#which always stresses me out because I'm always afraid if I don't already know exactly what I'm going to read next after I finish one

[pirateshelly]

Does anyone have any good stand alone fantasy book recs?

[babyangelsky]

The maids kids know everything

Yeah so I'm not done yapping about expressions this week and ya'll can blame @almayver , @slayerkitty , @prapaiwife , @fallsouthwinter , and @crispywizardtale for enabling me.

I wanted to talk more about Meena in my expressions post because the second I saw her adorable, sweet happy face go from this

to this the second she saw her grandfather waiting for her after school, I knew we were going to be in for a lot.

And boy howdy, were we.

First though, can I say how much I already LOVE Nina? Baby girl is 10 years old and she absolutely blew me away. She's doing a great job. Her expressions as Meena are clear and excellent and telling in the very same way that Tongrak's are. It makes it feel like they're really related and like she's grown up around him her whole life and picked up his mannerisms, it's incredible to see.

Of course, that also meant that she ripped my heart out.

Meena is sweet and cute and intelligent and it's obvious that she's the absolute light of Tongrak's life. She's also very precocious, which means that she knows everything to an extent that no child should.

This baby girl is very aware of how messed up her family is. She knows her grandparents' history, she knows her mother is afraid of her grandfather, she knows her uncle is even more afraid of her grandfather, and even worse than all that, she knows she should be afraid of her grandfather.

When her grandpa shows up at her school, she knows to take a picture and then go in the opposite direction of wherever he is. She knows to tell Tongrak right away. She makes the decision not to tell her mother because she knows it'll stress her out.

She says THIS.

Do you know how fucked up it is for a child to say this so casually?

For all that Tongrak and Kwan have been traumatized and harrowed by their upbringing, it's clear to me that they've done what they can to shield Meena from suffering because of it too. She seems like a bright, happy little girl.

But it's precisely because they're harrowed by it that Meena knows as much as she does. Kids see things. They understand more than they're ever given credit for because so few adults see them as actual people. Even if neither her mother nor her uncle said a word about their family history, Meena would pick up on all the things that are wrong and all the things not being said.

For god's sake, she won't even let her uncle pick her up from school because she knows he's terrified of her grandfather. No child should have the things on their mind that she does.

Yes, it's fucked up that there's even anything for her to be aware of in the first place and that she's having to think about comforting the adults in her life, but being aware of things helps to protect her. There's less of a chance she'll be hurt by her grandfather or anything else if she knows to run away and that she has safe places and people to go to.

And that's why it matters so much that Mahasamut told her the truth about his feelings for and relationship with Tongrak.

No one is ever direct with children. No one dares to be frank with them or meet them on a level they can process and understand because again, children aren't always seen as people. There's always this feeling of "you can't say that to a child" or "that's too much for a child!" and I'll agree that most children don't need to know absolutely everything.

Meena isn't most children, however.

I didn't pick up on it the first time for my expressions post, but when I went back and rewatched the scene in Tongrak's living room, I clocked this expression from Mahasamut.

He makes this face the second Meena brings up her grandfather. He wasn't really paying that much attention to the conversation before this but after? He zeroes in because he knows it's important.

There is no world in which Mahasamut wasn't going to offer--insist even--to pick Meena up from school. Ain't no way. He's just learned exactly how cruel and fucked up Tongrak's father is and now here this child is telling her uncle about how she saw that same man was waiting for her after school. In this exact moment he set himself up as one of those safe people for Meena to go to.

And I really think Mut realizes that in order to be that for her, he has to be honest with her. He tells her and she understands because she is intimately familiar with what it means for one person to pay another for their company. Once he's honest with her, he can then reassure her that he isn't with Tongrak for the money and that he sincerely cares about him.

Meena wants a happily ever after for her uncle. She can pick up on the sadness and loneliness in his novels. She sees that Tongrak takes care of everyone but that no one takes care of him.

When Mut asks her to root for him to get to be the one to take care of Tongrak and that he's confident that he can be, her whole face lights up and she has fight back her smile.

Maybe most kids don't need this level of frankness, but Meena does. I can only imagine how betrayed and hurt she would feel if she were to find out later from someone else that her beloved uncle's relationship began with money like her grandparents' relationship did because she has already seen how that ended.

Mahasamut has known this child for like an hour and already he's treating her and her feelings with the same respect and consideration that he shows to Tongrak. And that is exactly what she and any child deserve from the adults in their life.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA to refuse tutoring my nephew even though I'm not sure what he did wrong?

So I (24, F) have been tutoring my nephew/the son of my mum's close friend (10, M) for a couple of weeks now. His mum pays me for the hours I spend teaching him and honestly despite the kid being obviously ADHD I don't really mind him getting constantly distracted because it's clear he still understands what I'm explaining to him, so we had a pretty good relationship up until this point as I was way more understanding of him than any other tutors or even his own mother, although I don't really know him THAT well.

During our tutoring sessions my cat, Pudding (14, F) would usually stay in the same room with us. She likes to stay in the same room as other people but usually doesn't let strangers pet her and will go away if bothered too much. Well, Nephew being distractable as he is would often go up to her to pet her as he would answer a question of mine or just as a thing between answering questions. Strangely enough Pudding did let him do that and didn't seem to be THAT bothered by it, so I too ignored it and just let him do it.

Now, here's the issue: A few days ago after we finished our tutoring session for that day I left the room to wash my hands in the kitchen since we were eating snacks during the session. My house's kitchen is literally DIRECTLY next to the room where we have our tutoring sessions so it couldn't have taken longer than 10-15 seconds from me leaving before I heard a cry from Pudding. "Oh, she must've finally gotten annoyed with Nephew's behaviour, I'll tell him to stop bothering her." I thought to myself as I finished washing my hands, yet before I was even able to make it back to the room I heard a second, much louder meow, the kind of meow a cat only makes if they ACTUALLY get hurt. So now, properly concerned, I round the corner into the room and see Nephew sitting right next to where Pudding is still laying, now with her ears flat and looking at him. He must've seen the confusion on my face because the first thing he said was "We were just playing." to which I blurted out that clearly she was not in the mood to play and walked over to check on her. While doing that, I noticed that there was a blanket slightly covering Pudding's hind legs, so I assumed maybe Nephew accidentally put his weight there without realizing she had her paws there. I VERY GENTLY pulled back the blanket and VERY GENTLY touched her legs to see if they were hurt, and then she BIT me and finally ran away. Of course I don't blame her, and in fact that only strengthened my concern because Pudding is a VERY polite cat, if she's bothered by anything she will just leave and if she bites for play it's always very gentle and doesn't leave a mark, this was not that. Afterwards I couldn't get any useful information out of Nephew as to what exactly he did, he just kept saying that he was petting her and she got annoyed which was clearly not true, so I dropped the subject and just sent him home.

Now it's been a few days since that happening and I've checked on Pudding's legs a few times since then. She doesn't respond to me touching them at all and she doesn't limp or anything so either she didn't get injured, or the legs were never the issue in the first place and me touching her was simply the last straw in that already stressful situation for her. Despite that however, I find myself not wanting to have Nephew over for tutoring anymore as I'm afraid that something like this might happen again when I'm literally gone from the room for less than a minute. It really annoys me that I have absolutely no clue what happened while I was gone, I don't even have a way to know if Nephew did whatever he did intentionally or by accident since him saying they were just "playing" could very well be just his honest perception of the situation, or him lying and being vague on purpose because he knows he did something wrong. The reason why I feel like Nephew might be lying about doing bad things on purpose is because Nephew's family has two cats, so I really feel like he should know better already and be more careful. Another point is the fact that this literally happened the INSTANT I was gone from the room, almost as if he was waiting for me to be gone to do something (as far as I recall I haven't ever left him alone with Pudding before this point), though admittedly that could just be unlucky coincidence. Plus, I find it REALLY hard to believe he'd be able to make Pudding cry like that on accident, I've genuinely NEVER heard her make a sound like that, ever, not even at the vet's. On the other hand however I know that he was failing his math class badly before I started tutoring him and I'm almost certain he'd start to fail again if I stopped helping him. Not only that, I'd have to come up with a lie about being too busy to do tutoring or something else since obviously I can't tell his mother "Hey your son might've done something bad but I'm not really sure and don't really have any proof and can't even tell if it was really intentional or not", since I realize how ridiculous that sounds despite still genuinely feeling incredibly uncomfortable about the whole situation.

So with all of that out of the way, would I be the asshole for denying him my tutoring services just because I feel uncomfortable about the idea of him possibly hurting my cat on purpose, even when I don't really have any proof that he did it on purpose or would do it again?

What are these acronyms?

[mikuni14]

Century of Love - Ep 3

Oh, but I loved this episode! I was afraid that San would be an asshole and go to Vee out of sheer necessity to help himself, not to apologize to him. AND THAT'S WHAT HE DID! 😆 But it was very cleverly done. First, San denies that he will absolutely, under NO circumstances, marry Vee, even if he were to DIE. Then the goddess wipes the floor with him and San gives up lmao, goes to Vee and proposes an ARRANGE MARRIAGE FOR MONEY!

Yes, Vee, me too, I was like :OOOO the whole time 😆😆😆 What a brilliant idea to preserve San's dick..nessy?, his "faithfulness" to Wat, and at the same time significantly move the plot forward. In general, I really like the way the action unfolds and doesn't waste time on boring stuff, stupidity and classic misunderstandings in this situation, which I totally expected. San quickly finds out that Vee is innocent, Vee already knows about the magic stone and that San is an everyone's favorite oji-chan and about the reincarnation. I also really like the idea of ​​marriage, I think it's brilliant.

