#whhhYYY THE FUCK IS THIS SO LONG

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RP:

Log 231

FTL: I do believe that I've made a breakthrough. I have isolated the genes that I believe affect instinct the most. Due to the fact that I have no semblance of poleplant genetics, I do not believe that I'll be able to implant the need to search for poleplants into the lizard, as my first thought on how to do that would be to make it capable of differentiating poleplant genetics specifically. Perhaps that's impossible in general. But I have come up with a plan that is the most plausible one I've had so far.

FTL: What if I were to make the lizard capable of eating poleplants? Currently unsure of how it would result in a sample getting brought back to me, but it would be a beneficial move either way. If it instinctively knows that something is safe to eat - whether I explicitly modify its instincts or not - then it would be capable of recognising the 'safe food: poleplants. I'm sure that a green lizard would be capable of winning against a poleplant, though if I give it some extra modifications to give it an advantage...

FTL: Though perhaps that would be a tad excessive. Either way, this is the best solution that I currently have. I'll have to think on how to instill the 'bringing a sample back to me' part, as well as what modifications will be necessary in order to make it capable of consuming a poleplant - as well as potentially those to help it in the defeat of its prey. Rather reluctant in the latter, as well. Last time I tried giving a lizard (though it was a cyan one) extra predatory advantages (venom, in this case), FTLR-3 happened. Though that's not the primary cause of my reluctance, but I suppose it contributes.

FTL: Speaking of FTLR-3 and the situation surrounding my defeat of it, I do still need to talk to Echoes of a Paradox. Perhaps a bit... cruel? Apathetic? Insensitive? Those are all words that fit. But which over one is used, perhaps I am a bit of that word due to the fact that it simply is not my priority as of this moment. My work always takes priority over other Iterators, though maybe I'm also incredibly hesitant to even engage in conversation with them. It's irrelevant either way, but this is a note to myself to do so.

FTL: I should also talk to LIFEGIVER. I'm assuming that he's gone out out to help defeat Third Vast Attempt, due to his lack of response to the... argument. I do not blame him, and I must say that I'm somewhat relieved that I do not have to continue that conversation any longer. But I do feel that I should apologise, perhaps. My stances have not been changed, but I haven't made an effort as he was asking of me. I will not be doing so, and any apology that I do transmit to him would be sent at a future point in time. In the end, even he does not take precedence over my work.

FTL: Speaking of my work, I've come to the conclusion that this purposed greed lizard project has become its own project instead of a sub-project. I will be making a separate file for my observations, notes, and progress, as I do for all of my projects. Once this project is over though, it will continue to lead directly into the white lizard-poleplant hybrid experiment.

FTL: This really will be beneficial to succeed in this. I do believe that the methods that I will be employing in the purposing of the green lizard are perhaps atypical in the field of purposed organisms, though that doesn't really matter. It will be helpful to myself either way, on top of it being a very interesting endeavour in general. Perhaps I should have done this earlier.

[a-strange-inkling]

“Hoh boy,” he hears Ned say quietly to himself, rubbing the back of his neck and quickly disappearing backstage.

Jesus, what now? He wonders, his eyes rolling to the back of his head. Can one thing go right today?

First Gareth called in, too hungover to play after partying Saturday, then Jimmy’s mic didn’t pass the sound check and tech still hasn’t figured out what the problem is and now…

“Jesus Christ…” Eddie mutters in annoyance, smacking a palm over his face the moment he turns around to see his sixteen year old daughter strutting up the stairs in a pink crop top and denim mini shorts with fishnet tights and combat boots. “Nope, nope, nope absolutely not!” He makes a cross with his arms over his chest, shaking his head.

“What?” She raises her hands in confusion.

“Maggie… what on earth are you wearing?”

“Uh clothes.” She responds, looking herself over, already taking that smart, defiant tone. As if to say duuuhhh.

“…I’m sorry, there’s been a mistake,” he drones sarcastically when she reaches the platform, crossing his arms in a very Wayne stance. “I asked for a replacement drummer, not a back up dancer from a Britney Spears’ music video.”

“Dad!”

“Margaret.” He counters with the same whiny tone. She pouts just like her mother does. “…Really, kid? You’ve got to do this to me when we’re twenty minutes from going on for this stupid thing?”

“It’s my aesthetic! It’s my expression of self—”

“Yeah, sure, okay, listen young—very, very young lady,”…oh lord, he’s even pointing at her with an authoritative finger, he’s such a fucking dad. “I don’t care what it is, there is no way in hell you are wearing that on stage.”

“Well, Father, I don’t exactly have anything else to wear, I came straight over from Ashley’s because you needed my help.”

“Well then, I guess it was a wasted trip, you’re not going on.”

“But whhhyyy!?” She stomps her foot in indignation. Eddie just walks past her, inhaling long and deep through his nose as he starts digging through the neatly folded piles on the merch table.

“Gee, I don’t know, Maggie, I guess I’m just not really comfortable letting my underage daughter go on stage dressed like that in front of a crowd of drunk sports fans.”

“Well, what are you going to do without a drummer then?”

He shrugs his shoulders uncaringly. “Play poorly.”

Jimmy and a few of the stagehands glance over at the commotion, but are smart enough to slowly side step right out of the area.

“Everyone wears this! It’s the style! It’s what I wear at my shows—”

Her passionate speech is cut off as he throws a XXL Corroded Coffin sweatshirt over her head that almost reaches down to her knees. “Yeah, well, not with my band.” he replies.

“You’re not serious!!” she exclaims angrily as her blonde head pops up through the collar, quickly freeing her hair so that her curls don’t frizz up.

“Dead serious.” He smiles tightly, patting her head as he goes to see what’s happening with the mic.

“This is so lame, Dad!” she cries after him.

[tiltingheartand]

lol! that's okay. but whhhyyy is he so pretty and why do we have to wait another like two more months to get him back on our screens?! sigh.

why is he so pretty: no fucking clue tbh.

why must we wait so long: oh, you know, hardest battles strongest soldiers blah blah blah. and The Universe could sense that we as a group needed some time for our brains to take a Break — contemplate, turn things over in our minds, et cetera. (and for those of us who write or gif or whatever, a break can be nice solely because we know we can just work with what we’ve got, you know?)

also, having time without genuinely does tend to mean we enjoy our time with more. unfortunately. treats stop being treats once you’ve had the same one seventy-three days in a row, sometimes.

[dragonmasterkaylz]

Lucifer’s Eldest Daughter Headcannons

In terms of personality, she’s a lot like Rarity from MLP. She’s got the perfect personality of a Princess, but she’s also very generous and kind.

In terms of appearance, she looks more like Lilith with her eyes and skin. She has blonde hair, but is shorter than Charlie, despite being older.

She was born in the Garden of Eden and Lucifer was still an Archangel at the time, so she has six beautiful wings, but also a Demons tail, as well as long horns like Lilith has.

She supports Charlie and her idea Hotel, but she also looks after her Father, as well as also being a fashionista and running her rival boutique. Her rival being Velvette and the two clash heads a lot.

By the way… she uses her ‘Royal Voice’ when she gets angry:

“DO YOU KNOW WHO I AM?!!!”

“Yes! But, I simply don’t give a shit!!!”

“HOW DARE YOU SPOUT SUCH LANGUAGE IN MY PRESENCE?!!! GET OUT OF HERE THIS INSTANT!!!”

She can very dramatic and will use her magic to bring in a sofa, for her very dramatic fall… and it doesn’t matter where she is.

She always makes sure to dress perfectly every single day… even when there’s a fight going on. The last thing she needs is to look untidy!

She even took the liberty of making her Father’s clothes when she finally got the hang of sewing. He adores every outfit she’s made for him. She even did the same for Charlie, who also loves her outfits, but wants to save them for the perfect occasion. And her sister adores that about her.

She keeps her hair in curly at all times and the one time she couldn’t find her hair curler… she… well… had a ‘teeny-tiny’ panic attack.

“WHHYYYYY?!!! HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN?!!!”

Lucifer ran into her daughter’s room and found her lying on the bed, crying her eyes out, as mascara ran down her face. “Are you okay, sweetheart?!”

“No, Father!!! I am not!!! I can’t find my hair curler!!! And without it… I’m… OHHHHH!!! WHHHYYY ME?!!!”

Lucifer hummed and then smiled before sitting her up. “W-What…? What are you— oh!” He used his own magic to tie her hair into a ponytail before curling the ends of her hair. Then he placed a duck hair clip into her hair. “Wow~!” “I know it’s not as great as… what a hair curler does, but it’s something… right?”

“Oh, Father…! IT’S PERFECT!!! And I have the perfect outfit to go with it!!! Thank you so much!!! You’re the best Dad in all of Hell!!!”

“Oh?! R-Really…? Well… thank you”.

She understands that her Father’s depressed, so she does everything she can to cheer him up. As far as going on to make a brand new clothing line with his name on it, and which was covered in both apples and ducks. She may look a lot more like Lilith, but she’s definitely a Daddy’s Girl.

Mini Story:

“Where is she?!”, Angeldust asked.

The Hotel doors opened and Charlie’s sister walked out wearing a war outfit, as well as her crown. That’s when she said, “I apologise for my tardiness…”.

“Now… TIME TO DESTROY SOME ANGELS!!!”

