#where's that post from a few months ago like “we're all going to remember that there's a story with themes OUTSIDE the romances right?”

[wardensantoineandevka]

one thing I did NOT miss about engaging in the Dragon Age fandom was 90% of meta and analysis about a character, the themes and narratives of their questine or even a related main quest, and/or associated institutions or parts of the world being written from the default of having romanced that character and positioning the character as romanced as the most proper and full version of them and their narrative

truly did not miss starting to read a post purportedly breaking down a portion of a character's main narrative and themes—portions that ARE romance agnostic—and getting four sentences in before the analysis starts openly filtering everything through the character being in love with the player character and assumes that everyone will also see this as the default mode

[icewindandboringhorror]

I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

[mirrorball-leclerc]

prologue - is it a wonder i broke?

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ines_sainz i am what i am cause you trained me. the after and before.

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user01 girl a soft launch? while we're still processing you leaving racing?

user02 the before being spain and racing and the after being monaco and no racing makes me sad.

maxverstappen33 pick up the phone! i just want to talk!

ines_sainz you know where i live. just come over? maxverstappen33 that's too far! ines_sainz get the fuck up and walk?

fernandoalo_oficial todo bien?

ines_sainz eh más o menos fernandoalo_oficial ay nena que voy a hacer contigo? user03 their father daughter bond makes me coo. it's so special to me.

user04 is the caption shade?

user05 but to who? her family? user04 i will go to war if her family forced her out of racing. user06 same, we ride at fucking dawn bitches

charles_leclerc fancy a game of goat simulator?

alex_albon OH COUNT ME IN! georgerussell63 if it's as bad as last time, count me out. ines_sainz only if i can invite my super secret friends. charles_leclerc oscar and logan are not super secret. they were around last time. arthur_leclerc and why was i not invited? ines_sainz charles said you weren't cool enough.

user07 the way she looks so sad in the after. i wanna cry for her.

user08 no cause i remember her saying, 'without racing i don't know who i am' and now i'm crying. user07 WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT BRITNEY??

user09 now where the heck is carlos? he usually drags her by now.

user10 me thinks that rumor from a few months ago was about the sainz siblings and not the leclerc brothers like everyone thought. user11 makes sense carlos would be jealous of his little sister for being better than he is. imagine helmut marko publicly saying that 'she would've been miles better than her older brother.' user09 sometimes a man's hell is a teenage girl.

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¡leclerc-s speaks!

for now, it's a pre-established relationship, but i'll write a part later explaining how they got together (the bonus tracks). i just find it easier to do it this way for myself. the point of this fic is mostly to have them torment carlos. sometimes i forget that i like carlos. this is like the fourth fic where i make him seem like a dick. i'm sure he's a nice person but for the sake of this fic he is not. there are time when i don't like (miami 2024) him, but my problem isn't with him, it's mostly with his fans. anyways, hope you enjoy this new fic. the first bonus part should be out like sometime tomorrow or in the next two days, i want to post it before the first part.

¡disclaimer!

this is in no way making assumptions about the people involved in this story, this is all fake. it is a fanfiction please don't take any of what is said seriously. this is all for entertainment purposes and as a creative outlet for me. enjoy!

[midnight-mourning]

*Taps mic* Heard y'all like Moon around here, you're in luck, this one's for you

massive, MASSIVE thank you to @lunarmoves for beta-reading this chapter!!

She put a lot of time and effort into making my BS readable for y'all and it's greatly appreciated <3 <3 <3

Shay also makes really good dca stuff (also sebastian solace but I know very little about the fish tbh) and you should check her out!

Also, happy 200k+!!! We're only 297k from truly becoming the 500k enemies to lovers slowburn of our dreams lmaoooo

But for real I apologize for such a delay with this one. If you'd like to hear my excuses/reasoning they're below the cut, or you can just go read the chapter whatever suits ya ^-^

Tag list (if you would like added please see this post for more info):

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CW: medical stuff & additionally a bit of unreality mentions

Okay going to try and keep this simple bc I've said parts of it before

So as most of you know, I've been sick for 3 months now

I've now been on two rounds of steroids, and currently on my third round of antibiotics, which are basically keep me fucntional, not improving

besides general discomfort and pain, my memory has been pretty shot at times, I will go through the day and barely remember what I did/what I'm doing/what I need to do

as someone who had brain fog caused by covid a few years ago, this was genuinely a scary experience because ultimately, this has been worse

i've felt out of control of my body, having times where I'm mid thought and then instantly lose it

this is not my normal, I usually pride myself on my memory, so losing it has been incredibly devastating and scary

this was not helped by the fact that the quick care I went to (THREE TIMES for this) basically kind of sort of tried to gaslight me into believing nothing could be done and that it's not an infection

so not only has this entire thing has gotten dragged out so much more, which makes me sad tbh, but I've also felt like I've been going crazy bc it felt like no one was believing me when i said I was sick and not getting any better (including friends, family, coworkers etc, though unintentional on their parts to be fair)

I feel like I've lost three months of my life and coming to terms with that has been, yeah

on top of all that, I'm still in school AND doing grad stuff, and while the school side of things has been okay (thank god), grad's had it's moments, won't get into it but have had multiple issues with my advisor that have been at times just really tough to deal with

Confused spirit got pushed to the back burner, because i quite literally at times could not think, and when it comes to this fic, where there's multiple ongoing plot threads, characterizations, lore, and so on to keep track of, it was just, impossible to me to even consider writing for it

having shorter stuff like promptober, the oneshots and such was great to keep me writing, and also still interact with everyone in the community, plus i had a lot of fun with them so that helped too

this is all to say that I do sincerly apologize for the delay, and at the very least I should've clearly communicated about there being a hiatus, when this all started I thought i'd be down for two weeks max, then as that time kept increasing I just kept putting it off and putting it off because i thought i was going to get better, and then I didn't

I do this for fun and for nothing else, fic writing isn't content (it's engaging with fandom) and i have to remind myself of that sometimes but given that I've been around in some capacity on and off I feel I should've said something in some regard

Having said all that, I'm doing okay now! Still sick, but as long as I'm on meds I'm functional, stuff is getting managable with grad, and hopefully have some fun things coming up irl! Point is, the last three months haven't been the best, but they've been alright, due in part to all the support you all have given me, so thank you for that, can't say it enough :)

Okay, I think that just about covers it, thank you for taking the time to read all of this if you did <3

[funnier-as-a-system]

we just found out we're plural a few months ago. do you have resources on how to try to talk to my headmates? sorry if this isn't the right blog to mention.

Hm... As far as resources go, I'd recommend using a tool like Pluralkit or SimplyPlural and then chatting/leaving messages for each other under your own names (SimplyPlural has a chat function for this, and for Pluralkit, you can create your own private server). You don't have to create super detailed profiles – you can even just put placeholder names, or very non-descriptive names, and nothing else – but having something that shows who said what can help ground you and make it feel less like you're shouting into the void. The point is essentially to create a log where you all can identify yourselves while leaving messages for each other, even if it's something as simple as "hi, I exist". This is a method we've been using for a long time, and we've found it can really help to get your conversations (literally) out of your head and into text. If you would prefer a physical log over a digital one, keeping a physical journal (with a list of headmates somewhere inside) can also help.

For talking to your headmates inside your head (internal communication), though, I'd recommend somewhat of the opposite, to a degree – don't stress too much about figuring out who said what every time that you hear something from another headmate. It can scare off shy headmates who just want to poke their heads in with a quick "hello", and you don't need to be stressing over not being able to immediately identify exactly which of your headmates had that random, passing thought. Asking them for identification can help sometimes, especially if you're looking to practice putting names to voices, but you don't need to perfect your own detective skills to figure out Who Said That every time someone says something. Just relax and let things happen as they happen.

On that note, listening "too hard" for internal communication can cause you to accidentally block out the voices of your headmates. Remember, these sorts of things tend to take a lot of practice to become easily accessed skills, so don't worry if it takes you a while to start regularly hearing your headmates! Throw your thoughts into the void and welcome thoughts that don't sound like they came from you. Allow your communication to get better over time as you practice; don't expect perfection right away. And even if you never get very good at internal communication, that's okay, because there's plenty of different methods for external communication, from recording videos to leaving post-it notes on your door. Don't be afraid to experiment to find what works best for you!

I can't think of any resources outside those tools I suggested, but I'm sure they're out there. I'll leave this post open for anyone to add on their own suggestions and recommendations. Good luck talking to your headmates!

