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at my best, I'm a sacrificial lamb at my best, I am something you could handle
#anya mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#art#//#spoilers#image lyrics: pressed - alvvays#top left refers to anyas trouble sleeping and inability to share what shes going through with anyone. also quilt stitching. curious#nobody can hear you scream in space and all you can do when your planes going down is try to breathe#daisuke my beloved youre surrounded by people who kept letting you down. then back up as a saintlike character in death. you must be dizzy#but wait. newspaper clippings in the background theyre totalllly talking about you dude. look theres streamers and foam and everything#on heavily overexposed film all you can make out are the darkest parts . or it could become a beautiful nuanced grey. isnt that great curly#i modelled his eye here in the shape of the first photo of a black hole. why wont anyone but jimmy look him in the eyes?#hi swanseas palpable guilt. i guess if you stop biting the hook he'll get bored and finally end this game of cat and mouse#the whole piece is haunted by jimmy btw . notice how the yellow arrows zero in on the Real Problems to him#this next part i wrote after watching a video on the board game in mouthwashing because i spent a lot of time choosing editions#daisuke: toys r us edition with his piece already in the home row so winning by just 1#(the lowered expectations towards him + the safety net his family provides... which would not actually matter much after the crash...)#swansea: the royal edition#standard used on the tulpar + theres a move where you can form a blockade with 2 pieces and nothing can move forward or break it#even your other pieces (they changed this to be more lenient on everyone else after the crash i mean in the newer editions)#anya: homemade fabric board with influences from diane allison-stroud. the one i used is called the reader#(an artist who recreates boards from the 18-1900s and designs new pieces many of which are decided to memories from her childhood#she often pays homage to her mother/grandmothers textile arts)#i swear i had inspo for curly too but i cant seem to find the one with rounded edges encroaching on the middle like i drew#little distinguishing his part from the board itself (jimmy) but of course those two are Very different and itd be wrong to mix them up#how could i forget jimmys fear of -itys and stubborn menu options of leave and do nothing. finally all the stars become the tulpar logo :)
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JJK OLYMPICS OHHH YOURE A GENIUS
head spinning w sooooooo many athlete aus rnā¦..Ā
satoru honestly isnāt half as cocky as the media makes him out to be but he could be because you bring up world champion menās freestyle swim times and itās his name on the scoreboard ten times before someone else shows up. heās faster than himself by fifteen seconds all around, heās earned a bit of cockiness. mentioned in the last post that whenever heās at a competition and he finishes a race, he looks at the camera and signs a little infinity sign and then blows a kiss to you. some bitter old coach always calls him out on it, and gets him fined for unsportsmanlike conduct, and heās happy to pay the fees if it means getting a message home to you, but eventually you two come up with a new code; and at his next race, he places gold, turns to the camera, crosses his middle finger over his pointer finger and smiles. when heās in his post-race interview, he makes sure to explain that he does it for you with the widest smile on his face.
megumi nepotism baby but not in the same sport. toji was a multi gold medalist back in his heyday for shooting, so itās not really a surprise to anybody that megumi has scary good aim, but he takes to archery instead of shooting. actually the idea of megumi being an emo little kid and throwing rocks at a tree when his dad pissed him off his hilarious, and even funnier is toji watching him, slightly amused and a little scared because megumi is maybe six and hitting the exact same spot every single time. he grows to be very blase about itāitās more of a release/hobby for him that he happens to be really good at, and well, now good enough to earn a few olympic medals. megumi is not a fan of having his dad ruffle his hair on international television after heās won, but he supposes it canāt be helped.
i donāt know where to put yuutaā¦. tennisā¦. temptingā¦.. him in his little white shortsā¦. little grunts after he servesā¦. criesā¦.. a complete 180 in his personality when heās playing vs doing anything else. so charming and sweet and kinda shy when heās being interviewed, and the second he steps on the court his eyes are so cold itās scaryā¦. need him⦠extremely nerdy about his rackets, and shoes, and clothes, and rambles to you about aerodynamics and posture and torque whenever you ask him to teach you, and you always have to shutup him up with a kiss and remind him that yeah you sort of want to learn to play tennis for him, but mostly you came bc he looks hot doing it. once he got asked in an interview if he ever thinks about you while heās playing and his response was very concise, āno, never. it would be a big distraction,ā and did not realize the implications of his heavily televised words.Ā
alsoā¦. not to make this post 40% yuuta but we could pull from canon a bit and make his sport fencing. he doesnāt excel because heās the strongest, itās because heās learned to treat the sword as an extension of himself and a good strategist⦠also because i like the image of him pulling the helmet/mask off and shaking his hair outā¦ā¦ā¦..
