#when I live alone ima blast this shit just once

[annabellestumbler]

Amy win house at 8:40 AM cuz I couldn’t go back to sleep

[keeira2]

OFF LIMITS (PART2)

part 1 >> part 2

s2rafe cameron x barryslittlesister!reader

summary: rafe and y/n meet again, but when barry has to leave them alone together, they just can’t control themselves..

warnings: drugs mentioned, drug use, snorting, smoking, kissing?, smut, more smut, uhh smut, degrading, sort of manipulation if u squint, swearing, dark!rafe and soft!rafe in the same fic!! :O MDNI 18+ ONLY, if i miss any pls lmk!!

a/n: i js realised i messed up the first part smh so ima fix that now but i’m actually rlly enjoying writing this, mayb i’m ass nd nobody’s saying anything but if anyone likes it ily, this ones def smutty so pls viewer discretion!! also if ppl want more parts lmk cs i’m happy to write more :33

weeks went by without even thinking of ur encounter with the not so charming kook..

another boring day at home by yourself once again, so ur snorting lines on ur vanity after dolling urself up with ur perfectly trashy makeup nd freshly washed hair.

ur wearing a thrifted tshirt which ended right at ur belly button, ur fav denim shorts which left nothing to the imagination and ur stripy thigh high socks.

a loud slam of the door and bickering voices interrupt ur lovely high followed by barrys speaker blasting some nasty music “barry!!” you yell out in frustration, he turned it up louder. finally you had enough, storming out to the living room, slamming ur door shut and prepared to go off until your stopped by the sight of barry smoking a j with none other than the kook.

fuck he looked so good with his hair all messy, his eyes glossy nd exhaling the smoke. but he couldn’t know that, you can almost smell is ego, u can’t let yourself feed into it. so you ignore his smirk as he watches you, arms crossed standing there with ur brows furrowed.

“barry! shut that shit off it’s too loud!” barry just looks at you with half shut eyes and laughs faintly before inhaling again. jesus do i have to do everything myself??

you stomp over to where the speaker is sitting and unplug it, causing very stoned barry to turn around in frustration “HEY! what’d you do that for? we’re js chillin’” hes slurring over his words, yk damn well he’s not gonna listen to you.

you plug the speaker back in, earning cheers from barry and the kook, “yeh yeh whatever barry. js give me some” your tone riddled in sarcasm you drop down on the couch between them, snatching the blunt out of barrys hand, taking a longgg, NEEDED inhale before blowing it out. you lean back into the plushy couch, savouring the feeling.

you can feel the kooks burning gaze as he eyes you up and down, his tongue grazing his lower lip before looking back up again. ‘if i’m gonna sit through this i may as well be fucked up’ you stand up quickly and rush to your room , his eyes following you, you grab ur pink glittery bong from ur vanity which is covered in the cuntiest charms.

you skip back to the living room to see barry heading towards the front door, “where’re u going?” you ask confused.

“gotta go handle some things i’ll be back by tonight. don’t let rafe bother you too much, alright?” he doesn’t even give you a chance to respond before tucking his gun into his shorts and slamming the door behind him.

rafe, huh? cute.. for a kook. you plop down right next to him, bong in hand. while ur packing you hear a groan from behind you. turning around rafe has his head back against the couch, peaking to where your ass meets the pillowy cushions. “eyes are up here rafe” you scoff before the cone piece is full. snatching the lighter out of rafes hand nd ripping the massive cone until your mouth is completly dry nd ur throat starts to burn.

“mmhm, love it when you say my name,” he whispers behind you ,”your rlly pretty, yk that?”your thighs impulsively clench together when he eyes you down once again. the weed is officially taking affect, you rest ur head back into the couch and rafe slips his arm around ur shoulder, scooching closer to you. ‘woww so smooth’ u think to yourself, rolling your eyes.

don’t get me wrong hes got a massive ego, he’s arrogant and he’s cocky. BUT he’s so insanely hot nd u rllyy wanna fuck him. with barry gone you have the perfect opportunity, nd u know he wants it too.

you move ur head to the side to look at him, his lustful eyes already piercing through yours, your thighs noticeably squirming together, you need him so bad.

he leans in until your lips meet his. starting off soft nd slow, quickly turns into tongue and teeth, he’s desperate for you nd u can feel his massive bulge when he takes ur hand to cover it.

“feel how hard you make me, hm?” he groans.

his hands holding ur waist greedily, as if he’s afraid you’ll run away.

“do u wanna fuck me?” you pull back staring at him with doe eyes, ur hands to his chest. impressed with your boldness he eagerly nods before leaning into another hungry kiss, but you pull away.

you snatch his hand and lead him into your room, immediately pushing him onto the bed. you have full control, it’s not usually your preference but it works. ripping off your shirt and shorts, leaving you in ur bra, panties, nd ur thigh highs, coming up to straddle his lap. you hold his jaw in ur hand and kiss him ravenously. u eventually tug at his shirt in attempt to pull it off, finally breaking the kiss he rips it off and pulls u in again.

“ur so fucking hot y/n,” he moans into the kiss, “gonna have you begging for me, princess.”

you feel him suddenly crawl out from under you and throw you into the bed, you can’t help but let out a squeal when he pulls u by your hips and starts ripping ur panties down. “ur a fucking slut, only just learnt my name nd ur already squirming under me, basically begging me to fuck you.” he lands a hard smack to your ass before tugging at his belt, letting his jeans fall, nd pushing his boxers down just enough for his huge veiny cock to sit up hitting his stomach.

ur head turned nd u whimper at the sight of it, u already know he’s gonna stretch you out. he loves the look of fear in ur eyes as u take him in but harshly puts his hand on the back of ur head pushing ur face into the pillows. without any warning at all, he starts ploughing his massive cock into ur soaked tight cunt. you scream at the impact, tears welling in your eyes as he fucks you with no remorse.

“r-rafe, ah fuck PLEASE,” you plead, “s-slower!!” the sound of you making him plough even deeper and harsher into ur desperate cunt.

“ur gonna fucking take it like the filthy whore you are,” he groans, making you instantly wetter, the pleasure and pain making you so so close.

your full on sobbing now, but you fucking love it. another harsh smack to ur ass, “quit fucking crying unless you want me to really hurt you” his degrading words make you squeeze around his cock, ur hands gripping ur sheets as you scream out, “fuckkkkk rafe” your body shaking when ur met with the most mind blowing orgasm of ur life, ur literally seeing stars.

“ah fuck” u hear from rafe, feeling his thrusts get sloppier and his warm come filling ur swollen pussy. the overstimulation making your legs shake uncontrollably.

finally his thrusts stop and he releases his tight grip from ur head, collapsing next to you.

ur sobs are now quiet whimpers, his cum dripping down ur thighs. he turns his body to face yours, his hand cupping your cheek.

“shh, don’t cry beautiful, u took it so fucking well” he comforts you, which surprisingly made you feel so much better. he pulls you onto his bare chest, his hand now playing with your hair.

the warm feeling of ur body sprawled across his makes his heart swell. u are perfect, and he’s gonna fucking ruin you.

[strniohoeee]

i need me some more hoodrat chris bestie pleasee😣

maybe another scenario where reader is out with her friends and some guy won’t leave her alone so she says “ just wait till my man gets here ” and then the guy is like “ i ain’t scared of no lil white boy” and then chris shows up with his blicky 😋😋😋

Racketeer Pt. 2

Pairing: Chris Sturniolo X Female Reader

Synopsis: Y/N and her friends are out clubbing for her best friends birthday, but this one guy won’t leave them alone. She calls Chris and he’s ready to kill for her🖤

Warnings⚠️: Once again pure self indulgence of hoodrat Chris, but also there’s talks of a pew pew in here obviously🤭 so enjoyyyy

Song for the imagine: No Suburban, Pt.2- Sheff G

You get shot down if you play his songs

I keeps Glock round’, I would let it off

Chris hated it when I went out alone, or with my homegirls because he felt like he couldn’t be there to protect me. Honestly I preferred it because Chris would watch every one like a hawk, and was prepared to pop a cap on anybody.

Tonight was my best friend's birthday, and she wanted to go to all the clubs downtown, and bar hop, but she wanted it just a girls night out. So when I told Chris this you can imagine the shock on his face

“Just the girls….” He said looking at me

“Yes Chris, just the girls” I said laughing

“Ima be like Batman…sneaking into that bitch and hiding in the shadows” he said

“Okayyyy creeper much” I said laughing at him again

“I’m kidding ma, but if anybody tries some crazy shit you know what to do” he said

“Yes I do, call you, ignore the person and hope you don’t pop the guy” I said rolling my eyes

“Exactly! This is why I love you” he said coming over and kissing me

Tonight was the night of my best friends extravaganzas, and I was currently finishing up getting ready. Chris decided he would drop me off at the first club since he didn’t trust Uber drivers and me alone. He’s very protective

I had gotten all dolled up in a black short sleeve long bodycon dress with glittery silver heels on, and my glitter clutch. I had done my hair and makeup up (however you want it be)

I walked out to the living room to let Chris know I was ready to go

“Baby I’m ready” I said walking to him in the living room

“Ouuuuuu someone’s looking real fucking good” he said reaching his hands out to grab me

“Aww thank you baby” I said leaning down and kissing him

“Alright let’s head out” he said grabbing my hand and walking us to his car

After about 30 minutes we had gotten downtown and to the first club. He put the car in park

“Alight baby I Love you, and I’ll keep you posted the whole night” I said giving him a kiss

“Love you too mama, and just know I’ll be right by my phone. If anything happens please baby call me” he said with puppy dog eyes

“I will my love” I said giving him one last kiss before heading out

My best friend and our homegirls and I were all partying and having a blast, she got a VIP section in the third club we were at. I had a few drinks and I was feeling good. Texting Chris every 20 minutes that everything was okay, and even sending him selfies and pictures of the girls and me.

I had decided to go to the bathroom alone which was probably the first biggest mistake of the night. To get to the bathroom I had to pass the cigar smoking area and the men’s bathroom, and that’s when I started to realize I might’ve done something stupid.

As I was walking to the bathroom some man stopped me

“Hey beautiful, where are you headed?” He asked me

“To the restroom” I said bluntly

“You should come hang with the real gentlemen up here” he said smirking down at me

“No, I'm good. I’m here with my friends” I said giving him a fake smile

“They can join us too” he said looking over at his friends

“We all have boyfriends. No thanks” I said, and with that I walked to the bathroom

Should I tell Chris? Should I not…..no he’ll come in here and create a big ass show.

