#what do u mean u deleted stuff bc u didn't like it WHAT R U TALKING ABT

[wttcsms]

torn between wanting @mochalate to post more fics and wanting her to never publicly show her work ever again because it's just a little too good. like, you cannot possible go back and read anyone else's writing after you have read anything she's written

[shuamorollss]

i hope im not too late for the mtl asks! if i am, you can delete this ^^

mtl in enha to like a physically affectionate s/o?

you're never too late anon :p i jgh from a 3 hour trip then decided to rest for the meantime, so i'm sorry for the late response T_T

i think we can all collectively agree that jake LOVES any forms of physical affection, so what more from his clingy personality than a dating someone who also loves physical affection. Yeah, he would love u so much, never missing a day without snuggling to his arms for an hour or two. 🥹

i feel like heeseung would be so denial about wanting to receive physical affection at first, like he'd be all "I'm not really a hugger" but after a week of dating him he'd be all "can you hug me pleasee? I miss you." SO YES i think he would absolutely LOVE A RLLY AFFECTIONATE S/O cause my man is NEEDY i just know it.

sunoo i think would love to have an affectionate s/o He loves any forms of physical affection but only couldn't tell by his reactions like you would hug him from the back out of nowhere and he'd just be so surprised and tell you to get off of him(subconsciously) and when you're about to unwrap your arms he pulls you back cause babyboy didn't mean to and still wants your embrace! 😭🫶

oh my god how do i even start jay's... same for heeseung he would be very denial abt wanting affection but would crave it from you after weeks of dating. He's such a sweet man, he might not say he likes it but he definitely shows that he wants it. Like you'd be walking around the living room and then he just loudly sighs and clears his throat whenever u pass by until you get to realize he wants you and then boom you guys r cuddling on the couch.. if only he just told u tbh...

sunghoon wouldn't say it out loud that he wants or loves it but deep inside he DOES he really does omfg. He thinks it's so so cute just immediately hugging him, kissing him on the cheek, and other stuff he loves it ALL.

jungwon would be eh about it he loves cuddling, he loves his face being caressed, he loves someone playing w his hair, and he would love it when his s/o also loves it as equally as him although he's also alright with an s/o who winces at any form of affection. He thinks either is cute but would like it a bit more if they're more affectionate.

ni-ki who i feel like would enjoy it, the backhugs, squeezing his cheek, and other cute stuff but it wouldn't really happen so often since he doesn't react to it 😭 only bc he's shy and doesn't know what to do but when it's him giving affection he'll definitely just keep u in his embrace

[ipoddymouth]

Wait bestie I want to know your thots on the matty healy being problematic thing he’s said a lot of weird/offensive stuff for sure but apparently some of that stuff is supposed to be satirical/ he’s an edge lord or whatever like the n*zi salute thing he did and it’s not a good thing to do no matter the context but I feel like it’s probably more harmful to call him a n*zi when he isn’t actually one it’s probably better to call that action antisemitic than a whole n*zi no?

wait gjargigjag you just basically summarized my thoughts but imma ramble more under the cut

i dont think matty is actually, truly, deep in his core racist or a n*zi (i'm also p sure he's given enough interviews explaining himself and his political ideologies bc he's annoying and never shuts the fuck up) BUT he also does say a bunch of shit on the side that doesn't help his case.

i think intent is a big issue in society in general bc it's like 'are you saying this shit to be funny? or are you saying this shit to be mean?' and people don't ask that question anymore. i remember when ariana dated pete and he made that joke about manchester and people were like 'he's disrespecting the dead!!' and, like, i can defs see where people are coming from for sure, and i can also see why he was like ???? in response to the backlash because his attention clearly wasnt to offend.

i will not lie and will fully admit that i am SENSITIVE lmao and there are some jokes in standup sets that i will straight up 😐 during bc i cannot separate the words from intent sometimes but im not going to say bill burr is a rape apologist or whatever because i sit and watch my silly lil 'offensive' robot chicken episodes without batting an eye. the problem with humor is that there will always be a faction that makes certain people uncomfortable. and that's okay!!!! not all of us (me included) need to watch cumtown or red scare because we will not find it funny!!! there's one drag queen who's yt videos my boyfriend cant watch bc he thinks she comes across mean even though i think the jokes hit!!!!

and to your second point i agreeeee like im black and grew up in a p white area so obviously people have said some SHIT to me, but that means you have to learn how to distinguish between someone being intentionally racist or someone being ignorant. i think matty says shit he thinks is funny because he's trying to be funny but the jokes themselves don't hit and just come across as....bizarre? rude??? multiple -ists???? but then he tries to explain himself and people (strangers to him) are either like 'fuck u this isnt sincere' or are just like 'but youre still wrong and horrible' and he just gets frustrated and deletes his socials in a lil baby fit gjlragjaglgj. and not to be a white apologist lmao BUT i kinda do understand why people turn to that 'anti-woke ideology' bc if every time i said something with poor phrasing and someone i didn't know called me a racist n*zi i'd probs go ape shit too.

