Tumgik
#what if i don't go to college and instead i hide in someone's walls for the rest of my life
Text
uuu college talk...
2 notes · View notes
anxiouseldergod · 26 days
Text
An au set long, long ago in Twisted Wonderland..
Back when laws surrounding magic were more restrictive, when mages were seen as dangerous and untrustworthy. Long before any schools like Night Raven College ever existed.
Imagine being a witch, living deep in the woods, running an unknown little bookshop in the front of your house.
You've gotten many questions on why you would set up shop there, usually by the confused adventurer or slightly suspicious knight. You always answer the same. You like how quiet it is, book shops aren't supposed to be loud you know.
Yes, a cute little store nestled in the middle of a dark patch of forest. That's all. Or that's how it seems, anyway.
There's a door on the back wall, in a gap between two large shelves, overflowing with books, mostly on magic. (What? Magic is only illegal to perform, not read about.)
Several customers have gotten curious about this door before. It's normally locked, but the one time it wasn't, one managed to open it.
... Just for it to be a boring, dusty, storage closet. They should have expected that, really, what else would it be?
They close the door, walking away with their curiosity satisfied but still feeling disappointed.
They day goes by and eventually its closing time. You lock the entrance, keys jingling as you put them away.
You approach the door in the back, sighing in relief that your spell had worked. Though, it always does.
You open the door once more, the room behind has disappeared.
Instead of a dingy storage closet, the door leads into the back of your shop.
Yes, this area is your favorite. This is your magic shop.
It's much more spacious here than your little bookstore in the front. Large shelves line the walls, packed to the brim with shiny or glowing crystals, sparkling potions, ancient grimoires, and other various magical items and materials.
Due to the laws banning the practice of magic without official permission, which is impressively difficult to get, you have gone to great lengths to conceal this place.
Spells to hide it from prying eyes, spells to make the building appear smaller than it is from the outside, even more work to hide the magic energy within.
Setting up in the middle of the forest is yet another way to keep your secrets. A magical forest, to be precise.
The magic energy in this forest runs thick, making it the perfect places to gather most of your materials.
However, it also means there are a great number more monsters in this area, as they flock to the magical energy. Because of this, most of your customers are adventurers, this is good.
Most adventurers have broken their fair share of laws too, so if they were to think about ratting you out, they usually think again.
Though, sometimes, you get a customer who doesn't wear the same confused look as those passersby. Someone who knows exactly what they're here for, and it isn't anything in the front of your shop.
Whether pointed your way by your friends in the cities nearby, or having heard about you through other means, they all ask the same question;
"Is this The Moon's Alcove?"
You always when they say that. It's the name of your shop, your magic shop specifically. But it's also a secret code, one passed along through the underground network of magic users, like yourself.
You can't help but get excited, everytime someone says it you know you're getting a new customer. Yours are always so terribly interesting.
Tumblr media
First piece of writing posted, yay! Sorry for any grammar errors, I tried to fix them all but it's late and I'm not confident I didn't miss any lol
My idea for this au is the customers are the twst boys! Feel free to send requests/musings/thoughts on what you think their roles could be or how their first meetings with the reader would go!!
I came up with this au idea a while ago and if I don't expand on it I might explode
176 notes · View notes
linkemon · 6 months
Text
Beauty is only skin deep (yandere) Schoenheit Vil x Reader x LeBlanche Neige
Friendly reminder that English is not my first language. You can check my Masterlists both in English and Polish here. Consider supporting me on Ko-fi. You can also check out my commissions if you're interested.
Other oneshots can be found here.
Tumblr media
ɴᴇɪɢᴇ ʜᴀᴅ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ᴛᴀᴋᴇɴ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʙᴇʟᴏɴɢᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴠɪʟ. ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ɪᴛ ʙᴇ ᴛʜᴇ sᴀᴍᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʟᴏᴠᴇ? ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴀɢɪᴄ ᴡᴇʟʟ, ᴘᴏɪsᴏɴ ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴏᴜsᴇᴡᴀʀᴅᴇɴ ᴏғ ʀᴀᴍsʜᴀᴄᴋʟᴇ ᴅᴏʀᴍɪᴛᴏʀʏ ʜᴏʟᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀɴsᴡᴇʀ. ᴛʜᴇ sᴛᴏʀʏ ɪs ʙᴀsᴇᴅ ᴏɴ ᴠɪʟ ᴀɴᴅ ɴᴇɪɢᴇ's ʟᴏᴏsᴇ ᴄᴏɴɴᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴs ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏʀɪɢɪɴᴀʟ ғᴀɪʀʏ ᴛᴀʟᴇ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ sɴᴏᴡ ᴡʜɪᴛᴇ.
ᴀᴅᴅɪᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟ ɪɴғᴏʀᴍᴀᴛɪᴏɴ: 1. ᴏɴᴇsʜᴏᴛ ᴄᴏɴᴛᴀɪɴs sᴘᴏɪʟᴇʀs ғᴏʀ ʙᴏᴏᴋ 5. 2. ᴛʜᴇ ғᴏʟʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴛᴇxᴛ ᴄᴏɴᴛᴀɪɴs ᴛᴏxɪᴄ ʙᴇʜᴀᴠɪᴏʀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀ ᴅɪsᴛᴏʀᴛᴇᴅ ᴄᴏɴᴄᴇᴘᴛ ᴏғ ʟᴏᴠᴇ.
— I'm wishing for the one I love to find me... — The singing voice sounded closer and closer.
[Reader] looked around among the green trees, trying to find its source. At first, she was very scared when Grim told her that he had heard something or someone strange in their dormitory. She assumed they were ghosts but when she asked them about it, they denied it. So, complaining about the scared cat, she went to check the situation. There was nothing good to say about their crumbling and overgrown bit of school but it was still their corner. If any of the students came here just like that, she had to talk to them. Crowley wouldn't do anything about it anyway, as long as she knew the lazy headmaster. At worst, she could try to report it to the housewarden responsible for this person.
The girl passed another sad-looking bush. And behind it she saw an intruder. He chose a place near a well that had not been used for a long time. Its newer version was located in the main courtyard of the school, so it was forgotten by everyone. The bricks were covered with moss that tried to keep them in check. The boy rested both elbows on the unstable wall and stared at his reflection in the water below. She had to admit he had a beautiful voice. She had never heard the song but the notes were pure and seemed to permeate her entire being. The feeling with which he sang was truly moving. But that didn't change the fact that his uniform was definitely different from the ones worn at Night Raven College. Instead of black, he wore white.  What was someone out of high school doing here?  A beret with a red ribbon rested askew on his head. Only when she got closer to him did she realize that there were birds sitting on the hat. She took a few more steps and suddenly, out of nowhere, the boy was surrounded by a circle of animals. All the squirrels, mice, hedgehogs and even frogs in the area came out of their hiding places and stared at her accusingly, trying to separate her from the singer.
[Reader] stepped back. The crack of a branch under her shoe startled everyone, including the teenager. He stopped mid-sentence and turned towards her. Unfortunately, he leaned against the well where the bricks were loose. The girl grabbed his hand before he could fall into the dark abyss. The boy swallowed loudly. She could see him slowly realizing what he had just avoided.
— Thank you very much... ummm... what's your name? — Embarrassed, he still held her hand.
— I guess I should ask who you are first. You don't go to our school. I am Housewarden of the Ramshackle Dorm and for obvious reasons no one should venture here.
Was [Reader] lying?  Of course. No one issued any bans on staying in this part of the forest. That didn't mean the stranger would know about it. After the series of overblots and increasingly strange events that had occurred since she arrived at the magical school, she was fed up with trouble. She wanted him to just disappear and let her spend her afternoon doing something else. For example, buying the can of tuna promised to Grim.
— Really? I'm so sorry! — He grabbed both of her hands and closed them in his as a gesture of remorse. — I didn't know you weren't allowed in here! Director Ambrose didn't mention anything but I also admit that I was a little lost and...
If he was lying, he was really good at it. But for some reason it didn't seem like that to her. The brown eyes looked really sincere. There was a sparkle about them that she felt was missing from many NRC students.
— Who is Director Ambrose? — [Reader] asked, releasing her hands from his grip.
— Ah... he's the headmaster of the Royal Sword Academy. It's a twin school to yours. My name is Neige. Neige LeBlanche. — He smiled gently.
If such a school really existed, the girl had never heard of it before. She heard something about the Spelldrive tournament but she had other things on her mind at the time. Not that she'd ever needed it before. She learned many things about the world of Twisted Wonderland this way. By chance. Because to the people around her, many facts were so obvious that they couldn't even think of making her aware of them.
It seemed to her as if the boy was waiting for something. But she didn't know what for. So she decided to take pity on him and offer help.
— Well... I'll walk you to the exit — she said, moving forward.
On the way, Neige told her why he came to her school. It turned out that there was a festival every year that (as always) she had no idea about. He planned to appear as one of the participants, dancing and singing with his friends. The headmaster decided to take him with him to get used to the unknown place. Scratching the back of his neck, he admitted that he had never been very good at reading directions, which had landed him in the wrong place today.
— I think you sing really beautifully — the girl said, seeing the Ramshackle's gate in sight.
She had to admit that when she compared his voice to the singers she knew from home, none of them seemed to compare to him. He had kind of a charm to it.
— Did you hear that at the well?! — The embarrassed boy forced a smile. — It wasn't a big deal... although I'm glad you liked it! — he added quickly.
— You should take up music seriously. Do you play with your bandmates or something? — [Reader] asked.
— So you don't know anything? — His brow furrowed for a moment in surprise.
— About what?
So she had no idea he was a star. This was new to him. Usually everyone who met him knew who they were dealing with sooner or later.
— Neige! My dear, there you are!
[Reader] has never seen this man before. However, she could assume that he was the director of RSA. He was dressed in a long, dark blue robe. Again and again he stroked his snow-white beard and adjusted his glasses. Plus, he showed up with Crowley, which was definitely unusual.
— We have to go — the old man said, shooting a defiant look at the NRC director. — I'll see you at the festival. I wish you good luck! — he said not so sincerely.
— May the best win! — Crowley smiled maliciously.
All the ravens in the area began to squawk.
LeBlanche followed Ambrose but at one point he turned and ran back.
— I didn't ask for your name in the end! — He panted, resting his hands on his knees and trying to catch his breath.
— [Reader] — the girl replied, casting a questioning glance at her headmaster.
The man shrugged and then walked away, leaving her without a word of explanation. She'll need to learn more from her first-year friends.
— See you at the festival! — With these words, Neige disappeared around the corner.
***
Vil looked at his reflection in the mirror. His face was perfect. As always. It reflected the hours spent perfecting it. Healthy diet, training and sacrifices. Hours devoted to self-improvement. All this to become an actor that the crowds will love. And yet he won again. Neige LeBlanche. He got another role. Schoenheit was to remain a villain forever. He never managed to pass the casting for the main character. Maybe because good was never in his nature. Although in the case of his rival it was almost childish naivety, which honestly irritated him.
— Mira, Mira, who is the most popular actor of them all?
— Your search results are: Neige LeBlanche, Vil Schoenheit...  — The boy threw the phone on the couch. He didn't need to hear any further results.
All for nothing. He overcame so many difficulties to get here and was still in second place. Even after that stupid overblot he survived. The dark, sticky tentacles of too much magic were still stuck deep inside him. Not physically but in the mind. In the end, the doe-eyed boy mattered more to everyone around him. Even for Rook, whom he trusted so much. He didn't manage to survive his Fairest One of All, or poison Neige, or even win that stupid competition.
The only person who was still by his side after all this was [Reader]. Ramshackle Housewarden didn't hesitate to run straight to meet him as his curse lingered in the air. And although it annoyed him at the time that she was on the opposite side, he was aware that she did it for him. She told him about it when it was all over. She was the only one who was really there. Perfectly imperfect girl. So out of character with his image. And yet he fell in love. He fit it somewhere in his busy life, full of fame and fans.
So why did this thought bother him?  Did he really need to check this?  He shook his head. He had nothing to fear. He knew they were made for each other. It wasn't a test or a game. It was proof. Confirmation of how connected they are to each other.
He thought of the Big Seven. The Fairest Queen also used her talents. Astrology, potions and alchemy. All this to become better. Why shouldn't he be like her?  He should use his gift. Its fruit will be a beautiful gift. A certainty that they will keep with [Reader] as a couple forever.
He made some tea. Epel's family sent it. Their apple orchards had been popular since he advertised them on Magicam. He strained the grounds and poured the brew into a cup. Little. White. Pure as snow. With a gold pattern on the edges. Soft. It was easy to destroy if you weren't skilled enough.
He heard footsteps in the corridor and hesitated for a moment over the tray. Maybe doing it today wasn't a good idea after all.
— Sorry for being late. I bumped into someone on the way and stayed to chat. — [Reader] closed the door and sat down on the purple sofa.
— Ah yes? With whom? — Vil placed the sugar cubes on the silver tray.
The sugar, of course, was cane sugar. If they had to poison themselves from time to time, at least he'd do it with a slightly healthier version.
— With Neige — the girl replied after a short moment of silence. — We haven't seen each other since SDC.
The Song & Dance Championship. This unfortunate event was the moment when his life spiraled completely out of control.
His hand didn't shake as he sweetened the tea just the way she liked it. After all, he has been an actor for almost his entire life. Was he angry? NO. Perhaps rather disappointed that she was giving LeBlanche any attention at all.
— What were you talking about? — he asked.
— Mainly about you. He would really like to be your friend, Vil... I don't think he fully understands that you don't like him. Even after everything that happened between you two.
Friend. The word gave him a headache. For some reason this boy had made up his mind thinking that they could be anything more than enemies. Neige was as bright as the sun. Vil was like the moon. What he did best was reflecting its light. And no matter how many modeling sessions he undertook, how many articles he appeared in, how many fans he gained on Magicam, how many premieres he had, he was always the worse one. He hated him. So much so that he was ready to poison him a few months ago. He was glad he was stopped. Such a victory would not be worth little. One day he will overcome him in skill and achieve complete perfection. True beauty.
— I'm not going to be friends with him — Vil said firmly.
— I know. I won't push you to do it. I just wanted to tell you this because we'll probably be seeing more of him.
— Why? — He sat down across from her, setting the tray on the gold-plated table.
— Crowley agreed to a new student exchange program. Some people from RSA will come to us for a few weeks. Grim and I were given quite a thankless task. We are to accommodate them for this time. None of the other housewardens agreed to have them under their roof. I didn't really want to give in but keeping this demon cat costs money. And Neige asked on behalf of Headmaster Ambrose.
Vil touched the magical pen hidden in his pocket and touched the cup with his finger. Maybe it was a good day to do it after all. It wasn't jealousy. It was just confirmation of what he already knew.  Fairest One of All . His unique spell that inflicts a curse under any condition. A dream from which only the kiss of true love can awaken. Wasn't it romantic?
His lover lifted the tea to her lips. She took a sip. The eyelids closed almost immediately. He saw surprise in her eyes. However, this expression was quickly replaced by a calm, sleepy face. He caught the porcelain before it could hit the floor.
He gently stroked her face with his thumb. She looked lovely taking a nap. But he had to wake her up. They didn't have all day.
— You'll still have plenty of time to sleep — he whispered.
With these words, he connected their lips. It was strange not to feel her kiss back like she had every time before. He moved away. He waited a few seconds but nothing changed. His heart started beating faster. He tried again. Still nothing.
