#when will my motivation return from war

[the-unending-journey]

Life update:

[dailykeiji]

sorry for not posting much i have unfortunately been really really depressed. and also very tired

[rubynymphyy]

Pokeddexy Day 26: Starter!

Marzipan, he/him, gentle & finicky. while a star performer and devastating in battle, his public celebrity persona is way more energetic than his actual personality. something of a trustworthy and reliable older brother and leader type to the team? while he is finicky about getting certain things just right and has multiple pet peeves, he doesn’t scold, he just sort of... looks disappointed at everyone until they scramble to fix it.

meowscarada beloved!!!! It was so hard to design him because meowscarada are... basically wearing a super cool outfit already it's hard to be original. I will never escape the transparent poofy pants/sleeves with opaque patterns... never. meowscarada is Like That so marzipan had to be at least a little bit sexy.... so garter thigh highs and poofy short shorts it is.

[bluestjayy]

Taking bets on if I will finish Day One of my own kinktober prompt list before the end of October

[oh-no-another-idea]

Find the word tag

Thank you for the tag @starlit-hopes-and-dreams! <3 I'll find contrast, cheek, choose/chose, and chill from the Invisible Girl...

Contrast:

The voice belonged to a tall man wearing a sharp black fedora hat and suit. In contrast, his skin was milky pale and his eyes a frighteningly light gray. There wasn’t a spot of color anywhere to be found on him.

Cheek:

“You’re a stowaway, aren’t you,” Antonio said, having followed Velia and come to the same conclusion as she.       Fynn stood, the dim lighting casting dark shadows under his cheekbones. “I don’t know what you’re talking about. I was simply trying to take a nap.” “Oh, I don’t mind,” Antonio was quick to add. “Ms. Greene is a stowaway too and she and I are well on our way to being friends.”

Choose:

“Where does it end?” Lewis demanded, throwing his hands up. “I go home to my tiny drafty flat where I can barely pay the bills, and Fynn supports his whole family and Paris has one too many accidents and loses a finger, and Velia gets trampled to death by a horse—” “It ends with us,” Antonio interrupted, before Velia’s imagined death could get any worse. “It ends where we choose it to.”     

Chill:

On the station platform, it was impossible to believe Velia was still in the city. Fog, thick enough to be masquerading as pea soup, swam and mingled with the steam rolling off the locomotive waiting on the tracks. Nearby lamps blinked feebly, and Velia’s nice maroon jacket wasn’t enough to keep her warm. Or maybe that was just fear chilling her bones.

Open tag for any who see it, and also gentle tags for @sarandipitywrites @enchanted-lightning-aes @lady-grace-pens @on-noon @cherrybombfangirlwrites @wrenofthewords @sleepyowlwrites @lena-rambles and @rhikasa -- your words are talk, bottle, sail, honor, and open 🌈

[kaleidoru]

I am still suffering burnout and not feeling inspired and all I'm really doing is just sketching Memes and Crack so anyway me and my gf are enabling each other's brain rot and her mortal maid has made it her life's mission to troll my angsty pining angel dude until he breaks and we've been living for it

[highbrasshighkass]

every day I open my notebook, write two and a half more sentences spread across four different wips, strike out said sentences, sigh, and close the notebook

[wyverningx]

in the throes of writer's block tbqh

[xawkward-ariesx]

So far this week I've written for my time travel tvd au, written for my kennett soulmates lost things au, posted some dimension hopping rose thoughts, started a view to a kill fix it and started a follow up to day 1 from the doctor who fic writing marathon......

I just wanted to finish the next chapter of Golden Girl

[driftwoodskeleton]

behold! the most amazing banana and chocolate flake yogurt creation ever! there was the flakes of approx 3 yogurts in one pot bc the other two had exploded in transport. truly an icon of food.

also featuring two ponies i drew bc frankly i think they're cute and ive had no drive to draw anything for at least 6 months. ive been reliably informed that at least one of the names already belongs to a Canon pony so rip to that 😭 idk, i just think they're neat

thank u for reading:)

[axolgodl]

Me writing fanfic, except the WIP is now 40k words long, burnout has stolen my motivation to continue, and we haven’t even gotten to the part in the outline where he fucking says it yet

would he fucking say that? let's investigate.

