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softserveangeltears · 2 years

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i want it on record that i think it is absolutely fucking ridiculous that i am the most materially responsible member of this system while simultaneously being the worst at managing my emotions.

#this results in someone with violently destructive self hatred and no ability to tolerate loneliness or rejection #who is also responsible for all housework and important tasks #which is in fact how you get a dead-eyed lifeless automaton folding your laundry.#i probably should not vent at the moment. for reasons i mentioned earlier as well as this:#what i am about to vent about is not advisable to allow anyone to know i think about!#but. i miss making myself throw up. i have found myself fantasizing about it again.#i won't. curse my responsible mindset. but i miss it.#augh! well. it isn't as though anyone pays attention to what i say here anyway.#i wish someone did. i wish i had anyone who cared much. but i digress.#birdcalls

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