#what monbebes want monbebes truly get

[eureka-its-zico]

I'm a monbebe who's very lonely with all my men in the military, so I told myself I'd double-down on my other great love, Christian Yu, while they're away. Needless to say, I finally got a chance to read some works on tumblr, and "Kiss Me and My Bones Turn to Ash" was a standout for me, no DOUBT.

First of all, you've done something that I did not see other writers do with Ian--you took risks. Maybe I'm a little smug about writing (and I'm definitely smug about Ian), but it bothers me that people only write the idealized version of him when he's so open about exposing all of his complicated layers with us. Yet you went ultra dark with this, and I LOVE THAT. I believe this world and the characters in it.

In fact, even though I am probably the world's foremost hater of second person, I didn't even realize I was reading it this time because the MC felt like an actual character with depth and choices and layers. She's complicated and powerful and clever and a little sinister, and I love that. It makes a boring cookie cutter "you" character so interesting and inviting. I loved living in her dark world.

The plot line you went for was violent and delicious. I really wanted to delve deeper into your world, it was so immersive. It reminded me a lot of the movie Legend, when Mia Sera's character gets seduced and tempted to the dark side, and one minute, she's in tattered garments, and the next, she's become night itself. Oof, what a yummy take!

I hope you write more for Christian in the future because you did him justice, and that's so important to me. Thank you for contributing your art, albeit delectably sinful, to this fandom.

I saw this a week ago when you sent it and have just kept it, like an ask hoarding dragon, in my inbox. This is probably one of my favorite reviews I’ve ever received on an Ian story I made. It honestly made me want to write more.

It’s such a big compliment that, even though second person isn’t a favorite, the story was able to submerse you enough that you completely forgot what style it was written. That you enjoyed the complexity I placed in it. I enjoy writing dark and complex characters, because humans themselves have shades of darkness in them and other complexities. We aren’t just one simple thing. Ever.

I truly appreciate you sending me this review. For taking the time out of your day to send it to me and tell me what you loved and what it made you feel. It really means a lot to me (as presented by the above gif). Thank you for this gift. Much love, Jenn

[minhyukie]

happy saturday!! how has your weekend been going? 😊

I think you're right that they are the only group who've all been radio hosts! it does take so much charisma and being super well-spoken. they're very impressive as a group, definitely a bunch of all-rounders!

wanted is so good! I stumbled upon it randomly, it is such a shame it doesn't get much promotion. if I'm not mistaken that entire album wanted was on was about a month before one of a kind so definitely no promotion despite the music being SO so good! I tend to listen to a group's entire discography once I become a fan, so even the ones I missed I feel really attached to. helps that everything is so good :)

omg you're so right, the hair he had for fighter was SO so cute. he does look amazing with darker hair, I also love when it's kind of in the middle (like a latte color!) he just suits all hair colors <3

what are your favorite minhyuk parts of songs? (a little harder of a question I think 😭)

- monbebe secret santa #1 ☃️ <- you can use this emoji if you want to differentiate <3

hi hi!! i'm so sorry for the late reply i have been having so many issues with my laptop lately it's crazy 😭 everything's fixed right now but fingers crossed it stays fixed!! but otherwise my weekend was really fun, i went out to a party with some friends and now it's the last full week of work before the holidays :D hope you had a great weekend too!!

i think you're right abt that japanese album being released right before a korean one.. and since it was during covid times they really didn't get a chance to go to japan to promote it :'( a shame truly!! and YEA that makes sense.. i wish i could listen to so many of their songs for the first time again!!

minhyuk literally pulls off every hair color sooo well i like when it's blonde-brown too!! and it looks like he's back to black hair for now but it would be kinda fun if we got a new color for comeback promotions, i'd looove to see him with grey or something like that 👀 also comeback is coming!! i'm so excited like we kinda knew it was coming but also i'm like ?!!? comeback!!!!

favorite minhyuk parts omg. that is definitely a harder question and i know i'm gonna leave so many out but here are some ones that i vividly remember pooping myself a little the first time i heard them, gonna put them under a readmore bc this ended up rly long

this one is short but his 'come ooOOooOoooOOON' in rush hour

no reason.. any of his parts literally. wonho was so great at giving him parts that suited him and i loove how his high notes sound in this song

kiss or death there's this one bridge before the final choruses and his voice just sounds so angelic i don't know how to describe. 2:32

it aint over before the last chorus where he IT AINT OVER TIL ITS OVERRRRR i mean i know that line is in the lyrics a lot but he BELTS it out right before the last chorus and it actually stopped me in my tracks when i was listening to mx on shuffle a few weeks ago. stole the whole song

by my side minhyuk opening this song was sooo iconic

if only.. again wonho was sooo good at writing parts that suited minhyuk's higher notes (imo) the whole song he sounds rly good

honorable mention it wasn't even his part originally but that live performance of U R you know the one.. when minhyuk belts that chorus... bro

second honorable mention to his king of masked singer performances because everytime i listen to them i feel insane like how are people not banging down his door begging him to sing their ballad OSTs......

i'd love to hear if you have any specific favs too!!

[jwooyoung]

SecretSantaHere! Nah I completely get the overwhelming feeling. I think mine was BTS > SKZ-WayV > MX > EXO but MX was the first group I looked into their albums. Don't Call Me era was iconic! I was blindly listening to All Bout Luv album when Fantasia happened. Names are so hard and I always wanna pronounce it right too. I completely get the font thing. I just be looking forever. I think its already amazing but I look forward to it. My first era was Fatal Love. It just cemented me as a Monbebe.

MORNING 😊😊 yeah it's hard when you're getting into a number of groups that have a pretty deep discography already. had to start slow 😭 mx was also one of the first groups where I went to listen to all their albums really soon after becoming a fan. I think because they felt so well rounded to me that I wanted to listen to ALL at once

omg fatal love 💝💞💝💓💖💞💖💕💖💓💖💓💝 my FAVE truly I think if I had to choose one album it would be that one. what's your fave era specifically for jooheon?

[biffhofosho]

NO WAY!! I can't believe your bias is Hyungwon also. I feel like I never meet other monbebe who are in his lane :( Fun fact, I actually couldn't pick a bias for such a long time because of how much I love all of them. One day, however, I was showing my friend one of their music videos and they asked me who my bias was. I balked at first but ultimately I had to admit I always felt so validated, appreciated, and moved by what wonnie had to say.

His songs made me feel something, unlike other artists(not compared to the other members lol). He has such a way with words and as an avid reader, I fell in love with how he wrote. His personality played a huge role in my trip also haha. I feel so safe when I listen to him sing or read stories about him. His disposition was similar to mine, I am an INTJ, and his fearless nature helped me gain confidence in myself.

ALSO, I am in awe that Wonho was your semi-first bias of MX, considering he was the one who got me into them. I saw a TikTok of him dancing and I was immediately absorbed by his energetic yet smooth style. After that, I searched them up and fell in love lol.

Although Hyungwon holds my heart, I must say Kihyun bias wrecks me so hard all the time, which isn't helpful when MX are my ults.

Anyway, enough about me, who's your bias wrecker? I feel like you are possibly a Honey mbb lol. You give off such a comforting and kind energy, yet an intelligent and analytical one at the same time. Getting to know you has already been such fun, I can't wait to develop our friendship further! Speaking of which, how should I call you? I figured since you call me Santa lol you deserve a nickname also haha(I hope that didn't come off the wrong way!)

xox mbb Secret Santa

p.s. remember to drink lots of water and eat well!! much love :)

Sorry for taking a while to respond! Weekends are busy because I do many things with my husband and kiddo, and I wanted to give you a nice, long response for your very nice, long ask. <3

You can call me Dutch or Biff on here or any kind of silly pet name you want--I'm only picky about food haha. (My real name is reserved for DMs where MX can never find me embarrassing myself lol.)

Oh, it's so true, isn't it! Where is the Hyungwon praise, people?!? At least that means it's less we have to share of him haha. :D Stil, Hyungwon (and all seven boys) deserves all the love and best things in the world. I feel like he's really only become truly comfortable in his idoldom since Wonho left, as it was pretty easy to take introvert shelter in Wonho's tremendous wingspan heh heh.

Yes, Hyungwon is as unintentionally funny as he is intentionally funny. Since Inssaoppa, too, he's really been flexing his quick wit and wordplay, and I'm here for all of it. I love that he's been given more and more creative freedom, too. He's an INFP like me, and if we can't create, we wither and die.

Almost all of my all-time fave MX tracks are written by Wonnie, particularly "Mercy" (though I hadn't realized he'd written that song until long after it had been my favorite). I remember the first time I played the No Limit album in my headphones. I had intended to fall asleep listening, but the second "Mercy" hit, an entire universe opened behind my eyes. I cried into my sheets lol. That song rattled my bones. Needless to say, it's my favorite from their whole discography, and I started an entire novel around it. So, yeah, there's that.

I'm not sure if I have a clear bias wrecker since they've all wrecked each other for me for years lol. If I go by non-Hyungwon fics I've written, my favorites tend to be Kihyun's. If I go by the numbers of photos I've saved per member, Minhyuk's and Wonho's are a dead-heat in terms of how many photos I've saved. And aren't we all Honeybebes at heart? ;) I feel the same intense compulsion to put Jooheon's head in my lap and stroke his hair that every single member of MX does. *sighs* He must me adored and babied at all costs. :D

Oh man, I've got you fooled haha. But thank you for saying such nice things about me. If I give off a 1/16th of the warmth Jooheon does, that's the highest compliment I can think of (behind you saying I write like Hyungwon *continues to sob for all eternity*).