He felt his thoughts speeding up. After all, he cast the curse correctly. He thought about every word. So why wasn't anything happening?
Heat rushed through his body as he helplessly tried to shake the sleeping girl. The truth dawned on him like a storm of applause piercing the silence after a performance on stage. His spell never lied. So there was only one explanation. They weren't a perfect couple. That's because Vil wasn't [Reader]'s true love...
***
Neige looked around the dormitory. It was obvious that the Headmaster was sparing his thaumarks when he came to Ramshackle. Old curtains, creaky floors and an unattractive surroundings. But that didn't change the fact that there was order here. Grim had already explained to him how hard work he had done (with a little help from the housewarden, not that he needed it, of course) to get the building up to date. And indeed, despite the old age, there was something cozy in colorful blankets, a plush sofa and an old TV.
It was nice here. At least in his opinion. The RSA students who came with him seemed to disagree. At least not everyone. One third-year tied a scarf around his head and began scrubbing the floor as soon as he arrived, complaining about bacteria. Several others, however, started arguing with the first people they met, saying that it was unfair for them to live in such conditions. He had known about the rivalry between the schools for a long time but he had a feeling that some people really exaggerated.
While Ramshackle itself wasn't that bad, it wasn't how he imagined his stay here would be. He hoped to study and spend time together. For a few quiet moments when he can enjoy his life as a student. He loved his fans and music was a big part of him but sometimes he needed a break. Meanwhile, when he arrived, he found a worried demon cat accompanied by worried ghosts. [Reader] slept for the third day in a row and couldn't wake up. Her worried friends, whom he knew from the festival, came to visit her. According to the headmaster, it wasn't a restorative nap but some kind of illness or curse. He was unable to say. The students from Heartslabyul discussed among themselves that Crowley was not making much effort to change the student's situation.
LeBlanche really liked [Reader]. It felt stupid to admit it but when they met, he wished at the well that he would find true love. He even threw the thaumark into the water. It disappeared into it with a soft splash. It's not entirely that the boy believed that his wish would come true. However, when the girl grabbed his hand, he felt that maybe fate was not just a fantasy he had read about in books. He sincerely hoped that he would get to know her better when he came as an exchange student. Their conversations rarely lasted long because he usually had to go back to school right away. He wanted to change that. However, he came across this unfortunate situation and now the only thing he could think about was how to help the bedridden person. Maybe he should join the protest Ace and Deuce were organizing. Her friends were very worried about her and said that they would not wait for the headmaster to graciously do anything.
Neige entered the room. Her condition still hasn't changed. She was breathing steadily. The sun streamed through the dusty window, illuminating her unnaturally pale face. There were students from Pomefiore in the room. He recognized Rook. The boy smiled warmly at him. After all, he was his first fan, which he found out during the festival. Epel, on the other hand, looked at him quite indifferently. He had to admit that his performance at SDC was truly great. The high voice he used was memorable. Vil, on the other hand, frowned when he saw Neige in the doorway. The boy put it down to being worried about his friend. It must have been really hard for him because he looked furious.
— Hi, everyone — he greeted them quietly, walking up to the bed.
— We were just leaving — Epel announced, pulling the vice housewarden behind him.
The blonde looked genuinely disconsolate that he had to leave. His friend was just the opposite. He must have had enough of sitting.
— How are you feeling, Vil? — the brunette asked, standing right next to him.
— How should I feel if my girlfriend has been lying here for three days? — The tone of his voice was as cold as ice. It pierced menacingly through the silence in the room.
— Girlfriend?
If there was one thing LeBlanche didn't expect, it was this. He had never heard that they were a couple before.
— We didn't flaunt our relationship.
Probably because of his career. In Schoenheit's industry, couples were viewed quite unfavorably. Single people were perceived better by fans. He knew something about it himself. Although in his case he had never had to choose before.
He looked at [Reader]. So he had been getting his hopes up all this time. He hoped that everything would be alright with her and that she and Vil would be happy again soon. And, although he felt a slight twinge somewhere near his heart, he decided to ignore it. His friend was a truly wonderful and hard-working man. No wonder she chose him.
He sat down on an old, worn-out stool, right next to the headboard.
— Ummm... hey, [Reader]. I don't really know what to say in situations like this. It's the first time I've encountered something like this — Neige laughed quietly. — I hope you feel better soon and...
— Don't you have anything else to do? — asked the blonde, giving him an angry look.
Vil was standing in a dark part of the room, away from the window. He crossed his arms over his chest. His high heels hit the old boards again and again.
That was not nice. Despite everything, the boy decided not to worry about his friend's words. He must have been nervous. It's natural in such a situation. He'll definitely get over it soon, so he had to be understanding.
— I'm leaving now — he nodded.
In fact, he didn't have much time to say anything. But he didn't want to upset Vil even more. He grabbed [Reader]'s hand. She was cold to the touch. He hoped she would be warm again soon. When she is healthy, they will talk as before. Even if only for a moment, he will be satisfied. He kissed her knuckles gently.
— Wake up quickly — he whispered.
He turned to leave the room. In his thoughts he prayed for the patient's quick recovery. Suddenly he heard a loud yawn. He couldn't believe his eyes. [Reader] was already awake. She rubbed her eyelids and looked around.
— Vil. — Her voice was quiet, but definitely not friendly. — She stared at her boyfriend, her fingers clenching the sheets.
She stood up, wobbling and Neige immediately ran over to help her stay upright. She was furious. He had never seen her like this before.
Loud laughter echoed throughout the dormitory. It was Vil. It started with a chuckle and then progressed to a mocking laugh.
— Him? — He pointed to the brunette. — Of all people it had to be him?
He pulled out his magical pen. A purple mist began to creep out from under his feet. Fairest One of All  flowed across the floor, trying to fill the room.
— Everything's all right? We heard… — Rook almost got hit by a spell.
Magic flew right above his head.
Vil stared ahead. He was aware of what was happening. He was on the road to the overblot again. Dark goo filled the crystal in his pen. Faster and faster with every second. And yet he had no desire to stop it. What was the point?
They were standing right in front of him. [Reader] in front. How it suited her. She was the first one ready to rush towards danger, despite her lack of magic. It's been like that since she got here. He was impressed by it. She was like a legendary prince in shining armor. Neige stood behind her. With his naive kindness as a shield against everything life threw at him. How idiotic. Like a damsell in distress.
— Vil, let's talk...
Prince and princess. Perfect couple. He was never allowed to play the main character. He was always the villain. So where he stood was his place on the stage. On the opposite side.
— True love's kiss! — He heard himself, as if from a distance, laughing hysterically.
Of all the possible people, it had to be LeBlanche. The man he hated. He had everything he always wanted. And now he even had her. He closed his eyes, allowing himself to be consumed by the approaching darkness.
If he couldn't become the hero, he would be the villain...
136 notes · View notes
xoxoamyas · 8 months
Text
Café Girl
Tumblr media
rating : fluff/angst, hospitalization, and a protest mention.
wilbur x fem!reader [ use of you/yours, no use of y/n ]
☆ you meet wilbur at a café you frequent. instantly, you two hit it off. after a while of talking, you randomly go no-contact only for him to find out you're in the hospital. he doesn't intend to leave your side. <3
note : n/a [ hope you enjoy :] ]
request [ ☆ ]
masterlist [ ☆ ]
⋆˙⟡
The café was your favourite. You were a regular since you had first heard of it sometime within the past year or so.
Wilbur wasn't a regular, only having recently heard of the place. He thought he'd give it a try, scope it out to see if he and his friends could film in the spot.
You were working on your laptop in a booth, studying for an upcoming test you had in one of your college courses. A few books to the side closest to the wall, your laptop right in front of you as you slowly scrolling through the materials on a PowerPoint you had been sent via email by one of your professors.
You didn't see him right away, but he saw you. He had ordered himself a refresher, lemonaid of some sort, and was looking for a place to sit. You had seemed like you had your own bubble, but that wasn't what caught his eye entirely.
Wilbur had seen the slight furrow of your brow and the light nibble on your lip before you had gone to sip on your latte.
“Excuse me, ma'am?” You looked up, focus having been broken by the voice some odd feet besides you. “Do you mind if I sit with you?”
In an instant, you were taken by surprise. Having not expected someone of his stature to even talk with you. The way his brown hair was the perfect amount of fluffy and just barely in his eyes. The plain beige sweater he wore over his white collared polo. He was put together, and it was obvious.
“Uhm, sure, I don't mind.” You gave him a nervous smile, mentally degrading yourself for practically stuttering over your words. Moving slightly to fix the books to the side so that they were more organised. You made sure all of the tabs on your laptop were saved properly before shutting that, too, and resting one of your hands over the top of it.
“Thank you. What were you studying for?” He decides to ask, skipping introductions out of pure curiosity. He had seen the glimpse of a power point, but hadn't read anything on the screen out of respect for your privacy.
“Oh, nothing. Just for an upcoming test.” You shrug, watching as he had sat down across from you and practically nursed the refresher between his hands. “I'm sorry, I didn't catch your name?”
“Oh, don't apologize. Should have started with that.” Wilbur lightly chuckled, having brought a hand up to nervously run along his neck. Suddenly self-conscious over the potential stubble rash that could have been along his neck. To him, you were gorgeous, and he didn't want to screw up before he had the chance to even know your name.
“I'm Wilbur, but you can call me Will, if you'd like.” He offers the hand he hadn't used to run along his neck for a handshake in proper greeting. Smiling a bit more when he hears you say your name in return to him as you shook his hand.
He repeats your name back to you, a certain smooth undertone to his voice as he does so. It nearly sent shivers up your spine, but instead, you chose to relax and practically melt.
“Do you come here often?” He asks after a moment of just taking your features in. Both of his hands now along his drink, just holding it to try and calm any rising nerves.
“Yeah, I guess I can be considered a regular. I've come here every day for a while. I don't always get anything like I used to because the entire staff here knows me.” You let out a light laugh, a small flush going over your face in embarrassment. You spent more time at the café than you did your own flat. It was just a soothing environment to be in.
“I think that's cute.” Wilbur comments with a small smile, not missing the way you subtly moved to sip your latte to hide the embarrassment on your face. “I hope you wouldn't mind if I joined you some of those days?” He asks, in hopes of getting to know you. He wanted to at least be your friend, even if in the moment all he wanted to do was take you out on a date to see if you two could click anymore than he felt you two already had.
“Oh, no, I don't mind the company at all.” You can't help but smile, that warmth flooding through your chest as you felt like there were butterflies in your stomach. “I’m usually here at about the same time every day.” He offers a smile, taking mental note of your words.
“I’ll keep that in mind, thank you.”
Conversation continued on like that for a little while, just getting to know each other. He found out you had a pet cat that stayed with your parents. You found out that he likes to play the guitar and that he’s self-taught.
It goes like that for a few days up until Sunday hits. Having long exchanged numbers sometime a few days prior.
Wilbur hadn't seen you at the café like he thought he would. It made his stomach twist in discomfort, having not seen you in your usual spot with your nose in a book or tapping away at your laptop. He had asked one of the employees at first, trying to see if you were potentially there earlier but had no luck. He waited a good ten minutes at first before shooting you a text message. Leaving after a good forty minutes of waiting since he had made plans with one of his friends beforehand and couldn't stick around.
There was no sign of you Monday, nor Tuesday. Wednesday, a gnawing feeling was chewing at his gut. He had texted you a lot over the past seventy or so hours to no avail. No response after the next.
Maybe you didn't have as much interest in him as he initially thought you would have? But then you wouldn't have said yes to exchanging phone numbers or letting him sit with you. You weren't the type to lead someone on like that, and it was clear.
Thursday, he heard nothing once more. Friday, he tried calling a few different times only to end up going straight to voicemail. Had your phone been turned off or dead? You typically had it charged and available for any communication.
Saturday, he tries the café employees again. And he felt both like a weight was lifted off only to have another added right on.
Sunday, he was rushing into a hospital that had been within the area. The employee he had talked to ended up telling Wilbur you were hospitalised, yet not what for. It made him feel physically ill the moment the words processed in his mind. It had been beyond visiting hours when he initially found out, though, so he couldn't do anything anyway.
Wilbur had given your name to the front receptionist, the lady taking longer than she should have to give a room number. The second he had the number, he was rushing to find you.
He muttered a swear beneath his breath the second he reached your room, pulling his dishevelled self together before calmly as possible, opening the door. Wilbur could feel his heart simultaneously break and deflate, seeing you hooked up to a heart rate monitor as well as an IV.
Will took the seat closest to you, taking one of your hands in both of his own. A small sigh escaped his lips as he pulled your hand to his mouth, kissing the knuckles of your hand.
Your lip was fairly busted paired with a black eye, what looked to be bruising along some of your neck and more sprinkled along what he could see of your arms. Your knuckles were red and fairly scraped.
It definitely wasn't good, but you were clearly tended to. It must have been bad, especially if you were potentially there since last Sunday. It made him want to simultaneously cry and put down whoever put you in this hospital bed.
“Will?” Your voice is light and hoarse, mostly on the quieter side.
“Hey, hey, don't strain yourself.” He's quick to move, gently pressing on of his hands to your shoulder to prevent you from moving to sit up. Instantly feeling bad when he sees you flinch at the motion.
“Sorry.. What's goin’ on?” You ask, words lightly slurring together. You must've been on some sort of medication to help with any pains.
“I'm not sure. One of the employees at the café told me you were hospitalised. That was it. Do you remember what happened?” His voice is soft as he asks, clearly not wanting to hash up the memory of it but not knowing was killing him. He needed to know why you looked so beat up.
“There was a protest goin’ on at my college.” You hum a bit, moving your free hand to rub at one of your eyes. Slightly flinching when your hand made contact with your eye. “Think it got out of hand.”
Wilbur can't help but sigh, brows furrowing in thought. He mutters a swear to himself, bringing your hand right back up to his mouth. His lips pressing against your knuckles once more, this time for a little bit longer.
“Go back to sleep, okay? Focus on feeling better.” He murmured out for you to hear, one of his hands moving up to gently cup your cheek. His thumb gently grazing along your skin, trying to be comforting in the moment.
Will smiles a bit when you lean into the touch, seeing you nod even the smallest amount. His heart nearly melted as he watched you close your eyes.
“I love you,” He whispered after a long moment of silence. His heart felt like it was breaking when you didn't respond, though he knew you wouldn't since it didn't take long for you to fall asleep.
Wilbur wasn't going anywhere.
145 notes · View notes
literaila · 2 years
Text
i know you 
tasm!peter x fem!reader 
summary: 
"i'm peter."
"and?"
"i wanted to introduce myself."
