#what's this? i might actually be on for a muse's bday???? wild

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{Oh shit y’all Amara’s birthday is the 10th}

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clicks onto the dash wearing kitten heels n coyly holding my bang....... hi. me again. it took me so long to select a gif to use on cricket’s intro n i settled on this one bc he looks so unsure abt his smile n it’s rly his essence <3 u can find his pinterest board here n his (work in progress) spotify playlist here. hmu to plot!!! 

* alex wolff, cis male + he/him | you know cricket donahue, right? they’re twenty-two, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, all of their life, on and off? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to should have known better by sufjan stevens like, a million times this year, which slipping on wet leaves to photograph a tree struck alight by lightning, delivering a tedtalk to your own reflection to hype yourself up to buy groceries, hiding your hands inside of your sleeves in case you grew an impromptu megan fox thumb overnight thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is october 1st, so they’re a libra, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( nai, 24, gmt, she/her )

HISTORY:

cricket ws born to a couple tht lived in lilac ridge. their trailer was tucked closest to the woods n always fell under the shade. it was like the leaves wanted to pretend they were a perpetual hanging cloud on the family n that was kind of fitting. their only reason fr having him in the first place was a kind of shrugged like........... we’re under the income bracket we’d get child benefits so why not! may as well try it to rake in some extra cash! needless to say they didn’t rly think it thru or anticipate all of the responsibilities tht came w children n wound up seeing him as an extremely large burden n boy didn’t he know it!

(child neglect & abuse tw) i’ll try to keep this part vague n brief but things were Not Good for cricket growing up. people in lilac ridge didn’t like his parents n it was for a gd reason. he remembers foggy things. being little n wandering around combing the grass with a stick to search for wrappers to suck on bc he was hungry. feeling uneasy when the front door opened. finding out his name was cricket bc the insects used to crawl into their trailer thru the vents n his parents liked to squish them into the carpet -- his mum told him as much once. i think this says a lot. to excessively trim the fat of the story he wound up entering the system at around 8 after his latest and most serious hospital visit. his parents hd to deal w the authorities n last he heard they bounced to evade charges.

(anxiety & violence & trauma tw) cricket sustained a few lifelong injuries from his time in lilac ridge. his knee didn’t heal right which meant he had (n still has to this day) a limp n he’s partially deaf in one ear. he’s always been an incredibly insecure n anxious person so this mde him rly self conscious going into a strange n new environment tht wld b difficult fr any kid to adjust to, nvm w these added worries. he jst felt like something weird to ogle at honestly. he probably wld have felt like that no matter where he was or what he looked like. he cld be in a huge hall of 200 people all wearing the same uniform n he’d still feel like the odd one out. needless to say this didn’t rly help him make friends

cricket’s coping mechanisms were romanticising the things tht other people found ugly or embarrassing or painfully ordinary. he liked it when the rain hit clunky drops against school windows n forbid everyone from playing outside bc he could feel the vibrations through the rubber soles of his shoes n it was a little bit like hearing all of the world at once fr just a moment. he liked medieval fantasy lore about stout gnomes w crumbs in their beards n cheeks red from ale. he liked fallen nests with the remnants of hatched eggs still dirty from the branches n soil they’d hit on the way down. he liked the way the sunlight leaked thru the leaves of the trees in the woods and how, when he sat very still, he could tune into the ringing that was always in his ear n pretend it was coming from the same place, that light thru the leaves, that the angels were trying to talk to him.

he spent a lot of time in the red room at his high skl (i’m begging u this is not a 50 shades reference) (after googling i jst realised it’s called a darkroom bt i’m leaving this fr the sake of sexy bimbo authenticity) n felt quite at home in there. he borrowed a camera whenever he cld (maybe he did yearbook) n photography became his way of immortalising the world as the romanticised version he wanted it to be. his memories were bad bt his photos were beautiful. maybe if he took enough they’d paste over n bleed into each other. maybe bad cld be replaced w beautiful if he tried his very best.