I also liked the scene in Vee's apartment. He himself masking his pain, anger, guilt and injustice with laughter and self-deprecation, because he screwed up his life with a stupid mistake and simply being poor. And San, who came to Vee all angry and bristling, and at one point looked at Vee - and himself - in a different way, realizing that Vee was now where he once was. It was very good. I really appreciate moments like this in my BLs 💖

Chibi San as usual did not disappoint, this kid deserves all the awards. He was exactly the perfect mix of grumpy and sweet 🧁 And the way he carries himself in these oversized clothes, like it's no big deal, just everyday activity lol what a little dude! I kind of want to see BTS scenes with him, is he naturally like that :)

San's family is still fantastic. How much do they put up with grandpa's bullsh... I mean his complicated love life, which is also their main source of entertainment lol

The series tirelessly revolves around the topic of death, the difficulties of accepting it and separation from the person to whom one owes so much, and the determination to stop it, even at the cost of everything.

Daou and Offroad really give their all in this series, I don't know how Daou manages these constant scenes of acting out pain. And Offroad seamlessly switches between the always smiling Vee (how often it's a mask he wears so that others don't worry about him or not interfered in his problems, assuming that he was ok?), and those moments when he shows his pain and stress and anger at what his life is like and how he is being treated by life, strangers and circumstances. Also, Offroad is incredibly beautiful and has moments when he looks so seductively, for example in the scene in Vee's apartment when San is thinking about Vee and himself from the past and catches Vee's looking at him… gods 🔥🔥🔥 (hope someone will gif it! 👉👈). I'm going crazy because of them.

Wild theory time! Grandma is Wat, she will eat a stone and regain her youth and look like a young Wat, but San will already be half in love with Vee. Chaos ensues hehe 🤡

[crypt-tids]

I had a big weekend, so I'm still recovering from that. Part of that is just letting my brain return to normal because I had a couple very overstimulating days having to deal with people I didn't want to deal with at an event I didn't want to be at. My boyfriend had off Monday and Tuesday so I stayed with him afterwards. He goes to class on Monday and I go bowling (which I have to wear my loops for otherwise I will get very anxious and stressed because it is very loud).

Because of that, I guess I was still teetering on the edge and woke up a bit depressed. My mood would shift here and there through the day but still maintaining a not so great feeling.

We played video games all day, alternating between levels and handing off the controller when we got too mad at a level to play it anymore. We were playing astro bot, and there is one bonus level that basically broke us. I couldn't do it, I got pissed, he couldn't do it, he got pissed. We took a break, played some other levels, and then he went back to it. And got stuck in a determination rage loop trying to beat it for probably an hour and a half. He got so focused I eventually got up and started doing some chores I needed to do before going home. When I went back in, he'd made no progress but had gotten far more frustrated. Eventually, he gave up, turned off the game, checked the time (it was late) which made him more irritated because he felt bad wasting the rest of our time together trying to beat that level. I didn't care all that much, but there were a few times I had considered taking the controller away and making him leave it because he was getting so heated about it that he definitely wasn't going to beat it that angry. But I let him roll with it.

Well, sometimes when he feels like he has neglected me, he tries to make it up to me. Which is normally fine, however his energy was still elevated, but his face wasnt matching his energy which started stressing me out. (I start to panic if I can't read his emotions properly, or the signals feel mixed). I had to look away to calm down because I didn't want to worry him (it didn't work 😮‍💨)

He was kissing me, which is fine, but my lip piercing had felt weird all day, like my lip was a little swollen or something, so I was annoyed about that, and my sinuses are messed up from being outside for 2 days straight at the season change, so I was feeling suffocated a little as well even though I was breathing. The combination of all of that, and him touching me just pushed me over the edge and I started panicking and had to stop him because I was trying not to cry (I cried anyways, I had a full breakdown).

Ofc, he is freaking out asking me what is wrong a million times and I can't answer him because I don't know what's wrong. I don't know why I'm having a breakdown, I've never had one in this particular situation before.

I reassure him that he didn't do anything, which he doesn't believe and feels like it was his fault. He hadn't been in a relationship before me for 5 years, and his last relationships were with cheaters/emotional abusers. He has absolutely no confidence and anytime I get upset or cry about something, he is afraid that he somehow caused it and that I don't love him anymore, so he always has to ask if I do (which breaks my heart every time).

I finally get him to believe that he didn't do anything wrong, but I feel like the worst human on the planet because I had no control over it, I tried to stop it, and it didn't work and it made him feel bad, and he already has hardly an ounce of self-confidence to begin with.

I have never been in this particular situation before, and the best I can figure is that I was just already battling overstimulation, which the game amplified a little maybe, and I just couldn't take it. I fucking hate it, and I hate that I can't properly explain what is happening because I don't know why it is happening or what exactly is pushing me over the edge at any point in time because there are times when I will feel completely fine or at least very manageable right before I breakdown. I just don't really know what to do exactly to assure him that my breakdowns are usually just because my brain doesn't work and not because of something he did. I feel like I ruined the rest of our night because of it. He isn't bothered, he just wants me to feel better and to help, which he really wants to do, it's just that I often don't know what to ask for to help because I don't know what will really make it better aside from just hugging him and crying it out.

[jaylienpotter]

My brainstorm and theory for @sebbianas jegulus famous exes AU

This was before the last update, I had tried to analyse the different updates to find out what James did. Publishing now that we have the answer (read update 16 and 16.5). Spoilers below.

Evan: you broke up with him

Reg: well he didn't exactly try to stop me now did he?

Reg seems a bit bitter that James didn't put much of a fight

"James Potter loves him. (...)"

"Was [Regulus] even allowed to do anything with it? Did he even deserve that after breaking James's heart? James's beautiful, delicate, wholesome heart that Regulus stomped 5 years ago"

Regulus feels as if he doesn't deserve the heart he broke even if James hurt him first?

"They're hurting each other again. Just like those last few months before Regulus finally had the courage to end it. It felt like they were 19 again, trying to build a name for themselves, handling rejections and disappointments by turning on each other."

Okay so they were having a hard time balancing the work life and career stress with their romantic relationship, making me believe that whatever James did had something to do with work/career

"[James] has always been so genuine and sweet, how could [Regulus] have ever let this man go."

So it wasn't anything malicious (which was already a given but yeah)

"[Being friends] is all he can allow himself, it's all he can give to James because he's not going to be the reason James loses his career. Not again."

This! This is the thing that stuck to me the first time. Confirms my theory of it being connected to work. So James probably did or was going to do something (without telling Regulus) that would put his own (James's) career at risk (singing or acting idk). Sirius commented it with his brother, not imagining what would come from it. Regulus felt guilty about what his boyfriend was giving up for him, but also betrayed for not being told it was happening?

Remus: have you ever thought about getting back together with him?

"The one option Regulus would never consider. He doesn't trust himself with James Potter and he doesn't trust James Potter with himself"

Reg: I love him but I'm so scared that what happened before will happen again. I don't know if I can trust him not to do it again.

"The fear and anxiety it brought him, the confusion and the anger, and most of all the pain James has caused him. (...) Remus seemed to understand unlike Pandora who called him dramatic but proceeded to hug and comfort him, told him he understood and even went as far as to say he would have done the same thing."

Reg was anxious and afraid that James would/did do the thing. It brought him fear, which isn't a light feeling. He was angry at James for the decision (yet never said anything).

Remus: I can't believe he did that. I mean I can believe it, he's James but at the same time why didn't he tell you? Why did you have to hear it from Sirius?

Reg: he's an idiot, is what he is. I don't know what I will do if he ends up doing the same thing again.

Remus: he was 19 when he did that, Reg. He's all grown up now, you can learn to trust him again and you can start by actually telling him all this.

It's something that most people would have the common sense to not do, but since it was James, it made sense he didn't have that.

It was something immature, that James would have probably outgrown now.

"There's still a part in him that feels guilty and broken over what James has done, has he somehow driven James to that decision? Was it something he said or did that made James think he needed to do that? Or did James never truly trusted him before?"

It was a decision, something James was consciously thinking of doing (or did). Which was something that in Reg's point of view, shows lack of trust.

"He was scared. He has always been scared of finding out what led James to do what he did. If it was a reflection of his shortcomings, was his love not strong enough for James to trust him?"

Ok James DID do said thing. It happened.

Final thoughts:

James made a decision in regards to his own career and hid it from Regulus

He told Sirius (but not the other marauders), who ended up telling his brother (probably mentioned or by accident and didn't think much of it)

James doesn't know that Reg knows about it

Reg broke up from fear of James ruining his own career and from anger and mistrust of not being told beforehand

It's something that Reg must have been able to impact somehow, since he felt guilty for it

[mrs-toohot]

This week's episodes: Live react

Candace is taking my man on a date? I'm gonna have thoughts.

(Also my MC's name is Sophie)

Firstly, he'd better say no.

Okay, so he can't say no. Fuck.

Awww 'the look on his face turns from shock to reassurance when he notices your expression'

"You know you have nothing to worry about, right? You and I are solid." aw omg stop??? so cute

"I'd never break your heart, Sophie, you know that, right?"