Husk then said, “Wow. Can’t even cuss in this kind of situation”. “Oh hush! I have my Pride!” She stood next to Charlie and watched as the portal opened up.

Later…

“AHHHHHH!!!”

“Oh no…!!!”

She looked at her outfit and saw that it was torn. Her eyes went red, her horns came out, along with her tail. “I’LL FUCK YOU ALL UP MYSELF FOR THIS!!!”, she screamed before flying around the Exorcists and tearing them apart with her scythe. “Honestly…!”

“NONE OF YOU HAVE ANY APPRECIATION FOR FASHION!!! I’LL HAVE YOU KNOW I SPENT ALL OF LAST NIGHT MAKING EVERYONE’S OUTFITS FOR THIS BATTLE!!! YOU WILL ALL FUCKING PAY!!!”

“Whatever gets her motivated…!”, Charlie said with a slight smile. Then she gasped as one of Adam’s bolts headed straight for her. But her sister blocked it just before saying, “Seriously…? You’re such a pest…! You will NOT lay one finger on my sister, you bastard!!!”

Let’s just say, after the battle, she washed her own mouth out with soap and vowed never to swear again (which didn’t last long).

Hope you enjoyed this~!!!

[3days-ofbread]

Headcannons for the TF2 Mercs being animals?

Well now.... lets see what i can come up with (evilly rubs hands together like a fly)

Scout

-Squirrel is low-hanging fruit. So fuck that.

-Thinking of some sort of bird, like a blue jay or a roadrunner. Just a tiny little bastard, y'know?

Soldier

-Eagle is low-hanging fruit. Raccoon is low-hanging fruit. So fuck those.

-First thoughts were all rodents. Like a possum or groundhog (are groundhogs rodents-- ARE POSSUMS RODENTS-- IDFK)

-Gonna have to go with a caracal. I just vaguely remembered a wild cat that can jump high so i looked it up and its a caracal. So yeah.

Pyro

-Getting really really heavy dog vibes here. Bulldog, probably. Looks terrifying and does scary shit but is just having a good time.

Demoman

-WHY AM I THINKING OF THE CATS FROM THE WARRIOR BOOKS-- I DIDNT EVEN READ IT

-...,,.cow. Like one of the wooly ones with long fur/hair(?) and long horns. Is that even a cow anymore or is it some kind of buffalo? I think I've already established I'm not good with the specifics.

-Can accidentally and purposefully rock your shit like a fucking boat and will not hesitate to do so. Don't fuck with 'em, man. They'll fuckin' get you.

Heavy

-Bear is low-hanging fruit. So fuck that.

-...why am i thinking goose? Like, can be very gentle if it likes you but will fuck you the fuck up if you piss it off. Plus HeavyMedic with Dove Medic. And goose in Canada. Canada cold place. Russia cold place. It just works.

Engie

-Turtle is low-hanging fruit. So fuck that.

-Thinkin' a rat. Burrowy little bastards with hands to commit crimes with. Engineer being short joke. Plus Engie probably had or wanted a pet rat as a kid.

Medic

-hrhfnfgnnfmfnrhrhrfm dove is low-hanging fruit,.....,.

-First thoughts were actually of goats? Mountain goats, to be specific. Goose also works, but swan works better than goose does. But I'm sticking with goats. Little assholes, it fits.

Sniper

-owl low-hanging fruit crocodile low-hanging fruit yadda yadda fuck that.

-Thinking of the type of mouse from the 'its time to get funky' meme. This one.

-But ehh......,,

-SPITTING COBRAS. Snakes that can spit venom from a distance. They're technically from Africa, not Austrailia, but whatever. Also I found this picture.

(i have a question... For god. WHHHYYY--)

And someone tell me why i found this gif of a priest facing off with a snake--

I'm getting sidetracked. Anywho.

Spy

-Snake is low hanging fruit but i also just did one. So fuck that.

-Immediate thought: Poisonous frogs. Small bastards that are dumb enough to jump into your coffee. But this one is smart enough to jump into your coffee.

-Scorpion? It has pointy thing on its back. Spy is just the other way around.

Aaaaand that's all of my ideas. Enjoy.

[imtheiliad]

9-1-1: 4x08- Breaking Point

post episode commentary on certain points in italics

spoilers under the cut

Eddie and Ana are cute, but like I am still not seeing the chemistry and its kinda awkward (??) she called him edmundo again, and he didnt even correct her like wut 

Gavin is getting so big

Why is Maddie wanting a home birth such a big deal? It might be how and where I grew up but, like that isn’t such a huge thing even not in a pandemic. And I think it is a great solution to her worries. It’s not like there would be no medical professionals there. like i get it now that we have seen chim freak about it but still

NOTHING BUT MEANINGFUL RELATIONSHIPS- Taylor def sees it

Nononononono- whhhyyy this is not going to end well.  I thought so 

Athena is their Mom confirmed- whomst the fuck is mags

Talk👏about👏how 👏hard👏pregnancy👏is👏

NIA🥺🥺— MOMS HENREN- but I’m so scared, I stg if they take nia away from them I will write to the writers myself

Buck why are you wearing a jacket? you are across the hall from your house

Taylor was the perfect person to bring in to both Jan at his insecurities while also highlighting how much he has changed

The screaming for Christopher parallels 

He went to his Buck

So they aren’t seeing Carla or abuela but they are Buck 🧐

Also that scene was absolutely heartbreaking

The vaccine thing almost made me cry I- I dont know what is happening to me- I cry so much at tv shows now 

I kinda want them to be friends now- like they get coffee and check in with each other, cause both of them have entirely different but challenging jobs and buck needs a friend outside of the firefam- like its kinda unhealthy that he doesnt have anyone that isnt connected to the firehouse in someway 

It’s not just me that thinks eddie and ana is awkward right?? 

I also I feel like there still should have been some time between talking to chris and having a movie night 

I STG I STG I STG I STG NONONONONONO- ARE YOU KIDDING ME NO- I just did this with chicago fire- I cannot do it again

Anyways its gonna be a long 6 weeks 

[officebeepo]

Kiribaku au month: Day 14: YouTuber Au!! 📹💻

Hey guys! A little explanation, I was heavily inspired by Jenna Marbles and Julien Solomita, so I have some kiribaku art of the Jenna marbles Claire's makeover! I also wrote a drabble.

It also has a bit of yesterday's au prompt in it, Angel and Demon.

@kiribakumonth2019

So! I hope you like that, and before we get to the drabble there's some things that need explaining.

Jenna and Julien have 4 dogs together, Kermit, Marble, Peach, and Bunny!

Now, I've casted them as the following, and please remember that they are dogs! 😂

Jenna: Katsuki

Julien: Kirishima

Kermit: Deku

Peach: Mina

Marble: Denki

Bunny: Uraraka

Ok, with that out of the way, I hope you enjoy the drabble! Oh! And I almost forgot, I made some inaccurate quotes to go along with this.

Youtuber Au

Inaccurate Quotes:

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Katsuki: Deku......I love you so much but you TEst Me EVeRy DaY, BOI!

Deku: *cries in nasty*

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Deku: *gives Katsuki kisses*

Katsuki: Aww, that was sweet

Kirishima: He just licked his dick right before that

Katsuki: *blankly stares and looks to Deku as Frolic by Luciano Michelin plays* Is that true? Did you do that to me??

Deku: *avoids direct eye contact and licks again* no

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Kirishima: *filming Deku drooling as he waits for food* OoOhohohooo Deku, that's so nastyyy!!

Katsuki: *cry laughing as he tries to feed Denki who will only eat off of the ground* wHhhyyy are you like this, Deku?¿? 😂

Kirishima: Ohhhehehh, he did- he did it AGAIN!!

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Katsuki gives a long sigh, cutting the camera off after reciting his outro. Another week, another video. With some help him and Kirishima pack up the lighting and recording equipment.

Deku has somehow climbed onto the table and is now crying for attention like always, the fucking weirdo. Katsuki gives another heavy sigh and goes over to usher him down.

"Get off the table ya fuckin nasty gremlin, god, Eijirou it's like talking to a crybaby, what does he even WANT for fucks sake?!?

"I don't know, maybe give him a greenie to distract him? God knows he needs it." Eijirou gives a little chuckle as he carries the equipment to their game room, cooing to Uraraka along the way.

Katsuki huffs and makes his way to the kitchen, with Deku and Mina hot on his heels hoping for food.

"Alright you piggies y'alls breath stink like Satan's shit hole so you're getting a greenie and NOTHING ELSE, ya hear?!"

Deku gives a whine as he sits up that weird way he does, and Mina just gives a little dance as she waits impatiently.

Bakugou struggles digging through the pantry to find the box of greenies he swore were in there. He curses a bit as Deku's whines grow louder and Mina gives a bark before he recalls using the last of the greenies for last week's video for the pupsicles.

"DAMN it, Eijirou! We forgot to pick up more greenies the other day!" He stomps over to the fridge to check if they had any leftover pupsicles. Distantly he hears Eijirou suddenly call after Uraraka and he closes the freezer after coming empty handed.

"You know what, Deku? I love you but imma need you to take it from an eleven to a two right now and Mina shushhhh, y'all want some fuckin watermelon I know we have THAT at least," he mumbles as he digs through the fridge to obtain the container of cubed watermelon.