"i know who you are, peter."
warnings: college party, mentions of biology, peter is a bit of.. a... so-so, um, embarrassment 
Tumblr media
*
there's a boy leaning against the wall. 
there's music bouncing--blasting--between walls. flashes of light, and ridiculous bursts of laughter happening every couple of seconds. there must be a game going on somewhere. 
this house is old, and trashed, and completely uncomfortable to stand in because it is filled with body heat and the smell of alcohol, and people that will laugh at you but not listen. 
but this boy is the only one leaning against the wall opposite of you. 
his face is blank, except for the smirk that appears to be the resting position of his lips. his feet are crossed, his fingers are tapping against the drywall. he moves only to shake the hair out of his eyes, to raise an eyebrow at whatever someone has shouted from across the room. 
and he's not looking at you. 
he's not even looking toward you, really. instead, he's chatting to anyone that walks by with a glass in their hands, patting people on the back, and smiling a polite smile every time someone tries to go even further with him, trying to get him to move from that wall. 
it's yellow, by the way. there are stains across it that you don't want to think about. 
but this boy seems completely comfortable there. or, at least, his back has been superglued to the wall and he doesn't want to draw any attention to himself. 
and maybe you're paying a bit too much attention to him. 
but, to be fair, you know this boy from more than just that wall across the room. 
you know him from your biology class when you walked in the first day--late because there's no real way to arrive on time when it's eight in the morning--and there were no empty seats in sight. 
you might've blamed the person who scheduled more students in this auditorium than fit, or you could've blamed yourself for deciding to go to college in the first place. to be in that classroom at exactly the wrong moment. 
because lots of people turned to stare, and you had nowhere to run. 
but the boy--the same boy who is not looking at you now--cleared his throat, he motioned, three rows down, to the seat next to him and smiled at you when you sat down. nodded his head when you asked him if he would share his notes--just for the ten minutes you'd missed. 
and you don't know his name, because as soon as that class had ended you'd sprinted out the doors, wanting to go hide in bed and never think about evolution or cells ever again. 
you still sit next to him every tuesday, right at eight. 
you still don't know his name. 
even now, at this party that you had carefully decided to come to. to stand at, because you've always been a bit of a type of person, and you've always had a hard time in crowded rooms, and you hate parties. 
and really, you're just staring at him. 
but what else is there for you to do? 
are you supposed to find someone to run away with? run into the other room and ask to play beer pong with everyone else? hide in the bathroom and ignore the vague smell of vomit that comes from the shower? go home, and find yourself completely alone? 
no, you know. you don't really like any of these options. 
but you do like staring at this boy. 
because, as you're not an idiot, and as this boy is completely oblivious to your burning gaze, he's quite cute. 
attractive in that kind of i-don't-care-but-yes-i-do way. and you already know that he's smart. 
and you also know that he's got brown eyes and a smile reserved only for the warmest of summer nights. 
you just don't know his name. 
it's as you have this thought that his eyes dart towards you. 
brown and far too far away. 
you almost look away--like any sane person might do when they've been caught staring at someone for at least the past three minutes--but there's something about his eyes. even slightly blurry. there's something about the funny look that comes to his face, the slow blink and once-over he does to you. 
you continue staring. 
just, probably, a bit more awkward. 
still, it only takes ten seconds for the boy to smile, leaning off the wall slightly, and give you a wave. 
cause he knows you, and you know him. 
and yet, it takes you one blink and one second to turn your eyes away, getting one more flash of teeth and yellow before you head out of the room, searching for the nearest door. 
*
peter isn't in the habit of following people.
correction; peter isn't in the habit of following random people he spots at parties. he's also not in the habit of going to parties, but this is college and it was loud enough in his dorm room anyway and it's friday night so... 
here he is. 
here he's been for the past hour, trying to make conversation with people he "knows" and also avoid any and all interaction. 
he's doing this not for himself, mostly, but for his aunt, who gets worried that he is some loner who never leaves his room except for food and class. and for the people that notice when he's gone all of the time. 
he's hoping to be caught by at least one person that might mention him. just a slight comment to their friends. or a clap on the back that will earn him at least another month of anonymity.
either way, he doesn't plan to stay for too long. 
but when he locks onto you across the room, holding a cup in your hands and ducking behind anyone who moves past, peter decides that maybe he wants to do a bit more than stand there. that maybe he wants to take a shot. it's bright enough in here to aim correctly.
and maybe may will stop bothering him about the nice girl he mentioned one time... 
he smiles and waves, laughing a bit at the eyes that widen in response. 
and then he frowns when you disappear, ducking away from his eyes and into another room. 
peter was right, it would seem. he's not going to be staying for much longer. 
*
"lost?" a voice asks you after you've gone in a circle around this house about four different times. 
you smell like stale breath and the warnings of strangers to watch out. 
and you almost flinch when this voice--both particular and familiar--comes out of nowhere. 
you turn, hand raised in defense, to meet brown eyes, and a boy with his hand across the doorway, leaning, once again, on a wall. 
you make an effort not to frown, scream, or run away. 
"wha--" you clear your throat, swallow, and look around for anyone who might save you. "what?" 
"you've walked past me three times." 
"no, i haven't." 
"are you sure?" the boy ducks, staring right at you. he's smiling. "cause the first time, you tripped. and then the next two times you watched your step and scowled." 
"are you following me?" 
"you're walking in circles." 
you cross your arms, deciding to furrow your brows at this boy and point your nose up. "maybe i'm dizzy." 
"and you want to be dizzier?" 
"maybe if i'm in motion i won't be dizzy anymore." 
the boy leans over, eyes peeled. "yeah. that's water, so unless you have a medical condition you need to alert someone about..." 
"what do you want?" 
he laughs, and resumes his comfortable position on the wall. "i'm peter." 
"and?" 
"i wanted to introduce myself." 
you look around again, maybe for the door. "i know who you are, peter." 
you don't mention that this is the first time you've ever said his name. 
"is that why you were staring at me?" 
you cough. scratch at your neck and look behind yourself. "i don't--" you shake your head, looking back to peter, with his amused brown eyes and a crinkle in his brows. "i don't know what you mean, but i've really got to be going--" 
"need some help finding the door?" 
"nope. i've got it, but thanks." 
you have no idea where the door is. in fact, at the present moment, you're almost sure you must have climbed in here through a window. or this house is a strange labyrinth you'll never escape. 
it doesn't matter, you walk away, present and presently avoiding this boy named peter who you certainly do not know. 
"oh good, i'm heading that way too," peter says, matching your stride and opening a door for both of you to walk through. 
you recognize the test for what it is, just as you recognize his eyes. 
"great," you respond. 
and then pretend that you're not following his movements out of the house. 
*
 "so," peter says, holding the front door open for you. "are you going to tell me your name?" 
"i don't think that's necessary." 
peter hides a smile and walks with you down the front steps, hands in his pockets. it's a bit dark, a bit cold. 
he tries not to watch you shiver. 
"why not?" 
"i don't plan on seeing you ever again, peter." 
he scoffs, and moves in front of you, raising a brow. "is that because you're embarrassed?" 
you look away, pretending to admire a tree. 
"oh, and," peter adds, "you should plan to see me in class on tuesday. at eight." 
you blow out a quick breath, smiling politely at him. "i'll add it to my calendar." 
and then you move past him, continuing to walk down the sidewalk at a much fast pace. 
luckily, peter is used to running. 
"c'mon," he says, catching up to you again. "it's only fair." 
"are you following me again, or do you live this way?" 
"could be both." 
peter can almost feel you roll your eyes from beside him. 
and, at this point, he's very happy to be away from that party. if only for the smell of fresh air, rather than sweat. 
and maybe the company. but peter is trying not to dwell too much on it. 
"can i guess?" peter asks.
"sure. you've got one try." 
peter sighs, looking at you. "i'm guessing it isn't dorothy..." 
you snort and turn right, walking across the crosswalk. 
peter knows this place well enough to not feel too concerned about where you're going. 
"do you live on campus?" 
you glance over at him, suspiciously. "i think that's too personal of a question, peter." 
"oh, sorry," he holds his hands up in defense. "we can just get started with your family history, if you prefer." 
"i usually tend to go for academic record." 
peter nods, thinking solemnly. "you're right. what was i thinking?" 
"i'm not sure," you say, and when peter looks over, he notices a quirk of your lip. 
he rewards himself with another glance. with one, two, three, four seconds of staring. 
"janice?" 
you give him a blank stare. 
"grace?" 
you hum. 
"hope?" he tries, slowing his pace and noticing that you do the same. "faith?" 
"are you just listing out personal traits, now?" 
"well, i'm trying to gain your trust. strength?" 
"close," you answer, not laughing at all. "very close." 
"give me a hint." 
"that's definitely cheating." 
peter blows a raspberry, turning to walk backward so he can watch you some more. "i gave you my name without any questions." 
"you seem like a reckless person." 
"that was going to be my next guess." 
you shake your head, looking at anything except for peter. he can't quite discern why. 
"i think you owe me," he says, after a moment of silence. "at least this." 
you laugh. "for what?" 
"well, i saved you in biology that one time--" 
"--saved me?" 
"and for being free eye candy, of course." 
"oh, of course." 
your nose twitches and you sniff. peter stares as you take a deep breath, look around, slowing to a stop, and then finally meet his eyes. 
you almost smile. 
he stares back, waiting and willing to wait.
"y/n," you say, finally, holding your hand out. "i'm y/n." 
peter takes it, throat closing at the feeling. he blinks and internalizes everything so he can replay it later tonight. 
he is slightly victorious. 
he drops your hand. "okay, y/n. are you hungry right now?" 
*
my masterlist here.
tags:@moonlarking-blog @v1ci0us @preciousbabypeter @alexxavicry @directioner5life @inthegetawaycarwithtaylah @localrockstargf  @thestudiouswanderer @take-my-hand-time-boy @thoughtsofagodlovingsunflower @nyomjoon  @moo-b1tch​ @raindropstearsandtea @rqmanoff​ @hollandweather​ @wetcoldnoodle @urlocalavenderhazestan​ @valvlry​ @imthatcoolmom​ @spideysimpossiblegirl​    invisibletrolleyson-jeremy  @sharkswaters  
727 notes · View notes
we-out-here-simping · 3 months
Text
pt. 1: Manic pixie dream girl
(s.h. x desi!fem!reader)
Tumblr media
warning/tags: use of (y/n), she/her pronouns used, based in 2010s, mention of cheating, bad parents, arguments, alcohol, mention of homophobia, toilet jokes (literally. i apologize), everybody is atleast a lil bicurious (except robin ofc)
a/n: and it starts!! i know i rreally kept yall waiting on this one and i probs will continue to do so (oops) im just out here trying to teach yall about delayed gratification lol soz
this fic went in crack fic territory for a bit of this chapter (yes the toilet museum is an actual place) i swear i don't know why my fics end up having potty humour sometimes I'm sorry
word count: 6.3k
series masterlist
masterlist
[Challa]
The last time Steve Harrington went on a vacation was with his parents when he was thirteen.
When he turned fourteen, his dad told him to focus more on school and sports and stopped bringing him around.
And sure, maybe it was also because during that past vacation, Stanley Harrington was found with screwing around with his secretary by his wife. Steve didn't remember much of it; he was hiding in the other room when the shouting began. Thankfully the walls muffled most of it.
it was after that vacation, things changed, Steve finally started to see through the cracks in the image his family always put up– the picture-perfect family. The well manufactured family photos hanging throughout his empty house tried their best to hide everything ugly. He started to see how in the photographs, his dad refused to stand closer to his mom, how his mom didn’t smile.
The expression on his father’s face that closely resembles a scowl, as if he was forced to take a picture with a business partner and not his own wife and son. The expensive dress his mom wore along with her makeup done perfectly. The grey bags under both their eyes.
Finally, himself– hair shorter than it is now because his dad always told him a real man never lets it grow past his ears, all slicked down and brushed aside, his expensive suit that made him better dressed than any other thirteen year old in town and his teeth stretched in what his mom called his ‘million dollar smile’.
It was after that vacation, that his mom stopped trusting his dad, and Steve didn't blame her– he stopped trusting him too. from that point on, Steve's mom would always go with his dad for his business trips. He tried not to think about if his dad ever saw that girl again.
Things changed. His mom, who had always loved gardening, hired a guy to take care of the flowers instead. the flowers were never as bright as they were when she used to take care of them. And sure, she had always liked wine, but now, Steve couldn't recall when he didn't see her with a bottle next to her or with the twig of wine glass twisting between her fingers. 
Things changed. They are tired now, both of them.
So yeah, he didn't have the fondest memories of vacations. 
But when his two best friends, Robin Buckley, and Eddie Munson suggested a trip before the latter leaves for a band tour he had managed to land, Robin gets into her new college and he himself gets ready for his dad's work– Steve just couldn't say no.
Currently they were in a random shop of the airport. Steve's legs are stiff from the long flight, same with his neck. if it was socially acceptable to lie like a puddle between the aisles of a store in an airport, he would do it.
“Robs, how long is this going to take?” Steve asks. 
she ignores them as she cards through travel brochures and books, her back to the two boys. Steve adjusts his hold on the heavy basket, the thing filled to the brim with random snacks and some alcohol because the in-flight meal really was not it, plastic of the handle digging into his palm.
“Just pick one and let's check out already.”
“No.”
Steve once again readjusts his hold on the basket, hoping that the robin's crankiness is because of the long flight and not because she is still mad at him, “why?”
“Because someone has to plan where we are going to go. And neither of you two are too keen on it–”
"Don't drag me into this Buckley-" Robin shoots eddie a stern glare before he could even finish his sentence. He clears his throat before excusing himself from the aisle. The wheels of the suitcase he carried squeak behind him as they roll over the clean tiles of the airport.
Steve sighs– yep, she was still mad at him, “Robs..”, he trails off, hoping she spares him a glance. when she doesn't and instead continues to flip through the glossy pages of the thin book, he speaks up, “Hey, Robin.”
He hears her sigh. “Here", She tosses the books in the basket he had been holding and makes a beeline towards the cashier without sparing him a single look, "let’s just go.”
[Ek akela is sheher mein]
The sky is in this inbetween of day and evening with grey clouds above them while they load their luggage into the cab.
Eddie sits upfront, his frizzy hair now in a bun. Steve sits in the back with Robin, hoping to strike up conversation with her but the pair of headphones over her ears don't let him do so. Steve sighs, he can tell that she isn't listening to music, but they make it pretty clear she doesn't want to have a conversation.
The windows are cranked open, they have dried up water streaks– it might have rained not too long ago. The asphalt is glistening, reflecting the yellow streetlamps and the red taillights. The cab driver drives like Eddie– a bit too fast for Steve’s liking. Tires splash murky rainwater into little mesmerizing sprays when bikers drive through the puddles, surely wetting some of the passersby with the dirty water. Steve doesn't think of the dirty laundry those people would have to do though, or the showers those people have to take. Instead, he focuses on the sound the water creates, ringing against the metal of the underside of the car, a satisfying sound.
The cab driver takes so many turns, Steve lost count after the third one. A song plays on the radio, an old song, he can tell by the static and that accompanies the singer, the crackle at the beginning of the song. He doesn't know what the man sings in the song, it is quiet with its percussion, delicate with the strings. Steve catches Eddie absentmindedly tapping his fingers on his knee. 
Steve looks over the console, it reads 106.4 FM. They're stuck in traffic when the song fades off. two voices come on, who Steve assumes are the hosts. They talk amongst themselves, joke, laugh, yet they speak with a perfect cadence that makes him think they've done it for ages. By the time the traffic gets moving, another song starts playing, this one more chipper than the last one.
The driver weaves through the crowd, making sure to use his horn more than is necessary. when he turns into a lane, Its a tight fit, the car and the road, yet somehow, he manages to maneuver the vehicle around the lamp post and random wrongly parked bikes.
The entire time they are checking into the hotel, Robin stands separately, flipping through the magazines near the sofa of the waiting area. Steve and Eddie fill in details and she only speaks up when asked for an id card. The staff helps them take their luggage to their rooms. Robin wordlessly goes into her room. 
It is when Steve is taking off his shoes, Eddie jests, "what a scene ain't it Harrington?" Looking up, Steve finds the older boy holding the curtains wide open, the window faces a brick wall, despite being promised a good view. Steve doesn't say anything, he breathes out what can only be described as a half-hearted chuckle.
