#what if I wrote about 2pm more....??? for the 5 hottest that are still on Tumblr lmao

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Taecyeon..I mean...😏🤤

SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGGGSSSSS

every so often I get lost in a daydream involving taecyeon fucking me in a headlock....and that's the energy that pornstar!taec would embody, imo. a rough fuck but he's incredibly kinda and sweet—fucks you like he loves you, no matter how rough he is, taecyeon is incredibly sensual, from his touches, kisses and the motion of his cock; his every move is calculated and with intent....maybe he wants you to fall in love....

also.... long, veiny cock..avg girth w a brown shaft n slightly pink tip #yeah

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2PM’s Wooyoung GQ Korea Interview English Translation

2PM Jang Wooyoung said, “I have been living like crazy”

Wooyoung who has live hard, knows how to be quiet. That’s why he is smart and tough like hot half heated steel.

Q: You are doing a lot of monitoring while photo shooting. Is there any change before and after the army?

W: My face didn’t change much. It’s actually amazing how I am able to do a photo shoot so soon after I came back from the army.

Q: I am sure there are more things you wanted to do.

W: My mind is unstable when I have a break. What are going to do? How should I live? All kinds of thoughts came into my mind. In order not to waste time, I started writing down my thoughts. At first, there were lots of things that were embarrassing to me but slowly, it got better. In addition, I looked back to my relationships and how I lived. I thought about how I lived so that I won’t repeat my mistakes.

Q: I can feel how determine you are.

W: In the army, there were many friends who are younger than me. When I asked them about their concerns, they usually replied, “You have done it already. So you don’t know how we feel” We may have different start off but our fear to start something new is the same. To be honest, I was more scared when I started to run for my dream at 17, 20.

Q: At 32 years old, what do you think is the advantage?

W: For teenagers, no matter how you spend your twenty, I think you are given a chance to live with a better life. You can say you have grown up and you can look back to your past experiences and mistakes to become a more steadily and better than before. Adding in your spirit from the twenties, you will love it.

Q: What kind of person is Jang Wooyoung in his twenties?

W: It was filled in so quickly and I was so busy pouring out as it was filled.

Q: It’s a job where you have to keep showing more to the public. You have been working hard.

W: My twenties can be divided into first and second half with five years intervals. Since debut, I have been working really hard. At that time, we always used the term “Murder schedule” a lot and by its name, it wasn’t wrong at all. Thanks to the busy workload. When will I ever get a chance to work like that? I gained a lot of strength and money for all my efforts. However, when I turned 25, I got confused. I wasn’t living in my life. I thought about quitting and moving back to Busan, my hometown.

Q: But it didn’t happen.

W: There’s only one thing that proved my existence and it gave me determination, “I am a member of 2PM. Do not betray 2PM.” But from then on, the meaning of “Let’s work hard” has changed. I want to play hard, meet a lot of people, and learn how to paint and many other things without harming anyone. I want to feel and experiences as much as I can to wake up my inner senses. I have been living like crazy.

Q: You expressed your feelings in the song “I Like” in your second album? In the lyrics, “I am curious and want to know about everything in this world.”

W: That’s right. It’s an emotionally affectionate song but then, every time I listen to it again, I laughed. I thought if I should have been too honest when I wrote the song lyrics. On the other hand, I actually feel sorry for Jang Wooyoung back then.

Q: These days, what makes you feel curious?

W: Good ways to do my laundry. Haha.

Q: I saw in the video interview that you are into laundry.

W: I am trying to improve my living skills. I am going to do the laundry by myself without any help.

Q: 5 years after the release of 2PM’s ‘My House’, are you curious as to why there is a sudden regain in popularity?

W: I am really grateful for it. This is what I think. It’s not like 2PM didn’t do anything to regain the popularity. At the beginning, we were just men in our early twenties performing real difficult stage performances. We danced, sang and did acrobatics. Then as we started to lose some energy, we did some straightforward love songs. We started to go into sad love songs and started to talk about love with our eyes. Then we reached “My House”. In a natural way, we were like children finally grew up and became mature great lovers. There was a comment which I saw that said, “I am a fan now, I am sorry” I think people are finally realizing what 2PM was doing. I am really thankful for that.

Q: 13 years after your debut, how does it feel to have people who just got to know about 2PM?