"Katsu! Uraraka has your slap bracelet and I-"

"Goddamnit, fuck! Here, feed the cry baby and the chunk some watermelon and I'LL handle Uraraka."

He jogs over to the living room and snags a tug toy from the couch, disturbing a napping Denki in the process. He halts for a second to pat the clueless pup before turning his attention to the problem at hand, Uraraka having gone to her dog bed in the corner with Katsuki's slap bracelet in her mouth.

"Now hunny, that's not for you! Here! You want this toy?? Wanna play with this- this..." Katsuki takes a second to look at the goofy ass sausage link you he picked up and curses how absolutely ridiculous he must seem. He's glad his friends never come over enough to know the lengths he goes for his dogs. He calmly scoots close to Uraraka and wiggles the toy a bit to get her attention.

"Come here, girl, come on Ura, you don't want that" he slowly coaxes the slap bracelet out of her mouth and quickly tosses the toy for her to go chase. He watches her bolt across the couch cushions to give chase, fully waking Denki from his nap yet again.

Katsuki gives a small, lazy grin as he settles next to him. He scoops up the smaller dog and quietly coos to him while he skritches behind his ears. In the background he hears Kirishima establish some more commands for Uraraka before rewarding her with some watermelon as well.

When he's done, he joins Katsuki on the couch and turns on their friend Sero's twitch live stream that they were supposed to join in but cancelled due to Katsuki's weekly video still having to be filmed.

Slowly Deku and Mina join them on the couch and Ura settles back on her bed to mess with another toy. Denki settles back in his lap to drift back into dreamland and Kirishima stretches an arm around his shoulders.

Katsuki lets out a softer sigh this time and relaxes into the touch, and thinks to himself how truly lucky he is to have what he does. And he has the freedom to create the type of videos HE wants to make. Life couldn't get much better, could it?

Geez, this seems a lot longer then it probably is 😅 I don't really write much but I'm trying to make a new hobby out of it! That being said I really hope you guys like it, and feel free to comment and send me any critiques, I really could use the feedback!

[ramblingshit]

The Rise of Skywalker (2019)

• a growing list of my thoughts on episode 9 -- spoilers bruh spoilers--

▪︎ His death was really best case scenario for him - imagine returning to the light side to be faced with what you've done: killed his father yes, but also literally millions and millions of other people including entire worlds. Everyone knows who he is and what he's done. There's nowhere in the galaxy he could hide. But imagine knowing that you've done all that he had - how could he possibly live with himself, there's literally nothing he could possibly do to make things right, and the memories in his head of what he's done with his own hands. So, to die having saved Rey from the Emperor and from herself, and inadvertently helping to end the Sith and the war that he helped begin, held in her arms, knowing that he is loved and that he's finally done the right thing - it's really the best end a redeemed villain could ask for.

• Rey killed Kylo Ren with his own saber, and literally healed Ben Solo. Poetic cinema.

▪︎'Dad--' // 'I know.' (!!!!!!!!! kill me)

• They should have had the three together bouncing off one another from the start - that's always been the greatest part of Star Wars, people being friends and bickering and having each other's backs. Actually had an interest in their relationships and in their characters this time. Their hug at the end was emotional and satisfying.

• Rose was always a nothing character to me, she should have died during that crash to make a point to Finn about doing the right thing or fighting the war or whatever. Also love that their kiss was never mentioned again (thank fuck).

▪︎On that note tho - plot holes. Plot holes everywhere. Not even just one or two. A million plot holes. Things mentioned briefly but never explained. Things glossed over and ignored. It's like they made this enormous tale that needed to be smoothed and simplified so you're not distracted every two seconds tryna figure out what matters and what's never gonna be mentioned again

• Chewie falling to his knees and roaring in agony when he finds out that Leia is dead is finally respect to his character and his relationships with his friends who are all fkn dead

▪︎legit nearly walked out when they suggested that Chewie was dead - that would have been 100% unforgiveable

• Ben Solo's death was 100% glossed over and Rey's reaction could have been a lot more poignant and long lasting. Anakin got his funeral, why can't Ben?

• Every minute of every force bond chat and fight was 10/10.

▪︎Fkn hobbit had more screen time than half the characters combined like who tf

▪︎that lil droid was legit funny and adorable but so so clearly another cash grab damn

▪︎Been a long time since I've seen anything sexier than everything that is light-side Ben Solo.

▪︎the ow, the shrug, the smile - little glimpses of the man he was supposed to be, instead of the diabolical, tyrannical, genocidal torturing, manipulative monster he became (rip Ben Solo, your family let you tf down)

▪︎Air punched and almost yelled YES in the cinema when they fucking kisssssssseeedddd!!!!

▪︎Actually really happy with her being a Palpatine, it's the only thing that could make sense and I legit didn't see it coming - being a Kenobi would be too predictable and though Obi Wan defeated Vader at Mustafar, it was because he was so blinded by rage, not because Kenobi was stronger than him

Upon further consideration Rey should have just been Rey. People were so obsessed with who her family were because of course a person is defined by their parents and no way could a random person step up and defeat the bad guys (/s). She didn't have to be related to any legacy character. Heroes are made, not born. She followed the light because she's a good person, and she struggled against the dark because she's human. Gah.

▪︎Actually cried out in shock when she used force lightning to destroy the transport - that is a dark side move my dude, (and Palpatines fav party trick)

▪︎ loved the rehash of Ben and Han's final moments - he said himself he was just Bens memory, and Ben then did what he deep down wanted to do the day he killed him

▪︎Luke snatching the lightsaber out of the air like what the fuck do you think you are doing young lady

▪︎legit woulda been down for Rey to become Empress of the Sith what an ending that would be ey

▪︎Anakin should have showed up

▪︎Once Ben turned light-side he should have been talked to by his dead family members, not Rey.

▪︎Ben, the last Skywalker, should have been the one to defeat Palpatine, who was the one to begin the saga of the Skywalkers. Instead he got yeeted into a hole and spent the final battle time tryna climb out of it.

▪︎Ben should have been a force ghost standing there with his parents, reunited at last

▪︎And when they were both still alive Ben and Leia should have 110% reunited like what the fuckkk

▪︎ Rey should have proudly said that she is 'Just Rey.'

▪︎Finnpoe should have 100% been canon - Oscar Isaac literally admitted scorning the Disney 'overlords' for being cowards, and he played his role as Poe as being romantically involved with Finn. 10/10 best LGBT+ ally.

▪︎why tf would she go to Tatooine? She hates sand. Anakin hated sand. Luke wanted to leave and his last memory of that place is leaving the smoldering bodies of his aunt and uncle behind. Why put his saber there. Leia's never even been there. Why not go to Naboo or some green beautiful place where Rey has always wanted to be? Only fanservice moment really that irked me

▪︎all along all she's wanted was a family - she's made one and found one and yet the movie ends with her standing alone in the sand on a planet shes never been to, with two droids, looking at a horizon that means nothing to her.

▪︎that lightsaber tho (wish we had seen her make it, or decide to make it and explain at all why it's yellow)

▪︎Finn is fkn force sensitive and that's hella cool but like... address it more, make something of this discovery - this is the last movie and this is only just coming up? To be forgotten like all the other plot holes

▪︎liked Palpatine as the all over enemy - should have been more hints throughout the films fo sure to make it feel less outta left field as it did but still could've been a lot worse - but what the fuck is he doing on that Glados arm thing he shouldve been a Sith ghost ala Marka Ragnos not weird zombie sith man

▪︎lightning powers fucking up an entire fleet is fkn siiiiiiickkkk

▪︎would his dumbass really fall for the same ol bounce his own lightning back at him trick? Mmmmmnghhh??

▪︎if someone could explain why/how Leia died and became one with the Force only when Ben died that would be g??

▪︎thought they did Rey's struggle between the dark and the light pretty damn well like shout out to Daisy Ridley

▪︎ wish we had a shot of that vision she had with she and Kylo on the Sith throne together like damn son whhhyyy deprive us of that?? that shit would make my lifeeee

▪︎just everything Adam Driver tho what an actor like damn

▪︎in a story about love and family and winning by saving what you love, there's a whole lot of lovers dying and family members being torn apart and never reconciling. The entire Skywalker line did nothing but fuck up and make mistakes (excluding our Princess) - Anakin was so scared of losing Padme that the power he gained by turning darkside to save her overwhelmed him and resulted in her death, Padme thought it was a good idea to help Anakin defy the Jedi and marry him thus leading to his fear of losing her, Luke went full dark side when he sensed a growing darkness in his nephew and instead of trying to have a chat about his feelings he decided the obvious answer was to just murder him (like what???) thus fully pushing Ben over the edge to become Kylo Ren.

And then every single one of them die. How the fuck is that a satisfying conclusion to their story? I'm sorry but a happy ending to the Skywalker saga is Not the entire family being fucking DEAD. There is no happy ending to their story. Because they're all dead. This is some bullshit.

▪︎give us the almighty rumoured alternate ending you cowards

▪︎Honestly, the Skywalkers deserved better.

[tommarvoloriddle-thediary]

I like to really jump into fandoms as they are fizzling out or so far into the swing it's impossible to have an opinion.