Oh we're getting three stress tests

"What if Wesley is already making out with Candace?" Nora STFU you bitch lol. If we were friends that would be funny, but we're not so shut your slut whore bitch mouth.

How insecure do you have to be to press the button because you found out that she's 22 and American? Like wtf? Yeah cool she's a model, but Jesus Christ, do you really think your man is going to fall over himself that easily? HE'S ON TV! HE'S BEING JUDGED FOR HIS ACTIONS!

'No, I trust Wesley' is obviously my choice.

"There's nothing hotter than a guy who knows what he wants and isn't afraid to go for it."

Yeah, cool, but this is just telling me that she wants him. Again, I am not phased.

Again, trusting Wesley. This is easy af

'Candace is perfection incarnate' Yeah but she's also got pink hair and my man's a CEO like fr he wants a WOMAN not a GIRL.

Okay as predicted, Candace is Cassia's ex (Lucky Candace... damn...)

'If she sees even a small opening with Wesley, she'll jump on the opportunity'.

Um yeah but she's not gonna.

God, this would be so much harder on a loyal Ryder route. I'd be genuinely shaking in my uggs rn.

Yay, I passed the easiest test in the world

Seriously you would have to be insanely jealous to fail this, the fuck???

Oh sweet we get $10k!!!

Ancient Greece Party!!! Writers should've made it a Roman Empire party just to keep it current and up to date

Amari - I've always wanted to dress like a goddess Antoine - You don't do that already? Could've fooled me.

EXCUSE! ME! SIR! YOU'D BETTER HAVE THOSE LINES ON MY ALTERNATE ROUTE!

Why is Wesley literally in underwear tho

NO HE DID NOT JUST GREET ME LIKE THAT

"Sophie! There's my girlfriend!"

"I'm not interested in pursuing a taken person".... Why does this fill me with dread. What is she going to do? Is she gonna try and break us up and THEN pounce on him?

Cute toga, omg that one hairstyle (you know which one) it is CUTE

"His jaw goes slack as he takes you in" dear god who is writing these LIs and can you please take over LITG

OH HE LOOKS SO FUCKING HOT FJDKHGSBF

HE'S GOT A LITTLE LIGHTNING BOLT EARRING GUYS LOOK AT HIM

You suddenly feel shy under his smouldering gaze. (Oooof)

'I can't remember if I've ever mentioned, but my parents own a hotel nearby'

Yes babe you did but please take me aside and tell me exactly what you're planning on doing to me once we get there.

I am teetering on the edge of BFFs with Cassia, and then I'm hoping I can jump her bones. She's so hot I stg

Amari's outfit is so boring

NORA'S OUTFIT IS SO CUTE

Elena's outfit is so mid

ANTOINE'S GOT WINGS bhfkdsfasdhvdbs HAHAHAHHAHAHAH he's so fucking extra I can't

SLAY NAOMI I LOVE YOUR BUTTERFLIES

ONCE AGAIN ZAYN'S OUTFIT IS TOO MUCH he's got a lion head as a dick cover wtf hfkdbsahs

Excuse me while i thirst over cassia deeply

Blah blah blah playing beer pong with Wesley

WYM YOU'RE STARTING TO SOUND LIKE NAOMI

WHY YOU BEEN SPENDING TIME WITH HER

THIS IS MAKING ME MORE JEALOUS THAN THAT DATE EVER DID

bdhsfksdahfsd me distracting him though ahehehehehehhe

"That was a dirty trick, love."

Yeah, I know, that's why I did it. Now do it back.

OH ANTOINE'S TELLING AMARI HE LOVES HER aaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwww

Since when are they that serious the fuck

"Should I say something to Amari?" About Antoine being noncommittal? When he's been all in for me since day one in my other playthrough? Nah babe, I'm good. I believe it.

Aww Wes brought me brekkie. OJ.

AWWW HE WANTS TO LEARN TO COOK FOR ME BECAUSE HE'S SHIT AT IT of course he is, he's never had time to cook because he's been too busy working.

WESLEY SLEEPS NAKED WESLEY SLEEPS NAKED OH MY GOODNESS HE'S GOING TO MAKE ME BREAKFAST WITHOUT ANY CLOTHES ON

Oh Lana's got snitching to do sigh.

WHAT THE FASHIONNOVA IS ZAYN WEARING HSKADFHBSDA

Oh Zayn and Nora in the suite?? I see I see.

okay i forgot to write during the workshop because Wesley

Literally stop Antoine and Amari are wearing matching outfits CEASE

Okay wait...

I decided to stay out of it, and Zayn and Nora got back. Lana annoucned they broke the rules, and then the game glitched back to my conversation with Amari about Antoine in the bathroom???

URGH i had to restart the episode.

skipping skipping skipping

Even though I'm replaying this i still forgot to take screenshots of the workshop. But trust me Wesley's dialogue is REALLY CUTE

muaahahhaha the benefit of getting a glitch is that now I know NOT TO TRUST ZAYN AND NORA

ha 'IMMEDIATELY WESLEY IS ON YOUR SIDE'

They learned from last season where people got SO MAD at Liam & Henri hahahahah

AW IS RYDER GOING!?!?!?

UM UM UM WHAT THEFUCK IS WESLEY GOING ON ABOUT? "What if Sophie walks away once I tell her?!"

BABE TELL ME WHAT!??!?!?

SOMEONE GET A BETTER SCREENSHOT THAN THIS PLEASE HUFDSHKAVFSBJASD I NEED A NEW SCREENSAVER

[inappropriate-aunt]

I get sooo scared when my dog barks. Like, it's so annoying that it's genuine fear and panic over something as mundane and expected as barking. But there's something broken in my brain and I can't handle loud noises.

I'm sitting out here on the porch wishing I were having some weed to be honest. Tomorrow will be two weeks off it. I'm wondering, do I keep going? Keep the streak up? See if I can handle the world so raw? I'm definitely twitchier. More prone to anxiety. Jumpy. Which is exactly what the weed is meant to treat, of course. But I always get a little afraid that it's making me forgetful, lowering my intelligence, making me lazy. Maybe that's just all the anti-drug propaganda bouncing around in my head from latent DARE assignments.

As if Officer Rides-A-Bike never smoked a joint. Give me a break.

Honestly I'd like to try shrooms. I hear they do good things for jumpstarting your brain out of a depressive funk. But you know me, and I don't want to do it alone. I want it to be a group activity. And everyone is always so busy. I wish we weren't. I wish we worked three days a week and saw our friends and family the other days.

I'm slowly feeling more like myself but I wonder for how much longer? The days are growing shorter. I worry. My coworker and friend says that it's the worrying that will kill us, the stress. People who don't care about the world, they don't worry, they don't stress, so they live years and years past when we expect them to. No matter how much cocaine and soda and red meat they consume.

I wish I had the capacity not to care, but then I wouldn't be ME. I care so much. I worry so much. I want to take away the troubles of the people I love. But I feel so powerless. I'm not rich. And I'm not a good enough liar to become rich. I can't even go to a bowling alley without getting overwhelmed by sounds.

I was sitting out here wishing I had a drink because I got thirsty, and then I remembered that I stashed a caprisun in my side table for just such an occasion. When I was a kid my mom wouldn't let me have caprisun because 'sugary drinks will make you fat'. But somewhere along the way in my late twenties after I thought I had already recovered from my eating disorder I realized I could mentally drink things with calories again and that was when I started buying caprisun. They're delicious. Everything I ever wanted as a kid. Now if only yoohoo made something dairy free I could digest it.

Mom didn't let me have anything with calories except skim milk and... maybe diet Snapple? I think that had like five calories? Anyway, now she buys me caprisun sometime when she finds it on sale. And ice cream. I think it's her way of trying to apologize for contributing to me getting an eating disorder. I don't blame her, but she did contribute to it. I'm not mad at her, though. It was a lot of things that did it. My sister isn't handling it as well. She lashes out a lot. I worry about her. I wonder how long it will be until she addresses how she really feels.

God, but when she does I also know she's going to be so annoying about her newfound realizations. But I'll be patient. I know we're all annoying when we figure ourselves out. Or think we have, at least. I am, definitely.

I want to go tour a chocolate factory. I want to blow up a weapons factory. I want to jump on a trampoline and lay in a hammock.

[dammithawke]

i couldn't resist trying your pinball machine + ladrien

prompt list post

also on ao3

Happy June <3



It wasn't the first time she had visited him. Usually she only let herself impose on him like this to check on him after an akuma attack. Something about seeing him almost get killed tended to make her afraid that the last time she had seen him safe and whole was a dream. A flash of a smile from across the room as he assured everyone that he was ok, he had managed to hide right before Chat Noir showed up to help her.

And ok, yes, that was her initial motive this time, too.

That didn't explain why, an hour after she had slipped through his window, Ladybug was still there, leaning almost casually against Adrien's desk. He sat in his desk chair, chin resting in the palm of his hand as he looked up at her. He was smiling, which she took as a win. She would always take it as a win when he was in a good mood and she was supposedly the cause. He kept glancing at the clock on his computer, as if the tick tick ticking of time were bothering him.

"Adrien?" She tipped her head the fifth time he checked the clock, her brow furrowing. "I'm sorry, it's getting late. Should I get out of your hair?"

"No!" He said it so quickly, as if he was afraid she would disappear immediately. "No- you don't have to go. Unless you want to, I mean. I won't keep you here, obviously. Not that I ever could. Cause, you know, you're a super hero and I'm definitely not."