I finished using the bathroom, and had to walk back pass these animals

“Nothing weird come sit with us” he yells as I speed past him

“I said no! Don’t you understand the word no? Leave me alone” I said shooing him with my hand and walking back down to our VIP area

“Hey girl where you been” my friend asks me

“I went to use the bathroom, and this creep wouldn’t stop talking to me” I said to them

“Oh god don’t let Chris find out” she said and started to laugh

“Honestly if he keeps trying me I will call Christopher” I said to them

About 20 minutes later we were all dancing in the VIP area when I feel eyes on me from above, so I look up, and that creepy guy with all his friends were watching my friends and I…..they looked like they were hunting for their next snack.

“FUCKING GO AWAY” I yelled up at him

“JUST ONE CHANCE BABY, ONE DANCE” he yelled back

“YO CREEPY GUYS WE ALL HAVE SHOOTER BOYFRIENDS I SUGGEST YOU BACK OFF” my best friend screamed at him

“WE DONT CARE ABOUT NO BOYFRIENDS” he yelled back

“LEAVE US ALONEEEEE” my other friend screamed at them, and we just went back to dancing

I’m going to say another 20 minutes went by, and all of a sudden these guys are walking towards our VIP area.

“Y/N I’m thinking now’s a good time to call Chris” my one friends said

“I think I will” I said grabbing my phone out of my purse

But before I could call Chris this asshole came up to us

“Come on pretty girl, why won’t you give me a chance” he said frowning

“Like I said I have a man” I said sipping my drink, and not even looking at him

“Oh baby I won’t tell no one” he said smiling at me

“Can you go away like I literally keep saying I have a man, and I don’t want to talk to you” I said rolling my eyes at him

“Well too bad baby. I won’t stop” he said trying to walk closer to me

“Oh no” I said sticking my foot out and pushing him back with my heel

“Just fucking wait till my man gets here” I said grabbing my phone to call Chris

“I ain’t scared of no lil white boy” he said laughing at me

I hit Chris contact and put the phone to my ear

“Hey baby, parties over already?” he asked laughing a bit

“Chris…” I said, and he immediately knew

“Where are you? And who’s bothering you” he said, and I heard him get off the bed

“I’m at Raven, and it’s some guy here who will not leave the girls and I alone. Like I just had to push him away with my foot he was getting so close” I told him

“Stay right there baby, and Ima be there real fast” he said, and I heard him load up his gun, and cock it

Oh boy these guys were in for a treat. About 30 minutes passed, and I saw Chris walking through the crowd

“Yooo Christopher” my best friend said giving him a handshake

“Thank you baby” I said as he came and sat next to me on the little couch

“Always baby, always” he said kissing my head

“Other than that creep how’s the birthday night going” he asked my friends

“Oh it’s going greattttt” they all said clearly very tipsy

I saw the guy again in the crowd watching us, and I knew he was about to come over

“That’s him Chris” I said tapping Chris, and having him look at the guy

Chris looked over at the guy dropping his face, and giving the guy a smug smirk

The guy still had the balls to walk over

“Ahhh the little boy toy” the guy said walking into our area

“Mmm I’d watch how I’m speaking to my man” I said to the guy

“Or what?” He said laughing

Chris laughed and leaned back allowing his pistol to be slightly exposed in his waistband.

“I’d choose my next words carefully” Chris said looking at the guy

“Who do you think you are” the guy said getting pissed

In a swift moment Chris got up, pulling the guy close to him, and placing the pistol at the guys dick

“I’m her boyfriend, and she’s been telling me you and your little stupid ass friends have been bothering her and her friends all night. Is this true” Chris asked him

“I don’t know what she’s saying” the guy said looking at Chris in fright

“IS THIS TRUE” he said pushing the barrel harder into the guys dick

“OKAY YES YES” he said getting scared

“If a lady tells you no, and she has a man you BACK THE FUCK OFF” Chris said to the guy

“Yeah yeah sure I got it” he said starting to sweat

“I’m not sure that you do get it…..maybe I have to pull the trigger” Chris said and started to cock the gun

“NO NO IM SORRY OKAY. I NEVER MEANT TO BOTHER THEM IM SORRY PLEASE LET ME GO” the guy started to weep into Chris arms

“Yeah, and guess what you’re paying for their whole tab, or I’ll be waiting outside for you, and I’ll split your fucking wig GOT IT” Chris said to the guy

“Yes I’m sorry I’m sorry” the guy said putting his hands up

“Now get the fuck outta here you fucking pussy before I change my mind and blow your dick off” Chris said pushing him back

The guy ran away, and Chris placed the pistol back in his waistband

“Fucking pussy….the fuck he thought he was” Chris said looking over his shoulder at the scared man

“Uhhh I love when you do that Chris” I said pulling him in to sit next to me

“I told you I’d do anything for you, and if it means popping someone…I’m gonna fucking do it” he said slinging his arm over my shoulder and giving me a kiss.

“To Chris for saving the day” my best friend screamed and we all cheered our cups together

I guess I’m in love with a shootah!

The End

I loveeeeee hoodrat Chris like okayyyyy😋🤞🏽. Lmk if yall liked this one as much at the first one 💋💋💋Also sorry I didn’t post at all yesterday I just wasn’t in the writing mood, but now we’re back🤭🫶🏽

-J💅🏽

[averymessyxmas]

Chapter 1: 25 Days before Christmas

Vada aka Sky: 

Location: New, York

 "So, as you guys know our Holiday collection has dropped and thanks to Sky our magazine has been flying off the shelf for the cover you did with the McKinney’s, bravo Sky our amazing stylist" Denise my boss said as she hugged me. Ever since I was a little girl, I always dreamed of being a fashion designer, I'm not there yet but I am a top stylist for the well-known Black Magazine Essence. I worked my ass off to be where I am today. I have the idea life, a Condo in New York, A 2019 Mercedes Benz all black with leather interior, a gorgeous boyfriend who is about to be a Doctor who I been with since College, so almost 9 years, I’m blessed. "Congrats Sky on the sellout" Maurice my coworker said. I smiled as I walked out of the building, I grabbed the keys from Valet and got into my Benz.

 "There she is my beautiful chocolate queen" Michael my boyfriend said to me as I walked into my condo, he was there holding roses, Michael Thompson God’s gift to me, how can I be so blessed to get a fine ass man like this who loves every inch of me, mmm. I leaned in and kissed him, smiling from ear to ear. "Baby, you didn't have to give me roses". He smiled at me and kissed all over me. I heard music playing it was "Best Part" By H.E.R. Michael grabbed my hand and led me to the living room that was well lit with small candles and the floor was covered in red rose petals. "Michael what is going on?" I asked nervously. He kept smirking, he grabbed a box off the table and got down on one knee, "I wanted to do this since our first time meeting at the Coffee Shop in Brooklyn but I wanted to make sure I was the man you needed me to be, and I wanted to wait for you to fully form into the rose I knew you would blossom into, I had this plan in my head of sitting down with your father and asking him for your hand but I can’t wait any longer so with that being said Vada Sky Richards will you marry me?” I nodded my head not being able to say anything, tears were pouring down my face like a water fall. “YES!” I managed to scream out, he put the ring on my finger and got up to kiss me. “I love you so much Sky” he said. “I love you, omg this feels so crazy I’m bout to be a wife, shit your wife!”. He softly smiled then grabbed my hands and sat me down. “There’s one thing though baby, I’m not going to marry you until I can have a conversation with your father and finally meet your family, it’s been 10years since you been home, you never talk about your family, you know everything about me and my family, you see my family more than your own but I know nothing about yours”. I sighed softly. “Michael we been through this, I don’t like talking about this”. He nodded and grabbed my hand, “I can’t marry you until I can see it for myself, I’m sorry Sky” He lightly took the ring off my finger and stared at it. I got up annoyed and went to the bedroom and screamed in my hand. I laid on the bed and looked at the ceiling. “God why? I was SOOO close”. I heard Michael leave the house, I pulled out my phone and stared at my mom’s number. “Come on Sky just do it, for Michael, for the ring”. I pressed the phone symbol and nervously bit at my lip as the phone dialed. “Richards Residence, Sharice speaking”. I heard my mother say. I sighed. “Hi Mom, its Sky” I said. “Who?” She said, I sighed I knew my mom only knew me as Vada. “Its Vada”. I could hear the annoyance in her voice. “You need some money or something Vada, you only ever call when you need something” I rolled my eyes. “No mom I called because I’m coming to Atlanta, I thought it be nice to spend Christmas with the family again like old times” I said sounding genuine although I was cringing. I could hear her laugh. “We haven’t had Christmas together as a family since before you went off to college and that was 10 years ago”. “Well mom, I’m coming home” I said. “Okay Vada well your brothers and sisters will be happy to see you” She said. “And Mom, I’m bringing my boyfriend Michael” I could here a smile in her voice. “Okay well then we look forward to meeting him Vay, your Grandma is going to be so happy to hear this”. After I got off the phone with my mom, I heard Michael come back in, he opened the room door and looked at me. “So, you want to go to Atlanta and meet the Richards family?” I asked. He smiled and nodded. “My ring sir?” I asked, he shook his head, “Nope, now I can do it right with your Pops and all”. I fake smiled. “Oh lovely”.

  Janessa:

Location: L.A.

 “Chase! Please stop crying for Mommy, Dylan! Help please” My husband Dylan walked into the room “What’s up baby?” I looked at him annoyed. “Your son is what’s up, I can’t work and take care of him and you at the same time Dylan, I understand that you got hurt and you’re going through a rough time, because you tore your ACL, but you still need to help out, we can’t afford this house or anything anymore with your checks, that shit is wearing thin” I stressed. He picked up our 2-year-old son Chase and looked at me. “Nessa, I’m trying to find something just give me some time to heal first, and I promise you, Ima find a job”. I nodded. Dylan used to play overseas, but he tore his ACL and can no longer play basketball. We were living a good life until that happened now its on me to carry us until he gets him a solid job. I was in the middle of sending in my last spreads for job my when my mom called. “Hello Mother” I said. “Are you coming to Atlanta for Christmas?” She said. I sighed. “Mom like last year and the year before no, it’s hard trying to get a flight last minute in L.A.” I lied to her. “Well okay your dad has that money you asked for, he said you need to come get it personally” She said. I groaned. “Okay mom, but a lot has happened in 4 years since you last seen me” I said. “Janessa I’m your mother I don’t care just bring your ass” She said and hung up. Dylan stood by the door playing with Chase. “Your family still doesn’t know you have a whole family of your own?” He asked. I nodded. “Well the last time dad met you he wasn’t so happy that you were umm white, so in order to keep getting money from him since I’m daddy’s favorite girl next to Nori, I just keep quiet” I said. He smiled, “Go to your family, and we will see you when you get back” He stated. I shook my head. “I’ll get the money first then I’ll introduce my family to my family. I mean were married now he has no say anymore”. I said so sure of what I was saying but inside I knew this was not going to go well once shit hits the fan, I’ve been hiding this for 3years.

