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Text to speech: Why don’t they offer top surgery and a phalloplasty at the same time where they use the breast tissue instead of limb tissue, {redacted}, hush,  and construct the penis out of that. Why not though?
#this has prompted my boyfriend to share further suggestions#which demonstrate why he’s not the boyfriend in med school#send tweet#avese has a thing on prins mind#top surgery#phalloplasty
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cql “college au”, but
set in ?????????
yunmeng trio lives together, having moved out of their family house, and is (attempting to) using this chance to SHINE
in which jiang yanli succeeds, jiang cheng would love to Shine, whatever it means, but the thought of it makes him ridiculously stressed. wwx is just ridiculous, and bi
twin jades live w/ their uncle who’s some, idk, professor or some other fancy thing. they are a shining example of proper behaviour
in which xichen has started going to parties in his second year. he is a happy drunk. everyone loves him at least as much as he loves everyone, and
wangji has been to one (1) party. with xichen. he managed 15 minutes, ate one (!)potato chip, and, seeing his bro is in capable, responsible, big manly hands of nie mingjue, left, for he had homework
they also have a big house and a pleasant amount of dogs in it.
“why” what, are you a cop
wwx and lwj meet on one of those subjects you have to sign up for but you know it’s going to give you absolutely nothing. wwx is immediately smitten and spends the first class trying to hit on him. lwj doesn’t notice he’s being hit on, deeply immersed in the lecture
wwx does not, though, give up, and eventually bothers lwj into... gasp! sitting together at a library
wwx: pretty sure that’s almost like dating, ha jc: yeah, in primary school, maybe
“this is so weird. why is everyone so quiet? it’s not natural, how can you be so quiet, i’m pretty sure this girl over there is dead, oh god, now i hear the sound of my heartbeat, it’s so annoying”
“i am studying.”
nanananana fast forward lwj at some point tells wwx about his dogs. a hint of a smile appears on his lips and wwx just (dreamy sigh) i love you...
lwj: hm? wwx: i said i love (split second of terrible realization) dogs .
lwj: hm. (the tiniest smile, still)
etc etc yeah i only care abt the fun bits. things happen and so wwx ends up @ the lan house (to work on a project, whatever), about to experience five levels of hell (for all five dogs)
Consternation.
wwx (currently hanging over the fence, which is intent on not letting him go) rattles into an apology mixed with an explanation and some additional words of adoration for lwj
eventually lwj Understands, but there’s xichen inside and he was supposed to come with a “friend”, a concept xichen was very excited about, so he tells the dogs to please go home, extracts wwx from the fence and leads him a dogless path into the house
while, at the same time, conjuring up a plan. he doesn’t want to send away his dogs every time wwx comes (of course, it’s not like he wants him to come, okay, he’s irritating, he’d rather do the project alone, etc, etc) so he’s going to Make It so wwx isn’t scared of dogs anymore
and so the adventure begins, with lwj talking more in one sitting than wwx has ever heard him in the course of their-- existence in a close vicinity, about how the dogs that gave wwx the fear were probably even more scarred than he was, mistreated by their owners (for a second lwj has a vague... irritation on his face. that irritation would manifest in other people by a fifteen minutes long rant with swearing and throwing things at the walls). usually dogs are not aggressive and mostly interested in either chilling or play.
he shows wwx dog baby pictures which also include some pictures of, well, lwj. wwx experiences emotions
the lans actually have a temporary home situation going on for those dogs, and are gently taking care of them, figuring out their fears and such so they could be integrated better into society, so
aside from that they have a lovely young mixed breed lady who is entirely fine. it’s just, when humans think they’re giving her a bath? she is actually dying
you are not dying, says lan wangji. she is not convinced. she yells
this is when wwx notices that lan wangji, while a little bit shorter than him, has, in fact, some nice shoulders (it is a good exercise to wrestle with a large dog for an hour). the fact that he is entirely -- not a hyperbole -- soaking wet is, well. helping.
they leave victorious, lwj with what feels like hectolitres of water on his person and clothes, wwx with a bruise on his nose from being hit by a dog snout, wiggling on max power
romance ?
nie mingjue is a glorious athlete with kickass grades, big plans for the future and sexy mustache. nie huaisang just wants to open his small etsy shop, and a drink
wen qing is a med student. do not bother her
she does, though, attend parties from time to time, to unwind. on one of them, jiang cheng, in the middle of stuttering through his list of things he likes in a girl, looks to the side. “forexampleshe’snice”, he mutters
wen ning, having taken a swig of his drink, processes what he’s just heard. the swig lands on his shirt
wen qing snarls at a dude hitting aggressively on her friend. jiang cheng feels something in him awaken
as wwx and nhs observe (utter mirth) and, in nhs’s case, almost take notes
yi city trio live in a shitty flat, being broke
xxc and sl were high school bros, that is until they got in an argument and sl demonstratively got a scholarship abroad
so yi city trio, consisting of xxc, an honor student, a-qing, a passing student, and xy, a human being who has definitely seen a syllabus at some point, are roommates
oh my god they are roommates
until sl comes back from the scholarship and xxc, fully aware their flat is shit, offers him a place, because he’s a beautiful man with a beautiful heart
for the first two weeks of sl’s living with them, xy and sl are sincerely convinced the other is xxc’s boyfriend, and antagonize each other accordingly
xxc has, as far as he’s concerned, approximately zero boyfriends
or does he???
a-qing has returning thoughts about moving out.
if jin guangyao loses a scholarship to some moron again, he Will commit mass murder
with what, inquires nie mingjue, you are a noodle with noodle arms and noodle legs. he says that while patting jgy’s thigh. said thigh indeed looks like a noodle next to his big, manly hand
haha oh stop it, giggles xichen, lovingly drunk, into jgy’s shoulder
????? profit?
#the untamed#S O RRY...........#i've been thinking about wangxian washing a very unwilling dog since i saw a video about a screaming shiba#in anything i say you can safely assume lwj is those good 4cm shorter than wwx because I SAY SO. wang yibo and xiao zhan's size diff=<3#shut up shrimp#thinky thots
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Is that SHAWN MENDES on campus? Oh no, that’s DEAN MITCHELL. From SALT LAKE CITY, UTAH the 20 year old has come to study PRE-MED. Rumor has it he is AMIABLE and ADVENTUROUS, but BLUNT and ARGUMENTATIVE, which is why he is known as THE BOHEMIAN. He resides in OFF CAMPUS and can’t wait to graduate.
hi everyone! here’s my newest little bby dean! if anyone would like to plot literally anything at all please feel free to message me!
Name: Dean Mitchell
Birthday: August 19th, 1999
Sexual Orientation: Straight
Relationship Status: Single
Major: Pre-Medicine
Occupation: Waiter at Octavia, Barista at Grounded
Background:
- He was born in Orange County, Florida to two teenage parents. His parents had him when his mother was 15, and his father was 16. He spent the first few years of his life being taken care of by a huge family; with both of his parents taking care of him, along with his grandparents. His parents had been able to figure things out, and this didn’t really put any damper on their relationship...that was until Dean’s dad decided to join the military in order to give Dean “a more promising life.” Dean’s mother ended things shortly after his father left, when he was about 3-4 years old.
- Him and his mother remained in Florida for the following years, and when he was about 6 years old, his mother got into another relationship. Things were great at first, and the three were living together before anyone blinked. About 1 and a half years into the relationship is when things became very tough for Dean. The boyfriend became abusive towards the mother, both physically and emotionally, and this abuse was quickly sent to Dean. Dean’s mother would have to put in extra effort in picking out his outfits for school to make sure nothing was showing; and although he would appear very put together while in public places, he was being neglected at home. Dean had to learn how to fend for himself at a very young age. The abuse and neglect happened until Dean was around 12 years old, in which he finally gained the courage to go up to a trusted teacher and tell her, social workers, and police officers everything that was going on. The boyfriend ended up going to prison for multiple charges of child abuse, neglect, sexual assault, and domestic violence. His mother didn’t get anything, but she did lose her parental rights. Dean had to chose between staying with his maternal grandparents or moving to live with his father. He chose his father, and was then shipped off to Utah.
- Unlike many families, Dean was lucky enough to not be one of the military brats that got bounced around from place to place. They kept his father’s base the same for many years, and if he had to report somewhere for duty, he would just fly out. Dean was often looked after by other military families on base, that was until Dean’s father married his stepmother. His step-mother was very loving, kind, and basically everything his birth mother wasn’t. He refers to his stepmother as “mom”, and his birth mother as “Grace”. That being said, he keeps his contact with Grace to an absolute minimum
- He followed his father’s footsteps and joined the National Guard after graduating high school when he was 17. Although, he never really went into combat. He simply went to basic and AIT for a year, and did two years worth of duty - this meaning that he’s in his first full year of college. He does have to travel every now and then for work, but since things have been quieting down for the country, he hasn’t had to do much. With that, Dean comes to school for free. He only works two jobs on top of his national guard job in order to be able to pay for his apartment and other bills.
