#which is why i only thought out the oaks!! i hope ppl who see this use it as inspo for the other families

[kaseyskat]

thought i'd explain my barest bones pjo au: i haven't fully explored the rest of the families because i'm a one trick pony but i have the oaks mostly figured out!!!

henry is the son of demeter and barry becomes Obsessed with divinity and immortality. he tries so so so hard to gain the attention of the gods again, and ultimately resents henry for having even half of a god's blood in him. eventually henry leaves, isn't powerful enough on his own to attract TOO much attention, meets mercedes, falls in love, has the twins.

each twin has legacy abilities to a minor extent (sparrow moreso than lark, for that fun fun angst) but also they both attract the attention of a god themselves when they're older! for lark it's athena, who he meets when he's building a safehouse for demigods on his own time. and for sparrow it's apollo, whom he meets at an art gallery when sparrow's showing his own exhibits, having fully tapped into art as his passion. lark ends up with a baby hero, sparrow ends up with baby normal, it's a fun time !

sparrow still marries rebecca in this au, but she is FULLY a shield for normal and sparrow both: masking their scent while also probably having the ability to see through the Mist and just never mentioning it LMAO. and lark, realizing that he can't care for a young demigod child, ends up giving hero to sparrow to raise: her and normal are raised fully as siblings and would have no reason to think otherwise until they're claimed

[eclecticash22]

For the anon asking about the Norma Jeane anon! LD goes into more depth on this.

**Trigger Warning: sexual themes, self harm, suicide**

Also, before you begin reading I want to make sure that we’re on the same page. No judgment is welcome here. Anon doesn’t want to be judged and I do not want to see judgment. You’re entitled to your opinion, but if you have anything negative to say, then I ask that you keep it to yourself. This is a judgment free zone and it will not be tolerated! Thank you for being kind human beings.

Hi this is LD from the Norma Jeane ask. I was gonna answer this in your ask but the letter limit made it hard to explain. I ask that when you post this that my username remains unknown. To respond to the other anon, I asked another psychic on tumblr who I was in a past life. She said a European woman between the 50’s-70’s. Now I’m not sure what made me decide to look up Marilyn Monroe but I did and I just felt something. I’ve looked into her and we really have a lot of similarities and synchronicities. Our childhood is similar. My mother is someone that part of me loves but another part would rather stay away. My dad is in my life, but as rarely as we see each other he may as well be absent. Norma Jeane would go to the beach with her mom sometimes and she’s always loved the beach. The beach for me is one of the few places where all of my worries disappear. I overthink a lot. But being at the beach, there’s just one thing on my mind and that’s the water. ( I’m also the same person that asked you if I was a mermaid sorry😅). Anyway, like Norma Jeane I’ve also been sexualized at a young age. Like her, it started with ppl in my family. Idk i just always seemed to attract ppl in that way. I had mixed feelings about it at first. I loved the feeling of sex, craved it lots of times(I heard that not everyone who has been sexually exposed at a young se stays away from sex and the opposite may happen instead). However on the other hand, I felt dirty for the ppl that I’ve had those intimate moments with. It was never rape because i was never forced. It would just be suggested by a friend or cousin and I would give in. I always had a hard time saying no to ppl. I felt guilty and ashamed whenever I would touch myself( I probably should’ve warned from the beginning that this might get a bit sexual). However, I’m starting to embrace my sexuality and am learning that whatever attracts ppl to me is my own kind of power, so long as nobody takes advantage of that. I’ve never been in any foster home or orphanages but I remember my mom threatening me a lot of times about cps taking me away and telling me I would live in a foster home. I’ve stayed in numerous of different people’s households. Some family members. Some friends who I clung to( I think I have abandonment issues, I get very attached to ppl I like). Idk I was just always looking to stay with a family that wasn’t my own. I’m also very shy now in contrast to my friendly younger self. Despite that I’ve always been told that I’m good with words and speaking. I’ve always loved reading and am good at writing, although I don’t really like writing much. If you knew that Marilyn Monroe loved to read and wrote poetry, then congratulations you know more about her than most ppl who walk around with her on shirts and posters of her on their walls for aesthetic reasons( something that bothered me at first but whatever). I’ve also been into acting. My mom told me that I was good with speaking in public and that I should try it. She encouraged me to join in middle school but my shyness and fear of being embarrassed or made fun of prevented me from doing that. I tried out tho in high school. Although that was short lived because the theatre teacher left, she told me that I was good and I enjoyed acting very much. Animals are something else that I really loved. I always wanted a dog, but because I’ve lived in apartments almost my whole life, I always ended up with fish, which was probably a sign from my higher self that I was a mermaid but that’s a different story. I’m sorry I’m all over the place and I keep losing track. There’s just so many things to cover. Los Angeles is another place I’ve been interested in going to. Specifically Sherman Oaks. That’s because I had an obsession with the late Cameron Boyce, who now that I look back on had a few things in common with Marilyn Monroe, such as height, where he lived, being an actor, writing poetry, and dying at such an untimely age. My walk is something else that I think we have in common.