  Nori:

Location: Atlanta

“You have 15minutes, no touching” The guard told me as I walked into Visitation. “Hey beautiful” Andre said to me as I walked in. Andre is 3 years older then me, We attended the same college and been together since my freshman year. He had got locked up on a drug charge 5 months ago. I tried to hold back my tears. I hadn’t seen him since his first week in Jail, I been avoiding him cause I didn’t want to see him in here caged up like this, plus other shit came up. Now seeing him, I couldn’t hold back. He had grown facial hair and looked rough. “Nor, don’t cry baby”. He tried to console me. “No touching!” The guards yelled. He clenched his fist. “You see me girl fucking crying!” He yelled. “Aye Dobbs chill out or the visit is over”. He sighed. “How you been, I see you got a little thick since I been in here, you ain’t been up here in a minute?” He said looking at me. I wiped my face and fixed my curls up into a bun. “I’m straight, just been busy with majorette practice, and games and shit, um plus I got finals this week then I’m going home for Christmas. What happened to your face?”. I said examining the scar I had just noticed above his eyebrow. He laughed a little. “I’m known a college rich kid with a drug charge in a prison with niggas that really be about that life, Nor it’s either fight or be somebody bitch” He stated. I nodded. He looked down at his hands. “I’ll be out before New Year’s, my lawyer said he can get this charge off my record and I can continue out my last year and graduate and be somebody, for you”. I smiled at the thought. “I was hoping you would be able to meet my family this Christmas but If my daddy finds out I’m dating a nigga in jail, he will not approve” I said. He shook his head. “I ain’t no criminal Nor, I got caught with coke that wasn’t mine in my car” I nodded. “I know, hopefully everything works out, for you” I said. He smiled. “3 more weeks baby, and I’m out. I can hug and kiss on you”. I blushed at the thought, I been feeling alone lately but I know it was hard for him being in here. “2 minutes left in mate” The guard said. I sighed. “When am I going to see you again?” He asked curiously, I can see the sadness in his face. “Soon, I promise I’ll make time” I told him. I got up and he kissed my hand. “I love you Nori” I smiled and mouthed it back. I walked out of the prison feeling sad, my twin Narkim was blasting Lil Baby and Gunna “Drip too Hard”. Narkim and I are fraternal twins, he was born 1 minute before me, we don’t look anything alike but we share a weird bond that most people call a “Twin Sense” He always knows my mood, if I’m sick or if somethings wrong vice versa, we can’t hide anything from one another. He unlocked the door for me. “How it go?” He asked. I shrugged. “Okay, I guess” I said. He kept looking at me. “You tell him?” He asked. I looked at him crazy. “Tell him what?” I asked. “We are twins fam, whatever going on with you, be going on with me and I’m a nigga” He said laughing. I smiled. “No, I haven’t”. I said. He shook his head. “Well if my mama and daddy find out, you in trouble” Narkim said. I pushed him. “If mommy and daddy find out you been selling for Mack your deader than me, and you dropped out of College, so I keep your secrets, you keep mine” I stated. “We twins, you my ride or die” He laughed. I felt my phone buzz. “Mommy calling” I said to Narkim. I put her on speaker. “Hey baby girl” My mom said. “Wazzam Mommy” Narkim said. “Good both my babies on the phone, so your sisters are coming for Christmas, and so is your brother MJ” She said. “Vada and Janessa in the same room?” Narkim said. I laughed. “It’s been 10 years since we all been together, Damien was 6 and you guys were 10, now you guys are all grown up this is going to be a good Christmas, It better be your Grandma Rudy is coming down here, and so are your cousins please don’t embarrass me or your father, plus we have an announcement to make” She said. We looked at each other. “Okay mommy we will be there” I said. “Yeah mommy and tell G-ma Rudy bring the Henny in a bottle this time and not in her travel shampoo containers” Narkim said. I nudged him. “You know what bye” she ended the call. I shook my head at him. “Now she knows Grandma Rudy be giving us liquor” I said. He shrugged. “Mommy said her and Daddy making an announcement, what do you think that means?” I asked Narkim. “After all them times they been arguing, I think its prob a divorce” He said. I rolled my eyes. Since I was born all I knew was my parents being together, even if shit was going sour they could at least just stick out. Narkim pulled up at my dorm. “Aight sis, I got business with Mack to tend to, I’ll pick you up late this week to head back to Mama and Daddy’s”. I leaned into the car window. “Please be safe Nar, you know Mack be with the shits, I said”. He smirked. “If anything happens to me, you’ll know sis, and Ima G, I aint worried bout nothing, and stop stealing my hoodies yo”. I laughed and leaned back as he sped off.

 Narkim:

Location: Atlanta

 After I dropped my sister off, I pulled up at Mack’s spot. Mack is my boss, my supplier. He gives me the goods and I sell it for him and get 20% back. It doesn’t seem like a lot but trust me, I got my own spot in Buckhead, and Im pushing a range, it’s a lot. My parents think I won my car from saving up when I was working at foot locker. This money got me all the clothes, shit and hoes I want. I walked into the spot. “Yo was up college boy” Mack said. I smiled. “What’s good boss”. I dapped him up. “I got a big delivery for you little nigga, going to get my pockets fat and yours, you down?” He asked. I nodded. Mack is not somebody to mess with word on the streets is he make niggas go missing, He only let a select few in his crew, he let me in cause my big bro MJ used to be down with him back in school, and he respect him a lot. “I got a big ass delivery coming on the 19th of December be here to come get it young blood, and oh yeah how’s your fine twin sister doing, I hear she got thick? He asked. I clenched my jaw, I hated when niggas tried to get at my twin like that. “She good, got her head in the books” I stated. He smiled. “That’s good keep an eye on her” I nodded and sighed. I talked with the crew for a minute for I headed over to Blue Flame’s where my girl Nisha worked. “Hey Narkim” This stripper Kit Kat said to me smirking. All the hoes want me, I’m convinced. “Yo where’s Nish?” I asked. She grabbed at my shirt. “In the back baby” She said. I smiled at her and nodded. I walked to the back and knocked on the dressing room door. Nisha’s friend Havana let me in. “Hey baby” I said as I kissed her cheek. She was putting all her money in the bag. “I told you, I got you” I told her. She smiled at me. “I know, but I like to get shit on my own”. I winked at her. “I love an Independent woman”. She rolled her eyes. “So look my fam having a family Christmas dinner and I know you ain’t got no fam like that, so I want you to meet my family”. I told her. She looked up at me and started laughing. “Boy bye” She said. I sat on the counter as she continued counting. “Im for real shawty” I said. She just looked at me. “Okay, I’ll come but if you folks start asking what my career is, I’m a stripper and I make money moves” She said. I laughed at her. “Nah, just say you a professional dancer, you trying to give madukes a heart attack shawty” I said. She laughed. Nisha and I been together for a little minute, I was serious about her being that she’s my number one, my main chick, my wifey and I wanted her to know it”.

  Damien:

Location: Atlanta

 “Damien Lamar Richards” Ms. Madison said to me breathlessly as she buttoned up her blouse. I zipped up my pants and smirked her. “Yes, Ms. Madison”. She kissed me some more. “We can’t do this anymore, I could lose my job”. I nodded nonchalantly, because she said this more than once, I mostly fuck with girls my age, but Ms. Madison was bad as hell and a challenge, plus she was a woman not know childish ass little girl. “I hear you Kristen” I said leaving her teachers closet. I grabbed my book bag, and was about to leave. “So do I get an A for fucking, I mean for my essay?” I smirked. She shook her head. “Damien it doesn’t work like that? But I can make that happen” She said. I smiled. “Thanks Ms. Madison, your tutoring really helps”. I laughed and walked out. I wasn’t in love with Ms. Madison, but she had a thing for me, and sometimes I get jealous. It makes me feel like I’m the shit to be smashing my English Teacher. I got in my car and drove to my house. “Hey Damien!” My mom called out to me. “Yes”. I closed the front door behind me and locked it. I walked into the kitchen and hugged her. “Hey, my baby boy, how was tutoring?” She asked. I smiled. “Good, I’m really getting better” I said. She smiled at me. “Well your sister Vada and Janessa are coming down and so is MJ” She told me. I looked at her crazy. “Who died mama?” I asked. She laughed. “Nobody, this is just the first family Christmas were having together since you were very young, and I’m excited to have the whole family under one roof”. She said washing off the lettuce. I chewed at my bottom lip. “They know Dad lives in another house?” I asked. She groaned. “No and I want to keep it that way till the time is right, lets get them all here first, catch up on moments lost then we will tell them until then you keep your mouth shut Damien” She said looking at me sternly. “Hey I ain’t saying shit” I said. She looked at me with a serious look. “Aye watch your mouth”. I kissed her cheek and smiled. “I love you mama” She rolled her eyes. “Mmmhm watch that mouth”. I grabbed a cookie and ran upstairs to chat with Nylah, my best friend. Nylah and I been best friends since we were babies. She always made me feel like myself. “What’s up fool” She said laughing. We were on facetime. I laughed at her. “What’s up La-La?”. She made a silly face. “Where were you after school?” She asked. I shrugged. “Tutoring” I lied. Even though she was my best friend I couldn’t tell her I was smashing our English Teacher.  

   Malcom Jr aka MJ:

Location: Washington, D.C.

 I sat on the couch watching the Falcons play the Dolphins. “Stop it Leiana! Give it baccckkk” My 5-year-old son Christian called for his 9-year-old sister Leiana to give his tablet charger back. “I need to charge mine too” She wined. I got up and shushed them. “Ayye yall stop it, Daddy watching the Falcons play”. They continued fussing at each other, I was about to get up when my wife Danielle walked in the house. “Yes Mark, I know that the deadline is this Friday, I will try my best to get in by then” She started giggling. “Shussh Mark, you know I will”. I tried to get her attention and she brushed me off to go to our bedroom and close the door. I sighed, always working late and shit. I paused the game and walked into the room she was giggling more in the room. She looked over at me and put her finger up. “Okay Mark, Ill see you tomorrow” She smiled and looked at me. “Hi Baby” She said taking off her shoes. “You aint seen your kids arguing in the living room?” I asked her. She looked at me. “Honey your like right there, I’m just coming home from a long day of work” She said. I folded my arms. “So, I don’t work? I bust my ass for this family every day, you barely see the kids”. I stressed, she sucked her teeth in. “Malcom come on don’t start this tonight we been having a great week, don’t start this again” She said. I waved her off and walked towards the door. “Malcom, please soon we will have time together as a family, your mother called me today” She said. I stood by the door and looked at her. “She wants us to come to Georgia for Christmas”. I groaned. “Why?” I asked. I hadn’t been down there since we had Christian. “She said it’s a big family gathering, and she wants us all there”. I nodded. “Aight”. She got up and kissed on my face. “Stop making that face MJ” She said. It felt nice getting some attention from my wife. I smiled a little. “Maybe I can cook and then after the game we can make another movie” She said winking at me. I smirked. “Aight bet, but Ima hold you to it” She smirked back and nodded. I walked out the room, and got the kids situated so they weren’t fighting anymore and continued to watch the game. I realized an hour and half and passed, she was still in the room. I got up and went to the door, I heard a soft giggle. I put my ear on the phone. “No, I’m going to Atlanta to visit family, I knowwww I wish I could be there with you too, well I got to go, I can’t wait to see you tomorrow”. I instantly thought about that white nigga Mark at her job. My fist clenched as I swung open the door, Danielle jumped. “Jesus Malcom you scared me!, Yeah um I see you tomorrow, you too bye” She rushed off the phone. “What happened to dinner?” I asked. She palmed her face. “OMG honey, Okay let me go order a pizza, Im so sorry” She got up and ran to change her clothes. “Baby, can you order a pizza?” She asked. “Yeah” I said. I seen her phone lying on the bed and I went to grab it. She walked out the closet, she came up to me and smiled and looked at me with a puppy dog face. “Please?” I smiled softly. “Okay”. “Oh goodness I got to look at my schedule for my meeting tomorrow, she grabbed her phone from my hand and went in the bathroom. I was curious to know if she was cheating on me.