there are real, actual n*zis like in real life who are actually trying to hurt people and people are pulling out all of their big gun ultra-bad labels for some scrawny boy band dude???? like what are we supposed to call the actual n*zis???????? like i l i t e r a l l y have seen a neo-n*zi rally down the street from my HOUSE and thats fucking TERRIFYING and they're just snatching up more people because of all of the culture wars bullshit

[but like to note im not saying that people need to be forgiving and understanding every time someone says something that pisses them off. some people need to be yelled at!!! they need to know they are wrong!!!! people should just be aware of the impact their words have. matty's words have made A LOT of people straight up hate him, but at the same time, some people have probably seen matty get called a n*zi and are now like 👀 bc the bar to being considered h*tler seems kinda low.]

anyway tl;dr racism is a spectrum, words have meaning, and we don't know these people. but if matty really is a racist and im wrong then i hope he chokes!!!

ALSO i am an adult and am not in the business of defending other adults so like im not gonna argue with someone if they think matty is racist. i am not doing dirty hit pr for FREE

[ijhyo]

may i ask why are you ot6 ? i’m only curious !! i come in peace 😊 [ also that emoji was sincere istg 😭😭 ]

PLSGFDHDD don't worry ur okay 😭

im gonna use this as My Official response to this question so i can redirect ppl here if they ever ask me again.

simply, the whole nword thing with heeseung way back in 2021. if u don't know what happened basically in a now deleted (or at least the part is gone idr) en behind video thing, somebody was singing sza’s love galore and sang the nword. lots of discourse about whether it was heeseung who sang it or just some other person and blah blah blah but i think it was him (like u know what he sounds like, let's be real)

now is that my whole reason for not liking him? not really but even if it was i think its enough, but yk there's MORE 😯

honestly the handling of that situation was literally so shit and every time i think about it i get so pissed off. you had nonblack engenes gaslighting and being so fucking racist to black engenes expressing their disappointment (the shit they were posting they lucky i never passed them in the street), you had the pisspoor damage control being done by the members (how convenient jake got a photo with layla to share and won going live in the same 48 hours) and the icing on the cake being belift completely ignoring everything and releasing a statement talking about how they "protect their artists" and blah blah

i dont gaf if u (engenes in general not u specially anon) think he did or didn't say it, but i dont want to hear anything if u aren't black. even if it were to come out that he didn't say it as much as i would be like "oh okay sorry for shitting on u and stuff" i still wouldn't be able to like him again bc of all the other stuff that surrounded it yk? (bc what do you mean u going to post pictures of l*nchings to defend somebody who's TOO DAMN GROWN to be saying the nword like okayyy)

so yeah that's just #ME i dont fw him bc as far as im concerned he DID say it but even if i thought he didn't his fans and engenes r nasty as fuck and i dont like them and he gives me the ick now

[itsmyonlydaytobefancy]

Hi I need advice bc I am conflicted and a bit sad (11.16?17)

Hi this is me still talking and being more extra

(for those who don't know, more of my feelings and back story can be followed at #itsmyonlydaytobefancy or #journal on my blog whoops)

So like,hhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

I just like!!! The more I think about him! The more I want to either pursue! Or abandon! I would be broken with a rejection, but what if he wants to continue a relationship with me??!?!?!?

I kinda don't want to give up such a great opportunity.

He seems so perfect!!! He's a music boy! He likes the same music and he PLAYS music too! Guitar to be exact! Maybe more! (I know he used to play trumpet lol) so cute! I love music!! He loves special intelligent music (Sorry for sounding like a snooty music expert but I'm really passionate about music and stuff whoops) and I play music too and I like the same kind of music aaaaaaaaa

he's kinda sad and knows what depression feels like (not that I want a wreck, but he understands what I feel sometimes.) and he deals with a good amount of anxiety would he knows what that feels like too

He loves driving! Even if it's a two hour drive he seems totally unphased!! Like he could just be super gentlemanly but like, I offered him at least some gas money and he refused!! Several times!!

Speaking of gentlemanly stuff, he paid for everything!! Both dates!!! Like, I like everything to be equal BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I S W O O N AT CHIVALRY LIKE THAT. JEEZ. Like I said, I offered to give him gas money but he refused! And I tried to get us at least waters at the movies and he refused and then told me okay and then at least last minute he said no, he wanted to pay BUT I WAS TOO QUICK WITH GIVING THE CASHIER MY CARD A HA!