he got placed into fostering w a family once bt apparently didn’t meet the vibe check of their tastes so he wound up returning to the group home he’d initially been placed in. overall this is where he grew up n he aged out the system rather than getting adopted. there was a sense of floundering/isolation/not feeling gd enough in tht bt cricket made do the best he knew how. 

that said there were some gd points! (shocking i kno bc his life hs been so fking bleak so far bt please it’s ok........) (is it?) (🤔). basically he interned as an assistant at this local photography studio during high skl working under this kind of whimsical yet endearing old man. suspected wizard possibly in cricket’s eyes, as an avid fantasy genre reader. for one of his bdays said old man / his boss bought him his very own film camera n cricket cried bc he’d never been bought a bday gift. this ws rly embarrassing bc this old man didn’t know how to emote n neither did cricket so he ws jst sort of sat wiping his eyes n sniffling saying he wasn’t crying as the old man pretended to suddenly clean his lenses. when cricket graduated he offered him a full time position there. they do like. wedding photographs n family portraits n all kinds of things...... pay isn’t huge bt it’s something n he Loves taking photos so it’s sexy <3

PERSONALITY:

SUCH an anxious person it’s actually unreal. overthinks absolutely everything he’s ever said. one morning he might hv put green socks on n for the rest of the day he’s nervously looking around like omggggggg they’re all looking at my socks probably thinking im a little green sock boy thinking i’m a fool n a jester this is all everyone’s probably thinking about i hv to hide my green socks..... even tho literally no-one cares

once saw a girl eating a chicken wing n in his head was like ok she likes chicken good future gift idea..... n turned up at her house with an entire rotisserie chicken

probably thinks WAY too hard abt what to write in bday cards n googles like generic ideas that he can use.... u open a card from cricket n it always says smthn weird like “Warmest wishes and love on your birthday and always!” or “You deserve everything happy. Wishing you that all year long!” tht he got off google

nervously fiddles w things a lot. literally anything. his hair. the cuffs of his sleeves. a thread on his bag. u name it

struggles w eye contact sometimes............ it’s like. he wants to talk to ppl n make friends bt he’s honestly so bad at it. he’s fumbling thru life like a nervous headless chicken

ALWAYS has his camera on him. like always. will tke a photo of u bc he thinks u look nice then be like im so sorry im so sorry...... bowing his head shakily holding his camera bc he doesn’t even kno what possessed him he jst thought it’d be a nice photograph bt boundaries exist. probably breathes very heavily over this later in his room panicking thinking he nw seems like hannibal lecter

probably more confident online bc he has time to think abt what he says more.......... i can see him hving a group of online friends tht he’s more confident w. honestly he’s pretty witty at heart he jst has a hard time verbalising things so ppl overlook him sometimes bt once u get to know him more / he’s more comfy he can b a funny little man.....

loves photographs where he cuts something out of them. loves missing spaces n voids. thinks it’s a rly interesting concept when something that isn’t there becomes the focus of a photograph where everything else is. probably loses his mind fr a collage like a front row 1d stan. likes experimenting w light n perception. pretty artistic honestly hs probably made a stop motion film in the past bc that’s just an extended form of photography in his mind bt i doubt he showed anyone

ummm...... very sweet bt like. he reminds me a lot of this quote. “he had the awkward tenderness of someone who has never been loved and is forced to improvise.” feel like tht sums him up quite nicely