W: Of course, they can do that. The trend and flow in the industry goes really fast. It takes a lot of effort to grab people’s attention from all the competition. All the sudden, we regained the spotlight with “My House”. Also, it is during our hiatus, I think this is a miracle.

Q: Instead of “My House”, if you are to sing it again, which song some into your mind?

W: I want to sing “Without U” with all my energy. Ten years ago, I am in charge if the “crying out loud” part of the song but there was a problem with my vocal cord in the performance. My condition wasn’t good so I need to do a lip sync for that part. It’s shame that I couldn’t sing it properly on the stage.

Q: 2PM has reached the top of the industry and got recognized for their skills. What’s their position in Korea?

W: Well, I can’t think of anything other than the words, ‘Korean Idols’. During the journey, not everything has been smooth sailing but I feel proud (of being a Korean idol).

Q: I heard that the group name means the hottest time of the day at 2:00 in the afternoon. When was Jang Wooyoung the hottest?

W: In 2013, we performed in Germany for the celebration of the 130th anniversary between the relation of Korea and Germany. I saw senior Lee Mi Ja and was surprised by her rehearsal performance. It was so lively and amazing. Looking at myself, I am still struggling hard to sing well. I have no choice but to tell myself, “Jang Wooyoung, have some faith and work hard.”

Q: Your personality seems to be the kind that want to learn things by facing it yourself? I heard that you went to visit Choi Baek Ho who you have never met and wanted to talk about music after watching a documentary.

W: This was when I was having my puberty in my twenties. After watching senior Choi Baek Ho’s documentary, I was comforted by him. However, my frustration didn’t go away. So I got his number and called him because I want to know how he did music for such long time. The first time I met him, he said to me, “The more I live, the better it will be. Just like the songs that were sang in my 40s were more beautiful than when I sang in my 30s. They are heading towards perfection “The moment I hear this, it was like a direct bullet shot.

Q: In a way, there can be occasions where you would give advice to someone in a similar situation. Do you have any experience with that?

W: There were some juniors who I danced with in Busan, where they were dreaming about debuting one day. Maybe I have being selfish. Since my debut, I haven’t really talk to them about it in a hopeful way. When I passed my audition with JYPE, I asked my sister if I should give it up while crying. I really don’t want them to suffer like I did. I had a hard time with my body and mind. However, I have changed my mind now. If you are really desperate for your dream and have the confident to fight within yourself, then go for it. But you will be very exhausted, so I am telling you to think carefully about it.

Q: They say that you really insisted on auditioning with JYPE. Can you still remember when you first won the open audition?

W: I think it was my 6th audition. If I fail again, I will just keep trying. Sometimes, I will go back and look at the videos back then but it is both good and sad. I looked really tired on the screen. If only I could take a step back and see the reality, I would have been a much stronger kid.

Q: What did you do very well in your life?

W: When I am dating, I never measure or calculate in the relationship. I like her so much that I don’t take notice of what’s going on around me and then I suffered a lot of pain when we broke up. I regretted it and I know it wasn’t good way to date but I couldn’t help it. However, that experience formed who I am now so I don’t regret it anymore.

Q: How important is love in your life?

W: If people are consider as number one, then love is number zero. It’s such a vague concept and I have difficulty expressing love properly. However, I do feel love through people.

Q: In 3 days, it will be your birthday. By imagination, is there a happy gift for yourself?

W: While I was in the army, our company moved buildings. The building is now bigger and the facilities are better. The practice rooms are really nice, too. It would be nice if I can have my own space where I can practice dancing all day without concerns. Really.

Q: Let’s appeal. How much do you think 2PM has contributed to the new JYPE’s building?

W: I think it is quite a bit. It’s a 9 storey building, so maybe about 4.5 storeys?

Credits and English translation @jlml718

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[Interview Transcription] 190302 [FujiNext] NICHKHUN Premium Solo Concert ‘HOME’ - Nichkhun’s Special Interview

Interviewer: Congratulations on your first solo debut and first concert.

Nichkhun: Thank you.

Interviewer: How do you feel when you hold your first solo concert, your first project?

Nichkhun: It was actually because of me that this started. I promised my fans on stage at Tokyo Dome that I would have a solo album out when my members go off to the army. That’s how it started. I think, 2018 around March, we had the first meeting about this album, how we wanted to do this album, how many countries it was going to be released in. It started from there.