“What do I say to her?" Steve asks, running his hands over his face.
“Don’t ask me,” Eddie shakes his head before hanging his jacket inside the closet, “it's you two who have the whole platonic soulmate shit going on, I'm just a third wheel over here”, he mumbles rather dryly, heading towards the bathroom, the door closing behind him.
...
Robin's room was right in front of theirs-- room 105. Steve knocks on the wood. The door swings open after a few seconds, and there is Robin in comfier clothes, makeup taken off and a deep furrow between her brows, “hey.”
“You plan on being mad at me for all of this vacation?”
“...No, but you make it really easy”, she rolls her eyes opening the door a bit more so he could come in.
“Yeah… I’m sorry”, he apologises with a small grin as he slips in.
“I know dingus”, she chuckles a little, closing the door.
he looks around the room, “Dude, this room is so much better”, this was definitely more spacious than the one he and Eddie were in, “Or maybe that’s ‘cause mine has Eddie in it.”
She holds up the bottle of vodka they had picked up at the store earlier, “don't mind if I do”, Steve makes grabby hands at the bottle, grinning when she passes it to him. He twists open the cap and pours it into the glasses she holds up that already had some water in them.
the corners of her lips curl up as well, “mine has somewhat of a balcony too”, she tells him, handing him his glass.
“dude, what?”, his eyes widen. and when he walks over, pulling the curtains aside he is met with the glimmering city skyline, “our window faces a brick wall”
she laughs before sliding the glass door open. stepping forward, the balcony is small– the railing a mere two steps past the threshold of the sliding glass door. Robin leans, her elbows resting on the cool metal railing and Steve wipes away some of the rain droplets with his palm before following suit. 
Despite it being around 9 pm, looking at the skyline it seems the city of Delhi never sleeps. there's a faint buzz of upbeat music playing somewhere close– there must be a club nearby. or a wedding.
“We should go clubbing tomorrow”, Robin suggests, raising her glass up in the air towards him. 
he hums while raising his own. glasses clink, “sure thing, partner” he says before he downs the entire thing, face scrunching at the burning taste on his tongue. 
Robin sips some of her own, her gaze moving down to the road below. There is a litter of puppies chasing each other around the empty street, the warm yellow light of the lamp post filtering over them. an older dog sits by the street light, watching over them. it's quieter than what the rest of the town seems like, hushed, calmer than the rush they had met on their way here. 
Steve frowns at his already empty glass and goes back in the room to retrieve the bottle, pouring himself some more on the way back to the balcony, “shouldn't we offer some to Eddie?--”
“we need to talk”, she interrupts him.
they both pause as he gulps a bit of his drink before saying, "well, we are aren't we?"
"no, like talk-talk"
“ok”, he nods once before his brows meet in confusion, “about..?”
"you said it yourself, I can't be mad at you the entire time we're here."
“Robs, it's okay–”
“I think it's pretty obvious I don't like you going for that job.”
“mhm, yeah, you've communicated that well enough.”
"exactly! and you still can't get it through your thick skull"
"what exactly?"
“you don't want that job steve! I know you. you don't like that kind of job and I don't want you to do this thing just because your dad is pushing you to do it”, her grip on her glass tightens, “it's-- it's stupid. thats a stupid thing to do.”
“it's not stupid Robin–”
“i want you to do a job that makes you happy, finance doesn't make you happy”
“believe it or not robs, working at scoops also didn't make me all that happy, working with my best friend did. and you'll be moving out to chicago”
"if I get in", steve takes offence to how quickly she shuts down that possibility.
"you will. I know you don't believe it Robs, but you'll get that college you wanted and then you'll move out. and Eddie is doing all these gigs, trust me", he turns to her, silently begging for her to look him in his eyes, "me going for this job is the best option, Robin." When her eyes stay trained on the street below, he sighs before looking back up at the sky-- no stars in sight. "and you're right, it's not a job I want. but I do need it. and if my asshole dad is still willing to help my sorry ass then I should seize it right?"
he glances back at her, he doesn't get a response from her, yet Steve looks at her with furrowed brows, begging for her to agree.
two of the puppies wrestle amongst themselves, it's all high pitched barks and rolling around, dirtying their fur in the process.
its quiet for a while, he sips his remaining drink. for a while its just that ambiance, the muffled city noise, dogs barking, the hum of air conditioners.
"dude, you're going to become a finance bro", Steve finally hears her say, "then I'll be best friends with a finance bro, ew", she scrunches her face the way he knows it's mostly playful, a laugh falling from her lips by the end of the sentence.
I want you to do a job that makes you happy.
I want you happy.
he laughs too, breathy. he readjusts his grip on his glass, leaning against the rails next to her. “I'm gonna save up, robs”, he promises looking her right in the eyes-- its hard to see the blue in them in this dark, “and if everything works out we can just get an apartment in Chicago then we can be roommates?”
she looks back at him, brows shooting up, “...you promise?”
“pinky.”
she gulps before taking another sip from the glass in her hand, “I don't wanna lose more people steve”, she says, her thumb wiping the condensation on the glass in her hand, and he can tell she's trying her darndest to not let her voice crack. 
her parents hadn't taken kindly to her coming out. she hadn't even meant to come out. Vickie's ex boyfriend had outed both of them to their parents– it had been a mess. 
whenever she'd tried to call her parents, as soon as they'd realise that it was her, the line would cut off. Once they recognised that she'd always call from either Steve's or Nancy's, they stopped picking up altogether. 
it's been months.
“you won't ever lose me Robs”, he immediately says because there is no doubt in it, meaning it more than anything else. 
She leans her head on his shoulder, letting in a deep breath, and somehow Steve just knows it means ‘I love you, dingus’
He wraps an arm around her, squeezing her shoulder ‘love you too birdie’.
Silence takes over, but it isn't all that much quiet, the puppies bark, their feet splashing against the little puddle they are playing around now. The two who had been fighting are licking each other. The faint music is still present, cars still honking away in the heart of the city– people honk a lot here. It's all faint but there. 
“So", he takes in a deep breath, "you plan where we're going yet?”
Robin takes her head off his shoulder before clearing her throat, “yeah, a bit–", she takes a sip of the forgotten drink in her hold, "there's just so much– there's too much honestly. maybe we get a guide but like those are expensive aren't they? I don't know, maybe they aren't–"
"Robs slow down"
"Okay, okay uh... I have a couple places down", she walks back into the room, picks up the book she had gotten earlier and hands it to him. Flipping through the glossy pages, Steve sees a few monuments and tourist attractions are marked by a pen, Steve is sure he can't pronounce most of these names.
“Oh, did you know they have a toilet museum here?” Robin speaks up after some time.
“wh–”
“before you say it, yes I'm being serious, they have a toilet museum, and were going there”
“seriously? they have historical buildings, monuments, tombs and shit and you wanna see a toilet museum?”
"we'll go to those places too but I also wanna see a toilet museum"
"why?"
"so I can find a place for you and Eddie to live."
“thanks", he deadpans.
They discuss and talk through their plans for the next day. its after midnight when Steve says his goodnight, the bottle of remaining vodka in his hand. for Eddie of course.
“Night Steve, kiss Eddie goodnight for me!”
“shut up.”
….
Despite having zero concrete plans, Steve, Robin and Eddie were definitely behind on their schedule. Sleeping in too late made them miss their free complementary breakfast that the hotel offered. 
Steve was so hungry that he would eat Eddie if it was morally and ethically an okay thing to do.
They instead had to order the hotel food which took way too goddamn long to come. Thankfully, when they were done, the hotel manager offered them a guide and a cab to show them around.
The guide was fluent in english, talking about the history of the places he took them. Qutb minar, Jama Masjid, Swaminarayan Akshardham, Humayun's tomb, india gate, lotus temple, All historical places and important monuments. And as beautiful as they were, all the information sort of muddled together for Steve. although incredibly knowledgeable, the guide was going a bit too fast for him. 
when the tour for the day was nearing an end, Robin bought up the toilet museum. If the man wasn't getting paid such a good amount, he wouldn’t have bothered to even hide his judgement like he did.
...
“That one looks like a confession booth”, Eddie points to the wooden seat that looked to be from the olden times, and much to his credit, the description was in fact apt.
“That one just looks like a bird-bath!” Robin points to the one in question and once again the description was accurate.
“This one is just a glorified flower pot.”
“Is it really glorified though?”
“Do you think… they'll let us sit on it? I wanna sit on the confession booth one”
“.. I dont know robin, why dont you ask them.”
“Please, do not touch them”, the guide interrupts them immediately.
“Dude, that one looks like a therapist's chair!” robin skips towards the toilet seat in question, having the time of her life. The other two follow behind. Steve looked around at the multitude of posters hung on the walls– who knew toilets would have such rich history. Along with informative posters, the walls were also covered in comic strips related to poop– toilet humor at its finest, truly.
Steve takes a big gulp from the water bottle Robin had made to hold. just when he is doing so, he feels someone bump into his shoulder, some of the water spilling onto his shirt from the action.
"oh shit, I'm so sorry!" you apologise with wide eyes.
a "sorry" falls from Steve's lips as well even though he didn't do anything.
Your wide eyes morph into a shy smile, “oh shit", you mumble, giggles erupting from your throat before you even know it, "You know ‘cause– uh.. Shit", you try to explain, gesturing around you.
“Oh, yeah, yeah I get it”
“Sorry, by the way”
“Its okay. I wasn't looking”, you smile a little shyly when he shakes his head, “I was just looking at… all this”, he pointing his thumb in the general direction of the wall. You hum through a small laugh "I mean who would even think of a toilet based museum?"
“maybe it's a dig at how the British took everything else so…."
"holy shit, that's an interesting way to look at it"
"yeah, pretty sure it's not true but that's how I choose to look at it"
“I– I’m sorry, I didn't quite catch your name–”
“Hey, Steve!” he stops midway when he hears his name from across the hall, voice belonging to Robin.
“Sorry, I have to go, I've been here for hours,” you start walking past him, glancing at your watch, “Fun meeting you, Steve.”
"Who was that girl?" is the first thing Robin asks when Steve finally walks over to them.
He shrugs, "the hell am I supposed to know?"
"So you talked to her for like half an hour and you don't know?"
"It wasn't that long, Munson."
"it felt that long, especially considering the second hand embarrassment I felt from way over there."
He rolls his eyes, unscrewing his abandoned water bottle and taking a swig from it while walking ahead.
“Hey dingus, quit being sulky.”
“I'm not being sulky”
“Yeah, you are. I mean, what were you expecting Harrington? a meet-cute?”
“no, dude. I was just trying to talk to someone normal”
“I know the urges are there harrington”, Robin starts, making Steve scrunch up his nose at her choice of words, “its been months since the break up– I get it. There's a time and place for everything. This was not it.”
“Oh my god”, Steve mutters, pinching the bridge of his nose.
“Give poor Harrington a break Robin”, Eddie’s hand claps the boy's shoulder, speaking with a kind cadence– one too kind for Edward Munson, “maybe he hasn't moved on, didn't he say that she was the one?”
“The one? Doesn't our hopeless romantic say that about every girl? Even me, at one point– if I remember correctly?”
“God, you're never gonna let me live that down are you?”
“No.”
“Okay, stop”, Steve holds up his hands, “I wasn't doing anything. she just bumped into me and… small talk happened, that's it. end of story. and I'm not being sulky or anything. and yes I am very much over the break up, it happened months ago. So can you both stop bringing it up all the time?”
Robin and Eddie share a look, “..sure.”
Eddie and Robin had already collected back the room keys, and already left for their respective rooms. Crowning Steve with the responsibility of handling the finances with the tour guide. It is when Steve is paying the guide, the glass door opens. And when Steve glances over, he is met with your face. He can't help the smile that creeps onto his face.
You haven't noticed him yet, instead walking straight towards the counter. "Room 111”, he hears you say while he tries to hand the money to the guide as quickly as possible. 
The guide nods, thanking him with a smile. The key clink when the manager puts it on the counter, Steve is there and the words come out of his mouth before he even knows it. “Toilet museum girl?”
Your head snaps towards him, features morphing into what can only be described as disgust. There is a flash of recognition before you say, “uh… what the fuck did you just call me?”
“Nothing, nothing. I just– we just keep running into each other, don't we?”
A smirk comes onto your face, you swipe up the keys from the counter before you start moving towards the elevators, “That we do. Are you stalking me?”
“uh, not intentionally, no", he clarifies, following behind you.
You give him a look, "uh huh."
"I know it looks bad but I swear it's happenstance"
The elevator button lights up beneath your finger when you press it, "Sure", you say in a tone that says you do not believe him at all.
"i swear I'm–"
"I already said ‘sure’", you deadpan, the doors ding open and the both of you step in. He sees the corners of your mouth curl up when you move to press the button for the floor you both were on, Steve couldn't help but smile too.
"yeah but the way you said it... said otherwise"
"what? what way?" your brows pull together, voice with the same sarcastic lilt.
"you're doing it again, toilet girl."
"Here's a deal steve, don't call me anything toilet museum related and I'll stop using that tone."
"deal. but... what should I call you then?", he asks, shoving his hands in his jean pockets– trying to take a confident pose, "I could call you by your name... but you won't tell me"
"have you heard of stranger danger Steve?", You cross your arms, turning towards him, "what if I was a serial killer who only murders in small suffocating elevators?"
The elevator dings again, the door opening on their own accord, "then it's a good thing we're here already!", he says, gesturing for you to step out, "and we aren't really strangers--"
"we are."
"Well, we can change that, can't we?", you stop at your room number. you don't answer, but Steve is sure he heard you hum under the rattle of your keys.
When the lock clicks open, he speaks up, “Hey, uh... what're you doing tonight?”
You turn around, “... uh, Sleep probably”, there’s that tone again.
“No, princess”, he mimics your sarcastic tone but the nickname comes out before he even knows, “before that.” 
Your eyes narrow, maybe at the tone, maybe at the nickname, “Nothing, I'll probably rot in bed or something”
“You're alone?”
“Does it matter?” you counter immediately.
“Well we’re going to a club nearby, you can tag along? and if you're with someone you can bring them along too?"
"Why must I? You could be an international axe murderer"
“You think such a handsome, pretty face could ever murder?”
“And what if I say I don't do alcohol?”
“Then you can be our designated driver?”
“Yeah, no”, you sigh, the door knob twisting in your hand.
“Okay, well if you change your mind– it's the club right down the road.”
“Have fun with your friends”, is all you say before disappearing behind the door. And Steve is left behind, staring at the wood, the number 111 mocking him.
God, what the fuck was he thinking?
The next morning, they thankfully wake up on time despite being definitely and awfully hungover. So here Steve was, with his messy bed hair and sleep mussed eyes, standing in line for the toaster, with a plate in his hand. 
Steve blinks slowly as the queue moves, the air smells like coffee, warm toast, and waffles. He can smell spices too, probably from the dishes which he had never had before or heard the name of. And as much as Steve loves trying out new dishes, a hangover is not a good time to experiment with his taste buds so he thinks he’ll have to chew on toast and wash it down with mediocre coffee this morning. 
The line moves forward again, he feels something brush against his back but he chalks it up as an accident and ignores it. He turns when he feels a finger poking into his shoulder and it's you. “Hi”, you smile up at him, you're wearing jeans and a pink embroidered top. Your hair is untied, tucked behind your ears and a little damp.