donāt even know where to put yuujiā¦. volleyball? basketball? track and field??? the irony of him easily being the most athletic but canonically does not want to play sports š but i can see him playing a sport because someone scouts him and it turns out to be a way to make steady money to support himself and his grandpa :( by the time heās qualified and made it to the olympics, wasuke is doing much better (thanks to yuuji having landed some preemptive sponsorships and being able to afford better medical care), but not so well enough that he can travel across the world to watch yuuji play. wasuke tells you that you should travel and be with yuuji, but yuuji is so touched by the idea that you would stay with his grandpa and be by his side when heās away :(( he wins gold, of course, and he doesnāt even wait until the closing ceremonyāwhich, heād mentioned in all of his interviews, so nobody can be too upset. heās on record saying, āiām excited to play, but iām even happier to be going home. my girlfriend and my grandpa are watching me and i miss them!ā several timesā heās on the first flight home with flowers, and tears in his eyes. puts his gold medal on his grandpaās neck as a thank you, and spends probably thirty minutes straight hugging you and kissing you and honestly donāt put it past him to propose now that heās got nike ambassador moneyĀ
nanami started judo as a way to relieve the stress of his overbearing job, and someone at the gym/training center notices he seems to be a natural despite being a beginner. he starts to draw a crowd, which annoys him at first because the point of judo was discipline and release from having to deal with too many people at his office job, but nanami supposes he canāt be too mad when you introduce yourself as a talent scout and offer him professional training. thereās irony in him accepting your offer, because it was definitely not based in professionalism at all⦠quitting his job as a salaryman to become a professional athlete in his mid-twenties was not on his bingo chart, but if it means he will have met you, then so be it. youāre with him all the way, through his training, competitions, world championships, qualifiers, all the way until heās on the podium. youāre the first to congratulate him, but he interjects by telling you heās quitting. you ask him whyāhe just won at the olympics for crying out loud, but nanami just shakes his head, puts down his flowers and his medal so his hands are free to hold your face and tell you, āit would be unethical to kiss my manager, so i am quitting.ā (later, when everything is said and done, and you two are cuddling, you mention to him that he could just hire a new manager, and not quit his new career, to which he blushes because yeah⦠thatās probably more rational, but rational was not in his train of thought at the time)
#anonymous#nanami kento.......................................... god#also yuuji :((((( just a kid who wanted to do something nice for his grandpa I will CRY#immediate proposal when he gets home to you who does he think he is? yuuta?#speaking of yuuta he's like the best player his age and he's always asked to attend events or parties or whatever#and he's always like ah no thank you I am going home to my girlfriend#every fucking interview it's like yeah I love tennis but I love my girlfriend more for supporting and encouraging me#my girlfriend my girlfriend my girlfriend#one day he actually seems Excited to be doing his press conference and a journalist picks up on it to which yuuta happily raises his hand#and lets everyone know that he's now engaged. and very very grateful for his wife#he does the same shit a few years later like randomly during a press conference he's like#'I am kinda nervous. my baby didn't sleep well last night so I was up with him pretty late' and everyone's like BABY?#and yuutas like yeah! he's almost 14 months now do u wanna see him!#let me stop bringing kids into this bc w/ satoru and kento I could go on for hours....#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen fluff#jujutsu kaisen smut#gojo x reader#gojo smut#yuuta x reader#yuuji x reader#megumi x reader#nanami kento x reader#once u asked megumi what he thinks about when he's practicing and he's so deadpan as he reloads and arrow#and right before he lets it go he's like 'ur ex boyfriend' and then hits the target dead in the center LMFAO#olympics au
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[144] pepito if he was a worm
#And yes i would still love him. i would make him a little worm home with nice dirt and a little worm bed with a little worm blanket#so he could be all cozy when he went to worm sleep. and i would read him little worm bedtime stories#qsmp#qsmp fanart#qsmp eggs#pepito