[whorejolras]

as promised: jess' les amis fanfic rec list ✨

this is mainly e/r, a little bit of e/r/c and a few courferre

This is just the stuff that was in my bookmarks on ao3 when I started writing this post (months ago lol sorry it took so long). Going through I was shocked to see so many of my faves weren't actually bookmarked so I will for sure do a part two when I find them again, and have also added heaps of new fics to my bookmarks since then, but for now 25 fics is enough 😂

many of these will be rated E and will have sexual content, some are straight up pwp ¯\_(��)_/¯

ok first is my ultimate fave that isn't even on ao3 anymore, but thankfully is on the authors tumblr, and that's:

Gnomon by luchia

50-80k words (?) (bc it's not on ao3 i'm estimating)

rating: E

Enjolras/Grantaire

terrorist/assassin Enjolras my beloved ever. My fave are the "charming young man capable of being terrible" fics obviously. This one is my #1 e/r like in my head this is it's own canon. & this series has my fave e/r smut scenes ever. I still daydream about a Gnomon tv show...

- trigger warnings bc it's not on ao3 so doesn't have tags: murder, gun and knife violence, bombs, conversations about the deaths of children. this is not healthy relationship fluff but it makes for a 🥵 dynamic that's for damn sure.

also linking the rest of the series which is up on ao3 still, even though it is officially abandoned and unfinished - i am going to break my ultimate rule right off the bat and link an unfinished series bc I like it so much.

stupid terrorist boys by luchia

series, 5 works

200k words

rating: M and E

here we have gnomon's prequels, two sequels, and some one shots in between 🫶🏻

if you're here for kinky pwp Senselessly Happy and Unsuspecting could be good stand-alone (but it's better when reading in order). I would say read Gnomon first on tumblr then read the rest in order on ao3.

Silence Is the Speech of Love by lady_ragnell

50k words

rating: E

Enjolras/Grantaire, background Courfeyrac/Marius/Cosette

Enjolras is cursed for speaking out against the gods, Grantaire is there for him.

will I ever shut up about this fic? Never. fave fave fave. the world building, the mythological/religious system, the writing, the "I love you" "I don't think you do, actually" scene URGH!!!! I think of this fic every time i hear chopsticks. Everything happening with courf/marius/cosette, and the genius inclusion of social worker Fantine my beloved. This is one of those "could be it's own novel" fics.

and the sequel from Enjolras' pov 😭 - Left Unsaid

World Ain't Ready by idiopathicsmile

185k words

rating: T

Enjolras/Grantaire

yes it's the top fic yes everyone probably knows it but it's good for a reason. THE fake dating high school au fic that I broke all my rules for back in 2015. I refused to read unfinished fics, let alone T rated high school fics, yet I remember waiting for the updates for this one as it came out, messaging mutuals on the day the last chapter was released. and every time I reread I remember why. Brilliantly written, the pining, the angst, the miscommunications. All the Joly and Bossuet scenes.

honourable mention to the scene where Joly is so excited for the battle of the bands, then next scene starts with "I think it's more of a sitting night today" the realest simple yet most gut punching illustration of chronic pain that gets my ass every time.

Lovesickness by idiopathicsmile

11k words

rating: T

Enjolras/Grantaire, Joly/Bossuet/Musichetta

(we're gonna see a fair bit of idiopathicsmile on here)

this is one of my absolute favourites. not only bc I quote "hit by a truck full of shirts" all the time. a Joly pov fic!!!!!! my beloved!!!!! I'm a BIG JBM fan (they are essential to me when I'm writing grantaire) and love fics that stay true to his friendship with Joly and Bossuet. also I love when Enjolras is a giant dumbass who thinks his feelings for Grantaire is a mystery illness 😂

Still the Same by The Librarina (tears_of_nienna)

74k words

rating: E

Enjolras/Grantaire/Combeferre

ok ok ok. listen. Yes. in this fic, Enjolras IS an fbi agent... and u know i'm the first and last to scream acab always...

that being said this is fully still one of my fave e/r/c fics. Enjolras and Combeferre are married & Enjolras needs to work with art thief Grantaire (fave) on a case. also that one bit at the end when Grantaire *redacted* 👀🫣

cupbearer by illuminate*

*this one is locked, you need an account to view

series, 4 works

124k words total

ratings: T, M & E

Enjolras/Grantaire

this series!!!!!! VAMPIRE ENJOLRAS!!!! thrall Grantaire!!!! canon era AND modern au! REINCARNATION!!!! i'm eeeeaaaaattiiiing 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

More Than Just a Game by ecaitlin

36k words

rating: E

Courfeyrac/Combeferre

Fake dating courferre 😭 this one is so good for the desert scene alone 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻 one of my fave courferre fics

Good Intentions by ecaitlin

95k words

rating: E

Courfeyrac/Combeferre, background Marius/Cosette, Joly/Bossuet, Bahorel/Feuilly, and Enjolras/Grantaire ofc

THE les amis hogwarts au. 95k of Courfeyrac pov is always a treat for the system. in their last year at hogwarts, Courfeyrac decides to play matchmaker for all his friends. shenanigans!!!! fuck jkr, but whenever I wanna reread harry potter again I read this fic 🫶🏻 fave courferre ever, and also fave background e/r

if you remembered me by nightswatch*

*this one is locked, you need an account to view

40k words

rating: M

Enjolras/Grantaire

one thing about me is I love an amnesia fic! Enjolras loses his memory and Grantaire helps him recover 👀 this one's for the hurt/comfort and miscommunication/not being upfront about shit fans. also there's some past Grantaire/Combeferre and i'm always a fan

Beautiful Music Together by lady_ragnell

31k words

rating: E

Courfeyrac/Marius/Cosette

a rare Courf/Marius/Cosette fic for your palette. established Marius/Cosette need a little help from their good friend Courf with their sex life 👀 while the three of them also work on a musical assignment together 😭 prequel to You Dance Dreams kinda 👀

You Dance Dreams by lady_ragnell

61k words

rating: E

Enjolras/Grantaire

(you can tell when i've found a writer who has a fair few fics and just gone nuts lol, lots of lady_ragnell too)

BALLET AU I LOVE YOU!!!!!! so set in the same universe as Beautiful Music Together, Combeferre ropes everyone into working on his opera, a Midsummer Night's Dream sequel. Grantaire dances as Puck alongside Enjolras singing as Oberon 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻

In Defiance of all Geometry by idopathicsmile

51k words

rating: T

Enjolras/Grantaire/Combeferre

this is a top fave E/R/C fic and a top fave les amis fic of all time! Them living in a co-op and all the little details of how they make it work is sooooo real and anyone who wants to see accurately written community organising in les amis fic it's here! now for the ✨romance✨ - Grantaire moves in to the amis co-op and starts crushing on both Enjolras and Combeferre, who have both been pining for each other for years.

Years Since It's Been Clear by lady_ragnell

10k words

rating: E

Enjolras/Grantaire

Enjolras offers his spare room to grantaire - or the one where enjolras chases the sun across the living room floor like a cat. That image has lived rent free in my head for and I am not exaggerating here, 10 years.

Gonna need (a spark to ignite) by FinditAgain*

*this one is locked, you need an account to view

47k words

rating: M

Enjolras/Grantaire/Combeferre

soulmate au! soulmate au with E/R/C!!!!!!! enjolras and combeferre are soulmates who lost their bond as children. when combeferre and enjolras find each other as adults, enjolras is already in an established relationship with grantaire 👀👀👀

secret agent man by goshemily

30k words

rating: E

Enjolras/Grantaire

yes another cop one haha 😭 bc if ur not able to contradict urself with the media u like are u even a person? but also I wouldn't recommend if it wasn't a good read for the stairs scene alone 😅 Enjolras and Grantaire need to go undercover as a married couple in a small town.

Leaves in the Void by myrmidryad

16k words

rating: M

Enjolras/Grantaire

this is one i've found since rejoining tumblr late last year that 😭 fully broke my heart bro 😭 space au, enjolras writes letters to everyone when he's accidentally isolated on a ship for what to him was eight and half months but was two hours for everyone else.

Blame Delicate Artemis by hyenateeth

22k words

rating: E

femslash Enjolras/Grantaire

posting omegaverse on main? more likely than you think!

this is porn with a tiny bit of plot, but also one of my fave for femslash e/r and also..... girl dick. that's all.

omega enjolras alpha grantaire canon era lesbians.

that's enough description to find its right audience I feel

Eyes to Serve, Hands to Learn by myrmidryad

94k words

rating: E

Enjolras/Grantaire

Grantaire runs into Enjolras at a kink club. enter 94,000 words of bdsm porn and pining. mostly dom Enjolras and submissive Grantaire, mostly.