Actually, at first, I didn’t really get the feel of me having a solo album. I was just like, Okay. I need to write some songs and get ready. As time went by, I started to feel that it’s coming closer to the deadline and the concerts as well. 

I was so nervous. I was so worried. I was shaking all the time at the thought of me standing up there on stage by myself after all these years, after 10 years of performing with 5 other guys. 

That thought really shook me to the core. Can I do this? Can I do it well? Is my performance and my concert going to be good and enjoyable? Is it going to be boring and mediocre? I didn’t want that so I had to prepare myself a lot for this concert and this album.

Interviewer: Did you tell other 2PM members and did they say anything?

Nichkhun: Yes. Well, in the process of making this album, I tried not to talk to them too much because I didn’t want to get ideas from them. I wanted to make it my own album. That’s why I wanted to call it ME. It’s just the songs that I like, the songs that I would listen to on a daily basis. 

When I was making it, I didn’t think about what people would want me to sing for them. I was thinking about what I wanted to sing for the people if they wanted to listen.

I am satisfied with how it turned out. I am not saying it’s the best album out there and I am not saying it’s the best I could do. But it’s all I could do right now and I am really satisfied with the result.

Interviewer: How is your family’s reaction?

Nichkhun: My mom is really proud. That makes me even more proud of myself for being able to do that. She came to my concert every day, every time. She looked really happy. That makes me really happy. It gives me the drive, the inspiration to keep improving myself and making better music and performance. I have a great job. What can I say? = ]

Interviewer: As you were saying, the solo project shows a different side of you from when you are with 2PM. How do you want Nichkhun as a solo artist to be perceived?  

Nichkhun: For many years, we have been called the Beastly Idol. It’s a good title to have. It’s very unique and only we can pull it off. But as a solo artist, the style of songs I listen to is very different from what 2PM music is. As an individual solo artist, I wanted to showcase my style of music and what I like.

That’s why during the meeting about this concert, the first thing that popped into my mind, something that I can do different from other guys in 2PM is instruments, the piano and guitar. I didn’t know how to play that well at that point but I learned for this album and this concert. So that came into my mind and I always wanted to become a musician.

I grew up in Thailand and we don’t have a lot of idol groups. We mostly have bands, jamming live music and everyone is enjoying, singing along, and dancing to rock songs. That was what I wanted to do and I am glad I got the chance to do it. The preparation for this concert… I think I have practised more than I ever practised for any concert ever.

On Lucky Charm

Nichkhun: Lucky Charm was one of the first songs that I wrote with these 2 guys called Hot Sauce. They are a composer group, a duo. I tried to make it very easy-listening. I tried to write the lyrics so that it’s not so easy to understand or interpret. I wanted it to be a song you want to listen to in the morning or right before you fall asleep.  

Before Lucky Charm became the title song of this album, Lucky Charm was competing with Bridge. Because I’m 2PM, I’m supposed to be doing something fast, a little energetic. But I told my company that if I were to go with Bridge, it would be no difference between when I’m in 2PM and when I’m not in 2PM. So I said Lucky Charm would describe me the best. I would like to go with Lucky Charm.

I put a lot of ideas and thoughts in the music video. We made it happen which I am really happy about.

On playing the guitar

Nichkhun: It started off because of Lucky Charm. I wanted to be able to play Lucky Charm on the guitar and sing at the same time. This was even before I was thinking about this concert. So I was learning from one of the Hot Sauce guys. He’s the guy who played the guitar on the track.

I thought to myself that the fans have seen me play the piano so many times. It would be a little boring if I would just sit there and play the piano the whole time. I wanted to add a little more flavour to this concert. So I learned a couple more songs. I have been practising until now. I still practise every day.

When you play instruments and sing at the same time, you only have one brain and you have to think about the chords, the placement, the lyrics, the tune, the pitch of the song. So it’s a lot going at once. I have to make sure that these (raising his fingers) know the song, not this (pointing at his head).

But I’m still not there yet. (laugh) I still have to think so much when I play.

Interviewer: And you also have to think about your expression too.

Nichkhun: Yes. I can’t be like this (focusing on the piano) the whole time because they are watching me. So it’s a lot of things at once that I have to do.

That’s why this concert is not physically tiring but it’s tiring all up here (pointing his brain).

