#which is weird bc muscle memory is. hard to forget

[mercurialsmile]

today i had to fill out some forms for my dr appt next week and she gave me a perceived deficits questionnaire and I. uhh.

hm. i hope thats not worrying

[zombinary]

Mitch time! More info of her under the cut.

Mitchelle "Mitch" Pony Starr -24, bday October 12th -She/her -Nonbinary, bi -Super cheery, giggly, and intense. Tends to smother people. Can be bossy and ALWAYS wants the last word in what she does or wants. Hates not having control. -Loves frilly things and the color hot pink, everything she owns is pink!! -She's aware of her issues and is uncomfortable talking about them or confronting them, so her deal is that Mitch tries to get it over as fast as possible. Essentially speedrunning recovery and healing, which doesn't work. Then she gets upset, and it's a cycle

-Makes scrapbooks for a living! She has a service of making scrapbooks out of special memories or family albums -Her idea of horror is smth akin to monster inc or monster high. She's always been weirdly skittish even of the most simple stuff... -Has an issue with oversharing though, so she's accidentally pushed people away with that...Literally doesn't pick up on this though and gets confused why some ppl aren't comfy with her. -She tends to miss social cues or whatnot a lot, in fact. It's the autism. also, she's just naturally a airhead that doesn't pay attention to others too much. She's like Michael in that sense but it comes off as...Selfish, llolll...

-She can be immature bc she doesn't like the idea of people having other ideas or not wanting to go with what she wants..Or being wrong about something. She gets flustered n frustrated n grumbles about it. -Her place is just soooo....pink.....so many strawberries for the decor... -Mitch's favorite drink is a strawberry smoothie with strawberry syrup and whipped cream! It sounds very weird. Because it is.

-Is very physically affectionate. She'll hold ur hands and swing em while you walk, wrap her arms around your shoulders, ALWAYS pull you into a full hug if you try to do a sidehug, in some way she's always touching or near the person she's comfortable with. -Mickey is an exception bc he's made it expressively clear he doesn't like touching too much. Same goes for other people who have made it clear. Then she'll just ask for permission sometimes if she goes for it

-She loves Halloween, shockingly! Because then she gets to dress as all cute and silly as she wants! Once she went as Princess Peach and Mickey went as Princess Daisy...EXE version. It was a weird halloween. -She rarely wears heels, actually hates em. She's always in some kind of a flat or VERY VERY low heel. Maybe a boot. -When she's excited and rambling, she'll twirl around and clasp her hands together! and she's kinda singsong near the end of the ramble. -Sings like snow white and cinderella. VERY cocky about this fact. She worked hard for it.

-Ate glitter as a kid because she wanted to be sparkly inside and out -Thought she was overcompsensating in her femininity, so she went through a phase of dressing down and not as colorful. Kinda like Mickey does. But she quickly realized she was just scared of other people looking at her as invalid or whatnot. Now she doesn't care what others think, what matters is what SHE thinks. -Mickey admires this about Mitch. He kinda wishes he could stride around with total confidence like Mitch does...And doesn't realize he already does, he's just being himself. And there's confidence in that! -She loves being tall! It makes her feel powerful and hot!

-Her types are goths. Or hippies. Or nerds. Or gamers. Or jocks....Or anyone. Mitch is a huuuuge romantic and she gets crushes very easily. They last like a week or two and then she'll forget all about it. -Though, she is a sucker for people with a lot of bulk n muscle. She likes beefy folks.

-When it came to coming out, Mitchelle was very excited but nervous. She was happy to share this part of herself with her family! She talked to Mickey a lot about presentation and how she still enjoyed being feminine and whatnot. And he talked to her about not really caring and just wearing what he likes. -Mickey gave her some of his older cuter clothes, a Mickey classic of saying "I love you" without saying it. She felt it, though. And she still has this fuzzy cardigan, even if it ain't pink.

[meanderfall]

thank you my love!! ^v^

(lmao i finally did it @solienna... it’s been like months but i finally completed this. also if you’re wondering, when i first tried to answer the original ask, it wouldn’t save any of what i’d written as a draft, so i just started a new post lol)

1. three songs that come up when you put your phone on shuffle

Flaws (acoustic) by Bastille

Wait For It from Hamilton

Here Comes the Rain Again by Eurythmics

3. three songs you were recently obsessed with

World in my Pocket by The Unlikely Candidates

The Darker the Weather, the Better the Man by MISSIO

Walk Me Home by P!NK

8. three songs that remind you most of summer and vacation

this is probably a weird choice but The Kids Aren’t Alright. I honestly don’t know why, it just gives me summer vibes.