[superjedders]

Reaching Out for Repercussions

"Jeez Gabe, ya never used to fight so dirty, s'min Talon teach ya?" The cowboy panted heavily, a gentle chuckle underlying his words as his peacekeeper leveled with the Reapers forehead. The so called, angel of death was on his knees wheezing and staring up at the gunslinger with a dark glint of hatred in his eyes. The white mask that typically adorned his features cracked and broken to allow shards of the man he was to show through. Patches of the old Gabriel Reyes masked with a smokey overtone and a scent of death that couldn't be replicated. Around the pair, a battle raged between Overwatch and Talon. Lena could be heard darting around with Genji at her side trying to take down the illusive widowmaker, Dva was teamed up with Lucio wearing down Talon agents while Torbjörn and Reinhardt took care of some hardier machinery Talon had brought to the fight. Each member had their own job to do, and for the Gunslinger, taking down Reaper had been his task. A task he had demanded repeatedly in meetings. A task he had assured other agents he was the only one capable of completing. A task that was his duty to fulfill. "It's Reaper...and lf you're expecting me to beg you're going to be waiting a long time ingrate." The deep gravelly voice of the Reaper drew an amused look to Jesse's face, the gunslinger shaking his head with a gentle sigh. He was more than aware of the blood trickling down the side of his face, a result of a blow delivered by the butt of Reapers empty shotguns not 10 minutes prior. The Cowboy took a moment to count his lucky stars that he was stood with the upper hand for once. He was still able to smell the gunpowder on him, thanking whatever gods that would listen for the luck he had been given. The cowboy had managed to avoid the brutal blasts from the Reapers shotguns and escape with just a few grazes and a new hole in the bottom of serape to show for it. " 'm not expect'n anythin' partner, and cut the act Gabe, I've known it's been you for a long time. Can't fool this cowboy I know ye too damn well" Jesse saw the Reapers clawed hand reach for the shotgun and flicked his weapon in warning tutting loudly "Leave that well alone darlin'. We're guna talk this out like gentlemen" the gunslinger rolled his eyes as a choked laugh forced it's way past the Reapers lips. "Talk?" Gabe shook his head "You've gone soft. I have nothing to say to you, so just kill me and be done with it. " he growled before a thought sprung to mind "Unless, you don't have the guts to go through with it?" his gaze met the cowboys, silently daring him to pull the trigger and prove him wrong. "Well, Deadeye? Take the shot" he goaded the gunslinger, scowling at him when the male showed no attempt to pull the trigger "Prove yourself, be the fucking hero" still the uninterrupted silence grated on his nerves, the cowboys eyes hidden by the brim of his hat, peacekeeper still leveled with between his eyes and yet not even a twitch on the trigger. "FUCKING TAKE THE SHOT!" spittle flew from Reapers lips as he barked at the former Blackwatch agent. Jesse shook his head, pushing the safety of his gun back into position with his thumb before letting his arm slowly fall to his side "No" he murmured, holstering the weapon "I ain't like you, and I ain't no hero." he licked his lips "Ima give ya a chance here Gabe" taking a moment to adjust his hat, brown orbs settled on the floor, his other hand resting on his hip before he cleared his throat and lifted his gaze again to lock eyes with his former Strike Commander. "A chance to what?" Reaper growled, eyes darting to his weapon briefly "Beg for my life? For forgivness? Because that's not going to happen-" "-im givin' ya the chance t'do the right thing." Jesse interrupted with a stern tone, his brow furrowing "Y'all gave me a chance years ago, bout time I returned the favour" Jesse sighed, scratching the scruff under his jaw before continuing "This ain't you Gabe. All the mindless killin' and torture? This shit is below even the Blackwatch belt. It's jus' not right and ye know it" a slow inhale allowed the cowboy to resume speaking "Jus' let us help ya. Angie reck'ns she can-" "-Angela?!" Reaper laughed, the noise resonating from his very core and sending a chill down Jesse's spine "She's the one who turned me into this...thing! This monster! She will pay for what she did to me, I will- "-She wants te help ye Gabe, she's been work'n on it fer months now. Jus' come with us and give it a chance"  "Don't act like you give a damn. You ran. Ran like a scared little boy all those years ago and now you're telling me to come back. For what?! TO be experimented on? Don't make me laugh. You're nothing but a coward!" Jesse pinched the bridge of his nose, inhaling slowly before shaking his head, refusing to allow the comments to spike his temper. "Y'all know me Gabe, 'm like an ornery squirrel. Can't sit in one place too long, I get all fidgety" he cracked a smile "Ye I ran, m'be I was a coward fer doin' so. But don't you ever tell me I didn't give a dam after all we did. Y'all set me on the straight an' narrow when nobody else would even look at me. Gave me s'min worth fightin' for and I can't never thank ye enough fer that" he glanced round briefly, aware that he was needed elsewhere in the battle and exhaled slowly to calm himself "Look, I'm not tellin' ye to come with me. I'm jus' askin' ya to consider it. We all wanna help ya Gabe, jus' give us the chance" the pair locked eyes, silence falling between them for a moment before Jesse cleared his throat, scratching the back of his neck. "Well imma leave ye to it, I'm needed elsewhere" his word startled Gabe who had briefly let his claws brush over his gun "Think about it partner" Turning on his heels the cowboy took a meager two steps before Reaper snatched up a shotgun and rose to his feet, quickly levelling it with the cowboys back. The inaudible click of the safety drawing a sigh from Jesse and causing the gunslingers shoulders to slump slightly as he raised his hands in a meek surrender. "If yer Guna shoot me in the back, at least make it quick" Jesse chewed on the inside of his bottom lip and averted his eyes skywards, waiting for the loud bark of the shotgun and inevitable pain that would surely follow. "You always were a cocky son of a bitch. How you lived this long never fails to surprise me" Reaper lowered his gun slightly, then his gaze "I'll consider your offer....Ingrate." Jesse turned slowly and let a grin tug at his features, causing Gabe to shake his gun once in warning "Until then, if I find you at the end of my gun again I will not hesitate to take the shot. Understand?" Jesse nodded once, tipping his hat in confirmation, unable to stop the gentle smile on his face and slight smugness about him. "Take care of yerself Gabe" he nodded once at the Reaper, turned on his heels and jogged away, spurs jingling gently with each stride. O O O O "Howdy Darlin' miss me?" Jesse slid in behind cover, startling the poor Swiss medic who was seeking refuge. "Gott verdant Jesse...where have you been and what happened to your face?" blue orbs scanned his rugged features, noting the blood on the side of his head and the burn marks in his serape and on his armour. "Ran into an' ol' friend. Gave him an offer, reck'ns he'll consider it" Jesse let his back lean against the flipped over car they were sheltering behind as he rammed a speedloader into his peacekeeper and flipped the barrel effortlessly back into position. The gunslinger could feel the surprise gaze burning into him and smirked at the medic a she silently mouthed the name of the old Blackwatch commander. "Bingo" his robotic hand pressed itself against the floor as he readied to head back into the fight "Fer now we jus' wait and see. With any luck he'll see sense an' come see us" The second Angela nodded the cowboy vaulted over the car, his gun barking three times in quick succession as he took care of some Talon operatives lurking off to the side,their bodies hitting the ground second apart.  O O O O "Gah...!"  The sound of a body hitting the floor and the yell over comms drew the gunslingers attention away from firing wildly at the nearest roof top. He had been supplying suppressing fire for Genji and Tracer, keeping Widowmaker trapped behind a chimney while they worked their way over. Peacekeeper still aimed at the roof he pressed a finger to his ear "McCree reportin' yalright?" "N...not really Eastwood..." Jesse was immediately scanning the area when the sound of the Brazilian Dj echoed through the comms thick with static. Tipping his hat back Jesse scanned the area looking for the male soon had the gunslinger making a beeline for him popping off two more rounds into the Talon agent that had been looking for an easy kill in the downed medic. "Hey Partner, what's the problem?" Jesse crouched down beside the medic, wincing briefly at the mangled sound that came from Lucios damaged weapon. Low notes were warbles of noise while higher notes were like nails on a chalkboard enough to have the cowboy reaching over to silence it. "Hey Eastwood...t...thought you could all use a hand...guess it didn't work out" The medic was in pain, a sheen of sweat glistening on his brow and a dark crimson stain soaking his side drawing a concerned frown from Jesse before he placed a finger to his earpiece. "Doc? We got wounded. Ima bring him to ya, be ready Angie" Jesse smirked gently "Y'all be alright. I've seen worse, jus' keep yer hand on that wound till Angies had a look" he glanced around cautiously, grateful for the rest of the team. They were stopping them from being sitting ducks on the battlefield. "Reck'n ye can stand?" an apprehensive look to the blades on Lucios feet punctuated his questions and caused the Brazilian to follow his gaze. "Ye-yeah" "Alright let's get ye up" Jesse wrapped an arm around Lucio, letting the Dj throw an arm around his neck before taking slow breath "On three....1...2.....3" He eased the man onto his feet, hearing the stifled cry of pain emitting from the medic. They took a moment, allowing Lucio to steady himself on his blades, his head hanging and pained inhales escaping him periodically. "Ready?" Jesse asked before slowly easing the man into motion actually finding himself grateful for the skates as it allowed him to basically wheel the medic towards their destination. "I'm sorry Eastwood..." Lucio gasped the apology, focusing on keeping his blades straight.  "Hey, you ain't got nutin to apologise for. Let's jus' get that wound seen to. Besides you bet me you would be able to change my taste in music, an' I ain't loosin' that bet" he felt Lucio shudder and realised it was a result of a laugh escaping him. "I'll change your mind cowboy...rest assured" he winced and lifted his gaze "Thanks Eastwood" a smile spread across his pained features, Jesse shrugging off the thanks and gently getting Lucio to stand on his own for a second while he scouted ahead. It wasn't too far, providing they could rely on the other agents distracting Talon. He was soon moving with Lucio again, the medic trying his best to ease up on his grip and apologising softly when sharp waves of pain would cause him to grip tightly, embedding his fingers into the cowboys arm. Jesse didn't mind, he'd been on both sides of this and a bit of bruising to his arm wasn't going to kill him, nor would the bullet wound lucio was dealing with- "Look out!" Jesse had a split second to react and immediately shoved Lucio away, sending the already injured Medic sprawling to the floor. His gloved hand reached instinctively towards his peacekeeper, but the speed in which the large man closed the distance was too much for the gunslinger. Brown hues widened in alarm, the cowboy taking a half step back before the large golden fist collided square with his chestplate,  his feet leaving the floor, a feeling of weightlessness washing over him followed by excruciating pain and the sweet embrace of darkness. The loud bang that echoed as the cowboy connected with the concrete wall drew a number of concerned glances. The brickwork cracked and crumbled slightly, a cloud of debris slowly dispersing skyward and revealing the scene. The gunslinger had left a dent in the wall comparable to the scenes at Numbani airport a few months prior. Sat on the floor, coated with brick dust, his head was lulled forwards burying his chin in his chest with his eyes closed. The gunslinger unaware of the large shadow approaching his unconscious form,the large male flexing the doomfist gauntlet at his side. "You should seize opportunities when they present themselves Reaper. Do not show weakness, it will be your downfall" Akande glanced back at the cloaked male, a stern expression on his brow before he reached down and plucked the cowboy hat from McCree's head. The tatty fabric drew a look of disgust from the Talon leader as he looked it over about to toss it aside when a yell from behind grabbed his attention. "McCree!" Genji was the first to try and get to the scene, leaping down from a nearby roof and running towards the pair, drawing his sword. His feet were light on the ground, silent but as Akande watched the ninja approach he simply smirked before securing the Doomfist gauntlet around the cowboys chest and beginning to tighten his grip. Genji skidded to a halt immediately, cussing under his breath and watching helplessly as Akande chuckled at him. "Try me cyborg. I will crush him like an egg if you even move an inch" he could see the anger radiating from the suit and was about to remark when a strangled cough escaped the cowboy in his grip. Blood spurred past the gunslinger lips, his eyes struggling to focus before he realised the danger he was in and reached for his gun only to grunt ad the grip around his torso tightened. "Be still...you have a very important role to play" Akande hissed. Jesse drew in a pained wheeze and shook his head "N...whassat?" His words slurred together, every breath rattling in his chest and sending shockwaves of pain through his ribcage. His brown hues shifted to settle on Genji first,the ninja more than ready to strike given the chance before he looked to Lucio. The medic had propped himself up and was watching with an alarmed expression, ignoring the blood coating his side. "Release him!" Genji spat the orders angrily, grateful when Lena blinked into view, horrified by the scene unfolding. "Why would I do that? I have collateral here and you? You have nothing." Akande hauled the gunslinger to his feet, ignoring the pained animalistic noise that escaped him and keeping the doomfist gauntlet secured on him,  the tatty cowboy hat still held in his other hand. "You will let us pass. You will allow Talon agents to leave and in return I won't crush the cowboy into dust" he could see Overwatch agents straggling in to find the scene,  nervous gazes passed between them. Deafening silence filling the air as the offer was contemplated. "Stand down. Genji, Tracer step aside" the instruction came across the comms from Soldier 76 and despite Talon being unable to hear what was said it clearly bristled the agents as fury and confusion set in. "Stand down Genji..." The cyborg growled at the command before stepping aside, tightening his grip on his sword angrily. "Smart choice" Akande shoved the cowboy into motion, watching the gunslinger struggle to stay on his feet, head hung and brown hues fixed on the floor. One foot infront of the other was difficult but he would be dammed if he was going to let himself be frog marched away like some trophy. Jesse drew a slow breath before subtly unhooking a flashbang from his side, waiting for just the right moment to- The flashbang erupted with a blinding light, Akande rearing back and shielding his eyes for a moment. Jesse rounded on his heels and pulled his gun, slamming the robotic limb against the hamer to fan the bullets. Needless to say, he was surprised when the Doomfist gauntlet slammed into his gun, knocking it from his hands and sending it skittering across the pavement. "Sombra now!" The electricity went down in an instant, plunging the area into darkness and cutting out various electronics. Genji had moved to dash forward and assist only to find his enhancements failing and sending him flat on his face, communications went down for all Overwatch agents and McCree found his robotic limb hanging unresponsive at his side. "Nice try cowboy..." Jesse heard the voice dangerously close to his ear before catching glimpse of the still functioning Doomfist gauntlet as it swung at him, pummelling him into the ground. His head bounced of the pavement violently, the blow driving the air from his lungs before Akande loomed over him. His vision was swimming, the doomfist gauntlet pressing down on him to keep him pinned against the ground. As Akande raised his other fist with a smirk Jesse squeezed his eyes shut before the blow connected with his face and the world went dark. "Move out! We're done here!" Akande hissed over comms, hauling the unconscious gunslinger over his shoulder with ease and beginning to walk away only pausing when he heard a hissed command to stop from behind him. Glancing over his shoulder he chuckled at the sight of Genji desperately clawing to try and get back on his feet, cussing his enhancements and no doubt glaring daggers through his visor. Plucking the tatty cowboy hat off the floor he gently tossed it like a frisbee, watching it skip once off the ground and gently settle in of the cyborg, his hand grabbing at it. "We will stop you..." Genji hissed the words angrily, drawing a smirk from the Talon leader. "Stop me? Like that?" He laughed "It'll take much more than that to stop me, but you are welcome to try" turning away he left the cyborg with his words and disappeared towards extraction just as the lights returned to the area. Not bad for a days work.