But it’s really fun. It’s fun to be able to play your own music, perform it, and sing it at the same time. Watching the fans enjoying it is one of the best feelings.  

On Umbrella

Nichkhun: Umbrella was one of the last songs I wrote. I got the track from Song Jiwook hyung. He thought of me when he wrote this track and he sent it to me. As I was listening to it, I was like, Should I make this romantic? The first title that came to my mind was Candles. But that’s too much of a cliché.  

So I thought I have Let It Rain for many years and no next step after that. So I said to myself, Umbrella. That’s how I started writing the lyrics after I thought about Umbrella.

It’s a form of saying Thank you, expressing my gratitude to the fans that have been with me for so many years, forever, through good times and hard times. They are always there for me. I just wanted to give them something back. 

I even shot a very simple music video for it. I’m glad the fans like it because that day was like a whole day of me walking around and the camera following me. It was a very fun day. This song is very special to me. I’m sure it will be special to Hottest as well.

In Let It Rain, I was hiding under their umbrella. Now I will be the man. I will be your umbrella. I will protect you.

On Home

Nichkhun: Home, the intro song on the album, was the last song that I wrote. We were talking about the title of the tour and the title of the album. I thought let’s make it simple. I was going to call it THIS or THAT. This album can be THIS album and the next album can be THAT album. (laugh)

This album is personal and it’s about me. So why not call it ME? The word HOME has ME at the end as well. I was going to design something that showed HO and ME on the bottom. But that didn’t come out. (laugh) 

On the design with the crown, the eye, and the word ME, the eye was going to be an O and I was going to put an H on the crown, so it would be HOME. But it’s just a little too much.

When I decided to call this tour HOME, that’s when I thought I need to have a track called Home which will be the opening of this tour. That’s why in the track, there’s the sound of a door opening. I was planning on doing that during the concert as well.      

On live music

Nichkhun: I think music should be played live and should be listened to live. It’s more lively, energetic, and enjoyable. You can feel the vibration of each instrument in your bones when you listen to it. I really enjoy going to jazz bars or live cafes. Those places where you just sit there and watch them perform. They seem happy. I want to be that person.

This time I asked the bandmaster… He’s a bass player. Very new. Usually, it’s either piano or guitar. I asked him to rearrange some of the songs. I told him, Just make it close to the original but you can do whatever you want with it. You guys are like the main attraction of this concert. So you guys do you. Be cool. Do whatever you want to do with this music. And they did such a good job. I’m very happy. When I am on stage, I’m listening to my own music but I feel like I am a fan watching them play on stage. It’s cool.

Interviewer: They play the introduction when you come out of the door. And also when you change in between, it would have the music video on for Lucky Charm but they play a different version. I think the fans really love it.

Nichkhun: That actually was my idea. I didn’t want the music to stop. It’s a concert. People should be here for music, not for a video. And I wanted it to keep going. So I asked the band, Can you play this live? I have to change and redo my hair. And I don’t know how long it’s going to take. So can you play until I come out? (laugh) On the first day in Osaka, I came out really late. They were playing the music and looking around for me wondering, Is he going to come out? (laugh)

It’s not repetitive because it’s live. They just keep going with whatever they feel like doing. That’s why it’s special. I really enjoy that part. When I am changing, I have my in-ear in. I’m just listening to them play. People would be like, Hurry Up! Change! and I’m like, OK. Sorry. Sorry. (laugh)

Interviewer: And when you do come out, they are still playing. You hold your hand up as a signal for them to stop playing.

Nichkhun: I want this concert to be as natural as possible. Not like, OK. I’m going to perform now. Tada~! I wanted it to be like, Oh he’s here. When is he going to play? Oh he’s playing. I wanted it to be as natural as possible. I want the viewers to not be nervous or wondering when is he going to come out.

I want them to enjoy. I want them to have time to enjoy everything; the atmosphere, me on stage, or the music when I am not on stage. I want them to enjoy everything. If it’s like always after one song, dark! It’s not continuous.

I would love to try to do something that is deeper, something that is more sophisticated. But because of the skills that I have, I am not there yet. (laugh) I have a lot of good ideas but I am not able to express it out into music. Even with drawing as well, I have a lot of good ideas in my head. But when I draw, it looks like crap. (laugh) I have a lot of good ideas but I can’t make it into a thing yet.

