#when music hits you you feel no pain. >>> 𝐌𝐎𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐍 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐂

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»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── ««     ᴀꜱ  ꜱᴏᴏɴ  ᴀꜱ   he  spoke  the  words,  he  almost  instantly  began  to  regret  it.   he  could  hear  just  how  much  ash’s  voice  trembled  as  he  responded,  and  he  didn’t  need  to  look  into  his  eyes  to  see  how  tense  he  had  gotten  from  the  older  man’s  sudden  insecurity  that  flew  into  his  chest  like  a  meteor.   he  had  no  idea  what  these  feelings  were,  or  what  they  meant,  but  ...  ash  was  something  special  to  him.   and  he  HATED  that  he  potentially  hurt  him  by  being  unable  to  control  the  words  that  came  from  his  mouth,  his  emotions  beginning  to  well  up  and  take  over  him  more  than  he  was  comfortable  admitting  to.

     the  other  didn’t  even  need  to  break  himself  off  once  he  finished  ;   he  knew,  deep  down,  where  the  conclusion  of  the  other’s  confession  would  end,  even  if  he  didn’t  completely  finish  his  sentence.   and  it  wasn’t  like  he’d  need  to,  for  dick  was  already  on  his  feet,  almost  RACING  across  the  room  to  grab  the  other  by  his  cheeks  and  press  his  lips  against  his,  quick  enough  to  be  the  force  that  near  cut  the  other  off  from  finishing.   he  just  wanted  to  shut  him  up,  to  show  him  how  SORRY  he  was  for  doubting  him  ...  and  to  let  him  know  that  he  wasn’t  alone  in  the  way  he  felt.

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»» ──────ஓ๑🐾๑ஓ ────── «« ɪᴛ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴀ quiet day in the studio, which was rather unusual because of the band's tendency to meet up there all at once in person. however, gar was the only one booked in for a session ; he wanted to record some of the piano licks he had written for the band's upcoming album. he had finished earlier than he thought he would, so he decided to practice the grieg piano concerto on the studio's grand, just to see how it felt. a sudden knock at the door pulled him out of his trance, though, so he turned his head to see who it was, expecting it to be either dick or kory to come along and see where he went and why he had been out for so long. instead, a young woman he didn't recognize stepped in, with long, sunflower-blonde hair and piercing light-colored eyes. the first thing he noticed about her was how strikingly BEAUTIFUL she was ; he reflexively swallowed, trying not to let his hands shake as he smiled awkwardly at her. ❝ ... hi. are you, uh ... here for a recording session ... ? ❞

[hikmets]

Cam Kapı glass door

[spcrboy]

( tag dump c: )

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»» ──────ஓ๑🐾๑ஓ ────── «« ʜᴇ ꜰʀᴏᴡɴᴇᴅ ᴡʜᴇɴ she stepped away ... why was she being so distant? he himself was a bit awkward with strangers and people he was still getting to know, but ... the ENERGY he picked up from emma was enough to comfort him and make him feel safe, even if he was still learning about her.

❝ y-yeah, i know what that's like ... i only get breaks like this maybe three to five times a year. ❞ he WISHED he could be like the ocean, and he got the sense that emma felt the same. he just wished he knew how to help her. that is, if she was open to it, and if she even needed it in the first place.

“I’m glad I invited you out.” Emma smiled shyly, taking a step back in case he felt uncomfortable with her closeness. She needed to remind herself.. she needed to keep a distance. There was a reason she hadn’t had friends.. she had to keep that in mind. It was easy to forget about everything when she was with Gar.. but she needed to keep him safe-

“I’m always out here if I have the time. It’s a good escape from life. The ocean doesn’t have expectations, it’s free.. it can do what it wants, whenever it wants. That’s what I love about it.. the ocean doesn’t care.”

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»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── «« ❝ ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅ go get some rest. ❞

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»» ──────ஓ๑⚔︎๑ஓ ────── «« ❝ ʀᴜɴ ɴᴏᴡ, ᴍᴏʀᴛᴀʟ, or else you will face the wrath of the hug monster !! ❞

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@ghxstofycu 👀👀👀

»» ──────ஓ๑⚔︎๑ஓ ────── «« ʜᴇ ɢʀᴀʙꜱ ʜᴇʀ wrists, his lips pressing up against hers as he presses her back against the wall. his tongue dips into her mouth before he peels away, only to trail his lips down her neck to suck against her collarbone, where he was sure a dark spot would bloom later. his knee trapped her legs against the wall, essentially forcing her to stay put, while he rather briskly moved her wrists to pin them above her head. god, he had no idea how long he'd been waiting for a moment like this with her ...

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»» ──────ஓ๑⚔︎๑ஓ ────── «« ❝ … ɪ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ wanna go back to the manor tonight ... ❞

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»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── «« ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ in the airbnb, the rest of the band out finishing up some recording for an upcoming single. now that he and ash were alone, he felt comfortable enough to lean over and NUZZLE against the crook of ash's neck. ❝ ... you look cute today, ❞ he complimented softly, reaching over to give his hand a gentle squeeze.