This doesn’t happen often because it’s not really noticeable, but every now and then someone would point out how I would twist or how my hips would sway whenever I walked. My mom looked at me funny once when I was younger when I walked in front of her. This is because I’m a guy. A bisexual guy specifically, which makes sense since Marilyn has been with many men. Maybe she’s been with a few women as well, or maybe I’m fully gay and just won’t accept it yet idk. I’ve always been feminine as well. I don’t identify as a woman, but I do feel like one lots of times. I’ve also been told a few times that i should be a model, mainly I think because of my long legs. A trait Marilyn also had. Maybe because of my face too but I don’t think I’m THAT good looking. Then again, there were ppl who didn’t find Marilyn attractive enough either. I’ve also been in a mental hospital once. I’ve had suicidal thoughts and even tried it a few times. I’ve seen a therapist, and right now, with how I’ve currently been feeling I wonder if I’m bipolar. I also suffer from insomnia and anxiety. Again, if you know more about Marilyn Monroe than just looks and glamour than you’ll understand. I also love the 50’s aesthetics. Although I’m a fan of the 80’s and 90’s as well so ig that probably doesn’t mean much. I love roses and been interested in gardening. I’ve also always wanted to live in one of those Spanish homes. I always found them beautiful.I love love. I love men, I love children. I have a lot of fantasies. Part of those fantasies are of being with various men(I’m not getting into details). But other fantasies involves being with a secure, fun, intelligent man who really loves me and having children. Which is weird since I’m a guy but Marilyn has always wanted to marry with a man she really loves, have kids, and be a good wife. After she settles down and retires from her career ofc. It hurts me so much that none of my relationships seem to last. They always leave. I’m currently trying to recover from a “break up” right now. I’ve determined my beauty and value based on how many guys are attracted to me, which is cruel and untrue. There are times when I feel like I can’t really live and be happy without someone by my side. I have a huge fear of being alone and rejected and unhappy my entire life. Just the thought depresses me. I can’t express enough how much I’ve loved and gotten attached to boys, thinking I would be loved back and live a life together, only to be heartbroken. I think in this life, I have to learn lessons that I didn’t learn in my past life to not depend so much on men to keep me happy and that I shouldn’t get so attached. Not all relationships are forever. There are probably more similarities but that’s all I can think of for now, and this is long enough already. Now, even with all of these similarities it still doesn’t prove that i was Marilyn Monroe. I’m pretty sure a lot of ppl can relate to most if not all of what I just said. So I went to you Ash to ask if Joe DiMaggio was my twin flame in my past life(yes that was me too Ash I’m so sorry). I feel like Marilyn and Joe were twin flames in that life and I’ve had dreams of this guy who looks very similar and have similar characteristics to Joe. When you told me Joe DiMaggio was in fact my twin flame, I saw this as another confirmation that I could’ve been Marilyn Monroe in a past life, however I still couldn’t be 100% sure so I decided to just pop the question I really wanted. I asked Ash if I was a girl named Norma Jeane. I didn’t feel comfortable saying Marilyn Monroe because I didn’t want to be seen as those egocentric nut jobs who claim to be the reincarnation of famous ppl. I also knew less ppl would know who Norma Jeane is compared to if I put Marilyn Monroe. In fact it’s these very reasons why I’m hoping that what I’m telling you doesn’t get out of hand. I don’t like TOO much attention and I don’t want to be backlashed for believing in this. Speaking of which, Marilyn also

Didn’t like all of the attention and invasion of privacy a while after being famous. She would walk around in “disguises” and give fake names whenever she checked into hotels. Which is somewhat similar to things I’ve done before. Marilyn and I both seemed to be secretive and enjoy our privacy. Not that we weren’t honest or open, it’s just not everyone needs to know everything you know. Also I’ve always said that I wanted to die in my sleep. I’ve always said that because I wanted to die a peaceful and painless death, not knowing that I did die in my sleep in my past life. Anyway, yeah so I asked if I was Norma Jeane and I got a yes, which was a relief. I’m sorry anon that this probably what you wasn’t looking for. I didn’t have any psychic moments. I didn’t have any dreams or recall any memories. Marilyn Monroe didn’t appear to me and tell me that I was her in a past life. Everything that I learned is only due to research, signs, intuition, and these two lovely and helpful tumblr psychics that I mentioned. Ofc part of me will always have doubts whether or not I really am Marilyn Monroe. It’s only natural to have doubts. Just like how I have my doubts if I’m really a mermaid in the astral or spirit realm or afterlife or whatever you call it. But until I get proof that I’m not Marilyn Monroe or a mermaid or that Joe DiMaggio wasn’t her twin flame, I will go on believing these things to be true or at least a possibility. But I’ll never be 100% sure until I’m dead. This has honestly been painful to talk about considering I’m bringing up not only my past life but also my past in THIS life, which some of it still hurts. But it’s been nice sharing this. Thank you❤️.

*Hey, LD! Thank you for sharing your story. And no need to apologize for asking about being a mermaid or Joe DiMaggio! I’m happy to answer your questions  ❤️ ❤️ *

[atomickrakatoa]

Episode 4 - "LIKE WTF, WHY ARE THESE PEOPLE SO DEAD!!" - Bryan

Bryan

Well the adil vote went exactly as I thought it would. Easy peasy lemon squeezey. But yknow. Of course right when I’m starting to feel kind of comfortable a double tribal is thrown my way! Like wtf! I just wanted to relax and work as a team and build up that morale. BUT NO! Now I gotta stress over a guaranteed tribal. 

Bryce

Ooh so the vote went according to  plan wish we were more active but hopefully that means that I have a better shot at individual immunity. I guess I'm fine if we keep losing tbh because ppl will just vote the inactives out. Like I was shocked that Jay was in our tribe when I saw him on the hangout LOL I need to form that social bond.

Bryan

Me: sends in completed maze. Me: then notices I missed a word. FUCUCYCUCKXKDKABWJOWKDDB Other than that. I feel like I did ok in the challenge. I don’t really need to win the immunity anyways, so it’s ok. I’m totally safe because there is no way I could be a target. 

Willa

Double tribal sucks tits n asky I'm not doing immunity tho screams Hopefully I stay alive 

Jake

This double tribal got me shook aff, i doubt i'm gonna win immunity, but i should have enough votes to stay if they plan on targeting me again!

Dana

I can't handle another crackedt tribal council. I have work all day tomorrow so this is very yikes. Whatever I'm going to let everyone vote Jake and then i'm going to throw my vote at some random bitch and hope it sticks.

Bryan

When Logan says it’s about to get cracked but the truth is with this tribe that’s impossible becAUSE THE ONLY ONES ACTIVE ARE ME QUIL AND BRYCE! LIKE WTF, WHY ARE THESE PEOPLE SO DEAD!! At least this means that I’m not gonna get voted out because we have a bunch of sheep(both literal and metaphorical) at the slaughter.