Until then, I have to keep learning; the piano, the guitar, how to compose songs by myself, how to make tracks by myself. Right now, I am getting tracks from other composers and writers. And I am writing the melodies and the lyrics on top of that. Or in some songs, I played the piano myself or made the melodies myself and then I go to the composers and ask them, Can you make this track for me in this way?

A lot of things to be challenged. It’s going to be a busy year. I am sure I am going to have a lot of other jobs alongside in different countries. So it’s not going to be easy.  

I am aiming to release another album maybe at the end of next year. We will see. I have to make it good. I don’t want to make it mediocre just because I want to release an album. I want to make an album that I am satisfied with.          

Interviewer: Any new instruments?

Nichkhun: Not for now. No please. (laugh) I want to learn the drums. It looks really cool and playing it releases your stress. But not yet. Maybe later.    

On asking for advice or help from other 2PM members 

Nichkhun: It’s something that you can’t ask anyone for help. You have to figure it out yourself. It’s all in here. It’s not like, I just work out and everything will be fine. Or I just take some supplement and I will be fine. It’s not like that. It’s something you have to take care of it yourself. You have to solve it yourself.  I get nervous every time before I go on stage or before I do a song that I’m not that comfortable with, a song that is kind of hard for me. So I didn’t really ask them for advice. 

This time (in Tokyo) I have to do 3 days. I went to see JUNHO THE BEST. He did 3 days as well. He told me, Be careful. On your second day, don’t go all out. (laugh) Just go slow and then you can go all out on your last day. I was like, Okay. I got you. Because I went to see him on the last day and he was like, The second day was better because I went all out. (laugh) But he was still good. He sent me some fruits. He’s a really cute guy.

Interviewer: We want to ask you for your 3 top favourite 2PM songs. It can be any songs that were released in Korea and Japan.

Nichkhun: First, always, is Heartbeat. It was the song that was a turning point for 2PM. Second, for some reasons, I like 想像してみて (Imagine). It was the opening for our last tour (Galaxy of 2PM). Wooyoung was the one who wrote it and designed the costumes for us. It hypes you up. When you hear the drums, Oh it’s going to happen now. 

Number 3 is a hard one. I like 離れていても and 一緒に過ごした時間 (Time Spent Together). I think I would have to pick 2 for this last one. They are both really meaningful to the fans as well. It describes the relationship between us 2PM, and Hottest as well. These are my top 3. But there are so many good songs.                      

On plans for the future

Nichkhun: Right now, I am just working towards the comeback of 2PM. That’s all I am aiming for right now. I am trying to be a better artist altogether; singing, dancing, instruments, composing, everything. I am conditioning myself for 2PM when we have a comeback. That’s all I am aiming for right now. After that, I am not sure.

When we come back as 2PM, we will probably do a tour, in Japan, in Asia, maybe in the world too if possible. But that’s all I am aiming for right now in the future. I can’t wait for it to happen.        

Interviewer: And your fans too.

Nichkhun: Yes. I am sure my fans are waiting for that moment. Every time I see other idol groups on TV, I miss 2PM. Every time I am on stage or hearing a 2PM’s song, I miss 2PM. I am just waiting for that day. It’s going to come and it’s going to be epic. It’s going to be great.  

Message to his fans

Nichkhun: Thank you. Thank you for always loving and supporting me; whether it’s good, whether it’s bad, whether it’s just okay. With the love that you give me, I’m not going to take it for granted. I’m going to try to improve myself always.

I’m going to be a better artist for you guys so be patient with me. These things take time. The next time I come back to sing or perform for you, you will see me as a new person, a better person. Thank you. = ]

[Transcription by Daffodil0624]

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[trans] Special Interview with Junho

Special Interview with Junho (Interview conducted in October 2018)

(SASUGA HOTTEST vol.18 10th Anniversary Special Issue)

  On the 7th mini-album SOUZOU

 -- The album topped both Oricon’s Daily and Weekly rankings. What significance has this album become to hold for you as a solo artist?

 JUNHO: First of all, I must say it made me very happy because this was the first time for me to have an album topping the weekly chart, which actually has been one of my dreams since my debut. I’m happy that I could make a wonderful memory together with all my fans with this album. In terms of my artistic career, this work gave me a chance to think more consciously about what kind of music I would like to create from now on.

