to come!

-KayKay