**Liana and QuilLynn win immunity**

Nic 

so colin and liana have immunity and im SURE dana/zach/trixie/nicholas wont vote for eachother which leaves me and jake :) i think willa is with them tbh. they can act like theyre not a group.. but like.. okay............. any friends in a game are automatically gonna have some sort of bond. even if it doesnt last forever or if they dont trust eachother 100 percent. either way theyre gonna align for atleast a few rounds and thats the tea. anyone saying "oh well X backstabbed me 2 months ago" and "oh X insulted me once" as reason for the premade not being real... has cold tea. its expired. so if thats my downfall atleast i can say its not cause of me. its cause of them bcuz theyre ugly. unless they turn on eachother then i take this all back

QuilLynn

I won immunity!! Wooooo! So I'm actually fairing a lot better than I thought I would be this season. My tribe seems to like me and they aren't seeming to be worried about any relationships I might have with the villains, which is good! If I had it my way then the heroes wouldn't have to see another tribal, the less villains at merge the better! :p That being said, I am glad to have individual immunity, A) because it's my first individual win in the Atomic series and B) because you can never be too safe, and I'm always paranoid! 

Bryce

Okay so its awk quil wants chips because of his connection with his wife at the villains but i like him so :/ want to not vote him. Apparently christains name came up too which is fine id rather do that. But juts need to make sure koh sai does it too

Trixie

DANA IS TRYING TO MAKE PPL BELIEVE I FUCK THE SIMS. IT'S NOT TRUE. SHE WANTS ATTENTION. I CANT RESPOND IN HOUSE CHAT BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO SO I CANT FIGHT HER UGH. I HATE HER. JK but she's a bitch

Later...

The Legend of Logan Part 2 Logan the furby was very handsome, he often had the village girl and boy furbies always trying to win over his affection. Logan had big, brown furby eyes, and a small yellow round beak that was good for eating. His fur pattern was a sleek oak colour that shone beautifully in the summer sun. Dare I say it, he was definitely the cutest furby this side of Furbytopia. The evil witch furby Dana tried to put a curse on Logan for being so damn beautiful because she was jealous of the fact that she was ugly and hideous. Logan ran away and became a warrior, that's why he is on this mission to save Princess Furby END CHAPTER

Kelsey

Oh, the sitch? Oh, but that's what she wanted. *sighs* Coming out of the last elimination, Adil has sashayed away and it's quite sad. I really really REALLY didn't want him to go but, ahem...I didn't exactly help in any way. However, I ended up staying and at this point, I'm done being sappy over it, I'm just frustrated by how much I'm NOT slaying the game by now. If Adil was voted out due to his timezone not aligning with everyone else's, it can't be long before they vote out the girl who usually doesn't show up, right? I do think that this individual immunity twist is inadvertently in my favour because I can't let the tribe down this week if I perform badly. On top of that, Quill came through on her word of making a Koh Sai alliance which...is good, but girl, who are these people? Jeez, I STILL don't feel close to any of them, especially Akito. It's my only alliance and my only shot of staying alive but do I want to sit in this boat forever? No, Guys and Dolls, I do not. This alliance ostracizes Chips and Rob...I'm fine with eliminating Chips since I just don't think we're getting along as much as I need to with the others but AKITO is getting information from him. ...If it came down to it, at this point, I'd rather keep Rob and perhaps eliminate Akito if need be...I get it, Akito's a sweetheart, Akito's one of my friends, I'm a heroine, all that but...I can't be the only one thinking that I need to DO something to make my mark, can I? C'mon empty audience, work with me. ...Think yew. The more I think about it, the less I feel like being nice this time around. I've got my work cut out for me if I want to be The Queen, especially after my rough start so...I think my next game move is hitting up Quill and Bryce as much as I can so I can just get ready for what I need to do. The name of Kelsey Valentana Mikaelson is still in high morale standing but I WANT to sully it this time around, you know? And this season, I might just be the fox in the hen hound. I've got an ache to do something significant in Survivor for once. No names have been suggested to me so far and I don't feel in danger, so because of that; Akito, Sailor Lava, my dear...I hope you're ready to meet one FOXY lady. And THAT'S all there is to it~! ...I miss Jordan and Jackson... -Kelsey V Mikaelson <3 #TeamBees #TeamIBelieveInYall

Zach

I'm voting Jake. Willa is too. Trixie/Dana aren't. They're voting Nic. I don't know who Nic/Colin/Nicholas are voting. Tonight's going to be am ess and i' mgoing to fucking leave i'm so mad

Bryce

Christian wants an alliance with me and bryan but like I already am voting them KSHDHFKSDHFKS. Also now bryan wants akito gone but I dont want that at all

Akito

This is hectic I want to find an advantage that will benefit my game and only mine. Screw Koh Sai. Screw the heroes. There can only be 1 hero and that should be me!

QuilLynn

So right now I want Chips out, as much as I like him, I feel like he is going to be a the biggest threat for me down the road and also think he’s the person who probably trusts me the least. The problem is, nobody else wants to vote chips. Most seem to want to vote out Christian and then Christian and Bryan want to vote out Akito. There is no way I’m voting out akito so i’m just trying to ignore their messages but part of me does want to bring up the idea of voting chips to them.

Bryan

Me earlier: welp this is gonna be an easy vote. Just get rid of Christian and everyone is on board cool. Me later: welp Christian wants to make an alliance with me and Bryce. Hey I’d be down iF THE VOTES WERENT ALREADY GOING TO CHRISTIAN!! Me now: ok I think I can flip these votes to akito with getting suspicion. Bryce is on board. Christian will be too. I’ll tell quil that Christian finally messaged me so I’d feel bad voting them out when akito still hasn’t. NOW I GET TO GAIN AN ALLY WITHOUT LOSING ANY!!

Jay

Hiiii so i almost won immunity but quillynn beat me, which is okay I love Quillynn she's my closest ally. Her along with akito and chips are like the only people I talk to. Anyways I'm voting Christian because we dont get along bye bye

Christian

So the original plan was to have a three person alliance with Quil and Kelsey, but Kelsey is kind of inactive and only pops up once every two days. So lol. I decided Bryce and Bryan, because I genuinely do like the two of them! I think it could go somewhere(our alliance). I guess we'll see after tonight. 