 -- You’ve expressed that you wrote “Across Time” in this album as a song that can remind us of your relationship with Hottests. Can you tell us more about your thoughts and feelings about this song?

 J: I wanted to dedicate this song to all Hottests, whom I won’t be able to see for a short long while, hoping for the day we could meet again to come soon. I will come back quickly.

  On the solo tour “JUNHO (From 2PM) Solo Tour 2018 ‘FLASHLIGHT’”

 -- What did this tour mean to you? Looking back on the tour, what has left you a strong impression?

 J: I always feel a bit of dissatisfaction whenever I have a tour. I feel that there must be something more I could have done. But I always do my best with all my might. It really makes me sad that this was the last summer tour for now. I hope to go on and have more of our summer we have been feeling for 6 years. And of course, what I remember most should naturally be your cheers I received on stage.

  2PM has celebrated its 10th anniversary this year. Here are 10 questions to look back on the 10 years after debut.

 Q.1  How do you feel about having spent the 10 years as JUNHO from 2PM?

 J: I think I’ve been working really hard. We still have so many dreams we want to make it happen as 2PM. We’ve been through a lot, and we’ve got to know a lot of people. These 10 years have made me think a lot about life.

 Q.2  What do you think is your position in 2PM?

 J: An all-round player. (laugh)

 Q.3  What are the differences between musical activities and acting jobs?

 J: The only difference is your approach to the ways you express feelings. As an artist, music and acting are in the same field.

 Q.4  Which song is most memorable among the songs by 2PM?

 J: It’s “Heartbeat” because we’ve performed it countless times.

 Q.5  It’s been 10 years since your debut. When do you feel you have grown up?

 J: I feel a little grown up now that I have some room to breathe time-wise, but I don’t really want to confront the fact that I have grown up. (laugh)

 Q.6  Then, which part of you is not going to change forever?

 J: My enthusiasm to make my dreams come true. I hope this is never going to change.

 Q.7  What kind of artist would you have become ten years from now?

 J: I wonder what I would be doing. If I could have concerts and meet my fans like this and work as an actor at the same time like I’m doing now, there would be nothing more I wish for. And of course, that’s what I would try to be doing.

 Q.8  What kind of 2PM can we expect when 2PM makes a come-back with all six of you?

 J: I believe we will be much cooler and dashing!

 Q.9  When do you feel 2PM is indispensable to you?

 J: All the time. I don’t feel lonely when I’m with my members.

 Q.10 A message to the Hottests who are reading this fan club newsletter.

 J: I’m very happy to be able to see you like this, and my heart pounds when I think about seeing you again. Let’s continue to see each other a lot from now on, too! I’m always grateful to you, and I love you, our Hottests.

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8 months later part 5 (last part)

Hi!! So time for the last part of the story and the time when the most of your questions (hopefully) will be responded. If you wonder something after this part, send me a message and I promise I’ll answer. To all of you that wrote “that can’t happen” after the last chapter, I’m sorry but I don’t really think anything that happens in my story happened in reality. I just love to write and got some inspiration and decided to post it on the internet. I’m a songwriter and now a author. I hope that at least some of you enjoyed this story and will like this last part too.

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Part 1: http://jackieswift.tumblr.com/post/156452687077/8-months-later

Part 2: http://jackieswift.tumblr.com/post/156496810142/8-months-later-part-2?is_related_post=1

Part 3: http://jackieswift.tumblr.com/post/156540347947/8-months-later-part-3?is_related_post=1

Part 4: http://jackieswift.tumblr.com/post/156592376592/8-months-later-part-4?is_related_post=1

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*Taylor’s pov*

I opened up my eyes. I felt like crap. But there he was. The love of my life sat right in front on me. He smiled and a his eyes started tearing up. I was really confused. What the hell? He didn’t even like me. So what is he doing here? I looked around and saw that I was in a hospital bed. “You’re….omg...I love you so much” he sad and almost laid down on me. He hugged me. I bit my lip to hold the tears back. I wanted this more than anything in life. But this was too good to be true. I needed to know how he felt about me before I do something stupid. Before I kiss him and he gets mad and tell the story to a news paper. Maybe he did love me, but he always said “I will always love you, even though we aren’t together” so maybe that was what he meant right now. Or maybe this was something Gigi put him up to do, to get me in a better mood or something. I needed to do anything. I opened my mouth and the first thing that I could think of was “Who...who are you”. He looked really sad and asked “Don’t you recognize me?” I should tell him the truth. If I were a normal person I would, but now when I am “the famous Taylor Swift that every newspaper love making fun of” I couldn’t tell him my feelings, because I couldn’t let it all come out.