Taste by Sleeping at Last (probably bc i listened to this A LOT while playing stardew valley and stardew gives me summer vibes)

Young Volcanoes by Fall Out Boy

(this section was so hard.... there are like 0 songs that i actually associate with summer and vacation. literally the only way i do is if i discover said song and listen to a lot around the time summer starts)

11. three favourite songs from movie or TV series soundtrack

What’s Up Danger By Blackway & Black Caviar

I’m Still Standing by Taron Egerton

The Cyborg Fights (Genos’ theme from One-Punch Man. It’s an instrumental piece, and it goes off).

12. three favourite songs from video games

i fucking hate you adri, so much, i never listen to video game soundtracks, you fool, i have nothing to offer you

Klavier’s theme from Ace Attorney! Called Guilty Love lmao

I played Night in the Woods recently, and I think my two favourite pieces were Astral Alley (it plays during a dream sequence and i literally fucked around doing nothing for a bit just to listen to this. It’s so peaceful, but there’s something also... wistful or sad about it, that i just love.) 

and Dusk Stars! (That one plays while stargazing with a professor as a sidequest and tbh it was one of my favourite parts of the game. Surprisingly wholesome, and the last bit really struck a cord with me.)

13. three songs you want at your funeral

Saturn by Sleeping at Last

I Lived by One Republic

Pieces by Harbor and Home (low-key this song is practically a narrative for my life and for once it’s just comforting)

14. three songs you want at your wedding

Bright by Echosmith

Lovesong by Adele

Meaning of Life by Kelly Clarkson

(i don’t.... listen to happy love songs.... i was just going through my library of romantic songs and i was like “this is too pop, this is too angsty, this is pre-relationship, etc. etc”.)

15. three songs you want to dance with your love to

Fly Me to the Moon

Turn Time Off

Anna Sun by Walk the Moon (tbh this song gives me a very specific image of like moving into a new home with my lover and this song is playing while we’re unpacking, or even just any high energy song, and we end up pausing unpacking long enough to dance silly together and sing the song and it ends with us like hugging with a peck for good measure and life seems so good and perfect)

18. three songs that remind you of your best friend

Budapest (legit bc she showed me this song and was like “i think you would like this!” and you bet your ass i would love that song even if it was trash)

Another Night on Mars

Trouble is a Friend by Lenka (why? i legitimately don’t know. Especially since she’s the sweetest and most peaceful person ever. Then again she is a junkrat main.... never mind it makes sense)

19. three songs that are your guilty pleasure

Waters of Megalovania

Jessie’s Girl (this is like. the quintessential chad complaining about being friend-zoned, but i jam out to it every time, and im sucker for jealousy and unrequited love)

I Don’t Even Care About You by MISSIO for the days when im angry or having a bad day or more annoyed than usual at people trying to interact with me, and I just want to indulge in my old cynicism and hatred of the world in general

20. three songs that remind you of the person who sends this one

False Confidence by Noah Kahan

Hate That You Know Me by the Bleachers

Happy by Marina and the Diamonds

21. three songs of your childhood

oh boy adri, i was an angsty kid. I also tried to keep this specifically to songs I listened to before the age of ten just bc in my head my childhood was pretty much from the ages 3 to ~9, and honestly corresponds to a very specific period in my life

Because of You by Kelly Clarkson

Pieces by Sum 41

Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield

22. three songs you listen to when you’re sad

All We Do by Oh Wonder

All the King’s Horses by Karmina

SoLow by Keegan Calmes

(this selection was actually hard bc there are... a surprising amount tbh and that probably isnt a good thing lol)

23. three songs that never fail to get you pumped up

How Far We’ve Come by Matchbox Twenty

High on Humans by Oh Wonder

Shut Up and Dance by Walk the Moon (to the surprise of exactly no one. This song came out five years ago and it’s STILL my feel good song, even when i feel terrible)

(this was also a hard choice because i got so many feel good, pump me up songs as well, which i guess??? balances out the amount of sad songs i know and love??)

24. three favourite old songs

lmao how old are we talking here? early 2000s? before that? 1950s? i’ll just go with some goodies

Addicted to Love by Robert Palmer (OKAY SO. this is low-key an all-time favourite of mine and that i relate(d) to a LOT as the person he’s singing about.)

Africa by Toto (damn fucking right im putting it adri!!!)

For What It’s Worth by Buffalo Springfield

26. three favourite non-English songs

Alles Neu by Peter Fox (for once not a lyrics video, bc the official video is part of the Experience for this song)

The Narrow Street by Shin-Yong Woo (aka Jumin’s voice actor. This is simultaneously a huge mood, and gives me feels for my husband)

Little Traveler by clear (the only vocaloid song i know! im truly a sucker for The Little Prince though, the novel that inspired this song)

(be proud of me adri, this section could’ve been nothing but japanese songs, a good portion just from anime.)