I feel like we were matched so well for Secret Santa omfg! Your energy is just my flavor, dear Santa. <3 Thank you for being so chatty with me. Is very, very lovely. :D Can't wait to chat more!

[crescent-stars]

Woojin really is out there carrying the first chorus the way he carries the whole music industry, huh

[monstax-info]

211206 [MONSTAX_JH] Talk Tok Update

낙

안녕? 나 허니야 몬베베❤️새벽에 또 글을쓰게 되넹 짐싸느라.. 늦었어 ㅠ 일단 이번활동 다 최고였어! 늘 최고였지만 또 최고였어 아니 평생 최고일거야.내가 싸인회에서 얘기했던 말이 있는데 우리 몬베베의 사랑을 이제야 정말 뼛속으로 느낀다고. 데뷔때는 그리고 연습생일때는 음악만 잘하면 또 무대만 잘하면 된다고 생각했다? 근데 그것도 중요하고 기본중 그게 가장 기본이지만 난 가수이잖아 가수는 과연 어떠한 가수가 멋진가수일까 내 롤모델 마이클잭슨처럼 모든걸 다 잘하고 겸손한 아티스트도 좋지만 말야 진정 날 사랑해주는 우리팬들 몬베베를 위해서 성대나가도록 목이 안좋아도 찢어지게 소리를 내는것,춤이 격해 호흡이 가빠서 어지러워도 정신을 차리는것,허벅지가 부셔질거같지만 끝까지 서있는것. 그리고 내가 가진 모든 재능을 주는것. 마음을 함께하는것. 온힘을 다해 사랑하는것. 그게 진정한 가수가 아닐까 생각이 들어. 7년 연습하면서 진짜 포기하고싶었던 날.어머니에게 용돈이 받기싫고 혼자의 힘으로 일어서려고 이악물었던 날. 무시받았던 날. 그런 날들과 우리에게 참 되려고 하면 무너지고 되려고하면 무너지고 우린 안되나보다. 그랬던 날 그런 모든 날들이 견고하고 단단한 우리를 만들었고 날 만들었어.

2년 8개월 만에 1위를 하고 7년만에 타이틀곡을 만들고 난 이럴수록 더욱 마음이 낮아질수밖에 없어 더욱 고개를 높이기보다 최대한 낮추고 꿈은 높게 꿀거거든.

잠못자면서 그래도 해보겠다는 우리 멤버들의 강한 눈빛들이 얼마나 멋지던지. 그래 이거야 이게 팀이고 이게 ��금의 몬스타엑스를 만든거야. 그 마음을 모두 만들어준건 단 세글자 몬.베.베 이들이 우릴 만들었고 날 만들었어. 그래서 행복해. 눈앞에서 공연은 아직 못하지만 그러한 나날들을 난 상상하면서 곡을 만들고 또 만들고 또 만들었어. 상을 손으로 꼭쥐었을때 우리 몬베베가 만져봤으면 얼마나 좋을까 생각이 들더라. 앞으로도 더욱 몬베베에게 나의 마음을 잘 전달하고 매번 좋을순 없겠지만 최선을 다할거야 곡을 만드는것도 모든것들 다 말이야. 항상 생각하고 항상 뱉었던 말이 있어 내 삶의 낙을 뭘까 왜 난 매번 바쁠까 왜 난 매번 어려울까 근데 이제 그 정답을 찾은듯해 몬베베가 나의 삶의 낙이야. 진심으로 사랑하고 애정하고 좋아해.

미국 잘 다녀올게. 사랑한다 몬베베❤️

joy

hello/how are you? it's Honey monbebes❤️ I'm writing late because I was packing.. it's lateㅠ firstly, these promotions were the best! it's always been the best, but this was the best again. no it was the bestest of my life. there's something I said at fansign, and that is I now really feel Monbebes' love in my bones. When I debuted and during trainees days, I thought, do I just need to do well in music and performance? But of course that's important as well, it's the most basic thing, but well I'm a singer. I wonder what makes a singer cool? Like, my role model is Michael Jackson. I think artists who can do everything and are humble are good but for our monbebes who truly loves me, I tear my vocal chords even if not in the best condition, I come to my sense and dance so intensively even if I have short breath and feel dizzy, I stand till the end even if my thighs are about to break down. And I give out all the talents I have. And we share our hearts. And I do my best to love you. I think this is what being a singer is about. The day I wanted to give up after 7 years of practice. The day I didn't want my mom to give me money anymore and I gathered all my strength and worked hard to stand up by myself. The day I was ignored. Those day plus the days we tried to be most sincere and collapsed, tried again and collapsed again we thought maybe we really couldn't do it. Those days, all of them, made me strong and solid.

After winning first place (on Music Bank) in 2 years and 8 months and making my first title track after 7 years, the more I do the more I can't help but feel like getting more and more humble ("heart getting lower") and rather than raising my head, I'll lower it too as much as possible and dream as high as I can.

How cool were the members' strong gaze who, even though they couldn't sleep, still wanted to try. Yes, that's it, this is the team and this is what made the Monsta X we are now. What made us feel this way, it's only three syllables: "mon.be.be." you made us, you made me. So, I'm happy. We can't perform in front of you yet but I keep imagining those days and made and made songs thinking about that moment to come. When I held tight those awards tightly in my hands, I thought "how nice it would be if monbebes could touch this too". In the future as well, I'll bring my heart to monbebes more and more and, even if I can't be good every time, I'll keep doing my best, making songs and in everything as well. There's always something I think about and said "what's my joy in life? why am I always busy? why is it always so hard for me?" but I think I found the right answer to those questions now, and that is "Monbebe is my joy in life". I sincerely love you, truly love you and like you.

I'll go and come back from the US safely. Love you monbebe

translation by monstax-info

[nunuxhoho]

I mean, maybe this is a hot take, maybe it's me being naive, but I kinda think Starship has been waiting for the best time to let Wonho and Monsta X communicate in public again.

From what little I've heard, the only people that still hate Wonho are some louder groups of "fans", who may be a smaller group then they seem.

Most of the monbebes, wenees, and other fans I know seem to still appreciate and respect all 7 of them, even if they're apart. And while some may have some slightly different viewpoints about their careers and how the company is handling it, they all agree that the seven of them are grown-ups who should be allowed to freely and openly be feiends, regardless of if they're still performing as one group.

And I feel like Starship understands this, at least partly. After all, they did make Highline Entertainment. Probably as a way for the 7 of them to still be somewhat connected.

Your thoughts?

well, you are a very optimist and I'd do want to adopt your thoughts.

I don't think SSE has something personal against them.

and you're right I even met lots of wenees that only support wonho as a soloist but they will respect every decision he'll make and they want him to hang out with whoever he wants. even ot6 wouldn't mind.

so about sse...heres my guessing for their behavior.

I think that the main problem is the kmbb haters that SSE doesn't want to deal with.

I know it sounds silly because if we do some math I'm pretty sure there are fewer haters than ot7 and not haters. most of the fans I met are flooded with nostalgia and just thirsting to see our boys together.

so why would SSE be on the minority side, what's in it for them?

they as company care they'll keep the fans close. (it's all about the amount right?)

what I think is that they are trying to adjust themself to satisfy all fans.

they think it's the best decision to still keep fans, not upset the haters and hide the mess under the rug.

I'm not fully sure but let's look at it from this prospect:

it's been two years and every time the guys hung out with wonho they had to apologize. like when they went to a restaurant and when kihyun apologized hanging out with wonho (etc)

that vlive a month ago that hyungwon was wearing his matching watch (he bought with wonho) and got haters response to take it off and so he did. (it seemed the staff had pressured him)

there are a lot of things like when SSE trying to deny wonho being a part of the company. (like when he practice in one of sse room and they put a whiteboard to hide the starship sign), censor him in any way, and the list goes on...

so if SSE really is planning to let the boys meat up freely someday, at least for now it doesn't feel like we're heading in that direction.

they are surely aware fans miss them. but there's no real effort on the matter.

However I wish you are right anon and that it will happen soon.

cause, as time goes on Wenbebes are divided. which leads to more drama in the fandom and it's getting me worried... (so they better act fast in my opinion)

I'm truly trying to think if sse really just waiting for the right time what do you think is the right time? maybe waitng for haters to be gone?

also even tho I got excited about them mentioning wonho in the mx movie ticket It's not safe to say it'll be true. there's a chance it was a mistake (maybe they used old info) as a lot of mistakes SSE/hl is capable of.

but of course, I'm not losing hope. 💙💙💙

as long as the're famous mx and wonhos relationship is something that will eventually get on the news. those rules wouldn't last forever.

and there a lot of mx wonho rebelding lately (with no apologies!) so maybe it's a sign we are close to a change more than we think who knows. 🙂

[sweetsweetkpop]

💫😈Dee’s Kinktober😈💫

Day 16: bondage & face fucking

Pairing: sub!Changkyun x Dom! Minhyuk & Wonho

Genre: Smut

WC:1k

Warnings: Bondage, Face fucking, Sensory Deprivation, Toys, Threesome, Spit roasting, Fingering, Rimming, slight possessiveness (they say our pup at some points)

Notes: I’m really happy that I got this out cause my creativity juices died but now we back and so enjoy subby Changkyun. 

Ao3 Link

Day 15                   Day 17

Changkyun loves his hyungs.

Yes, they were chaotic as all hell, but they love that each and every one of them has for each other was real and honestly soothing for him. 

 He wouldn’t say he has favorites because he truly did love them all. But there’s just something about Minhyuk and Hoseok that just gets to him every time. He felt the calmest, even the most vulnerable around them at times. He felt safe and he trusted them with everything. 