Adrien was rambling and stammering in a way just reminded her of herself -- out of the suit and fumbling through her words, unable to string her thoughts together. Marinette took his hand in her own, her touch quickly silencing him. She desperately wanted to run a soothing thumb over the worried wrinkles in his forehead. She wanted to ease the stress in his face, his shoulders, his clenched fist. The fist, at least, was already in her grasp. She pressed the pads of her gloved thumb to the back of his hand, gently massaging from the wrist to the knuckles.

"I don't have to go yet," she told him, offering a careful smile. "Not unless you want me to."

He sucked in a startled breath. She could feel his eyes boring into her. If she thought about how intent his attention was on her, she would trip and fall back into tying her own tongue.

"Don't go," he finally opened his fist, relaxing it with some clear effort before turning it over to lace their fingers together.

She let out a breath, staring down at their hands for longer then was probably necessary. When she could finally force her eyes up, they found him watching her. Imploring her.

She could feel her face heating up beneath her mask. Exactly what she needed; for Adrien to see Ladybug turn into a tomato just because he held her hand. She had to get it together. She needed a distraction -- any kind of deflection.

"You know, I'd be lying if I didn't say I was a little excited just to hang out in your room. I couldn't resist trying your pinball machine." Ladybug bumped his shoulder with her own, nodding at the machine in the corner. "It's been years since I've tried one."

"Really?" He looked between it and her, before smiling a little wider. "Sure, yeah, no problem."

He used the hand he was already holding to lead her to it, pausing to make sure it was plugged in.

She got in position, but hesitated. "You have to promise not to judge me. I'm not very good."

"That's ok." He moved beside her and put a hand on the small of her back. "I can help."

[clanwarrior-tumbly]

Hi Clan!

How are you?

1) I read the FNAC 2 request you made for me, and I loooooved it!

Your fanfics are ALWAYS worth the wait. :3

2) Also yay! DRA and SDRA2 requests are back! So happy! :D

I would like to request a DRA one, which is Ayame x Male Reader, where she trains him after noticing he doesn’t exercice at all. At first he doesn’t want to, because he finds it boring and having trouble getting muscular, but she tells him it’s important, especially for males his age, and after a bit of convincing, and due to the fact they are stuck in the Academy during the killing game, he accepts, and he gets trained by Ayame. He slowly enjoys training with her, as he slowly gets muscular and thus a friendship is formed, with also Akane since she gives them water after training and talks with the two, happy they became friends.

Do you accept my request?

3) By the way, what are your thoughts on Jojo?

Hi! Ty for the patience and happy birthday!

...........

"[Y/n]! You should come exercise with me! It'll be fun!"

"Ah..thank you, Ayame. But..I'd have to decline."

As much as you hated to reject the Ultimate Track Star's offer, exercise was honestly the last thing on your mind, especially since you and everyone else got stuck in this killing game with no way out.

And besides, you've somewhat given up trying to get fit altogether. Even before any of this ever happened, you hit the gym a few times and quickly discovered that getting muscular was no easy task.

You didn't know how other guys your age stuck to their routines and turned out buff and strong in seemingly no time....while all you ever felt at the end of a long workout was fatigued and wheezing for air.

And you were convinced you must be doing something wrong, so you got bored of it quickly and stopped.

Maybe you're simply not built for this kind of stuff.

It didn't help that your talent wasn't exactly the most sportsy, either, as you're the "Ultimate Gamer" who would rather sit somewhere quiet and play on your device to escape the stresses of the world.

Of course, it's won you tournaments and enough recognition to get into this academy...but it winded up being a horrible, horrible curse disguised as a blessing.

Two people were already dead, and everyone's growing more and more distrustful of each other...

So when Ayame approached you the day after the first trial, you were surprised she even wanted to hang around you.

It made you wonder if she forgot that it was a guy who killed one of the girls, even if it wasn't his intention to.

Who's to say that won't happen again?

Not that you could ever resort to something like murder over a stupid "motive", but...shouldn't she be at least a little bit cautious of you?

Nope. She wasn't afraid in the slightest.

You could see the frown forming on her face, and you quickly averted your gaze.

"Look, i-it's not that I don't want to be fit and healthy, it's just..it gets boring after a while, I guess. And if I don't see any changes, I think I'm doing something wrong." Your shoulders slumped in defeat, seeing her expression not change one bit.

Sighing, you closed your eyes and prepared for the chastising that was sure to follow. "...if you're gonna yell at me, then get it over with-"

"Why would I ever do something that's not gonna motivate you?" She crouched down beside you, a sympathetic look to her eyes. "It's important for males at your age to get their daily exercise, so I'm glad you at least tried to stick with it. But maybe all you need is your own personal trainer!"

"...and that would be..?"

"Me!" She grinned. "We'll train all day, every day until we get out of here. Before you know it, exercise won't be "boring" anymore!"

You blinked in surprise, looking back up at her. She seemed so confident and hopeful, although you remained hesitant. "Are you sure that's a good idea? To hang out with me after what happened with Mitch and-"

"She wasn't even his intended target. Just a bad case of "wrong place, wrong time". But I never liked Mitch even before that...I was honestly ready to punch his lights out after he called you a "wimp"." She huffed, cracking her knuckles. "Trust me, if it wasn't against Monokuma's rules I would have-"

"Wait, that was directed at me?" You did a double-take. "I thought he was saying that to Yuki or Teruya..they don't look all that fit either."

Suddenly Ayame looked embarrassed.

"O-Oh, yeah uh....sorry.."

"It's fine..I just...if you're absolutely sure about helping me work out-"

"It's no problem! Really." She reassured, slapping her palm against your back. "Since we're trapped in this stupid academy anyways, we might as well build up some muscle! Whatdya say about putting down that console and coming with me?"

After giving it a little more thought, you finally agreed to go with her, putting your gaming device back into your bag before standing up. "Sure-"

"YES!! Let's jog to the training room to start off!"

"Huh?! But you're the Ultimate---aaaaand she's gone.." You sighed in defeat, watching her race (and definitely not jog) out of the room and leave you in the dust.

Somehow she seemed more excited for this than you.

'Welp, no backing out now..I better get going..'

......

"Whew! That was fun!"

"Yeah..and so was the last workout we did five hours ago."

Although you were damn-near breathless from the intense workout routine Ayame taught you, you gained a sense of accomplishment.

Now you were finally feeling the results.

It seems your efforts were paying off, as you've gotten stronger--being able to lift things and help out with investigations throughout the school with little to no trouble.

You even got compliments from some of your classmates, and it made you feel proud that you stuck with this and didn't allow yourself to get "bored".

You did, however, attempt to find loopholes where you could still play your video games while also training...such as running on the treadmill whilst trying to beat your current high score.

But Ayame would always insist you put it away or tried music instead.

She acted like a strict coach, though you began to value her as a good friend, who was looking out for your best interests.

As you both sat down on one of the benches, wiping away your sweat with a spare towel, you smiled. "I'm surprised the nighttime bell hasn't rung yet..I feel like we've been here all day."

"Yeah, but once we rest our bodies we can get up bright and early and do it all over again!" She beamed. "Or....at least until we get the next "motive", but still we should stay on top of it!"

After nodding in agreement, you heard the door to the training room open, seeing Akane step in. She smiled warmly, balancing two water bottles in her hands as well as extra towels.

Had it been anybody else--besides maybe Yuki--you would've been concerned that something bad just happened, though this was simply the Ultimate Maid engaging in her talent. You could absolutely trust her, especially since she befriended Ayame, too.

You stood up to greet her, thanking her for the drinks before sitting back down. "Oh of course!" She joined you on the bench wrapping a small towel around the back of your sweaty neck. "It's so sweet seeing you two becoming great friends."

"For sure. We've become great workout buddies." You chuckled, taking a sip and sighing at the cool and refreshing taste. "Heck, I might be strong enough to pick up Kakeru one day!"

The girls shared a small giggle at the mental image of you lifting up the strong yet shy lawyer with just a single hand, barely breaking a sweat.

Although it was merely a joke and you wouldn't actually try to pick up anyone, you could feel your confidence practically glowing as you continued chatting with the pair.

When you first came here, you were just that awkward gamer kid standing in the corner, not paying much attention to the trials and longing to get fit for the good of your health...to seemingly no avail.

Yet it's in this same place, where uncertain death could be waiting around every corner, where you discovered a new version of yourself--someone better.

And you owe it all to Ayame for being your number one motivator.

[opalfairy]

I don't have a complicated relationship with food. I've never had it (which is really fucking bonkers looking at *checks notes* most of my family). HOWEVER, I do have a terrible relationship with cooking.

I don't hate it exactly, and I even find the activity to be relatively fun once in a while. But overall, cooking stresses me a lot: I am terrified of ovens and the sound of oil in pans (the idea of burning myself greatly terrifies me for some reason, like, more than average), cutting onions makes me cry so hard that my tears don't let me see (which is awful because 1. I use onions in many foods and 2. My tears also tend to burn my eyes, which causes more pain and even more tears), and because of autism there are certain textures and smells in uncooked ingredients that I cannot tolerate (or if I can, it is with a lot of effort and coping mechanisms [for example: raw egg is a nightmare both in smell and in texture {oh, how I hate slimy textures} and as a general rule, I don't deal with raw meat except in very specific forms {like ground meat or those chicken breasts that have already been processed to only have the meat (and even then it is an effort)}]), not to mention, having to think of what to make every day, as well as making sure that it's not the same thing over and over is exhausting.