WANTED CONNECTIONS

someone he met at a wedding: cricket probably ws forced to photograph a wedding fr his boss one time n it cld b interesting as a place to meet from that....... like. i can imagine either it being rly awkward maybe he accidentally spilled a drink on ur muse n was stuttering rly apologetic n it ws just a train wreck. or mayb they took pity on him or even (in a shocking turn of events) a shine to him n invited him to drink n dance. omgggg the thought of cricket trying to dance makes me wna die n probably mkes cricket wna hyperventilate bt idk maybe he went wild n let loose. mayb they wound up damaging the camera somehow. mayb they had to scramble to get another one n ur muse covered the cost n it was a strange late night excursion tht cricket thought about a lot since. cricket probably vowed to pay them bk somehow no matter what. idk. we can work things out. lots of diff options here. doesn’t have to b a wedding either can b any event tht required a photographer

ppl he went to school w: pretty self explanatory i suppose...... maybe they were frm completely different worlds..... mayb ur muse was popular n cricket was definitely not but they got paired fr an assignment n had to work on a project together....... mayb cricket asked ur muse on a date one time n it was completely embarrassing bc he didn’t realise they had a bf n it haunts cricket at night still bc he’s rly dramatic.... mayb ur muse felt sry fr him n ate lunch w him n inducted him into their group like a lost puppy finding a home.... world’s our oyster

neighbours from his brief time at lilac ridge: not to reference taylor swift but i’m gna reference taylor swift n say we cld do a seven inspired plot here. sighs a little..... then sighs a lot. he was here ages 0-8 so idk. we cld work out childhood plots perhaps....

sickening simp: i mean.............. cricket probably gets crushes on ppl so easily like just. anyone who’s the slightest bit nice to him.................. he’s a disgrace. ok i take it back. bt also please get it together freak............... i didn’t say that. he’d probably b extra nice to this person n try n pay close attention to things they liked so he cld get them little gifts. just a bit embarrassing n lovestruck bless his heart. wldn’t expect anything back tho honestly that just isn’t something he tends to do.

let’s go gays: cricket’s bi but he probably was rly in his head abt liking boys n tried to sort of squash it internally during his younger yrs...... i think he’s more comfy w it now MAYBE idk bt back then i picture him having a friend tht ws kind of like. similarly loserish as him perhaps (no offence to ur muse potentially filling this plot or cricket bt let’s face the facts) n they’d hang out n play games a lot n one time it jst kind of happened n he was like............. *struts in looking around sharply* What going on here? except not. bc it’s cricket. more like *shambles in looking around anxiously* What’s, uh... What’s... the happenings? S--... I’m sorry. (immediate apology for saying what’s the happenings bc nobody talks like that n it was an impulsive panic bc he didn’t know what else to say)

those who grew up in the system w him: maybe at the group home or i’d also like the family that fostered him n said sayonara. honestly i imagine the parents just thought he ws a bit too much of a handful / had too much baggage which is rly quite merciless n terrible but. if u think that aligns w ur muses home situation hmu......

um. can’t think of more bt just anything honestly. jst go wild.......

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👫 viktor lana :D

send a 👫 and I’ll write four headcanons i have about our muses’ relationship.

he he he he (me doing an evil little laugh tht daunts n unnerves everyone around me)..... i knew u would send this i already thought of this hc in advance when i rb’d the post. ahem. i will begin. tht time they went motel hopping n wreaking havoc bc they were both suspended from radcliffe i imagine one night a motel they got to was booked full n they’d got there rly late so they were jst like fk it let’s sleep in the car. viktor’s hearse. n if he happened to have fallen asleep first i feel like she wld have been like huh.............. he lks weirdly peaceful when he sleeps almost like he doesn’t wna bite the whole world into tiny little pieces fr once. she’d feel like she ws sighting a rare exotic bird in the wild like it ws some special privilege i think she’d smile to herself abt it like a loser. n lana is literally so physically affectionate she’s like a gross over excitable puppy so i cn imagine her wriggling up to him n carefully as possible plopping his arm over her as he slept. inspired by this image bt rly just.... in any form she’d tuck herself up w him n sleep tht way w the aim of somehow waking up first n moving before he realised she’d done it. idk if tht would have happened i wnt lie lana sleeps rly soundly when she’s cosy w ppl she likes so <3 mayb he ws disgusted by this when he woke up n saw it bt it’s ok <3 lana wld laugh it off n not care