Nicholas

i sure diddly darn do hope trixie/zach/dana stay loyal 2 meh

Chips

I don't have much to add, unfortunately. Last round's tribal council went as well as I had assumed it would go with one person self-voting, a vote against me, and the rest for Adil who ended up leaving. I assume that the others lied to Adil in saying they were voting for me which kind of scares me that they were okay with just throwing my name around but also doesn't scare me because they did it with no intention of following through. I think, if I heard Logan right (I probably didn't) that when Adil did vote for me that he said something about how he hoped I didn't play an idol? I... dunno for sure, but that's interesting since I feel at this point that it's impossible to even have an idol since finding one takes a million steps or getting lucky like whoever that person is who has immunity this round. Anyway, I decided to look for an idol because that's what you do ??? and I found a walking stick. I'm really proud of my walking stick and have chosen to put on a Gandalf costume to go along with it. I shall speak friend and enter. Also, fly you fools and um... other Gandalf quotes. http://img52.laughinggif.com/pic/HTTP2ZvcmV2ZXJ5b3VuZ2FkdWx0LmNvbS9fdXBsb2Fkcy9pbWFnZXMyL2xvdHJfZ2FuZGFsZi5naWYlog.gif So the immunity challenge was doing a crossword and I feel I did abysmally. Because you know - ICONS ONLY or whatever the cool kids are saying these days. I felt good about myself for finding all of the names (except Logan) pretty quickly but then it took me a good two minutes to find Logan. Also, the file took like a full minute to download on top of it! I'm awful! So yeah... I lost and QuilLynn won which means that I'm not immune. So the weird thing about my tribe is that most of the players go through cycles where they're inactive. One day it'll be Christian... one day it'll be Kelsey... the next day it'll be Akito. It's just kind of a thing. And so right as results are posted Jay tells me that he thinks we should vote Christian because the two disagree. Bryce and Bryan say the same thing, but say that it's because of inactivity. QuilLynn says that she has already heard the name and that she's cool with it because she agreed with the statements that were made to her... so that's who I'm voting until- https://media.giphy.com/media/6BrfyBtKtCcpy/giphy.gif Bryan messages me and says "Yo chipssssssss"or something to that effect with the S all drawn out. He says that he doesn't want to vote Christian anymore and that he is hoping to flip the vote to Akito. He says that Christian is not as inactive because she said hi to him today and Akito has ignored him. I ask him if he thinks we'll have the numbers and he says that he is pretty sure that we will. I'm cool with it - this early on I'm cool with the vote if it's not me and not someone I can see myself working with in the longterm. So yeah, if everyone is telling the truth I think Akito will be the next to go from our tribe and I should have made another round. I'm sort of hoping for a swap of some sort after this round. Maybe something where we go onto three tribes or four tribes would be cool? I mean, I know small tribes are quite a bit more scary, but it'd make for an interesting change. If not, I'm hoping that we at least get a normal immunity challenge so that we can stop going to tribal council. I don't mind going if it's merge, but when it's premerge I get that feeling the next shot is going to be in my head. https://vignette.wikia.nocookie.net/glee/images/e/e2/Office-karen-shrug.gif/revision/latest?cb=20150106110113

Liana

I won immunity! Yay me.

Christian

Kelsey "ill be at tribal so I'm just going to wait" lolol. Kelsey told me that earlier a few people were thinking of voting me tonight, and she told me in pm's that I don't need to worry and she's going to vote Akito. If she is, why does she need to wait. If Akito isn't going tonight, then it's me. I won't be shocked. 

[hellotvv]

More Life

More Life. It’s been a while since I recap, and idk how much detail I will go in when writing this. Since, I’m kinda lazy, but I do wanna recap everything as well.

Friday, my first day back home for Spring Break! On Thursday, it was my last day of finals. But I wasn’t too stressed on Thursday tho, since it was an easy Greek Myth final. I could have went home on Thursday, but idk I was kinda sleep deprived after studying so hard for Wednesday final. I also wanted one last day to hang out with my friends, and I recall having a nice dinner with Brent, Brooke, and Elizabeth! Oh also playing some Sm4sh with Brent, since he finished with his finals on Thursday too. I actually saw Kai for the first time in like 2 months that day too LOL, since she had a Greek Myth final with me. I actually haven’t seen her in a long time, since she pretty much just stays at her bf’s place. But anyways, on Friday morning, I woke up early and packed for spring break! I was on my way home and texted Fyona that I was on my way home. She told me that she had a shoot around 3ish at Huntington Beach Pier, and asked me to come along. I asked who it was, and she linked me her instagram. I was like ehh sure why not, nothing better to do. So I picked up Fyona once I arrived in the OC area, she treated me to Raising Canes (which was really sweet), and then we went to Ikea for a quick ice cream run lol. Then we met up with Ali (model) at Huntington Beach Pier, and we shot. She was Laos, which is pretty rare uh ethnicity. I have a cousin that is half Laos and half Vietnamese haha, and him + his Laos mom + sister are really tan. So I was surprised Ali was so light skinned. Anyways, she goes to UCI and was fairly talkative/nice to work with! She was friendly and I’d work with her again in the future given the chance. I think I ended up dropping Fyona home after the shoot, and I’m not quite sure what I did Friday night tbh... Friday was a while back and became kinda a blur ;-;.. This is what I get for not posting about my recaps earlier.