And yet watching dungeon meshi (I started the manga last year, but then midterm season started, and I had to leave it on pause) made me want to cook! It made me want to do it even if it hurt, even if it was exhausting, even if I was afraid.

It was during the mandrake and bat meat episode. I saw senshi start cutting the meat and adding the mandrake, and then shaping the meat into balls and then adding panko (there may have been more steps, I don't remember) and I remember thinking "ooh, the mandrake looks like ginger... and those look like the homemade patties that I make... I never thought of adding ginger to those... that sounds really delicious tbh... wait. I have all the ingredients for that right here" And you know what I did (after finishing the episode, of course)? I got up and started making lunch.

I did cut the onion into puree, and also the garlic and, of course, the ginger. I did get the minced meat and an egg, and after taking a deep breath to steel my nerves, I mixed everything with my own two hands. (Unfortunately, I didn't have panko, and we were out of bread in my house, so I couldn't make my own either, but still) I did all of that on my own. Then I took a pan and put oil in it and put the newly formed patties in it, also by hand! And the pan sizzled, of course it did, but I stayed firm and cooked those balls of meat into perfection!

And then I served them (with rice [you always need a base and I like those patties with rice more than with pasta or potatoes] and tomato salad), and they tasted great! And what's more, I wasn't left exhausted or overwhelmed, but proud!

My relationship with cooking is better now. It's not perfect, of course it isn't, I mean, something like that can not be automatically solved so quickly. But it's better, and I'm making progress, and I don't dread as much the moment of the day when I have to get to the kitchen and start cooking.

So I got into dungeon meshi and i’ve been telling everyone who I talk to. I love everything about the world, characters, the art, etc.

BUT

People are not kidding when they say that senshi will manifest in your head to tell you to eat better. Like I have a hard time remembering to eat but my brain would be like “you haven’t eaten in some hours, you need a meal” and I would be like you’re very right internal senshi I’m gonna see what I can make. Then I make food??? Honestly Gods sent senshi for helping so many people eat better

[orangesaek]

[8:51 pm]

you have just finished your work for the day when you received a text message from your boyfriend, haechan.

"babe, are you busy right now? i really want to talk to you. can you please give me a call as soon as you're able to?"

you wondered what was up because haechan wasn't exactly the type to send you a text message first before calling. and at a very polite tone at that. most days, he would just call you at any time he could, and you didn't mind it at all even when you're busy with work yourself. he's your boyfriend after all, and you're grateful enough that he always tried to squeeze you in his already very busy schedules.

after a few rings, he picks up the call. you were greeted with a low "hi baby". something was definitely up, as this wasn't the usual tone haechan greeted you with on the phone. either he's extremely tired, extremely stressed, or both.

"hey, babe. i just finished work. how was your day?" you asked. it took a few seconds before he could respond, which was definitely unusual.

"my day has been okay..." he paused. "i mean, it was decent but definitely not the best."

your suspicions were right. something's definitely up.

"did something happen? can you tell me about it?" you asked cautiously, afraid that he might find it uncomfortable to tell you everything that happened.

it felt as if haechan was trying to think of what to tell you because he couldn't respond as quickly as usual. it was definitely unlike him to stay quiet on the other line for a couple of seconds.

you heard him heave a deep sigh, and you could already imagine him running his fingers through his hair. like he was frustrated about something.

"do you think i'm... unattractive?" he finally spoke. what he said left you at a loss for words. so many things were running inside your head. lee haechan? the lee haechan? unattractive? what? how? where? it didn't make any sense to you at all.

on haechan's end, he was waiting nervously for your response. he was afraid that you would tell him that yes, he is unattractive. that yes, he is not worth all the love and support that he has now. that yes, he is worthless.

your eyes started to brim with tears. who was the motherfucker who triggered haechan to doubt himself like that? you, and so many others know he's far from unattractive. behind the childish behavior he shows to you and the rest of nct, is a man who is actually thoughtful, kind, and lovable.

"lee donghyuck," you finally said after a moment of thinking of the right words to say.

"you are not unattractive." you continued. "i don't know which dumbass told you otherwise, but i want you to remember that you are perfect, and that you are the most amazing man i have ever known."

"you really think so?" haechan asked. you could hear the slight doubt in his tone, but he didn't sound as down as he did earlier.

"yes, and it's a fact that i'm sure millions of your fans would agree with."

you couldn't see it, but haechan was starting to smile a little bit from what you said.

"thank you, babe. that meant a lot to me. but to be completely honest with you, i still don't feel like i'm back to my best self yet, but thank you."

you let out a quiet sigh. you understood that it wouldn't be that easy for him to move on from whatever happened.

"hyuck, it's okay to be not okay" you said. "but i hope you know that i love you for who you are no matter what, and that you are far from being unattractive."

haechan was starting to smile again, but what you said next made him smile even wider.

"i love you, and i'm thankful you were born. thank you for being born, lee donghyuck, my love."

with that, haechan's heart felt a lot lighter. he wasn't sure if he saved a nation in his past life to deserve this much love.

"thank you for choosing to love me, babe" he said, his tone starting to sound a lot better.

"so..." he trailed. "wanna know which dumbass you're gonna punch?"

requests are OPEN ♡ feel free to send me an ask!

[iamasimpingh0e]

Heyyy I back because I loved your last piece on connor thanks for doing it

This time could you like do connor rhodes x reader and the reader goes in to labour similarly to how natalie did and connors in surgery so she's stressed he won't make it but he makes it in time to see their kid be born

It was a close call

Connor Rhodes x reader

Words: 1036

Summary: Y/n gives birth and Connor almost misses it

"Come one y/n, you know it's stupid." Connor tries back to snap at you, but he wasn't really supporting your opinion right now.

"No, don't y/n me. Just because I'm pregnant doesn't mean I can't work. Also the ER needs me right now. You out of all people should know that we're really understaffed at the moment" You snapped back.

You just wanted to go to work like you always did. Aside from that you were also really needed, because a lot of your colleagues caught the flu.

But Connor really didn't like the idea of you going to work while being highly pregnant, especially not while it's flu season.

"No, what if you get infected as well, or worse? You never know what viruses are flying around in the ER." He tried to argue back.

"Oh come on. That's the least of our worries. I just can't stay at home another day, while knowing that people don't get the fast help they need at the moment. Also you know that we're wearing masks while treating the flu patients." Connor knew he wouldn't be able to change your mind so he just let out a sign.

"Alright, get ready. We're leaving in 10."

So you hurried up to get ready real fast and pack the things you needed for work today. 

Today was a very rushed shift and as much as you wanted to be working, you were looking forward to sorting on the couch again.

Not only your feed, but also your back was killing you.

Aside from that the baby was kicking a little too much today and it hurt a bit.

"Hey y/n I know you were going to get lunch but could you please take over this patient?" Maggie asked you, and even though you would have loved a break, you took the IPad from her hands and went to treatment room 3.

"Hello Joshua, I'm doctor y/ln. What's the matter?" You asked the young man that was sitting on the bed.

"Nothing really. I was just not feeling well and my friend wanted me to get it checked out." He answered.

"In which way exactly aren't you feeling well?" You needed to know more symptoms. 

"I just felt a lot of dizziness and headaches the last couple of days."

You stepped forward and pulled out your torch to shine him in the eyes.

"Okay follow the light please"

You didn't really like what you saw.

"April, let's send him up for a CT and blood tests. Also please inform doctor Abrams." You said.

Just then suddenly Joshua had to vomit and half if it went over your shirt. Luckily before anymore could land on you, April already handed him a bowl.

"Okay, let's act fast." You told her with a grossed look on your face.

As you stepped out of the treatment room you suddenly felt a really sharp pain in your upper abdomen followed by a splash.

"Oh no!" You muttered out.

Luckily for you Maggie saw what happened and was by your side in no time.

"Alright I guess you're going to have a baby" She tried to calm you down.

"No, no Maggie, I can't, not now. I got puke all over me and Connor's not here. Where is he even?" You started to panic, your emotions all over the place.

"It's all fine. You can change when we're upstairs and I'm gonna try to reach Connor. Everything will be okay honey." Maggie was trying everything to help you, but what you didn't know was that Connor had to perform a difficult surgery at the moment, that couldn't be stopped. Also she had to find someone to replace her , because she didn't want to leave you alone.

Another sharp pain reached you as you stepped into the elevator.

"Maggie I can't do this, I'm not ready"

You were really afraid of what might come.

"Y/n, I really don't want to hear all of that bullshit. You will be amazing and you and Connor will be the best parents ever." 

You really appreciated her words and wanted to thank her, just as another contraction hit you.

This time it was much worse than the ones before.

"Okay, let's get you out of those clothes and then let's have a baby alright?" Maggie said

"But Maggie, don't you have to be in the ER?" You asked.

"No. Right now you're my highest priority." With that you two went into the room, you were about to give birth in.

------

"Alright Mama, it's time to push" The doctor told you.

"No, no. Maggie Connor's not here. He has to be here." 

"Sweety, you can't stop now, you have to keep going." She took your hand. 

Just as you were about to push, Connor ran into the room.

"Oh god, babe I'm so sorry, I'm here."