[uberff]

Chapter 4

Robyn

Months later

“Baby can you focus? On me…” I sang lowly as I tapped on the steering wheel. I was stuck in traffic, but I honestly didn’t mind because pandora was hittin’.

I was on my way to Kai’s house to show him the designs I’ve been working on for my fashion show. I’ve been working on them for quite some time now and I can’t wait to see the outcome. The very first collection I did was a success, and I know this one’s gonna be even better.

Besides working on my designs, I’ve been looking for some where else to stay. I know O gets tired of me messing up shit all the time. Plus, I think it would be better if I was to be on my own for now. I feel like it’ll teach me a lot.

The traffic had finally sped up and I was happy because I had to pee. I’ve been drinking hella water lately and I noticed that I have to pee way more than when I don’t drink it. I’ve been doing this water challenge and it’s honestly been going great. I wouldn’t even look at a water bottle last year.

My music had came to a stop, indicating that I had a call. Looking down at my phone, Kai’s name flashed across it so I answered.

“Damn what happened to I’m around the corner?” His raspy voice blared throughout my new matte black range that I bought myself.

“I was stuck in traffic.. I’ll be there in like 2 minutes.” I assured him as I got off of the freeway. I would’ve been at his place a long time ago, but traffic was the problem.

He had just got back in town and hadn’t been asleep especially since I was coming over. I told him he could take a nap before I came, but he said that if he did he wasn’t gonna get up.

“Aight.. well the door opened.” He said before hanging up. Dropping my phone in my purse, I grabbed my strawberry lemonade from Wendy’s and started to sip some of it as I stopped at a red light.

Just like I had promised, I was at his place 2 minutes later. Grabbing his food, I made sure the doors were locked before walking in his house like I lived here.

Before I even opened the door, I heard Used To This blasting throughout the living room. I know his neighbors hate him.

Shutting the door behind myself, I walked in only to see him on the couch bobbing his head to the music while he was on his laptop. He was probably doing something work related. You would never catch him not working.

“Ouuuuu, you brought food.” He smiled as he cut the music down and came to greet me with a hug and kiss on the cheek. He had on some sweats and a durag, looking like a whole meal.

“Yea I felt bad when you said you haven’t had any sleep yet..” I said as he waved me off.

“It’s cool, I’m used to it.” He bit into his burger as he looked over at me. He told me that once his daughter died he hardly ever got any sleep. I never asked him how she died, but I’m pretty sure he’d tell me once he’s ready. It’s not my business anyways.

“Aight so what you got for me..” he asked as he sipped some of his drink before snaking his arm around my shoulder.

“Wellllll,” I paused as I pulled my book of designs out of my purse onto my lap. “These are for my spring collection.. which is why I used all the bright and bold colors.” I explained to him as I flipped through all the pages. He was nodding his head, stroking his beard so I assumed he liked them?

“Damn,” he paused as he looked throughout the whole book.

“This is dope foreal.. bitches been loving this trend lately so this was a good idea, I like. You got a gift, ma. I honestly thought you was bout to show me some trash ass shit.” He complimented, earning a laugh from me.

“Why would you think that?”

“Cause you know bitches be will go buy a iron on patch and slap it on something and swear they know fashion.” He said as I busted out laughing because that was actually true.

“But nah.. you proved me wrong and I’m proud of you. They gone love this shit.” He said as he kissed me on the forehead, sending butterflies in my stomach.

Kai and I have been seeing each other for months, and I got butterflies around him every time we saw each other like the first time we met. It was crazy..

“Thank you Kai.. that really means a lot coming from you.”

“Ain’t no thang but a chicken wang.” He said as he did the little snap thing with his fingers as I rolled my eyes playfully.

“You found any models yet?” Shaking my head no, I was about to speak until he beat me to it.

“You should throw a lot of brown skin models in there since you got all these bright and neon colors. Their melanin will reallllllllly make the colors have that you know…. pop and look good n shit. That’s my idea though.. you ain’t gotta use it if you don’t like it.” He shrugged. His words started to process in my head and.. it actually didn’t sound too bad.

“No.. that sounds like it would be beautiful..”

“Foreal?” He rose an eyebrow. I don’t know why he’s surprised. He’s a business man, he should be used to coming up with great ideas.

“Yes!” I yelled excitedly. I couldn’t wait until I had this all planned out. I knew the outcome was going to be beautiful.

While I was deep in thought, I noticed that his head was now on on my chest and I could hear his light snores. I rubbed my fingers over his waves the correct way, making sure not to mess them up. He’d be ready to kill somebody.

He truly looked like he was sleeping so peacefully and I didn’t want to wake him, but I needed to get home. My room was dangerously dirty and I’ve been meaning to clean it up but I just haven’t had the time to. On top of that, I need to wash my hair asap.

“Kai..” I lightly shook him as he wrapped his arms tightly around my waist. It kind of made me feel secure.

“Kai.. I gotta go.”

“Nah.”

“Nah?” I questioned with a chuckle.