His free hand immediately flies up to his hair, fingers running through the messy strands to make it look a little more presentable, “uh, hi”, palm smoothes over his wrinkly t-shirt.
“Is.. is that your friend?” you say pointing to Eddie who was standing over at the waffle machine, pouring some honey on his stack.
“Yeah, yeah that's Eddie”
“Oh, makes sense”, you say, met with confusion written on Steve's face, “He kept trying to strike up a conversation. Also his waffles are a little burnt– I wouldn't share if I were you.” Steve laughs at that, fingers still trying to tame his wild mess of hair, “So, I see you had fun at that club last night”
“That obvious?”
“Very.”
"Where are you planning on going today?", you ask.
"not sure, Robin is deciding right now probably"
“Robin..?”
“Oh, she’s over there”, he points to his best-friend who was sitting at an empty table, coffee already in hand, flipping through pages of a book.
"you three really didn't plan any of this huh?"
"no, not really."
"so you're telling me you're travelling by car and barely trying any street food. jail. jail time to all of you", you were sitting with Steve and his friends now.
"how the hell were we supposed to know? the guide didn't tell us"
"what was the poor guy supposed to do? you can't see so much in just a couple days"
"but there's just so much", you hear Robin speak up for the first time.
"yeah! and you have to accept that you can't see everything, no matter what you do, you're always going to miss something. so shorten this list of yours. and the things you do see, take your time with them. or you'll forget them."
“Ok bud, then where should we go?”
"well if you want to you can go to the red fort, then chandni chowk and then Hazrat Nizamuddin dargah? Its thursday so it’ll be absolutely packed"
"Okay. Will we find you there?"
"I hope not." you say non-chalantly while sipping your chai.
"maybe– maybe we can all go together?" Steve suggests with raised eyebrows. you make an unconvinced noise at the offer. "Still on the fence about the axe murderer thing?"
"Always."
Steve wasnt sure how, but he had managed to convince you to come along with them. He sat infront of you in the auto rikshaw, your hair had dried by the time you reached your first destination. 
The tour around red fort ended rather quickly than he had anticipated, before you pulled them all to chandni chowk.
your hair was now tied up, some of the baby strands sticking to the back of your neck. you looked like you felt right at home, skipping from one shop to another. stopping for some delectable street food every now and then.
you were all enjoying a sweet syrupy jalebi when you called for Robin's name, “Do you like wearing earrings?” you ask.
the girl looks at you, a little hesitant when she answers, “Uh.. someti–”
“Here! This one would look great on you”, you say holding up a pair of glimmering silver and blue earrings. "do you like it?"
"I- um, I do", you grin at that.
steve wasn't where the time flew, but they were already headed to your next destination on your list with bags of little things he, Eddie and Robin bought.
...
[kun Faya kun]
It felt weird to be barefoot, you had given all the shoes to a man by a store. Where the four of you stood now, the street looked breathtaking. Small shops, some selling flowers and incense, some selling religious blankets that you had called chaddars, others selling attar, and so on and so forth. The bright greens, reds, blues and oranges of the chaddars illuminated by the warm lights of the shops looked akin to a canopy of swirling colours.
Currently, you were helping Robin put on a scarf you had gotten earlier from a shop in Chandni chowk over her head, just the way that you had. When you were done, you instructed the two boys to cover their heads as well. When you were met with confused looks from the two of them, you clicked your tongue before covering their head with their handkerchief and tying it behind their head.
The man at the store then handed you a few plates with flowers, incense and a few threads, “what are those for?” he asks, pointing at the threads.
“You make a wish with them”, his brows scrunch up together, “come on, I'll explain”, you say, grabbing him by his wrist.
“You see these walls? people come from all over, they tie a thread”, you say pointing to a man who was tying the red string into the lattice of the wall. the entire wall had such threads tied to them-- all little prayers and wishes made by someone out there. so many people want something. “and they make a mannat. you tie a thread and make a wish. it's like you're asking for a favour.”
“so I ask for whatever I want?”
“whatever you want", you echoed with a smile before pointing to where a lot of men were by the wall, “you boys do it over there, me and Robin are going there– it's reserved for women".
When Steve is looping the thread through the hole, he does so mindlessly, and only when he is about to tighten the knot does he stop to wonder… what exactly is he wishing for? what the hell does he want?
He looks over at Eddie, who already has his temple leaning against the wall, his eyes closed. Steve wonders what he asked for. he thinks he has a hunch.
Without even thinking, his eyes start searching for robin. he sees you help her tie it before the girl leans her head against the wall too. Steve knows full well what she wants. 
And then he sees you, you hesitate while looping the thread. you hesitate when tie the first knot. you hesitate for the second. even from this far away, he could see the hesitation in your eyes before you close them.
He blinks and his gaze snaps back to his own thread, the knot still not tightened. His fingers move on their own when he ties the first one. 
what does he want?
He twists the red thread, looping the long end through the loop.
what does he want?
And when he ties the last knot, it echoes in his brain, “what do I want?”
The group of men sing at the top of their lungs– their voices carrying experience, a roughness that only years of singing can bring. Eddie explains to Steve that the instrument the man was playing was called a harmonium and a dholak. 
“how do you know that?”
“I know a lot, Harrington”, he chuckles when he says it.
Steve glances to where you and Robin are sitting among the other women. and despite being surrounded by such a huge crowd, he can tell Robin is calm which he is glad of. He sees you; you're looking at Robin with an expression he can't quite read, and when she glances your way, you quickly flash her a smile before reverting your eyes back to the singing men.
Its awkward, he can tell that much from afar. He thinks Robin is a little nervous around you, maybe finds you attractive with how little she makes eye contact with you, and how everytime you had said anything to her, it was answered in merely a couple words. He can't make sense of your behaviour though, or the way you look at her a little forlorn. he thinks maybe you're hurt by how unwilling Robin might seem to talk to you despite your constant attempts.
[Aaj jaane ki zid na karo]
You all had come back to the hotel an hour or two ago. As soon as you all had arrived, you had left for your room, something about a call you had to make. And now after taking a bit of a rest, they were getting ready to spend whats left of the night at the club they went to last night.
Steve had his fingers crossed, planning on inviting you with them, hoping to god that you agree because he had fun. a lot more than he would like to admit to you or even his friends.
They're all in Steve's and Eddie's room. Robin all ready, sitting on the edge of his bed. Eddie is tying his shoes, his hair already up, his favourite rings on his digits.
Steve himself was trying to get his hair right, despite how much he had styled his thick strands at the start of the day, they were a little flattened now after the day. after he put some pomade on and his hair was just the way he wanted it, he sprayed on his cologne. just when he was contemplating whether to take his ray-bans with him or not, there was a knock on the door.
Eddie who had been putting on his jacket, was the closest to the door. when he clicked open the door, he was met with your face.
"Hi", you say with a smile before noticing that they're all getting ready to go somewhere. "what're you guys getting dolled up for?"
"We were just going to the club nearby--"
"d'you wanna come with?" Steve offers immediately, walking closer.
"um.. I– I can't..", you mumble apologetically, fingers fidgeting, “I just came here because I wanted to say that I had a lot of fun. And uh, all that.”
"So did we”, Eddie says.
"I just wanted to meet you guys before… leaving"
Steve’s face falls a little, “What do you mean?” 
“I'm heading out around 2 am. I have a flight at 4. I'm going south after this."
“Oh.”
Its silent. Nobody says anything, what could they say anyway, you were still technically a stranger– they didnt even know your name yet. You hid your hands behind yourself, perhaps picking at your cuticles. Your eyes flitting between all three of them, “I didn't just want to leave so…”, you lift your arms, Eddie who was the closest, hugged you first. Then you moved to Robin, not giving her a second to say anything, you wrap your arms around her shoulders. After maybe a second, she wraps her arms around you too, patting your back a little awkwardly. When you pull away, her face is a little red. You offer her a smile and she finally returns a rather timid one herself. 
Your eyes meet Steve’s, you walk over, he moves closer as well. And when you are face to face, you smile up at him. There's a light in your eyes, subdued but there. And from up this close, he thinks you can see it all, all of him. All his doubts, his insecurities, anxieties. Yet you're smiling up at him.
You rock him a little when you hug him, taking him off his balance. He envelops you in his hold, squeezing tighter than he thought he would. "I really had fun”, his eyes close on their own accord when he feels your warm breath on his neck, when he feels your smile on his skin. 
“My name is y/n by the way." 
Steve pulls away just a little, eyes trained on yours, "can’t you come with us before leaving? It won't take too long."
"Steve...", you start, voice all soft and apologetic.
"No, its okay", he shakes his head before smiling.
You return a smile back before looping your arms around his neck once again, "I'm glad we met Steve."
"me too."
You pull back, looking him in the eyes, you whisper, "goodbye."
"anyway… Um–”, you clear your throat, Steve's hold loosening on you and you remove your arms from around him as well, stepping away. You stiffly walk towards the door, stopping at the threshold, the knob in your grasp, “you guys have fun! don't get robbed or scammed or whatever. Bye." you gave them one last sheepish smile before closing the door.
...
Prayers entwined into the thread of us all
mine was empty
I lied to the strangers I met, free as wind
she reminded me of her
Its not like we’ll meet again, I'll be loud and cheap
she doesn't look at me just like she did
I’ll hug them goodbye, I’ll be a mystery.
...
23 notes · View notes
Text
reposted from my personal blog @mee-op
Tumblr media
meeting again, mistletoe and some other stuff
neige x gn!reader
.
you have to wonder how in the world ambrose the 63rd managed to convince dire crowley of all people to agree to a joint christmas party between rsa and nrc. ambrose must've provoked crowley in some way. it's the only explanation you can think of.
and now, after several hours of everyone "trying" to get along with one another, you're stuck wandering through the deserted halls of rsa— lost because you were too nervous to ask anyone where the restroom was.
as you quietly marvel at the interior of the castle-like school and how ethereal it looks reflecting the night sky, you hear a pair of footsteps walking towards you.
your first instinct is to hide. you've been alone in the walls of nrc before and it has never ended well— whether it be ghosts, a group of students wanting to gang up on the only person with no magical ability or something else.
but before you could search for somewhere to lay low until said person disappears, their gentle voice calls out to you.
''umm... hello?''
....you'd recognise that voice anywhere, especially after what happened at vdc. so you turn around and sure enough, it's the one and only neige leblanche.
you figure it'd be way too awkward to just- walk away after he saw you, so you take several steps forward and close the distance.
''err- hey...?'' you say, nervously scratching the back of your head.
luckily, the person in front of you seems better at social interaction than you are and gives you a soft smile, ''are you lost? the main hall is a bit far from here.''
''yeah, actually..'' you chuckle, slightly embarrassed. ''i was looking for the restroom.''
''oh! well, i can walk you there if you want,'' he says, hands behind his back as he looks up at you with the warmest brown eyes you've ever seen.
''thanks. that'd be really helpful,'' you're grateful that it was neige who found you and not someone from your school. you've grown a pretty tough skin since coming to twisted wonderland but you don't think you can handle any sarcastic comments tonight.
he gives you another one of his charming grins—one that you're sure some of his fans would go crazy for— and starts leading the way.
''soo... what were you doing before you saw me?'' you ask in a desperate attempt to start small talk.
''i just wanted to get some fresh air. your name's yuu, right? you were vil's manager during vdc,''.
''yep,'' kind of surprised he remembers.
''you know, i was really shocked when headmage ambrose announced that we would be having a joint christmas party with night raven college. i don't think our schools have gotten together other than to compete,''
...the rest of the walk is filled with neige's voice. you don't particularly mind. it's not like you have anything interesting to say anyway.
before you know it, you're in front of the restroom... which was only a couple ways down from the main hall. before you could give your thanks, you're interrupted.
''i'm sorry! this whole time i've been rambling and i didn't give you a chance to talk!'' a look of disappointment washes over his face and eyes drooping in sadness. he looked like a kicked puppy— it's no wonder he's so popular.
''it's fine, really. i don't mind— i'm pretty used to it,'' you say in hopes of cheering him up a little.
you don't think you made much of a difference, but he smiles anyway.
''well.. you're really easy to talk to,'' you can tell he's still giving himself some sort of scolding and you try to look for a way to take his mind off of it. it's not like you aren't used to not getting your word in. besides, he's one of the nicer ones.
''look, mistletoe,'' you say before you think of the repercussions.
''o-oh! erm...'' all traces of disappointment is completely gone, instead replaced with flushed cheeks and a look of shock and embarrassment. ''would you like to...?''
''we don't have to if you're uncomfortable,'' you silently chastise yourself in your head. you could've talked about anything and you chose mistletoe?? at least he doesn't look like he's wallowing in his own self-hate anymore.
there're a few seconds of awkward silence— neige looking embarrassed (and very cute, you think) as you wonder what you should do.
then suddenly, the bashful look turns into one of determination (with cheeks still red) and before anything else could register in your shrimp brain— you feel neige's soft lips on your cheek.
you stand there looking dumbfounded as neige quickly retreats.
''umm.. ihavetogonow, ihopeyouhaveanicenightgoodbye!''
...............................
it's only been a week or so since the party, but neige feels like it's been months. ever since he kissed you under the mistletoe, you haven't left his mind.
and great seven, it's so incredibly cliche— you meet a stranger at a party, you talk like you've known each other for years (though it wasn't much of a conversation) and then the two of you share a kiss under the mistletoe. sparks are flying, the stars are twinkling ever so brightly just for you and him and everything feels just right.
and he's always loved cliche. he's always loved cheesy and romantic, the type that would make some gag and others swoon.
and you must've felt it too, right? like every choice led up to you meeting him? like both of you were puzzle pieces that fit together perfectly.
but he was so stupid. he ran away before even knowing your name or asking you out.
but it doesn't matter. he did a bit of digging texting vil and found out you were the prefect of ramshackle dorm! so now he's on your doorstep with the loveliest flowers he could find and some chocolate (he prays you aren't allergic).
he takes a deep breath to calm his nerves, rings the doorbell and patiently waits for you to answer. even though he prepared for this, he can't help but be nervous. and it only worsens when he sees you again.
...he really hopes you know how pretty you are. just the sight of you makes his heart skip a beat.
''neige?'' his thoughts are interrupted and he has to scramble to think of what to say.
''h-hi, yuu! how are you?''
''i'm doing good, is... everything alright?''
''everything's great!'' he gulps before he continues— fear welling up inside him. he has to do this now before he even thinks about backing out.
''well, i actually wanted to ask you something...'' holding the bouquet tighter than necessary, he asks. ''would you.. like to go on a date? with me?''
230 notes · View notes
mee-op · 2 years
Text
Tumblr media
meeting again, mistletoe and some other stuff
neige x gn!reader
.
you have to wonder how in the world ambrose the 63rd managed to convince dire crowley of all people to agree to a joint christmas party between rsa and nrc. ambrose must've provoked crowley in some way. it's the only explanation you can think of.
and now, after several hours of everyone "trying" to get along with one another, you're stuck wandering through the deserted halls of rsa— lost because you were too nervous to ask anyone where the restroom was.
as you quietly marvel at the interior of the castle-like school and how ethereal it looks reflecting the night sky, you hear a pair of footsteps walking towards you.
your first instinct is to hide. you've been alone in the walls of nrc before and it has never ended well— whether it be ghosts, a group of students wanting to gang up on the only person with no magical ability or something else.
but before you could search for somewhere to lay low until said person disappears, their gentle voice calls out to you.
''umm... hello?''