Saturday was a pretty fun day. Since it was BEYOND!! I woke up and hung out with Catherine, if I recalled correctly. Haven’t seen her in a while, so we grabbed lunch together. I don’t remember what we got for lunch :I ugh, I legit can’t remember ;-; I feel bad when my memory lets me down. But yeah, I recall having a good time catching up with her, and I believed I said hi to her grandma when picking her up. Catherine told me her family misses me lolol, and I think it’s cute! Idk ;-; I think I’m not too bad with parents, but apparently Stefanie’s parents didn’t like me that much, and my first gf (well technically Kristy is first real gf, but 6th grade ‘gf’ Jennifer)’s parents didn’t like me and thought I was very spoiled boy since picky eater. So idk, I really I guess appreciate it being liked by parents :D I remember Kristy’s parents (her mom especially) liked me ;-;!! OH wait, checked google maps history and remember now LOL. We went to yard house, since she wanted to go there, and went to the Irvine Spectrum one. It was nice, we walked around, and yeah! Then after dropping her off, I grabbed the stuff that I packed for beyond, and headed to Redlands! I remember The Heirs kdrama shot at University of Redlands for Lee Min Ho’s campus haha. I arrived to the Airbnb at like 4:30 PMish, and it was pretty cute! It had enough beds + softbed for everyone (all 8 of us). Chloe was already there and Arthur. Kris (Rebecca’s bf and Arthur’s hs friend) arrived a bit after, then Bryan came, then Amanda(Rebecca’s HS friend), then Rebecca and Amy arrived. Originally group was just Rebecca, Amy, Chloe, Bryan, and me, but grew to include Kris, Arthur, and Amanda. Amanda, Kris, and Arthur seemed pretty nice and talked to them a bit. Then the boys pregamed while the girls were getting ready... They ended up taking over 2 HOURS to get ready holy jesus. Bryan and I were getting pretty tilted, since Beyond starts at 5, and some of the good acts were at like 6:45, but it’s like 7ish and they were still doing makeup... ._. Bryan and I were even considering just calling an uber by ourselves and get there asap first. But yeah, the girls finished, and we all pregamed a bit. I only took 3 shots, since Bryan and I were gonna roll O_O... I was gonna roll for my first time, and it feels like idk I’m a bad boy now :( but I’m a good sweet boy deep down maybe, I don’t smoke, rarely drink, and yeah... Idk how I got convinced, but Bryan was very convincing. He didn’t drink too much either, since we were gonna roll. We were gonna split half a pill each :O Anyways, ended up calling the uber and finally arrived around like 8ish lol... But got inside fairly quickly, Bryan and I bought water and split the pill to take it. Then we all as a big 8 person group went inside Queen’s Domain and listened to Ookay. Chloe was dancing with Arthur, Rebecca was dancing with Kris. While Amanda, Amy, Bryan, and I were just dancing to the music. Bryan and I slowly tried to shift away to uhh dance with scandalously dressed broads, but Chloe sees us kinda far away and drags us back to the group LOL and goes, ‘omg u guys are so far!’ T_T she did this 3x more LOL... Eventually they took a break to go to the rest room, and Bryan and I ditched. We had a good time dancing on our own, talked/interacted with strangers that were rolling too, and eventually the pill hit me like 45-1 hour later. Which is PRETTY late O_O apparently, since it generally hits ppl 30 mins in. I guess the way I could describe it is, you’re essentially sober tbh. It’s even hard to tell maybe. Like you’re not drunk or feel drunk, you have perfect hand-eye coordination, your not hallucinating or anything, you’re just happy? Like idk it’s like similar to being hyper or happy while being drunk, but yeah you’re just happy and can appreciate the shitty music (if shitty music is playing) and willing to dance to it. My feet NEVER got sore tho :O like normally I get tired and have to sit down occasionally. But idk I guess either the pill or adrenaline or idk, but my feet never got tired and I pretty much could go without ever taking a break! Crazy~ Ended up meeting some dude from SLO actually. Some Asian guy lost his group of friends, and we helped him find his group of friends. Then we dance with his group of friends, and they were nice and from SLO, and the dude lived in Rowland Heights and surprisingly knew my friend Harrison Tan! Kinda cool befriending random strangers even if it’s just for the night. I was supposed to meet up with my model friend Cindy or my HS friend Dana, but the phone reception was so bad lol... Dana’s text on where to meet up legit arrived THE NEXT DAY... Omg... I just thought she was too busy to reply lol~ Then Bryan and I met up with his group of HS friends that were there, and danced/hung out with them. Nice guys/girls! :) Stuck with them until the end of the night where Snails closed around 2 AM. Then Bryan and I met up with our group haha finally at the end of the rave. Turns out Rebecca and Chloe ended up rolling for the first time too, I think they got convinced by the guys. Uhm, then took forever to get an uber, since everyone was calling one -.- and the rates were insane legit $50 surge, when the price is originally $12. Got back to the airbnb around 4, and I knocked out in the bed. 

Sunday, I slept alright and ended up waking up almost first amongst everyone at like 9:30 AM. Got changed and got ready to go, once everyone was up and ready, since check out was at 12. Bryan and I decided to get lunch together before we split off. Since he needed to head to thousand oaks, and I need to head back to the oc area. We got a nice lunch together, talked about how we both had a good time at Beyond, and wished each other a nice spring break! So I drove home and got back around 2ish I believe. I showered and changed, then chilled for a bit. I had plans to hang out with Catherine again after she finishes work at 3:30 PM. So I stopped to harass her at Icey Cream Roll (dumb name lol) which is a new ice cream place in the plaza next to my house. Came by to visit her and snapchat harass her, and she made me free ice cream ;-; and gave it to me so sweet. She didn’t eat lunch and wanted olive garden lol, so I took her there. I ate again T_T sigh two lunches omg... Since idk this is how I gain back weight I GUESS, but I didn’t want to make it awkward if she just eats lol. But yeah, ate again at Olive Garden, and when we were paying she tried to take out her card. But she couldn’t find it, so she wondered if she forgot it while paying at Yard House the other day with me, since she didn’t use her card since then. She calls yard house, but they said they haven’t seen it but will call back if they do. We drive to her house, I saw her grandma and mom, and said hi and they asked me idk smalltalk questions like oh am I home for spring break/etc, and yeah! She ended up finding her credit card in her bag at home, and she was very relieved. Then we headed out to Huntington Beach Pier to shoot, since she wanted to shoot with me. I obliged, since idk and we shot for fun, then she stopped by forever 21 to buy some clothes. She found clothes she liked and went to buy it, but she was like O_O where’s my wallet, and checked her pockets. So she assumed she left it in my car, and I was like oh my this catherine. I was a nice guy and just used my debit card and took the $70 transaction on my card ;-;. Then the wallet was not in my car at all lol... So we drove back to her house, and it turns out she left wallet at her house lol... Then I just chilled at her place, we watched Iron Fist first episode together, and her mom offered me dinner but I was way too full after the two lunches... After the first Iron Fist episode, it was getting late like 8-9ish idr, so went home chilled and passed out! I had plans to hang out with Hope the next day and Catherine told me to have fun~ 