Even though he can be a brat ( and he loves it and will never stop. You thought wrong), he always gets the urge to be good for the two when they were alone. Away from Monbebe. Away from the camera. Away from the world, leaving just him and his boyfriends. 

So, when they both knocked on his door that night, he wasn’t expecting to see the things in their hand, yet his cock already started to twitch in the excitement in the shorts he was wearing. 

They asked if he wanted to be their cock sleeve for the night and he knew he would say yes before the words left his mouth. 

That’s what led him into the situation he was in now. 

A blindfold covering his eyes, unable to see any of their next moves. His arms bound together with some fuzzy handcuffs to limit any bruises that could appear. They had a vibrating bullet attached right under the head of his cock with the control switch tapped to his thigh. The finishing touch was the collar around his neck; the leash held in one of their hands. 

“Hyung doesn’t he look so pretty for us like this?” He heard Minhyuk cooed from somewhere on his left, his head turning in that direction. “ Can’t wait to see how pretty we can make him.” 

Changkyun felt the bed dip in as their bodies moved around. Neither of them spoke for a minute before Changkyun's body buzzed from the bullet springing to life against his cock. A choked moan left his throat before he felt a grip in his hair, pulling him up to the height one of his hyungs wanted. He felt something heavy tap the side of his cheek, his mouth opening immediately as he already knew what it was.

“ Such a good pup.” He heard before he felt his mouth get stuff, heavy with cock as he let out a muffled moan. Just having the taste of his hyung on his tongue made his body ten times hotter than it already was. 

But he stayed still. He didn’t thrust. He didn’t move Changkyun’s head. He just rested his cock in his mouth just to keep it there and Changkyun had no problem with that.

But then a gasp left his lips as he felt a tongue press in his rim, lapping him up and spreading his ass, so he could devour him some more. He nearly got hooked from just the taste of his hyung’s cock that he forgot there was a third person in the room.

“ Does Minnie’s cock taste good Kyunnie?” Hoseok giggled as he reached behind himself to grab some lube and coat his fingers. “ Can’t believe you forgot that I was here.”

Changkyun could hear the pout in his voice and he wanted to say something in response but couldn’t as he felt fingers press into his hole with ease, Changkyun’s body way more relaxed than expected as Changkyun sighed. Hoseok’s fingers moving fast as Minhyuk finally decided to thrust his hips, catching Changkyun off guard as he felt hands grip the side of his head and move at a quick pace as he tried not to gag. 

It didn’t take long for Hoseok to stretch the boy out before lubing his own cock up and pressing deep inside of him. He reached underneath him and turned the vibration up some more and it caused Changkyun’s legs to shake. 

Both of his hyung’s timed their thrust with each other. While one was pulling out, the other would thrust inside always keeping him full. Drool leaking down his chin and his cock twitching and precum dripping onto the sheets as his fingers flexed as his arms were still bond, wishing to hold onto one of them. 

“ Our pup is so good for us. He’s taking both of us so well, isn’t he hyung?” Minhyuk grunts out as he looks down to watch his cock slid in and out of his mouth with ease, Changkyun’s tongue coating the underside with drool, hollowing out his cheeks.

Hoseok chuckled as his hands had a good grip on his hips, veins popping out in his arm as he pants with the way how his hole squeezes down on him. “ If he keeps doing this, he’s gonna milk all the cum out of me.” 

“ Is that what you want Kyunnie? You gonna take all of your hyung’s cum like a good boy?” Minhyuk teased as Changkyun gave him a moan that went straight through his cock. “ Let’s fill him good hyung.”

Hoseok and Minhyuk picked up speed, Hoseok turning the bullet to the max and making sure to hit his prostate with each thrust he gave him. Changkyun’s body could barely take it anymore and it didn’t take long for his legs to shake and a loud muffle moan leaving his sore throat as he came. Like a domino effect, both Minhyuk and Hoseok stilled as they both came, down his throat as he swallowed it all and clenching around Hoseok’s cock, milking him dry.

They all stilled as Hoseok reached to turn the toy off after hearing him whine from the overstimulation. Hoseok slowly pulled out of him first, watching some of his cum leaks out of his puffy rim as Minhyuk pulled out of his mouth. They quickly removed the cuffs, toy, and blindfold off of him. Changkyun’s eyes were glossy as he laid there with a goofy smile on his face. 

They both made sure to work him down before moving him to clean up and it was those tender touches that made him smile and have his heart pound in adoration. He was clinging to them both as they waited for his legs to get some feeling in them before heading to shower. Minhyuk placing sweet kisses on his face as Hoseok rubbed his thighs and back soothingly. 

“ You feel okay Kyunnie?” Hoseok asked as he made Changkyun look at him. The maknae leaned forward, pressing a kiss to his lips with a soft smile.

“ I feel great.” 

[fymonsta-x]

[ADMIN] A few notes

On the topic of deciding to close and then to re-open

I would like to apologise for taking such hasty decisions based on my personal morals, making our followers go through so many ups and downs with this blog. FY!MX is intrinsically related to our love and passion for MONSTA X; and so I like to explain why I make decisions the way I do. As you could see, I am terribly sensitive and I let my personal feelings get in the way of what should simply be MONSTA X updates — for that, I want to sincerely apologise.

Back in January, when the world (US?) tour was announced so soon after the Wonho/Jooheon events, I was both so hurt and so angry it was very obviously affecting the way I was running this blog and I couldn’t possibly go on like everything was fine. Seeing all the mistreatment Monbebes and MONSTA X received; as soon as I saw my safe space being compromised, I allowed my mental health to immediately follow.

In all honesty, we were already planning on bringing back this blog even before we learned about these Wonho news. We have been diligently updating our pages and working on a new look for MONSTA X’s comeback, but it seems things got rushed a bit!

We won’t be posting all the updates that we missed but we did, however, add all the events in between so that they are at least available on the 2020 gallery.

On the topic of Wonho as a distinct entity from MONSTA X

Ideally, Wonho would never have to leave MONSTA X. Thus, none of the possible outcomes would ever satisfy everyone 100%. However, things are the way they are, Starship is an idiotic company and we can’t go back in time; only learn from this experience. I am mildly content with the follow up to this matter (as I had WAY worse scenarios in mind) and I have finally found some peace knowing Wonho still gets to do what he truly loves, while still being close to his brothers.

FY!MX supports Wonho and will provide updates on his endeavours, as well on MONSTA X’s promotional activities and schedules, now as a six-member group. Although we are dealing with separate realities and entities now, MONSTA X will always be 7 in our hearts and we have absolutely no bad intentions behind our support for Wonho as a solo artist.

We will work hard to resume our FY!MX routine 🥰

✨

[the-love-i-crave]

okay u listened to fatal love which is my favorite album BUUUT now you gotta listen to follow - find you (my second favorite album though i have a lot of trauma associated w it, as most monbebes do.... i'll tell u abt it later)

ALSO we love and support wonho and his girlboss solo career, so please listen to love synonym #2: right for us!!!

its been like over 20 hours since u sent this ask and u are already regretting getting me into my monbebe arc. suffer <3

anyway heres my opinions. pretty sure theres an mv for follow as well? or another song? didnt watch it tho rip.

find you - watching the mv alongisde and WHATS UP WITH THEM AND CAR CRASHES WBHBHWBW :((( im not going to lie i almost started crying bc um, *bites lip* dealing with topics of loved ones dying when a loved one of urs died is not sexy (all /lh bc im good HAHA). love the group mocing in with the main guy, polycule truther over here <3 AND THE TIME TRAVELLING STUFF? ??? YOU WERENT KIDDING WHEN U SAID THEY ARE INTERCONNECTED. god now i wanna get into timelines and shit. anyway, i do absolutely love the vibes of this song and im not rating them bc i cant decide for ratings, my ass is fat what can i say

follow - LOVE this song so fuckin much. im a sucker for it, oh my god. even the rapping part.... sir yes. so far my favourite one. JOOHONEY MY BELOVED!!! DEAR GOD. BIAS? MAYHAPS. WELL SEE

monsta truck - i cant believe one of the trucks is hung. anyway, vibes are immaculate. such a good song, advocating for pegging rights. i truly love diversity. love wins <3

(yes ik its supposed to be them being ridden, but? “fill me, fuel me up” shownu pegging king? checkmate atheists, i win)

U R - i absolutely love the song but GOD. SOME OF THE LINES IN ENGLISH. PLS WHAT IS “stop shakin my tree, i just want this so deep” KING WHAT??? DONT DO THAT  “come to me the way” pls i cant do this. but all in all this is a good song..... will admit id rather listen to gasoline than this one :thonk:

Disaster - joohoney i- please. please. i love you. changkyun please my other beloved. please. i am vibing HARD with this one. yes bitch i AM a disaster, but on in the fact that im a goddamn mess. really love the end part of it

Burn it up - YESSSSS THE FUCKIN SONGS SLAPS, YES THE BELLS YESSSS, YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS ELMOOO THIS SONG IS SO GOOOOOOOD IM IN LOVE WITH IT YES ARSON LETS GOOOOOOOO

really good i liked it a lot :) one of my favs for this album

i cant finish mirror and see you again tonight, nor that wonho song, bc my attention is not getting taken away too much so im checking them out tomorrow but i do actually really love this album so far. i love the vibes from the very soft, rather tragic, beginning to.... horny. they really said “lets get hrony instead of sad” and i RESPECT IT. i dont respect changkyun though what the fuck is “stop shaking my tree i just want this so deep” king just say you want to get pegged

also pls tell me what that trauma entails. im terrified to find out

[uwunnie]

Hello, everyone.