Your eyes started to water up, just out of pure happiness that he made it and the pain you were feeling. 

"On three," the doctor said. 

"One..."

"Two..."

"Now push"

So you started to push as much as you could. "Okay y/n just one more time" Maggie said. So you tried again and suddenly cries filled the room.

"Congratulations, it's a boy. Dad wants to cut the cord?" The doctor handed Connor the scissors.

After your baby boy got weighted and everything he got handed to you. This was the first time you held your baby boy in your arms.

"Look at him, he looks just like you" you couldn't stop the tears from running.

Connor left a kiss on your forehead and then on your baby's.

"Yeah kinda , don't he?" This made you crack a smile.

"Congratulations to you both." Maggie came towards you both.

"So what are you gonna name this little angel?" She asked.

"We thought about Liam David" Connor looked at you.

"Yeah, Liam for my brother that died last year and David in honor of Dr. Downey." You told her.

"That's perfect. Alright all leave you three be for a while." She gently stroked your shoulder and left with a smile.

"Hey, Liam, welcome to the family." You said as you gave him a light kiss. 

A/n: pls tell me your opinion and send requests if you want to

[someotherdog]

so she still loved him. just hearing her say it made his heart soar. though they had never been shy with affection—vikram took an online quiz once that stated his love language was physical touch—and affirming words, to know she wasn't disgusted with him and his lycanthropy (temporarily) salved all his worries. "i love you, too." vikram whispered, frowning at her insistence that it was her fault that they were in such danger. yes, it had been foolish of her to follow him, but he had run low on time before the moon would force him to shift and he hadn't stressed how terrible it would be if she came to the forest. it was all his fault for lying, anyway.

he didn't have time to argue before she was moving closer and closing the gap he had been too afraid to close himself. the warmth of charlotte leaning on his shoulder melted the tension in his muscles. tears threated to leak out the corners of his eyes, but vikram blinked them away. "i'm sorry i didn't tell you."

we aren't supposed to keep secrets.

vikram tried not to visibly cringe. the unfortunate fact was that he had been lying to her about more than just his species. she already figured out that he had been lying about his job in her quest to find out why he didn't seem exactly human, but that barely touched the surface of what he hadn't been truthful about. if he was going to tell her his werewolf origin story, then he had to tell her everything. the question was whether she would still love him after that. "i know you won't, but it's not you i'm worried about blabbing."

her question proved the perfect opportunity to tell her his whole sordid story. before he started, he placed a kiss on charlotte's shoulder. a kiss of death, more like. a kiss goodbye. "okay... so i'm going to tell you the truth now. about everything." vikram inhaled to prepare himself. "so i was born in oklahoma, which you already knew. i was honest about that. i was telling the truth when i said i had a sister—her name is bertie—but i didn't say she was my half-sister. my mom divorced my dad when i was a kid and it was a huge ugly divorce because she was cheating on my dad with bertie's dad, he's always been a fucking prick, but bertie's amazing. you guys would get along, i think. anyway, my dad wanted me to be a doctor like him but instead, i went to college in minnesota where i studied mortuary science. i'm a mortician. not a construction worker... which you already figured out on your own."

vikram suddenly untangled himself from charlotte and got up from the bed, pacing along the floor. if he was going to bare it, he had to bare it all. "my strength, the fact that my skin is so warm all the time, the late nights, it wouldn't have made sense for a mortician, y'know? i didn't know you were in med school when we first met, so i thought construction would be impressive. i don't know. a lot of people think being a mortician is creepy so it's not easy to pick up women with my real job—not that i would ever need to hit on a woman ever again, i'm just saying in my experience no one thinks being a mortician is cool. anyway, that doesn't matter right now. so, as i was saying, i went to school up in minnesota and for a few years after i graduated, a couple guys and i would go back to our old school and camp out, just getting totally drunk and shit. well, it was a full moon and i went out to take a leak and i guess i wandered too far from everyone else because i heard this growl in the trees and then suddenly i was on the ground. and then i had the worst pain i ever felt in my life, totally passed out right there. when i woke up in the morning, this guy, cillian, was standing above me. then he told me that i was... changed."

vikram stopped pacing and took a deep breath, finally looking at charlotte again. he wasn't able to tell the truth and have her look at him at the same time. some monster of the night he was!

she scoffs at his words. "do you hear yourself? what you're asking of me, it's impossible. i love you, vik. of course i'm going to worry about you, especially since i am responsible for putting you in danger. i should have listened and stayed home, but i let my damn curiosity get the best of me." and the need to always be right. she knew one day it would come back to bite her in the ass, but not like this.

sighing, she moves closer to her boyfriend, head now resting on his shoulder. tired of waiting on him, she grabs his hand and puts it in her lap. "i just wish you would have told me. i know you're technically not allowed, but we aren't supposed to keep secrets. you know everything about me, and i expect the same from you." the brunette had spent too much time on others who lied to her. she didn't want to repeat history, especially not with him.

"i'm not going to tell anyone." charlie is quick to say, closing her eyes as he described the protocol for someone like her. god, how did she get herself into such a situation? just when she thought things were going right in her life...

"is that what happened to you, then? did you stumble upon something you weren't supposed to?" because now she was curious to hear his story. figured that sharing it wouldn't hurt, now that she knew about the wolves' existence. "i want the truth, vik." her voice is soft as she says this, opening her eyes and giving his hand a squeeze. "i know it might be hard, but i think...it's important to know, to keep this relationship healthy." and she really didn't want to dwell on the fact that she may have just signed her own death certificate.

[latte-fairytaekwoon]

𝐃𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐲'𝐬 𝐏𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬𝐬 (𝐂𝐄𝐎!/𝐒𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫 𝐃𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐲 𝐉𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐘𝐮𝐧𝐡𝐨) 𝐑𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝

𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝐂𝐞𝐨/𝐒𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫 𝐃𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐲! 𝐘𝐮𝐧𝐡𝐨 (𝐀𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐳)× 𝐒𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫 𝐁𝐚𝐛𝐲! 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 (𝐅𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐥𝐞)

𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞: 𝐒𝐦𝐮𝐭, 𝐅𝐥𝐮𝐟𝐟.

𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐂𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 𝟑𝐊 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: 𝐒𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫 𝐝𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐲/𝐬𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲 𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩, 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐡 𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐮𝐭, 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲, 𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞 (𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭), 𝐬𝐢𝐳𝐞 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐤, 𝐝𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐲 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐤, 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐩𝐢𝐞.

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲: 𝐀𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠, 𝐘𝐮𝐧𝐡𝐨 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐡𝐞'𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐞𝐫.

𝐓𝐚𝐠 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭: @multidreams-and-desires @galaxteez @yunhoiseyecandy @atiny-ahgase

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After arranging and rearranging the boxes and bags layed out on the king sized bed, Yunho calmly took a step back to make sure everything looked ok. He let out a frustrated groan as he began second guessing himself.

"What if she doesn't like them?"

He had no time to ponder more on that question as the doorbell rang, letting him know the very person he was talking about was already there. He scurried out the bedroom, as he passed the living room, he stopped and ran back inside it to pick up the bouquet of roses that he nearly forgot about. Making sure to straighten out his posture, he nervously reached for the handle before turning it to open the door, hiding the bouquet behind his back.

"Hi." The person standing there waved at him, her eyes lighting up when she saw him.

"Hey you....." He had an equally flustered smile plastered on his face as he gazed down at the pretty face in front of him.

The girl shifted awkwardly in place, looking side to side as she waited for him to say something.

"So.....did you have fun on your trip?" She finally asked.

He let out a chuckle.

"Hardly. It was literally all work the entire time and I was just frustrated and stress and- Oh! I'm sorry Y/N. Please come inside."

He stepped aside to let her enter into his penthouse apartment, which she hadn't been in for the 4 months he was away on a business trip. Closing the door behind him, he faced her and produced the flowers he was hiding up to the point.

"Here. I brought them for you." He held them out towards her.

"Oh my gosh they're beautiful! Thank you!" She thanked him as she admired the gift he'd given her.

"And that's not all! I got you a few other things while I was away!"

Taking her hand in one of his large ones, he excitedly led her into the room that had been specifically decorated, prepared and set aside just for her whenever she'd come over and stayed with him for long periods of time. Standing behind her, he led her inside, his hands now covering her eyes as he whispered tiny instructions on how many steps to take and where to turn.

"Ta da!" He cheered enthusiastically.

Opening her eyes, she was bewildered by the dozens upon dozens of designer and luxury named bags and boxes that no doubt contained clothes, jewelry, shoes and probably a few articles of lingerie. She smiled softly at his kind gesture

"It's wonderful.....thank you." She turned to him.

"Do you want to look through them now?" He was already reaching for one of the bags.

"Oh....perhaps later..." She suggested.

Sensing something like disappointment, Yunho sighed.

"Don't you like them? Were they not what you wanted? Was there something specific you would have rather liked?" He was ready to give her the world, all she needed to say was the word and he'd bend earth and sky for her.

"No! I love them, I do! It's just...." She looked down, somewhat afraid of saying out loud what it was she really wanted.

Wanting to soften her up, his fingers cupped her chin, lifting it up so he could look at her eyes.

"Tell me babygirl. Just ask and it shall be yours." He assured her.

She bit her lip, that action alone making him lick his own and wish it was his own teeth that were fulfilling that action instead on her.

"I really just wanted to spend time with you.....maybe watch a movie together and.....cuddle?"