Fun facts:
- Because of the abuse and neglect he’s faced, he was serious trust and abandonment issues. He doesn’t let this show much, but he’s always on his toes when it comes to people, and keep this wall up. Only those he’s extremely close to will be able to get him to really talk. He’s able to put on a great facade, but he suffers from very bad anxiety and depression
- He’s more on the shy side than anything. He’s the type that only speaks when spoken to due to years of learning that it’s safer to not say anything at all. But whenever asked for his opinion on something, he will tell you straight up how it is
- OTHER THAN THAT THOUGH!!! He’s very, very, VERY chill and laid back! He tries to not let the small things in life bother him too much, knowing that things could always be worse
- He’s one of those science geeks who loves science but is also in love with the arts. He doesn’t demonstrate this much, but he’s really into music and could sing, dance, play the guitar, or just simply talk about music for hours on end
- Very into concerts, music festivals, and all that jazz! He’s also IN LOVE with summer time because of all the outdoor concerts
- On top of music and outdoor festivals, he’s into things like camping, hiking, jet skiing, going to the beach - really anything that has to do with the outdoors
- He’s not religious, but he is pretty spiritual. He wouldn’t consider himself a buddhist, but he does find himself enjoying how it’s centered around one’s well being. He often finds himself reading some of the buddhist devotionals, and finds himself living through some of the basic beliefs that the religion has. Religion wise though, he doesn’t really focus too much on anything
- In summary: very chill person, very relaxed, loves to do adventurous things, is the typical pothead, might be considered to be a bit hippy-ish, but also very argumentative and says what he means, and is pretty much very damaged inside
#monarchintro#wow this got long sorry guys!#but pls message me if you want to plot with my new bby!!!#tw: child abuse and neglect#tw: domestic violence#tw: mental health
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The Magicians Revisited: 1x01 Unauthorized Magic
I’m doing the rewatch with @themagiciansrevisited and I’ll be watching along probably until 4x10, which is where I’ve decided my own personal canon for the show will tap out. And because my brain likes to keep track of things, I’ll be rewatching again on my own after each group rewatch and write out the things that stand out for me, that I might want to remember. This is v. long, so I will pop it under a read more.
Significant moments: The first character we meet is Dean Fogg, who comes onto a NYC street through a portal from a more wooded area (I think it’s the area outside Brakebills). The door closes behind him without him needing to physically shut it. He meets up with “Eliza” (making Jane Chatwin the second major character we meet) and says, “You’re late”, which is going to echo in the later first meeting of Eliot and Quentin (and which was itself mirrored in the first meeting between “Kim” and Todd in 4x01). Being that time loops and timelines are such an important part of the show, it’s interesting to me that the importance of timing is set up so soon. And… it’s also possibly a nod to The Lord of the Rings.
Jane’s brought Fogg evidence that the Beast is already active in this timeline (a huge-ass moth). The NYPost that he’s reading looks to be dated October 18, 2015, which tracks with when the first episodes came out. Part of the implication in this conversation is that Jane wants Fogg to rush our group into Brakebills even though they aren’t in place to have it handled yet.
Jane shows particular concern over ‘our boy’, which I think we can take as read is Quentin, given how Jane directs her attention to Quentin fairly pointedly and given that we’re going to cut to him after this scene. Looking back, it’s interesting to think about how this relationship may have evolved from Jane’s PoV. She must have recognized Julia and Quentin as the Witch and the Fool as soon as they were old enough and got involved in the very first timeline, plus it’s possible she figured out somewhere along the way that Quentin was also the old man who gave her the Time Key in the first place. There are four major characters who remember the time loops, after all - Jane, Fogg, Martin, and Ember - so I’ll be paying particular attention during their scenes to see what they may drop as a hint to what happened in previous timelines.
This scene also mirrors, to a certain extent, the introductory McGonagall & Dumbledore scene at the beginning of Harry Potter. I suspect that’s intentional, given the series’s future interest in deconstructing various fantasy storylines and tropes. So, we have two authority figures who understand what’s to come and they have been deliberately attempting to shape this younger generation into a weapon to wield against the enemy that threatens them (and that comes from their own generation).
Quentin is the next major character introduced to us - he is in the Midtown Mental Health Clinic, which has a nice view of the Statue of Liberty. He’s thoughtlessly doing magic tricks with a coin. The show then cuts between him checking himself out of the clinic with a scene of him at a party at his apartment. Julia is introduced by noticing Q looking out of place at the party, and then he bails to go hang out alone in a bedroom and read which… yeah, same, Q, same. We see his pills, a comic book, some other books: bunch of books on stage magic like card and coin tricks, and Plover’s books (at least two editions of the Fillory and Further series). As Q reads the first book (Fillory and Further: The World in the Walls), we get a visualization of them onscreen.
Julia and Quentin talk a little (and I’m going to note that she explicitly calls the Fillory books ‘obscure fantasy’, so not actually in the realm of Narnia or LotR) - she gives him a friendly kiss, and then Julia’s boyfriend James comes in and jokes about them having a threeway, which I did not expect to be foreshadowing and yet… Quentin will definitely have a threesome before the end of the season so, I guess it was. Unexpected foreshadowing!
The (dead) Yale interviewer had the clock from the Fillory books (or a replica? I don’t recall from further episodes if this is the real deal or not) in the place he was planning to interview Quentin. Huh, one of the dead interviewer’s eyes looks kinda like a fairy eye. We do find out later from Dean Fogg that the interviewer was a magician, so… hmm. This scene is very suspicious to me in many ways, in retrospect.
The manuscript that Jane gives Quentin is, officially, Fillory and Further; Book Six: the Magicians and it is dated Feb 1952. We learn that Julia is the one who got Quentin into the Fillory books in the first place and that’s why he learned magic tricks. They were both very into the books all through high school, but then Julia met James and she pulled away from them.
Next, it’s Julia and Quentin’s introduction to Brakebills! So, in most (though I suspect Jane tried cutting Q out of the equation at some point early on) of the previous loops, both Quentin and Julia would have gotten into Brakebills at this point, so after this is where we split from the general timeline to the differences in TL40 (for the students! Martin/the Beast is probably doing his own set of experiments each time he gets snapped back into a new timeline; especially different ways of approaching his ability to talk to Penny, I suspect).
When Q arrives, Eliot is, of course, posing in a gorgeous outfit. He was given a card with Quentin’s name and is waiting for him.
So, timeline thoughts: obviously, Fogg decides to set up Eliot and Quentin’s friendship early on, based on previous timeline experiences and whatnot. Given Jane’s worries about Quentin not being prepared enough, it does seem likely that Fogg decided to set up a mentorship-ish situation, since Eliot and Margo appear to get involved anyway in other timelines and since Margo’s a big Fillory fan, too. I’m going to see how Fogg reacts to them in later episodes to see if it confirms or counters my suspicions here.
When Eliot brings Quentin to the exam room, Penny is in the foreground of the shot and Quentin ends up sitting next to him. Julia is more in the middle of the room and (hilariously, from a P23-P40 perspective), I think I see Kady at a table in between Julia and Penny. Quentin sees Julia and they hug. I did not see Alice in the exam room, but there were several tables that had blonde girls at them, so maybe I just missed her.
Julia is told that she failed the test and will be sent home. “I can’t just go to Yale if this place exists” and she deliberately scratches herself before the memory spell is placed on her. Meanwhile, Q is given a deck of cards and told to do magic. He fumbles for a while, Dean Fogg puts some heavy pressure on him, and Q’s magic bursts out and then he collapses.
Q has a dream of talking to Jane in Fillory. Dream!Jane (real!Jane using a spell of some kind, I assume) name-drops the Beast and tells Q to “get off the garden path”. She wants him to try something new, because she knows that the previous tries have all failed spectacularly. He needs to do something different this time.
Q wakes up at Brakebills and Julia wakes up in her apartment in NYC, remembering everything and researching right away. Q talks to Dean Fogg. We learn that Brakebills is a three-year graduate-level program. So. Dean Fogg here is… hmm. He encourages Q to give up his meds. In the earlier scene, he deliberately preyed on Q’s fears (which he would know well from 39 previous timelines of experience) in order to provoke him into displaying a forceful burst of magic. We know that Jane is particularly worried about how much Q, specifically, needs to learn. Adding that together, and it does feel very deliberate that Fogg leads Q to believe that magic — that this school — will eliminate the need for his meds & etc., when we know from future episodes that this is very much not something that magic actually “fixes”. But he’s setting up Brakebills as the place that makes everything better because he wants Q to believe it. It’s also possible that he’s discouraging Q’s meds to create a certain level of emotional pain in Q to power his magic? Wow. That’s a dark thought.
Q and Penny are roommates. Q notices his F&F Book 6 is missing and is accusatory towards Penny, but before it can go further, Eliot comes to introduce Quentin to Margo. He’s told her that Q is cute and her opinion is “not that cute” but she’s friendly to him. We learn that first years stay in the dorms, and then once you know your ‘talent’, you get put into a house. The ones that Eliot lists out are: Physical Kids (where he and Margo are), Illusions, Healing, Nature, Knowledge (where Julia would have gone), Psychics. We also learn that there are only four students currently remaining of the third-year class, sixteen of them having disappeared along the way.