To recap: There are new fans, and old fans as well as recently turned fans, who truly believe you have to choose Monsta X or Wonho otherwise you’re not a “real” fan. It has reached a point where toxic idiocy is spewed all over Twitter — not really that surprising, but still very annoying — and it has now reached Tumblr; the one place I felt was pretty neutral.

Initially, I wasn’t going to say anything because I felt like it’d only add to the drama. However, as time passes, I see the fandom heading into a direction that is very...well, doomed. Of course, this is merely my opinion and I don’t really expect anyone to hold it to a high regard because I am not God, nor do I believe I am a God-like figure. However, I do think I can still state my opinion upon the matter and try to shed some knowledge that may be utilized positively.

Before I begin, I’m going to try and insert a ‘Read More,’ but should I not be able to make it to a laptop in time before my patience completely disappears, I will tw it as a “long post.” If you dislike long posts and don’t have them filtered, though, and this pops up on your dash and annoys you — I apologize, kinda.

Anyways, let’s go.

—

I don’t really know what happened. Or well, I do, unfortunately.

In the beginning, Monbebes stuck together. We all came together and showed our support as a united body of like-minded individuals who shared their love and support for Monsta X — whether they were seven or individual.

Things went well. Petitions were signed. Billboards were funded. Zoo’s were created.

But at some point, Monbebes began idolizing other Monbebes — and I don’t mean looking up to sensible fans, but ones who are problematic.

Allow to me to repeat this to avoid misunderstandings: It’s okay to look up to fans who are NOT problematic. It really is — be friends with them, aspire to be more like them, I don’t care; do you so long as it’s positive.

But....but....to choose problematic fans to look up to? To choose ones who are known to fetishize a culture? To choose ones who are known, and praised, to fetishize sexualities? To choose ones who provide false hope in exchange for clout while simultaneously invading REAL people’s lives?

Yeah, that’s where everything went wrong.

The wrong people built platforms and their voices were, inevitably, elevated. Everyone began dividing and forming cliques in the name of “unity.” Everyone began losing sight of the big picture — the big picture being a positive resolution.

People stated they wanted a positive outcome, but only if it was on their terms.

Greed. Greed. Greed.

Selfishness replaced selflessness.

Various Monbebes began inserting themselves into the narrative as if it was their own personal emotions that mattered more than Monsta X’s — and that’s not to devalue anyone’s feelings, but I mean...it’s the boys who were directly affected by what happened.

Wonho was the one who had to receive backlash for past events that don’t equate his worth.

Shownu’s voice was silenced despite being a victim to sexually implicit lies and harassment.

Minhyuk sacrificed his own emotions and began keeping hardships to himself.

Kihyun was forced into voicing over his friend’s song lyrics, and is also continually made fun of despite him speaking out and asking fans to not refer to him as “small” and “tiny.”

Hyungwon received, and continues to bear, backlash because certain fans think he’s a liar and also like to criticize him for being “lazy” as if the dude doesn’t work his ass off every day.

Jooheon’s mental health issues were pushed under the rug by many people within the fandom and as soon as he returned, various fans demanded he work more — try harder, be louder and more energetic.

Changkyun’s emotions were disregarded — many fans stating he has an “attitude problem” and seems cold despite the dude literally trying to make everyone around him happy and also sticking up for Monbebes.

Monsta X, regardless of the number, were all continuously pushed past their limits; treated as machines and play-things rather than human beings.

And this is only what has been shown to us. Think about everything that’s transpired that we haven’t seen.

—

I understand that those months were hard, I really do. I was right there with everyone not getting any sleep and trying to balance school, work, projects, etc. I understand it was very emotionally upsetting and I am not devaluing anyone’s feelings because I know it was hard.

But a line has to be drawn.

There has to be a realization that it is Monsta X who has endured the worst of the entire situation. It is not fair to say that the fans had it worse when MX’s actual jobs, lives, health, and futures were all tampered with, endangered, and victimized.

And to top it off — as positive of a resolution that could be made in the situation has been met and people continue to complain.

I understand it may not be ideal — everyone wanted them to come together as seven again and I know how disheartening it is that that isn’t an option right now, but...they’re still here.

Wonho get’s to continue with his career. He can still interact and talk to us. He can do what he wants — I mean, the dude literally has a whole Instagram account to himself when it took a year or two, maybe more, just for SSE to give MX personal cell phones.

The six active members get to continue as well. They released an album that is more than likely going to be nominated for a golden disc award and they’re all, seemingly, recovering. They’ve been able to vacation and from the looks of it, the company is going a little easier on them with their schedules — in a way.

In other words: All seven of them are content.

And for the fandom, we still get to see them. We get to listen to their voices and see their faces. We get to interact with them and watch new shows, etc.

They’re still here — and honestly? It’s a miracle.

Do you know how hard it is for a people to continue considering what transpired? How unusual it is for an artist to be able to overcome legal battles that usually deem unfavorable in the position he was in?

I’ve been in the Kpop fandom for nearly 12 or 13 years now and this is the first time I’ve ever seen legal cases turn out okay for an idol.

History was made and a positive resolution was met, but yet — hardly anyone wants to celebrate.

Instead, a big chunk of the fandom now wants to dive into more drama — separate Monbebes and Wenees from each other and build more cliques.

Say stupid shit like “you’re not a real fan if you only support Monsta X” and “you’re not a real fan if you only support Wonho.”

“Wenees are superior.”

“Monbebes are superior.”

“Wenees love Wonho!”

“Monbebes love Monsta X, and Monsta X only!”

“Let’s listen to boycottbebes!”

“Let’s listen to problematic tarotbebes!”

“Let’s listen to akgaes!”

Just...shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut. Up.

—

I hate to break it to everyone who believes the quotes above, but we are all the same.

Monbebes are Wenees, and Wenees are Monbebes.

There is no competition.

There is no Monsta X without Hoseok, and there is no Hoseok without Monsta X.

—

You cannot hate the root and only love the flower just like you cannot hate the flower and be fascinated by its roots. In the same regard, a leaf cannot hate another upon the stem because to do so would be the leaf despising itself.

—

TL;DR: Stop the fan wars before you ruin damn near six years of love and (relatively abundant) peace.

[kyunsies]

things i love + appreciate about my closest moots  💖 (obviously no particular order bc you all hold such a special place in my heart)

i was going to wait and post this when i hit 400 followers but that has passed and i wasn't ready in time and i didn’t really know when to post this ;; so i’m just going to do it now to remind everyone that it is truly a blessing to be here in your presence :) i don’t want to get mushy ALREADY sdlkfjsd but pls know you all mean so much to me <33

@theyoungflexer — my person, my rock, chelle you’re super special!! we have such a quirky relationship that somehow works extremely well; idk how but i had this feeling from the moment we spoke with each other i was like “omg this gal is so funky and sweet!!” i was really excited to get to know you, and we’ve talked everyday without FAIL since we became moots :) v grateful for you chelle, you’re my home girl!! (even tho we live across the states hehe) 💘💗 also i just respect you on so many levels like the way you just attend one of the most amazing colleges in the US and is thriving?? not to mention your equally as smart brother also going to an amazing college too???????? speechless. ALSO BIG SHOUT OUT BC  you are also the reason for inspiring me to start giffing so,,,,,,literally wouldn’t be here without you GOD chelle i’m so mushy for you :’((((

@softhyungkyun — 1/2 of my mom friends!!! my monmomma, my calming energy in this chaotic world!! victoria, my sweet vic how i love u so!! not to mention the BEST canadabebe around 😘 truly don’t know what i would do without you hun!! do u know how special u are to me?? how much i loved ur lil bunny pics whenever u went on a run; your CONSTANT surveillance of my many typos; and most importantly your scalding of me whenever i show my ~alter ego nasty mädch who is a simp for kyun~ (huh?? who said that, certainly not me!!) i literally look up to you in so many ways, and i’m glad i have someone like you in my life 💗💘💖

@ckyunoirs — you’ve all seen it coming but my actual soulmate!! the best kyun soulmate ever 🥺 i honestly can’t remember how we became moots LOL but i just know i thought you seemed like an absolute sweetheart (which you are) and i was so nervous to talk to you!! i was like “ah omg she has so many anons and everyone associates her w kyun i would like to be at that level” but look at us now!!! we really do share the same (thirsting for kyun always 🤝) braincell and i love that i can tell you what’s on my mind always!! you are such a nurturing soul suni, always stressing how important it is to take care of ourselves 🤧 angel behavior i think!! i don’t even have to elaborate anymore bc i think (i hope) you know truly how much you mean to me suni!!!!! thank you for being such a great friend <33

@memehyungwon — nessa!!! my love whom i get extremely excited about whenever i see your name pop up in my inbox 🥺🥺 get yourself a nessa!!!! so sweet, so supportive, so kind, and just all around LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY!! the cutest, my emotional support bub really 💘💗💖💓💞 so much love for you, plus you’re a multi-talented queen with the moodboards + edits like hello you are LEGENDARY!!! also a multistan extraordinaire, what more could u ask for?? aaaand you call me your “cariño mio” like.......,,shush i’m sobbing just thinking of it 🥺

@pansynight — i think ezra is a fallen angel I SAID IT!!! srsly THE most supportive, trustworthy, and down to earth person in the whole wide world. such a hard worker i mean moodboards, audio edits, writing on the side sometimes, AND gifmaking???????? incredible!!! and is just as a hopeless romantic as i am (cue us crying over how much we love Love together,,,,,i need a moment 😭)!! one friend who i can feel totally comfortable + stripped down with 💙💙 did i already say supportive bc ezra is the Most Supportive Bub if you didn’t already catch that 🥺