Never Be Satisfied by torakowalski

15k words

rating: E

femslash Enjolras/Grantaire

dental dam mention! win!

Grantaire gives Enjolras some advice, lends some toys, and then offers some hands on help when she learns Enjolras has never come before 😏

potentially lovely, perpetually human by myrmidryad

20k words

not rated, does contain smut

Enjolras/Grantaire

lots of myrmidryad here too lol

two of my favourite tropes here. 1: supernatural Enjolras who's in control of his abilities except when it comes to Grantaire (see cupbearer series) and 2: nonbinary Grantaire my beloved!!! Enjolras has psychic empathy triggered by physical touch, so he refuses to touch anyone: until his touch starved ass accidentally touches Grantaire and feels what they're feeling 🥹

Witchboy by tothewillofthepeople

series, 8 works

84k words

rating: T, M

Enjolras/Grantaire

this one is a more recent recommendation that I loved, the world building and magic is so good, there's some great background eposette and patron minette which I'm always a fan of.

i'm not the moon (i'm not even a star) by serinesaccade

40k words

rating: M

Enjolras/Grantaire

amnesia fic and fake dating 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻 this time we've got Grantaire losing his memories and waking up in a world where he has a really hot boyfriend, but apparently his 1.5 year relationship with Enjolras isn't what it seems 👀

and let's round this out with a classic

Thirty-Two Times by Ark

7k words

rating: E

Enjolras/Grantaire

the bottom R canon era bible 🙏🏻

i'm sorry i feel like my emoji use is very millennial. jsyk 👌🏻 is me clicking with my nails ok bye 😘

if you want more i'm whorejolras on ao3 go nuts 🙌🏻

[winchesterdreamgirl88]

Mountain With A View

Pairing: Jensen Ackles x Reader

Summary: You and Jensen have been having problems for awhile and so you finally decide to divorce him.

Word Count:1103

Warnings: ANGST because I’m a sad bitch

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You and Jensen had been together for almost 7 years now and things were going great up until a year ago. Jensen started working a lot with him being away at conventions, filming for The Boys, Countdown and all the other projects he had. Suddenly you hardly ever saw him. He never tried to come home to see you, he never showed up for any of your important events you barely even get to talk to him. It seems like he’s giving up on your marriage and you can’t take it anymore. 

But you hadn’t given up yet because your parents had gotten divorced and so you wanted to prove to them and to everyone that you could make a marriage work. But it was getting harder and harder to not just give up. 

You finally had the weekend off so you flew home to your guy's apartment hoping to finally see your husband. You had gotten you both a coffee and stuff to make you guys breakfast.

“Hey where are you?” 

“I’m not going to be able to come home this weekend”

“You promised me you would come home and spend time with me”

“Yeah well things changed, I gotta go bye”

It's 7 AM and I'm on a mountain with a view

I'm the only one, alone, at a table meant for two

Big Sur looks beautiful this morning

And I should be missin' you, I should be missin' you

You're across the pond at a show, I think, in Amsterdam

And the pictures look pretty, at least they do on your Instagram

We say good morning, then goodnight

I wonder if you even know where I am, where I am

You walked inside your empty apartment and looked around, it had big windows which let in a lot of light. It was very nice and pristine but it was a boring basic house. It was full of white and grey colored things, there was no color or photos, it was very bland. You sat down at your big coffee table that was in front of a window so you could look out and stare at the traffic and crazy night life as well as the mountains. It started to rain outside as you sip your coffee and eat your breakfast alone. You start to look out at the rain and start thinking about your conversation with Jensen. You weren’t even quite sure where he was or what he was doing, the only way you got a glimpse into his life now is when he posts pictures on Instagram. Whenever you guys call he never seems to fully be there, his responses always come out short and annoyed. Is this really the life I want for myself?

I'm wearin' the ring still, but I think I'm lyin'

Sometimes you forget yours, I think we're done tryin'

I realize you loved me much more at twenty-three

I think that this is when it's over for me, mm, mm

You look down at the wedding ring on your finger and remember the night that Jensen proposed. He had set up this special dinner on a rooftop with a string quartet, a photographer, roses and champagne. It was the most magical night of your life. But now the ring just sits on your finger symbolizing your dying romance. You decide to get up and go to the bathroom, when you get there you see Jensen’s ring laying on the bathroom counter. 

It hurts you to see that he doesn’t care enough about your marriage or you to even keep his wedding ring on. Jensen has always been faithful to you despite everything that has happened. But when he doesn’t wear his ring he can do whatever he wants. 6 years ago you were the best thing in Jensen’s life. He treated you like a queen; always made time for you, bought you gifts, took time to come see you and made you feel like the most special person in the world. Over time though things started going wrong; he started being cold towards you, stopped coming home, barely calls, he hardly even says that he loves you anymore. 

I can't believe I'm a few months out from twenty-nine

I can't handle another year of you and I just bein' fine

I've shared all my secrets and I've paid for all my crimes

And our stars ain't fallin' back in line

I'm wearin' the ring still, but I think I'm lyin'

Sometimes you forget yours, I think we're done tryin'

I realize you loved me much more at twenty-three

I think that this is when it's over for me

The past year has been the hardest in your guys relationship, sure you guys weren’t fighting and everything was going okay but that was the problem. It was just fine it was just okay; it was no longer happy, loving or romantic it was still just fine. He used to be so loving and sweet, always calling you, always saying he loves you, promising that nothing would ever change between you guys. 

I think that this is when I cut the ties

I think that this is when I set myself free

One day you'll ask, "When was it over for you?"

I'm takin' the ring off, I'm finally cryin'

Don't try to find yours, no reason to fight it

You finally walk into your guy's shared bedroom and sit down on the floor. Everything is starting to crumble and crash down on you. You feel like the walls are closing in and you can’t breathe and there’s no way to escape. What are you supposed to do?

Once you manage to calm yourself down you stare back at your wedding ring, slip it off your finger and set it down on the bed with tears streaming down your face. 

You'll say I'm crazy for bein' the one to leave

Scream, I'm just like my parents and givin' up easy

But you never took that last flight to see me

Looks like our ending ain't endin' happily

I think that this is when it's over for me

Me, me

I think that this is when it's over for me

Me, me, mm

It's 7 AM and I'm on a mountain with a view

I'm the only one, alone, at a table meant for two

[millylotus]

I got the full We Are Robin series for chirstmas! So here are some random silly things I noticed

Though I don't have any of the Robin War crossover or tie-in issues, which is a bummer but still.

Duke is like a self certified adrenaline junkie & says as much within like the first few pages

So yeah I get it. Mortality. It's about survival. Spent so much time surviving lately I feel like I've gotten addicted to it. To the Rush. I mean, I know why. It's all endorphins and adrenaline. I shouldn't trust it I shouldn't love it this much in all it's chemical falseness. But I'm a junkie now. worse stuff to be hooked on I guess. Issue #1, Page 4

Riko like definitely had a crush on Duke at some point and the angst is only further fueling my mind

Not crazy about the alternative cover to Issue #9B[right], it's cute but it feels like it belongs to another plot idea, #9A[left] looks more inline and it's just genuinely one of the coolest covers for this series

I really liked how it felt like all the Robin kids where pretty equal in page time & relevance to the story, I would have like some more of Riko in the later Issues but she did get a whole one to herself with a completely different artist

Focusing on that, Issue #4 is fucking gorgeous, like Jorge Corona's style is so much fun and comicy but the combined work of James Harvey, Diana Egea & Alex Jaffe brings to life a completely different type of very comic/graph novel style. Along with the fact the busyness of it reflects off of Riko's own personality & mentality. The two page spreads, the lack of barely any panel lines b/c each panel just looks that different from each other, the colors & pattern overlays, it's gorgeous and I could go off on a separate post about it another time. It's a shame I don't have all the covers with their style!

Though having Babs specifically be Riko's batgirl doesn't make much sense in a real world timeline but this is comic time soooo, i still would have like Steph to be her batgirl!

