#which is great bi rep at least for me lol. some of us are stupid!

[coquelicoq]

love kim dokja's non sequitur answer to people thinking he's into yoo joonghyuk: "i like women." okay? good for you?? quick question totally unrelated but have you heard of bisexuality.

[alvadee]

I just have to say, it's pretty shitty of you to call out gay men for how they interoperate or represent VB just because you don't agree with it, when you, yourself have objectified him in the past and ignored his homosexuality to imagine yourself with him. You try to cover it up by saying you don't want to generalize but that's exactly what you're doing and at best you come across ignorant and at worst, actually homophobic.

Ok, so here's the deal.

I have spent years now going through archives and talking to many people who actually knew Victor, I think I've did my research on him the best I can with the means I have. I do not think the other writers (Ryan Murphy for Feud, the guy from the play) have been as dedicated as me to learn about him and have invested the same time I have. Based on that I do think that I am allowed to criticize their protrayal of him and my voice has some weight. Is every single thing I critize them for correct? I don't know since I don't know every detail about all aspects of Vic's life but I try to go by context clues. Is it the writer's right as artists to use him in their fictionalized stories, yes of course, does that mean I have to like their interpretation and can't criticize it? No.

Also, for how many year in human history have women had crushes on obviously gay or not so obviously gay men? If they imagine themselves with them is that really homophobia in your eyes? If they ignore it irl and pursue them anyway I would agree but in their fantasy? It's not much different than to imagine yourself with a celebrity, even a dead one, what is in reality impossible isn't so in fantasy. Vic is a triple threat (most likely gay/celebrity/dead), like I ignore much more than him being gay for my little fantasies to work. lol

And I don't think making my little stupid posts here on my stupid little blog about how wonderful and hot he was and that I want to be his gf is on the same level than actually writing fanfiction about him, publishing that and letting professional actors perform it and presenting it to an audience. What basically is what the series and play did.

It just happens that both authors of these works are gay and what confuses/annoys me about that is that when they incorporate Vic in their work they have the chance to have great gay rep by showing Vic as the truly beloved, charming, intelligent, talented man he was with the actual struggles he had but they have both opted for stereotypes and fatphobia. At least in my eyes I think that says something about the mindest of the authors and yeah, doesn't make me a fan.

The only aspect in which I have questioned myself often if my own homophobia was at play was for how long I have clung to the threads that Vic was ace/bi/pan and not gay. I have not been able to fully decide yet because I do think that there are enough clues that have pointed in those directions and I do think that other queer identities get often ignored and were, especially back then, thrown under the gay umbrella. Only when I actually was able to talk to gay men who knew Vic I was certain that he was into men and any other dates/girlfriends were most likely beards or genuine early attempts at heterosexuality. I could have been more "the most obvious answer is probably the right one" and accepted it sooner. I'm sure my crush on him was to blame for that. But I have never kept my findings secret and have written in posts that I had changed my mind about his sexuality now. I think if I had been intentionally homophobic I would have not shared my findings and kept people on here in the dark.

So yeah, I don't agree with you. If anyone else actually has a nuanced opinion how my blogging about Vic might be homophobic please send it but I don't think these points are correct.