[foslad]

Almost Too Good (A Chris Evans Story): Part 17

A/N: It’s another long one. I’ll admit. It may trail off at times. I’ll admit. But babies, the time has come. #Spoiler-Alert: the moment we’ve ALLLLLL been waiting for is nigh ;) High fives all round if you know what I’m saying!!!! ;) 

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Bzzzz* Bzzzz*

…….

Bzzzz* Bzzzz*

…….

The irritating buzzing went on and on until I had no choice but to open my foggy eyes and accept the hangover that was currently looming. Peeping one eye open whilst cursing the sunlight, I let out a tired moan and attempted to gather my bearings.

I placed one hand under me and pushed myself up slowly and delicately. It was then I noticed that the hangover wasn’t the only thing weighing me down. Another being lay behind me; after last night’s shenanigans had resulted in us passing out on his couch. I shifted forward and started searching for my phone in my purse, the dull ache in my back loudly chastising the sleeping arrangement.

Another, much deeper, moan rang out as sleeping beauty began to stir at the soft commotion I was causing. Looking back over my shoulder, I watched him cup his hands onto his face and let out a low “scream” that sounded like air being slowly let out of a balloon.

‘FUCK, I’m tired.’ Chris declared with a yawn before opening his eyes and looking down at me. ‘What are you doing on the floor?’

‘My phone was ringing.’ I sat down in a heap, abandoning the search for the phone and sighing in defeat as a headache began to set in. I ran a hand over my eyes in an attempt to wake myself up a little more.

I had so much to do today, why? Whhhyyy was I so stupid as to drink so much last night!?

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As the coffee machine beeped to announce that the sweet nectar of life was ready, I lifted my head up off of Chris’ counter and stared at it in hopes it would magically appear in front of me and soothe my thumping head.

‘I got it.’ Chris stepped down from the stool next to me and slowly trudged over to make us some coffee.

‘Thaaaaaank yooouuu.’ I called after him gratefully.

Yes, I was supposed to be on a coffee ban. No, I don’t care to stick to it at this very moment.

Even with our heads being sore and our souls regretting every single drop of alcohol, the closeness we shared last night was cherished fondly. Or at least, I looked back on it fondly. Despite giving me my first dose of raw pleasure in what felt like years, once the drink and tiredness had kicked in, we both fell asleep before I could return the favor and now my guilt was clear for all to see this morning.

Not that Chris seemed to mind. He gave the impression that he just seemed stoked to have finally started that walk across the bridge of intimacy…

Between savored sips of coffee, the two of us sat at his breakfast bar and groggily compared schedules for what felt like the millionth time in this “relationship”. The only real difference being in that we weren’t putting pressure on anything, just simply praying for a gap in which to spend quality time with one another and making an effort to not get caught up in the reality of it all. As fate would have it, we both beamed as we came across an opening and now next weekend was solely dedicated to Chris and Adrian time. Friday to Sunday, dinners, Chris’ favorite dive bar where they do stand-up, a movie night. Cuddles galore…

It all sounded perfect.

Bzzz…. Bzzz….

Oh shit, my phone!

Clumsily stumbling down off the stool, I sped over to the couch and picked up my purse, this time actually retrieving the incessant disturbance in question. I saw that I had four missed calls from my sister Gracey and immediately panic set in as I pressed the return call button.

‘Adrian, hey-’

‘I’m so sorry I missed your calls Gracey, I was still asleep! Is everything okay?’ Chris looked up from pouring two huge bowls of sugary cereal as a means of asking whether this was an okay breakfast. Flashing him the “perfect” hand sign, I turned away and waited for my sister on baited breath.

‘It’s fine, I just have something I need to tell you but before we start, I want you to know that every word that is about to come out of my mouth is 100% the truth and I need for you to take it as such. Got it?’ She sounded tired and monotone, which only added to my confusion. Gracey was normally always upbeat.

‘…Oookay?’ I replied.

‘I’m pregnant.’

My eyes bulged open in automatic joy as one fifth of a squeal managed to escape my mouth before I was hit with even more news.

‘And Oscar and I are getting married-’ I knew that part already? They’d been engaged for almost two years… BUT A BABY IS S- ‘next weekend.’

My mouth and squeal immediately morphed into a muddled wriggle of expressions as I absorbed the shock of what she had just said. Even Chris looked up in confusion at my quickly changing facials.

‘…Next…Weekend?’ I drawled slowly, trying to make sure I’d heard her correctly. Chris’ eyes were now fixated on me as he stopped pouring the milk into the bowls; disappointment dripping from him at the same rate as the liquid.

‘Yep.’ She sighed heavily. ‘Next. Weekend.’

Before I could even ask, she took it upon herself to fill me in on the speech that, by now, she’d clearly given ten times over. Apparently, it was early days in terms of the pregnancy but Oscar had pleaded with her to marry him for the sake of his overtly religious 92-year-old grandmother, who wasn’t even aware they were living together, for fear it would break her to think of him “living in sin”.

On paper, it sounded judgmental and harsh but it was truly what the sweet woman was brought up to believe and who were we to judge? Even Gracey understood the deeper meaning behind it all and to her credit, didn’t seem to mind; albeit a little tired of having to explain herself to so many friends and relatives over and over again. It being so last minute wasn’t ideal but at the end of the day, it was what she and Oscar wanted, if just a little sped up.

I hung up the phone and slowly placed it into my skirt pocket, wondering how on earth I was going to explain a situation that I didn’t fully understand myself.

‘So next weekend is off…’ I announced slowly.

‘I figured. Everything okay?’ He asked as I took a seat next to him at the counter.

‘Yeah, I mean,’ My voice still bore some confusion but there was a hint of optimism breaking through, ‘things are great by most accounts. My sister is pregnant and getting married.’

‘Next weekend?’ Chris queried, his tone a little high in puzzlement.

‘Next weekend.’ I confirmed. He nodded lightly in acceptance and went back to eating his cereal.

My heart felt torn as it diagnosed the depletion we were both feeling. Once again, we were faced with one step forward, two steps back. It was going to be another week or so on top of that if we wanted to see each other again; even then it would end up with a flight involved for one of us.

I don’t want that this time, I thought sadly. Pulling my phone out of my skirt pocket, I drew up a text conversation.

A: What’s the consensus on plus ones?

Graceyyyy <3: For you?

A: Yesssss?

Graceyyyy <3: Since when???? You never mentioned anyone when you came to stay???

A: For a while now. I didn’t want to say anything until I was sure.

I looked over at Chris as he attempted a big bite and some of the cereal fell out of his hungover mouth. Adorable.

Oh yeah, I was sure.

Graceyyyy <3: OH HELLLLLLL YEAH THEN. DO IT. DO IT. DOOOOO IT.

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The sunrise reflected in the cars we passed as morning met us going forward.

I had driven my parent’s car to the airport to go and pick him up but having lived in New York City for so long and doing my very best to avoid driving in LA, Chris was kind enough to offer to drive back for me.

The week leading up to today had been chaotic to say the least. I was blessed in the sense that I had bonded with Ben so well that he was willing to give me the Wednesday to Sunday off from filming after I promised to make it up with any hours he deemed fit.

But then of course once I was home, there was the actual helping part in getting things ready for one of the most last-minute weddings of all time. Being one of six bridesmaids, and sharing maid of honor duties with my other sister Sarah, we had to somehow fit dress shopping (for both bride and her bridesmaids), food tasting, backyard marquee and service hiring for my parent’s house, the pleading with any local pastor who could fit us in, license obtaining and finally finding someone to do hair and makeup on Gracey with no trial run and praying that they won’t mess up, alllll on a last-minute basis. It was enough to turn us grey till the end of time. Comically, there was one thing that didn’t get planned. But rest assured, Gracey had stared each one of us bridesmaids in the eye as she made it was clear that once the baby was born, we ‘I.O.U’d’ her a proper bachelorette party.

Miraculously we had somehow pulled it off and I felt a sense of accomplishment as I sat cross legged on the passenger side and listened to the seriousness in Chris’ voice. He inhaled a deep breath and gripped the wheel a little harder before starting off.

‘Okay, so… we have; your sister Gracey, who is seven years older than you and is the one getting married,’ I nodded, ‘then there’s your brother Daniel who is nine years older and is married to Alison with two kids, then your sister Sarah who is eleven years older and is married to Mark with one kid and then there’s your brother Brian who is thirteen years older and is married to Kristen with three kids.’

My face lit up and I couldn’t stop myself from leaning over and wrapping an arm lightly around his neck, placing a firm kiss on his cheek in appreciation. ‘You did so good!’ I gushed.

Even I knew my family was a handful and that was before even meeting them. As the absolute youngest, I had accepted my “surprise” status pretty quickly. The beauty lay in the fact that despite our age difference, my siblings and myself could not have been closer. Truly a case of five people who loved nothing more than spending time with each other and with our parents. And so far, I had been blessed in the in-law’s department too, as each of my siblings had picked partners that accepted our closeness as a family and more importantly, wanted to join in on it.

Holiday seasons, particularly Thanksgiving and Christmas, were always spent at my parent’s house, with my in-laws bargaining New Year to spend with their family as they relished in the traditionalism we had every year. By this point, most of them were firm installments in that tradition anyway.

Alex had always struggled with our closeness. Despite my family making him feel as welcome as possible, he always wanted me to spend Christmas with his parents, who could not stand each other and every year ended in a fight and us just driving to my parent’s house anyway…

Looking at Chris and his determination to make a good first impression, I was once again reminded of how different they are and just how lucky I was.