So, after all that, we go to Q’s first class and we see Alice for the first time (at least, that I could spot). She gets singled out to do a demonstration for the class and turns a glass ball into a glass horse. Also in this class, Kady meets Penny. They have an instant sexual connection and hook up right away. This is a definite deviation from timeline-23, at least, and if Kady only got into Brakebills because Julia was kept out, then that could potentially make Kady an overall wildcard. We know that the Great Cock in S3 knows about her, but I wonder if she was on anyone’s radar before timeline-40 happened. I’ll keep an eye out!
When Q finds out a little bit more about Alice from Margo and Eliot, he’s intrigued because he was very impressed by her spellwork. Margo and Eliot do not seem particularly interested in Alice one way or the other - when Alice leaves after Margo’s (debatably sincere) invite, they basically roll their eyes and shrug. Q tries to talk to Alice again later and she is definitely not interested in making friends.
Some time has passed, because James has sent Q several emails that he hasn’t answered. Julia hasn’t been eating or acting like herself, so James asks Q to come to her birthday party. Margo and Eliot overhear and immediately invite themselves along, because they have 100% adopted Q into their friendship already like damn. I’m kinda stunned over exactly how quickly Eliot and Margo decided that Quentin is One of Us. Eliot takes one look and is basically like ‘you’re cute, we’re keeping you’ and Margo goes with it in a way that she absolutely does not do with “Mike” later on. Eliot and Margo are the two people who are welcoming and encouraging to Q basically from day one and it just really stands out even more in a rewatch. Like Q has to go through some traumatizing shit with Alice, Penny, and Kady to start to develop any kind of bond, but with Eliot and Margo, he basically just has to show up and... be himself. And - this is jumping forward a bit but - they both mention later on that they genuinely like Q for his personality and his interests. Margo & El are stealth nerds and Eliot finds nerds charming in general, so they both just... like Q for who he is. It’s just so sweet and very adorable to see it already present in the first episode. They just like him. For the person that he is.
We meet future reoccurring hedge witch Pete at the party, briefly, as Julia goes ‘ugh no’ at first sight. Julia talks to Q in private and reveals that she remembers about Brakebills. The conversation goes badly, Q is not willing to help her with magic stuff, and he leaves with Ellot and Margo. Pete is a creep and scares Julia until she magics her way out of the trap and he invites her to join a non-Brakebills method of learning magic.
The next dream Q has about Jane Chatwin appears to take place at Rupert Chatwin’s grave (or just a monument to him? But I’m guessing grave). She warns him again not to just stick to the “garden path”. She shows him the symbol that he saw in Alice’s book and burns it into his hand, giving him a new reason to seek out Alice. Alice tells Q to meet her that night to do a summoning to contact the other side. Penny is drawn to go help Alice and Q, and Kady volunteers to join him. They do the spell and after they all leave the room, a smiley face is drawn on the mirror, ominously.
The Beast freezes everyone’s actions except their eyes, enters through the mirror. He kills a professor, is attacked by the Dean, defeats him but doesn’t kill him, and then spots Quentin. He calls Quentin out by name and starts to reach towards him and we cut to credits. That’s the scene that really made me go “woah, shit, this show commits” in my first watch-through. Specifically, it was the smiley-face that the Beast makes during that scene. I was like “did I just watch that happen?”, which a thought I have now had many many times over the course of future episodes as well. Sometimes for good and sometimes for bad, I suppose.
Magic: 1. Location portal (Dean Fogg travels through) 2. Portal to Fillory (described in F&F: the World in the Walls) 3. Clock in tree (spotted by Jane; placed by “the watcherwoman”) 4. Julia and Quentin getting into Brakebills (bushes vs elevator) and traveling to upstate New York 5. Magic exam test 6. (attempted) memory spell on Julia 7. Quentin makes the cards fly around the room after his exam and then builds them into a card castle before collapsing 8. Jane talks to Q in his dreams 9. The globes in Dean Fogg’s office sense magic, though they aren’t always right 10. Illusion work is used to keep friends and families of magic students from finding out they attend Brakebills 11. Lots of random practice magic from the students as Eliot and Margo give Q a tour 12. Kady floats during sex and make other things float too (including Penny) 13. Julia makes sparks happen at her birthday party 14. Pete uses magic to tie Julia up and scare her into showing her magic Julia breaks out of Pete’s trap 15. Q has another dream of Fillory and Jane Chatwin 16. Summoning spell with Q, Alice, Penny, and Kady 17. time freeze by the Beast, travels via mirror, magically kills a professor, takes Dean Fogg’s eyes
Relationships: Dean Fogg & Jane Chatwin: firm allies Quentin & Julia: best friends -> becoming estranged friends Julia & James: established relationship Quentin & James: friends -> becoming estranged friends Quentin & Eliot: early friendship/crush Quentin & Penny: bad first impression on both sides Eliot & Margo: best friends Margo & Quentin: early friendship Quentin->Alice: admires her talent Alice->Quentin: hostile -> becoming temporary allies Penny & Kady: immediate sexual/romantic relationship Margo & Alice: mutually unimpressed Eliot & Alice: mutually unimpressed Quentin->Kady: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Kady->Alice & Quentin: “losers" Alice->Kady & Penny: temporary allies Penny->Alice: admires her talent Jane&Fogg->Quentin&co: manipulative mentorship Pete->Julia: impressed with her talent Julia->Pete: creeped out
Obviously a certain amount of subjectivity in this but I call ‘em like I see ‘em.
Physical contact: Jane places the magic watch in Dean Fogg’s coat pocket and then smooths his clothes out afterwards. Julia sits in her boyfriend’s lap at the party. Julia touches Q’s leg, takes his book out of his hands, snuggles up to him, and kisses him on the corner of his mouth. James jumps on top of Q and Julia in Q’s bed when he’s joking about the threeway. Other people join in. Julia and Q press up against each as they walk to Q’s Yale interview, and she touches him on the back and then brushes his hair out of his eyes. Julia and Q sit pressed up together after finding the dead body of the interviewer and she’s somewhat loosely hugging him from behind. Eliot escorts Q into the exam room with a touch on the shoulder and back. Julia and Q hug in the exam room after the test. Margo pulls out Q’s tie when they’re introduced. Margo touches Eliot’s arm when talking about the third-year class and they stayed mostly pressed up arm-to-arm for much of the later conversation. Kady and Penny have sex, and then touch casually and flirtatiously in the walking scene afterward. Margo and Eliot hold hands as they run up to talk to Q when he’s on the phone with James. Eliot leads her by the hand at Julia’s birthday party. When leaving, they hug and spin around together. James hugs Q, and then Q hugs Julia. Pete touches Julia’s face when she’s trapped by his spell. dream!Jane grabs Q’s wrist and presses his hand against the summoning symbol. Q touches Alice’s shoulder when he’s trying to tell her about the symbol burned into his hand. Alice holds his wrist to look at the symbol and then pulls him along by the wrist so they can talk more privately. Penny takes Kady by the hand when they leave. Penny and Kady are playing around/holding hands in class when the Beast arrives. The Beast pulls out Dean Fogg’s eyes and bites him? headbutts him? so that he falls. Bites him, I think. WTF, Martin?
Character Notes: Dean Fogg: mint green shoes Jane Chatwin: Martin was her twin; Rupert was her older brother. She was ‘the family skeptic’. Described by Fogg as a ‘scout; freelance, sort of’. Quentin Coldwater: Checked himself into Midtown Mental Health because he “couldn’t concentrate, eat, or get out of bed” and the “feeling of not belonging anywhere was overwhelming” and being “the most useless person who ever lived”. He was planning on selling his Fillory first editions on Ebay. His father lives in Jersey. Martin Chatwin: “gloomy nature” (as claimed by Plover) Rupert Chatwin: wounded in “the war” (WWII) Charlie Quinn: Died five years ago at Brakebills, so 2010 Julia Wicker: Was going to go to Yale for a business degree.
