#anxietyxattacked

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@anxietyxattacked​  ||  cont.

»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── ««     ᴀꜱ  ꜱᴏᴏɴ  ᴀꜱ   he  spoke  the  words,  he  almost  instantly  began  to  regret  it.   he  could  hear  just  how  much  ash’s  voice  trembled  as  he  responded,  and  he  didn’t  need  to  look  into  his  eyes  to  see  how  tense  he  had  gotten  from  the  older  man’s  sudden  insecurity  that  flew  into  his  chest  like  a  meteor.   he  had  no  idea  what  these  feelings  were,  or  what  they  meant,  but  ...  ash  was  something  special  to  him.   and  he  HATED  that  he  potentially  hurt  him  by  being  unable  to  control  the  words  that  came  from  his  mouth,  his  emotions  beginning  to  well  up  and  take  over  him  more  than  he  was  comfortable  admitting  to.

     the  other  didn’t  even  need  to  break  himself  off  once  he  finished  ;   he  knew,  deep  down,  where  the  conclusion  of  the  other’s  confession  would  end,  even  if  he  didn’t  completely  finish  his  sentence.   and  it  wasn’t  like  he’d  need  to,  for  dick  was  already  on  his  feet,  almost  RACING  across  the  room  to  grab  the  other  by  his  cheeks  and  press  his  lips  against  his,  quick  enough  to  be  the  force  that  near  cut  the  other  off  from  finishing.   he  just  wanted  to  shut  him  up,  to  show  him  how  SORRY  he  was  for  doubting  him  ...  and  to  let  him  know  that  he  wasn’t  alone  in  the  way  he  felt.

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Right, of course he wasn't - Steve gives a small nod of his head, "Yeah," Steve's voice a little quiet as he speaks ; because he's not really use to it. Having someone actually care about his wants, or his feelings ; or really anything to do with him that wasn't him modelling and playing the part of the perfect son. "Guess I'm just not use to it is all. I'm just very tired, and I can't relax else where."

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@anxietyxattacked​ sent:  “I’m not scared to be seen.”

   Judith smiled brightly when Ashton’s words reached her ears. “Hell yes!” She was practically vibrating with energy as she spoke. “You shouldn’t ever be scared to be seen, and I’m happy that you’re finally recognizing that in yourself!” Her blue eyes were sparkling as she looked at her friend. “You deserve the whole world, Ash. I mean that.”

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@anxietyxattacked whispered: [ KARAOKE ] :  for  our  muses  to  sing  karaoke  together

»» ──────ஓ๑🐾๑ஓ ────── «« ᴀꜱ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴀꜱ gar loved music, he had to admit he wasn't the biggest fan of singing, at least in public. when he was alone, however, he became a completely different person, one who was happy to belt out an emotionally intense yet depressing melody, BELTING out with as much power as he could muster acting as the only way to counter the tugging at his heartstrings, even if he was okay with getting emotional during performances at some points. however, when it came to karaoke, he became almost a completely different person, loving to dance around and sing, knowing that the crowd was on his side no matter what happened. most of the time, they ended up singing louder than he did anyway.

this time around, it appeared that he wasn't the only one to request a rock song from the 80s. up to sing with him was someone he didn't recognize, a young man a little older than him, with fuzzy brown hair and hazel eyes. someone who looked shy, but appeared to love music, from the way he quickly got into it, leaning in to belt out the lyrics along with gar as the track continued. his own energy levels SPIKED from the adrenaline rush, his excitement in what he was doing clearly shared by the stranger, and by the time the song ended, he was only pumped up, ready for more. it appeared this stranger loved music just as much as he did. ❝ man, that was super fun! what's your name? i'm gar. ❞

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@anxietyxattacked - cont. from here.