In retrospect I had been so apprehensive to ask him to the wedding, fearing it to be too forward, but the way his face lit up and the way a smile stretched so far across his face and how he’d stated ‘Really!? Yeah, sure, I’d love to! If you’re sure you want me to, that is…’ was so warming to my heart I felt like crying. I suppose my family is very precious to me and it seemed foreign to ask someone to meet them so soon.

Then I thought back to how eager Chris was for me to meet everyone that was special to him so early on, even if every girl did, but it showed how things really were different with us. And that that was a good thing.

‘Are you nervous?’ I asked softly, willing him to be wholly honest with me.

‘Completely,’ He divulged, ‘but that’s half the fun, right?’ He tossed me a smile and I had to control the urge to once again lean across to kiss him. ‘I mean, I don’t think anything could top the shit storm that was my Boston weekend…’

‘As long as you don’t run off and catch the first flight home, I think we’ll be okay.’ I bantered.

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It was the calm before the storm as the house echoed alongside the creek when I opened the front door. Everyone was out making sure things were set in stone for this afternoon and I relished in the opportunity to ease Chris into this new environment before the chaos took over. All of my family, especially my brothers, had been pre-warned about not making him feel weird this weekend. The second I arrived home, I felt it was the right thing to do to tell them in advance that it would be Chris Evans, of all people, joining us this weekend.

‘Let’s go put your bags down in my room.’ I decided as I walked towards the staircase in front of us.

‘This house is incredible!’ Chris complimented as he followed behind. It was an old, traditional, suburban home that tipped on the bigger side. With its wooden floors and white paneling that complimented my mom’s unique furniture and art taste that spread itself throughout the living room, kitchen and dining room, I smiled fondly at it as I looked around. The beautiful garden, my dad’s pride and joy, really was the piece de resistance and it didn’t surprise me one bit that Gracey and Oscar had opted to get married in it.

‘Not a shabby place to grow up, huh?’

‘I’ll say!’

When we reached the top of the stairs, the closer we got to my room, the sooner it dawned on me. I quickly turned around and placed my back firmly against the door, with one hand gripping the doorknob and the other flying up to Chris’ mouth to silence him.

‘Not. A. Word. Evans-’ I warned, ‘I haven’t lived here since I was seventeen years old and it shows, okay?’

He nodded slowly with a smirk, clearly dying to get in and find something to make fun of.

Turning the knob and walking in I fell back, wringing my hands as the feeling of self-consciousness took over. I watched on as he studied my floor to ceiling shelves that were covered in teddy bears, old DVD’s and picture frames galore of braced-up, teenage Adrian before she was given her first role in the big city. My ceilings still bore the dot marks from where they had once held posters of Justin Timberlake and Brad Pitt. My desk still had the old desktop computer that I had written essays on as a teenager and the fluffy rug in the shape of a heart rounded things off.

Admittedly absence showed too, as a corner of the room was now home to a couple of old boxes and an exercise machine that my Mom swears she uses daily…

‘It’s cute!’ His eyes wandered around once more and, much to my horror, zoned in to find something to light up at. He stepped towards the shelves and pulled out one of my old DVD’s and smiled widely. ‘Reaaaalllll cute.’

Not Another Teen Movie stared back at me from his hand and I suddenly didn’t have the heart to tell him that it belonged to my brothers, who had forced me against my will to watch it because they knew how much of a lame fan I was of She’s All That and how much I had hated that “stupid parody movie” at the time.

As I looked at it in his hands, the bizarre nature of the situation dawned on me. For years that movie had sat dormant on my shelf and not for one second did I ever entertain the idea that the hottie lead actor in it would ever be standing in my childhood room, looking better than ever, as my date to my sister’s wedding.

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‘Gracey, Daniel, Sarah, Brian…’ A soft mumble filtered through the silence. ‘Gracey, Daniel, Sarah, Brian…’ He nodded to himself. ‘Oscar, Alison, Mark, Kristen…’

Chris stared at himself keenly through my old bedroom mirror as he nervously did his purple tie up - rehearsing as though they were lines from a big budget movie or something. As I finished inserting the earrings that matched my last-minute lavender bridesmaid dress we had bought, I outwardly swooned as I watched on for a second.

I walked over and turned him around, grabbing each end of the tie and doing it up for him.

‘Stop,’ I whispered softly, ‘they’re gonna love you. Regardless of whether you know their name or not.’

‘Bonus points if I do though, right?’ He chirped.

I gave a lopsided smile in response and threaded the last knot in the tie, wriggling it up to the top of his shirt. ‘You get bonus points for even being here Evans.’ I relayed, stepping back and admiring the view. It never ceased to amaze me just how handsome he really was. It was as though God himself commissioned the very image of a Hollywood Hunk and boom, there was Chris. He had trimmed his hair and beard for the occasion and his suit fit like a glove.

He swiveled around and gave himself one last look in the mirror, making sure everything was in place and neat before facing me once again with a hopeful look. His eyes scanned over me and under the makeup, I could feel myself blush.

‘You look incredible.’ He gushed as I did my very best not to ruin my makeup by gifting him a kiss.

‘Thank you, Evans. As do you.’

I grabbed and squeezed his hand as a gesture of one last affirmation of confidence before I led us both out of the room. The landing seemed to be a junction for preparation as men and woman rushed past us with flowers and ribbons and all sorts; bits that would eventually adorn the bushes and the makeshift silk and floral aisle in the garden.

As we made our way down the stairs, I clocked my Mom stood beside the front door instructing the workers on where they needed to be going as they hurried in and out. She looked radiant in her lavender skirt suit that was adorned with a broach belonging to my great-grandmother and her hair in a neat bun.

Deciding that there was no time like the present, especially to a mother so distracted like mine was at that very second, I took the plunge. Waltzing up to her, she took a second glance before realizing it was me and her eyes lit up as we took each other in.

‘Ooooo you look so pretty, Mama!’ I admired as we entered into a sweet hug.

She smiled in a way that immediately returned the favor before her eyes naturally landed on the Adonis behind me.

Catching on quickly, I made my move. ‘Mom, I’d like you to meet Chris.’ I stepped aside and placed a hand on his back, encouraging him forward. ‘Chris this is my Mom, Pamela.’

‘Well hello there Chris, it’s very nice to meet you,’ She reached forward so that they could rest a kiss on each other’s cheek, ‘I’m so glad you could make it on such short notice! I assure you, we aren’t normally this disorganized for such big occasions!’ She chuckled as she pushed her dainty glasses back up the bridge of her nose.

‘Ah come now, seems like you have it all under control.’ He complimented, immediately at ease by my mother’s warming tone.

‘Ohhhh, the day is young yet. Plenty of time for things to go wrong!’ She joked, ‘I just hope your Aunt Mimi lays off the whiskey and doesn’t try to snowplow people out of the way of the bouquet toss like last time!’ She directed at me seriously. I briefly shut my eyes at the memory and shot Chris a “you don’t wanna know” look.

A helper paused in front of us holding up pieces of lace trimming and as my Mom informed him that they were for the tables in the marquee, his eyes seemed to bulge out of his head at the sight of the ultra famous movie star in front of him.

Desperate for Chris to have as normal a day as possible without someone making him feel uncomfortable, I accepted the star struck little lads face as our cue to move on. I took Chris by the arm and explained to my Mom that we’d catch up with her later. As we walked away, I took a notion and looked back, clapping eyes on my Mom as she winked at me and gave me an obvious thumbs up in approval.

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The rest of the day seemed to play out as though it was on fast forward. The feeling of seeing Amy again after going the longest we’d been apart since we’d started working together nine years ago was overwhelming, to put it mildly. Almost as overwhelming as standing up and seeing my sister marry the love of her life in front of 100 of her closest friends and family, all sat amongst the flowers and the sunshine that beamed down upon them in approval.

I had taken a moment when the pastor declared for anyone to ‘speak now or forever hold your peace’ to look out over the sea of people and smile. My best friend Amanda had caught my eye first, sticking her tongue out as she sat next to Amy, making a silly face of approval while subtly pointing at Chris, who was sat on Amy’s other side. Looking over at Chris, I caught a smile and a wink that physically made my heart skip a beat.

Now that was a pair of eyes I’d like to catch the attention of all day, every day.

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I thanked Amanda as she handed me a glass of champagne before she joined Amy and myself on the veranda. The interval as Gracey and Oscar went off to take some pictures provided the perfect excuse for us to have a good old-fashioned catch up.

However, instead of catching up, all three of us just decided to bask in the view down by the pond. Chris was enjoying a drink with my brothers, as my nephews attempted to hang from every one of his limbs in pure excitement; with my brothers then doing their best to calm them down. Touchingly, at one point, Chris even raised them up and balanced each of them on his shoulders/biceps. Knowing what that meant to them, the looks on their faces was precious in comparison to what they must’ve actually been feeling inside.

‘How in God’s name have you not ripped that man’s clothes off yet!?’ Mandy’s dreamy voice broke the silence but not our gazes. Now Chris was bending down to listen to something my little niece had to say.

‘It’s like he was made in some sort of lab. How is it possible for someone to be that good-looking, that talented, that patient, that sweet with kids. I mean, it’s just...’ Amy let out a dreamy breath of her own. ‘… impossible.’