“Just wait until I’m in a deep ass sleep..” he mumbled tiredly. I knew he meant he wanted me to stay because he couldn’t really sleep alone.

“Ok, just let me go get a blanket.” I told him as he sat up rubbing his eyes.

“Might as well go in my bed then.” He said as he stood up and sluggishly walked to his room with me trailing behind him. Plopping down in his bed, I made sure I was comfortable before he got on top of me.

“Rub my hair again.. that shit felt good.” He said as he laid his head on my stomach and snaked his one of his arms around my waist.

One minute into massaging his scalp, I could hear his snores again. “Poor baby was tired.” I cooed as I rubbed his back. I guess I might as well get comfortable, because ain’t no way I could get out of this death grip he had me in.

**

I was now home washing my hair, and I was becoming hungry as hell. After washing all of the conditioner out, I applied some leave in before drying my hair with a t-shirt. It air drys way faster that way.

“A sandwich sounds nice.” I said to myself as I cleaned up the mess I had made before going into the kitchen.

My phone had lit up, and I ain’t have no friends or anything so I knew it was Kai. I was complaining though.

Kai🤤: Yo I slept good as fuck

Me: I see.. I left over 3 hours ago I thought you would’ve been up by now sleepy head

Kai🤤: I would’ve but I had a dream and I barely get those so I stayed sleep 🤷🏽‍♂️

Me: about?

Kai🤤: sum weird shit 🤔

Me: like?

Kai🤤: ion know.. just remember I was fucking Oprah

Me: bye

Laughing as I sat my phone on the counter, I noticed it light up again but he was gone have to wait. This sandwich was really calling my name.

As I was making my sandwich, Jaylen had came in laughing loudly with food in his mouth. There were pieces of food flying every where, slightly killing my appetite.

“Nigga you look like an ankle.” He laughed, referring to Odell. They stayed saying dumb shit.

“Can you close your mouth or go some where with that?” I asked, annoyed with his presence. I don’t understand why he’s always here like he doesn’t have a place of his own.

“Fuck off, always complaining bout some shit. Why you worried bout me for?” His face twisted up.

“Because you’re spitting food everywhere and if it gets on me, you’re not gonna like the outcome.” I smiled politely.

“Man is you done or is you finished?”

“Odell you better get your boyfriend before I do cause Ima hurt his feelings!” I yelled as I heard O chuckle.

“Quit fucking wit her Jaylen!”

“Ain’t nobody fucking wit her butter bean head ass.” He sucked his teeth as he opened the fridge.

Ignoring him, I proceeded to finish making my sandwich. “You supposed to put the meat first.” I heard him say as I sucked my teeth. I was about to get real disrespectful.

“Ho, why is you here?”

“I’m just saying…I used to work at Schlotzskys.”

“Nigga there’s no correct way to make a sandwich, shut up.”

“You know you got a smart ass mouth, huh?”

“You know you annoying, huh?” I rolled my eyes.

“You know I don’t give a fuck, huh?”

Since I was finally done with my sandwich, I sat it on a paper towel on the counter and went to the fridge to pour a glass of juice. Some Minute Maid would be bomb with this sandwich.

I definitely needed a bomb movie to watch to go with this bomb sandwich.

When I spun around with my glass of juice, I realized that there was like a good two bites subtracted from my once whole ass sandwich. I rolled my eyes to the gods and focused them on Jaylen who now resembled a tomato, trying to surpress his laughter by biting on his lips.

“Jaylen!” I screamed. He finally let out his horse laugh and showed half of my sandwich all chewed up, because of course he had to laugh with his mouth open.  I hope he chokes.

“Shut up, nigga. Just make a new one.” Usually, I wouldn’t have the energy to but I really had a taste for a sandwich.

There was silence between us for a second, all you could really hear was the crowd shouting from the football game O was watching. I was too focused on making my sandwich but I felt a pair of eyes on me. I looked up and sho'nuff Jaylen was giving me bedroom eyes.

“What?” I mumbled, licking mayonnaise off of my finger. He licked his lips before talking, almost like he was thinking before talking. Like, he was trying to consider my feelings. Because usually, he’s SO outta pocket.

“Where you been for the past few days?” He asked with his fist on his cheek.

“I been busy.” I shrugged while putting the finishing touches on my sandwich. Could’ve been a hella boss at Subway.

“With who?”

“Damn, 50. What is this, 21 Questions? Would you tell me who or what you’ve been doing?”

“Ashley, Nia, Kayla-”

“Bye, Jaylen.” I collected my sandwich and my juice and he stopped me, of course dying of laughter.

“Nah, wait. Robyn, stop.” He tried to swipe hair behind my ear and I swerved him like Joseline would do Stevie. Channeling my inner bad bish.

“Nah, for real. I miss yo lil’ childish ass being around.” He said sincerely. Niggas always miss you when you done fucking with they ass.

I chewed my sandwich obnoxiously in his face and he chuckled nervously. Doofy ass.

“So…” I tried to change the subject.

“You ain’t miss me?” He asked coming around the counter to tower over me. I took another bite of my sandwich before he took it and set it down.

“You got one more time to limit my food.”

“Whatchu gon’ do?” He mumbled, our lips inches away from one another’s. His hands traveling down to the front of my leggings.

My game face was on but I was shuddering like a Nikon camera at a bomb ass photoshoot. I was tired of giving him satisfaction and squirming under his gaze.

“Exactly.” He said once I did nothing but think. I smiled and let him bury his head in my neck. He kissed it softly and a moan slipped out but I masked it as a giggle. His presence was everything but his attitude was not poppin’.

He thought he had it. Nah. I'ma play with him though. He picked me up and put me right next to my sandwich, I looked down at it and he held my chin and brought me back to meet his gaze.

“Stop thinking about ya dry ass sandwich. Why you can’t look at me?”

“Because I don’t have time for your games, Jaylen.” I said truthfully.

“I ain’t playin’ though.” I chewed on the inside of my cheek and weighed out my options. His morale is at a 4 right now but he’s usually at a 10. Damn, why he acting right when I have Kai? Issa setup.

“Finally.” I whispered, bringing his freckled face closer around the same time my phone started ringing. I grazed my lips with his before hopping off the counter with my sandwich and answering Kai’s call.

“Nigga, you thought.” I yelled over my shoulder, took a bite of my food and continued conversing with my bae who actually acts right.

Kai

Looking over at my clock, I cursed to myself because it was 2 going on 3 in the afternoon. I never sleep this long, but I was honestly tired as fuck. A nigga been working and traveling back to back and I haven’t really got the time to just lay back and sleep. All a nigga take is naps and that ain’t shit.

Robyn’s cold feet had brushed against my legs, letting me know that she was still here asleep. No wonder I slept so long. “Aye you know it’s bout to be 3, right?” I whispered in her ear as she didn’t say a word. Shrugging, I got up and went to go take a much needed piss.

Afterwards, I washed my hands and then brushed my teeth. Once I was done with my morning routine, I rubbed my hands together before taking off my durag. Bout to make muhfuckas drown.

“Yeen gotta do em like that Kai.” I mumbled to myself as I examined my waves in the mirror. My shit was hittin.

“Kai, nobody care about that pond!” I heard Robyn’s morning voice say from the bedroom. She knew that once I took my durag off, nobody could tell me shit.

Cutting the light off, I walked back into the bedroom as I locked eyes with her. Baby girl’s hair was a nest, but she was still the baddest in my eyes.

I swear Robyn had that one of a kind beauty. That natural beauty.. they don’t make em like her anymore. “Good morning Kai.” I heard her say as she got up to hug me. I realized that she was wearing one of my shirts and it looked hella sexy on her.

“Good morning beautiful, you sleep good?” She started blushing, looking cute as hell.

“Did I? I was literally in heaven.”

“Do you usually sleep in like this?”

“Not at all..”

It was the head she gave me last night that had a nigga sleeping like a baby. Ion know where she learned that shit but she deserve an award.

I cooked last night so she came over and I planned on just watching movies and shit but we ended up conversing on some heavy shit and one thing led to another. We ain’t have sex. She been let me know that she wasn’t ready for that yet, and I didn’t mind. I wanted her to be comfortable with me.

Grabbing my phone off of the nightstand, I seen multiple messages from my assistant on the lock screen. “Fuck,” I stressfully sighed as I scratched the back of my head.

Assistant🤞🏾: remember, important meeting tomorrow!

I looked at the time she sent it and it was at 12:53. I must’ve been too busy with Rob to even notice.

Assistant🤞🏾: Kai! Where are you?

Assistant🤞🏾: If you’re not here in the next 10 minutes, you’re out of luck. Everyone’s getting tired of waiting of waiting on you. You always take your sweet ass time.

Assistant🤞🏾: you just missed out on a MAJOR opportunity. I tried everything I could 🤷🏽‍♀️

Sighing, I started to text her back. I swear that meeting was the last thing on my mind. I had completely forgot since I’ve been taking care of all this other shit.

Me: Kayla can you plz reschedule?

Assistant🤞🏾: are you serious right now Kaiden? You didn’t even have a good reason not to show up to this meeting, so what makes you think they’re going to want to work with you again? You just made me and yourself look bad.

I knew she was upset, because she never calls me by my government. She had worked hella hard to get this meeting set up and she went out her way to get some very important people to come, but I honestly had overslept and wasn’t thinking about any of that.

This wasn’t my first time not showing up to a meeting either. The first time, we had got into a big argument the previous night and she had pissed me off to the point where I was livid. If I had faced her the next day at that meeting, I know I would’ve did something I was gone regret.

Kayla was a childhood friend of mines. We used to fuck around here and there until after that argument, we both felt like we should just keep it strictly business. We both know we need each other and we make a bomb ass team, so little petty arguments about relationships had to go.  

Me: I’m sorry.. It won’t happen again.

Assistant🤞🏾: and you expect me to trust you when you do shit like this? I don’t care about that baby ass apology Kai, actions speak louder than words! Everyday I work my ass off and damn near break my neck for you only to be nonchalant about this! Start taking shit more serious or you gone be looking for another assistant.

Reading over her message actually killed my mood. It made me feel bad as shit. She may get on my nerves sometimes, but she always goes above and beyond for me so the least I can do is start taking shit more serious, be considerate, and start making better decisions.

“Why you got a frown on your face?” Robyn asked as she grabbed my face, making me look at her and not my phone.

“I missed an important meeting today and my assistant fussin’ and shit and now I feel like shit.”

“Oh god, was it my fault?”

“Not at all.. I was supposed to been had this in mind by yesterday anyways.” I mumbled as I ran my thumb across the picture of my baby girl in my chain. I looked up at Robyn only to see her staring at it.

“You got anymore pictures of her?” I had a whole room full of my baby girl’s things. She would never be forgotten.