....you'd recognise that voice anywhere, especially after what happened at vdc. so you turn around and sure enough, it's the one and only neige leblanche.
you figure it'd be way too awkward to just- walk away after he saw you, so you take several steps forward and close the distance.
''err- hey...?'' you say, nervously scratching the back of your head.
luckily, the person in front of you seems better at social interaction than you are and gives you a soft smile, ''are you lost? the main hall is a bit far from here.''
''yeah, actually..'' you chuckle, slightly embarrassed. ''i was looking for the restroom.''
''oh! well, i can walk you there if you want,'' he says, hands behind his back as he looks up at you with the warmest brown eyes you've ever seen.
''thanks. that'd be really helpful,'' you're grateful that it was neige who found you and not someone from your school. you've grown a pretty tough skin since coming to twisted wonderland but you don't think you can handle any sarcastic comments tonight.
he gives you another one of his charming grins—one that you're sure some of his fans would go crazy for— and starts leading the way.
''soo... what were you doing before you saw me?'' you ask in a desperate attempt to start small talk.
''i just wanted to get some fresh air. your name's yuu, right? you were vil's manager during vdc,''.
''yep,'' kind of surprised he remembers.
''you know, i was really shocked when headmage ambrose announced that we would be having a joint christmas party with night raven college. i don't think our schools have gotten together other than to compete,''
...the rest of the walk is filled with neige's voice. you don't particularly mind. it's not like you have anything interesting to say anyway.
before you know it, you're in front of the restroom... which was only a couple ways down from the main hall. before you could give your thanks, you're interrupted.
''i'm sorry! this whole time i've been rambling and i didn't give you a chance to talk!'' a look of disappointment washes over his face and eyes drooping in sadness. he looked like a kicked puppy— it's no wonder he's so popular.
''it's fine, really. i don't mind— i'm pretty used to it,'' you say in hopes of cheering him up a little.
you don't think you made much of a difference, but he smiles anyway.
''well.. you're really easy to talk to,'' you can tell he's still giving himself some sort of scolding and you try to look for a way to take his mind off of it. it's not like you aren't used to not getting your word in. besides, he's one of the nicer ones.
''look, mistletoe,'' you say before you think of the repercussions.
''o-oh! erm...'' all traces of disappointment is completely gone, instead replaced with flushed cheeks and a look of shock and embarrassment. ''would you like to...?''
''we don't have to if you're uncomfortable,'' you silently chastise yourself in your head. you could've talked about anything and you chose mistletoe?? at least he doesn't look like he's wallowing in his own self-hate anymore.
there're a few seconds of awkward silence— neige looking embarrassed (and very cute, you think) as you wonder what you should do.
then suddenly, the bashful look turns into one of determination (with cheeks still red) and before anything else could register in your shrimp brain— you feel neige's soft lips on your cheek.
you stand there looking dumbfounded as neige quickly retreats.
''umm.. ihavetogonow, ihopeyouhaveanicenightgoodbye!''
...............................
it's only been a week or so since the party, but neige feels like it's been months. ever since he kissed you under the mistletoe, you haven't left his mind.
and great seven, it's so incredibly cliche— you meet a stranger at a party, you talk like you've known each other for years (though it wasn't much of a conversation) and then the two of you share a kiss under the mistletoe. sparks are flying, the stars are twinkling ever so brightly just for you and him and everything feels just right.
and he's always loved cliche. he's always loved cheesy and romantic, the type that would make some gag and others swoon.
and you must've felt it too, right? like every choice led up to you meeting him? like both of you were puzzle pieces that fit together perfectly.
but he was so stupid. he ran away before even asking you out.
but it doesn't matter. he did a bit of digging texting vil and found out you were the prefect of ramshackle dorm! so now he's on your doorstep with the loveliest flowers he could find and some chocolate (he prays you aren't allergic).
he takes a deep breath to calm his nerves, rings the doorbell and patiently waits for you to answer. even though he prepared for this, he can't help but be nervous. and it only worsens when he sees you again.
...he really hopes you know how pretty you are. just the sight of you makes his heart skip a beat.
''neige?'' his thoughts are interrupted and he has to scramble to think of what to say.
''h-hi, yuu! how are you?''
''i'm doing good, is... everything alright?''
''everything's great!'' he gulps before he continues— fear welling up inside him. he has to do this now before he even thinks about backing out.
''well, i actually wanted to ask you something...'' holding the bouquet tighter than necessary, he asks. ''would you.. like to go on a date? with me?''
Tumblr media
christmas isn't over until i finish this. which is now.
69 notes · View notes
subrosai · 2 months
Text
Tumblr media
◟✧⡀ ( dean fujioka. non binary. they / them. ) … there’s a figure off in the distance, do you see it? wait is that … JUNICHIRO WATANABE ? how long have they been standing there? if that’s really them, i believe they’re FORTY-THREE.  do i know them?  no,  but i hear they’re INQUISITIVE and CALCULATIVE, but also DETACHED  and ELUSIVE. i do know that they’ve been in the city for THIRTY-FIVE YEARS. it’s crazy that they’re just standing there … shouldn’t they be working at OWNER as a  STOKER'S CRYPT? maybe they’re off today, i couldn’t tell you. hope they get moving soon. i’m starting to feel like SHINIGAMI FROM JAPANESE MYTHOLOGY is peering over at me … 
STATS
character name: junichiro watanabe / nicknames: jun ( reserved to a tight circle of friends ) / place of birth: ██, ███ / birthday: january 4th / sexuality: biromantic demisexual / gender identity: non-binary ( they or him ) / zodiac: capricorn / mbti: istj / occupation: owner of stoker's crypt / languages: japanese, english, spanish, chinese / moral alignment: chaotic neutral / love language: acts of service / rift level: legendary / powers:  necromancy ( impermanent, brief ), death sense, intangibility ( momentarily ) / how long ago did the mythos manifest: twenty-four years ago / main goal: to uncover the mystery of the town, gather information & power of regarding the those in high positions / gang / group name + position: jekyll & hide investigations, the brain
BIOGRAPHY
( blood, death, death imagery, necromancy, blasphemy cw )
you are only a child when you meet death. you remember that day far too well. you return from high school, only a week left until it's done and you will be graduating, the plans all made for where to go to college, what to study. instead, you open the door, and meet a crime scene. when you think back on that night, you can swear you saw a pair of eyes watching you from the window. then, the red and blue lights of police cars reflect against the glass, and you choose not to remember much of the rest. life changes much too quickly, and while you are technically an adult now, your next of kin, your grandfather who lives in penson convinces you to come to live with him. fallen into a vast emptiness, you find it impossible to say no. you study in penson, and you grow up in penson. the mist intrigues you, and it's only a year later that the same pair of eyes start appearing in the corner of your vision. here, and there, and there again. while you are walking at night to your house, when you are locking up your grandfather's library, when you are crouched in a convenience store trying to pick pasta, and a shadow disappears quicker than you can look up. you believe you officially meet your match when you stand in front of a gravestone. old age, they say, yet you can swear you saw those very same pair of eyes in the window when your grandfather took his last breath. you stand in the rain, eyes glued to yet another gravestone when the rain suddenly stops. there's the smell of tobacco, accompanied by the sound of steps by your side. r.s. he calls himself. and it's the start of your new life. fate brings you together to mourn on the same day, and that's when you learn more about jekyll & hyde. it's everything you could want and more. solving mysteries, digging into secrets of anyone and everyone. it gives you a purpose to discover more about the mist, to understand the rifts all around you. at first, you don't realize you are already one of them, until one fated night in a back alley, you are crouching over someone, trying to keep the blood in their body. r.s. is by your side again, leaning against a wall, smoking more of those goddamn cigars. the person dies slowly under your hands before the ambulances can arrive. you see the light in their eyes leave — and when you remove your hands and touch them again to take their pulse, they gasp back into life. it only takes around five more minutes before they are dead again. necromancy, albeit brief, seems to be very useful in your line of work. in the dark, you can swear r.s. grinning down at you, and another pair of eyes from the end of the alley vanishing away. it never takes properly, you can never figure out why. sometimes it's longer than fifteen minutes, and sometimes it's only a few. it can be challenging to calm someone down enough from their death to get the answers you need, but you get enough practice through the years. rest of your powers come slowly, the second is intangibility, and it manifests at a night not one of your best. a case that went wrong, no answers received from a decaying body. you swear you see those pair of eyes again, and you run after them with everything you have. it's then that you briefly run through a pole and feel nothing at all. intangibility seems to only work when you are in a heightened state of emotion, which does not come too useful every day. more years pass as you climb up the ranks, and become the underboss under r.s.. your last and final power does not come until you realize the anxiety at the bottom of your stomach is something else when it is your mentor that's finally taken away from you. his last words are for you to take his mantle, and that's what you do.
it's when you are looking down at yet another gravestone that you realize what it was. that sometimes you can feel death coming. it's not necessarily reliable, but it gives you some sort of power over not knowing at all. it's also ironic, how you have it now, after everyone that you have lost. you have been the leader for around five years now, the brain behind the operations, the one who calls the shots. you bring the organizations higher and aim for the stars. hoping to reach more information about the mist, the rifts, and the occasional secrets you cannot stay away from. power is everything in this world, and you intend to have it all.
2 notes · View notes
starkerhowlter · 2 years
Text
Princess Parker 6
Rating: M Ship: starker (tony stark / peter parker) Tags: Minor Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers, Alternate Universe - College/University, Fashion Designer Peter Parker, Engineer Student Tony Stark, slow burn, stolen moments Summary: Tony Stark’s in love. But not with the conventional. Instead, his soulmate is known for temper tantrums about pink lemonades that are too sour and scuffs on the toe of his Louboutin shoes. He’s materialistic, superficial, and cares way too much about his face. So why can’t Tony stay away? Read below or on AO3
Tumblr media
This chapter was beta'd by my gorgeous squish: @cozysafechaotic ! Be sure to send em love and thanks! Shout out as well to my sprinting goblins in the Super Starkers Discord for their support as well and I hope you enjoy this chapter! Also, yes. The chapter title is a play on Pumped Up Kicks by Foster The People. I don't know why, I was just listening to the song while posting. 😂
Tumblr media
6 -- Fucked Up Kicks
The man rushes across the walkway and into the bathroom, he locks the door and stares at himself in the mirror. "Fuck. Fuck. Fuck I fucked up. Fucking shit..."
"Tony?" a soft knock echoed through the room. 
"Not here. Go away." 
The person knocks again, "Tony, it's Bucky. What happened?" 
"Nothing happened. Go. Away." Tony leans against the wall opposite the door and sighs, "Leave me alone." 
"Tony, Peter and Natasha came and found me. They said to come to find you." 
"Why."
"That wasn't a question but they said that it's because you talked to Peter and then ran off."
"Did they say what I said?" 
"No. But Sam and Steve are on their way up here if you don't come out. We will pick the lock."
"Like hell, you will! Leave me the hell alone. I'm going home." 
"Whatever, Tony. We aren't done talking about this." Bucky's voice fades, and Tony's shoulders drop. 
"He called me art, Nat," Peter confesses later that night. The clock has rolled 5 am and the party downstairs is winding down.  He lays diagonal across the white wood four-poster bed's duvet, the pink silk doing nothing to calm him as it usually does. 
"Do you want Tiffany?" Natasha offers the pink and purple bunnybear to the boy, who opens his arms and holds the toy to his chest. 
"Thank you. But what do I do with that information? Like you can't call someone art and then just run off into the bathroom and hide from your problems."
"Peter, I can't tell you what he meant by that any more than he can. I am not Tony Stark nor do I claim to know what is going on in that man's head." She smooths the black silk of her dress underneath herself as she sits on the bed next to him. 
"The only person who can tell you what Tony means is Tony, Peter," Loki states simply, from their place against Peter's white wood dresser. They adjust their black and green suit jacket and approach the bed. "There is nothing any of us can say that will make this an easier pill to swallow. You have to talk to Tony." 
"No. I'm not going to look desperate." 
"Peter you've been desperate since day 1," Gwen states from the floor.
"She's right," Loki says, shrugging, "I'm going back downstairs." 
"Me too. If you want to know what he meant, ask him, Peter." Natasha rises and follows Gwen, Loki, and MJ out of the room, shutting the door behind her. 
The next day is agony for Peter. He looks for Tony everywhere he should be and can't find him. He looks back at Tony's seat, hoping Bucky will walk in and sit next to it. Peter sighs, wondering where the punk could be. 
Tony's never leaving his room again. He can't ever face Peter again. What does the boy think of him? He's such a fucking fool. Why did he ever think that Peter would feel the same as him? He knew he was out of Peter's league, but not this badly. 
"Tony, you have to leave the house. You can't just live here." Bucky states, standing over his bed.
"Bucky, that's the point of a bedroom. To live in it." Tony sighs and curls deeper under the blankets. "What do you expect, me to just go to class and pretend I didn't do anything wildly stupid and make a major fool of myself? Do you expect me to pretend like I did nothing wrong?" 
"You can't just hide here. I expect you to be dressed by the time I come back." 
"No promises," Tony calls to the fading voice, hearing the door close. He rolls over, glancing at the robot pieces all over his room.
He dwells for only a few minutes longer before rolling out of bed, making it haphazardly and changing into jeans and a Def Leppard tee. He frowns disapprovingly at his mismatched socks and plugs in his amp. "Gods, what am I doing? I haven't played since High School." Tony picks up his bass and plugs it into the amp. He strums a few frets, unsure how his notes will come out. 
Before long, Tony's lost in the music, his fingers are bleeding, and the music surrounds him, drowning out his singing. 
-_–_-_
Thank you so much for reading!! Comments and likes are much appreciated!!
15 notes · View notes
city-luvr · 1 year
Text
caught in the act
pairing : kuroo x akaashi tags : roommates〡voyeur〡masturbation〡praising kink lowercase intended. 2k words. also available on : wattpad , ao3
Tumblr media Tumblr media
author's pov
akaashi was finally all alone in his place, or maybe he should start calling it their place. the former setter wasn't alone in the flat he was staying in because he has a roommate.
the man didn't really plan on having one. it was a friend of akaashi's parents who offered the place for a lower price and he agreed to it since he really wanted to move out for college. but he didn't know that in exchange, he had to share the place with their son, tetsurou kuroo.
they just met when keiji finally had his things moved in and was settling in his new home. he could still remember their first meeting and the very unforgettable event akaashi had witnessed.
(flashback)
akaashi's pov
"what? but mom, that wasn't even part of the agreement. they never mentioned that i had to share the flat with someone else-"
"don't worry, dear, it's just their son who'll be living there with you. and besides, they offered it for a lower price, right? it will be okay, dear. just go with it, alright?" i knew i couldn't argue with my mother when she already had her mind set. all i could do was heave a sigh and nod my head in agreement.
"alright, mom. i gotta go fix my stuff, i'll try to call again later. love you, bye." i ended the call, pinching the bridge of nose afterwards. i was pissed but instead of sulking or mopping around, i decided to start moving my stuff inside.
the place was pretty big for one person. well, i guess it all works out since there'll be two of us staying here. there were two rooms and i decided to take the one on the opposite side of the bathroom since it's also the farthest one.
carrying a few boxes in hand, i was about to go inside my new room. 'i wonder when he'll show up-' my thoughts were suddenly cut off from the sound of the front door opening.