Students: “Missing 3rd year class” students: there are only four students in the current third year class, with sixteen having gone missing. I’m not certain exactly how many we end up accounting for over the course of the season (at least Victoria and Josh but there might be more), so I will keep track of that, too. But, for now, we have the nameless four remaining. Known 1st year students: Q, Alice, Penny, Kady. Dean Fogg mentions “I’ve got another twenty-four of you today”, which sets the class size at 25 minimum (if Q is the first new student he talked to) Known 2nd year students: Margo, Eliot
Timeline Notes: Oct. 2015: Dean Fogg meets with Jane Chatwin to discuss this current time loop. “Not Tuesday”: Quentin is checking himself out of Midtown Mental Health and mentions he has a Yale grad school interview on “Tuesday”. Tuesday: Julia goes with Quentin to his Yale interview, but the interviewer is dead. Jane is posing as an EMT and gives Quentin the unpublished Fillory and Further sixth book. Quentin starts some new meds. Tuesday Night: Quentin and Julia are pulled into Brakebills for their exam (and it is day in Brakebills) Wednesday: Q is at Brakebills; Julia is back in NYC. Q gives his new meds up to Dean Fogg. ~undisclosed amount of time passes~ Julia’s birthday: Q, Eliot, and Margo attend ~undisclosed amount of time passes~
Ways the Loop-aware Messed With Our Kids: 1. Julia was kept out of Brakebills 2. Eliot was sent out to bring Q in to take his test 3. Q and Penny are roommates in the dorms 4. Jane burns Q’s hand to encourage him to seek out Alice 5. Jane tells Q that Brakebills isn’t the point and he has a greater destiny
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Road to Nowhere
Pocket Books, 1993 212 pages, 14 chapters + epilogue ISBN 0-671-74508-5 LOC: CPB Box no. 700 vol. 15 OCLC: 27485847 Released February 1, 1993 (per B&N)
Scorned by her parents, spurned by her boyfriend, shoved aside by her best friend, Teresa Chafey is on the run. She hops in her car and heads into the night with only the vaguest of destinations: north. Before she gets too far, she picks up a pair of hitchhikers, and they exchange stories of life’s unfair endings as they drive. But as Teresa drives, she gets sicker, and she learns more about the two strangers in her car and how they got there, and she begins to realize that there’s one big ending awaiting her unless she can forgive and move on.
I didn’t remember much about this story from my early reads, but I do remember liking it. It’s interesting that I never came back to this one very much, because it does seem to be right up my alley: minimal characters, single point of view, realistic settings, just a hair of the supernatural. I also greatly appreciate on re-read how the whole thing takes place in Teresa’s dream state. Yeah, this is a cliche, but the structure holds up. Some of these “it was all a dream” type books don’t have enough weight in the narrative to get by without a lot of explanation either before or after, but Road to Nowhere gives us what we need in the middle. And a big part of that is the storytelling mechanic employed by the characters.
It would be easy to have a story about telling stories feel a little dry and inorganic (and as I recall, we’ll get there soon enough), but because these stories are autobiographical (yes, it’s obvious that the hitchers are talking about themselves, even though they’ve assumed names) it feels important and natural. A contributing factor might be the in media res beginning, with Teresa storming out to her car and taking off before we even actually know what’s upsetting her. She picks up her hitchers, Freedom Jack and Poppy Corn (seriously), just before the freeway on-ramp, and each spins a story of lost love and life lessons.
Rather than break this down chapter by chapter, I’m going to summarize each character’s stories. Lucky for you, reader, this format doesn’t lend to as long a post as I often subject you to.
I’ll start with Teresa, since it’s her fault we’re in this car in the first place. She’s also the only one to talk openly about herself. She describes meeting her boyfriend at the mall while Christmas shopping, and how he gets her talking about herself like she’s never really done with anyone else. In fact, he gets her to play guitar and sing for him when she is afraid to perform anything for anybody. We’re led to understand that this comes from her mom not thinking anything she does is ever good enough, and so she hides things from her parents, including this talent. But her boyfriend thinks she’s so good that he gets her in as a performer at a nightclub, and her best friend wants to come and see her too. Of course, while Teresa is up on stage she can’t supervise the budding relationship between her two companions, and they fall for each other. The last thing Teresa remembers before getting in the car and driving off was going to her boyfriend’s house with a knife and seeing the two in each other’s arms.
Free goes next. He describes a gifted yet hot-headed young man named John, who falls in love with a girl named Candy and helps her cheat her way through school. Unfortunately, he gets caught helping her, and rather than take his lumps and move on, he beats up the teacher and goes to juvenile hall. When he gets out, his college options have been wiped away, and so he takes a job in a bakery, where he comes up with efficient solutions to economize production. Unfortunately, his manager is a dick. Not only does he take credit for John’s optimization, but he also alters the machines so that when John is demonstrating a change he gets his hand caught and loses two fingers. There’s no way to prove it, but John is hell-bent on trying, and is too proud to take a settlement. But when the defense brings up his assault of the high school teacher, John flips out, to the point where there’s no way a decision will go his way. He’s stuck with a throbbing injury, a dependence on painkillers, and no real option for relief. Except robbery. He starts with pay phones and vending machines, but has to escalate to convenience stores. But of course the first job goes wrong when John sees Candy walk in. He’s shot and killed, but as he’s lying on the ground there’s another gunshot and Candy falls onto him, dying as well.
Poppy tells Candy’s side of the story. Like, this is the only place where the structure of this story falls apart — are we actually expected to believe that the stories Free and Poppy are telling are in any way not about themselves? It’s just so obvious. We could argue that it’s because I already know the story, but I’m not sure if that’s true. It’s been twenty years, at least, after all.
But so Candy’s story is about what happens after John leaves her life. She gets up to college and realizes she can’t hang, but she falls for a teacher and gets enough help to muddle through, at least for a little while. Of course, shit happens, the teacher gets her pregnant, and she decides to go away and have the baby, who she loves more than anything ever. It’s the kick in the ass Candy needs to figure out how to take care of herself. She does the crazy single mom thing of working and going to school both full-time while taking care of a baby, nails down a nursing degree, and moves back home so her parents can have a grandson while she works. But of course she’s got this nasty smoking habit that she can’t kick, and it’s while she’s stopping to pick up a carton of cigarettes that she finds John, the only man she’s ever loved, robbing the store.
The whole time, Teresa is feeling sicker and sicker. Her wrist hurts, her hands are clammy, she’s got a headache, and her throat is dry. Also, the road isn’t really taking them through the region she expected, and none of the towns are where she thinks they should be. They do stop a few times, at her passengers’ insistence: once at the house of a mystic fortune teller (who Free calls his mother) who tells Teresa she’s afraid of love and just wants attention (which is maybe why she gives up the booty to Free in a back room) and once at a church where a priest (Poppy’s father) is trying to help Teresa remember the blank space between her boyfriend’s house and her car. They also hit several convenience stores for snacks and beer — but the last time, Free pulls a gun and starts robbing the place. A young nurse walks in, and he tells Teresa to hold her at bay with the knife in her back pocket. The knife Teresa didn’t remember. The knife she didn’t feel until that very moment. The knife that slips and cuts the nurse’s throat when Free shoots the clerk in the face.
As if this wasn’t disconcerting enough, the next stop is a familiar-looking apartment complex; specifically, a familiar-looking apartment where the bathroom door is closed and the water is running. Free pulls a video tape out of thin air and sticks it in the VCR, and it shows Teresa climbing into her car and driving away. And then he rewinds it, to Teresa in the bathtub, cutting her wrist open with the knife she found in her back pocket.
So we finally start to see what’s going on. Teresa is dying, and Free and Poppy are the dead souls of John and Candy, one devil and one angel, fighting over her soul. Only Poppy has an ulterior motive. She’s come along on this journey to show John that he wasn’t so bad, and that he doesn’t deserve his torment. See, he’s struggled with the understanding that in his last moments of life, he flexed his fingers and fired the bullet that killed Candy. But he didn’t. She tells him that it was the police officer, trying to take him down but misfiring and hitting her. In fact, this has been her message the whole night: tell the truth, act with love, and forgive the past. If she can get Teresa to do that, she can still be saved.
Like, literally: all of a sudden Teresa’s spirit skips to the fire in her boyfriend’s house, and she sees the philandering pair on the rug in front of it, and she’s ready to forgive them. And as the anger flies away, a log in the coals pops and shoots a spark onto her boyfriend’s arm, waking him up. He looks around, bewildered, and sees Teresa’s key in the door, where she left it in her rage. And before he can even puzzle things out, he knows she’s in trouble and takes off to help her.
Our epilogue (which Pike seems to have figured out the workings of, suddenly) finds Teresa waking up in the hospital, watched over by a young pre-med student. He tells her that her boyfriend found her and brought her in, and that there are four people waiting to see her. She talks about her anger and her sadness, and they commiserate together, and all of a sudden she realizes that he is Candy’s young son, left behind when she died in a robbery. And that’s it.
I find it interesting to think about how Pike’s juggling interests in different religions and traditions while he writes these vaguely mystical works. There’s some very clear Catholic background in a lot of these works, but he’s also working in his interest in Buddhism and Hinduism and other Eastern traditions. It’s not a solution that works for everyone, but the idea of giving up the things that make your blood boil and forgiving people who wrong you to take the next step toward enlightenment does have a lot of basis in religion. As long as we acknowledge this baseline, Road to Nowhere works as a story. It’s not a book we should base our belief system on or anything, but it hangs together for Teresa.