[circumference-pie]

@ylylyli

You might have seen this already. Basically, I made a post about how horrified and pained Jiang-papa would be to find out Xie Wei had chased his little girl into the palm of his hand after all. Many people had superb additions to it, and if I can I'd like to turn it into a little ficlet. Maybe "5 times Jiang Boyou was in denial and one time he was just angry," or "Let's go! Stages of grief with Jiang-daren," or "Nothing so undoing as a daughter."

Anyway, the only thing in the doc that's not in the post is a note to myself:

The catalyst is Jiang Boyou hearing someone say: "Xie-daren always gets what he wants."

Sorry there's not much new.

Ask me about my WIPs

[vincentsleftear]

Feening for another update on this fic so badly istg I check my mailbox 20 times a day

[tamedgod]

i'm just here to drop this picrew and run —

[ohisms]

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐈 𝐒𝐄𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐄 . ( a collection of dialogue prompts from the film the hobbit : the desolation of smaug . adjust phrasing as necessary . )

this is no chance meeting , is it , [ name ] ?

take back your homeland .

what if i were to help you reclaim it ?

that's not the worst of it .

we have another problem .

what did i tell you ? quiet as a mouse .

will you just listen ? i'm trying to tell you there's something else out there .

the bear is unpredictable , the man can be reasoned with .

come away from there , it's not natural . none of it .

it's obvious , he's under some dark spell .

you'll be safe here tonight ... i hope .

we grow in number , we grow in strength .

death will come to all .

there are others like you ?

you're running out of time .

a darkness lies upon that forest .

i would not venture there except in great need .

go now while you have the light .

this forest feels ... sick . as if a disease lies upon it .

something moves in the shadows unseen , hidden from our sight .

if our enemy has returned , we must know .

i would not do this unless i had to .

you've changed , [ name ] .

you must stay on the path . do not leave it . if you do , you'll never find it again .

is there no end to this accursed forest ?

we're going around in circles , we are lost .

the sun . we have to find the sun .

we're being watched .

they're growing bolder .

not just a thief , but a liar as well .

i myself suspect a more prosaic motive .

i have seen how you treat your friends .

you turned away from the suffering of my people .

a hundred years is a mere blink in the life of an elf . i'm patient . i can wait .

did he offer you a deal ?

shh ! there are guards nearby .

you were supposed to be leading us out , not further back in !

are you mad ? they'll find us .

please . please , you must trust me .

this is not a nice place to meet .

why now , [ name ] ? i don't understand .

a human sorcerer could not summon such evil .

in our blindness , the enemy has returned .

the enemy is preparing for war .

i started this . i cannot forsake them , they are in grave danger .

you want me to cast my friends aside ?

i think we've outrun the orcs .

we've no weapons to defend ourselves .

do it again , and you're dead .

what makes you think i would help you ?

no doubt you have some hungry mouths to feed .

oh , come on - enough of the niceties .

i would like to know who you are . and what you're doing in these lands .

we need food , supplies ... weapons . can you help us ?

i'd wager there are ways to enter that town unseen .

for that , you'd need a smuggler .

there was more he could have told us .

i don't care what he calls himself , i don't like him .

we don't have to like him , we just have to pay him .

i've been bled dry by this adventure ! and what have i seen for my investment ?

if you value your freedom , you'll do as i say .

folk in this town are suffering .

you'd do well to remember ; we know where you live .

it's a small town , [ name ] , everyone knows where everyone lives .

who would have the nerve to question my authority ?

you promised us weapons .

death ! that is what you'll bring upon us .

have you forgotten what happened to [ name / location ] ?

let us not be so quick to lay blame .

join us when you're healed .

[ name ] , you belong with the company .

i belong with my brother .

we have no time to wait , we're on our own .

the evil that is hidden here ... i command it reveal itself .

you have keen eyes , [ name ] .

let all those who doubted us rue this day !

i know these walls ... these halls , this stone .

i do not know what you'll find down there .

it never ceases to amaze me . the courage of hobbits .

if there is in fact a live dragon down there , don't waken it .

come , now ... don't be shy . step into the light .

there is something about you , something you carry .

there you are , thief in the shadows .

i did not come to steal from you .

do you think flattery will keep you alive ?

what else do you claim to be ?

truly , you are mistaken .

you have nice manners , for a thief and a liar .

i know the smell and taste of dwarf .

they are drawn to treasure like flies to dead flesh .

did you think i did not know this day would come ?

you should leave us .

and go where ? there is nowhere to go .

the dragon , it's going to kill us .

i kill where i wish , when i wish .

my armor is iron , no blade can pierce me .

i need you to distract the guards .

time to do what , to get killed ?