i think i might hv mentioned this as a hc very briefly in a reply before bt???? i jst thought of it again now. i hv this idea in my head of a game lana wld play with viktor where she’d draw in biro on her thigh a grid fr noughts and crosses except she usually does like. stars and hearts or just a way more Lana version..... i cn imagine her making him play this w her when they were like. jst sat out on the beach in provincetown or in bed after 👀 except i think she wld let him choose what he drew for his turns. smthn to represent him. mayb she’d suggest a ram’s head like black phillip fr his sexy chaotic satanic goat aura n he’d be like ya sure i’ll draw a whole fking detailed ram’s head in this tiny square lana n she’d be like ugh ur talent ur mind jst ignoring the sarcasm n loving it instead. in a similar ball park i feel like she wld doodle things on his tattoos like a penis on his marble statue-esque one (if tht is actually canon i cnt remember if u said it was i won’t lie) n jst things like tht. rly all of these things r just an excuse to touch him n vice versa bt. the noughts n crosses game in particular is one she made up just fr him.

fr his bday i feel like lana wld give him a homemade coupon tht entitles him to an elaborately staged rouse where they entrap some loser man w a fake relationship / spat / whtever which involves her seducing him n viktor finding them n freaking out. like they hv before bt. maybe this one wld even involve sfx blood it wld be extreme n dramatic n scandalous. mayb lana wld at one point put in fake vampire teeth. it wld be ridiculous the guy wld be like what the fuck who are u people. he wld maybe get genuinely injured it wld be a lot. sometimes lana can b a bit immoral fr the drama of it all i feel like viktor brings out her most rogue side n honestly tht is sexy. bt anyway in addition to this she wld ask judes help n get him to do a drawing/piece of tatiana. she wld be nervous abt giving this to viktor bc obviously he doesn’t like talking abt / confronting vulnerable topics so i feel like she’d jst slip it into an envelope n leave it in his room as a silent gift from her n not be there to see his reaction or anything. i think she might not even sign her name she’d jst kiss a lipstick print onto the envelope n know he’d recognise who it was by the colour bc of tht time he said he’d know it anywhere. sighs n lks away...

ok so. fr the night where lana stole trent’s car keys n walked up to viktor at tht party n was basically like “hey wna steal a car w me :)” in not so many words.... this is hw i envision the night panning out. they went speeding. lana at various points was dangling way too much out of the window n holding her hands out bc she loves feeling the wind on her fingers when ppl drive fast. hair jst blasting everywhere truly no concern fr safety. viktor probably literally hd to haul her bk into the car by her ass at numerous points bc she almost flew out n died. she’d ask him to find an empty lot where they cld spin n skid around the place n keep being like AGAIN AGAIN CAN WE GO AGAIN like a giddy child requesting another go on the swings. after all tht fun i feel like she wld hv been like lets drive out somewhere quiet n they’d end up like. at some kind of lake in the woods. mayb they get out there idk bt after all the thrill/novelty wore off a bit i feel like trent’s car wld mke lana sad bc she has bad memories associated with it / him in general n she’d jst impulsively hit the bonnet n try to snap the windscreen wipers n struggle doing it bc she doesn’t hv the arm strength so she’d jst be like ERGH!!!!!!!!!! n try to kick the car after giving up n it wld be rly hard n hurt her foot n she’d b swearing like FK this car it’s so UGLY......... jst the worst tantrum bc her heart’s never Rly in it when she’s angry it’s always just very clear she’s sad n trying to make tht sadness seem braver. mayb his way of calming her dwn in this situation wld b like. let’s sink the fker <3 n lana is silent fr a bit before being like. sniffs. ok :) bt she’ll only do it if they’re in the car n drive it into the lake bc she wants to see all of trent’s shitty cds get wet n ruined frm the inside. anyway. it happens. they hv to climb out of the lake sopping wet n walk bk all tht way. is it cold? idk. this ws all a hideous idea bt that’s on brand. i won’t lie she’d maybe silently hold his hand on the walk bk fr a little while n if he commented on it be like ummmm if we don’t work together to preserve body heat we Lit Rally might get hypothermia viktor don’t b a BABY abt it i’m saving ur life if anything u shd thank me i dnt even wna hold ur big sexy hand i’m jst playing paramedic... bt in reality who r we kidding. she’d jst wna hold his hand. she’s sick <3

