#which is sometimes yucky when it’s mental health or cptsd or my experience being neurodivergent in this society | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

misspermitted · 2 months ago

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“Look for the strengths in yourself” this. “Your trauma doesn’t define you or make you inherently wrong” that. Do it out of spite. Value yourself out of spite.

What? Those douchebags told you that you weren’t worth anything? Fuck them! Treat yourself like you’re worth something! Get back at those fuckers!

Those assholes conditioned you into thinking you were terrible by treating you like shit? Condition yourself back! Keep valuing yourself and doing self care over and over until you drown them out. Until they’re as stupid and small in your brain as they are in real life.

Fucking win the emotional manipulation game! Win it! Draw something shit because it makes you feel happy! What, you can’t say no to people because you’re not worth as much as them? Fuck that! Say no all the time! Treat yourself like the most important person in the universe because they would hate it!

#so had a epiphany with a client the other day #essentially this #spite is the best way to do anything #and yes I’m in the mental health field #which would shock the tumblr bot who saw my blog and tried to send me to a therapy blog #which was adorable but jesus #and shocking to people who’ve commented saying I’m way to cynical about mental health and asking if I’m okay #I’m so unbelievably stable I help other people get stable lmao #it’s just sometimes the sunshine and rainbows approach works for people #and sometimes it doesn’t #and I’m just incredible super blunt about how I feel and experience things #which is sometimes yucky when it’s mental health or cptsd or my experience being neurodivergent in this society #you have points when your brain isn’t gonna believe that you’re good #that things can get better #rationally you will but emotionally your brain has conditioned itself out of hope and self regard #so sometimes you gotta motivate yourself with anger and spite #those assholes don’t deserve your life #and then you’ll get to the actual hope and happy feelings point #and then you’ll drop again #because this is how it works #and yucky emotions are not always bad or shameful #sometimes spite and anger is justified and can motivate you to change #sometime stress helps you survive #sometimes sadness helps you stop and realise somethings wrong #fuck depression though that one is just bad #(I’m kidding lmao)#seriously for me who gets depressive spirals often #and likely will for my entire life #depression feelings tells me I haven’t been making time for myself #and I’m overwhelmed

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