@sohcean — bee!!!! a fairly recent moot but one i love very much nonetheless!!!! i looked up to you a lot akdbdjdkjdb like you were one of my “it” monsta x blogs imo hehe but i remember i tagged you in a post where an anon asked me who my fav blogs were and 🥺🥺 you sent me an ask something along the lines of “ty v much i’m glad we’re moots now!!” AND WHEN I TELL YOU!!! i was crying 😭😭😭 anyways, always checks in on me once in a while and you’re always super duper sweet and caring (and thank you for submitting sweet kyun pics occasionally; they are SO desperately needed);; plus you are so extremely eloquent with your writing -- when you post something particularly long i kinda just space out into dreamland  bc you just take me to another place with your words omg *chefs kiss* love ya hun!!! 💙💜💙💜💙

@burnitupmp3 — ah ADRY!!! honestly i was really scared to talk to you too for some reason DJFLSDJ but i think that’s bc you’re so extremely hilarious :’) but now that we are certified CLINGMATES 🥺 i literally thank my lucky stars for you everyday :( always and i mean ALWAYS supporting not only me but all of your other moots too ITS SO AMAZING TO SEE!!!!!! never being shy and always starting a conversation with everyone like i’m starting to get the feeling that maybe you DO in fact know every monbebe on this site HEHE but!!!!! grateful for you, if there is one singular constant on tumblr it's you and you're humor, kindness, individuality 💘💗 1/3 of my joobebes, but my ONLY rujoobebe :’) alSO TY FOR FEEDING ME J.SEPH CONTENT <33

@minhyukie — LISTEN if you don’t follow amy you’re missing oUT!!!! but srsly amy i’m going to get really mushy on you jfsdlkfj  🥺🥺 i’ve been following you ever since i made this blog in january (obvi bc u make High Quality content) and i just need to get this off my chest but when u popped in my messages telling me what i was doing wrong in ps about the smart object thing I LITERALLY SCREAMED I JUMPED OUT OF MY SEAT I MESSAGED @theyoungflexer AND WAS LIKE OMG OMG OMG AMY JUST TALKED TO ME!!!!!!!!! jeez like i was so embarrassingly excited :’D !!! man, am i SO happy we are moots <33 the best minbebe around, always providing me with advice and so many resources,,,not to mention we kinda (??) live relatively close-ish to each other so that’s also very cool LOL but srsly!!! amy you are such a backbone for the mbb community here and i look up to you SO much,,,smooches to u 💘💗

@leejooheons — aj!!! 2/3 of my joobebes!!! we are only recently moots but much like amy, i’ve been following you since the beginning of my blog’s existence!! gosh i look up to you in sooooo many ways and again LIKE AMY when i finally found the courage to talk to you i kinda freaked out when you responded LOL !! your gifs are absolutely AMAZING STUNNNG WONDERFUL; you inspire me to really improve my skills, and you always always ALWAYS give me such helpful advice all the time when i don’t even ask for it :( if anything i can't imagine how annoying it is to see me complain about all of my ps troubles but you still take time out of your day to always give me the best tips ever. and for that??? i’m SUPER grateful for all that you do for not only me but for monbebe tumblr too !!! 💘💗

@chaelight — fern!! my other resourceful monbebe moot 🥺 even though we don’t talk all the time, you, like aj, are always providing me with such amazing content advice!!! seriously idk why you all are so incredibly nice to me it’s so touching 😭 and just like bee, you also give me such a calming vibe; you’re just an overall delight to see on my dash because your content is SO well thought out too <33 love you fern!!

@joosgf — lulu!!! 3/3 of my joobebes who also takes the time to tag me in kyun content 🥺 we do not message often but :( omg you’re such a freaking cutie :( i knew i wanted to be your friend when i found your blog bc 1) everyone loves u and 2) you are so incredibly nice <33 i really hope we get to grow closer in the future!! you are so supportive even though we aren't close, and just know that you can always come to me for anything!! also i just love your adoration for our joober it’s SO SWEET, i love to see you geek about him bc it really is the cutest thing <33

@haoranghae — jill!!!!!!! my eastern standard time pal!!!!!!! <33 honestly i think you're the only moot where i DONT have to think about you being asleep while i’m up bc i know we’re on the same time schedule :’) my multifandom buddy who shares my love for victon and honestly a lot of other groups too!! surprisingly we don’t message often but like, i feel like when we DO talk we always pick up where we left off, if that makes sense? i always feel at home talking with you <33 and you’re so freaking SUPPORTIVE always saying nice things and going out of your way once in a while to pop in the inbox!! jill dear you are such a joy, thank you for being you 🥺

@morkyun — carly my sweet angel!!! one of my most precious fellow kyunbebes!!!! idk why you’re so darn SWEET TO ME!! just the sweetest; always asking how i’m doing, always crying over changkyun with me, always participating in ask games sdkjflskdfjslkf how can i ask for anything more than you?? super DUPER grateful to have u in my life, literally such a blessing <33 AND U HAVE ME IN YOUR BIO <33 IM MELTING PLS I FREAKING LOVE U!!!

@hohyuk — everyone LISTEN UP AS A TALK ABOUT ONE OF MY FAVORITE PEOPLE IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!!! my ma, 2/2 of the mom friends!! you aren’t as active as you were when i first started to talk to you (bc u are a wonderful working WOMAN) but gosh, you made such an impact on me ma :( you are such a caring and nurturing person like the only way i can describe you is motherly :( i remember we would always talk about our days + weekends bc we never really messaged a lot HOWEVER we would always touch base at the end of the week and catch up!! although we don’t talk that often anymore, i want you to know that you will always have a special place in my heart for being exceptionally kind to me 💘💗 and for that i am forever thankful for you ma!! love you!!

@kihyunsgf — kass my cutie patootie!!! we have been moots for a long time it feels!! ( i mean long for me since i’ve one been here since january lol) but you are such an amazing monbebe friend!!! we don’t really private message each other but it seems like we always participate in each other’s ask games so it’s always fun to get to know a little bit more about each other every time we ask questions!! you always reblog not only my work, but every other content creator moots’ works too and i just think you are an extremely supportive friend in general <33 thank you for always being so approachable and warm, and i hope we only grow closer as time goes on 💘💗

@kkyuns — okay aminah OMG so,,,,,,,,,idk if you even want me to consider you a moot yet or anything but 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 can i pls be your moot LOL srsly 🥺🥺🥺🥺 and if you don’t feel comfortable that’s okay and u can just consider this an appreciation post dksfjslkdjf but!!!!!! aminah i’ve already told you i’ve sent you so many asks anonymously and i only recently found the courage and come off bc i feel really comfortable whenever i talk to you <33 literally the KINDEST soul in the entire world;; you might not answer asks quickly ALL the time but you always find a way to make time for the people who look up to you and honestly?? that inspires me to be a kinder more gentler person!! my FELLOW NURSING GAL working your lil BOOTY off, a queen really :’) and not to mention one of the most TALENTED mbb gif makers on the entire planet i’m not even stretching that i truly mean it angel <33 thank u for making me (and others ofc) feel incredibly appreciated, and thank you for being a blessing to mbb tumblr :D

@changkynie — sian angel!!!! you have been with me since the beginning of this blog it seems like!!! thank you for always being my secretive cheerleader on my blog, i really adore you for that! you are such a cutie and you ALWAYS make time to send in little messages to both me and our lil family on my blog!! it’s really the sweetest thing; you are truly SUCH  blessing and i love waking up/falling asleep to your kind words <33 together forever bub i think <33

@tsunpan  (idk which blog you’re comfortable w me tagging so i’ll just do this one dsjfsjdf)—RATCH!!!!!!! i know a lot of ppl on your blog don’t know your name (and oddly enough i’ve never asked either bc i thought u wanted to be secretive LMAO) but then you plugged your twitter @ a while ago and u said it had your name there HEHE SO!!!!!!! i’ll keep it private :) but HOLY CRAP!! my actual first moot on here :( like my FIRST first moot ever :( says i’ve been following you for 8 FREAKING MONTHS!!!!!!!! and wow look how far we’ve come <33 i know i don’t message u as often as a should but just know i cherish this friendship like my life depends on it skdfjlksdjf and thank you for always indulging me with you’re changkyun writings (shout OUT to safekeeping kyun UGH my heart) + also sharing my love for mr. park junhee + ALSO being my astrology guru WOW u really do it all <33 ;; every time i message you i’m always like wow i wish i were as carefree and funny as my gal !! love you to the moon and back dear, thank you for putting up with me 💘💗💖💓💞

@monpabebe —lastly but CERTAINLY not least is my dear RIKA!!!!! again i have this running theme of being scared of the ppl i love LMAO but yes rika i’ve been following you too for a very very long time (i have actually sent u some anonymous stuff too hehe) but i think i fINALLY revealed myself when u mentioned your height!! SHORTBEBES OUT HERE PROTECTING EACH OTHER <33 but on a serious note, you are amazing :( i’m so glad i came out of my shell to finally talk to you; thank you for supporting my work, it means the absolute WORLD to me and thank you for also being a backbone here on monbebe tumblr as well :) i love seeing your interactions with your anons, it always puts a smile on my face 💘💗💖💓💞 whether you're arguing about tomatoes, geeking over shownu, or just giving your opinion on everything monsta x related, i always look up to you 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i know i don’t really talk to you often (bc i’m still a lil intimidated IM SORRY skdfjksd) but i would love for our lil friendship to bloom in the future rika!! :)

[waitingforminjae]

What are some of the worst things you've seen armies post 💀💀💀

Okay ik I never shut up abt it but when the news abt TRCNG being abused dropped last year [TW for descriptions physical abuse and child neglect] and instead of helping to keep hashtags trending abt it (bc TRCNG are a VERY small group), they trended abt like......5-7 meaningless things including V's dog and ik they've done a lot of other vile stuff but I will never ever forgive them for that specifically.