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maddie!!!!  ( @othcrsidex  / @lamourhaine ) it’s your fuckin’ birthday, bromie!!!! and i just wanted to say how much i absolutely love and adore you. honestly, you are such a kind and wonderful person and you know i can gush about you 5ever!!! but i just wanted to let you know how cool and sweet you are. it’s been so great, getting to know you and write with you, getting to meet your muses, and being your friend. there are so, so, so many people who seriously love and adore you, and tbh if you don’t believe me -- and even if you do!!! -- you should take a cheeky look under the cut!!! happy birthday, lovely!!!

Happy Birthday! We don't know each other well but I really like seeing your posts on my dash. You're really funny and your writing is #goals. Enjoy today! c: - @mundaneocs

maddie, maddie, maddie … okay first things first, happy birthday you sweet young thing you. now get ready for a wild ride. you have, honestly, been a very influential person on my life. you make me want to be a stronger person, because you are so incredibly strong yourself. thank you so much for choosing to be my friend, knowing you for the past four (five? idk) years has been one of the highlights of my life. you are the bravest, funniest, live your life out loud person i have ever known. you truly are a blessing on those around you, even though sometimes it might not feel like it. you have such a big heart and you truly care about your friends, a wonderful attribute to have! and thank you so much for creating this little roleplay world with me, it amazes me every day how far we have come with these storylines and how much your characters have developed over the time i have known you. i wish you a lifetime of happiness because you deserve nothing less. have an awesome birthday and don’t let anyone bring you down. stay golden, pony boy.  - @hellfiredawn​

Happy Birthday, Maddie! For me, they have never been days where I celebrate getting older because fuck that noise. For me, it’s always been a day that I think “This is the day my existence first graced the world. Damn right, I deserve a party on this glorious historical event known as my birth.” It makes it better and I’m very happy that your existence has graced this planet for twenty five years. You have been a great friend to me since we met. You are extremely welcoming and friendly. I feel like I can talk to you about anything and I hope I’ve given you the same. Seeing you on my dash brightens my day. You’ve got a fun sense of humor and always have ways of making me laugh just as much as you make me cry. Which in what we usually write, happens often. You know how to work the emotions of people with your writing and that alone is a gift. You’re creative as hell and so passionate about what you create. You write beautifully and honestly, it’s an honor to get to know and write with you. I could go on and one about you. I’m so glad we’ve met and I hope that this birthday is a great one for you even if you hate them. I’m glad you exist.  Thanks for that. I love you. XOXO, Danny - @crimiinalchemiist​

You were one of the first people to follow me on Gina and you've made me feel so welcome. I'm so glad we're friends! You always make me laugh and you always listen to me and I love you so very much. Have an amazing and wonderful birthday, Miss Mama Maddie! - @ginatcnic​

  maddie maddie maddie. they call you mama maddie for a reason and that's because you've been here for all of us since day one. i know that's true for me. your presence, whether it be on jasper or your horror multimuse or any other blog, is something i treasure because i treasure the holy heck out of you. you're an amazing person and i know things have been pretty shit for the past many months with ups and downs, but we're always here for you because you're always here for us. i mean, not to speak for everyone, but the royal we love you! anD IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY AND YOU SHOULD FEEL LOVED BECAUSE YOU'RE SO LOVED! beyond just ic writing, you are the jasper to my monty (and no not bc of the shit you get up to), but because you're so full of love and compassion. so have some fun today! sing in the shower! have an impromptu dance party! do whatever because today's in celebration of you and how amazing you are! - @basiicphysics​