the yelp coming from the other boy startles him, too. even though he was the one to set off the reaction in the first place. alex can't help the quickstep he does, trying to find somewhere to hide. he could easily poof away, go hide in julie's room, but the chaos has easily allowed him to forget he can even do it in the first place. alex clutches his chest as it heaves, " why'd you scream?! " he exclaims. total overreaction, much? alex stares at him, " you come into our loft and you're asking who i am? jeez, man... " it feels like total deja vu, at least flynn had more of a chance to ease into understanding what was going on. alex pushes his hair back out of his face. " damn it, julie... " he mumbles under his breath. she could have given him a little warning at least. " i'm alex, " he answers finally, " i'm... dead. a ghost. a phantom... " he pauses for a moment. he knows it sounds crazy, " ...not that it's any consolation. anyway, who are you? "

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»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── «« ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ in the airbnb, the rest of the band out finishing up some recording for an upcoming single. now that he and ash were alone, he felt comfortable enough to lean over and NUZZLE against the crook of ash's neck. ❝ ... you look cute today, ❞ he complimented softly, reaching over to give his hand a gentle squeeze.

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@anxietyxattacked whispered: Ash just, grabbing dick and kissing the hell out of him. “Joyeux anniversaire, mon amour.”

»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── «« ᴅ���ᴍɴ, ʜᴇ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ knew the other could be so direct. well, in all fairness, he did ; the way he behaved around dick, and seemingly dick especially, was quite different than the way he behaved and interacted with other people. it made him feel special, singled out in a PECULIAR way that made his heart yearn for more. he happily allowed the kiss to wrap him up, chuckling against ash's lips as he pulled away. ❝ merci, mon bébé. ❞

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@anxietyxattacked whispered: ❛   you make me hate myself a little less whenever i’m with you.  ❜

»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── «« ʜᴇ ᴛᴜᴄᴋᴇᴅ ᴀ strand of hair behind ash's ear, brown eyes meeting the hazel orbs that he had begun to grow quite fond of. he found it difficult to respond to statements like that, even if it was often reflective of his own experiences ; how was it possible to find the words to respond to that, even if it RESONATED with him? he found himself with the titans, with ash ... that someone would never have been found if he had never left bruce, and the home that he grown to know and love as his own. ❝ ... you'll never have anything to worry about when you're with me, ❞ he murmured, pulling ash close to his chest before giving a gentle kiss to the top of his head. ❝ i PROMISE you that. ❞

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@anxietyxattacked whispered: Ⓐ

ATTRACTIVENESS:

     repulsive ― hideous ― ugly ― not attractive ― unappealing ― not unattractive ― meh ― no preference ― ok ― mildly attractive ― nice looking ― cute ― adorable ― attractive ― pleasant on the eyes ― good looking ― hot ― sexy ― beautiful ― gorgeous ― hot damn ― would tap that ― perfect ― godlike ― holy fuck there are no words

PERSONALITY:

     grating ― irritating ― frustrating ― boring ― confusing at best ― awkward ― unreasonable ― psychotic ― disturbing ― interesting ― engaging ― affectionate ― aggressive ― ambitious ― anxious ― artistic ― bad tempered ― bossy ― charismatic ― appealing ― unappealing ― creative ― courageous ― dependable ― unreliable ― unpredictable ― predictable ― devious ― dim ― extroverted ― introverted ― egotistical ― gregarious ― fabulous ― impulsive ― intelligent ― sympathetic ― talkative ― up beat ― peaceful ― calming ― badass ― flexible

HOW LIKELY THEY WOULD BE TO HAVE SEX WITH THEM.

     not if they were the last person on earth and the world was ending ― fuck no! ― never ― no way ― not likely ― not sure ― indifferent ― i’m asexual ― maybe ― probably ― it depends ― fairly likely ― likely ― yeah sure ― yes ― would tap that ― hell yes ― fuck yes! ― wishing that could happen right now ― as many times as possible ― we are already having sex

LEVEL OF FRIENDSHIP:

     never in a million years ― worst of enemies ― enemies ― rivals ― indifferent ― neutral ― acquaintance ― friendly toward each other ― casual friends ― friends ― good friends ― best friends ― fuck buddies ― bosom buddies ― practically the same person ― would die for them ― true friends ― my only friend