Then Monday, was a day where I hung out with Hope!! I haven’t seen Hope in a long time and it was cool to finally hang with her. She wanted to shoot together in the morning, since she had a b-day party or something later in the day :( so I had to wake up early... T_T So we got chick-fil-a together since she suggested it and she actually treated me :D I was like waow friend so nice!! What did I do to deserve this LOL. Fyona asked me what I was doing today, and I told her I was shooting with Hope, and she wanted to come along. Fyona and Hope shot together before, and they’re kinda friends probably haha. I asked Hope if it was okay, and Hope was down since she likes Fyona and the more the merrier. So we picked up Fyona, since she lives near chick-fil-a too, and then headed to Newport Beach’ beach. I haven’t been to this beach in a pretty long time tbh, I mostly go to Huntington Beach pier or something. But I remember it was a fairly nice beach and I was right. I drove all of us, parked, and we tried to shoot around. It was really sunny, since we’re freaking shooting at like noonish or 1 PM if I recall correctly! So had to shoot in the shade, but I think photos came out okie :) despite the sun. Idk, I swear I always end up shooting at like non-golden hour times lolol.. When I ideally only want to shoot at golden hour ;-; I guess shooting at like 6 PM (since sunset 7:11 PM or something nowadays) isn’t convenient for most ppl :P Fyona didn’t model or anything as well, she kinda just tagged along and talked to Hope/me and it was fun. Since Fyona is really talkative and yeah~ We stopped by a boba place nearby for a break and I got a drink there, and the Thai Tea was actually super good surprisingly o.o... I pretty much only get Thai Tea or regular milk tea or iced/snow milk tea from places (sometimes Taro too I guess rarely tho), and the Thai Tea was pretty good! Was much surprised :O I generally expect idk not much from places that I don’t hear too much about haha. Anyways, after shooting together and talking, I drove back to my house, and Hope headed out afterwards to her friend’s b-day party. Fyona was still chilling and didn’t really have plans, but I actually had plans! I had plans with Jennifer (goes by Peach nowadays lol), who is an old HS friend and actually my good friend Kristy’s ex. I know I shouldn’t be friends with her, since Peach kinda wronged Kristy one of my close friends :( but idk... Peach has been really nice to me kinda like always, and idk... I guess it’s like yeah, I wasn’t dating Peach so technically she never did anything that should make me stop being friends with her. But I’m way closer with Kristy and she did wronged my friend by cheating on her. Idk, weird situation uhh idk Kristy happy nowadays with Jessica for over a year now, and they broke up maybe 2 almost 3 years ago. So maybe it’s okay? Idk. Haven’t really thought too much about whether it’s right to be friends with Peach or not, since maybe I should be taking a side or maybe I shouldn’t or maybe morally I shouldn’t be friends with someone who INCREDIBLY wronged my close friend even if I was never told to pick a side? SOOOO enough of that. Peach goes to UCSC nowadays and was actually in the oc area with two of her UCSC friends (one is her future bf - currently seeing him & other is her best friend at UCSC) and the 3rd person she’s with is her UCSC best friend sister. I think the names are Eric for future bf, Jen for her best friend, & Kathy for Jen’s sister. Fyona came along, since she had no other plans, and Peach said okie! We met up with them all at south coast plaza, Jen and her sister Kathy went to go shopping around south coast. Eric, Jen, and Kathy are all from NorCal and it’s basically a cool vaca for them in the oc area haha, so shopping understandable. Eric, Peach, Fyona, and I all split off from them for a bit to idk talk and hang out. We sat at some paris restaurant not to eat, but for fyona to eat. Then I talked to Eric and we REALLY hit it off. He saw me spinning the fork like idk casually, and was like wtf do u know pen spinning. I was like yeah, I learned it a long time ago haha, then we talked about modded pens, tricks we knew, and yeah. He’s into photography, so I started idk teaching him a lot about photography, we talked about hobbies, and games. He thinks I’m super cool, since idk I have a lot of ‘cool’ hobbies apparently, and Peach hypes me up to the whole group apparently :O I was like woah, I didn’t know Peach found me so cool, and she told them I’m pretty talkative lol, which is fairly true if I don’t see ppl in a while or still at the small talk level. Since I have a bunch of interests to potentially share with ppl. So Eric and I talked about raves, school, how he met peach, music, games, lots about photography, a bit on pen spinning, how I got into fashion/fragrances (cologne)/photography, and yeah. Then Fyona split off, since she got picked up by one of her friends to hang out. Eric, Peach, and I joined up with Jen and Kathy again. We headed to the lab, which is nearby south coast plaza where the honey & butter truck used to be! At the lab, Jen and Kathy split up again to go shopping even tho not much to shop. While Eric, Peach, and I started shooting. Peach was nice enough to model for us and I basically taught Eric a lot of what I know about photography. I taught him about compositions, a lot about how to pose, how to shoot backlit, framing, how I like to shoot, and etc. I have to teach him about editing another time. But I pretty much taught him a lot of technical stuff like focusing on eyes, etc etc etc! So he’s getting pretty good by the end of it and REALLY appreciated the idk free teaching. Since I really really went indepth and he liked how I posed Peach, and etc. It was almost 7 and they were gonna go eat at Kitakata where Peach and Kristy used to work. I was thinking about joining them, but uhh I had other plans... But before I left, it turns out Kathy goes to UCSB, while everyone else goes to UCSC. It turns out she’s a 1st year bio major waow, so I gave her advice on teachers and kinda how classes are like and etc, she really appreciated it. She noticed that I was wear common project shoes, so I was like wow ;O how she know! Her sister was like, uhh is that a brand new or something?? Then Kathy was like uhh yeahhh! Then Peach was like yeah Theo is kinda balling. I was like ;-; friends I’m not balling (in my head ofc). But Kathy gets brownie points for going to ucsb and being a bio major! She will uh come into play in Saturday’s story lol... So at night my plans were to dick down this random broad... Uhm do not want to expand on this, since not necessarily trying to remember this event. But dang o.o girl got attached really quick what theeeee. Uhm, it didn’t feel very good tbh :l idk even kissing was like ehh... It wasn’t like she was a bad kisser or anything, just idk everything felt kinda meh even putting it in. Like I didn’t really feel anything? Idk if it’s just her or what, but I guess it just didn’t feel very good. I guess I’ve just been a relationship person generally and this kinda just helps remind me that, I really don’t like doing these things with people I don’t at least really like, and even if I’m horny I should remember that lol... But yeah, one night stand basically, and I guess it was the first time I did anything with another girl, since freaking August O_O... Well I had a long period of being a good boy and trying to be happy single and move on. But yeah, I don’t think I’ll be dicking down any girls again anytime soon, unless I’m dating them. Since it really isn’t that enjoyable :( from kissing to everything... There’s just something a lot more idk great about looking at the girl, knowing you really really love her, kiss her, exchange ilys, the intimacy and everything is what makes sex feels good at least for me. Also knowing you can cuddle with her after given the chance and idk, I think casual sex is just not for me. :( It may seem idk kinda cool in the moment, but yeah... Anyways, uhh after that, went home played games, and never talking to that girl again :D even tho she wanted to plan another day, like uhh no!!