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@ghxstofycu || cont.

»» ──────ஓ๑🐾๑ஓ ────── «« ʜᴇ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅ ʜᴀᴠᴇ sworn he felt his heart cracking into a million pieces in his chest. it was less about the fact that she was finding it difficult to trust him again, but more so that their relationship would probably NEVER be the same again, even if he was just trying to help. he genuinely had no idea how important this was to her until he had to stick his nose right in. could he not make a mess of everything for ONE goddamn day?

❝ ... i know i fucked up, ❞ he said, his voice breaking. ❝ i fucked up ... SO bad. and there's no coming back from that. but don't you see? i ... i care about you. and i want you to be happy, because you're clearly NOT. so ... please ... stop pretending everything's hopeless. ... i know someone who might be able to help you. ❞

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»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── ««     ᴘʟᴏᴘꜱ  ʜɪꜱ  ᴀꜱꜱ   on  the  couch.   it’s  been  a  long  day  and  he’s  ready  to  catch  some  z’s.   that  is  if  he  can’t  find  the  energy  to  watch  some  of  his  favorite  horror  show.

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»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── ««     ᴋɪᴄᴋꜱ  ʙᴀᴄᴋ  ᴏɴ   the  air  bnb’s  balcony  with  an  icy  cold  drink.   it  was  warm  and  BEAUTIFUL  outside  and  he  decided  to  enjoy  the  day  for  what  it  was.

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»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── ««     ❝ ...  ʟɪꜱᴛᴇɴ,  ᴍᴀɴ,  ɪ   know  you  want  to  get  cracking  on  another  song,  but  i  was  thinking  that  we  could  RELAX  tonight  and  just  take  it  easy.   there’s  this  horror  movie  i  found  that  looks  really  interesting  and  i  was  thinking  about  watching  that. ❞   it  was  embarrassing  to  outright  ask  if  the  other  wanted  to  watch  a  movie  with  him  ;   he  didn’t  want  to  feel  like  he  was  eight  again  at  the  moment.   his  brain  felt  a  bit  fried  with  all  the  hard  work  he  had  been  doing  writing  lyrics  for  their  album  together,  and  he  had  already  started  getting  CRACKING  on  his  own  guitar  riffs  and  melodies  for  the  verses  and  chorus.   he  just  wanted  to  ride  the  wave  tonight,  and  he  just  had  to  hope  that  ashton  felt  the  same.

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@ghxstofycu whispered: a kiss that leaves lipstick stains .

»» ──────ஓ๑⚔︎๑ஓ ────── «« ʜᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ᴡʜᴇɴ emma acted all needy like this, the feeling of her hands on his cheeks, her lips against his skin. she had gotten all dolled up for their evening out at a new italian restaurant downtown, which included putting on a new deep red lipstick she had bought a few days earlier. with the way she kissed him, he could feel the STICKINESS of the makeup and the way it left residual marks on his skin. he'd worry about that later, though ; all that mattered to him was the beautiful young woman in the red dress that matched her lipstick, freely giving him all the so desperately needed affection she could muster.

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@ghxstofycu whispered: “ look, i don’t know what happened to you. and i don’t need you to tell me, okay? i don’t… i just want you to know that i’m here. i got you. no matter what. and if you need some space, then… then i can leave. just tell me what you need, okay? “

»» ──────ஓ๑⚔︎๑ஓ ────── «« ɪᴛ ᴡᴀꜱ ꜱᴏ like her to be so caring, so open to talk to him ... except, he didn't really know how to talk about this. when it came to things that he was afraid of, it was so easy for him to casually make fun of himself, to pass off his fears as silly little things that got in the way all the time, instead of the things that WEIGHED him down by his shoulders, things that he never paid attention to. but this tug in his heart, in his feet, whenever he was up on platforms, when he was in places that made him see the ground from very high up ... that was much more than a fear. remembering the sensations of the air all around him as he fell, the stories flashing by his vision, lights dancing behind his eyes, waiting for his demise by hitting the ground ... it was enough to get him to completely shut down, his generally happy and energetic disposition shutting off as if he were a robot. staring out the window certainly didn't help ; he could see those same visions FLOODING back, but no matter how many times he tried to peel his gaze away from the piece of glass that saved him from plummeting to the ground below, he just couldn't. he felt trapped.

❝ ... i-i'm okay, ❞ he responded absentmindedly, his hand propping his chin up at the desk, hazel hues flicking up and down in an attempt to slow down the vision of the stories FLASHING past him. it was as if he were falling, over and over and over again ... nothing could break him out. not even his lover's touch, her gentleness, her words. nothing.

he couldn't be cured, no matter how hard he tried.