“No, I’m sorry…I guess I should. Are we married? Or are you my brother or something. Or you might be my best friend?” I tried saying with a serious voice. I really hoped he would say he’s my boyfriend or a good friend. Saying “I’m you ex” would just be really weird, or it would have been weird if I didn’t remember him. But at the same time it hit me, how would he respond when he found out the truth. For the second time in my life, I lied to him. I remembered pretty much everything. I remember when we wrote music together, when he cooked for me, how he flew to see my shows, even though he had already seen it a lot of times. How I was the most important person to him and that losing him was the worst thing that ever happened to me. I once felt “I can’t say hello to you and risk another goodbye” but right now I knew I might had ruin our relationship. What if he really loved me? Would he ever forgive me?

He asked me “Do you know who you are?” and my eyes started tearing up. Because I did, I knew exactly who I was but I was playing him, in hope to get him back. Was this why they all left me? Because I’m too dramatic? Is this something I’ve done before? A tear fell down from my face and I finally opened my mouth and quietly said “no”.

Adam grabbed my hand “I’m so sorry babe. I really wish I could….” he started before someone opened the door. My doctor stood there and just stared at us. “Adam may I ask you why you’re here? And Taylor I see you’re up” Adam and I looked at the doctor and then at each other. “Doc, can I talk with you for a minute?” Adam asked and the doctor nodded. They walked out of the room and closed the door.

I lay there for around 10 minutes before my doctor came back, this time without Adam. “Hey Taylor, I’m your doctor. Adam, you’re good friend just walked to your other friends. And I’m gonna examine you now” he stepped closer to me. He checked on the board that hung beside my bed. I had no idea of what it was, but I remember that I had seen one on Grey’s Anatomy.

My doctor asked “How are you feeling, Taylor?” It felt like he pointed out my name extra clear. Adam had probably told him that my memory was “gone”. I closed my eyes and let my body tell me about the pain for a moment. “Like crap” I then said. “You’ll be fine, I promise” he answered and started doing some tests on me.

*Adam’s pov*

I told the doctor that her memory was gone and that she couldn’t remember anything. I asked him if he knew something about this and he told me that he had to examine her before he could tell me anything. He tried to calm me down, but it was impossible to stay calm. The love of my life didn’t remember me.

I opened the door to find a really worried Austin and a already fallen asleep Gigi and Zayn. Austin run over to me and I opened my arms up for a hug. He hugged me and I could hear that he was crying. I looked up to Austin a lot, he always dared to tell the truth, show the right emotions and so on. We decided to to the cafeteria, and let Zayn and Gigi get some sleep, but also so I could fill him in.

At the time he finished his coffee I had told him the whole story and also the fact that I love her. When I said those words it was like his whole world light up. My connection with Austin was so special and getting to have him in my life again felt great. He always looked up to me, like he was my little brother. And I wanted to be the best person I could be, so he could have someone to look up to. Oh gosh that sounds like you’re 12, Adam, I thought to myself. I should cry and be all sad, but even though I am that on the inside, I’m happy on the outside, because this man makes me happy. He’s the funniest dude I’ve ever met. Having him here beside me on this day is the best gift I could have.

Next day

Taylor’s parents had landed, but no one could see her yet. The doctor told us we had to wait for a few more hours, because Taylor had slept ever since he was done with her examination. I filled her parents in on everything and they then drove to a hotel to get some sleep.

*Taylor’s pov*

I woke up and it didn’t feel as bad as it did the last time I had my eyes opened. I looked at the clock 2pm it stood. Wow had I slept that long? I stood up and then took away all the cables that were stuck on my body. My doctor came in when I almost was done. “Can I help you?” he asked. “I know you gave me that thing so I didn’t have to go up and pee, but I really feel like I have to do that now and also drink some water, and brush my teeths.” The doctor gave me a weird look. “Your friends and family really want to see you. Are you feeling ready for that?” he asked me. “Can I get some time to do all my stuff first?” I asked. And also thinking of the best way to tell Adam that I lied, I thought. “Yeah sure, I let them know you’re ready in half an hour.” he said and then walked out.