Duke has watched the Hobbit, and he thinks of himself as himself as more of the sword guy but he also like Legolas b/c he thinks he's cool & honestly that says alot about Duke's personality

Always thought of myself as more swarthy sword-weilding badass with the five-o'clock shadow. Or at least that elf dude. Yeah... that elf dude had style. Issue #1 Page 3

I've already read these volumes a couple months ago, so coming back to them was refreshing and I'm glad to have them physically, makes them alot easier to read and understand when I have 'em there physically

Also made me learn more about Troy, I thought he was a bit full of himself at first but he was genuinely just a good kid trying to do good, and his failure to do so resulted in his death and it's one of two things that breaks down our group of Robins [the other being Gordon's robo-batman denouncing the We Are Robin movement as a whole]

Troy Walker...Above average student with interests in political activism, history, and philosophy. Issue #4 Back Page 2

I'm pretty sure Duke is the youngest of our group of Robins, like the character summaries at the back of Issue #4, Duke-16, Riko-16, Dax-17, Izzy-17, Troy-17, Dre-17, which I think is one of best realizations I had about this story

No Duke isn't really the leader of WaR I'd say but the end of the series he's more just a working member of the most active group of Robins

By #12 they're very much a "We" "Us" "All" sort of group and saying they have a distinct leader would do them a disservice, though if I remember correctly there was some sort of hierarchy mentioned in the Robin War crossover issues, but we're gonna work around those for a second, at least until I get me hands on them/reread them again

I'd say the leaders are who ever is most determined to be a Robin within the moment, which Duke isn't at the beginning but is later on [round #6 #11 & #12] and even then he's often sharing that drive to be Robin with another Robin [usually Riko honestly]

And I'd say the Robin with the biggest & consistent want are Riko, Shug & Dax, in that order but mainly cause Dax had an era of doubt after Troy died & Robo-Batman denounced them

Riko hallucinates Batgirl and I need that to be talked about, like the hallucination isn't all that strong, purely visual, but it's high-def and it moves like a person and reacts to what she says to it [in the middle of class while a teacher is trying to get her attention mind you] I think the spread where it happens is the 2nd one I put up top

Izzy is actually a very emotional person, and I think she's the first character to cry in the series, [they are literally disarming a highly dangerous explosive and I think that's so valid for her] and honestly non of her emotions are like unwarrented, she's constantly on her last fucking leg, between late nights at her family resturant, combined with homework till 3 and chronically late to school to the point it might get her held back or expelled she's pretty tired with it all

I think my favorite moment for her was when her brother Hector [who she despises but also that's her brother so like] died to that weird Owl-Man Talon thing [which like I'm pretty sure died in Robin War], and when Talon-Man was about to kill Duke & Riko, like her black mascara/eyeshadow tears as she held that thing at gun point where devastating, not to mention it's goading her on & Duke & Riko are trying to get her to drop the gun aswell

Talon: Yes! this one understands the true nature[kill or be killed] of things! Izzy:...Gonna...gonna bury this creep. Tryin' to sell us the future Duke: C'mon, drop the gun! Talon: Pull the trigger, my beautiful killer. Take your first step towards a new world. Izzy: I'll so it...come any closer an I'll-- Issue #6 Page 7

This Issue also cements our Robins and their relationship to batman some more

Riko, Duke & Dax are the leaders in this Issue, more so the 1st two cause Dax doesn't have much page time, but still the sentiment of them not being wannabes/worshipers Batman's like everyone thinks and instead their own group is important here

Talon: Your code...the Bat's code...it is folly...He won't help you. Issue #6 page 5 Riko: Robins don't kill Izzy. You know this. Remember who we are. Talon: Young fool! Your false idol will be your undoing. Riko: Not trying to be like Batman. Trying to be better. Issue #6 page 10

I like Dre he's actually a really interesting guy, and you have to look past all the walls he pulls up [which are interesting in'n'off themselves] and see a kid who wants to be a vigilante, he's one of the leaders for Issues #9 & #10, being his own vigilante & operative after the Robin Laws are passed, he doesn't back down one bit & stays steadfast in his want to help people, going against Smiley in his Joker era as the first Robin to do so

He's just honestly cool, and I like the way he starts as a pessimist to the idea of Nest, but that doesn't fully stop him from wanting to help people, he gets back into it the moment he pulls himself together

I don't think I've brought up Dax properly yet but he's definitely one of the connectors of the group, [the others being Shug & Riko], once he gets out of his early bought of pessimism after Robo-Bat disavows them he is a consistent leader within the group and pushes the others to fucking do something, but his connecting work is mainly done for Izzy & Dre, Izzy when she's in her slump later on, & when Dre when he's running solo without the others, he pulls the wayward birds closer to the rest of the flock

Having read this series & reminiscing on "Batman & The Signal" & "The Outsiders" I don't like the way they portray Duke much at all

Lee Bermejo gets Duke in a way I don't think the other writes really do, this Duke, WaR!Duke, would not have become The Signal, he would have been Lark, and I mourn the lose of what he could of been had he not been pushed into become The Signal, it would have been interesting to see Damian & Tim share Robin with a kid they had to actually deal with, it might have actually forced Tim to move on completely from Robin, it might have gotten Damian more friends, it would have given Duke a more interesting story in my opinion

Okay I'm tired now, so i'm just put my fav covers of the ones I have from this series in left to right descending order of favorite-to-least favorite.

Goodnight! & Happy Holidays everyone!!!!

[chainsawmanicure]

Getting Pizza With the Scarecrow

hey guys. this is a fanfic i had started writing a few months ago about TNBA jon. idk why but i really feel like posting on tumblr dot com and getting some sweet notes. so hear it is.

Trigger warning: talk of food, mention of eating a lot of food (mentioned pizza eating competition), just food stuff mainly, mention of stalking

summary: u go to get pizza, but ur situationship decided to tag along

It was afternoon in Augusta, Georgia, and you were so hungry you could hardly press the gas pedal. Pangs of hunger shot through your quivering frame like bullets through a gun range. As you zoomed down the street, you noticed a sign up ahead: Mellow Mushroom. "oh Thank god," you thought to yourself, "something other than mcdongles...." for your stomach yearned for nourishment, though not from the likes of such an establishment as McDongles. Ough

     Pulling into the parking lot, you felt a strange coldness envelop you. You turned around to see if there was anyone else in the car. Sure enough, in the back seat sat Jonathan Crane... The Scarecrow. your old friend from college. He was tall, so tall you wondered how he'd managed to hide himself in your brand new 2024 Nissan Leaf (I googled compact cars). However he'd managed to, for some reason now he decided to show himself. His face was mangled beyond recognition. You couldn't tell exactly if it was his face or a mask, but his mouth opened and closed along with his words and his big white teeth shone clearly in a permanent  grimace. He was wearing the same wide brim hat, tattered jacket, noose, and tight pants as he usually did, and next to him his big stick laid across the seat.

"Jonathan." you greeted, not too surprised at his appearance. You'd suspected he'd been following you for some time now. At home, you'd noticed patterns of unfamiliar wet bootprints on the floor, and missing items from your trinket box, refrigerator, and massive pile of dirty clothes which had built up in the middle of the bedroom.

     In college, he had displayed an interest in you, often getting a little too close to you and staring at you from across the lecture hall. He'd always had weird ways of showing his interest in you, and expressions of friendship. Well, you weren't really friends. Not anymore, at least...

     Too tired and hungry to properly address him or ask him how he got in your car, you stepped out and started towards the restaurant. You soon heard the car door slam and felt Jonathan's presence behind you once more.

"Hungry?" he asked, stepping beside you as you pushed open the door of the establishment.

"Believe it or not, yes. I think someone's been taking all my soup and bread, and I've had nothing to eat at home." you shot him a mildly accusatory glance after saying this.

Jonathan didn't respond immediately. He knew you were aware of his visits to your apartment. He'd intended it to be that way... a reminder he still cared. A reminder he still remembered.

Jonathan: "Maybe someone wants to know where you buy such lovely soup and bread."

You sighed. "Costco. Now are you seriously going into this joint with me? I'm gonna be arrested for being in kahoots with the Scarecrow."

Jonathan: "Calm yourself. We're in Augusta, Georgia. To these people, I'm just an ordinary freak."

     The person at the table like when you walk in and theyre like ok follow me you know? They smiled politely through fearful eyes up at you and your companion before quickly scuffling away, leading you to an empty table.

The joint was fairly empty, save for three individual men and a young couple sharing a peach iced tea. Jonathan pointed at the couple.

"Perhaps they should've gone to Steak and Shake. They have milkshakes there, better for romantic sharing."

"Shut up, Jonathan. Shut up right now," you replied.

     The host scampered away after leading you to your table, and you were left waiting for the waiter with a set of menus before the two of you.