In that moment, I have to be honest. I have never felt rage like that. Never. I have never felt hatred like that. Now, I have to admit that I can't be impartial when child abuse is involved bc I know victims personally, so it's a very important topic to me. But, here's the thing. When armies trended those meaningless things, they weren't even TRYING. There's just so many of them, that even talking abt smth gets it trending.

Do you know how many ppl have to be talking abt smth for it to trend? So many. Cities worth of ppl. As the biggest fanbase in kpop rn, possibly in general, they have so much power. If they wanted, they could've put TRCNG's situation on the map. They could've really helped those kids. They could've gotten it trending and kept it trending without breaking a sweat. They could've gotten together with Monbebes, who also figured out how to trend shit and keep it there, and found a way to raise some REAL awareness. They could've gotten major news outlets talking about it. They could've helped Taeseon and Wooyeop's voices be heard. But they didn't. If you're not gonna use ur platform to help ppl, then what's the point? It makes everything they say feel hollow now. They praise themselves for being good and woke and whatever the fuck, and I remember that day. And I feel sick. I can't stand hollow virtue signaling. Because being good isn't just abt helping your own. It's abt helping others, even when they aren't your own.

They also defended Suga sampling Jim Jones (and in some cases downplaying/defending Jones himself), doxxed black armies (and maybe other armies of color? I'm not sure), and routinely dismiss and erase BTS' racism/cultural appropriation/anti-semitism/general fuck ups.

(Other kpop fandoms also do those things -- racism is a huge problem both in the industry and in fan spaces.)

They also LOVE preaching abt how BTS is the paragon of mental health awareness, yet actively degrade, dismiss, attack, bully, and hurt others in the name of "defending the boys" or whatever. Again, being a good person isn't just about being good to your own. Being a good person, a truly good person, means being good to others.

If armies were in the story of the Good Samaritan, they would leave the man on the side of the road to die. Everything they preach feels hollow bc they don't act on it. And I hate them for it.

[hangukincharms]

Drawn to You

Word Count: 5147 Genre: Fluff, Fan x Idol Interaction Summary: You are an art student drafting a portrait of Wonho at a well-known café. Cross-Posted: AO3 as xKrypton_Bliss