FIRST IMPRESSION OF THEM:

     i hate them so much ― i don’t like them ― i don’t trust them ― they annoy me ― they’re weird ― i’m indifferent ― meh ― they seem alright ― they’re growing on me ― truce ― i think i like them ― i like them ― i’m not sure if i trust them ― i trust them ― they’re cool ― they’re genuine ― i think we’re going to get along ― i really like them ― i think i’m in love ― oh fuck they’re hot ― i love them

CURRENT IMPRESSION OF THEM:

     i hate them so much ― i don’t like them ― i don’t trust them ― they annoy me ― they’re weird ― i’m indifferent ― meh ― they seem alright ― they’re growing on me ― truce ― i think i like them ― i like them ― i’m not sure if i trust them ― i trust them ― they’re cool ― they’re genuine ― i think we’re going to get along ― i really like them ― i think i’m in love ― oh fuck they’re hot ― i love them

HOW GOOD OF A KISSER:

     worst kisser ever ― terrible ― bad ― awkward ― just okay ― alright ― pretty good ― good ― makes me moan ― excellent ― exciting ― oh god they’re good ― i dream about it ― fucking amazing ― absolute perfection ― we haven’t kissed

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@anxietyxattacked whispered: Ash just sliding in here to give Dick a passionate kiss. “Joyeux Noël, mon amour..”

»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── «« ʜᴇ'ꜱ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀɴ happy to meet his lover halfway, closing the gap between them with his lips as he wraps his arms around his back, pulling him close and savoring the feeling of their bodies pressed up against each other's. ❝ et joyeux noël à toi aussi, mon amor ... ❞

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@anxietyxattacked whispered: [ GIFT ]:     while hugging the receiver, the sender slips something into their pocket out of the public eye. (Ash giving Dick a necklace with the pick that was used when they were writing lifeblood 🥹)

»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── «« ᴅɪᴄᴋ ᴡᴀꜱɴ'ᴛ ᴀ big hugger, but if there was one person he could use as an answer if someone were to ask him who he liked to hug the most, it would be ash. the other young man was shorter than him, much less built than he was, but he could feel the emotion in his hugs, every time he touched him, that lost sense of love and feeling that he knew he was missing so deep inside of him. when he felt the other's arms slip around him this time, however, he felt something slide into his back pocket, the sensations making him FLINCH a bit. he gingerly reached back, wondering if the other was somehow pranking him, but he recognized the guitar pick he pulled out of his pocket. the same orange one he remembered that was slipped between ash's fingers as he wrote his portion of lifeblood. the first song they wrote together ... and he wanted to give him this gift? a smile stretched across his face as his gaze flicked from the pick, to ash, and back again. ❝ ... you're giving me this ... ? you sure you don't wanna keep it for yourself ... ? it might come in handy for you — for BOTH of us — down the line ... ❞

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@anxietyxattacked whispered: *hops on this blog just for this* Nom

»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── «« ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴘʀᴏʙᴀʙʟʏ one of the most surprising things ash has ever done to him, and the most straightforward and forthcoming he remembered the other being with him in private. he thought the other was just going to kiss along the side of his neck, as much as he could reach, but lo and behold, something sharp and sudden PRESSED into his shoulder. it didn't take long for him to discover what the other was actually doing with him ... he just fucking BIT him. he turned around, wrapping his arms around the shorter male's shoulders, beginning to sway slowly and look him in the eye, his cheeks turning dark as he smirked at him. ❝ ... got something to say, demando-boy? ❞ he teased, tilting his head to meet his gaze. ❝ or are you trying to make a point with me? ❞

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@anxietyxattacked​ whispered:  “ maybe you think it’s your job to look after everyone else. but it’s not supposed to be like that. it works both ways. and now it’s my turn to look after you. okay? ”