You sat on one side of the booth, and Jonathan sat across the table from you. You were surprised he hadn't sat next to you and squeezed you against the little wall thing dividing this booth from the one on the other side. That seemed like something he would do, but not today apparently. In fact, other than infiltrating your brand new Nissan Leaf, he had been acting rather civil. Civil, of course, as opposed to the clingy curious and weary endangered animal behavior he had exhibited so many years past.

     You watched as he surveyed the menu, holding it delicately in his big long grey hands. You didn't remember those hands being so grey and so... scary. Even harmlessly holding a pizza menu, they seemed as though they meant to instead hold your throat, to squeeze and squeeze until the lights went out. And by lights going out, I mean like, you die.

     He'd positioned his big stick at the back corner of the booth, and it had fallen so it poked against your shoe under the table. He set the menu down after a moment and spoke in that unearthly rasp of his, "I think I'll get a slice of the Kosmic Karma, and a peach iced tea, like the one those two lovebirds are sharing," he pointed once more to the young couple, who had now finished their first tea and gotten a refill.

"Well, I just want cheese," you said. "I think I'll get a whole pie. I'll take the rest home."

Jonathan chuckled, though with his raspy hush it sounded more like a weak cough.

"Take the rest home..." he repeated humorously, "what makes you think you won't devour the whole thing now?"

     And with that old familiar clingy freak swagger he possessed, he leaned forward and held your chin gently with his big long fingers.

"I think we both know how much of an animal you can be," he teased, though his expression contained zero percent of the flirtation his voice tried to sell. (if that makes like literally any sense at all)

     You swatted his hand away. "That was a long time ago." You hadn't eaten a whole pizza in one sitting since the pizza eating contest of sophomore year... None of your friends were able to attend it, but Jon was there. Oh, yes he was... watching intently with his curious and vaguely frightened eyes as you wolfed down eight slices of sausage pizza in under 7 minutes. He had seen a side of you no one else had really witnessed... seen your wrath, your gluttony, your pride, your... lust.

In the nowtimes, he sat before you, hands flat on the table, beady white pupils boring down into your own normal black ones. His demeanor was cold. He knew you were pushing him away, trying to forget what you two had shared all those fateful years ago. You didn't want to remember, but with him sitting before you, wearing his new sexy skin, you had no choice.

     The waiter arrived and shot the scarecrow a sideways glance before clearing her throat. "Hello, thank you for joining us today. May I ask what you two would like to drink?"

You looked at Jon, but he gestured for you to speak first. "I'll have Dr. Pepper, please." The waiter nodded and turned to Jonathan.

"I'll have the peach iced tea," he didn't shift his gaze from yours for a second, "with two straws."

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lostdrarryfics monthly roundup - Feb 2025

Below you will find the requests we could not locate in the month of February. Please let us know if you recognize any!

You can also browse our lengthy lost fic masterlist, where we have compiled every request we have been unable to find over the past few years. We're always hoping someone will recognize a fic so we can let the asker know what It was!

1. I don’t remember what site it was on but I’m pretty sure it wasn’t ao3 or fanfic.net. The story was about draco who snape and his parents which turned out that Draco was a actually a girl and the potion is what caused her to be a boy and that Lucius had kidnapped her so that he would have an heir. Draco also discovered that she’s a Veela and fleur delacour is her sister. They meet at hogwarts because it takes place during the triwizard tournament. She learns that she is going to slowly become girl again and her birth parents was helping her control her Veela attributes and panics when she’s around Harry something about how he’s alpha it’s not omega verse I think it’s meant to be a Veela thing. I didn’t make it too far sadly but I also remember that the Malfoys were arrested for what they did and Harry figured out that the person they kidnapped was draco when Ron is being mean to draco.

2. post-war fic where andy dies and drarry are given custody of teddy. draco lives in france so temporarily moves into grimmauld place. it's very enemies to lovers vibes - then draco says he needs to go back to france and wants to take teddy, harry misunderstands and thinks he is taking him away and gets angry. draco leaves alone and when he comes back he does not move back in. rest of the story is them making up! sorry this is all the info i recall. would probs be ao3!

3. post-war au, where harry finds out draco worked in a muggle cafe. when he finds out about how draco was no longer welcome in the wizarding world, he fights for them to let him back in. at one point, draco’s cafe is burned down and he basically loses all will to live/do anything. at the end, harry helps draco create a new cafe for both wizards and muggles alike. thanks! (also pretty sure its on ao3?)

4. 8th year multi-chapter angst w a happy ending fic where draco had no friends and is bullied. there was one specific scene where ron is called on in class and says to ask draco, saying something like “someone who doesnt have any friends must spend a lot of time studying.” after class, harry catches draco crying (who denies it) by pulling open his bed curtains and consoles him. (i am pretty sure it was on ao3!!)

5. it was definitelly on ao3, and im pretty sure its completed but i could be wrong. the premise is that in this world people have soulmates, and people can somehow sense their soulmate from a very young age (i cant remember if its via a soulmark or some sort of emotional bond). and since harry has a disturbing childhood little draco i guess tries to comfort him and does it by sending some kind of bird? maybe it was like a bird made out of light or magic or something like that, and maybe he sends some other things of that nature to harry? and *possibly* child draco even comes to privet drive to seek out harry, or maybe the adult malfoys decide to save little harry and take him to malfoy manor. i dunno, maybe im merging different summaries

6. Fic that I read a long time ago and I couldn't find it again. I remember that the name was Thunder and I don't know if it was a translation made by perlanegra/perlitanegra or it was one of her stories. Basically it was about Harry going back to the 8th year and meeting Draco and little by little they become friends, I also remember that they went to the Muggle world for a date and that when Ron finds out that they are together he creates a terrible scandal and Harry takes Draco away in a lightning bolt? or something like that, the fight takes place in Ron's house, also that Harry didn't control his magic well.

7. fic i read a few years ago, i‘d guess between 2020-2022. it’s an 8th year, post-war fic set in hogwarts. as far as i remember, in it draco is required to attend his final year as part of his probation. i don’t remember much except that draco has a rough time being bullied and there’s a scene where he’s either randomly attacked by students or harry asks him to be part of some sort of DA-adjacent arrangement (maybe draco needs to practice his patronus and it ends up being a swan or something?) and draco has a sort of flashback to being held at malfoy manor/ attacked by either greyback or voldemort during it. i just remember the description of his pupils being blown out with fear. throughout the fic, harry and draco become friends, go to their classes together etc. there’s a scene where they’re in the snow near the whomping willow later on too.

8. looking for this fix it fic where draco stays with harry and the dursleys, and he forces harry to have a hobby, baking i think. and like since then throughout hogwarts years, harry... bakes. like a lot. its not "faerie felicities" though, its smth else i think.. i might be mixing up 2 different works, mind.

9. Harry and Draco were in a relationship and Draco was divorced from Astoria. They had Scorpius. Astoria tried to plant the seed of doubt in Draco about how she couldn't construct a relationship with her son if she wasn't living with him. When Draco brought up the idea Harry had said he wouldn't allow it and Draco accused him of not trusting and thinking he will "fall in bed with her" . Harry said he will move out if she ever comes to live with them. Then Scorpius saw Draco going away and told Harry and Harry thought Draco made up his mind and he started to pack but then Draco came and explained everything. It was on ao3 but I can't find it

10. It's a Drarry mpeg, Draco is the one who gets pregnant with scorpius, it's an 8th year fic. When Harry kills Voldemort his animagus changes from stag into a wolf because of Voldemort's magic and harry's animagus absorbs it. There's some prophecy that there will be a wolf who will bring peace to the creature world and that's why harry is like royalty and everyone respects him and creatures bow down to him. There's also a scene where Draco gets lost in the forbidden forest and some centaurs (ig) finds him they they felt he is an intruder but harry comes and tells them Draco is his mate and parent of his unborn child and they all were like sorry. Everyone knows Draco is pregnant but no ones knows harry is the dad, in the story the school believed that since Draco is now harry's friend that's why he protects him. Ron and Hermione aren't happy with harry but I remember Hermione comes around on scorpius's first birthday, also scorpius grows faster than normal kids for first weeks because of harry's powerful animagus. And at first harry thought Ron would be scorpius godfather but because of how he behaved he made Blaise the god father. Later Lucius finds out about Draco and he and a death eater (maybe he was a professor idk) but they harm Draco in front of the whole school by using cruciatus curse on him and harry turns into a wolf and kills the death eater. And here everyone finds out harry is the other father when scorpius calls him daddy. Harry and Draco also have a hidden dorm which no one knows the location of but one day Hermione follows harry and that's when Hermione finds out, it was scorpius first birthday party when she comes there. The story ends by the end of 8th year and they had to leave but scorpius didn't want to because he was born here and he knew Hogwarts as his home, but harry tells him that they all will always be together and they were just leaving one home and going to another and they then leave for Hogwarts express. Both Harry and Draco wake up from a dream in Snape's potions class where they shared a dream together and snape tells them to write a 3 foot essay on what they dreamt. Both Harry and Draco leave class and then Draco asks harry if he saw it all too with scorpius and harry said yes and both were very happy and satisfied.