"oh, you must be keiji, right?" a husky deep voice spoke making me turn around to see who had called my name.
i was greeted by a cat-like grin while the unknown (rooster head / cat) man walked towards me. "it is you, you look exactly like what my mom had described. oh i'm tetsurou by the way, nice to finally meet you." he extended his hand for me to shake. i was so stunned by his presence i didn't notice i was staring at him.
"oh uhm, hello. nice to finally meet you as well, tetsurou." i took his hand in mine and gave it a light shake. his hand was warm and significantly bigger than mine. i offered him a smile before letting go. "i uh.. didn't really know we would be roommates since a few minutes ago. i think you're mom may have forgotten to mention that detail to me."
yes, i was still pissed. i would've really preferred to live alone. interacting with people is too tiring and draining for me.
"oh.. i'm sorry about that. my mom kinda set us up." he said nonchalantly and shrugged as if it wasn't really important.
"pardon? did you just say she set us up? uh haha what do you mean by that?"
"literally what it means, she set us up. she has had her eyes on you since she became friends with your mom and she wanted me to marry you." the statement almost made me choke on air, but i tried to hide it with a small cough.
"but i said no. you're not really my type so don't worry about it, mr. perfect." he said in a teasing tone and i don't know if i'm relieved or insulted, or maybe i'm both.
"uhh.. okay? thanks i guess." i awkwardly said before leaving him to himself and going inside my room, getting settled in.
after a few days, everything was normal. we sometimes eat meals together and talk about stuff like college, but we rarely spend more than an hour together since he always had a friend with him. and by a friend, i meant it as his hookup or fuck buddy. it was a different face everyday. not that i mind or care, it wasn't my business anyways. but sadly, our walls weren't that thin. and it was hard to read or write or do anything in general with their noises in the background.
and i'm at my limit. i've made up my mind and i'll to talk tetsurou after their... session.
it finally went quiet, so i went out to talk to him. i walked towards his room but got surprised when i saw it was partly open.
i was about to knock when i saw through the door and was met with a boy who had a piece of cloth in his mouth and wore a blindfold getting fucked and wrecked from behind by kuroo who was shirtless and soaked in his sweat.
i immediately backed away and hurried back to my room.
(end of flashback)
author's pov
"fuck." akaashi thought as the scene played in his mind once again.
he could feel blood rushing to his face, and to his length as well. "shit, it's not calming down." he said as he looked down. 'fuck, i'm trying not to think of it again but that was so fucking hot.'
unconsciously, a hand went inside his trousers, slowly stroking himself which elicited a low groan from his lips. "ahh..." he lied down on his bed, completely lost in the pleasure. akaashi didn't have any experience in sex. the most that he's ever done was watch porn and masturbate, and it's been a while since the last time he had his release.
his hand was moving faster as he felt close to coming when he suddenly heard his door creak. he jolted from surprise and looked back to see kuroo, eyes dark as he watched akaashi like a hawk watching its prey.
"fuck- tetsurou? w-what are you doing here? you said you wouldn't be back until tomorrow morning..."
kuroo who had caught keiji masturbating didn't look as flustered as keiji was. in fact, he looked like he was starving as he stared at the male on the bed. beads of sweat formed on his forehead and his ears along with his cheeks were so red.
the taller one slowly made his way inside the room. "before doing anything, you should first make sure that the door is locked, kashi." he said in a teasing tone before doing it himself and shutting the door.
"y-you're on to talk, kuroo. you left your door open once." keiji couldn't hold back his retort, only realizing afterwards what he had said.
akaashi was frozen in his place, hands trying to hide his boner that surprisingly got harder than it already was. "ah, so you did see it once, hm? well, sorry not sorry but that was on purpose, baby." kuroo slowly climbed up from the bottom of the bed and stopped in between of akaashi's thighs, leaning down to move his fingers away from his member.
he first gave it kitten licks, then running his tongue from the base to the tip, earning a groan from akaashi. "f-fuck..." this only made kuroo's smirk grow wider, finally taking in akaashi's whole length inside his mouth. "tetsu-!"
akaashi's mind suddenly went blank, all he could think of was how warm kuroo's mouth was. his hands automatically went to grab the rooster head's soft dark locks while he slowly thrusts his hips, mouth fucking him.
"a-ahh so good.. f-feels so good..." akaashi was slowly losing all of his rationality as he threw his head back, mouth letting out the purest lewd noises. kuroo's fingers met his lips and the taller male pushed his digits inside his mouth. the smaller one automatically started sucking them.
kuroo, despite gagging a bit from the other's shaft, was having fun breaking akaashi. he bobbed his head faster, feeling his cock twitching inside his mouth. he decided to swirl his tongue around his shaft as he hollowed his cheeks to suck him harder.
tetsurou retrieved his fingers which were now lubed with keiji's saliva. he teased the rim of his hole before slowly inserting a finger inside him which then earned a whimper from the boy. "ah! f-fuck. kuroo, w-what are y-you doing?"
"calm down, kashi. it'll feel good, trust me."
and he wasn't lying when he said those words because soon enough kuroo was thrusting two fingers inside akaashi with ease, scissoring him while still sucking on his cock, and the male could only let out moan after moan.
"tetsu i-i'm so close, please don't stop-"
just right after he dropped those words, kuroo stopped his movements and quickly backed up to unbutton his pants. he slightly pulled his bottoms down, revealing his huge hard-on.
keiji, after seeing tetsu's dick, now knew why the boy he fucked one time was such a mess under kuroo. 'fuck, will that even fit in me?' was the only thing on his mind right now.
kuroo noticed the expression on his face and he could almost guess what he was thinking as well. the older one only chuckled in return. "don't worry, we'll make it work, kashi. trust me."
the said male nervously gulped down and gave a small nod. "alright, if you say so."
kuroo took out a condom from his front pocket and tore it open with his teeth, never breaking their eye contact which made akaashi more flustered than he already was.
"hm, why don't you put it on for me, baby?" he teasingly said, not expecting him to actually do it.
tetsurou muttered a small thank you and a wink which caught keiji off guard, heart fluttering.
the taller male pulled out a sachet of what seemed like lube and opened it before applying an ample amount on his shaft. he also applied a few on his fingers and slowly pushed them inside the smaller male, drawing out a whimper from him.
'it's cold.' keiji thought.
"alright, all set. you ready?"
he nods his head and takes a deep breath.
"i think it's your first time. tell me right away if it's too much, okay?" he said while slowly caressing the other's side.
though he seemed like an awful guy, he was actually quite caring and attentive to other's needs. his words brought akaashi comfort and he melted from the gesture, making him flash a bright smile. "okay, i will."
tetsurou aligned his member in keiji, slowly pushing past his tight walls. "fuck- so fucking tight." he hissed, trying his best to go as slow as he possibly can to not hurt akaashi.
never having done this before, the sensation felt foreign to akaashi. there was a mix of both pain and pleasure that blew his mind and senses away. he couldn't make out any coherent words and could only whimper underneath kuroo.
"tell me if you want me to start moving, yeah?" he placed feathery kissed on the smaller male's neck and collarbone while rubbing is sides, trying to get his mind off of the pain.
and after a while of akaashi taking deep breaths and kuroo comforting him, akaashi finally nodded his head and told him he could start moving his hips.
kuroo held adoration and desire in his hazel eyes as he looked into akaashi's lovely blue eyes before pulling him in for a gentle kiss and carefully bucking his hips.
the friction caused keiji's back to arch and his nails to dig onto tetsurou's back, harshly scratching his slightly tan skin that'll surely leave marks afterwards.
their kiss that started soft and slow turned into a very heated makeout session with lots of tongue clashing and groaning on the sides. after losing their breaths, they both pull away for some air and akaashi's sounds of pleasure finally broke free from his swollen lips.
"yeah, that's right. moan for me, keiji. fuck yes, let me know how good i'm making you feel, hm?" and the said male obliged, his voice getting louder with each thrust.
kuroo rails akaashi's hole, his cock roughly going in and out of him with a hand stroking his member and matching the pace of his thrusts.
"ahh f-fuck right.. there!" keiji says when tetsurou hits a spot that felt more sensitive and made his mind go into overdrive.
"uhum, found it. here?" he says before hitting the same spot, in which akaashi nods and his cry gets louder.
"fuck! if you k-keep doing that i w-won't last any longer." he admits, his high was evident just from the twitching of his manhood.
"i'm close too, baby. fuck, you're taking my cock so fucking good, baby. oh, you just clenched around me, you like getting praised, angel?" he teasingly smirks, whispering more praises in his ear while picking up the pace as they chased their orgasm.
"tetsu, i'm cumming. i'm gonna cum-!" and as if on cue, keiji's length spurt his seeds onto his stomach.
"me too, angel. fuck-!" after a few more thrusts, tetsurou also had his release. his semen seeping through akaashi's walls, filling him up and warming his insides.
they were both panting, trying to recover from feeling their euphoria of reaching ecstasy.
"you.. did so good, kashi. did i hurt you? was it too much?" kuroo worriedly asked the younger male who just smiled and shook his head.
"i'm alright, tetsu. just tired. cuddle?"
"you don't even have to ask, angel." he grinned and exchanged their position with akaashi now on top of him, resting his head on kuroo's chest.
the two talked about random stuff as they enjoyed the night together in each other's arms, both not wanting tomorrow to come anytime soon; both not wanting to let go of what they have at that very moment; both not wanting to face the feelings that were slowly creeping up inside them. so for now, let's just live the moment.
︎ ︎︎ ︎
fin.
Tumblr media
© city-luvr — do not steal, plagiarize, translate, and/or repost my works on any site
support banner by cafekitsune
11 notes · View notes
sapphire-weapon · 1 year
Note
Hey, I'm the original 25 y/o anon and respectfully, I feel that you may have misunderstood my ask. The comparison to narcissism is a bit uncalled for, though maybe that wasn't your intention. I don't 100% agree with everything you've said, but I do understand where you've come from. I do still firmly believe that no, there is no official timeline. That's silly in my eyes. Not everyone is handed the same deck with the same privileges, experiences and opportunities. Everybody also faces curveballs too and many of them. Does that mean that they can't achieve happiness and make the best of themselves, despite arriving later to things compared to their more privileged peers? No, of course not. I've done the work and proven that to myself this year. Despite the poverty and years of trauma, I'm finally going to college to study something I'm deeply passionate about and learning to value myself and seek out healthier relationships. I'm my own evidence to prove that life doesn't have to become jaded and meaningless, just because age may be unconventional accoridng to stereotypes and capitalism. With respect, I'm sure you weren't intending to invalidate others nor throw out insults! I'm sorry to hear about your friend and her issues with having children. That's a very unfortunate thing to happen to her and I hope she finds fulfilment elsewhere if necessary, I just wanted to clear up any misunderstandings if there were any and I wish you a wonderful weekend. I really enjoy your blog and RE takes + information! Thanks for taking so much time to answer questions for newer fans.
Also, just to add, I don't accept being painted as naive. My life has been LONG lol and I've learned a lot the hard way. I am an experienced adult, but I may have wrongly misinterpreted you too! No hard feelings at all, just clearing the air and I hope I haven't accidentally brought negativity to you or your ask box, it wasn't my intention. Just wanted to share my new found lease on life, which I think everyone is deserving of.
So, just as like a blanket statement: if I'm responding to an ask, I'm only directly addressing the asker. My "it's narcissistic" comment wasn't meant to retroactively apply to you -- only to the person who left the ask implying that having a worldview that's anything other than "you can do anything at any point" is pessimistic.
In truth, I don't know why you sent the original ask or what you were responding to, because I've long since made peace with where I'm at in life and the opportunities I've missed, which is why I only talked about the saying in a general sense instead of having a more pointed conversation.
The "no official timeline" thing is something that I think is good to have in the back of your mind when you're looking in retrospect/reflecting on your life. It's not a good thing to carry around with you pre-emptively. "So you got to shit later than society thinks is normal lmao w/e who cares, you did the thing and that's what matters" is way different from "You don't have to do this right now, fuck it, there's no official timeline" -- and the latter is the mindset that I was addressing. It does encourage learned helplessness by reinforcing someone's avoidant tendencies. That's why I don't like people reaching for that as a platitude by default.
And that's also why I made it a point to say I was using a generalized, ubiquitous "you" in my response to your original ask -- because I don't know your story, so I wasn't responding/can't respond to your situation specifically. All I could do/did do was respond to the impulse to tell someone "don't worry about it, you don't need to do a thing right now."
My response to that will always be: If not now, when? And if there's actual barriers to entry for a thing, my follow-up question will be: Are you making a good faith effort to break through those barriers, or are you just building up a wall of excuses that you can hide behind and feel safe?
I will always encourage someone to act rather than wait, because I have watched too many dreams fall apart and had too many friends get saddled with regret as a result.
I don't really wanna eat up any more real estate on my blog with this stuff, though.
3 notes · View notes
elijah-loyal · 5 months
Text
ik i've posted this shit before but like im stuck waiting and waiting and WAITING and i hate it, i hate inaction when i desperately need to move, i hate not being able to DO because i cannot, not if i want to be in a good position.
i hate having to fight for everything i want from my mother (which college to go to, whether or not she thinks i should when all i want to do is go and do what i WANT to do with my life, and she can't have that because i'm smarter than her and she needs control of me, like a dog), hate having to hide from her (i hide from her so, so much, in the walls of my skin and curled up on the balcony when she screams at my father).
i'm afforded the kindness of my friends, of being called by my proper name, of being called "eli" without a second thought from any of them, and they all know who i am and they love me anyway.
it's not enough. it should be, but it's not. my voice is still too high; i haven't grown up yet, and i only have three months until i'm a legal adult and it doesnt feel like it because i'm not me. i dress like a boy but i don't look like a boy high schooler and i hate it, i hate it, i hate it.
i hate that i can't help palestine more. i live right next to it and we make art to sell in school to raise money for gaza, but i can see the missiles and i wish that gaza had rain instead. so i paint, i paint for gaza and send that meager 50 JD it earns to them, and hope that it helps someone there.
i wish and i hope and i need and i hate and i am a whole person but not quite
1 note · View note
lovehaven · 11 months
Text
Dear bestfriend of 9 years,
They said if you are friends for more than 7 years, that friendship will last forever. But, I guess, ours only lasted for 9 years. Ah, it is heartbreaking, because I thought I will have you forever. Because, ever since I know you, never once I thought that it will end like this.
I used to be so scared of losing you. And now that I lost you, I have been grieving since the day it ended. I never thought a broken friendship would hurt this much, and, my heart is just unable to be mended.
Does this breaks your heart too? Does losing me broke your heart or was it only because of my betrayal?
Well, I haven't been a good friend for awhile, have I? I have been missing and pushing you away. Because I was hurt. I was hurt by your actions and your lies but I cannot be honest with you.
The truth is, I always hated myself. I always knew there is something wrong with me. That is something just not enough about me. I hated myself since I was a kid.
Did I ever tell you, that my poverty always caused me having a big insecurity? That, just like those American college movies, I craved to have connection with cool people but instead, I was ignored and ostracized by them. This happened when I was still in primary school.
There used to be a time where we were actually friends and our favorite activity during our free time at school was reenacting some scenes from the famous telenovela. What a fun time. But, I guess, I did something wrong and we're no longer friends. Or, more accurately, they stopped being friends with me.
I started writing letters to re-amend my friendship with one of them, but the connection just never got any better. We stayed like two penpals friend for quite some time, exchanging letters, despite being in the same class.
From there on, I always knew I am not likeable. From there on, I always tried to be more likeable.