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You 2.2: “Just the Tip” – Of the Iceberg
“Just the Tip” opens on a fish market, because so many things about both Joe and Love are very fucking fishy. Catfish, anyone? (The penis-y title paired with a vaginal allusion has not gone unnoticed, btw.) Our resident cool girl saunters from table to table loudly demonstrating her seafood savvy, so I’m holding strong to the idea that she might be baiting our antihero to serve him on a platter. Unable to stay in reality for two consecutive minutes, Joe takes a stroll down memory lane to the moment he believes his Love story began – one whole week ago with his arrival at LAX. There he spots a celeb to whom he immediately and favorably compares himself by employing the ultimate backdoor brag, praising himself for being so humble. Must be tough to be perfect.
The next stop on Joe’s journey to Love brings us to the inception of his new identity, where the real Will Bettelheim shows just how much he deserves everything that’s coming to him by daring to bitch about GMOs and the state of animal farming in Joe’s presence. Joe has hired Will to scrub his identity, but that’s not good enough for our Joe. As usual, he wants what he can’t, or shouldn’t, have; in this case, it’s Will’s identity. In a moment of cosmic irony, Will blurts out the whole conceit for You, that no one ever suspects white guys. He quickly feels the consequences of his own miscalculation as Joe cracks his skull with a cement brick. The timeline jumps ahead close to where we left off at the end of the last episode, when Joe is trying to figure out who Jasper is and why he came looking for Will. Shocker, the guy Joe hired off Craigslist and who had to scrub his own identity is into some shady shit. Looks like Will owes Dark Web Jasper three large for services never rendered. This is no sweat for a professional book counterfeiter like Joe, especially since LA is full of dumb-dumbs who will buy anything. Something about this feels a little too easy.
Back to the fishmonger’s ball where Love, who is serving major Liv Tyler in Empire Records vibes, demonstrates that she has absolutely zero healthy boundaries by kissing Joe for the first time completely out of the blue. A sucker for “romance,” Joe takes his own slapshot in this game of tonsil hockey and gets nothing but net with the catch of the day. Uh-oh, look out. Is that… Beck lurking in the shadows? Ex-girlfriends, amirite? They just don’t know when to stay dead and buried. Lucky for Joe, she’s vanished as swiftly as she appeared. In the meantime, Joe the daydreamer has missed Love’s proposition: lunch with her friends. If memory serves, Joe wasn’t too fond of his old girlfriend’s pals. In fact, he even murdered one (RIP Peach Salinger). That Love is pressing Joe to meet her buddies so soon might be another hint that she is fucking with him. Or maybe she’s a big old roll of cling-wrap attempting to cover the world’s deepest black hole, and now he’s going for a walk on the stalk-ee side of the street. Either way, it’s pretty karmic.
Out at the dumpster behind Anavrin, an affable fellow calls out to Joe, or rather, to Will. Jasper (Steven W. Bailey) isn’t nearly as scary as we may have imagined, and it seems Joe will be able to pay up and be done with the whole messy business – that is, until Joe discovers Will owes fifty grand, not three. And here’s where the joke in the title of the episode pays off. Jasper cuts off the tip of Joe’s pinky finger, throws it on ice and keeps it as collateral for the balance of the debt, all with a smile on his face. Looks like Joe should have listened to his mentor, Ellie, when she called the guy a creep. When Joe circles back to the plexiglass prison where he’s storing the real Will, he finds a sniveling mess in dire need of his meds. Even though Will can barely function, he’s somehow able to recall a fifty thousand-dollar IOU Joe can claim. In order to hunt those ducats, Joe must cancel his lunch date with Love and her squad. Upon receiving the news, Love, who knows no bounds, returns a text with a fucking phone call. Like, I don’t believe in The Rules, but come on. Show a modicum of chill. Of course, Lonely Boy doesn’t have any boundaries either, so he finds this adorable. He comes up with an alibi blaming Forty, which Love does not seem to buy, and decides to go to the lunch anyway in the capacity of a cap-wearing creep peeping from behind a plant. To Joe’s surprise, the group decides they like the sound of him, and he reciprocates with his own stamp of approval. It seems Beck’s ghost does not approve of Joe’s happiness, because here she is again, cockblocking from the other side.
Remember Joe has a severed finger? He finally does, too. Joe must endure a noontime LA party to find Will’s debtor, Rufus, endearingly named in a nod to Penn Badgley’s Gossip Girl father. Guests at the party just will not believe that Joe is not John Mayer, and they honestly might be right. Dude looks EXACTLY like John Mayer, a true fact that I hadn’t noticed before. As he traipses around the party, he spots the celeb from the airport – a comedian named Hendy (Chris D’Elia). Guess who else is at this party? Delilah the landlady. Small world made smaller by the fact that she knows Rufus, and also Hendy. When he notice’s Joe’s hand, Hendy recommends the same microsurgeon as Jake, which shores up Joe’s good opinion of Hendy earlier earned in a brief Google search. Delilah vehemently disagrees, storming out of the party. We learn later that Hendy raped her when she was seventeen. Delilah points to this experience as the reason she sees right through Joe’s bullshit – she knows he’s bad news and she warns him to stay away from her and Ellie. Back at the party, Joe finds Rufus who hands over a huge bag, not of money but of pills – Will’s meds.
Joe doubles back to his (or Will’s) place to tend to his wound, and of course Love turns up uninvited, and she is displeased. You guys, I fucking love soap operas. Guess who Forty is to her? Her fucking TWIN BROTHER! I live for this shit. According to common knowledge, twins share everything, so now Love knows Joe lied about his reason for bailing on her friends. While Joe spins some wild yarn in his head about doing all this crazy shit so they can be together, she whips out the dead husband card in order to emotionally strongarm Joe into being her boyfriend. And since this is exactly the type of shit Joe lives for, everybody’s favorite ghost steals the scene again, which makes Joe flip his lid. It’s like, can’t a guy do a few little murders and then live in blissful peace? Love draws the line at yelling (boy is she in for a surprise if she gets to see his true colors) and hightails it out of there. Perfect, because Joe really needs to see to that finger.
Joe meets Jasper at the storage unit. Seeing that he’s never going to raise his dough from the whimpering puddle otherwise known as Will, Jasper lunges at Joe. But Joe is a seasoned killer and he takes Jasper out lickety-split, butchering him Sweeney Todd-style and ditching trash bags filled with his ground-up body in a dumpster. Right alongside this scene, Love hacks away at a rack of lamb with a large butcher knife. As she prepares the rest of her dinner, she cracks a couple of eggs with one hand. Vivisected balls much? Joe shows up at Love’s door – even that psychopath knows to text first – and he bravely drops the knowledge he learned from Beck’s ghost; it’s not that he’s afraid of getting hurt, it’s that he’s afraid of hurting her. Love does all the heavy lifting for him and warps this loud siren into whatever she wants to hear, which is that they need to be in a relationship. Let me remind you once again that it has only been ONE WEEK. Love pulls the classic high school move of claiming friendship when her motives of partnering are so, so transparent. Both are playing this game, though, so Joe is delighted by her willingness to wait for him. Aw! Gross!
And just like that, old Joe is right back in his comfort zone – panty-snatchin’ and trophy-hidin’. This is a pretty high bar to set for episode two; Joe’s only been in LA for one week and he’s already got a body count. Can’t wait for episode three! See You then!
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By June 16th, the first day of my job, I will need to not only buy a car, but purchase insurance and schedule/complete/pass my drive test. Now, this could be my young naive mind talking, but I am a very alert driver, maybe a little fast, but VERY alert. When doing behind the wheel, I went on the freeway after only 1 hour and the guy said I'm only the second person he's felt comfortable with doing that. But my question is, in what order should i do this (car, test, insurance) and how much preparation/time does each take. i'm hoping for my parents to stop fighting so my dad can buy a new one and give me his truck, but there are no guarantees. By the way, I am 16, and don't think this is some worthless endeavor by a kid with no money. I have saved for over 3 years (I know have over 10000$ but I have to buy everything, but my parents will pay for half of the insurance costs. THANKS""
Is there a insurance company in Minnesota that covers infertility?
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Is a kia soul! too much fir a teenagers first car?
I want a Kia soul as my first car. Im trying to get a job and save up to buy it and to be able to pay for my insurance. But is this car 'too much' as a first car for a teenager? Because my grandpa has a 05 Toyota corolla that he said he would give to me. So its really either the car I want or a free car. What would you do or what do you think its the best thing for be to do?
Help!!!!!! Mom is sick and has no insurance?
okay so my mother is really sick, she is 53 years old and needs medical attention. However, she doesn't have insurance and she has to pay everytime she goes to the doctor. She has severe anemia and needs to take procrit which is like$600-$700 and she needs to take diabetes, hypertension, thyroid medicine. We live in California.. i don't know what to do,,,someone help!!!! please..""
What are california's car insurance laws?
Im a new driver and was wondering if its a type of insurance i need. I only have Liability on my car nothing else am i ok if i get pulled over and asked for proof of insurance??
Is there a motorcycle insurance company that lets you have full coverage during the summer months?
and limited coverage during the winter months? I live in NY so naturally, I wouldn't be driving during the winter months, so why pay full? Thanks""
Inifiniti G37 insurance for 18 year old?