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I’ve been dying to ask about bash extravaganza. I desperately need to know how the most authority avoidant hedgehog in existence ended up with not one, not even two, but FOUR adoptive parents.

(No I’m not asking in hopes of curing my writer’s block why do you ask)

okay so (cracks knuckles)

the biggest difference between Bash and Beyond is that in Bash, the most recent game on the timeline was Forces. this seems small but it is actually incredibly extensive because forces is the game where the developers just casually dropped hey, Sonic has been prisoner for six months, and Eggman has been torturing him for fun!

when we actually see him, sonic is seemingly unaffected by his captivity. he breaks himself out of his cell in style (in front of cages just like his, which are packed with hundreds if not thousands of other people, who he was presumably caged alongside for the entire six months) and when he reunites with the resistance, they ship him out to battle immediately after they confirm he's with them and alive. he barely gets five minutes to breathe

so, a lot of this is simply forces's bad writing. bashwise, I figured that if he was that nonchalant during his escape and willing to go into active combat so soon, he must have been holding down all that frustration and pain for the entirety of his tenure. there were other people there, after all, people who needed him. if he broke, they'd lose what little hope they had left.

forces is the game that teaches sonic, accidentally or otherwise, that his friends need him to be alright. he loses one fight, and they lose the whole world.

(I have extensive thoughts on how Sonic's loss and capture affected each one of his friends, but you asked about Sonic so I'm focusing on Sonic because otherwise we'll be here all day)

bash extravaganza also has the smash bros timeline to contend with, and as I've said in a previous post, World of Light happened almost immediately after Forces. for Sonic, the Bash Extravaganza tournament has traditionally been a break for him. it's on a completely different planet, and all of his friends there aren't from his home. they know him for his heroics, yes, but all of them are known for heroics (or villainy, as it were), so it cancels out. after Forces, he accepts his invitation to the tournament to get away from it all, just for a while.

and then World of Light happens.

but OKAY, its FINE, he can HANDLE world of light its FINE (don't look at the Robotnik and Infinite spirits. don't think about him having to contend with those two and team up with them so soon after they tried to ruin his life. don't LOOK AT IT.)

AND THEN, the year after WoL, the campaign starts.

The thing about Bash Extravaganza year 1 is that, well. This is a d&d campaign. it needs a BBEG. so, naturally, on the tournament's opening day, it gets attacked by an unknown enemy, Kiatro (this enemy is original to the campaign, i would ask our dm, @aviaviator for information on them if you're curious, but it's not wholly relevant to this rant). while we're dealing with Kiatro, though, people start running their own events with their own smaller overarching villains; monokuma (Danganronpa) teams up with Alina Gray (Magia Record) and it's a whole thing. Alina starts dating Junko, it's exactly as fucked as it sounds. there are a shitload of other people attacking the tournament as well, but this was almost five years ago in real life by now so i don't remember all of them. but, basically, it's a lot.

so, to recap

this clusterfuck is happening a year after World of Light, which in turn happened a few weeks after Forces. Sonic went from one war, into another, into another.

and throughout all of this, he's carried the one lesson that forces beat into him for six months: you have to be able to handle it. You have to be able to handle it. You cannot lose. You are not allowed to lose, not even once.

(if this seems out of character, it's because it... Honestly kind of is; sonic isn't acting like himself, and that's exactly why it sunk in so recently on the timeline, exactly why he's now making an active effort to peel it away, and exactly why these are the single worst days of his life.)

but, of course, not even he can carry that perfectly. eventually people start catching on.

the main reason sonic gets adopted by mario and peach is because he's actually known them since he was very young (another difference between Bash and Beyond. think around the transition between the Classic and Adventure eras) and they've had time to wear him down. he doesn't consider them his parents until the events of the campaign, but they're his friends, he knows them, on some level he trusts them. they're long-time veterans in the heroic field. if anyone understands the weight he carries, it's them.

he meets layton and jodariel during the campaign year 1 tournament itself. layton, mystery game protagonist that he is, starts picking up on Sonic's emotional repression like. two weeks in, and he starts working to establish rapport and trust to urge him to. y'know. get help for allat. layton is, ultimately, someone that he can't lie to.

jodariel adopts him and Tails like the day after they meet. she just doesn't tell him about it. sonic is endeared to her slowly, admittedly, after the other three have already opened him up, but the fact that she is incredibly eager to threaten eggman at spear-point on his behalf does help. she's someone who can handle things that have traditionally been his job and his job alone

the keystone in all of this is that none of them are people he actually views as authority. none of them try to put themselves above him. his parents were all his friends first and foremost, and even to this day he doesn't really see them as authority, but they're people that have never made him feel like he has to pretend around them. they not only protect him, but they encourage him to be himself, and in the wake of Forces that's the one thing that's slowly been taken away from him.

it's important to recognize that Sonic didn't know what the fuck to make of this at first. like, it's not something he's ever had before! what the fuck does he do with it? huh??? huh????? it's like bringing a feral dog or cat inside. it knows on some level that this is better than where it was before but also what the fuck. WHAT the fuck. who are you what are you doing to me. like. this campaign has been going on for five years and he STILL doesn't really know what to make of it all.

but the main reason he trusts them is because they're the people who have never tried to make him act like something he's not, or something he can't be. they're people who are there in situations where he would've otherwise been alone in a crowd. they don't ask anything of him, they're just there for him if he needs them, and no one has been there for him before.

because, like, he's come to terms about a lot of the fucked up shit that happened to him, but there are still things where he went "hm. hey this was kinda fucked up. this was a fucked up thing that happened to me/that someone did to me." and there was no one who he could grieve that with except for these four so he just kept it to himself. (if you want an example besides Forces, i would look into Sonic Battle if you haven't already. im not sure if you've played it, and what I'm referring to is pretty major spoilers, but if you have seen it let me know and i'll elaborate on it). they don't make him feel like he has to feel terrible about anything, but if he did and he wasn't able to express that to anyone before, he is now.

i guess what I'm getting at is that Sonic's parents are his friends first and foremost, they're just friends who have slowly been able to teach him that he can collapse in front of them without the world ending. i suppose he's less like their child in the traditional sense and more like the street cat who knows that if he needs food, shelter, affection, or help, he goes to their house. they let him be free, they let him go where he wants and do as he pleases, but they're there if he needs them.

so the answer to your question is that the authority avoidant hedgehog got four parents because his parents have never given him any reason to see them as authority. they're people he cares about, and people who he knows care about him. it took time (this campaign has been going on for five years and there are still things he hasn't told them), and he still doesn't live with any of them permanently (and likely never will), but they let him be himself, even when "himself" is someone no one has ever known how to handle, not even Sonic.

(and to address something that came up in Beyond, yes, sonic is technically a Prince in Bash, but he has the freedom to completely ignore that title. he's also the King of Camelot, but half of the citizens there hate him anyway (see: Worst of knights, slayer of kings) and it's not like they could ever make him do anything he doesn't want to do. he just Left. he's still technically king, but it's not something he really cares about. people give him weird nicknames all the time, it doesn't mean he has to answer to them.

he has the confidence to assert that his place in the world is exactly where he wants it to be, not where they say it is. prince and king are just words to him, they don't mean shit and they can't make it mean shit. even if the paperwork says he has a given title, he's the sort of person to pick and choose what he wants and discard everything else, regardless of what the "right" way of doing things is. he says "im not a prince" and that's the end of the conversation, why would he let a sheet of paper tell him what to do? sonic, i feel, is the sort of person who never feels like he has to defend himself to people very much. they're free to think of him as whatever, but it doesn't change who he is, it just makes them wrong, and why should he care if they're wrong?)

[safe-from-sharp-teeth]

Ayo! I haven't answered asks in FOREVER, so it's time for some spring cleaning :) Also answering other stuff, like what I've been up to.