The next day was a very interesting day, since it’s the day that I met up with Kristy. Kristy was my ‘real’ girlfriend essentially. She was my first kiss, my first lots of things, and yeah. We broke up my senior year kinda mutually, but I initiated it. At the time, she was idk maybe in love with me (who knows really), but wasn’t necessarily putting in that much effort anymore, and wasn’t too into being in a serious relationship anymore. I guess she was a sophomore in college and wanted to idk date around and etc, which is understandable. But I guess I didn’t see a point in continuing in the relationship, if she felt that way and wasn’t going to put some effort into the relationship since it would be unfair for me, who was. But we didn’t end over a fight or anything, we kept each other on social media/etc, just didn’t talk for like actually 4 months or so? By then, she had a new bf, I moved on and was happy, and we even became friends again after that. I think we generally continued to be friends from there, but maybe drifted away somewhere between when I was going to start college at UCSB, and she started UCI. I mean we were friends, but just didn’t talk that much around that time, I guess life just got busy. I do remember the first time we hung out tho, after breaking up. It was pretty interesting actually. I think we met up at a mall, I’d like to think it was round 1 mall in city of industry (?), and I remember one of the first initial thoughts after seeing her again post-breakup was, “o.o i’ve seen this girl completely naked before” lol... Yeah, I didn’t imagine her naked or anything, but it was just like a really dumb and random first thought haha... Following that day, I think we still hung out a couple times following that, I even recall helping her move into her apartment in Irvine with her mom one time, and she treated me to yardhouse afterwards. I think she even slept over once at my house, but in a diff room, and we were already broken up. She actually never slept over when were together!!! How wasted in a way or like uhh, I think I was thinking at the time, wowow this would be a lot more lit if we were dating lol. But ofc, feelings were gone by then, and yeah. Eventually Kristy and I got into a random dumb argument and stopped talking. Then she messaged me (kinda like after the breakup actually a long time ago) and said hi, and then we reconnected again. Anyways, met up with her at raising canes, where she’s never been before. Seeing her again for the first time in a year, she honestly generally look the same. It was fun catching up with her on the past year of our lives, and yeah. She told me about her crazy ex-bf and then her new dude that she’s seeing, life after graduating from UCI, hobbies, and we talked about life, future, idk plans in general, and etc etc. It was fun, we went to South Coast Plaza, walked around, talked about fashion a bit, and then bid each other goodbye. She said that we should hang out again before I leave, and I agreed. At night, I met up with my friend Jia for the movies! Jia texted me asking if I wanted to watch a movie with her and I agreed. She picked me up and I really appreciated it, since she’s pretty much the only friend of mine that actually drives me lol... I always drive other people, so it’s nice to be driven! Talked to her about beyond, rolling for first time, what’s new from the last time I saw her which was prob like a 3 day weekend not too long ago, and then we headed to Bella Terra to watch beauty and the beast. But the seats were pretty much all taken!! wowow lame. So we drove to irvine spectrum, which has this lit VIP seating thing nowadays. Where they deliver food/drinks during the movie to you and having those cool reclining chairs haha. We ate at the melt, since the movie started late at like 9 for the VIP tickets, and the melt was pretty good tbh! Good choice by Jia! I ate it before at an la mall food court, but it was pretty bad there... But it was soliddd at irvine spectrum tho! Anyways, movie began and took a bunch of snaps, since it was kinda cool. We got alcohol delivered (since jia has her cousin’s ID) and cake delivered during the movie, and had a good time watching Beauty and The Beast. It was a good movie! I kinda want to go on a date in the future and use the irvine spectrum vip movie whatever :) would be cool to chill with a date with reclining seats and have food delivered during the movie! Anyways, it was like 12 by the time the movie ended, said goodbye to Jia, it was fun and she dropped me off at home.

It was really funny tho, since I snapchat all my friends who I’ve been hanging out with over break, and I would get snaps from ucsb friends saying wowow your friends are so pretty. Like Amandi, Chloe, Kristy (ex, I guess not UCSB friend in this case) would be like wow ur friends are so pretty! I’d show my friend that I’m with what they snap chat me, and they’re like haha thanks. Idk, I guess I’ve only really hung out with female friends generally this break o.o... They just happen to be female and apparently cute. But I wasn’t hitting on any of them.. Chloe was like, damnn Theo get at those cute girls, I see youuu. But I’m not tho D: Fyona is prob one of my best friends, Catherine uhh no more with that, Hope has a bf, Jia one of my oldest friend and no, Peach uhh can’t since Kristy’s ex and she has dude, and idk if I’m forgetting anyone else. But yeahhh~ Had to explain to Chloe that they generally have bfs LOL. They’re just my good friends :) I think it’s funny tho that ppl think that I have cute friends and that I should get at them.

Anyways, Wednesday was a fairly chill day. My dad brought me lunch, we went to get my car I guess get an estimate on how much it’ll cost to polished the car to return since lease running out, then had a nice dinner out with mom and dad! I did talk to my dad and mom about my future, and they really believe in me still with becoming a doctor, but we also discussed other potential options for grad school too. Idk I feel bad when they really believe in me, and I feel like I’m letting them down sometimes if I’m not acing all my classes with solid As or something... Since I want to :( and my parents do work really hard to put me in school, make sure I’m living well and eating well, and do try to make sure I’m happy... So I want to be happy, successful, and live well for them, and take care of them when I get older.. But yeah, maybe more on that another time.