29. three songs that influenced you most (some songs change or save lives)

im not gonna lie, a lot of these songs were kind of taken by the childhood ones but lemme see if i can scrounge up any others

In a Big Country by Big Country

Stand by Rascal Flatts

Better Get to Livin’ by Dolly Parton

(As you know, I listen to the first one A LOT, pretty much every time I get into sad mood and want some comfort, but the other two, i sort of forget about, even though i remember these songs being super important to me when i was younger. And re-listening to these now is... kind of crazy tbh, and bringing up all sorts of memories. I will say, perhaps i should give younger me more credit for how hard she was trying to heal and be a better person, just based on these songs lol)

30. three songs you really want your followers to know (for reasons other than all those above)

Lemme see, im gonna give you guys some songs that I internally categorize as late night songs. The songs that make you feel like you’re listening to it at 2 am on a Saturday night, and reality feels just a little bit shifted, and everything feels deeper, more meaningful

Sloppy Seconds by Watsky

Shrike by Hozier

Hurricane by Reuben and the Dark

Sunflower by Post Malone, Swae Lee

+Bonus. Three songs I can listen to, no matter what my mood

Muscle Memory (Acoustic) by Lights. No joke, even on days where i feel like any song is going to irritate the fuck out of me and im sick of listening to music and the emotions they evoke, i can listen to this and immediately feel better

It’s Alright by Mother Mother (legit whenever it shows up in my recommended i smash that mf play button no matter what. it’s like one of, if not the only, song that matches the screaming in my head.)

You’re Somebody Else by flora cash (same as the two above tbh)

[wightwulf-a]

32 & 35!

                          character development questions

32. Do they have any “props” that are a significant part of their life, identity, activities, or self-presentation somehow? What are they, how are they used, and why are they so significant? How would these props’ absence impact them, how would they compensate, and why?

this is going to be a short answer because, frankly, he doesn’t. bucky’s never been a super material person. of course, following winter soldier, he did end up keeping a lot of notebooks/journals with things that we was slowly remembering (he wrote them down in fear that he’d forget them again somehow). those were pretty important to him for a while. of course, once all of hydra’s programming is taken out of his brain, they become less important. he continues to write things down, but he doesn’t necessarily rely on them. there’s not a lot of material, corporeal things in his life that he holds close or feel give him a sense of identity.the only other thing i could think of might be his left arm. It’s very much an object and tool that has become a part of him, but not by his own volition. like in any other scenario, if he’d lost his arm, he could have learned and adapted. but because of hydra, he has lived his life with two, but one of them being artificial and used often to gain an advantage above others. maybe this sounds weird, but just think about it. it’s this thing that has been stuck onto bucky’s body – something he never asked for – but he’s had no choice but to use it. it’s a part of him. after he loses it in civil war, i think, there’s almost a sense of relief?? like, somehow, he feels whole without it. he’s only flesh and blood at that point – no more technology and metal attached to him. of course when shuri creates a new arm for him, he wouldn’t necessarily feel like it takes away from him. he’d be very grateful because he would recognize that something like the metal arm was a part of him (and it was kind of hard to get used to life as an amputee in the way he was).

35. How and why do they internalize knowledge? What effect has that had on them?

well, i guess i’ll start by saying he was always a great student. i’m talking straight-a’s. bucky is really smart and really clever. he learns fast. he can pick things up really quickly and move right along. but depending on what exactly he’s learning and such, he can take in the knowledge differently.for basic “academic” information, he’s pretty much an audible learner. he hears it, repeats it to himself in his head (was probably required to write it down in school), and he knows it. outside a “school” setting, this goes for things like rules, instructions, names, ect.i want to be clear though: he doesn’t in any way have like a photographic memory lmao. (the supersoldier serum steve got actually gave him a photographic memory but whatever zola concocted wasn’t quite strong enough to enhance bucky’s memory like that.) he can retain knowledge as long as he uses it. i can guarantee as soon as he left elementary and high school he forgot a lot of the little stuff he learned. if it’s not important or interesting enough for him to remember it, he’ll likely forget it, like anyone else would. if it’s something like a skill for a job, it’s usually like watching the action performed, trying it himself, perfecting it, and he’s solid. so that’s kinesthetic, obviously. this is also for obvious things like combat, weapon reloading, routines, ect.it’s a little more plausible for him to remember actions due to muscle memory. he can probably teach you to throw a punch in the exact way he was first taught. he could show you how to swing a bat the way his dad showed him. partially because he remembers how through muscle memory and sometimes things like that are connected to sentimental memories, so it’s even easier to remember.as for the effect, i guess bucky’s always just been a fast learner. generally, people don’t need to sit down and walk him through thing step by step bc he’ll either get it after the first try or he can figure it out on his own (which he sometimes prefers doing).