#when i say people are too mean about ness i'm including myself in that lmao

[theclearblue]

Ness and Hiori for character bingo <3

Here u go <3

Ness:

Hiori:

[redxblueihateloveyou]

I'm so very happy w/fs2, but a small part of me is tinitiny (very tiny) bit salty about the reconciliation going your way (that's not a beef, I love you tremendously!). you were so sure that rin should be the one to step up, even though majority seemed to disagree (on my dash), but they still went your way. it makes all the sense now to me that it happened and I'm just wondering if that's my bias-ness for rin that blinded me, since I was one of the idiots politely arguing with you after the fs1

LOL I think it's perfectly fine that you feel that way, bc it's kinda a forever debate between to say tsunderes/antisocial ppl/silent types who watch such couples and the social ones. I'm just saying it bc I myself when watching such ships with my hommies, it's literally EVERY TIME one part of the couch goes (aka my mom) "but he (Haru or Lan Zhan or Qiling or Sangwoo or etc) doesn't talk, how's he supposed to know" or "that doesn't count unless u say" or "he should've…lalala" and the other part of the couch (aka me and my sister who don't talk but show things other way) start to agressively disagree and it literally always ends like this:

And I mean, ofc depending on your personality you would watch things differently and feel things differently bc we express our feelings differently. Like I've only recently watched this korean gay dating show where there was a guy who also didn't talk but I from other things from the start guessed who he liked and then at the end turned out that none of the participants there "saw it coming" which to me was pretty wild lmao. So my point is, I got it a long time ago from real life harshly and in many comments under different shows that most people find it hard to understand these signs or even see it. On behalf of "my species" I apologize, but sometimes thats the best we can do really.

I always due to this try to look at these (my favorite) types of pairings from both sides, even tho I know I'm clearly biased too. And my main argument in this cases (as in who must "step up" as you say) is that if one despite of who he is tried as hard as he could to deliver his feelings even painfully so surpassing his comfort zone and the other didn't, then the one who should be stepping up is the one who didn't. I think thats how it usually works at the end. I just know from my own feelings that for them it was very hard to step out of their comfort zone and thats why in such stories writers always reward them at the end for that I think.

That being said in that particular case also I think you have to watch it from the point of who in his way did everything he could when it comes to their relationships and was fully invested without lying to himself and who wasn't. And it was Rin who constantly backtracked due to being scared (for respectable reasons, but still), Haru was fully in for a long time. I just think bc of all the metaphors about swimming and water and the fact that they also want to be together everywhere for life including their profession, some mixed up a bit here the professional and personal aspects.

Like when it comes to their way in professional life goals it was Rin who had no fear and Haru did (also for his own respectable reasons). But when it comes to their feelings it was Haru who had no fear, since the very beginning, but Rin did.

Also personally for me actions always speak louder than words, but at the same time I do understand that hearing some things are also very much needed. So I think its fine to feel both ways, I personally don't really get mad when ppl don't get it.

The only thing that gets me going into a heavy debate sometimes is the fact that some throw around stuff like "well he must express himself more normally" or smth in the orbit, indicating that if you don't express yourself with words specifically, you're an asshole/insensitive or smth like that, nevermind the fact that someone there cut their leg to save his future husband's life you know haha. Which to me is hilarious since its these types of characters that in my opinion are more sensitive and deeper head over heels than others. Bc at the end they due to the fact that for them its ususally the only exception thing, if they enter this territory, they usually drown very deeply and unrecoverably. Meaning once they're in they're all in, there's not gonna be any denial/stepping back an etc.

And I just also don't see the point (when it comes to love) of forcing people to express themselves in a way they don't want to. For example, I'll never serenade to someone who I'm in love with, bc I'm just not that kind of person. I wouldn't want to be someone who expects this from me or will get upset that I don't do such stuff. I myself think random little things like that time Rin was talking about Haru's birthday plans and Haru going "I'm not gonna listen untill you'll change your wet clothes, I'm scared you'll get sick" is much sweeter and to me personally enough. I'm not trying to demean here any huge romantic gestures, I just personally do not care for those. But I know all people are different and that's okay.

So I'm just saying that these kind of characters express the feelings in other ways (which to me for some reason are the most touching). So expecting Haru to do stuff from some of the people's wish list that were voiced after fs1 would be just not Haru. Also the problem there was that Rin was scared to dive into love. And what else in your opinion Haru should've done to show him that he's his safe haven I do not get no matter how much I thought about it. Bias or not but after all that patience and understanding, you gotta admit that the only option here already was a shock therapy of maybe taking it all away haha.