Someone knocked on my door and I was really nervous. Gigi opened the door and walked in. She sat down on my bed and said “Hey you, I’m one of your best friends.” I looked at her with a smile on my face. I tried not to laugh. “You and I have this great friendship, so great you even let me date your ex. But don’t worry, we are soooo over now.” she said with a smile on her face. I started giggling. “What? I have to let you know everything!” she said. “So who’s that gorgeous boy that were in my room last night?” I asked her. “That’s your, well you’re in love with him and he’s in love with you. But you can’t admit your feelings for each other. So instead of being together you both are miserable. But once you were together and then you guys were like the hottest couple on earth, then you broke up and gave that place to me and my boyfriend...” Gigi kept talking, but I couldn’t hear it. Adam is in love with me! “Gigi, do you mean he’s in love with me, like for real?” I asked her. “I never told you my name!” she said and I was revealed. “Oh my God, Taylor Alison Swift!” she said out loud.

“I had to know if he loves me, before I said something stupid like I wanna spend the rest of my life with you” I said. “Oh my God, you wanna spend the rest of your life together with him?” she asked. “Yeah” I answered. “I had already figured that out, I just wanted to hear you say it, but that’s so sweet” she said. Then I remembered. I lied to him. He would never forgive me. “But I lied to him, so maybe I’ve lost him” I said with a sad voice. “Oh you could probably burn down his house and he would still love you” Gigi joked to make me feel better. But I had a pretty good feeling that he would be pissed off. “Can you tell them I’m alright?” I asked my best friend. “Yeah sure” she said and kissed my cheek one time before she walked away.

My parent came into my room next and told me how much they loved me and asked why I did this to myself. “Don’t you ever do that to yourself again, Taylor” my mother said when she hugged me. “I promise mom, I promise” I told her. “I think it’s time for us to let you and Adam talk for awhile. We’ll just be outside, so if you need anything just call our names” my mom said and kissed my forehead. “I love you” was all I answered.

When they closed the door Adam came inside. “I heard you got your memory back, huh” he said as he walked to my bed. “Yeah, Adam…” I start. “I have to be honest with you, even if that means I’ll lose you” he started. Oh crap, I had just lied to get him back and now he was ready to risk it all, just because he wanted to be honest. “I love you” I said before he had the chance to say anything. “What?” he asked. “Yeah, I love you Adam. More than anything in life” I said and my eyes started tearing up. I sat up and Adam sat down next to me. “I love you too” he said and run his hand through my hair. I leaned in against him. I hugged him tight and then pulled back a bit to be able to kiss him. His lips were soft and taste like home. “I love you so much. But I have to be honest” I said. Knowing that this might destroy my dream. “What is it Tay?” he asked with a concerned face expression. “I have to be honest. Please don’t hate me….but I lied to you. I did remember you and everything…” he started to look a bit sad. I didn’t want to destroy everything. My eyes started tearing up and I continued “but I couldn’t lose you. If I told you I loved you and you said you were seeing someone new or anything like that, it would have killed me. Seeing that you were typing to me was what got me here in the first place. Because Adam I love you so much. I can’t imagine you being with someone else. Because you should be with me. I’m sorry I lied to you. But please, give me another chance. Because I promise you that I’ll never lie to you again.”

He didn’t look so sad anymore. “I’m not gonna lie. You almost gave me a heartattack last night, but it’s okay. Because I can’t imagine spending my life with someone else. I can’t imagine waking up beside someone else, making love with someone else, having kids with someone else or anything” I blushed. “I love you more than words can describe, just promise you’ll never lie to me again.” he said. “I promise, I promise” I said. “Come under the blanket” I said. I layed down and he layed down next to me. Instead of kissing, making love or anything like that we just layed there, really close to each other and looked into the other person's eyes. Adam’s eyes were the most beautiful in the whole world and now I would get to see them almost every day. “Marry me” I could hear Adam whisperer. “What?” I said out loud. “Marry me” he said again. “Are you….” I start when he interrupt me “I love you here and now and I promise I always will, so Taylor Alison Swift, will you marry me?” My eyes once again started tearing up. “Yes, yes, yes, oh my God yes” I say and hug him.

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So what do you think? Was it an okay story for just being written on 5 days (one part each day)?