»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── ««     ʜᴇ  ᴋɴᴇᴡ  ʜᴇ   shouldn’t  try  and  argue,  or  complain,  or  try  and  talk  his  way  out  of  this.   it  was  true  that  he  had  been  working  really  hard  lately,  mostly  because  he  had  admittedly  been  spending  a  lot  of  time  hanging  with  ash  when  he  should  have  been  using  that  time  to  finish  some  of  the  lyrics  for  an  EP  he  wanted  to  release  with  the  band  later  on.   he  had  his  first  meeting  with  his  producers  in  the  booth  in  two  weeks,  and  he  had  been  STRESSING  out  about  getting  the  lyrics  and  his  part  of  the  instrumental  arrangements  done.   so  maybe  he  should  just  give  in  and  let  ash  do  his  thing.   besides,  it’d  be  a  good  look  for  his  side  of  ...  their  new  relationship,  whatever  label  he  could  put  on  it  right  now,  if  anything.   ❝ ...  fine,  okay.   i’m  yours  for  the  rest  of  the  day. ❞

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@anxietyxattacked​ whispered:  “ please tell me you didn’t cancel your plans for me… ”

»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── ««     ❝ ...  ɪ  ᴍᴇᴀɴ  ...  ɴᴏᴛ   necessarily  ...  i  guess  i  kinda,  just  ...  felt  like  my  social  battery  has  been  running  low  lately,  y’know? ❞   at  the  very  least,  that  was  only  what  was  going  on  with  him  on  the  surface.   in  all  honesty,  after  their  night  in  bed  together,  he  wanted  to  spend  as  much  time  with  ashton  as  he  possibly  could.   he  wanted  to  figure  out  what  kind  of  relationship  this  was  BLOSSOMING  into,  and  he  figured  that  the  best  way  to  do  that  would  be  to  put  the  little  things  aside  for  ash,  and  to  take  as  much  time  as  possible,  even  out  of  his  busy  schedule,  to  spend  time  with  him.

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@anxietyxattacked​ whispered:  ❛  you’re making me feel a little less lonely.  ❜

»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── ««     ʜᴇᴀʀɪɴɢ  ᴛʜᴏꜱᴇ  ᴡᴏʀᴅꜱ   from  the  other  was  enough  to  allow  a  smile  to  make  its  way  across  dick’s  face.   ever  since  the  two  of  them  had  met,  they  had  just  ...  CLICKED,  seemingly  right  away.   it  didn’t  take  long  for  them  to  start  discussing  song  ideas,  and  it  was  clear  that  they  both  loved  each  other’s  styles  of  writing.   he  had  already  openly  expressed  that  he  thought  it  was  fate  to  meet  ashton  ;   as  much  as  he  loved  his  other  bandmates  so  dearly,  like  they  were  family,  there  was  something  just  ...  incredibly  SPECIAL  about  their  connection  with  each  other.   he  placed  a  comforting  hand  on  the  other’s  wrist,  making  eye  contact  with  him.   ❝ ...  as  long  as  you  feel  better  than  you  did  before  ...  it'll  make  me  happy. ❞

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@anxietyxattacked​ whispered:  ❛  i’ve never been part of a group before.  ❜

»» ──────ஓ๑♄๑ஓ ────── ««     ʜᴇ  ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ  ꜰɪɴᴅ   what  the  other  said  particularly  surprising.   from  what  he  knew  about  ashton’s  past,  it  seemed  as  though  he  was  caged  off  a  lot  from  broader  society,  not  because  of  his  parents,  but  because  of  the  amount  of  wealth  his  family  had  accumulated  and  difficulty  interacting  with  others.   but  he  didn’t  need  to  worry  ;   dick  would  be  there  by  his  side  every  step  of  the  way,  even  though  he  himself  had  some  TROUBLES  opening  up  to  others,  no  matter  how  well  they  knew  each  other.   ❝ hey,  don’t  worry.   you’re  not  alone.   we’re  all  friends  here,  and  we’re  happy  to  help  you. ❞