He lives biology! I love biology!! I wanted to go into biotech and he's going into biotech!! He loves and is p passionate about it! Like that's so cute!!! He talked to me about a big experiment project he was doing and it was so interesting!! He doesn't talk super big words (he says he dumbs things down a lot but it's mostly for himself lol) BUT I REALLY FEEL THAT). I know he's really smart! And I believe in him and his abilities even if he Doesnt fully!!!)

He's a cute tall boy! I didn't expect him to be so tall! Or cute!!!! (OR PERFECT WHOOPS)

After deleting my bumble account (the platform I started talking to him on), about a month later he friended me on Fb and said he'd be in town and would like to grab a coffee!! (Obviously, my desperate ass said yes. I trusted him tho. He didn't seem creepy to me! He was unlike a lot of other boys I talked to before. We just really connected!! And then I found out he was a bit away and I figured he wouldn't be interested). And it seemed like we hit it off though!!! Like he actually cared enough to find me on Facebook and go on a date with me! Two dates!! Two hours away from his house!! Four hours driving here and back!!!

When we got yo my house he asked if I wanted to take another ten mins talking and driving and I said "Y E S". SO we went around talking for another H O U R +. Every time we came close to my house he would say "another ten mins" or " One more go around" and stuff. Like he really cared and wanted to keep talking. But then the end of the night came. I called it. I knew he had a long drive back.

And so we did a hug. And then another hug. And another! And i smooched him on the cheek and he said "oh no, I knew something like this would Happen." An I was like O H. N O.

He went on to say that he's going through a lot(Which he is :( poor boy ) and that he might/probably wont respond to my messages quickly (if at all). And he said that it would be hard because we're so far away (roughly two hours away :(((( ) and we both seem to be having trouble in school and it might be bad for us to have a distraction like this (I mean I'm taking a medical leave bc I fucked up so bad but I totally get the pressure he's under).

BUT STILL!! I FEEL LIKE I MIGHT BE BEING SELFISH BUT I REALLY WANT TO BE WITH HIM AND HE MIGHT WANT TO BE WITH ME? BUT I'M NOT SURE SOMEONE PLS TELL ME WHAT THEY THINK. I FEEL LIKE MY FRIENDS ARE GIVING ME TOO MUCH CONFIDENCE OR SOMETHING.

Ughhhhhhhh someone pls. Pls tell me what to do. Like,I feel such a strong connection with him

[boyshoujo]

also when did i ever mention grandpas ??? i dnot rmember............... BUT I KNOW PUB ENCOUNTER!!!!! and lmao everyone in the game is ugly so that's why i didn't play it,,,,, and there's that one guy called..???? memori??? smth like that idk but he looks like ardyn??? an uglier version of ardyn lol!! btw i Don't want to fuck ardyn,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

SFLJLSKFJ tbh it’s been so long that i dont even remember why i was talking about grandpas,, i just looked it up and ur right the lawyer guy looks like a sad budget version of ardyn lmao???? wait i think i was talking about grandpas bc in hadaka cant u bang the old grandpa butler or something ?? LMAO

so much happened in the last 2 weeks and i wanted to tell u everything but i forgot about it :( lmao its like im a news channel and im like “bringing u the news”,,,,,,,,,,,,, also ur post abt rock robin is so long??? lmao??? but im gonna check it out dw,, ,,,,i have very high standards of the people i bang so they all better be hot,,.,,,.,.,,,.,.,

👏 BRING 👏 ME 👏 THE 👏 NEWS 👏👏👏👏👏👏JKLJFLFJKJFS theyre not that hot………………im just gnna tell u…………theyre not that hot………………………………… the sprites r all over the place tbh and the hottest character imo is the main character lmao BUT i think u’ll like wizz bc he reminds me of you LOL except he’s an asshole lmao

actually i really wanted to fuck willy wonka when i was little???? he was just…. too weird and i liked his weirdness,, and have u even saw his face??? who wouldn’t want to fuck that??? but i just realized im Actually him?? like he got all the money in za warudo but he just wanted a loving family,,,,, i didn’t give a fuck abt charlie or his family when i was little but now,,,,,,,,,, i wish i had a family like charlie………… i now understand why willy wonka is the way he is right now……

tbh ME TOO??????? like……………………..i dont know why…..lmao………. but he’s hot ? in a weird kitsch way ???? like id bang both versions of willy wanka???? i’d bang the angsty purple one AND the emo bowl cut wonka???????? also BINCH SAME ???? i want a kind supportive family like charlie’s ????? wtf ????? wow add willy wonka to the #LonelyBitchClub

the name of that fish in nemo is gill and,,,, its like gel??? got it??? its like hair gel LMAO!! !!! but yeh i searched everywhere and i couldn’t find any porn of him ;^( i even searched in deviantart and didn’t find shit… …… sad….. i didn’t even find any fanfic abt him….. i actually hated him when i was a kid and i thought he was a dick…. i still hate him but since he looks like sergei i gotta fuck him lol!!! if u came at me 10 years ago n asked me abt him i’d say i want to kill himabout hair gel: i thought he was a petty bitch and when he talked abt his hand i was always like: “get over ur self bitch” and ooooooh damn i just looked at his scars again and i take everything i said back   