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Say hello to ELM-3R. Quite the darling Luminoscope, is he not? š
#clay posts#luminoscope#objectophilia#techum#ELM-3R#objectum#old technology#vintage technology#retro technology#technophilia#objectum sexuality#if anyone has any additional info about this device i would be more than eager to hear about it!!!! ooaegh#one of my first proper object crushes ooaegh#good god i wish i could take him home but alas .... i only saw him while working š#i remember doing research on this goober. could not find anything except two blurry photos on the internet#i dont entirely know how he works bc i never used him but i know the orange bit was a separate device entirely. that was the POWER SOURCE#to run him. ISNT THAT WILD? anyway. he is wonderously retro in design and i believe what he does is-- somehow-- detect rare minerals#using UV light. wish i could see him in action but no. he was simply eye candy 4 me </3#sorry for the yappening in the tags but this is what happens when I can't sleep i guess LOL. to the ppl who read this: ily ty <3 i hug u :]#hitting send on a post at 5 in the morning like. āgo my scarabā
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Guys. Listen. I saw the update for Welcome Home, and uhhh

I hate how I already like this little guy. But, like, can you blame me???
#welcome home#Buggle#I know what you're going to say#āThat thing is probably EVIL!ā#and maybe he is#but I don't care#he's my shayla now#He sounds like Glep in my head#he's a little adventurer#and he reminds me of the mice from Coraline#i want to study him under a microscope#feed him pesticides#sleep with him like a stuffed animal#throw him like a football#i feel like if he could scream when threatened (he sounds like Palmer's blood from The thing) (look it up)#I just think he's a little guy#off topic but Barnaby absolutely slays āØļø#just thought i'd let you know
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I am talking about the new Welcome Home update, (April 12 2025) so once again, spoilers. This one is kind of nonsensical, because I'm sleep deprived.
Someone or something is peppering the secrets around on purpose. I want to say it's Wally, but it could also be Home, that is doing that, and given a post I read, I don't think it's the restoration people doing it on purpose, unless there is a mole who is working for Wally and/or Home. How else is Wally/Home giving us these gifts? (And who else could "You" be that isn't just us, the audience/witness?)
I have a lot of questions and thoughts, especially since the /ringring has the same alien sound effect that appears in the Julie videos, and that weird bug thing. Is Wally/Home possessed? Is Home possessing Wally? Or is it something else?
The biggest question, what exactly happened to Welcome Home the series that made it go off the air, and all of it's merchandise disappear, in the first place? And does Wally/Home or something else want it to stay hidden, or rather destroyed, for a reason? What is the restoration project trying to do? What does Wally/Home want? Does he really want to build a trust between us? Or there something more dangerous going on that we aren't let on?
And why is my boy, Wally, missing?
And to go back to the board game, out of everything, it's the Everlasting Pea card that is torn up. (Isn't a pea also shown in the Eddie update? I feel like he has a whole can of worms to deal with, much like Julie's fake joyful persona, but in a different form.)
If everlasting pea is meant to represent an everlasting bond, I wonder then, if the ripped card is meant to represent everyone in the series, not just Julie and her siblings. That something happened that tore everything apart... Which is something the restoration project is trying to "fix". It is possible that it is something that really shouldn't be fixed, but I don't know. Could be Eldritch, could be something more mundane. Could be nothing. And why I am worried that, if my thinking is correct, Wally could be possessed and "puppeted" by something dangerous.
But remember, I'm very sleep deprived, and I may be missing something entirely, so I won't hold this thought for long. Perhaps it has something people could pick apart and think about, or maybe branch off into something different, or even correct eventually. That's always the fun part about theories and these things, different interpretations.
#blah blah blabbity blah#welcome home#welcome home spoilers#i need to sleep. ill probably see more when i wake up#and who knows#there could be new things that wound up found.