Perhaps, they were just out of my league. Then, I built friendship with people who were more like me. Broken and sad inside. The connection was better and I was happier.
Those friendships were longer and more sincere, but we have outgrown each other. It's called life and adulting phase.
Still, the aftermath of my broken childhood, is that I became a people pleaser.I tried to please the friends I am trying to keep. But, I always find myself feeling more comfortable being friends with people which I know, within my league.
I know I am not likeable, so I tried to build another personality at the new place. I tried to put the image where I don't care of what people think of me, when I actually do. I am not likeable but I don't give a damn of what they think.
It was only to the people I don't intend to keep.
And you know, over the time, I thought I was cured, but, turned out, it was lingering there, suppressed by the happiness of the connection we've made.
Because soon, the history repeated again, where I realized, I was not someone first choice or someone reliable. I am not anyone's go-to person.
Not even yours.
Thus, I built walls. It made me more insecure. I chose to hide myself even more. But, I am a weak person. Once I found the person I want to keep, I became the people pleaser again. But, a people pleaser with walls. That is how I keep you close in my life and clinging to you on an invisible thread but never reveal my deepest insecurity. Afraid that you'll figure me out.
So, when you did that to me, I don't blame you. I know it's my fault. Deep down, I know the problem is mine to begin with. I am neither likeable, nor reliable, nor kind.
It made me pushed you away. I'm sorry for taking that counter measure because that is the only way I can protect myself from hurting.
Unfortunately, staying with you has made the insecurity bigger. I kept asking myself, if my presence was ever needed. I kept feeling that I'm intruding something. That I shouldn't be there and it's painful because I don't know if it's just my anxiety or the truth.
There is no fine line of the real truth and the lies I created myself anymore.
But I never meant to hurt you that way. I never planned on hurting you or making you feel the insecurity I have in me.
I was seeking for redemption. To rebuild the thing I broke. To keep the people I like closer in my life.
I never meant for the redemption to turn into love.
Another truth that I never told you, is that my soul recognized a broken soul. It's like a kintsugi. We found a connection through our broken pieces and mend it with love.
Love is gold.
And gold is not something I can let go. It was too precious. Too precious for me to give up.
I sincerely hope we can find a way to exist together. In a way we can be for each other that will not hurt anyone. It seems impossible, however.
It is impossible because love made us selfish. Not me, no. Though, I understand you.
I do hope you can forgive me for what I did because I cannot forgive myself. This is why I gave up on our friendship.
I don't think we can move past the pain we caused each other. I will always remember my sins to you, thus, I will not be free from the pain.
I will not be free from thinking that I don't deserve to be your friend. Staying away from each other is the best liberation gift I can offer you.
May you find happiness in everything you do.
0 notes
lemonadegirl4344 · 1 year
Text
So, I saw a billboard yesterday stating that June 2nd was anti-gun violence day. To all the Europeans out there I agree, it's insane we need to have it in the first place.
So, in honor of gun violence day, I'm going to write a very, very, VERY long-winded post of information I've gathered from various YouTube videos, documentaries, and interviews I've watched about how to survive active shooters.
I'm breaking down Run Hide fighting and Avoid Deny Defend and of course, A.L.I.C.E
First off ALICE and why I don't really like it that much. Am I qualified enough for my opinion to be valid? Probably not but for those of you who aren't college students whose colleges have implemented this ALICE stands for Alert, Lockdown, Inform, Counter, Evacuate.
Alert is for how a student learns of a threat. Once you have learned there is an active assailant, you asses the sitaution and if it's safe to get the hell out of dodge or instead go into Lockdown. Inform is informing the authorites about what's going on if it's safe to do so. I'm not going into details about the other steps as they are literally Run Hide Fight and Avoid Deny Defend which i'm getting into now.
Run/Avoid
So, one thing or another you've found yourself in an active shooter/assailant situation whether it be a school, shopping mall, store, courthouse, or even hospital! The first thing you do, is where are the shots coming from?
This might be hard and the first thing you must determine is if there is indeed a threat. Once upon a time, a Walmart that was way down the road from us had to evacuate because someone thought the sound of someone popping BUBBLE WRAP was gunfire. I mean, yeah we used to live in a bad city but what you are going to look for is repeated, loud, bangs akin to fireworks.
One bang? Something fell.
Multiple? And there's screams? People running? Yup, there's a shooter!
Now, first off back to the "where is the shooter" thing, it might be hard because shots echo but determining the rough location of the shooter will determine whether it's safe or if you need to run.
Everything I've watched has made things about this step clear on Running or Avoiding the attack. When you walk into the building, make a note of potential exits that isn't the main one you walked into. During the Aurora Colorado Movie Theater shooting people in the showrooms run through the halls (and into the path of the shooter) trying to get to the front exit ignoring/forgetting the emergency fire exits located in every showroom.
Oh, which reminds me. If for some reason the shooter is behind you or sounds like he is, run in a zig-zag pattern as it is significantly harder to hit a target that is moving side to side.
Hide/Deny
So, either the shooter is close by or you have determined that there are no available viable exit routes or options.
What do you do? You find a room (preferably with a locking door) and barricade yourselves in. Anything can make a suitable hiding place, things like closets, classrooms, and patient rooms in hospitals, don't get me started on the possible hiding locations in a courthouse. If the door opens inwards, you can barricade the door by placing desks or furniture on top of each other alternating between the right side up and upside down.
Only assist the injured if safe to do so, the few videos I've watched that have covered what to do in hospital settings have made it clear you do NOT help the injured unless it's safe to do so or the event is over. You can always come back to them and you can't exactly help them if you're dead.
If an option, you can place the tables or chairs in such a way that it stretches from the door to the wall.
I've seen videos demonstrating that if you're in a small one-toilet bathroom like the family bathrooms from the Walmart type deal you lay down, put your feet against the door, hands on the wall behind you, and push back essentially turning yourself into a human doorstopper and deny access to your location.
Make sure you also know the difference between cover and concealment. Concealment would be you hiding under a table or behind a chair, things that block the shooter's line of sight but not their bullets. Cover is things like concrete pillars, things that block both line of sight and bullets.
Back on barricading, door opens outwards? You can use a belt or tie or something like that to tie the mechanical arm on the inside together and pull it tight.
Meanwhile, you and any others in the room are looking around for any improvised weapons.
Books? Scissors? Potted Plants? Your own hands? All viable options. A lot of the videos i've seen demonstrated people straight up using a local fire extinguisher to either spray the foam in their eyes or better yet (and more effective) clocking them upside the head.
Whatever it is, you and the others need to make a plan for "what do i do if the shooter enters my safe space" which leads to...
FIGHT/DEFEND
The sound of the gunfire is getting closer and closer.
Maybe your door doesn't lock or it's not barricaded properly.
Whatever it is, the shooter is getting into your location and you need to act.
Like I've stated in Hide/Deny, you're going to want to start planning on this ahead of time before the shooter walks in.
You need to grab weapons, like I've said, literally ANYTHING can be used as such. Scissors, brooms, fire extinguishers, go all "An apple a day keeps anyone away if you throw it hard enough" on weapon philosophy.
You're going to want to talk it out with others in your room, decide who might throw stuff in the attacker's face as a distraction, which ones of you might run and physically hit him, which ones will wrestle the gun out of his hands, and which ones will pin him down and restrain him until the SWAT team gets there. The fight will be brutal and you WILL be defending your life; everything I've seen states one thing and that is you have the legal right to defend yourself. You might be in a fight to the death and who will it be? You? Or the attacker?
Your attack needs to hinge on surprise, hide behind a corner so you can jump out at them and catch them off their guard.
Critical spots you're going to want to aim for or the face or head. Yes, I am once again bringing up the idea of clocking them upside the head with a hard object, multiple times, what better way to take out the threat than to leave it unconscious with head trauma? If going for the face go for the eyes or nose.
Hell, stab their eye out with a fork in a fashion that belongs in the music video for Panic! At The Disco's Say Amen (or Black Butler), or break their nose and leave it shattered and bleeding.
While on the head, I think I once heard one tip that involves slamming your hands (like you're clapping and his hands are in between it) on his ears to discombobulate and disorient him.
Go for the groin, if male a hard enough kick (or someone even stabbing it) his manhood will dissorient him enough to dissarm him. If woman well, a kick to the groin still hurts too.
Knees make a good option to get the shooter down and on the floor. A hard enough kick or hit to the sides, front, or for maximum effectiveness, go for the back of them will send the shooter to the floor and most likely knock the weapon out of their hands.
Again, the fight will absolutely be tough but you also need to know it's either him or you and everyone else in that room.
After the attacker is disarmed, sit on him.
Place his hands on his back or if you have the people have them sit on the arms and hold both of them down.
Make sure you don't forget about the legs too, those need to be pinned.
And whatever you do, for the love of god DON'T PICK UP THE FREAKING GUN!!! (outside of maybe kicking it away or using a cloth to pick it up and put it in a trash can until SWAT arrives)
I remember very visibly one Run Hide Fight video (I think this one was published on a YouTube channel called eMotivate Media and the setting for this one was a courthouse) that should SWAT storm that room with that gun in your hands their training is to neutralize the threat... do you really wanna have multiple high powered rounds lodged inside your body? Yeah, that's what I thought so, or really what was the point of any of this?? Also, contamination of evidence.
So, I think I've got the basics of Run Hide Fight, and Avoid Deny Defend.
You've either run, hidden, or have fought off an active shooter.
Now, I'd like to direct your attention to a Sandy Hooks Promise video called "Evan"
Evan is a very bored teen. One day in the library he writes on his desk that he is bored.
Someone has carved back "HI BORED" and the teen writes back and forth with the stranger, communicating solely by desk carving but when he writes "WHO ARE YOU" and comes back the next day, the library is closed for the rest of the school year.
Oh no! Thankfully, the two find each other and laugh about it (and maybe fall in love) over their Yearbooks when they pick them up.
A fellow student walks in and starts shooting.
While we were focusing on Evan, you don't notice the student in the background reading gun magazines, or making violent gestures, or when Evan's scrolling through his social media and scrolling right on past a picture of the student posing with a couple of posters.
While focusing on Evan, you missed all the warning signs. And so, fellow Tumblr users I leave you with this.
Prevention is important, be kind to others, and please report any worrying behavior or possible signs of mental illness. Sometimes these shooters are just ill (most of them are not though, don't get me wrong, they absolutely know what they were doing) but if that mental health clinic had contacted James Huberty back when he was suffering from undiagnosed mental illnesses a few days before he suited up, looked at his wife on the sofa and said "I'm going hunting humans" before shooting up a McDonalds would it have happened?
If Charles Whittman, the Texas Tower Sniper merely had a psychiatrist or doctor listen to him and take him seriously when he was trying to seek help for these violent, sudden intrusive thoughts he had, would he have become known as the Texas Tower Sniper?
Now, don't get me wrong Charles Whittman absolutely knew what he was doing and could tell right from wrong, I also can't help but think of the big tumor they found in his brain that pressed right up against the area of the brain in a way that has been known to cause violent, impulsive thoughts on other recorded cases as well as the compulsion to write which we can tell from Charles's diaries he certainly had that. While some debate over whether or not the cancer affected his behavior or actions and while I think it doesn't absolve him of his actions... I mean, it's still a pretty sizeable tumor in his brain and anyone who has been through watching a relative with certain types of brain cancer will tell you that their personality just changes one day.
Be the help a potential shooter might be, don't become a maybe.
So which, I leave you with this quote.
"An active shooter event always starts as just another day"
1 note · View note
junebugwriter · 1 year
Text
Isolation and Community
I have a problem with isolation, and so much of it is self-imposed. Then again, sometimes it's... not.
I think most trans and queer folks deal with isolation to some degree or another. Being a marginalized identity comes coupled with isolation almost by default. But sometimes it's hard to tell if that isolation is because you are LGBTQ+, or if it's because of something deeper.
I've been wrestling with my sense of isolation in therapy (which you all should do, therapy good, especially with a good therapist). I would identify myself as a shy, introverted person, and my partner would largely agree. I do have to work up the energy to deal with people a lot more than she does. Some of that can't be helped. You have to guard your energy, whether you're introverted or extroverted.
But going through my past, I see patterns that keep me isolated. For one, not knowing you are trans until you are much older can make you feel extremely awkward as a young one. Knowing you don't quite fit in with "the boys," while hanging out with "the girls" makes you seem odd and out of place, can do a doozy on your brain. I'd go between friend groups, but never really feel like I was being seen or understood as I knew I could be.
This goes in tandem with my ADHD. I have an EXTREME fear of rejection, which heightens any and all rejection to ludicrous extents. I could keenly sense when I would lose people's attention or inclusion. I never could tell why that was, of course. I'd try to do what my teachers and parents would tell me: to be myself.
But myself wasn't wanted. At least that was what it felt like. So I began to... mimic people. Try to act more like the likeable people did. Which netted some positive results, sure, but it was another layer of artifice. I began to see myself as a cipher, a collection of traits that weren't really mine but a tapestry of the likeable things I saw in others.
Soon enough, I was even less able to look at myself in the mirror. Who even was I? What made me... me? Standard teen navel-gazing, sure. If you don't have some kind of grappling with your ego at that age, then what even are you doing? However, that navel-gazing never stopped. I didn't know who I was. And at some point... I stopped asking the question, because the answers were never something I could directly look at. Like a light that's too bright, I had to look away, hide it under a veneer or respectability or likeability. I began to hide myself, because I realized that me being TOO MUCH myself was off-putting for others. So my self began to die.
However, as a result of this hiding of myself, I wound up being the most isolated I've ever been. Now, part of that is because growing up, you lose touch with the friends and community you build up over adolescence, as is natural. Yet because I wasn't ever to feel confident in myself, and unable to shake the feeling that EVERYTHING I did was artificial, it left me hollower and hollower over the years.
Pretty soon, the only person who ever got to see me be truly ME was my partner. Life changed, I went back to do my PhD, but I was never able to make the kind of community I did back in Master's studies. And then the pandemic hit. And I had a job doing night audit at a hotel, which is great for my studies and for writing, but garbage at making or keeping friends.
Until this past October. I had my gender epiphany, and suddenly all those walls I had built up over the years were starting to come down, brick by brick. I was able to look inside and see the real me for the first time in actual decades. I was able to see that inside was someone beautiful, someone worth getting to know. And sure enough, I allowed myself to show the real me to others, and I'm actually beginning to make friends again. I'm building up a small little community, like I did in college. I'm showing the true me to others and instead of being rejected... I'm feeling accepted.
It's a big step. I realize being trans isn't a cure for being lonely. I'll still feel lonely, as everyone does. But I'm learning how to let my light shine, for the first time in my life, and liking what that light looks like. Re-examining my life in the context of being trans is like when you go to the eye doctor and you sit in the chair where they show you an image through a bunch of different lenses, and then there's one big CLICK and suddenly, something falls into place, and I am able to see everything correctly for the first time. No, my eyes aren't perfect, but the thing that was missing that would help the world make sense is now a part of the picture, and I can begin to see not only the world, but myself for the first time.
Now that I am beginning to be able to see myself clearly in the mirror, not only am I finding community, community is finding me. People are starting to see me for me, and excited to have me be a part of their community too. It's new, sure, and I'm only just starting down the path. But it is exciting to see that the future is there, and I won't be alone. I won't be isolated. Sure, others will never see the real me. But there will be some who do.
And for those that do? I'm excited to be in their community, just to be a part of it.
1 note · View note