E V E N I N G // A Seoul Café Sitting in a well-known café, you scroll through photos of Wonho on your phone to study his facial expressions and his exact anatomy. Your foot shakes idly now as you have gone past the blushing-in-embarrassment phase to more focused on seeing how the jawline is shaped, the turn of the tip of his nose, where his cheekbones land, and the subtle upturned corners of his mouth. With a nicely weighted and balanced mechanical pencil in hand, you begin to lay down the basic foundations for the three-quarter angle of his head, hoping to capture his essence truly. You have come so far now as an art student, and this was your last art project for university right before you graduate. You have already been taking commissions here and there, but only so few due to your overwhelming schedule with balancing your part-time job, school, and some sort of semblance of this thing called social life. After some time had passed, you managed to get a base sketch down along with some shading and details. It is still a little rough, but it has gotten more refined. A stroke of a loose hair here, maybe a shade there. No, it does not look right. You erase with a bit of frustration. You do not realize that the café has emptied quite a bit and it is darkening a little outside. "Your drawing is wonderful." A woman's voice startled you out of concentration. You snap your head up and see a short older woman carrying a tray with used plates and cups. She smiles sweetly, which seemed a bit familiar in some way to you. "Oh, uh, thank you!" you stammered, feeling embarrassed someone has actually seen your drawing before it was done, and it was a K-pop idol no less. Your cheeks heat up. "It's still far from being done…" You tuck your hair behind your ear out of nerves and pick up your hot chocolate to sip on. "I think it's wonderful," she repeated. "You did a great job capturing my son's personality." You choke on your drink and cough. "Y-your…" "Yes," she smiles proudly, her eyes becoming crescents. "Hoseoki is my son." Your eyes widen in disbelief. That embarrassment that finally ebbed away came back in full force. Now you have to figure out how to explain why out of all people, you decided to draw her son for the final project. You need to figure out why you could have not chosen someone else for this project. Anyone else at all! She sets the tray down on the table next to you. You look around and see maybe one or two people left in the café. You really did not realize how late it was. She sits down across from you. "What made you decide to draw him, dear?" she asks softly. "What do you like about him?" That was a question you dreaded to hear followed by another question you really did not expect. You take a deep breath and explain that the drawing was for a school project that focused on portraits but with a twist of concepts and imaginations. You told her idea of a light and dark concept. Everything has to be hand done and colored for it to be accepted. Right now, you are just going through the first stages of rough drafts. "That sounds very interesting!" she says with intrigue. "But — " she smiles again and leans in a little closer to you. " — you haven't told me why you like him." You were hoping you explained in detail too much so she would forget that question. Your cheeks feel warm as you bring the sketchbook close to you. "Uh, I-I — " A phone rings. Not your ringtone though. She looks down at her apron and finds her smartphone and picks up. "I am so sorry, excuse me — hello?" You breathe a sigh of relief. Many thoughts race through your mind. I just met Wonho's mom. I thought her café closed. Is this even her café? Is she working at a different café? Why did I decide the one time I draw someone outside my apartment, it had to be related to someone who works here! You shake your head back into reality so you did not want to take any more precious time away from his mother who has so kindly sat down with you and chat, which you totally did not expect. "Okay, I will see you soon." She hangs up and puts the phone back into the pocket of her apron. "He's on his way!" "Huh?" you hum in surprise. "I mean — Forgive me — I — who is on his way?" "My son. He is coming by to visit." Now is your chance for escape from even more embarrassment. "Ahh, okay, well…" you begin to collect your belongings. "I don't want to be rude while you wait for your son to arrive — " "Oh, please! Stay! I insist!" She gives you a look that only Asian mothers do that I wish I could describe. "You won't be bothering us if that is what you're afraid of. I'm always happy to meet any Monbebe and he is too." Your eyes widen by each word landing in your ear. "A-a-are you sure?" "Yes! Now sit down!" she politely urges. You did not realize you had gotten up from your seat in your rush to leave. You feel so rude to deny her, so you obey and bow to her in apology. Since you know she would not let up, you begin to explain the qualities of Wonho as you have seen him in variety shows and Vlive: charismatic, selfless, cute, cares very much about other people, making sure no one is left behind, in tune with his emotions… the list was endless. There was so much to list that it felt like you lost track of time. You really wanted to let his mother know how at least one fan of his feels about him so she could feel proud. For a little while now, you felt this strange sensation that you have been brushing off that someone was nearby you. Now that you have begun to run out of words, the feeling has become stronger. You cautiously eye to the side and slowly turn your head to see a plain grey sweater at your eye level. You look up hesitantly and see an all too familiar face of your bias, beaming down at you —the Wonho himself. Your heart beats painfully against your chest as your eyes widen. How long has he been there?! Did he hear everything I said? Do I sound crazy? Oh, God, I hope he didn't stand there for too long. Why did she not say anything? Such a sweet lady, she just smiled the whole time with light in her eyes. Ahhh, I should've listened to that gut a long time ago! "Hi," he greets sweetly. The upturned corners of his mouth have become much more prevalent with his smile while showing off his pearly whites. You draw in a shaky breath. Your hands begin to work on attempting at anything to hide your sketch from his eyes, albeit very clumsily. You fumbled with closing the sketchbook, flipping your phone over so the backside is shown — crap, it has his PC in it! You shove it under your arm. Feeling a shift in movement, you see Wonho move next to you and sits down between you and his mother, phone in hand to check the time and sets it down, watching you curiously with a hint of amusement. “Ah — h-how are you?” you stuttered, with your arm hastily crossed in front of you, resting your chin in your hand. “I’m doing fine,” he replies with a relieved sigh as he sweeps his hair back with his fingers. “I just got done with dance practice for our comeback.” He smiles again. “How are you doing? What's your name?” “I-I-I’m doing okay…” You say as you trail off, making sure to cover your face with your hair, looking down. "My name is Y/N…" "Nice to meet you, Y/Nssi," he beams. "I'm sure you already know who I am, but I am Wonho of Monsta X. I see you have already met my mom." He bows politely. "Yes, nice to meet you too." You return the bow meekly. You look back up at him to smile politely and notice the beads of sweat glistening along his forehead and the side of his face. A stark contrast against his black hair. You are surprised at how casual he was in front of you, a fan, for this. Does he not know he could kill you in an instant if you let him? (Nah, you were already dead before it started.) As you become lost in thought on how this is even reality right now, he and his mother chatted away, probably something about their days recently. You are trying not to be rude and listen into the conversation, but the unexpected starstruck really hit hard with you. Normally, if you are prepared to meet someone who is in some ways well-known or famous, you would not be a bumbling mess. Your own personality shines much more brilliantly and naturally. If this was a fansign, you would have ample time to calm down, even before the meet up — at least, that is what you would know from what you have seen on social media. You did not want to treat Wonho like he was on a pedestal or some kind of god. Geez, but this was far too soon and too unexpected! You come back to reality when you realize a hand was waving in your face. "Are you still there?" Wonho asks. "Hm?" Your eyebrows quirk. Oh, that is right. Wonho is still there in front of you. Wonho is still there in front of you! "Did you want to see my arms?" he asks with a chuckle. "You were staring really hard at them." "Eh?" You spaced out and did not know you were burning a hole through his arms. "A-ah, no! It's okay! I'm okay — " "Oh…" he slumps in his seat, eyes looking down. "So you don't want to see them…" He looks back up to you with puppy eyes. Your breath hitched in your throat as you have realized what you said. "N-no! I don't mean that! I mean, like, you don't have to show them to me. Only if you're comfortable." He laughs. "It's okay. I'm not offended. I knew what you meant." He winks playfully. "It's getting a little hot for me in here anyway, so do you mind if I take off my sweater?" Your nostrils involuntarily flare and your heart quickens. You shove that thought to the dirt. Now that he has been here for a while, you are trying every way to calm down and treat him like a normal human being. "No, I don't mind." He smiles and nods. You look away and out the window to the busy street as you hear the shuffling of fabric next to you, chin resting on your hand. You noticed it was just a little too quiet at the table despite his movement. "Where's your mom?" He chuckles. "You didn't hear?" He must have realized you were spacing out. "She went back to finish up cleaning and busting the tables." "Ah…" "So she was telling me how talented you are at drawing." "Oh…?" "And I kind of want to see it for myself." "Uhh…you sure? I'm not that good…" "Hey." "Yeah?" "Why won't you look at me?" You freeze. Do you dare mention that your face has been beet red and the mere thought of looking at him in the flesh with no sleeves is just going to kill you? "I'm embarrassed," you say, settling in that word alone. You feel him leaning closer to you. "Embarrassed?" You nod your head. "Whether your drawing looks good or not, I'll still love it all the same," he assures softly. "It's okay that you drew me." You close your eyes and sigh. Wanting to get this over with, you slowly turn your body back around and see him in a loosely fitted white tee with his sleeves partially rolled up. His arms are magnificently big, but in their relaxed state, it is not so bad; not as intimidating as you thought. He flashes his pearly whites at you, his eyes disappearing. "Ah… There's a face I want to see." You exhale out of your nose in half amusement and relief and give a wry smile. Sure, you are sitting in front of Wonho right now, but you are becoming more relaxed to his presence, arms and all. You slowly unveil your sketchbook and your phone peeks out, his PC in full glory. "Is that your favorite one of me?" he gestures to the PC. "Well," you begin, tilting your head to the side as you glance at it. "It's the only one I have of you out of all the albums I have." There is still a part of you that finds talking about all of this weird, especially talking about it to him, but you have to go along with it since he asked. "Oh, really? Did Minhyuk take over your photos?" he jokes. "Actually, that's what happened," you laugh. "Almost every album, it's him!" You relax just a little more. "I'll make sure to scold him for you." He winks. Gathering the courage, you shuffle out your sketchbook to be in front of you. "So, you wanted to see my drawings?" You glance up at him… in the eyes for those extra courage points. He nods. You shift the sketchbook over to him and flip through the pages, whether it was a work in progress or completed. You explain details of each concept drawn and what classes they were for. Sometimes, half of the drawings were for fun as you explained different styles and techniques to hone your personal art skill. You sometimes take a peek at him to see his expression and it seemed deep in concentration with some amounts of awe, indicating to you he was sincerely listening and genuinely interested. Your body loosens up even more. In between the flipping of pages, Wonho would ask questions about you, like how did you get into traditional art, what type of music do you listen to when you are working, how do you juggle between university and social, work, and home life. At one point, he even asked about your dating life. "I… don't really have much of one," you state flatly. "Oh, is that so?" His eyebrows raise in surprise. "Yeah, too frivolous. It makes me lose concentration on my work. I don't have as much time for it as other students do. It's quite a time investment. They won't understand why art is such a big passion of mine, so they'll just eventually leave me anyways." You look over to Wonho who seems to be baffled, yet sad. "I'm okay. I'm not hurt by this. I've accepted it." "Not a single soul would understand?" You chuckle. "Not even one." You flip the page. It lands on the partially finished portraiture of Wonho. You completely forgot about it and your body tensed up. You begin to slowly pull the sketchbook away from him. "Ahh, this isn't finished — " He stops you by holding onto the other side of the sketchbook, slowly pulling it back to him. "Oh, no, we're not gonna be shy here." You are still holding onto it, except it is slowly slipping from your fingers. You feel your grip shaking a little. Meanwhile, you look at Wonho, then down to his grip. Not a single struggle. Not wanting to tear your possession, you sigh. "Fine." You suddenly let go and the book jerked into his hand. You turn away again with your chin resting in your hand once more. He chuckles and you feel a gingerly pat on your head. You turn back to him in bewilderment, but he was already looking deep into your drawing. You turn your body slightly towards him to analyze his expression. Does he like it? Does he dislike it? Does he — "My mom was right. You really did capture me so well…" "I… I just, you know, uh…" You scratch the back of your head. "It's really well done. I am kind of jealous of this Wonho because he looks better than me!" You laugh. "What? No! You've always looked amazing, inside out, no matter what!" Whoops. That was too much, you thought. "Oh, no, I'm sorry, that was frank of me." You shrink into yourself out of embarrassment. "Hey, it's okay," he says gently. "I like hearing that from Monbebe, because, well, it gives me strength to keep doing what I'm doing." He pauses and lowers his eyes. "I'll admit, even if I look strong like this — " He tenses his muscles. " — I'm not always strong for myself when I need to be — are you okay?!" "Hm?" You look at him in confusion. "Yeah, why wouldn't I be okay?" "Your nose is bleeding." "Oh, is it?" you say nonchalantly. You take a napkin nearby you and wipe the blood off as best as you can. You ball it up without looking. "Okay, so you were saying that we're your source of strength?" "Does this happen often?" he says, eyebrows furrowed. "Hm?" "The nosebleed." "Oh, no, rarely." He stiffens and reaches forward to console you, a look of worry etched into his face. "We need to take you to the hospital...!" "Oh, no, no, no, it's okay. I'm fine. Don't worry about it." You wave your hand dismissively. You know exactly why your nose was bleeding and it happened when he tensed his wonderfully sculpted muscles right before you. Seriously, how is he so casual about this? "How are you so casual about this?!" Wonho exclaims. "Shh, it's okay!" you whisper. You realize you are closer to him than normal, then noticed that your hand was covering his mouth. Your head tingles in panic as you try not to jerk your hand away, but slowly move it off of him as you blush. "I'm sorry." You look up at him in earnest. "But, please, do not worry about me. Tell me about how Monbebe is your source of strength." "Hoseoki!" You and Wonho both turn to the source of the voice. His mother looked primed and ready to leave with her tote bag hanging on her shoulder. He gets up and goes to her. "Is this bag too heavy for you?" he asks, checking the weight of the bag. "Silly boy, it's fine! Your mom may be old, but she is still strong." He comes back to the table and you were preparing to leave yourself as that seems to be your cue. Your sketchbook, pencils, erasers and sharpener are all back into their spots in your messenger bag. He picks up the sweater and puts it back on. "Hey, I'm sorry. I'll have to take my mom home now," he says. You might have heard a lace of sadness in his voice. "It's alright. It's no worries!" You smile. "You take care of her." "It was nice meeting you and getting to know you, Y/Nssi." "It was nice to meet you too, Wonhossi." A flash of sadness reflected in his eyes. Or did it? Both of you and his mother said your goodbyes and bowing as you all leave the café. You begin walking in the opposite direction from them, going back to the apartments that are close to the café but also the university too. You immediately reminisce on what just happened in the span of an hour, wondering if you had gone to this café more often and actually stayed longer, would you have met Wonho even sooner? You shake your head. It does not matter now. You were just happy to have met him once and that is that. Not to mention the feedback of the portraiture fueled your eagerness to finish the draft sooner, so you could make a real painting out of it. Especially now that you had a glimpse of him and his personality in the flesh, you could add that depth to your piece. //////////////////// 2  M O N T H S  L A T E R // University Arena