“Do I?” I laughed as I went to my closet to go get the basket full of some her things. Anything I didn’t have, her mama had it.

Robyn started looking through the pictures with a smile on her face. “She looks like a little chocolate princess.” She cooed as she showed me a picture of me and my baby girl from her 3rd birthday. Damn I miss her so much..

“Is this you in the back? This looks really old, how old were you?” She laughed. I was tall and scrawny with no beard. In other words, ugly as shit.

“Bout 16..” I mumbled as I scanned through more pictures.

“16?” She asked with an eyebrow rose.

“Yea.. I had her pretty young.” I shrugged. Growing up in a Hispanic household, it wasn’t that big of a deal for your son to have a kid early.

Being the young, careless, and reckless nigga I was back in high school, I ended up getting my girl pregnant at 15. My mom was more happy than mad if anything.

“What was her name?”

“Kaila.. you hungry tho?” I asked, trying to change the subject as I neatly placed everything back in the bucket. I didn’t want to get too emotional.

Nodding like she hadn’t eaten in days, she stood up and led the way to the kitchen. I had to do a double take, cause I saw my brother sitting on the couch. Kendall was my corny ass 17 year old brother who swore he was the shit.

“Sup foo’?” He gave me a head nod as he kicked his crusty ass feet on my table.

“Bitch get them fucking sky scrapers off my table. Fuck wrong wit’ you boy?” I knocked them down. I don’t know what this nigga’s problem was.

“Buggin’, my feet pretty.” He scoffed.

“Who dropped you off?” He had his own car, but my mom had took it a couple of weeks ago cause this nigga was hard headed.

“Ma.. she said I had to go wit yo Nut ass.” He smirked, slightly pissing me off. My mom was forever pinning this nigga on me whenever I was supposed to go some where. Just when I was about to speak, Robyn had came and sat next to me.

“Why you ain’t tell me you had a girl over? Got me lookin’ mad crusty.” He tried to fix himself as he noticed Robyn.

“You look like that everyday, ain’t shit new.”  

“Fuck allat. How you doing? I’m Kendall.” He tried to mac as he stuck his hand out for her to shake.

This nigga was a clown. Having him over is about to be hell.

**

Tapping her thigh so that she could get up, I sat down and brought her back down on my lap.

“Your brother’s sweet.” She turned around to look at me.

“Ion know about allat but he did brighten my shitty ass mood.”

“You know what’ll brighten it more?”

“If you let me bend you over on this balcony and fuck the shit outta you?” Her eyes had lit up. 

“Kai!”

“I’m playing, chill. What is it though?”

“If you let me get on your back.” She wiggled her eyebrows.

“Hell nah you know a nigga got that old man back.” I wasn’t over exaggerating either. A nigga back was always hurting cause my mom always wanted me to move shit all around her house because she’s so damn small

“Want a massage?” She offered as we stepped foot in my room. I needed to clean in here. There were clothes scattered around from me trying to find a fit earlier.

“Please..” I told her as I took off my shirt and plopped down on my stomach. As the bed dipped, I felt her get on top of me.

“Don’t be gentle with that shit neither get all in t- goddamn…” I groaned as I felt her hands dig deep in my back. She knew what the fuck she was doing like she had been doing this shit for years.

“Like that?” She whispered seductively in my ear.

“Fuck yes..” an accidental moan slipped out as she giggled. I didn’t even give a damn, this shit was heaven.

After a few seconds, I heard my voice on her phone causing me to suck my teeth. This damn girl caught me slipping and recorded me. “If you don’t delete that shit.” I sat up and tried to reach for her phone.

“Nope.” She laughed.

“Alright.. Ima get you back.” I nodded as I thought about a plan.

Jaylen

In the middle of eating my delicious ass pie, I heard a few knocks constantly banging on my door. This would be the 5th time I yelled that it was open. Nobody can just show up to my door step without asking for me at the front desk, so it was obviously someone that I knew. Whoever it was, was 3 seconds away from catching a bullet up their ass.

Just as I was starting to ignore them again and focus on my food, they started up. “YO! ITS FUCKING OPEN!” I yelled louder than before as I threw my fork down. I swear to god if it was Odell, I was gonna hurt this nigga. I wasn’t in the best mood, because I didn’t get any sleep and I woke up with a mean headache. All I wanted to do was eat my pie and watch some tv but I guess that was too much to ask.

The knocking continued, making me suck my teeth and get ready to beat somebody’s ass. What bored ass muhfucka rings the doorbell for 10-15 fucking minutes? Has to be somebody with no life.

Walking further towards the living room, I swung the door open only to have the delightful view of my beautiful little sister. My shitty attitude immediately went away.

“JAYLA!” I yelled excitedly as I picked her dainty body up and spun her around. Her loud giggles could be heard throughout my condo.

“Bubba, I missed you!” She smiled as she grabbed my cheeks, squeezing them. Chuckling at her antics, I played with her long pigtails before putting her down.

“Damn ya old man don’t get no love?” I heard my dad’s voice making me laugh. I was gonna smack this nigga for ringing my doorbell, cause it honestly made my head hurt worse. I knew it wasn’t Jayla, because she was too short to even reach it.

“Why you ring the doorbell like you aint got a key?”

“Nigga knowing you, I ain’t wanna just barge in here since my baby with me.”

“Man.. I ain’t doing shit and like a normal person you could’ve just called.” I told him in a duh-like manner. He just shrugged.

“That’s one thing about ya pops.. I ain’t normal.” We walked further into the living room before sitting on the couch. Jayla had sat next to me, tracing the tattoos on my arm.

“Oh I know.” I rolled my eyes as he laughed. I looked over at Jayla and she was playing some game on my phone. How she got my phone? I don’t know.

“So what brings you he-”

“Damn its cold as hell in he- JAYLA!” I heard Odell’s voice as he ran in and picked up Jayla. She was just as excited as him.

“Why you ain’t tell me she was coming?”

“I didn’t know she was. Speaking of that, not to be rude.. but what made you show up?”  I asked my pops. If I would’ve known they were coming, I would’ve cleaned up and had something planned instead of sitting in here all day. I could’ve threw them a party or something.

“She been on my ass about  staying over here and she’s finally out of school and you said you wanted to watch lil mama for the summer. I mean, I ain’t letting you keep her the whole summer but maybe 2 weeks..”

“Why not?” I didn’t see what was wrong with keeping her the whole summer. I barely get to see her unless I fly out there cause her crooked ass mom never wants her to come out here.

“Nigga that’s my only daughter.. I can’t be away from her too long and her mama would definitely say hell no.” He stated.

“I hardly get to see her pops. At least a month?”

“I’ll see..” he sighed before he pulled out his phone and started texting. I’m guessing he was talking to his bm. She could kiss my ass if she didn’t wanna let Jayla stay longer. I don’t see what the big deal was. I’m responsible, I know how to handle kids. Yea I smoke, but of course I wouldn’t do it around Jay. I would be an idiot.

“Nigga you smoke like all day everyday, how you gone handle that?” I heard Odell ask as my head snapped in his direction. I swear if looks could kill this nigga would be deader than disco music.

I glared at him, before he noticed he had said too much. How dumb did he think I was? “Really Jaylen? And you want me to let you watch her for that long? On top of that, you be letting all them scheming ass hoes run in and out here. I don’t want all them people around her.” His speech was shorter than I thought. Usually he could go for hours.

“Pops, I’m your son. You should know I would never put Jayla in any harm or dangerous situations. Yes I smoke, but I planned on stopping if she was gonna be here. And you ain’t gotta worry about me having anybody besides Odell over. You got my word on that.” I explained to him. I knew he trusted Odell, so if anything was involved with him he’d say yes. He felt as if Odell was the more mature and responsible one and I don’t know why. This nigga more childish than me.

“Alright.. I trust you then. Don’t let me down, or that’s yo ass.” He stressed sternly.

“Alright baby girl, you gone be a good girl for ya brother?” My dad asked as she nodded quickly with a big smile on her face.

“Good. Im bout to go, come give your daddy a kiss.” Within a blink of an eye, she ran and jumped in his arms. They both talked for a little while and exchanged goodbyes before he started to leave.

“Ima FaceTime you every 2 minutes for her.. better answer too.” And with that he left. By now, it was just Jayla and I.

“What you wanna do pumpkin?”

“Hmmm.. can we make smores?”

“At this time of the day?” I asked with an eyebrow raised. She nodded anxiously and I stood up before laughing. I could never say no to her. She was spoiled as hell.

“Alright then, smores it is.” Jumping up and down on our way to the kitchen, I looked in the pantry to see if I had everything for the s'mores.

“Bubba, can I have a boyfriend?” She asked as she struggled to reach the sink. Picking her up, I held her high enough to where she could wash her hands.

“Boyfriend? You watch too much tv.”

She just giggled. “Jayla why would you ask me that?”

“Odell is cute.” She shrugged as I shook my head but couldn’t help but laugh. No wonder she was always so excited to see him, she had a crush on him.

Robyn: is my jacket over there

Me: yea prob idk

Robyn: could you just leave it outside of your door

Me: really dude.. that’s the dumbest shit I’ve ever heard

Robyn: no what’s dumb is how you tried to stunt on me

I sighed realizing that she was about to write a whole fucking speech that I honestly wasn’t even gonna read. Females kill me with that. Writing a whole book for what? Shit was a waste of time.

Me: alright whatever

“Hold on right quick Jayla, stay here.” I told her as I went to the closet to get Robyn’s pussy ass jacket.

Leaving it outside my door like she asked, I shrugged and closed it before going back in the kitchen. I hope somebody steals her shit.

A couple of seconds later, I got another text.

Robyn: this isn’t even mines wtf 🤦🏽‍♀️

Me: well u come fucking look for it then instead of sneaking around and shit like u doin now

Difficult ass was starting to piss me off. Let me just put my phone away.

“Aight I’m ba- I told you to wait.” I smacked my lips as I noticed Jayla eating some of the snores she had already made.

“You took long Bubba..” she shrugged as she pushed all the items my way, since she was done with hers. So much for spending time together..

After talking to Jayla about almost everything, I started to get her ready for bed. Once I sang to her, she was out like the light. Just in time, my pops text me.

Pops🤘🏽: where my pumpkin

Me: in its field

Pops🤘🏽: what

Me: sleep in my bed 😂 she’s safe pops damn.

Laughing to myself, I looked over at Jayla to see her sound asleep. Making my way towards the bathroom, I cut the shower on and stripped out of my clothes before stepping in.

I ain’t really wanna stay in too long so after 20 minutes I got out. I was trying to sleep harder than a baby.

Wrapping a towel around my waist as I got

out of the shower, I hummed to the music that was coming from my tv

Applying lotion all over my body, I followed up with some deodorant and replaced my towel with a pair of basketball shorts. Once I slid into some socks, I cut the light off and made my way into the kitchen. I was thirsty as shit.