Without realizing it, her hands began pinching at the soft material of his black turtleneck, bottom lip pouting upwards like a child awaiting to be refused. The tall male let out a soft and low chuckle.

"That's it? Is that really all my darling wants?" He kissed her forehead in disbelief.

She whined in a rather cute yet frustrated way.

"It's just you've been gone for so long and I missed you. Is that a crime?" She defended herself.

He shook his head then swiftly scooped her up in his arms and began carrying her out into the living room.

"Nope and honestly I'm happy you suggested it. I missed my babygirl as well."

She blushed slightly when he pressed a rather hard and long kiss to her cheek before sitting her down on his lap and turning on the huge television in front of them. They both agreed to watch a new movie that had just recently came out, all of their friends having been raving about it making them curious and wanting to see what it was about. From the looks of it, it seemed to be another typical romantic movie, which neither of them minded. Neither were hardly paying attention to the movie, one more occupied in poking either side of her ribcage or pinching her thighs, while she playfully slapped his giant hands away, often whining which resulted in him wrapping his arms more tightly around her, face pressing against her shoulder as he bounced her on his lap.

When they finally decided to just stop and watch the movie, it had suddenly taken another turn that was not very PG at all. A rather erotic and explicit R rated scene came up, leaving them both gulping and making them both sweat nervously. They both thought it'd be over soon, like any other cliche Hollywood sex scene that would only last a minute or two, but they were surprised that almost 10 minutes later, it was only getting more and more kinky which had both of them awkwardly sitting there.

Y/N could feel the way Yunho's fingers began to slowly rub circles along her hip bones, sometimes digging harshly into her skin. She began to think of all the other places she'd rather have his fingers in, like her mouth, around her neck or slipping inside her womanhood which was getting more wet the more sensual his touches became. The fake moans coming from the actors on screen made her think of all the times Yunho had gone rough on her, teasing her relentlessly and making her have one orgasm after another because he always wanted more, never satisfied with having her cum just once. Those thoughts were so wrapped up in her mind, she didn't realize she had began grinding herself against Yunho's lap until his hands suddenly held her in place, stilling her movements.

Inhaling a raspy breath, her eyes fluttered close when he began pressing open mouth kisses to the side of her neck and shoulder.

"You have no idea how much I've missed you.."

One of his hands moved to slip inside her shorts, pushing past her cotton panties to start stroking gently at her little nub, eliciting soft moans and breaths to protrude from her lips.

"So let me show you princess just how much daddy missed you."

She let out a pleasured hum at having him call her that nickname that he reserved especially for these moments. With his hand buried in between her legs, he moved his fingers down further, slipping one of his long fingers into her entrance, probing around her walls as his kisses to her neck became more sloppy and hungry.

"You're already super wet. Did you miss me that much? Hmm? Did my little princess miss her daddy?"

She couldn't help but nod.

"Y-yes, I missed you so much daddy." She gasped when a second finger entered her, speedily thrusting in and out of her. She couldn't help but grind down onto his hand.

Yunho let out a groan.

"Do you like my fingers that much princess?" He cooed in her ear.

"Yes! Oh my God! I love your fingers so much!" She cried out.

Snorting softly, he used his free hand to trail up her neck before running his thumb across her bottom lip. Knowing exactly what he was hinting at, she obediently opened her mouth.

"That's it princess. Such a good girl. Suck on my fingers....fuck- yes, just like that."

She didn't protest as he slipped 3 of his fingers in her mouth, she just enveloped them inside her wet cavern and sucked on them as though they were one of the delicious candies he often brought her from some foreign country. She moaned around his fingers, as his other hand worked her closer to her incoming orgasm. Although she wanted to hold out a little longer, it had been far too long since she'd had something that wasn't her own fingers, or one of the many toys she'd been spoiled with, inside her pussy. And Yunho's touch was so addicting, always knowing exactly how to push her over the edge in such little time. He could feel it too, he knew she was ready to burst at any second.

"Cum...cum for me princess. You deserve it."

His fingers pushed deeper in her mouth, making her release a series of choked out moans as her hips shook, liquids pouring out of her and covering Yunho's hand in a sticky mess. Although his fingers stopped moving inside her, his thumb continued to rub at her clit, helping to ride her out of her orgasm, only stopping when she finally stopped moving her hips.

Pulling his fingers out of her soaked hole, he brought them up to his lips and shamelessly sucked off the secretions left on it.

"Still tasting as delicious as ever." He purred in her ear.

His immense hands suddenly turned her over, placing her on top of his thigh.

"Ride it baby. Put on a little show for me."

Although she was always shy about riding his thick thighs, she never refused him, knowing he was always gentle and helped her throughout it since she was still pretty new to it. Her hands grasped at his shoulders to help stabilize her as her hips began rutting against his clothed thighs. Her ruined underwear was now painfully clinging to her soaked pussy, only attaching itself more to her skin the more she grinded herself against her lover's body.

Yunho watched with hooded eyes as her head fell back, exposing more of her beautiful neck, eyes shut tight as she fucked herself on his thigh. His hands went over to grab at her ass cheeks, kneading her soft flesh in between his fingers, massaging them gently and guiding them to help her find the best pleasure possible.

"There you go baby, keep doing that. You're doing such a good job my darling. Look at you looking so pretty."

She couldn't control herself as she began riding his thigh with more intensity, loving all the praises being spilled out of his mouth just for her. Yunho knew it too, knew how much she loved to be dotted on in such a way by him.

"Yeah you like being called that? Like being daddy's good little girl? Cause that's what you are right?" He flexed his thigh, slightly rubbing more against her, a wet patch becoming visible on his trousers as she began soaking through her clothes.

"Yes! I'm your good girl daddy! Wanna be good just for you." She cried out as she began to frantically hump his thigh, another orgasm fast approaching her.

"You're such a good girl princess..just for me right? Be my good princess and cum again, can you do that again for me? Yes you can, go ahead."

His hands flew to grasp at her waist, holding her in place as her arms fell back onto the leather couch beneath her and held her body up as she came on top of him, her hips unable to ride her through her orgasm so Yunho continued rubbing his thigh in between her legs so her orgasm wouldn't be ruined. He loved watching her eyes shut tight, the corners spilling out a few droplets of tears as an overwhelming pleasure took her over countenance, leaving her breathless for a few seconds.

Once she recovered from that high, she opened her eyes to find Yunho staring at her with such ardent passion burning in his eyes. His lips flew up to kiss hers fervently, his body pushing her down onto the couch. His hands entangled themselves on hers and held them up above her head. She shivered when she felt his bulge rub against her inner thigh, making her excited at the thought of having it inside her once again.

"Such a pretty and beautiful baby. I know I say it a lot but I truly mean it."

Tilting her head to the side so it'd be easier for him to leave marks along the side of her neck, her smiled at the loving compliments he kept showering her with.

"You're such a sight to behold." He was practically growling as his mouth ravished at the tender skin of her neck, marking as he pleased, after all.....

She was all his and belonged to him and him only.

"My beautiful little princess."

Sitting up, he began ridding her of her shorts, her panties dragged along with them, tossed onto the floor. Yunho groaned at the sight of her glistening folds, looking plump and pink hued from the previous administrations he had placed on it.

"Fuck....I really need to be inside you.. ....

Right. Now."

She let out a squeal as he turned her to her side, laying down beside her in a spooning position. She giggled as she heard the sound of his belt being undone, followed by his trousers being pulled down to his thighs so he could take his cock out. Pumping himself a few times, he lined himself up against her entrance before pushing in, barely fitting the enormous head in.

"God princess! You're tighter than usual."

She bit down at her shirt sleeve in an effort to quiet down her whimpers as he slowly pushed more of his length in her.

"You ok? Want me to stop?" He rubbed her cheek in a soothing motion.

Shaking her head, she urged him to keep going.

"P-please...w-want daddy's monster cock inside my tiny pussy." She begged, her ass pressing back onto him to fit more of him in her.

Yunho hissed as he moved forward, finally fitting his entire length inside her warm and inviting walls.

"Fuck, you're practically squeezing the life out of me. I'm not sure you'll be able to take me."

Of course he was just taunting her at this moment, wanting to get her begging for him to fuck her as he wanted to.

"Yes I can!" She refuted his statement.

"Oh? But I don't think you can princess. I can barely move inside you. You're such a small and tiny doll compared to me.....I'm afraid I might break you." He teased her.

She whined, enjoying how he used his size against her.

"I'm small but I can take daddy's big cock. Please, break me, I can take it." She wiggled her ass to get her point across.

Getting the ok, Yunho began to slip in and out of her slowly, her walls stretching out to accommodate his length better. They both released a series of sinful sounds, both overjoyed at being connected once again after being separated for too long. Y/N's stinging in her core was replaced by ecstasy as Yunho began to speed up his thrusts, her body once again familiarizing itself with his size.

Yunho's hand that was resting on her hip moved to cup her lower abdomen, muttering curses as he felt the bulge protruding in her.

"Feel that my little doll? You're so small I can feel all of me move in and out of you."

She had tears trickling down her cheeks from the immense feeling his cock and words were giving her.

"Fuck! You're so tight little one! One might believe I don't fuck you enough." He giggled as he began nibbling at her earlobe.

Her breaths became more ragged and shaky as she approached her third orgasm of the day, walls clenching around Yunho. His hand that was on her abdomen, grabbed her own and placed it where his previously rested.