If you sent an ask and it's not here, sorry! I may have deleted it because the prompt required too much work of me and I wasn't feeling it, or I was uncomfortable.

Let's gooooo !

Firstly - where have I been? Work REALLY picked up in a way I wasn't expecting over the last...4 months? I was working double and often triple the hours I was used to. With work, vacations, random illnesses, and many video games I got a bit too obsessed with, this blog took a backseat. Plus, sometimes I get disinterested in vore when obsessed with something else. Sometimes, that lasts months, and it did this time.

But now I can confirm that work will FINALLY chill for a long period of time. I'm free! And more motivated than ever! Wahoo! Thanks for your support ALWAYS.

Next big question - when am I going to do more of my story? The one with Asyr? AHHHHHGHHGHH this story has consumed my life. I think about it daily. I dream about it. And yet I'm not as comfortable writing as I am drawing, so writing is a slow process that my perfectionist ass struggles with. I can assure you that there is a story in the works - and I am working on it at a snail's pace.

Okay, ask time...

@ponyluvesonic09 AYO maybe I'll make a full ghost pred pros/con list for you, because that sounds awesome! Kir//by is one of the silliest canon preds out there. Honestly getting eaten by him would be like getting vored by a vacuum, LOL. Galaxy tummy!! Imagine a prey floating around in one of those item bubbles all grumpy. Thank u for the ask, this is good stuff.

no. ( /・・)ノ

UWAGHHHHH I LIKE HER!!! Never played O/verwat/ch but what a gem!! I have a random fondness for centaur-like preds nowadays. She looks so cozy. THANK U I LOVE HER!!!

@tiger9o0 I have not played r//ain w//orld or know what it's about, LOL. Looks like a platformer? Man, I'm terrrriiiiibblleee at those. But whoever this is on the cover, I LIKE EM. A+. (That might not answer ur question shdjbghkjg SORRY)

@heimkoheimkofan LOVE THAT I GOT THE ROBOT ENJOYERS AFTER THAT ONE POST....YES yall are so right and I'm so wrong for just hard metal robot tums. I will rectify my mistake soon I PROMISE. Also oh! You were the one asking about stomachs other than elemental ones! IVE HAD THAT IN MY DRAFTS FOREVER IM SORRY AHHHH. I REALLY love your imagination with tums and you've inspired me to think of some awesome environments! THANKS

@fastfur07 BWAH?? Ugh I'm all over the place when it comes to art. Some pieces take 30 min (like the zangooc I drew at the top of this post), most take 2 days. Some really hard drawings like my wolf bat creechur from a few months ago and my shrimp from last year took a month. THANK U??

We're going back so far that I think this is about my naga oc (which I'm in the midst of redesigning cough cough). For him, he would never tolerate being prey, extremely unwilling bahaha. In general, I haven't thought much about naga or snake prey! I get the appeal of slurping up a noodle, but I just prefer human prey :)

@fastfur07 you fiend, you always give me the best drawing ideas. UNFORTUNATELY, I didn't have time to draw something for this one. BUTTTT....

(i've had this next one in my drafts for forever)

then i had a silly comic. I'll post the wip here because I won't finish it, so enjoy bahaha.

@blizzaria123-blog THANK U im rapidly melting into a puddle from ur words

@mrpotatomanversionsix relevant. i will continue drawing them 4 u

?!??!!??!?!??!?!?!??!?!? how dare u enter my ask box with this blasphemy

@sfwsillynoms WAH!!! you!!! I'm currently redesigning my naga oc but when I finish I'll tag you, if you're still around! And he can 100% be drawn with ur preysona :)

@mystorl i am SO late to this, but SMART. I like it. I shall give my lil guy this friend. I just want to let u know that I see this and it's wonderful and I will do something abt it.

I remember this ask made me laugh a ton when I first got it. thank u. idk why I find this so funny

@sillylilprey IM CRYING RIGHT BACK AHHHH this is an ancient ask, but thank u! hope you're still enjoying!

@terrytheinsane finally, the last ask in my askbox. I love it. You have been wronged with how long it took me to answer you. I have gained knowledge from your ask. THANKS

AND THAT'S IT!! Thanks guys, I hope to make you proud! Feel free to send more asks, and hopefully I will answer in a TIMELY manner.

Goodnight! And remember: Nice Vore ᕕ༼⌐■-■༽ᕗ

[dxmedstudent]

I haven't been on Tumblr in a while but wanted to check how you're doing! How is married life treating you and how is work- I remember last time you were applying for GP training! I'm just coming to the end of F1 :)

Me neither, Anon! Honestly? I have been meaning to come back to Tumblr a while ago, but life has been busy! I had tried to spend less time on socual media so i could focus on my membership exams, and that went too well.

Time flies, I can't believe it's been more than 10 years since I joined tumblr or graduated from med school.

I can't remember which updates I've already shared, so I'll make a list.

Married life is great - pretty similar to pre-married life. Because we started off in different cities due to my training and covid, it's honestly just a joy to live together and be able to hang out. I've been meaning to post a couple of anonymised wedding photos. It still feels amazing that we managed to get all the people we love together. We also managed to fly out to my birth country so that DxDude could meet my relatives...most of whom don't speak English. It was hilarious and lovely and he took being mobbed by an army of Eastern European Babushkas very well.

We adopted a cat! His owner died suddenly and my parents sort of got left with the cat. It was at a difficult time, as it was around the time my beloved cat passed away last year. I still miss her. But I couldn't let someone's baby, a lovely senior cat, live out his last days in a shelter. He's a little 14ish year old man called Sherlock. He loves being held and sitting on my shoulders and he drools when he gets excited. We've been trying to discourage his habit of nipping you when he wants something.

My houseplants and balcony plants may be slowly getting out of control, but I'm happy I have lots of them, and i would have more if we weren't running out of space. I'm currently waging a war against mealybugs. Send thoughts and prayers.

I did get into GP training! And it was local to where I wanted to be, which made it much easier to finally move in together. In fact, I JUST finished GP training a couple of weeks ago and am now living my GP dreams working in one of the practices that I trained in. It's very inner city London. Our patients have complex needs, and I'm honoured to ve in a team that have a lot of experience serving patients affected by substance abuse, homelessness and refugee populations and other complex issues.

We went on Honeymoon to Japan! It was amazing, and I'd still love to go again. I was bold enough to arrange my Honeymoon to be barely a month before a postgraduate exam, but I passed!

This past academic year has been filled with sitting exams and jumping through the hoops required for my eportfolio. On top of working full time as a GP. I didn't think I would do it all first time TBH, but my supervisor had more faith in me than I did. It's honestly been amazing to work for a few jobs in GP training where I felt seen and wanted and where my hard work was appreciated. I can't believe my supervisor offered me my current job, and wanted me to stay on, but they did!

I finished a diploma in sexual and reproductive health and trained in fitting contraceptive implants. I'd like to train up to fit IUDs also to try to improve local access to sexual health services.

I went on strike these past couple of years, when the junior doctors went on strike again. I'm still processing the pay offer and the new government. But I'm relieved we're no loner under the Tories.

We'd like to move house, but we've not gotten around to trying to do this seriously, because my life was already stressful enough. We do need more space, and I hope we'll find somewhere modestly nice that we can afford.

We're trying for kids, and it's sadly taking much longer than we hoped. Being a patient is...a slow and frustrating experience because it already feels like I've had to work harder than I should to advocate for appropriate care. I could say a LOT about the postcode lotteries that come with UK fertility care but I'll leave that for another post.

I've finally accepted that my hair is wavy, and I'm trying out different products to lean into the natural waves and bring them out without leaving it a frizzy Hermione-esque mess. It spent tge past years mostly in a plait or cadet bun, but I'm finally giving my hair a bit more freedom. I have NOT yet accepted that my hair is mostly white at this point. I alternate between wanting to go grey (because that would look cool) and wanting to stay brown because that's kind of how I've imagined myself for the past 35+ years.

I finally get to indulge in painting my nails. I've loved it since I was like 13 and seeing my nails sparkly and colorful brings out my inner 13 year old and she is thrilled. Every time I make my nails glow in the dark, I show them off to DxDude before bed.

My laptop died and then I inherited an old laptop from my parents which is also dying. Which is part of the reason I haven't created much art in recent years. I should probably just bite the bullet and buy a new one, but my exams and diplomas have been expensive so I've been putting it off. To be fair I also made the decision to use my limited free time to keep up with friends and family IRL and try not to feel bad about taking a break from creating. I felt like I was blaming myself for not managing to do everything I wanted to do. I've slowly accepted that none of us can do everything.