Ok i live in new york and im 18 and a new driver.... i keep hearing that it would cost over 700 dollars a month to insure it ..... is that true ? i know there is alot of variables but i wanna know is it possible ?
Where can I find affordable comprehensive dental insurance?
I don't just the preventative ones but ones that also cover root canals etc to an extent and don't over charge for nitrous oxide - one company had fee of 45 per 15 minutes ? I ruled them out Any ideas or tips greatly appreciated
About a car and insurance?
ok so im 17 goin to turn 18 this decmber and i want to get a this nice car a 1987 Pontiac Fiero and i want to know what would the insurance on it would be
Does any one know the fees for not having car insurance?
I got pulled over two days ago. I was driving my cousin's van and it doesn't have insurance. i got a ticket for driving without insurance.
Insurance Cost On two different cars?
Would the insurance on an 2008 Ford Fusion be more than a 2006 Cadillac CTS? I live in Maine.
Who has the cheapist insurance. for min.coverage?
Who has the cheapist insurance. for min.coverage?
""I broke my brand new phone 2days after i got it, and i was still able to get insurance. Can i replace my phone?
I dripped my phone in a river 2 days after i got it. I called them and they said i can get insurance(but didnt tell them i broke it) i waited a few days and i was wondering if i can replace my phone?
Can you remove yourself from your parents' health insurance voluntarily?
I just would like to know. Is it possible? Thanks.
How much would car insurance be for me?
I finished driving school I average a 3.4 GPA I will drive a owned 07 Chevy impala Parents have good driving record. I'm 15 years old I live in Texas How much would car insurance be for me? It doesn't have to be exact i just want to get an idea of how much. Thank You
""When you get rear ended by a car, does your insurance rate go up?""
Will getting your car rear ended, or getting into any situation that isnt your fault, cause your insurance rate to go up?""
Car insurance switch?
i do have a problem with my current car insurance company processing a cal accident claim , and it wasnt my fault and i did choose to file the claim on the insurance of the person hit my car specially that we both have same insurance company so can i switch my car insurance to another company , and still get my claim or my car fixed with my current insurance company im having problem with ? or i have to stick with this car insurance untill my car fixed , and then switch to another car insurance ?
Hello All. I need Affordable Dental insurance (NJ). Any recommendations?
Hello All. I need Affordable Dental insurance (NJ). Any recommendations?
Can I get secondary insurance if i have primary insurance in my moms name?
I have primary insurance and the policy is in my moms name. I have cronic epilepsy and i cannot have a gap in my insurance because of all of the medications I'm on and all the dr. aptments i have with my neurologist. I am getting married in May of 2013. I need to get secondary insurance for right now and then when i get married drop off my moms insurance and make my secondary insurance my primary insurance and put my (at that point my husband) on. My mom basically trying to make it extremely difficult for my fiance and I to get married because she tries to keep me under my thumb. Im 25 years old and Im trying to get myself more independent and be able to get married and get my bachelors in business. Please someone help me.
What is the Average cost for health insurance for newlyweds?
Me and my GF are going to be getting married soon we are both 18 and have a house we are renting with steady jobs. What would our monthly average be for Health insurance?
""Insurance, and other sources of help?""
My last cancer screening came up positive, which means I have to fight the beast again. I currently don't have health insurance, but have been actively looking for insurance the last few years. Since I have a pre-existing conditions most premiums are way out of my price range, and the one's that are do not cover any of my treatments. Does anyone know of an affordable health insurance provider? Also does anyone know where I can get help with my medical expenses? I'm doing this on my own, so any kind of help would be appreciated. Thank you.""
Can I get SC insurance with my car registered in MD in my parents name?
My car is still registered to my parents and I have MD insurance through them. I live in SC and insurance is much cheaper down here. I plan on switching the car to me once I have paid the car off. Can I still get SC insurance with the car still being registered in MD and in my parents name? I can't get a SC license either until I have insurance that is covered in SC. Please help!
Car Insurance Question?
I am looking to buy a used car, but I am unsure as to what models/manufacturers will be set at a premium insurance fee. For instance, would a used BMW 3-series ($2000) cost more in insurance than a used Honda Accord ($2500)?""
How much would insurance be on a 2001 convertible mustang for a 16 year old?
hey everyone I was wondering what price range i would be looking at for a 2001 convertible mustang. not looking for a exact answer just a ballpark range. I have a 3.00+ gpa male 16 year old no ABS on car convertible thanks all.
Would it cost any extra to put another car on insurance policy?
I was just added to my family's car insurance policy, and was just browsing used cars. If I were to give the person in the policy enough money to buy a car, would it cost them anything extra to put that car on their insurance? They have two vehicles on the insurance currently.""
How much cheapest car insurance?
the details is correct in this link? http://www.insurancequote4mycar.com/
Im having a baby.. now i need insurance.. what am i able to do?
Im having a baby.. now i need insurance.. what am i able to do? Shes about a month along, andwe donthave insurance tohelp us have it.. what can i do? Can i still get it or do they see that as priorissue andsayno.. We need help bringing it intobthe world..butwere lostat the moment.""
Green card holders now have to have health insurance?
I've just noticed an Answer in someone else question that said laws have changed and Green card holders how have to have health insurance, is this right, is there a link to this ...show more""
Where and how to get an insurance for a borrowed car?
Hi there, I am going to borrow a car from a friend for one day and since I am not at his insurance policy, I will have to obtain one day insurance for my own name, am I right? I have my own car which is insured but I cannot use it at that day. Can my own insurance cover that single day? If not, where and how do I get that one day insurance? Thanks for answers!""
If you have full coverage Insurance and your car is stolen?
What happens? My mom had a 2000 Lincoln Navigator. It is completley paid off and she went out of town yesterday and her car was stolen from a motel parking lot. If the car is never found, how much does the insurance pay and how long does it usually take?""
My 17 was caught driving a car without a licence or insurance?
Does anyone know how much of a fine he can expect to get? Can't believe he has been such an idiot! He has never been in any sort of trouble before this.
Low cost insurance on my car?
I'm 18, about to start paying for my insurance. I have a 1998, Honda accord EX, 6V 2D. I've had my license since 2010 and a clean record. My parents have us on nationwide but it's really expensive. What's a cheaper insurance company I could go to when I graduated?""
How much should I expect for car insurance in New York City?
I'm 20 a full time student and I was looking to buy a used car. I was looking for a Honda Prelude 1996-99 and I just got my license this month. Around how much would I be likely to pay for it per month? I tried getting a quote online but they haven't been able to make one for me. I'll probably get a car around September and was just wondering how much I would be paying for the insurance. Thanks!
About how much would it be for car insurance for a 18 year old girl?
About how much would it be for car insurance for a 18 year old girl?
HOW come insurance co?
how come insurance co discraminate against people who have mental disease? I have tried in the past to get private insurance but because i have been treated for depression in the past, I have been denied by several companies. Now only I qualify for the State insurance, and it is way over-priced and hardly covers anything. This isn't fair to those of us that are self-employed. How are we able to get affordable insurance, if we are discraminated against.""
How much will my insurance be on a car?
I am 21 years old and I am wanting to get a 2009 dodge avenger with 21,000 miles on it. I just want to know about how much may they charge me for the insurance.""
How much would I expect to pay on insurance on a second hand Clio?
I'm taking my test soon and if I pass, there's a second hand Clio I like the look of. Just wondering, as I have no experience with buying cars, how much I would pay for insurance on an M reg Clio? And any extra costs? Thanks""
What to do with car insurance? questions on buying a car?
I've been driving close to a decade. I am under my father's insurance. My sister recently is not anymore. Because we have all been under my father insurance, my sister who has more driving experience is consider a new driver. Because of this her rates are very high. But since both of us have a decade more of driving experience surly this can do something about the rates? What happens if you do not have car insurance or it expired recently? Isn't it required? If you get into accident with other driver and you do not have insurance what happens? Is any cheap car insurance better than none? for 27yr old what is the best insurance for you, if you drive the family's car? If you want to buy your own, used car. How do you go about it?""
What is the most common health insurance?
what is the most common health insurance
Insurance after a crash motorbike!?
My Son has a motorbike crash last month. The police managed to look at CCTV footage and tell me the crash was not his fault. It was the fault of the motorbike in front that swerved in front of him. Anyway my sons bike was insures 3rd Party With no legal cover The bike was so badly damaged it was going to cost over 2k for me to fix it up but 4k to get it looking new. The bike was brand new 4 months ago. I had nowhere to store it so let the garage keep it for 600 My question is as he was only 3rd party where does the claim lie. The insurance company tells me I have no legal cover and they do not seem to be advising me of what to do. Ive heard nothing from them The bike has 4k outstanding on it as a family member loaned my son the cash, which he still has to pay back. What can I do to get some of the cash back for the bike?""
What insurance coverage should i get?
i purchased a motorcycle for 1800 dollars and parts are cheap for it so what coverages do i need and which ones dont i need
Why are my car insurance quotes so high?
