#which is insanneeeeee

[altruistic-meme]

i have made wonderous progress with the shirt, having finished the front panel and half of the back panel 🩵 yay 🩵

[anulithots]

Okay so the moment where Cheng Xiaoshi decides not to dive into the past because Lu Guang would’ve disapproved of it. Amazing moment.

Also would not have happened if Cheng Xiaoshi didn’t witness Emma getting strangled in episode 9.

Why? Because Cheng Xiaoshi lost some faith in his ability to fix the past and Lu Guang during the earthquake arc.

This led him to try to do something on his own for Emma, hence he dived on his own, hence he witnessed her getting strangled, and realized that his every action, his every intention to fix the past (as a way to vicariously fix his own pain regarding the past.)

but in this moment, he realizes he can’t fix the past, shouldn’t have dived on his own, and he asks Lu Guang to tell him what he should do, how to make things end well, because he was never able to.

And this is when he accepts the whole ‘fool, don’t change the past, because of us, the future will surely change’, because it’s what Lu Guang would’ve said to make everything to end okay.

Cheng Xiaoshi applies his strategic abilities to change the future instead in episode 10 and 11, which works out well…

… annndd hence why Cheng Xiaoshi believed in Lu Guang to the point where he wouldn’t dive back in time to save him.

WHich is driving me insanneeeeee THE WRITING IN THIS SHOOOOWWWW

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will start linking the link click masterpost because society must gaze at my collection.

[mothcabinet]

Just found this going though my google drive 😭

Summary:

"A man who knows to pair rabbit with a Beaujolais." The stranger spoke

Ghost instantly tenses up. Acutely aware of the Scot's eyes watching him, studying him even.

"I know I don't seem like the type..."

"No, you do."

And the man smiled at him. It wasn't one of those fake smiles that somehow conveys “If I smile maybe he won’t hurt me.”

It was a real, genuine smile. This total stranger had managed to break down all the walls he desperately put up, with a simple smile. Simon Riley knew that he was absolutely and utterly fucked.

Oh look yet another Soapghost apocalypse fic shocked emoji

(No I didn’t start this in early January when I was also brain rotting on TLOU that’s insanneeeeee)

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September 18th, 2003

“A virus. Researchers are saying it’s due to cordyceps. A fungus that attacks the brain. Makes the victims lose every part of themselves. It’s fucked up man…”

Ghost closes his laptop and rubs his eyes.

He tries not to panic. This will all blow over in a few weeks. Something like that isn’t fucking possible. It’s just the media exaggerating a story from some small town in the Middle East. He’s protected here. The closest town is 80 kilometers. His property is surrounded by an electric fence. Hell, he even set up cameras so he could constantly watch over the place. (Price’s solution to get him to stop calling him every time he swear he saw someone in the woods)

He takes a moment and lets himself breathe. He attempts to do those stupid breathing exercises Roach taught him.

“Everything will be fine.” He decides and doesn’t give it another thought.

November 28th, 2003

[rewrite] Ghost sat in his bunker. The only source of light being the shitty computer monitor in front of him. The scene in front of him is anything but pretty.

Innocent people getting loaded up like pigs to the slaughter.

“Idiots.” He thinks bitterly. He’s not stupid. He knows those people are walking towards their own deaths. Hell, he’s ex-military. He knows how these guys think.

Eliminate the threat before it's even considered one.

It’s the military’s sick way of trying to grasp control. He hates the way he understands. How he knows how much innocent blood is on his hands. It makes him sick of how willing these “people” are to kill children.

He eventually tears his eyes away from the scene in front of him. The feelings of the past rearing its ugly head. Remembering all the things that we’re supposed to be dead along with Simon Riley.

“Christ, I need a drink.”

And with that, he decides to end the day with his only source of warmth, an old bottle of (Kentucky) Bourbon.

(Which was supposed to be opened when Tommy turned 21…but he can’t fathom remembering that right now…)

[secret-rendezvous1d]

MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT SOUNDED INSANNEEEEEE, tHEY ALSO SANG LOADS OFF THEIR NEW ALBUM WHICH NO ONE KNEW BECAUSE ITS ON PRE ORDER TODAY BUT I CAN TELL ITS GONNA BE A GOODEN XX

I AM SUPER EXCITED. FUCK. I HAVE A BUSY WEEKEND NEXT WEEKEND... HARRY'S ALBUM, THE VAMPS' SHOW, LISTENING TO HARRY'S ALBUM... Fuck. xx