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Why is the anime so weird, it's not even the same series dude?? It's like,
Anime:
GOKU: I have a great idea to bring peace to the universe, and my leadership and compassion alone will unite us all. I have No Flaws and am A True Relatable Everyman :)
VEGETA: NO! I AM THE BEST AND I WILL CAUSE PROBLEMS UNTIL I AM RECOGNIZED AS SUCH!!!!
Manga:
GOKU: Vegeta what's cornmeal made of? I know it's what the corn eats, but what's it made of? VEGETA: Hey Kakarot let's play the quiet game until one of us dies.
#dbtag#I do not understand this writing it's so bad aklsdlkasjd#Toei wants Goku to be Clark Kent SO bad and he SO isn't lmao#they're so good and dumb and rounded and complex in the manga what is the anime so afraid of#Toriyama said 'no no this man is a detached faux-immortal who has a dear pure heart but he's childlike and selfish even though he's kind'#and toei went 'got it goku's never done anything wrong ever in his life'#toriyama said 'Vegeta's gone through a lot and he's finally settling into his more mature leadership role with the confidence he's earned'#and toei said 'got it vegeta has the confidence of a high school bully except now he can interact with his family as a comedy bit'#girl hWHAT#Toei trying to group Goku and Vegeta as two people who would rather train than be with their families and Toriyama said NO Vegeta wants#to be HOME this is the first time in years that he's HAD ONE and it makes him HAPPY to be with his wife and children!!#Vegeta trains so that he can protect the things he doesn't want to lose again and Goku trains because it's the thing that makes him happies#They are NOT the same lmao And yeah Vegeta still wants to beat Goku but he also knows that Gohan could dogwalk both of them if he wanted#He also knows Trunks and Goten are going to surpass them it's not about being the best anymore he's past that he just wants to Not Need Gok#He just doesn't want to have to rely on Goku to save the day he wants to be Enough on his own he just wants to know he can be#because every time it's mattered he WASN'T and people he loved were lost to his inability to protect them and he carries that#Like Whis diagnosed him with anxiety and cptsd out in the open and Beerus said he was self-centered for feeling guilt#+ he lowkey enjoys the rivalry it keeps him goal-oriented so he can't get complacent and lazy which is what triggered his Buu Saga breakdow#realized how Fucked Up it was that having a home and loving family made him feel like he was failing and went 'wait no I won actually??'#now he's chill as fuck in the manga. cool confident leader.#and sometimes he is childish and dumb with Goku as a treat#you know what rocks about his rivalry with Goku in Super though is that it's Playful. Vegeta is learning how to Play.#You ever seen a shelter dog get introduced to a really playful dog and it takes a minute for the shelter dog to understand it's safe here#And then they're both running around the backyard playing hot potato with one braincell?? That's Goku and Vegeta's relationship#and the way the anime sleeps on that dynamic is so fucking criminal especially when it's literally canon it's in print it's out there#you had the playbook how'd you fumble it this bad#anyway that's my 25+ year blorbo thoughts I love Geets a lot okay#And I love Goku in the manga a lot I'd forgotten that he's actually a great character when Toei's not fucking up his whole vibe
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cats merch idea that nobody will make: ballerina music boxes, but with victoria (white cat solo) and mistoffelees (turns obvi, the part where he flips his hands out during the brass blare). the victoria one would play the slow theme from the white cat solo. in my heart i want the misto music to be from the turns in the dance break but i don't think that would translate very well to a music box; realistically it would be a phrase of the "magical mister mistoffelees" chorus
you could probably make ones with other cats who have characteristic poses/music but i don't think it would translate as perfectly, you know?