I didn’t say anything. Instead I just feebly nodded my head as I drank in the heart melting scenes.

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Even as we sat listening to the speeches, the way his arm wrapped naturally around my chair and the way he listened to stories about people he’d never heard of yet his eyes creased up in good humor anyway. It had gotten to the point where both of my – now drunken – brothers had pulled me aside to tell me that:

‘Adrian, we’re not gonna lie, we still can’t wrap our head’s around how fucking Captain America is at Gracey’s wedding… but how solid is he? Cool fucking dude. Right, Danny?’

Daniel sloppily slung an arm around my shoulder as Brian occupied the other one. ‘It’s mind-blowing for sure. But hey, we just wanted to let you know that if you’re happy, then that’s awesome because you, above anyone, deserve at least that little girl.’ I smiled. Little girl. They had called me that since I was, well, just that. Little.

When it came to my father’s opinion, I was confused to say the least at how “merry” he was for someone who rarely got past a hot whisky before bed.

‘Daddy, how many have you had?’ I laughed as he swung me around the dance floor to his favorite Bruce Springsteen song. ‘That guy of yours,’ (neither my Mom nor my Dad were very well versed in modern film and the only reason they knew Chris was because I did the Gucci campaign with him. Other than that, clueless!), ‘is to blame.’ He winked. ‘We had a brandy or two up at the bar. I wanted to discuss you no less.’

‘Oh you did, did you?’ I looked over to Chris, who was sat with my brothers again, listening intently to Daniel tell some sort of enthusiastic story as they all sipped from something strong. The kids were long home and put to bed by their sitters, so it was time for the parents to let loose.

‘And what was there to talk about?’ I asked as he gave me a twirl.

‘I reckon I ought to keep that between us. I made my thoughts clear, I will say that.’ He teased. ‘But I’m happy for you baby.’

For the first time that night, and for the first time in almost two years, I stared up at my father and smiled. ‘I’m happy for me too Dad.’

A few seconds passed before I questioned something. ‘You didn’t mention Alex at all, did you?’

‘Oh God honey, no. That’s your business.’ I breathed out in relief before looking up at him gratefully as he kissed my cheek. I laid my head on my father’s chest and swayed to the rhythm.

It was then I realized that I’d fallen harder than I could have ever imagined.

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I waltzed over to the three men and bent down. ‘Do you reckon I could have my date back for a sec, you weirdos?’ I mocked my brothers playfully.

Taking Chris by the hand, I said nothing as I led him out of the marque.

I said nothing as I led him through the house, despite his protests. ‘Woah, Adrian, everything alright?’

I said nothing as I led him up the stairs, around the banister and into my bedroom.

I finally let go of his hand to shut and lock the door before spinning on my heel and facing him.

At some point during the day, my bed had been covered in party favors for the guests but even that didn’t stop me.

‘We’re doing this. Right. Now.’

I rushed forward and pushed his suit jacket off his shoulders greedily before reaching up and kissing him as my fingers set to work undoing his tie. His confusion stunted his response but I was so drunk off of how much of an impression he’d made on not only my family and friends but also my once broken heart, I continued on regardless.

He pulled away briefly and looked deep into my eyes. ‘This isn’t because we’ve had a drink, right?’ He probed, clearly still feeling a little insecure after the circumstances of our last intimate occasion.

‘I’ve had two glasses champagne all night. I’m sober as a judge. And I’m telling you now, that here is nothing I want more on this earth than to somehow feel closer to you than I already do.’

The smallest smile made itself known at the corners of his mouth. ‘Right now?’ He repeated my words from earlier softly. Closing the gap between us and resting my body against his, I nodded gently. ‘Right now.’

He raised his eyebrow and for a while our breathing filled the air as he decided what to do with that information….

My backside slammed against my old dresser before we paused, waiting to hear if someone had heard. After a few seconds of silence and content that we were still alone, we jumped back into it.

He bent down and hungrily pressed his lips against my jaw as I began to rake my hands through his hair, messing up it’s once neat appearance.

Quickly moving his kisses around my neck, his own hands traveled down along the lavender fabric as he searched for the hem of my dress and slowly proceeded up, leading it back up my legs and causing every piece of flesh in its path to stand on edge.

When his fingers reached my mid-thigh, he squeezed the skin purposefully before hoisting me up so that I was now sat atop of the wooden structure. My stomach swirled in anticipation and slight fear as I leaned in for a kiss whilst my hands set about undoing his belt.

‘You-sure?’ He queried between kisses.

‘Mmm-hmm.’

‘You-sure-you’re-sure?’

I pulled away and lifted his hands and rested them on my silk covered breasts. ‘I haven’t been this sure of anything, in a long time Chris.’

He didn’t react in the way I imagined, there was no primal male desire or roughness. Instead he gently squeezed what I had offered until his left hand ran itself down the length of my torso before it began to re-familiarize itself with me; tempting and teasing, just like he had done the week before. The effect he had was instant, like he was some sort of potion cured entirely to elicit my downfall.

My fingers gripped the edge of the dresser firmly, my knuckles paling by the second. I wanted nothing more than to reach out and finish unzipping the holy grail but his hold on me was too strong to multitask alongside. His own free hand set about finishing my job; but before I could take a peek or even assist, my face was drawn into another intense kiss. His right hand appeared to pull something out of his pocket and my only guess was that he carried protection in his wallet.

My back hit the mirror and my body completely melted into the moment. He pressed our foreheads together and we both shut our eyes in suspense before his husky voice lamented my decision to do this for us.

‘I’m crazy about you. You know that, right?’

Staring into his eyes, I nodded. Because I did know. And that was the most sensational feeling a woman could ever experience. The feeling of being wanted and appreciated and desired in such an intense way was foreign to me. But I wasn’t scared anymore. I welcomed this closeness with open arms.

I gripped and lightly bit his shoulder as we followed through with our desires.

I couldn’t have imagined what it would feel like the moment Chris and I had sex for the first time but I’m glad I didn’t. Because nothing could top what it truly felt like. He was slow and gentle and sweet as he began. His eyes never leaving mine so as to keep an eye on my comfort levels.

I shut my own eyes briefly, letting the sensation of being with a man after so long resonate. When I finally felt ready to open them, I smiled up at him and fluttered my lashes in approval. Pushing back now, I wanted him to feel just as wanted as I did. The more we stared at each other, the wider our smiles grew; which eventually resulted in us just laughing during intervals at the spontaneity and randomness of our actions.

The weight of the clashing began to open and close the empty drawers in the dresser and I gave a breathy laugh as I bent my arms down to feebly push them back in and cease the noise they were making whilst Chris continued.

‘Someone’s gonna hear. Oh shit, someone’s gonna hear!’ My voice was giggly and barely above a whisper as Chris let out a snicker; neither of us actually taking any measures to stop the sweet, sweet lovemaking, instead simply indulging in another kiss. We had made it this far, there was in way in hell I was going to press pause on this.

Bam.

Bam.

Bam.

Faster.

BAM. BAM. BAM.

His hair fell into his eyes and both my hands flew up to smooth the strands back again and caress his face, desperate to savor these moments of closeness. My eyes began to roll into the back of my head and my mouth fell open as I focused on breathing through the sensational pleasure. I could feel it rising. Rising and rising.

Within a few short minutes, he had fully launched me into a euphoric high, with a faint squeak signalling my total surrender.

‘Oh God.’ His eyes squeezed shut and his breathing became more rapid as he tightened his grip on my hips and indulged in the last few seconds of resistance. He launched his head back as he released a long sigh of pleasure of his own and eventually, the rocking of dresser came to a halt.

No words were spoken between either of us in the moments following. Only lamenting heavy breaths, desperate to confirm that this had been the reality that we had both shamelessly indulged in at my own sister’s wedding.

Eventually, my eyes travelled down to look at our mess. Chris’s dress shirt had become creased at the bottom and his pants had only made it to the middle of his thighs, with enough room for proper exposure.

I was still wearing my lavender dress, albeit ridden to above my pelvis and back at this point. We hadn’t even undressed for the occasion…

Unable to contain it, I threw my head back in hysterics.

‘What?’ He panted with a smile as he did his zipper and belt back up.

‘Look at us!’ It was his eyes turn as they studied our fully clothed yet disheveled appearances post intimacy.

‘We still have our shoes on.’ He commented with a raised eyebrow. A brief second of silence was followed by another eruption of laughter. And I loved that. No seriousness. No pressure. Just Chris and Adrian being Chris and Adrian; even after sex…

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After quickly cleaning ourselves up, I carefully opened the door and peeked my head out. I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw we were still the only ones up here; now all I had to do was pray no one had been in the kitchen at the time.

I turned around to catch Chris giving his hair one last brush through in the mirror as he attempted to undo the mess I had caused.

‘Alright, I’ll go down first and then you come down in like, five minutes or so, okay?’ I called.

I walked over and straightened his tie for him for the second time today. I had reapplied my lipstick but I couldn’t help but give him one last savored kiss. We both smiled into it and breathed each other in before pulling away and gazing at each other fondly.

‘I’ll see you down there in sec.’ I turned around and headed for the door, with a noticeable pep in my step now.

‘A’rite.’ He reached up and wiped his mouth in case any of my lipstick had transferred before placing his hands in his pockets with a face so smug and a heart so full, the word satisfied probably didn’t even cover it.