You had finished your graduation ceremony at the university and was walking out to find your friends and family in multiple places. You have been pulled by various friends to have photos together, posing for the cameras or taking selfies that were in abundance. It was very crowded due to having to graduate with 2,100 other graduates as well. You eventually find your family and closest friends and they showered you with bouquets, a beautiful flower crown, and balloons. They all hug you tightly with congratulations and love. Your father pats you on the head and smiles with pride. Your mother holds your hand, not wanting to let go of the child she had raised who has now graduated university. Another round of picture taking and selfies begin with those closest to you. "Y/N!" You crane your neck to look for the voice of whomever is calling you, but see no one. "Y/N!" This time, it is closer. You look around again, thinking the voice has given you misdirection. "Y/N." You turn around and see another male graduate you are familiar with, but more as a classmate. "Oh, hey, Yoojin! We've finally made it!" "Yeah, finally!" he exclaims. He clears his throat. "Listen, someone is here looking for you." "Who?" "I don't know, but you'll have to follow me." "Oma, I'll be right back," you call out to your mother. "Child, where are you going — " "I'll be right back!" Your mother huffs but has no choice but to let you go. "Okay, Yoojin, let's go." "Take my wrist so we don't get lost." You oblige. Both of you are bumping into everyone everywhere you go and it does not get any easier when you run into people who were in the same department as you and wanted pictures. The same goes for him as he was in the science department. As both of you push by, the crowd becomes less and less dense, leaving a few people scattered by the edges. Most of them are families with professional photographers. By this time, you were able to let go of Yoojin's wrist and walk normally. "I am so sorry I had to drag you out of there," he pants. "But apparently, this person is really eager to see you." "If they were so eager, I'm surprised they didn't fight the crowd," you chuckle. You follow him until the pavement meets the grass. There was a walkway that was heading up to one of the gazebos around the front. "He's waiting for you there." "You're not coming with me?" you ask, surprised. "What if I get kidnapped?" "I'm… sure he's harmless, but just in case, I'll wait here." A thud was felt in your chest. You look to the structure. You cannot really see anyone, but if you squint hard enough, you might make out a silhouette. However, the gazebo's intricate design makes it difficult to see. You begin walking as Yoojin looks on after you. The crowd's noise becomes fainter with every step. The only things you hear now are the birds chirping and the clacking of your heels. As you get closer to the gazebo, you become more hyper-aware of your own heartbeat. You slow to a stop just about 10 steps shy away from the entrance. You take deep breaths to calm your nerves as you play with the academic stole around your neck. You can do this. Just get it over with , you thought. If something bad happens, Yoojin is there. You look back and sure enough, he is still watching you. Gathering your strength, you brusquely walk on and into the entrance. You look around and find someone sitting on the left side of you all in black with a beautiful and abundant bouquet seemingly slipping slowly out of his hand. His head hangs low and his black cap prevents you from seeing his face. Is he… sleeping? You hesitate to step any closer to him. "H-hello?" you call out gingerly. "Are you okay…?" You see the bouquet slipping out of the last finger and you lunge forward to catch it — just in time. In turn, you feel a hand gracing over yours. You snap your head up and slowly, he reveals his face to you. He grins. "Hi." You gasp loudly, making sure the next step was not a scream because that would alert Yoojin. "Wo… Wonho...!" You set the bouquet down on the bench carefully and step back, hands covering your gaping mouth. He pushes himself out of the seat and straightens up. Your eyes cannot stop following him. He takes off his cap as you take on what he was wearing: a tie, dress shirt and skinny fit dress pants complete with a black leather jacket that happens to have a dark red lining on the inside. There also seems to be a subdued color on his dress socks too, matching the inside of his jacket. One thing was different about him. His hair is blond this time, styled like that of Beautiful era. He picks up the bouquet and presents them to you. "Congratulations, Y/N," he says softly. You stare at the flowers as he hands them off to you. You close your eyes and inhale their aroma. "It's so… beautiful," you say breathlessly, looking back up at him. "Why… how come you're here?" "Ah…" He puts his hands in his pants pockets and looks around. "After that night, I wasn't sure if I wanted to leave you. I really wasn't sure about anything. But there was one thing I was really sure about: it's that I like you." Your eyes widen. Are your ears deceiving you? You shake your head. "I'm sorry, you — ?" "I do like you, Y/N," Wonho states. "If — " He lowers his gaze to the ground. "If you're okay with that." Silence falls on the both of you. You have become speechless, awestruck even. This was someone who was your bias for so long, and to stand here, in front of you, admitting to you that he, an idol, likes you… you pinch yourself. You look at him and see he is chewing on his lips nervously. He must have been thinking about this. "I…" you begin. His eyes snap to yours in earnest, eager to listen to anything you have to say. "I am a fan," you declare. "You… are an idol. Is this going to be okay?" "If they have anything to say… I will shut them down. I have done so before. I won't hesitate again." His eyes flashed ice cold for just a split second before returning to the warmth it held. You look between his eyes in bewilderment. He seems very sure of this. He does not seem swayed by any future problems it might hold. He steps closer to you and begins playing with your softly curled hair. He smiles warmly. "So, now that you have more time, and I hope it still isn't so frivolous to you," he begins. "Will you go out with me?" ////////////////////

W O N H O ' S  P E R S P E C T I V E // Leaving the Café

(Disclaimer: this will have the majority traditional Asian perspective, so if something seems off or weird to you, this is a very typical thing, as it is with me and almost all of my Asian friends' traditional parents. Please do not take offense.) As he and his mother walk away from the café, Wonho turns his head around to see her, only to find she is no longer there. He sighs with some amount of regret that he had no way of contact with you at all. "Hoseoki, it looks like you were having a lot of fun with that girl," his mother comments. "I have fun with any and all Monbebe, Oma." "Yes, but not as much fun as with her." He shrugs lightly. "My son, your mom may have bad eyesight, but she can see how much you like her," she says in a serious tone, eyeing her boy. "You know you won't be an idol forever, so sooner or later, you will have to settle down, get married with a good wife, and maybe have some grandchildren for me." "Oma!" Wonho's eyes widened in shock. "This is too much too soon!" His mother laughs heartily. "But make sure she is a right fit for you too. Oma doesn't want you to rush either. Oma only wants you to be happy." She pauses. "She seems like a very lovely girl, who is passionate and isn't afraid to pursue what she wants. She is in some ways like you, but has her own charms." "H-how do you know all this?" he asks. "It's only for an hour and it seems you know more than I do." "Oma always knows more." She smiles as she rubs her son's back. "Try to reach out to her again." He sighs in defeat. He realizes she is right. He does like her passion and the dedication she has to her craft, which he can relate to when it comes to his music and fashion. Nothing can hold their creativity back and that gave him a spark. To him, she is grounded in her goals and aspirations, just as he was. He wants to know more about her. He hopes he can. //////////////////// Throughout the rest of the month, Wonho came by the café more often than not to see if she was there in the evening, working away on her project. Unfortunately, to his dismay, anytime he was there, she was nowhere to be found. He tried to appear sometimes in the morning or afternoon as long as his schedule allows, but she was not there either.

His hopelessness grew, and his regret and guilt became stronger as he fell into his bed in the Monsta X's dorm. In the moment of his last drop of desperation, it hit him. He remembers that the portrait of him was her final project. Finalproject. Her graduation project. He shoots up out of bed to find his phone on the charger. He looks up the university website near the café and scrolls through to find the graduation date. He checks it against his schedule to see if he is able to attend. He grins.

[hotseok]

to wonho.

it’s been a long time since i’ve seen you & it’s honestly harder than i thought it’d be. no matter how long it’s been i still feel the same ache every single time i think about how you should be here smiling and laughing and whining and posting pics of tangerines at 2 o’clock in the morning.

but it’s your birthday today and you deserve to be celebrated always so that’s what i’m gonna do today (& everyday). you’ve always been exceptional at everything you do. dancing, singing, producing music, your passion always translates no matter what. you’re one of the most hard working people, everything you do, you give 100% and there’s really no one that could be a better role model than you.

bringing yourself up and taking care of your mum and getting to the stage you are today speaks volumes of your character. & you truly deserve all the love and adoration in the world. i have way too many favourite things about you and listing them fr would take way too much time but what i really admire the most is your heart and how kind and selfless and big it is.

mbbs joke all the time that your biggest muscle is your heart but it really is true and it’s amazing seeing such a man who wouldn’t hesitate to hurt himself to protect others. you’ve always displayed selflessness and maturity and it’s incredible how far you’re willing to go to protect those you love.

i truly believe no matter what you do, how you do it, you’ll always shine and you’ll always be bright and i look forward to how far you’ll go in the future. 

& the world truly has been horrible to you & you don’t deserve that. but as long as you know in monbebe’s eyes you’ll always be worth it. its been so long but we’re still here as always and will continue waiting for you to come back no matter how long it takes.

i hope you’ve been having happy days and you’ve been smiling and laughing and eating well and taking good care of yourself. i hope you’ve been less burdened and doing things you want to do away from the spotlight. i hope you’ve been surrounded by the love and care and adoration you deserve and you’ve been getting all the cuddles from bomi & yeoreum and you’ve been warm enough.

& i really hope you see all the projects and the care and the love monbebes have for you and you know that we’d never leave you and we’ll always be here. i really hope you know that you’re important to us and all the hard work you put into the team, all the selflessness and the perseverance, all the love you poured for mx and for mbbs we remember all of them and we are so grateful for you.

i believe in you as i’ve always done, since nuboyz, no mercy, debut and now. happy birthday and i can’t wait for your return. 

[bebecue]

i dont understand how people can fall out of love with monsta x like... their personalities??? their smiles??? their friendship??? better than the bonds in naruto's entire series. even if you stop stanning their music how do you stop stanning them??? they're so down to earth and their relationship with monbebe? unlike anything ive seen in another fandom. this is the first group where i wake up and go "ahhh... i hope shownu ate well" and five minutes later he'll post some crappy portrait photo that took no effort but it's such mindless casualness that makes it sweet. stanning mx is like having penpals in a way and you just want to see them smile and be happy always. what the fuck did i spend the last five minutes typing. i guess its nothing compared to the last two years ive spent ulting them and them only. im sorry for making you read this though 😬

ok first we're gonna push aside the naruto reference you made here

i mean i dont blame some people dropping off, about a year ago it was really tough to be a monbebe and peoples interests and tastes change all the time.

but i look at mx and wonho and go "ah shit when will i ever be free of you" but sarcastically because yeah i wanna see them succeed and fulfil their dreams and live their lives like they want (how tf did i get into it this deep hhhhh).. probably because they seem so genuine and passionate about what they do, and they come across as artists who truly care about each other and their fans, and they care about producing music and content that they know we'll love. you don't see that in every group.... some idols literally just go "i wanted to be famous/i wanted to be well known" when they get asked why they chose this career

you ramble at me and i will ramble straight back at you snsnkfkd i guess heres to more years of ulting mx!!!