On Thursday, I was pretty bored in the morning. Fyona asked if she could come over and chill a bit, before her friend Pdiddy comes to pick her up and take her to pick up her wallet that she left in some photographer’s car. So I guess it was kinda cool just talking to her. My dad think she’s pretty and polite, and I should go after her LOL... I asked Catherine, if she wanted to grab lunch and hang, and she was down. But I did warn her that my dad was making me go car shopping. My dad said it should only take like 45 mins-1 hour, so I told Catherine that. I picked up Catherine, and then we headed over to my house. Uhh, she met my dad, and I explained to my dad how I oddly spend a lot of time with another vietnamese family (catherine’s family) nearby LOL. He was like wut, and I was like ye, they live like 2 blocks down. Anyways, uhm, got to the car dealership, and this was an adventure... But basically, dad was super cancerous with negotiation. I thought he was wasting our time and it seemed like that. Catherine and I was legit waiting 4-5 hours straight while my dad annoying negotiate for the car lease. Eventually he won, and he got pretty much the lowest price ever for the car lease (the finance dude even said so, he was like wtf this is a crazy good deal, and the finance dude wasn’t in the negotiations at all just saw price). Catherine was uhh fairly annoyed, since she was like 45 mins right Theo. I was like ;-;!! I treated her to cafe maji and uh ice cream, so it was okie! She wasn’t that mad or anything :3 at least I don’t think so lol.

Friday - On Friday, I was gonna accompany Hope to a shoot with some random photographer that wanted to shoot Hope. But right when I got to Hope’s house around 4, the shoot got canceled last minute since idk photographer had a family emergency. So we called up Catherine and it turns out she was at uh the Santa Ana Mall, where round 1 is. So Hope and I met up with her, but Catherine was with her mom and shopping. We hung out with Catherine and her mom for a bit. Catherine tried to leave with us/hang with us, but she had to do lots of important shopping with mom, since Catherine was leaving on Sunday to New York for a week. So I played DDR with Hope and it was fun, and a rhythm game at round 1. Then I dropped her off, and headed to hang out with Dana. I met up with Dana at Santa Ana 4th street market, and we got food and talked/caught up. She wanted to hang out, since she thought about starting a blog/instagram/etc, since she was going to transfer to SDSU. So I gave her tips about hashtags, etc etc etc. Then she wanted to head to the Artic to take a nice shot. She didn’t want photos of her, but she was kinda interested in learning photography haha. So I spent like legit 1-2 hours of just talking and teaching her photography. Stuff from aperture, shutter speed, settings, iso, composition, lenses, etc etc the essential basics. She really appreciated it and learned a lot! She doesn’t know if she’ll invest in a nice camera any time soon, but she really appreciated the composition tips! So basically over spring break, I taught 2 ppl photography lol :3 But yeah, it feels good idk teaching and sharing my knowledge. I always kinda want like an apprentice, where I could just dump all my sick knowledge of fashion/photography/etc haha. Anyways, fun night hanging out with friends like Hope/Catherine, and old friends.

Saturday - On Saturday, it was a busy busy day. I basically woke up at 8 am and went over to pick up Catherine. Since there was this sick warehouse sale where shoes are like $5, $10, $15, and $20 and the sale starts at 9 AM in Chino Hills. Chino Hills is like 45 mins away, but I drove and accompanied Catherine for the shoe sale, since I owed her after she waited 4-5 hours for my car shopping lol. We got there, the line was crazy long, waited 1 hour just to get in, and then Catherine only bought 3 pairs of shoes. This is actually not that many pairs, since other girls were buying like 7-10 pairs, since some shoes are just $5 or $10! But uh, carried her bags, and kinda just stood in hot sun for like a couple hours. Then we ate, and head back to our respective houses. Then at like 5, we met up with some photographer name Anthony Kwon to shoot in Laguna Beach. We actually shot at the beach, and I haven’t shot at laguna beach’s actual beach yet. It was really sunny, so it was kinda hard for me to take my shots. Anthony Kwon was a really nice dude, and apparently he does photography for a living. He’s a wedding photographer and apparently works for one of the biggest wedding photography agency or whatever. This was a bit surprising tbh, since uhh I don’t think he’s that good of a photographer based on his portfolio haha... But he does use uhm strobes and external flash and reflectors/etc. But the problem is, I think he doesn’t know how to use them well. Since using flash poorly gives a really idk bad look, but if you can use it well then you can get some really dramatic shots. Idk, I just prefer natural light, since it does take some skill to use natural light well. But I generally don’t like the look of flash, unless someone is especially skilled with it, or it’s like some studio shot. But yeah, shooting with Catherine and Anthony was fun, it was getting late like 7-8ish, so I head home and ate with family. Then I rested a bit, and Kristy was bored and fb messaged me that she was craving pho. I already ate dinner, so I wasn’t gonna eat with her, but I told her that I’d join her and order like Thai Tea or something, if she wants to get pho nearby me lol. She did want to, and at like 12:45 we met up at a pho place near my house. She said the pho was okay, and I just ordered a drink. We talked and it was kinda fun to talk to her more. I told her how I got into like chinese novels, and she was like ooh recommend me some, and I’ll check them out. I was like woah, nobody ever takes the initiate to idk try reading them after I mention about it. Then it kinda remind me back when I used to date her a long time ago. She was also fairly down to get into my hobbies/interests and I was down to get into hers. I got into tumblr more because of her, she got into reddit and began to actively use it. I got into watching the walking dead and dynstopian novels, well I didn’t really get into them, but I tried them at least for her. She was also into knitting/sewing, which I didn’t get into but appreciated lol. I think she got into some mangas cause of me back then and some other hobby. But I just think it’s cool when ppl are open minded and tries chino hills shoe shopping with catherine, then shoot at laguna beach and met anthony kwon, and then met up with kristy 1st gf at night just now for midnight pho run lol, how she was down to read wuxia novels, how it’s cool and how I previously liked in our relationship how she would get into my hobbies and I get into hers. Okay, I don’t want to make it sound like I’m interested in Kristy or anything lmao. Feelings are long gone, I just think it’s cool like oh hey, she still has this characteristic that I really appreciated about her back then. But yeah, recommend her stuff, and she suggested getting roasting waters with her and this dude she’s seeing before I head off to SB the next day.

Sunday - I met up with Steven and Kristy the next day around noon, we got roasting waters, then ate at mcdonalds together haha. Steven was a nice dude, pretty interesting. He does magic tricks and they were pretty cool~ Then, I headed off back to SB, unpacked, and etc then passed out!

That was pretty much my Spring Break :D