#honestly you could do a bunch of different victoria ones there are so many good poses in the white cat solo#i had a ballerina music box that was also a jewelry box when i was a child#don't remember what song it played. swan lake? sleeping beauty waltz? idk#swan lake probably#the jellicle moon is shining bright#prompt free to good home#cats the musical
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i have no mouth and i must scream speech but for about insomnia hate hate hate let me tell you how much i have come to hate being awake
#took half an expired tops brand unisom . wheeeee medicine that does nothing and then the next day you're groggy for twelve hours#but i have to do SOMEthing if i don't Try to make myself sleep that's Giving Up and if you Give Up . well#this is the second week in a row that ive failed to sleep on a night leading into the work week and i know most of the external reasons why#like. busy day tomorrow so anxious. haven't given myself a full weekend in a really long time so strung out.#had important stuff to do earlier that didn't happen so dwelling on that. woke up at 9am and wasn't out of bed until ten thirty so like#i got more than adequate sleep last night but this does not make me feel less worried about NOT sleeping TONIGHT#because again. every time i have a night of big insomnia im convinced that it's the beginning of an unending trend#that will make me wind up like my mother who is lucky she gets more than three hours of sleep every couple of weeks#and while she's done this her whole life qnd has adjusted to it (as much as a body can) i just know. based on how insomnia is for me#that i never could. it would be exactly as terrible every time i would never be able to be calm while it was happening#anyway everybody send me your best knockout gas#AND. it's SNOWING. fuck everything i hate it all#tomorrow im gonna be groggy as hell and have to drive to work and back and have to be With It bc we're doing activities and shit#and have to be like the model of library enthusiasm when i barely have that on a good day. and not actually physically groan#every time someone new wants a card because it means i have to interrupt what im doing dor the next fifteen minutes to say a spiel#i know i shouldn't hate that i should be glad we're getting engagement. and i am. i just wish i wasn't the one at the desk#and im not good at keeping that off of my face or being welcoming when i dont feel welcoming#i haven't gotten to do processing at my actual office desk in months. haven't gotten to be Off The Floor#which certainly hasn't helped my overall stress levels. i need to not be socially on so much it's slowly pulling me apart#and then i get home wnd im too tired to do anything and my house also falls apart around me#but if i DON'T have outings i also rot . there's no solution to this problem. not without quitting my job which ill never do#bc in today's market id never get anything half as good as this ever again. and as has been established. this relatively good job#is still not good enough for me not to be emotionally and mentally falling apart
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there might be a spider somewhere and thatās enough for me to be paranoid

#HOME INVASIONS GOT MY BROTHERS DYING/ref#I donāt think ppl understand me when I say Iām paranoid#I cant go to sleep in my room. I canāt sit down. I canāt eat. I canāt pick up anything. I canāt move. I cry.#I need to be in an open space in case I feel like running. I canāt be near my bed. I canāt open or close doors.#I dont even feel safe when Iām not moving but I also donāt feel safe when Iām moving and ceilings scare me#Iām actually so scared as I write this bc Iām sitting down at my desk trying to eat but what if the spider is under my desk or on my chair#Or literally anywhere possible. Maybe itās behind my pc or iPad. Or on the shelves. It could be anywhere close to me.#This is the typa behaviour I be showing and my parents still donāt take me to the psychologist man#My ma doesnāt believe in phobias or mental illness#Jesus Christ this is all because of a spider that was in my bathroom this morning#Also Iām eating spaghetti with cheese for the first time
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I need more time in the day man
#spazzcat barks#delete later#i really really want to draw a comic#of one of the scenes from Curse of Binding#specifically the paladin picking HK up like a ragdoll#because you know that man has never been manhandled like that before#but i am so. so tired.#i have been writing and drawing too much too often and staying up too late to do it#so what a responsible me probably will do is go home and go to sleep#so i can catch up on rest#but i wish i could do both#>:/ because in two days when i have time again gods know i wont have the gumption anymore#[sigh]
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LOOK AT THEM
#who else cried raise your hand šāāļø#when jin and hobi were discharged i couldn't stay up to watch but this time I made sure to push through since i could#and i'm so glad i did <3#i was feeling so tired because it's super late here but as soon as i saw them i felt all the energy rushing back to me#they're finally free!!!!! š„³š„³š„³#ah i have so many things i want to say but i'm leaving that for later after i catch up on some sleep#don't know if i'll make it to the live but i'll try to hold on for a little bit more#love you army and love them#so so much <3#they're home now š#namjoon#taehyung#taejoon#bts