I am 17 years old, male, my birthday is 7/11/94. I am looking to buy a car to learn to drive in then finally fully insure. I have not passed my test you but when asked on insurance website's I have put under the 'time held licence for as 1 month just to get a realistic view. I have tried a huge variety of cars but I just can't seem to get them to a reasonable price. For example I have been quoted 5999 on a seat alto 1.0 litre on gocompare. I have also tried adding my father as an additional driver who has 15+ years of experience and no claims. I am currently a student and have stated that the car would be parked on the drive. I live in a semi detached house in a small town. Please can anyone help me on getting it down as low as possible. The only cars I would not consider are 1. citroen saxo, 2. ford ka, 3. any form of fiat.""
Car insurance switch?
i do have a problem with my current car insurance company processing a cal accident claim , and it wasnt my fault and i did choose to file the claim on the insurance of the person hit my car specially that we both have same insurance company so can i switch my car insurance to another company , and still get my claim or my car fixed with my current insurance company im having problem with ? or i have to stick with this car insurance untill my car fixed , and then switch to another car insurance ?
Car Insurance?
I am just trying to get some quotes on maybe what my car insurance would be. I don't have the kind of car that I want yet but I was just trying to get an estimate and check and see what it would be around.. Can I get any quotes without the Vin Number?
Cheapest car insurance for 17 year old?!?
I'm looking at car insurance and the cheapest i can find is around 2000, that's 166 a month and i can't afford that :/ I'm looking to get a renault clio, corsa or a ford KA, anyone know any really cheap car insurance places i can look at?! X""
Motorcycle insurance?
Hey everyone just looking for some good places to go for my motorcycle insurance. I live in california L.A, county more east. Anyways im 27 no tickets anything for the last couple of years. i know you cant tell me a price but i was looking for places that have good deals and customer services. im just looking for liability. 2007 kawaski zzr. thanks guys.""
""Do you have to have car insurance, or does the car you are driving have to be insured?""
If you are driving a car, the car has to be insured, right? What if it is not your car - then it just has to be insured, right? If you have no insurance yourself, it's okay as long as the car is insured... right?""
""What is the best choice for life insurance age 34 term, universal, whole, accidental?""
What is the best choice for life insurance age 34 term, universal, whole, accidental?""
Auto insurance price? 16 year old.?
I am 16 in June. I own a mustang lx but it is the 2.3l model that my company geico doesn't classify dangerous or a sports car. My dad has wonderful credit. The car and insurance is in his name. So is my car ad tittle and tag. Basically to keep costs down everything is tech his. I will be listed as driving 10-15% of the time As a secondary driver. His driving record is clear and great credit. He has a jeep patriot 2013 and my 1989 lx mustang will be the 2nd car. They got a brand new car and his credit when checked was about the best possible. Forget the numbers but literally the best possible by a few. Never missed payments etc. so about how much a year or every 6 months would my 89 4 banger mustang cost to insure?
What will a car insurance company check?
I've just made my first claim ever for a car accident, I was rear ended at a traffic light and the other driver accepted liability immediately, however what details will their insurance company check about me? I've made the claim through my insurance but want it to be handled stress free! Thanks in advance!""
How cheap would my insurance rates be?
A friend on mine had recent gotten a 99 Civic 2 dr and his insurance is 80$ a month. If i get a 94 Civic with 4drs, how much cheaper would it be going to the same insurance company, having a older year, and it not being a sports car? We are both 17. Also, How much do you think my rates would be for a 21 year old owning both a 95 Civic and a 2001 Corvette? Its kind of late to call the insurance company now so i want an opinion. =D Thanks""
How can i make my truck engine more powerful?
i have an 05 ford ranger 3.0 6 cyl 4 wd and i want to make it more powerful. what parts or should i upgrade and what brands are reliable and cost effective. im only 16 and make about 500 bucks a month before taxes and insurance etc. so i really need the parts to be cost effective
What kind of new car is the cheapest to insure ?
I currently drive a leased 2011 Hyundai Santa Fe SUV. The full coverage insurance on this car is now $113.00 per month. Last year it was $108.00 per month. I will be in the market for a new leased vehicles soon and I want to know what cars or SUV are the cheapest to insure. Any websites I can look at ?
Policy loan from life insurance interest pay to insurance company! why?
Any one can tell me, loan money from life insurance policy cash value intrest collect from the lisurance company, the cash value is my own money, should I paid intrest back to myself? not to insurance company""
What is the cheapest car to insure for a 17 year old male? 10 points?
I'm getting ridiculous quotes for a Citreon C1 Group E insurance for 7000+ under 1 liter engine size !!! By using compare the market and other comparison sites! Where can I find affordable insurance quotes? My brother was insured on a 06 1.2 Polo for 2,300 and only been driving for 6 months. surely a C1 will be cheaper!! Need help""
""What company can I use to purchase private dental insurance in Seattle, WA?""
which dental company can I use to purchase affordable dental care privately, not through an employee? For anyone age 18 and over and would cover basic dental visits and surgery such ...show more""
Anyone in Florida with a 220 insurance license?
I want to study for the 220 insurance test but before going to the school i needed to get a head start, and was looking for some study material can anyone help or send some lititure to study??""
I cant find car insurance that will cover a learner driver and a passed driver for a month?
I am trying to pass my test as soon as possible but didn't have access to a car to do extra practice between lessons. So I have bought a car before I have passed so that I can go out practising with my mum. However I cant find any short cover (1 month) insurance which will insure us both, they seem to only do learner driver insurance which has to be bought on top of the normal insurance OR only insure drivers with a full license. However buying both together is over 300 for only 28 days for the ones I checked. Can anyone come up with an affordable way to practice in my own car? Thanks""
Do I need to be on the insurance to get my license?
Im about to be 18 and I have an appointment at the California DMV to get my license. I've had my permit for a year. my boyfriend wants to take me. his car is registered and everything is fine but his insurance doesnt cover other people driving his car. can I take the DMV test in his car or not?
Old car insurance help?
just bought a new car and part exchanged my old one but the old one still had some months of insurance, can i get my money back for the un-used months? this ill help fund the new car's insurance""
""Will my car insurance rates go up, hit and run accident?""
I was parked out of my girlfriends house and apparently during my visit someone had hit my car that was parked on the side of the road. The other car just nicked my bumper (no damage to fender) but hit it hard enough to totally tear the bumper off the driver side and the front of the car and was left dangling on the passenger side. There were also scratches on the top of my driver side mirror, and the mirror itself popped out and was shattered. Basically my question is...if I claim it, will my rates go up? I believe I am insured under my parent's names and not my own. I had one accident that was my fault about 2 years ago.""
Car insurance help?
A while back my nephew ran into a car that was stopped on a bridge. Both vehicles had liability insurance. They determine that it was my nephew's fault. His insurance paid and now the insurance are trying to get money back. Why?
Insurance adjusters?
I'm looking for a school in southern california that offers training in insurance adjusting. i'm trying to obtain my license in california and want to take a course
What is the best insurance policy for a child age 6.5 year?
What is the best insurance policy for a child age 6.5 year?
Some Cheap Auto Insurance Companies for Young Drivers?
Can you list cheap auto insurance companies for young drivers please?
Honda CBR 125r... Insurance price for a 17 year old?
(UK!) I'm really interested in motorbikes, and in 18 months - the painful wait - I am looking at buying my first bike, a Honda CBR 125r. Due to the low horse power of the bike, I can ride it with just a CBT after my 17th birthday if I'm not mistaken, which will reduce my costs as I won't need to take lessons and a test. With leathers, helmet, boots, gloves, CBT, as well as the bike, I worked out I would need to save at least 2200... However, I have no idea what insurance would be. I understand insurance prices fluctuate according to location etc, but I have no idea at all. So even a completely rough estimate, even if it could be out by 150 would be useful. Thank you for reading, hope you can help. :-)""
Proof of insurance question?
The transmission went out of my car. A friend who does auto repair told me it would cost approx $1200 to fix. So I decided to scrap the car & get another. I cancelled insurance on old one & bought another 1 1/2 months later. The car was not driveable. Now I have to prove why I didn't have ins on the car and still had plates registered to it. I called & wrote a letter to the state and they said to send an estimate from an ASE cert. mechanic or tow bill or pictures. I don't have a tow bill. I didn't get out of the driveway. I don't need an ASE mechanic to tell me what is wrong w/the car and picutres of a transmission are stupid. I have received a written est from the guy and have statements from neighbors saying the car was not running. What more can I do?????? I don't want my license suspended.
What company will insure my toyota supra twin turbo?