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‘Everyone ready?’ Gracey shot my Aunt Mimi a knowing smile as she stood at the top of the stairs and faced her back towards us before giving a couple of teasing gestures and then finally releasing it.

We all glanced up and almost instantly, the bouquet torpedoed in the complete opposite direction to Mimi and landed right next to me, with a bonk on Amy’s head. A smile spread across my face in excitement as I folded my arms and shot her a knowing look.

Bending down and picking it up, she sighed, ‘I don’t think that counts somehow.’

‘Ohhhhh I think that definitely counts. It homed in on you like a heat seeking missile.’ Amanda appeared beside me and nodded in agreement.

‘Whatever.’ She mused, twirling it in her hand. ‘Where’s the lady with the champagne?’

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Confetti and ribbon scattered all over the floor, the bride and the groom long gone back to their hotel room, my brothers and their wives departed home to kiss their babies’ goodnight, my sister and her husband blearily debating whether they should stay the night or go back to their own house and my father fast asleep in his favorite chair as my Mom attempted to sweep up the debris.

It was the image that greeted me as I leant my head on Chris’ shoulder in the archway of the living room. His jacket and tie had been discarded somewhere and his top button was undone for comfort. He yawned once again, causing one to erupt from myself. A signal to call it a night.

Ascending the staircase, half way up I stopped and turned around.

‘Thank you.’ I whispered with a smile.

‘For what?’ He countered with his own sleepy one.

‘For being you.’ I shrugged, as I rested a drowsy kiss on his lips and led him up to the land of nod.

As we nestled into my old queen-sized bed, both of us thoroughly exhausted, Chris piped up for one final comment.

‘Hey look, no shit show.’

I smiled and clutched his arm that was wrapped around my waist tenderly. No shit show…

‘Hey Adrian,’

‘Mmm?’

‘Wanna know somethin’?’

‘Wahh?’

‘Your dresser is my new favorite piece of furniture. Ever.’

‘Goodnight Chris.’

……….

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……….

‘Ever.’

‘Good. Night. Chris.’

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A/N: I LOVE YOU FOR GETTING TO THE END OF THIS CHAPTER! I get self conscious about long chapters but sometimes I just can’t help myself, especially with how long I’ve been known to go between uploads! I also read through them to the point where I think they are a steaming pile of awful so I don’t even know what to think of them anymore haha! 

Anyways, thank you for reading. I hope this chapter was everything you hoped for and more. And don’t worry, there’s definitely more to come for our two sweethearts! Did someone say, cabin fever? ;)

[mimigemrose]

Some highlights (in not chronological order):

"Why is he actin' like a whiny bitch?" (Referring to Adonis' behavior after the first match)

Calling Florian Munteanu "Viktor Drago" and "Big Daddy," which led to...

Her singing the chorus to Sheena Easton's "Sugar Walls," whenever a bare-chested, Florian appeared on screen.

Pausing the film, so she could tend to her kids. A film that is 2 hours and 9 minutes long took 3 hours in order to watch.

Listening to my cousin sing "Sugar Walls" while ogling Florian... while my cousin's husband was in the room.

Her husband's face during all of this.

"Daddy's bein' a bitch..." My cousin's response "Well, least nigga, you know that now."

"Why is Big Daddy wearing a sweatsuit at a fancy dinner?"

"Oh look at this big bitch come into the room..."

"Don't say shit to her, Big Daddy!"

"Ivan looks all broken-down. Walking like his feet hurts..."

"THE WHHHYYY-ERRR!" (Whenever Wood Harris and Michael B. shared a scene together)

The constant critique of Stallone's... Errr... Hair. According to her: "It looks like a fucking IKEA rug sitting on his head!"

"Now they know they dead-wrong for having Wallace stand in front of this big-ass man!"

"So, she's going to leave this whiny bitch in charge of this newborn?" Then she proceeded to tell me about making the family stand a foot away from her newborns... which is true.

"Oh, fuck this... big-ass... gray-haired... Icelandic--Russian, whatever! Oh, fuck her... ol' scandalous ass skeezer!"

@captstefanbrandt @sparklemichele @themyscxiras @tellybabes @avengersandlovers @dragothishole @carefreebarnes @fumbling-fanfics

Watched “Creed 2” with my cousin… oh Gawd.

[babyawacs]

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@norway @norwegia .@fisa .@norway @judge .@judge @judges @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @haaretzcom @snowden example: itisntjust underdeveloped fools, itis (!)did never and (!)would have never developed. and that in a world where intels control the population with cookingfo rehead arbitrarily literally willynilly. letalone in a deeply sophisticated educated disciplin ed case cmon now youknow its one example of the most declinateable cases they shuffle s tigmas they shuffle harms they shuffle proxies because itis  i n t e l  itis whihc trick works this time with all authorities as dependents under control doing whatthey want with peasantry as civil population whhhyyy yy!!!!! r o b u s t o  AND creamy?! @norway @norwegia .@fisa .@norway @judge .@judge @judges @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @haaretzcom @snowden aha!!!! peanutbutter between nuts ba tshit nuts! but… why?! the brand?! r o b u s t o  a n d creamy that that that a dunno t hatsgotta mean sth … right?… ********* without access mess average,median, and mean identificationtimeframes with ai. and by experience  ********* with access to the case:   ///// find xraybeamtrick allda ylikely b eta or radar bythe way lawyers ofmine ******* make sure germans cannot use doc-ification everagain with utmost severe consequences but for things they wait longer than three years t hreemonths three days younameit andforemost eachofthem signs und er oath the  i  n  t e l terrors witnessed including whatthe civillian demystified and them   pokemon openmouth woa + wtf ********** trickery with docificati on as game for find sth youcan distort twistlater to justify a shitball while allalong itis intel murder that is over orthey hang with the scums symbolically (notliterally) ///// tinitus from deceit trick allday whatisit this time momfool brainwashaway fof fortune mom theperverted doing moms itsalljsut a dream yourenot you tonaswinn ihave dismal trans vetite emotions and want to be molested by horny germans because theyre so german and im so t erribly not german what is it this time again //// ffind backleg tricks for bon er implant remtoeocntroleld itisntjsut biting hemmmorides itis buzzing installs tactically timed to what xray murder beam killtrick fromcockroach above aboveadjancent is priority ///// itis unusually mild since anhour or two whosnew usually its poisons damamges suffocations xraybeam terror find xraybeam killtrick fromabove aboveajdancent and window aimed otherwise miraclemild I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https: //www.BabyAWACS.com/ Inquiry@BabyAWACS.com PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? 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else than about that guy  letalone about sexuality ofthat guy ******* this.  is probably not s eparated clearly checkthat youre the pro s  /// dont get nuts over it, its not so compl icated: because. it. is. intel. it.is .all about. which. trick. works. thistime. get furio us about it  not nuts about it itis layer1 causing authorities with control accomplice rape dmolested damamged themselves whatthey can  host layer2 cockroaches immunsied todowhat wi sh hope pretend youre their underhuman candowhattheywant with civillians usually willalways t ry sth . coordinated more orless or invited orhosted only as proxies dont get nuts about it get mad about it isuggest: a sero tolerance dont touch it. offthewalls. off the health. it doesntmatter what youwant whatyoupretend what youtry donttouchit. if youre support coordina te with support your ideas are: /// w hat doyou do about 19years of microscopy while they shuffled sexual asssault  then someone germancures your nuts to a smeary fatty or sth because they s u s p e c t something this. itisntjust shuffled sexual assault itisntjust deedtyped allalong iit is deedtyped after d aytimecharging it  repeatedly risking allmyrights and anything to because thecausing au thorities quell the charging and thefix  the fix is letmore and shuffle more sexual assaul t and try togive it an alibi nomatter how counterfactuall this. what is against this.  //// lawyers ofmin e  ******** had one single trick worked unthinkable what wouldh appen next: disassemble this trick ie: because we declare him nuts we dont compensate what we overtape allalong because he aeh molests little furry sexcat s and sex hedgehogs, we must not compensate what we damage rape and smear. this ********** h ad one trick worked unthinkable ////// #lawyers  law .@laws .@harvard_law @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @snowden @haaretzcom what is the state ofmind of the charged government: when they just have to find a trick that puts you inyourplace a trick that you give up  atrick that resets your brain a trick that shows they dominate you and you must obey like youhave no choice  this is the stateofmind this itis idontcare wha tthey fake idont care howthey goodcop badcop idontcare how they play sorry theyrenot this. is their stateofmind what do you d o about it it explains a long long lattice of messes and dirty tricks furthermore ///// / #sexland #sex #land @all @world @globe @booking  .@law .@laws .@harvard_law @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @snowden @haaretzcom youjustdont getit the germa n goverment rapes thecivil population that is not immunised aga inst  intel coma s wheres the news they porn the c r a p out of em they sell em as sexslave on intelcoma if they can they prepl an their careerrs and setemup who exploits who first and benefits how they controlem like forehead braincooked fools like children like fools they hold as underhuman exploitable un derhumans that is the basis of it all when a civillian daytime charged the basis oftheir 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cockroaches braindamamge fore head and suffocate the c r a po outof me and damamge eraseme ih ate em its legit to  and iam furious about it idaytime chargedit a tleastfive times locally and fivetimes eu they shuffle sexual assault repeat humiliate and seee how pervert you are coifirmation i hate them idont live by hate minors wemust rescue but  the scums get offfffthe cas e andif wehave tohunt the scums for the authorities the authroties gotojailwithem they h ost em coverem anyway host em whenthey cant tax it a trickfailed then itnensified pedo tr icks thisishowit works its  criminal government  authrotieis criminal authorities shuffling proxies guilty liable accomplice c ontrol usually maybe unbriefed fools that get shit into their head to mess wit an excuse sero tolerance with sexual  abuse se xual assault the authorities do their job and hunt thweir cockroaches and if we must theygotojailwith the scums they sat and let rapes poisosn rapes galore arbitrary whattttheywant whowants 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of fortune and performance asif im a f ool they put in a frozen tube and keepthemoney trick at best thefffff ff f f f f f f f ff f f f f f involve serious insurances and reinsurers ifnecessary include atomic harden ing serobullshits agaisnt fraudsystems and criminal govts and thanks forall *************** ///// what mom theme is the theme ididnt know moms or sth and ididntmind  itis agerman shitball about underdevelopment usually or perversions or sth asif you sense mom s or sth b ecause thats what you surely want thatkindof german ness //// lawyers because immine nt danger and war is so severely bad enough i say no capital punishments whenever possible: ! a l w a y s no capital punishment no deathpentalty scums go tojail cant be fun in there important is they understand they dodged capital punishment for real I am Christian KI SS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://ww w.BabyAWACS.com/ Inquiry@BabyAWACS.com PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 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(nickname schnellschreiber 3rd/felt abit artificial bllah) but dyslectic- it is ? a stigma ***** virginity ?! meh. unless its a stigma  one shitball bites  the other but that doesnt keepem from right. then. getting away with something damnthe factuality basis I am Christian K ISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HE LLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ Inquiry@BabyAWACS.com PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 H elpful? Pay. Support. 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@norway @norwegia .@fisa .@norway @judge .@judge @judges @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @haaretzcom @snowden example: itisntjust underdeveloped fools, itis (!)did never and (!)wouldhave never developed. and that in a world where intels control the population with cookingforehead arbitrarily literally willynilly. letalone in a deeply sophisticated educated disciplined case