I stopped at first because I had heard some shit, but maybe I was tripping. Jayla was asleep so I knew it wasn’t her.

Seeing a black shadow by the closet, i furrowed my eyebrows. I know I ain’t getting robbed.. “Yo what the fuck,” I spoke out as the person screamed and decked me right in the nose before I could even move a muscle.

I fell to the ground, groaning in pain as I held my nose.

The lights had cut on and there Robyn stood, standing over me with her hand over her mouth. I should’ve known it was her dumb ass.

“I’m sorry, you scared the sh-” she apologized but I started to question why she was even here in the first place without my permission. Who told her to just let herself in?

“Fuck was you in my closet for anyway?” I groaned, holding my now bleeding nose.

“You never gave me my jacket, so I came to get it myself and I didn’t think you’d be up.”

“You lucky you showed yourself because I was bout to Jody yo ass real talk.”

“I’m sorry..” she sighed as she took a wet napkin and tried to clean my nose but I backed away from her.

“Fuck no, stay yo heavy handed ass over there.” I put my hands up so she wouldn’t come near me. When I tell you this fucking girl Mayweathered my ass, I’m deadass.

“You want me to take you to the hospital?” She tried to touch my nose but I pushed her hand away.

“Where yo nigga?” I asked out of curiosity. Just last time she was putting up a front when I was trying to fuck with her. If she was with her nigga instead of here my damn nose wouldn’t be hurting.

“Really Jaylen?”

“Yea really.. why you over here and not wit him?” Her face twisted up.

“Boy I came to get my wallet and your big boogie man looking ass scared me which made me to punch you in the face and I felt bad but now I don’t since you wanna get a stank attitude about it. Move,” she spat as she grabbed her jacket pushed me to the side so I could get out of her way. I just wanted to squeeze her little ass head.

“Fuck you talking to like that?” I held my nose as I stood up. The last thing she did was flick me off before slamming my front door.

Fuck her.

[21yroldmeesh]

back again 7/20/17

iit’s been a year since i have written in this blog and dang it’s kind of heartbreaking to read the “ty” post. i mean ima just be open cause i’m sure as hell people don’t even know about this blog anymore L O L i have 0 followers L O L 

things on the agenda: dan, guy who drove me to va, my first and last hookup

me and dan actually broke up over a month ago (6/16/17... i have a particular thing for dates) and it’s been a weird experience.  i literally thought we were going to get married. you can talk to someone for 5 yrs almost everyday and it only takes a day to become strangers. actually you can get close to a stranger. we’re worse than strangers. with us, it’s best to spend some time apart because if we start talking, we don’t even know what we want from each other. like, we actually have such good chemistry but too much has happened too much pain too many lies. it’s one big clusterfuck. i don’t normally curse but i’m going to curse a lot in this post future michelle. i was willing to live in the boring ass town of ann arbor, michigan and i would have been perfectly happy for simply just being with you and being loved by you. i had so much love for you. your fungus feet, your crackly white tongue, you never brush your teeth, everything weird dumb annoying about you just stopped being that and it was “normal” anyways,

i decided to write again because for the past week, my mind has been all over the place and i think my friends are getting annoyed of hearing me out so here i am.

that night, i tried convincing him that id be able to forget about all that he has done. i was crying. i thought it was so fucking unfair man. whenever he lied to me and i’d try to break up with him, he always held on to me and i am a push over... i gave in every time. that day, we fought and yes, i said let’s break up but i told him i didn’t mean it. and then he just brought up how even though i didn’t mean it, everything i said was right and that we arent good for each other. he kept saying this was for us. we didn’t make each other happy. bull shit. i made u so happy. u were only “not happy” when i wanted u to be mature. i mean this is a memory i want to erase from my head so im not going to go into it. but i just felt so hopeless like you just tied up my arms and i couldnt do anything. i asked you to let me hold on to you ONE time because i let you do that with me. and you just wouldn’t budge. do u know how that made me feel? i felt like everything was my fault. if i didnt bring up anything, we would have still been together. we were doing amazing. you opened up to me for the first time literally the day before we broke up and damn everything just happened so fast. you made me feel like i was the type of person who didn’t let myself be happy.

well, the first night i was completely miserable and suicidal. i don’t even know how i survived but i did. for the first two weeks i cried my damn heart out. i let myself feel pain. i didn’t touch alcohol at all until i knew i was ready to not emotional vomit while drunk. i went in my car, blasted music as loud as i can, sobbed for thirty minutes until i was exhausted and came back home. once you hit rock bottom, you got to come up right? i couldnt be alone. i was always with friends. what the fuck was the MCAT right (ugh) i did this multiple times and i think by the third week, i was feeling pretty good and realized you and i weren’t good for each other. actually, correction, we weren’t good for each other because you weren’t willing to be. i guess i just wasn’t worth it to you anymore. well, correction, i didn’t give necessarily my all either. breakups are never on one person. you just lied to me way too much and i just couldn’t trust you 100%. i said i forgave u but i never really did, did i ? what is relationship without trust. it’s surprising how we even lasted this long. well, its because of our chemistry. whyd you have to go fuck it up dan. you and i had such a good connection LOL maybe u can have that connection with others but im just picky af LOL

actually, i haven’t thought about you dan for a very long time. i sound pretty hung up on you still up there but i’m not. something just happened recently which i will go into later 

but actually i have not thought about you at all. its funny because ive been telling haram “who the fuck is daniel am i rite” hahaha its been fine for me. ill be sad but now i can be alone and just deal with it. im doing really well. when i was dating you, for some crazy reason, i thought i couldn’t be without you. why the hell did i think that? like i went through my darkest times without you and survived every single bit of it. why did i ever think i ever NEEDED u in my life? i havent felt depressed since we broke up. isn’t that the craziest? i never have suicidal urges like i did while dating you. im never sad for too long. im just doing me. being with friends. being with awesome people. meeting new people. and yeah i miss you, but damn i think the emotional roller coaster and the clusterfuck of lies (like you telling susan in MAY THAT U LOVE HER?!!?!?!) just made me like dumb and made me believe i just couldn’t let u go. love is insane. and i am insane. michelle in love. there is no logic in it whatsoever. i’m just the type of person to just give it all she got u know? fucking cheat on me, i’ll be here. fucking take my money, i’ll be here. i think id peace the fuck out for animal abuse doe. but anything else is pretty much game.

but yeah i am no longer that person. i am so special and cool to deal with that LOL im actually not a bad catch. i realized i am going to run far far away from someone who lies to me. it’s just not worth it. i love you. i loved you but damn i just kind of miss u as a best friend. nothing romantic anymore. i just miss talking to u and talking shit with u but you can beg for me back, and it is a huge no from me. also i really respect u stepping up with coco while im not in ann arbor. ur just a bad boyfriend. i always knew that tho and i still went in for it. none of that anymore LOL fck that for real. like i wanna be friends with u just so we can hang out. im not the same person anymore LOL and i just think we would really get along now LOL 

when u said you couldn’t give me a ride i was upset but not really? i just understood. it wouldn’t have been good for us and last week, i don’t think i was ready to be in a car ride with u for that long even when i thought i was. looking back, i think it would have set me back a lot. thanks for making the best decision for us. you were always able to do that, i cant hahaha

but yeah anyways, this guy who i talked to for three days kind of offered to give me a ride. correction, we talked for two and then like he just decided to do that for me. very impulsive but i mean i get it, so am i

as we were talking, i realized we were way too similar to even have any romantic attraction. like, i know he did because i think he saw that as a good thing. but everyone else and me later on, realized, similarity for michelle kim is not the best. she needs excitement, passion, and just someone different for her fire. we were similar so we could have been good friends but i think i realized we couldn’t be more than that when he just started coming off too strong. idk, five days in of talking, he was just telling me don’t fool around with other guys and just like telling me to enjoy my single time while i can and it was very overwhelming. not to mention he dated a girl who actually became pretty closely to me recently and i actually really dig her so that was just a final like nope cause it wasnt worth it at that point. 

so i get to ny and im having all these realizations about the guy who drove me to va while im out with my friends. as im getting all these “boyfriendy” texts im like nope nope nope nd telling my friends i think i have 0 feelings for this guy now. 

next thing you know, my first and last hookup walks over to my friend asks her to smoke and he tells her he thinks im cute. i mean i didnt even know until like round 3 or even until he told me the next day. but yeah we just made quick eye contact and that was it. he joins us for round 2 and dang he is hot as fuck LOOL ok well maybe its cause i literally haven’t seen a guy that hot in a while. L O L like i always liked skinny tall guys. but he was like tall and fit?? like wtf?? LOL it just took me off guard and he was showing interest and i was just suuuuuupppppper drunk so we just went home to my airbnb. FOR THE FIRST TIME, I MADE OUT it was so crazy. like i dont think he believes me because he knew i wasnt a virgin but then i told him i never made out before so he was like so confused but didnt ask me questions cause i guess he just thought i was lying?? idk man. but ya we didn’t do anything except make out and when it got hot and heavy i was just like yo u want pjs and then told him lets just go to bed

l o l 

and hes like a super big gentleman 

he kind of didnt want to leave cause hed say stuff like ill leave when u go out. ill leave when u tell me to leave and i was like “ok u should leave now” and idk how but he just kind of stayed

and then he ordered food and idk we talked about his mom and my mom and we played this dumbass creepy game that we literally made up called black mirror black mirror idk man it was super fun and he even pretended like gdragon, hes a complete clown and i love clowns LOL but yeah he left and i went with my day, saw jane and joohee, came home and he texts me. hes like aksing to hang out and im like yeah if we dont get white girl wasted. 

we meet at one of my fave places beauty and essex. it was awk at first because i did not expect it to be like a bar bar since i came during dinner time last time. but we ended up having a lot of fun and it was good. we tried going to fat buddha but line was too long and one thing led to another, he came over my house and we just kind of made out and i d k what happened but i was suppppppppppper drunk LOL like more drunk than last night that i was dropping my phone in the uber and i was a mess but we ended up having “sex” it was just super fast and weird man. he just felt so diff from dan so i felt really out of it but the other guy finished and i think alc was also hindering his performance and it was just a clusterfuck. we just ended up going to bed. next morning, i know he got into super big trouble with his mom and i felt really bad about that. and then he left. i went to va. he texted me saying have a safe trip and that it was a super fun weekend and yeah that was that. 

im starting to realize i fucking like this guy LOL i mean i prob dont but i thought and think i do u know. im just not the type to do this and i feel like he got the worst image of me LOOL yeah my friends were like michelle ur not the type of person to just have one night stands cause one ima fall in love with them and two ur just not the type

idk i just lost myself from being in nyc

nyc is like the root of all probs 

love that place but still crazy

and ya i think hes kind of cute but i also know hes not really down since im in mich and all so ya ohwellz we’re only 21