"Feel that princess? Feel me in you? Can you believe that it's really you taking me so well?"

She was releasing whimpered yelps at this point, hips snapping against her at a rough and deep pace, his gigantic length fucking her out of her mind.

"Daddy! I'm-I'm-"

His hands reached inside her shirt, groping at her soft breasts, fingers pinching at her nipples as he fucked her into another orgasm that had her eyes rolling to the back of her head. Feeling her spill in him made him desperate to chase his own release.

"Princess, gonna cum- wanna cum in you. Please tell me you've been going to the gynecologist like you're supposed to." He desperately pleaded at her, his thrusts getting more erratic, hair sticking to his forehead.

Y/N nodded furiously, affirming she had been getting her contraceptive injection specifically for this reason.

"Oh fuck! Fuck!"

Yunho grunted harshly as he spilled his cum all over her walls, making sure to fuck all of it in her. He panted softly as he tried to catch his breath, his partner next to him already worn out from that intense love session. Carefully he pulled out of her, smiling in an accomplished manner as he saw her hole be filled up with his sticky white substance.

"Beautiful." He whispered mostly to himself than anything.

Turning her over to lay on her back, he smiled down at her tired and sleepy figure. Leaning down, he began placing tiny kisses all over her face.

"I love you so much my little princess."

Too tired to even mutter out a sentence, she merely let out a tiny grumble which he giggled at.

"How cute. Come here princess. Daddy will take care of you."

Wrapping her arms around his neck, his hands lifted her up, legs wrapped around his waist as he began carrying her towards his bathroom to indulge her in a warm bubble bath to soothe her tired and sore body.

"You're so good to me Yunho..." She mumbled in his ear, her nose nuzzling against his neck, sending him into a flutter of soft panic.

"Well...you are daddy's princess after all."

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[bestruction]

Getting high with them for the first time

N/A: If you do drugs do it safely

My masterlist

- Eren Jaeger

He's not the type of guy who pressured you to use, let alone say you're immature or coward for it. When you decide to try it, it's genuinely your idea, and who better than your boyfriend to teach?

That's how you end up in his room, with the door and windows lock to make sure the smell doesn't catch his parent's attention. You sat on the carpet while he carefully rolls the joint so that the cigarette holder doesn't fall.

“Tighten your lips like this and take a deep breath through your mouth” He took a short drag before releasing the smoke “But not too long since this is your first time your throat is not used to the smoke”

You nod and accept the cigarette doing as he said. You feel the smoke warm your mouth, watch it hoover before your eyes after blowing and wait for...Nothing. No different sensation, no tingling, literally nothing.

"I don't think it worked"

“It is not like a switch. Wait a minute, babe ”

You talk a little about the day-to-day of the two and then go to play something new that he had bought. After a few games and a few more huffs, you still don't feel any difference or anything. You even try to hold the smoke in your mouth for a longer time, which results in you coughing incessantly and Eren laughing in your face. Hearing him laugh has always been one of your favorite things. The way he bends his body and laughs out loud without shame until he blushes always makes you laugh together with him, like now.

You laugh, laugh until your body asks for air and needs to alternate between laughter and breathing. You feel calm, relax as if you had lifted a weight off your shoulders. You lay on the carpet feeling the softness of the fabric against your skin ... Was it always that soft? So silky? So comfortable? You close your eyes and rub your hand over the texture, and then the smell of Eren's citric perfume invades your nose. When you opened your eyes, jade eyes were watching you closely.

"I think it has taken effect now, huh?" He says stroking your hair. "Did I ever tell you how beautiful you are?" He asks, getting on top of you.

"A few times"

“Then I’m going to tell you again: you’re beautiful” he kisses your lips “So damn beautiful” He kisses your chin “Every single part of you” And now your jaw.

You two spent the afternoon making out on the floor and praising each other. Not because you were high, I mean, not only, but because being so sensitive brought it even more evident how much you wanted each other.

- Levi Ackerman

You had a horrible week. It seemed that everything that could go wrong over the course of seven days had made a point of happening even worse than you imagined. When you got home even after taking a long hot shower and lying in bed, you're unable to relax.

"If you keep turning from side to side, I won't sleep either" Murmured Levi.

"I know. Sorry"

"I'm not complaining. Come here" He pulls you to lie on his chest "Better?"

"A little bit"

"Just a little bit?" He smiles softly "You can try what I do when I get like this"

"Do you mean the mushrooms?"

"If you want to"

You two get out of bed and go to the kitchen. He takes a clear plastic bag from the fridge and places it in front of you. Levi is not the type of guy who gets high all the time. It's more like an escape for when his stress is too high, like yours. He already used it when you met him, and even if you didn't, you never saw a problem with it.

"Just it?"

"I can make tea if you prefer"

"Why don't you use weed like everyone else?"

"Too much work. To roll, check for purity. With mushrooms, I just need to buy and chew them ”

"Well, bon appetit"

You two eat the frozen mushrooms. The taste is not so bad, but it is not a good thing and the smell reminds you of something that had been removed from the forest, which makes sense. Levi suggests that you lie down on the sofa in the living room to watch a movie. There was no need to worry about tomorrow as it would be a day off for both of you.

Lying on Levi's lap and watching the TV, the colors start to shine before your eyes. You didn't remember the white wall looking so vivid, or the pixels on the TV seeming to slow down when you focused on a specific point. It was your house, but it didn't look real. You felt inside a peaceful dream, and inside that dream, you fell asleep forgetting about your nightmare week.

- Armin Arlert

It's your idea. It's Mikasa's birthday party, and Connie had taken some ecstasy pills from whoever wants to use them. So you take two, drag your boyfriend to the bathroom and lock the door.

"You don't have to do it with me if you don't want to, Armin"

"I'm curious too," He says, staring at the little pink pills on your hand.

Armin swallows one, and you do the same after him.

Armin swallows one, and you do the same after him. You want the experience to be as safe as possible. Then both sit in the bathtub and wait for the effect while talking. About half an hour later, you notice how dilated are the pupils of the blond in front of you. Your hearing is a little muffled, and you feel happy and light for no apparent reason. A slight tingle comes and goes through your body, like a wave spreading that sensation across your skin.

You go over to Armin and sit on his lap. He smiles at you, and more than ever, you want to kiss him until you're out of breath, and he's not different from you.

Armin takes your hand between his and brings it to his mouth. He spreads small, short kisses on your hand. You focus on the feeling of his lips running over your skin. You are so damn sensitive even his breathing makes you shiver.

As if a magnetic force pulls you both, you two kiss, letting that soft cloud of pleasure envelop you both. When Armin presses you against his body, deepening the kiss and tasting your mouth, you want to break the laws of physics and be able to occupy the same place as him. You want to become one with him.

And the two of you may not be able to do it, but you certainly tried A LOT in that bathroom.

- Jean Kirstein

Jean is handsome, tall, friendly, and intelligent. So when he starts to be invited to every possible party in college, you’re not surprised. You two have been dating since high school, and you don't feel jealous if he goes to parties alone but he always finds a way to convince you to accompany him with some excuse. Like,  that it would be a lot more fun if you're next to him.

Today, this is one of those times when he convinces you. It's not that you don't like parties kind of, but a party full of strangers doesn't seem like the most attractive thing to you. Then after dancing and talking to people for a long time, he drags you to one of the rooms in the house to give you a well-deserved break.

"Thank you for coming with me," He said, hugging you from behind after closing the door.

"I'm going to want some compensation for that, Kirstein," You said, sitting down in an armchair that was there.

"How about ... That" Jean takes a bag with two white pills out of his pocket and tosses it towards you.

"What is it?"

"LSD"

"What kind of people have you been involved with?" You joke “If your mom knew what you've been up to, Jeanboo”

"Shut up" He sat next to her "If you want to try, I try"

It wouldn't be his first time getting high, he used to smoke weed with Eren in the basement since high school, but it would be yours. As I said, Jean is smart. You knew he had been wanting to try acid for some time. So of course, he had researched on.

Honestly? You are curious but afraid after so many speeches “don’t do drugs, kids”. Jean would never propose anything that could endanger the two of you, which is exactly why he only suggested it when you were alone, and if you said "no" it would be like it never happened.

"Is it just swallowing?"

"Put it under your tongue and let it dissolve"

You lie down on the floor and take it at the same time. It tastes bitter, but unlike any medicine, you've taken in your life.

It takes some time for it to start taking effect, but when it finally did you know. The sound of loud music, muffled by the walls of the room seems to be inside your head now. The colors tremble in front of you, mixing, moving, becoming more intense. You raise your hand towards the ceiling, and you don't feel like that's your hand. Everything seems surreal. You feel calm but active. It's like being very drunk, but the other way around.

Jean pulls you into his chest, and you can hear his heart pumping blood at full speed, like yours. You feel your throat dry, your body sweat, and your hands get cold.

If I could define that feeling with a word, it would definitely be intense.

You spent the night like that. Watching the furniture move and change shape, lying on the floor and without detaching from each other. At some point, you ended up sleeping, and after having the weirdest dream of your life, you woke up with Jean calling you carefully. The sun had already risen, and the house was silent, indicating that the party was over a long time ago.

"How are you feeling?" He asks, helping you to stand.

“Hungry and hungover”

He mumbles something about also being, and you go out to eat at the nearest cafeteria.