cmon now youknow its…

[lunchbox-dilemmas]

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I just finished watching episode 2 of It’s Okay Not To Be Okay. And I think I am not okay.

I don’t know what triggered this. Is it because of the kdrama? Maybe? I suddenly felt empty. I felt hollow again. And I haven’t got this feeling for a long time. 

I have a very very loving girlfriend and I am so lucky to have someone like her. I dunno why I am stating that. No. I think the reason why I am saying this is because I didn’t think I will feel this because I am happy and contented with her. But whhhyyy..

Is it because all the unfortunate things that are happening now in my life are taking a toll on me now? I usually just ignore it and laugh it all out. But whyyy..

And now I feel like a failure. Look at me. I’m 27 years old and I wasn’t able to achieve anything. I am at my 7th year of employment and I still haven’t been promoted as RGM. I don’t have savings. I only have Pinky and I am still broke AF. My phone got broken and I don’t even know if I have enough money to pay for the repair. 

How can I marry Yna if I have no concrete plan for us in the future. I am not financially stable. I don’t have other source of income aside from my regular job at KFC. How can I build a house for us and for my mom? I don’t know what to do with my freakin life now. I can’t even buy my sister a gift for her roll signing. 

I just wanna disappear.

I don’t want to live like this.

I can’t even say these things to Yna.

Haaaaay fuck it.

[yelloskello]

so I generally avoid Tumblr Prose, but i’ve had this one chillin in my likes for a long time now because the premise seemed interesting to me. About five minutes ago I was like, y’know, i’m takin A Small Rest, i’m about to get up but not quite yet, let’s actually read it.

And mostly it left me disappointed. I got about halfway through, got bored, lightly skimmed the rest, unliked, and moved on.

Whhhyyy?

1) because i’m tired of Stories Where the Real Villain is Misogyny. Like. I’m so tired. I’m tired of ‘spooky men who go bump in the night’, i’m tired of ‘you can Only Trust Your Fellow Woman #radfemvibes’, i’m tired of ‘look at all this exhausting misogyny she has to deal with’. 

I’d rather just have stories with men who aren’t toxic in the first place, and women who don’t have to deal with misogyny at all. 

2) the prospect of this story was in essence ‘ruler chooses to marry the big bad evil guy in order to keep her throne’, aaaand they pretty much instantly established that he was barely evil at all and any concept of him being evil was, like, just a big misunderstanding and/or Assumptions. He’s good, actually!

Yawn.

A while back someone on tumbo was saying that the real underlying Best Ship Dynamic was seeing two flawed people find each other and, through their interactions with each other, becoming better people, and now I think all the fucking time about how true that is. Y’know why Zuko/Katara was so Good in Avatar: the Last Airbender? Because they were both flawed in their own way and their interactions made them better. They both were dealing with unchecked pain and trauma, and when forced together, they both managed to quell each others’ inner fires and help each other find peace. Zuko and Katara hunting down the man who killed her mom was basically an entire episode about just that. Their brief interaction in that jail cell in the earth kingdom? Probably more meaningful than almost any interaction she really had with Aang. They had common ground, and they grew from each other.

Aang was just like, pretty gorl tho, and katara wasn’t even really feeling it like almost the entire show.

This is why enemies to lovers is So Fucking Spicy. Because when they start out constantly at each others’ throats, they PROBABLY got some shit to work through and there’s room for growth.

BUT ANYWAYS

That’s what this story lacked. It sounded promising from the premise because, marrying big bad? Why, that’s like, the most perfect chance for him to grow to learn to not be so fucking evil! And maybe she’s flawed, too! Has her walls too high up! Learns to be more vulnerable! Learns to trust! Maybe learns to be, like, a LITTLE naughty or some shit!

And instead he was just Good Anyways and was basically kinda this bland Anti-Misogyny doll to call out the Other Sexist Men and make her feel more confident in her role as queen. Technically, she grew some - but it felt less engaging as a romance story because it wasn’t mutual. It was just basically him taking care of her.

Yaaaaawn.

I know we’re all fucking terrified of writing actual flawed characters because of the weird purity culture that permeates some circles of social media, but like. It’s so much more interesting to read. Find the middle ground between ‘fucking irredeemable, yikes’ and ‘kind of an asshole’. take consideration of the shit that a fictional story being fictional and kind of operating on a different level of morality, makes more palatable. Look at bad characters who WORK, study how they grow, and gimme THAT.

[barrykeenan-blog]

I remember tihnking the first time I saw this it was for some one else and now that I'm waiting to be decapitated i think you have incredible talent i think for all the little things where you couldn't say the words ,your talent spoke for you ,when it comes to loving me your worst , an old rod stewart song, the first cut is the deepest ,anyway you can go to the press and den y without a lie that you never had a single conversation with me , i love you big time when we are together and you've officially fallen in love with you naked bodies we can tell you that I love you so much for the why were just whispering , am i understanding you're in front of amike and I know what I'm saying is that I love you so much for igetit i fucking love you baby gurl and I love you so much for so long to you that I love you so much for EVER I'm smiling because I love you and you love me how many more hours are you on the bed and you tell me what I'm saying is that I love you so much for so long to you that I love you so much, i love you too baby oh no they'd all pick you I'm sure it will be cleared up by Monday night and you love me too I want you more than anything else in the world when you kiss me again as my hands get busy with you naked my cock is literally getting posses off you know that's funny thing is that the world where we belong is really love you too baby oh no they'd all pick me that's RIGHT do we vote by a show of favorite body parts I know yours and you probably have autographed pictures wait go.back to memorabilia what can I get busy with you right now kiss me again I want us to press.our bodies together brush your hair to the side look into your incredible eyes and we kiss oh...my...god ,everything else is just filler and I know what I'm saying is that I love you so much for the rest of my life , i love you big time when we are together and you've officially fallen in love with you naked and as I kiss you i love you big time when we are together and you've officially fallen in love with me Barry Keenan i love you big time when we are together and you've officially fallen in love with me Keenan i love you too baby oh no they'd all pick me for what what does this mean to you that I love you so much whhhyyy going anywhere near a forest do you think I'm being targeted by kissing your body and your , hey you just said out loud that you kissed my naked body against yours and I would kiss your eye lids while I swept a little bit more than anything else in the world when you kiss me again, I would nibble on your lip and touch their softness caress your face with the back of my fingers I look into your eyes you are moaning big time and I need to fuck you right now I know I need to start a little slow at this point I'm saying it's you and oh my god when i kiss you my darlin when i check you out of the world with the internet and I think maybe we should skydive into the grand canyon and I would, time out here what just happened here did hd just walk I'M sorry this isn't America, well then where the fuck is it your commentary on the bed and you tell me you love me too I want you more than anything, are you safe where you are near presently or cali or here right now and then we should ski the alps I guess is it you that I'm still talking to yeah it's you sorry this isn't America has to be sooner rather than later you tell me what I'm saying is that I love you so much for the first time in a long time ago when I say that the first place you and I know what I'm saying, have you ever been to St.Petersburg Russia well that was unintended consequences sorry this isn't America. I love you.