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got nothing done today except accidentally deleting all my files off the computer and having to recover them so basically i need to be frankly insanely productive tomorrow so i can go to my granddad's birthday on friday without stressing. of course there is no chance in hell this will happen but i can pretend for a little while longer
#i was in SUCH a good headspace earlier today as well#like actually motivated and somewhat focused and everything#but then i got stuck at my granddad's for like two hours#and had to eat dinner when i got home#and by the time i could finally start working i was so stressed about the wasted time#i couldn't focus anymore and then i started feeling really weird and by the time that passed my meds had worn off and all hope was lost#i mean i still feel Bad but i've more or less convinced myself it's anxiety#and if somehow it isn't then hopefully i will know soon š#literally not even stressed about whatever it is in itself its just id like to know if i can keep taking meds without making something worse#and i Have to take the meds to get shit done#but as long as i don't know the anxiety of taking the meds kinda voids the effects#otherwise my anxiety is better on meds though like mentally its better but the physical symptoms are worse#the parts i know for a fact are just anxiety that is#if it's ALL anxiety then thats kinda funny actually. like ok. logic#idk what the fuck im on about im in bed hopefully i can sleep soon so i can get up at ass oclock and wait for a message from the gp's office
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given that the story of Robin Hood is like... very very famously set in Nottingham(shire) it would be cool to see one single solitary adaptation that gives literally any of the characters in the story a Notts or at least midlands-sounding accent. I know there's a longstanding gag about Robin Hoods with american accents so this is like, very much nitpicking, but Prince of Thieves appears to have a Little John with a fucking COCKNEY accent for gods sake. wtf is going on.
#the actor is actually english which means he doesn't even have the excuse of being An American Idiot#yeah yeah I know it's shorthand for This Dude Is Poor And Tough#but you could real easily do that with a brummy accent if you weren't a fucking coward and then at least that's MIDLANDS#also laughing hysterically in British when Robin Hoods arrive back at Ye Olde White Cliffs Of Dover excited to be home#and then some how manage to reach Nottingham in like. an hour or so max.#it takes over FOUR HOURS to DRIVE from dover to nottingham on MOTORWAYS in a CAR#gmaps reckons it would take three days to walk and that's with zero breaks and no sleeping like this is a SUBSTANTIAL journey guys#always these complaints are excepting Robin Hood Men In Tights that does all this bullshit on purpose and that makes it fucking hilarious
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actually today was very fun <3
#last summer when my friends frequented the beach and invited me i remember being so anxious that i couldnāt even sleep because i knew i#physically cannot bring myself to go because then my fear of contamination was severer than severe but i didnāt want to let them know about#and let them down by not going. but i donāt think i could have been there even if i tried#oh and one time our family friends suddenly dragged us to the beach and i was very very very anxious because the sand felt like it could get#everywhere. and plus they ate and didnāt wash their hands .. and they made me buy food with chicken in it bc i didnāt go in the water so#the process of HOLDING that food with my hands and then not getting to wash the āchickenā off before touching literally anything was very#hard so much so that i went home and actually cried so much to my parents.. and they promised me they wouldnāt take me to the beach until i#got better..#but now i actually wanted to go myself.. and it was so fun. yeah before the proper shower at home i was feeling very anxious but now its#like .. okay wow i physically see how far iāve come..#āļø
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iām gonna sound stupid for saying this but iām acc very upset that real life is keeping me away from being a loser here š
#suki rambles#iām barely at home anymore with how much i spend time outside... and i just wanna sit down and WRITE#but as soon as i come home iām just so exhausted from studying and travelling that i pushing out a 1k fic-#-which would normally be so easy for me feel so impossivble now#and now i just stare at my wips feeling disappointed in myself that iām too tired to work on it#me staring at my vampire!kita fic š#me staring at my lemurian! rafayel fic š#the younger me couldāve stayed up and pulled an all nighter to finish a fic but now i just could NEVEERRRR#i need my 8 hours of sleep or i wonāt function for a whole day#and i feel so horrible too that iām so behind on replying to everyone š„¹#DTD TOO BRUH like i was so dedicated in updating every week but when im FINALLY at the last chapter thats when i get so busy ugh#like i donāt wanna be hard on myself bcos i have written a lot and also this is just a hobby but thats the thing!!#i feel like iām so busy with adult things that i donāt have enough time for writing (which brings me joy) and iām sad about it lol#big sigh.#tw: rant
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