yes , i'm afraid . i'm afraid for you .

you're not yourself .

the darkness is coming ... it will spread to every corner of the land .

you were only ever a means to an end .

i will not part with a single coin . not one piece of it .

your reputation precedes you .

you have no equal on this earth .

i think our little game ends here .

so tell me , thief ... how do you choose to die ?

we've given him the slip .

there may be a way out .

it's our only chance , we have to try .

i've heard tales of the wonders of elvish medicine .

that was a privilege to witness .

i will not die like this . cowering . gasping for breath .

if this is to end in fire , then we will all burn together .

perhaps it is time i paid them a visit .

this isn't their fault !

you care about them , do you ? good . then you can watch them die .

i am taking back what you stole .

you will take nothing from me .

i laid low your warriors of old . i instilled terror in the hearts of men .

this is not your kingdom . these are dwarf lands .

revenge ? revenge ?! i will show you revenge !

i am fire . i am death .

what have we done ?

[sayruq]

Amid Israel’s ongoing genocidal war on Gaza, maternal healthcare faces excruciating challenges. Deliberate and systematic Israeli attacks on hospitals and medical centers, and critical shortages of humanitarian aid, including medicine, have created a crisis that is endangering the lives of both mothers and newborns. The situation is critical. There are an estimated 50,000 pregnant women in Gaza and some 180 births every day. Israel’s decision in October to prevent food, water, fuel and electricity from entering Gaza created a desperate situation. Inadequate nutrition, exposure to cold and hot weather, the absence of clean water, and poor sanitation weigh heavily on the wellbeing of women and children. The circumstances force them to consume contaminated water, heightening the peril of dehydration and waterborne diseases, particularly among vulnerable groups such as expectant mothers, new mothers and young children. Fuel shortages and the constrained capacity of the few remaining medical facilities exacerbate the difficulty for women in labor to access hospitals. Um Amin, a mother with a few children, confronted with the harsh reality of displacement, recounted her family’s struggles during Israel’s aggression. As bombs relentlessly fell on their neighborhood, reducing their home to rubble, Um Amin had to seek refuge at a school run by the UN agency for Palestine refugees (UNRWA) in the northern Gaza Strip taking only very few belongings. She was pregnant. And in the school there was little by way of basic necessities such as clean water, food or even clothes for her children. She considered moving south, where food might be a little more accessible. Her husband refused, causing conflict between them.He feared not being able to return. And while she believed that the Israeli army was attempting to force them to leave, she also felt it was a matter of life and death for her children. “It was heart-wrenching to witness my kids fighting over scraps of bread. My 4-year-old started stashing away bread in his pocket for later. I was shocked. Before the war, I never slept without knowing my children were fed. Now, most of the time, I am certain they never feel satisfied.” Her entire motivation to carry on became a matter of feeding her children She denied herself food for their sake, but had also to remind herself of the child within her. “The baby inside me is also a priority, so I had to eat too.” She found the balancing act incredibly challenging, an unbearable burden of motherhood. “I am going to share something I’ve never told anyone I know: I contemplated suicide to escape the weight of this responsibility.”

After the Israeli army unexpectedly stormed al-Rimal, a Gaza City neighborhood, for a second time, Um Amin panicked and fled again, this time going from the UNRWA school to a relative’s house. But her fear caused her to enter preterm labor. A doctor, at the nearby al-Sahaba medical center, had to resort to a cesarean section. It was hell, Um Amin said. There was insufficient anesthesia and she could feel the scalpel cutting into her body. There was no electricity; the doctor had to use a handheld flashlight to see. Um Amin’s cries of pain could not drown out the crashing of shells around her. The operation left her utterly drained. She couldn’t believe she was still alive.She needed nourishment to recover what she had lost during the bleeding and to breastfeed her son. But hunger was stalking Gaza. Food was scarce, there was no white flour in the markets, and Israel was blocking aid trucks from entering the north. “All I had to eat was bread made from animal feed and water. When I had my other children, I relied on foods rich in animal proteins, but it was impossible this time. The price of meat was five times higher than normal.” Unable to adequately breastfeed her child, she had to find infant formula. But the price was multiple times higher than it used to be and more than she could afford. Eventually, she was forced to buy formula that was past its expiry date. “You might blame me, but there was literally no other option. I didn’t have enough money. It wasn’t clumped together, so the doctor told me it could still be used.” She would never find out. Due to the lack of clean water, she prepared the milk with non-potable water from a well. The baby refused to drink.