In perth, wa. Youngest driver 19 years old""
Car insurance switch?
i do have a problem with my current car insurance company processing a cal accident claim , and it wasnt my fault and i did choose to file the claim on the insurance of the person hit my car specially that we both have same insurance company so can i switch my car insurance to another company , and still get my claim or my car fixed with my current insurance company im having problem with ? or i have to stick with this car insurance untill my car fixed , and then switch to another car insurance ?
https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/does-number-doors-car-affect-insurance-rate-karin-baker"
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if i’m to be honest with myself, i would say that i’m worried about me. i cried many times this week. each time i talked about my sexual assault i cried. i didn’t mean to. i wanted simply to tell my loved one my secret but each time i start feeling shaky, feel my mind crumple, a choking sensation in my throat. at this point, i have told only two people, my best friend at college and my best friend from high school. three people know, the third individual being the one who extracted the truth out of me one week ago. i don’t know if i’ll ever tell anyone beyond these individuals. it’s something that still confuses me and something that scares me deeply. i’m fearful of how easily my mind was deceived into thinking that it didn’t matter and then the swiftness with which i forgot all of it. i’m afraid because i don’t fully understand what triggered my memory now. i wonder if there are more demons i’ve hidden away that will one day come out into the open. i know that s had a lot to do with it: do you trust me, he repeated over and over again. i said to him that no one had paid attention to the frailty beneath my facade of perfection. no one ever noticed before, except drunk s the first friday back to school my sophomore spring. it was by luck that he was in the state to truly push me to the limit of my constrained mind, otherwise i may have stuffed it down deeper for another couple years. i have spent my entire life crafting my porcelain-smooth exterior. doing things for others to chase away my demons became my pastime. i ran for office to give myself an extra boost onto the pedestal where my appearances come first. i realize now that there were many moments that led to my revelation. first, it was a’s own sexual assault. in december, she told me about how she cried when he forced himself on her. i tried to comfort her. then, it was h talking about blowjob skills that she’d learned from her friends from home. i told her that i’d given a couple blowjobs before. as i was reaching for the story to tell her, i began to realize that not remembering the experience fully was not okay and not fun and definitely non-con. she agreed with me. that night in bed, i stared up at the ceiling as i pondered whether what’d happened to me was consensual or not. my google search: was i raped. and then: what is sexual assault. an announcement popped up, it was the number for the national sexual assault hotline. and i brushed it off because i thought there was no way that could be for me.
on friday night, i returned from a basketball game recruitment event for the new women’s organization i was trying to join to meet s at his housewarming. i’d been awake since 8 am and was quickly becoming exhausted. the plan was to get up early the following morning to make it to the final recruitment event at the city food bank. i intended to show my face to demonstrate my commitment to our friendship, decline any offers to drink, and then leave. i arrived to his apartment alone and left alone. in between, i met s’ high school friends visiting the campus. one girl i’d known in high school at the summer camp we both worked at. another guy i knew from a physics course we took together that same summer. and then, s was introducing me to everyone at the party. s was trying to get me to take a shot. three times he asked, i hid the cup on the counter of red solo cups. but i began worrying about not being fun so i joined the game of rage cage. as bad at rage cage as i was, i ended up drinking almost all the beer on the table. before long, i was next to s’ friend a, asking him intently about how he intended to live his life after graduation. i kissed him or he kissed me and soon we were making out in the corner. moments or a long time later, time i cannot count because of my inebriation, the RA came in to shut down the gathering. i pulled a into the bathroom to avoid getting in trouble. we made out more while the RA was writing up other people. at this point, i began sobering. with sobriety came embarrassment: embarrassment at how fucking predictable i was and at the trashiness of my behavior. i ran out to s’ room to grab my things to leave. s told us to stay inside awhile longer while he cleaned everything up and i was stuck in the room with a, this time no longer trashed. s walked me out to the gate and as we walked, he demanded to know if i kissed a. still a little drunk, i said i didn’t want to tell him. he pushed again. i responded that it didn’t matter! and that s should ask a himself if he really wanted to know so badly. five tries later, i broke down. i told him. s: wtf, he’s my friend from middle school, now you’ve made us eskimo brothers. you’re probably the first girl he’s ever kissed, he’s supposed to marry some nice pre-med girl and settle down in the bay. the clear implication: he’s not supposed to make out with someone like you, it’s not part of his destiny. by someone like you, s meant: the girl who makes out with someone at every party, with baggage and demons she can’t explain, someone who is clearly spiraling. you’re bad for him, is what i knew he meant to say.
why are you like this! s asked me: i don’t understand. your behavior when drunk is so antithetical to what you’re like when you’re sober. i don’t believe that being drunk makes people different. they may lose their inhibitions. so what is it then? what is it? what the fuck is it? why are you like this?
i don’t know, i responded weakly. i have no idea. it’s not that i want to do this. it’s not like i show up parties wanting to return home wasted and having severed social connections because i’ve made out with another person i barely know.
you must know, he said. just tell me. tell me. do you trust me? do you? you know i care about you as a friend. you know that, right. you must know that i care about you as a person, that i like the way you think.
yes, i answered. i know. i’m glad. thank you. but this isn’t something i can tell you. it’s something i need to figure out on my own. i barely understand any of this myself, so please s, just drop it.
no, no, i care about you and i want to know. this is important. do you trust me? listen, look at me, do you trust me?
back and forth we went. my sense of time disappeared. tell me, he repeated. i care about you, he said. and finally, the tears came.
okay, okay, but there’s so many things. that’s fine, he said. there’s the guys i knew in high school who tossed me around and never cared about who i actually was. there’s my dad i had a horrible relationship with my senior year of high school. when i broke curfew once, he made me kneel in the foyer while he screamed at me with his quivering chin. and.
i’m beginning to realize i may have been sexually assaulted. this happened almost year ago, it was one of my floormates. i knew him, his name was g. and the tears really came. i couldn’t stop sobbing. my spine trembled and i choked on my own words. s tucked my mussed hair back behind my ears. he looked me in the eye. he pulled me into a hug and i cried into his shoulder. and then i just cried. i stood there in the parking lot of his apartment complex behind a row of parked cars, sobbing. s stood there patiently and waited.
no one has ever paid attention enough to notice, s. i tried so hard to ignore it and it worked. there are so many things, s, that i don’t even know how they all fit together. so i’m thankful, i am. thank you for noticing that this isn’t right. thank you for noticing that this might not be me, it might be my demons getting the best of me, that i’m not the one running after all of this sex and kisses and bodies. the worst part is, i told him, is how i don’t even know where my own will begins and my dad’s ends. as a child, i didn’t know how to make decisions. i simply did what was asked of me, by anyone in my life who felt entitled. i was ella enchanted, the queen who couldn’t stop obeying. i told him that he was one of the first close guy friends i had, because i’d been so carelessly dismissed by guys i knew in high school. he explained the merits of being in a relationship, though he was concerned he wasn’t approaching relationships in the most healthy of ways. he insisted that he wasn’t recommending me a boyfriend. i explained how that wouldn’t be possible for me for a very long time. without understanding how to actively consent nor how to meaningfully say no, i don’t feel safe entering a relationship with a man.
hours later, i walked back to my apartment alone. it was a different kind of walk of shame. i was emotionally exhausted but knew i’d need to stay awake if i was hoping to make it to the volunteer event at 7. i found my roommate asleep on the couch. i retreated to my room. when my groggy roommate stumbled in a couple moments later, she saw me flipping the new economics textbook i’d just received in the mail. 2 hours later, i dragged myself to the food bank volunteer event, where i resumed my old self as a chirpy, fun potential new member. i spent the day worrying about if i’d hallucinated all of it. i questioned the reality of my conversation with s, the memories i’d recalled, my experience in november 2015. i had lunch with my good friend h with whom i ate poke. it was kind and wonderful. but then, i returned home alone. alone again, i was lost in my thoughts. in my mind, i had the words now: sexual assault. i googled the definition again. it sounded just like me and i wondered why it’d taken me so long. my delay, i was certain, was grown out of fear of thinking about what it meant to genuinely recognize my experience as one of sexual assault. i sat in my room and then fell asleep for the night. when i woke up, i saw s again and then h by accident. the next day was also disorienting because i’d napped for so long the day before. i overslept for brunch with my board team. the whole time at the meeting i felt like my mind was detached from my body. i had trouble focusing my vision and making eye contact. i couldn’t look in the eye our org president, didn’t feel like i had the energy to bring up my own idea or suggestions because i didn’t have the mental strength to defend them. then i was talking to my friend z, the head of our board. we talked about our families and our futures, familiar topics that we’d talked about for. i felt human again. though my earth had been shaken, i was still the same person and others would continue to treat me as such.
i came back to my room and the curiosity was too much. i needed to know if what’d happened to me was sexual assault. guessing on my own and truly knowing were very different things. i felt like the past two days i’d been living an imposter’s life, mired in untruth. i called the hotline i’d googled nights earlier. i was rerouted to the ywca, incidentally at a chapter i’d tried to volunteer with in the summer. i was asked for my phone number. then i was asked my age, zip code, and ethnicity. why? i asked, afraid of exposing my identity. i gave them my starbucks name. i want to know if what happened to me was sexual assault. i just want to know. after telling her what happened that night, she told me that it was definitely non-consensual, which is the definition of sexual assault. she told me that it wasn’t my fault, that it was a flaw of the society in which we live that girls are told that these situations are okay or not bad at least. the tears returned. she told me i was brave for sharing. sitting alone in the courtyard of my apartment complex, i sobbed.
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