Maddie! Coolest mun I know, thank you for allowing your muse to drive mine up the wall in such a hilarious fashion - dumb shit aside, I hope you, a fabulous person, has a equally as fabulous birthday. Tonnes of love and good vibes your way xox - @aquilcm​

I heard from a little bird that it's your birthday. A day that should be celebrated since it means you came to be on it. I hope it's as amazing as you are. - @oasisofthemad​

I hope you have a awesome birthday Maddie you're a amazing person and you deserve the best day ever!  <3 - @barbeddxddy

I'd just like to tell her happy birthday and I hope that whatever wish she happens to make comes true for her <3 - @lostartfuldodger

Happy birthday, Mom! Gosh, I sure hope it's okay to call you mom cause I've done it quite a few times now. Anyway I'm here to wish you well and say thanks for just being around and posting your mind cause it's really fun to see everyday. You've become like staple of my dash and we've barely talked and never roleplayed for that matter, yet we remain mutuals on more than one of my accounts. So have a good one and here's to another of shit posting and cute boys killing you. Stay awesome Maddie!  - @bourgeoisbullshiit​

Maddie, I don't know you very well. We have written together a few times and had a few ooc conversations and you are always fun and pleasant to talk to. I love seeing you on my dash. I hope your birthday is as wonderful as you are. Ivy - @maggieesmerelda / @thefineartofbitchcraft

HELLO THERE YOU LIL GLITTERY CHICKEN NUGGET. I hope you have the bestestestest birthday possible and spend it with the people you love. keep on being a fuckin badass mofo and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaalways keep a smile on ur face. — xoxox christopher @scvinglives​

Happy birthday Maddie !!!! Thank u for blessing the earth with another year of your presence here. You are so loved and appreciated and so incredibly special. We are better people because we know you. Hope you have a great great day!!!! - @holythievery​

I think Maddie is so sweet and so talented and easy to approach not to mention funny as all hell. I wish her the best birthday ever and I adore the hell out of her!!! I love all her muses sooo much her ocs are so good especially ...Much love to the birthday girl - @pridemasked

happy birthday from one momma to another! - @sysnix 

hapPY BIRTHDAY  MADDIE !!!  ! ! man look it's been a wild ride in the 100 fandom and honestly ?? ? it wouldn't have been the same without you? you've got so much passion, especially when it comes to jasper jordan, and you're always so bright and energetic on the dash?? honestly what would we all be without mama maddie? would we have no direction? no one to guide us? i cERTAINLY THINK SO! i hope your day is as rad as you are!! - @floathim​

Happy birthday you dank meme! I love you bunches xoxo - @se7entrials​

Happy Birthday Maddie!! I'm really glad that I started following all that time ago because you're amazing and a joy to have on my dash. I hope you have a great birthday because you absolutely deserve it. <3 - @storiestotell​

I hope you have the most wonderful day. You're awesome inside and out and so so talented too!! Happy bday <3 - @voiceiinyourhead​

i wish her a happy birthday and i hope this upcoming year for her is a good one~  - @terrifiesthem​

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADDIE!! you beautiful soul!! thanks for lighting up my dash with your posts, i always end up smiling because they're always so funny! honestly if anyone deserves to have an incredible day, its you!! so make sure it's a good one! and make sure you get spoiled with love! consider this a big hug!! love youuu! xxx  - @xnotafraid

MADDIE! My aries twin, I love you and I'm so excited for your birthday and I hope you party hearty (but like, safely, I need my fellow arien around) AND YAY IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY PARTY LIKE IT'S 1999 - @foxofthe100

okay so there were actually a whole lot of other people who wanted to participate and, due to me being shit at time, didn’t make it in time before i posted this. but please know how loved you are!!! and that legit too many people to count were meant to participate.

( and thank you to everyone who allowed me to infiltrate their ims and a big sorry to those who i missed out on getting the birthday wishes from on time. )