So when it comes to love you gotta judge everyone depending on their own scale. Like you certainly can expect us once in love turn from a cocoa bean into hot chocolate just for you, but we won't magically turn into a sugar syrup, if you know what I mean here lmao. And Rin also doesn't want that, bc he loves Haru. If he wanted to pick someone else, he would've LOL

Also I think being biased is also fine (we all are when it comes to our faves) as long as you admit to it and don't start this thing some people start where they seem to only care about one person in a ship. That's already not a shipping in my opinion haha. Like idk why but I seriously hate it the most. Bc even in times when you're certain you're right, you gotta try to see things from both points of views. In all of your own relationships too.

P.S. also forgot to say" haha I win". I'm kidding lmao. Love you too.

[hanadollic]

A list of my Top 5 Favorite Hana Doll* Songs!

(Decided to do separate lists for each group)

Anthos*

Loulou*di

Or

Perfect Pride

This lists may change one day, but for sure the no. 1s are my all time favorites!

Most of my Anthos* faves are from 1st season. Don't get me wrong, I do love the other seasons too, but the 1st season songs hit different(?), like I can simply say that all 1st season songs are bop! Maybe because they had been around me longer than the other seasons and I got used to them haha(?)

(No, I don't hate other season's songs because of Setsuna (FYI he was added to the team after the 1st season ended). That sheep was sus at first but I don't hate him akskskkd)

The song that glued to Anthos, Birth! I literally sing this to every Hana Doll* friend that I have on their birthday on an app HAHA The beat is *chef's kiss*

I first knew Anthos when they released Unknown MV, but what got me hooked on them was not that song but Birth, and then Stay Away🫰 (Unknown is awesome too)

Next! Stay Away! This song, and Birth! Really love them including the remixes! This song is just too good to be missed. The chorus is addictive. I love this song the moment I listened to the intro lol

And maybe it's weird but I cry everytime I listen to Me Against Myself. As Ryoga oshi, Ryoga's voice in that song is...(I'm going to be corny here) quite emotional imo. And the lyric akakskkdkskd

As for Shine On, I can't explain how or why but I just love songs like this one (well so are people out there) It was like so smooth and calm, and everything hsjwjdkf I love this song especially the melody🫰

The last from my Anthos list is Umbilical Lover! Anthos*'s costumes here are LITERALLY AWESOME. AND BRUH THE CHORUS! GO LISTEN TO IT! I can still feel Lihito's vibrato from that song lmao

My all time Loulou*di fave (I don't think it will ever change lol) is Empty Dream! I remember when I first listened to its teaser (man, it was around 2 years ago??) I instantly thought "This is the kind of 2D idol song that I longed for!" and I was overjoyed lmao

I mean Birth made me think like this also, but in a different way(?) (I guess Birth gave me what I seek in an upbeat song, and Empty Dream for holy-ish(??) song? Bruh I don't know how to explain it sjjsjsjs)

I really love Empty Dream that I still regularly leaving comments on the MV from time to time, and I even have a plan (imagination lol) on how Loulou*di's stage and performance will be if they ever present this song on concerts and all (I'm too addicted please send help)

About Abortive Flower. Ah, yes, a one month old song. I've been listening to it everytime I get the chance since I got the album. Its teaser didn't give it justice(?) about its angsty-ness. The parts after 1st chorus are just so so depressing---I wonder what kind of direction Tosshi-san got when recording the "Kono yo ni ikiru kachi wa nakatta" part and also the last chorus? :") As for Yamashita-san, maybe it's because Toki was---oops. No, I won't spoil the drama part to you :) TakeP did a very great job on potraying Rui-san, he sounded so beautiful--- but empty imo, so Rui-like(?)

And then, Immortal Tale! That song gave me a "a song from a distant, sacred(?) land" feel. The vibe definitely fit the lyrics and all :) That upbeat tempo is something unusual from Loulou*di but they sang it so well, I have no complain🫶

I am a sucker for slow, dark songs, so Black Pulse is a hit for me. The harmony and adlibs and all are so awesome🥺 (I don't know what to comment anymore, that song is just beautiful)

And the last from my Loulou*di list! Is either Final Direction or Perfect Pride (man I couldn't choose ahsjskdk) I love both the same, I just couldn't pick one so I just put them both on the list. Final Direction imo sounds so dramatic (and I love it lol). Perfect Pride's bridge (actually not sure if that part called bridge) is addicting.

If I can say anything, Hana Doll*'s songs are as great as their stories and character designs🫶

I'll edit my opinion later to add things.