I think that's it for now. Looking forward to catching up with what medblr are up to 😃

[aspecpplarebeautiful]

I figured out I was aroace years ago. A friend of mine a few months ago said something that I can't really figure out how to paraphrase. They implied the feeling of being (romantically) loved was more joyful and meaningful than that of being cared for, that only having a romantic life partner would prove they were worth caring about for life, that having a girlfriend made them feel cared for for once. And now I am going through a little bit of a crisis about being aro because I think I have unfortunately internalised these words and I don't know how to get them out.

I KNOW they are wrong. But I can't stop doubting and feeling like maybe because I'll never make anyone feel that way I'll never be worth anything to everyone. I know platonic love can be just as meaningful and that people don't even inherently need love. I've seen so many aro positivity posts showing this isn't the case but suddenly I can't remember any of them or find them any more. I don't know how to reassure myself.

I love your blog. For years, it's helped me in ways I can't begin to describe. Thank you.

I feel where you're coming from, Anon. Unfortunately I think this is a more popular viewpoint than it really should be, and when you start actively looking for it you see it in a lot of places. But it's one thing to know and understand logically that it's not really true, it's another to understand it and feel it on an emotional level, and I think this happens a lot when you're bombarded with that kind of messaging. What we see and hear from people around us and media we consume can have a huge effect on how we feel things emotionally, even if we're not conscious of it.

I think you're on the right track looking for aro posts that counter this messaging, even if you're having trouble finding the ones you were looking for. I would also look into aro communities (even just lurking) and aro blogging like Arocalypse or Carnival of Aros. Or check out media with aro characters, like podcasts (edit: looks like this list is behind a paywall now, but I found another list that has a lot of the same podcasts listed here) or books. Or seek out media that's more focused on things like found family or things other than romance. And pay attention to what kind of messaging its sending around romance, or if it's treating romance as the only important connection or a more important connection than platonic ones, take a break from it for now until you're in a better headspace.

And then just try and be more aware yourself, and actively counter it when you see it. Journaling can be helpful for this, but even just taking some time to consciously remind yourself when you see this kind of messaging or finding yourself thinking it and consciously going 'that's not right' can help too.

And remember that romance and romantic connections are just a thing, some people get a lot out of them, and some people don't. And some people have deep romantic connections and some don't or have other connections that are the most important to them. Some people have really good romantic experiences and some people have really bad ones, or a mix or everything in between. Just like a lot of other aspects of life.

I'm really glad to hear my blog's been so helpful to you! Hopefully this is too. All the best, and good luck!

[yurisorcerer]

I'm not gonna pretend I have anything super new or innovative to say about Mobile Suit Gundam. It's one of the most-analyzed anime ever, and I pale in comparison to some of the people who *have* analyzed it, but here I am, thinking about it regardless.

For context, I am watching this as part of a---as she called it---"comet swap" with my good friend @charaznablespeteevee, where I watch a mecha anime she is obsessed with (Gundam) and she watches one I am obsessed with (Code Geass). I'm not sure if I'm going to write a big long post like this about every episode (since I'm going to *try* to watch at least one per day, that would get quite exhausting), but I am liveblogging it more informally over on the worst website on Earth, if you're willing to put up with that Nazi-infested hellhole long enough to read some posts from yours truly.

In any case, Gundam and Code Geass. are many differences between these, the main ones being that Code Geass is more recent and also not widely hailed as a masterpiece of its form. It does *draw* notably from Gundam though despite having very different artistic aims and a different tone, so watching this makes sense in a way. I spent way too much of my teenagerhood obsessed with Lelouch, and now I'm watching the anime that his archetypal grandfather came from. (Goddess have mercy on my soul.)

My experience with Gundam as a franchise prior to this is very limited, but I do have some. For reference, I have seen all of:

Gundam 00, back when it aired on the SyFy channel when they had an anime block many years ago. I really liked this as a teenager but I don't remember it super well.

The Witch From Mercury, lesbian space combat, with a notable Code Geass staff connection. WFM was not perfect or anything but I loved it a lot and Suletta is very dear to me. I actually bought an Aerial gunpla a few months ago that is currently sitting unassembled in my closet.

the first Gundam 0079 compilation movie. Now, it might seem weird that I've seen this and am now going back to watch the TV series. But, while I remember the general outline of what happened, I was SUPER sick when I watched it, and I only remember what happened really, really vaguely. While I have some idea of the general outline of what's to come, I'm mostly going in genuinely blind.

like 4 or 5 episodes of Victory Gundam, which I liked but kind of fell off of. So we're giving the franchise a proper second go here.

I'm a mecha fan more generally, and I'll get into some of that as I write these, but for now that's the relevant stuff.

Anyway, my main impression of 0079's first episode is actually a structural one. It's REALLY well put together. We introduce the setting, we introduce our main characters, and we introduce the main conflict, all very economically and with a lot of style---more style than some shows with significantly less room to work with manage, in fact---and I'm immediately invested in the fate of our main character, Amuro Ray.

From what I gather here (and a little bit from outside information), my impression is that of a kid who loses his innocence very, very rapidly over the course of this story. Here, the space-hab-thing he lives on is attacked, and he ends up in the cockpit of an experimental superweapon called a Gundam (maybe you've heard of them?). I LOVE how the Gundam is framed here, like some kind of genuinely scary war machine. It's an intentionally othering effect i mostly associate with later mecha anime, especially those with outright monstrous mecha like Evangelion or even The Big O, so to see it here in such a comparatively early series in the genre is impressive.

The episode's climax sees him kill two soldiers from the enemy nation of Zeon, but it's not a triumphant thing, really. He's portrayed as kind of not really knowing what he's doing, flailing around inside this gigantic walking tank / mechanical war god. But then when he *does* figure things out, well, he has to deal with the fact that he just killed two dudes. Going by the cliffhangery ending here, it doesn't seem like his troubles are over, either.

[touchstoneaf]

continued from previous post:

... At one point i also thought, "You know, maybe the system's so screwed that burning it down and starting over again is the only way forward... so let it burn, right? Better with a bang than with a whimper". I knew, as i do now, that we're far past peak oil anyway, and that if we had wanted to switch from fossil fuels to anything remotely renewable, we would have had to create the jobs and build the infrastructure years ago. That part is still worryingly true... but i know now what i hadn't even thought of then. That if the system falls apart because i was cheering it along... that would be a death-sentence for millions. People i loved who needed even one pill per day to stay alive, or stay sane. People I loved who needed access to assistive devices, or insulin, or inhalers, to stay alive. People who need access to doctors, and who couldn't for instance join a farming commune, like i hoped to do. I was naive. I lived on rural property where i might've made a go at it, with the people around me. I'm glad to say it didn't even take becoming one of the myriad people who need a pill a day to survive or stay sane (though that did finally occur, because we are all just a health-step away from depending on the system to survive, and pretending otherwise is the province of the young and the ableist). It didn't take Cheeto Voldemort telling us he was turning LITERALLY EVERYTHING into a pre-existing condition. It just took realizing that... i didn't want to lose all these people i loved who actually needed the system. My mother, with her heart meds, my friends, my chosen family. That we couldn't all just prance off to create a commune, because most of us are autistic, or have ADHD, or mental health struggles, because i surround myself with beautiful (God Bless The) Freaks. So, now I know. And i'm passing this truth on to you, if you weren't there. If you are too young to remember. Something it took me till 38 to realize, somehow. That IF WE WANT A THIRD PARTY OPTION, WE HAVE TO CREATE IT IN *BETWEEN* PRESIDENTS, WITH A SITTING DEM... and NOT just a few months from the Presidential election. We can't just blithely wish a plausible third party option into being by voting it and crossing our fingers. And, more importantly, I can't survive another of his Presidencies. No one I love can. At least one person YOU love can't, and won't. THE WHOLE WORLD CANNOT SURVIVE IT. Don't make the mistake i did in 2016. THIS IS HAPPENING, the WAY it is happening, whether we like it or not. It's too late to change it this time around. So, VOTE; and vote KAMALA, not Kennedy or some other impossible longshot. Don't stay home, don't screw this up. Your life, my life, their lives in the wider world? LITERALLY depends on it. No second chances.

I promise you. Not being melodramatic. You don't want the remorse. And you don't want to die. And neither do I. Sooner or later this will touch us all. Vote while you still can. You literally may never get another chance.