FSJKSJFSJF out of curiosity i tried looking some up aND I FOUND THE WORST PICTURE IVE EVER LAID MY EYES ON THANKS!!!!! DONT LOOK IT UP LOL,,,, also tbh……….i lied………… ive wanted to fuck gill since the moment i saw him………… he’s a hot goth fish and im into that…….. :/ :/ :/ when u first showed me sergei i was like ..... wow..................... this binch is just like gill from finding nemo mixed w/ leon from resident evil....................

ok i admit it im from saudi arabia, i was going to expose myself sooner or later lol but its just where i live- ok hold on i have a little story, 5 months ago i joined a discord chat for one of the fandoms, i talked about how this fucking evil character is, well.., evil……, like its obvious he’s going to be the villain, and everyone talked abt how he can be a good guy and they all got angry when i said “yeah anyways i don’t like good guys cuz they’re boring” and they immediately asked -where im from, i said “why are you asking :)” ironically cuz its a fuckin chat lmao and u should mind ur own business?? so i said “saudi arabia” and i felt them all judging me?? like if i was from russia for example does that mean “russian people are always right” and if i was from another country u possibly hate r u gonna say “arabic people are fucking evil and their opinions are always wrong”??? like u can’t judge me by knowing my country binch??? i got into 2 arguments abt that character being evil and another one abt how’s his canon hogwart house is gryffindor but i said “he’s a slytherin cuz he’s an asshole, and he looks like draco lmao” and everyone got angry again cuz “how dare u??? draco is a spineless coward while "that character” can fight pretty well" and then i “apologized” for saying my fucking opinion cuz apparently if half the people in the chat disagreed with you then you’re fuckin wrong cuz they said so, and then they said: “u have learned a lesson today” and idk started listing the “lessons” i learned?? like they said: “1. if the people in the chat told u to stop, u stop” ???? stop saying my opinion??? its not your father’s chat??? u don’t own it???? and after that i washed my hands cuz i felt the dirt on them from that filthy chat, ,,,,,, and i was in this chat in the big holiday (its a 4 months holiday) and it was ruining my holiday?? so i was like “fuck it” and deleted the app and i was finally free

tbh i kinda assumed u were from saudi arabia bc all the other countries i listed were like 4am in the morning and stuff but u were still sending asks and i was like ?????? why isnt this binch ASLEEP !!!! dont u have school !!!!also lmao what discord was that ??? they sound like a bunch of nerds IM LAUGHING WHO SAYS “you have learned a lesson today.” LKSJLKDLKSDJSD they got sticks up their ass and take themselves too seriously………… and who gets that heated over harry potter houses in the Year of 2017 lmao….. and people who judge others based on where theyre from ? #Ugly :/

today we had an english test and i was the only one who got 20 i think??? so the teacher (its the fish teacher lmao) looked at the paper then at me and she then smiled and blew a kiss in my direction and said “kisses” and i was like??? and i felt like i was the only student who ever got the full mark and she looked like she haven’t seen any student get the full mark in her tests ever???? i guess im going to be her fave student,,,,,,,,,,,, ,,,,,,,lmao she also gave me a little snickers

DJLKDSJLK she sounds so cheesy n dramatic wtf lmao………… wow what a turnaround…………….u should bcm the star pupil and Surpass her in English

being a dick culture™ is ubisoft sending me notifications and saying “the new chapter is out!!!! play it now!!!!!!!” “have you played the new chapter??????” “PLAY IT NOW!!!!!!!!” knowing damn well i can’t click on the game’s screem cuz the game is fucking dead,,,,,, like i sent them an email but i didn’t get any reply????tj is a libra??? what a loser,,,,,,,,,,, another reason to hate him,,, like from the moment he betrayed me from season 1 i canceled his ass,,,,, i mean i didn’t give a fuck abt him from the beginning LMaO!!! !!!!! but i knew he was a fake bitch and he was going to betray me,,,,,, 

do u need the links to the playthroughs on youtube ??? this is the season finale with louise but u cn find vincent’s on tumblr i thinkI LIKE TJ !!!! yea hes a libra ass binch but he has a good heart ??? ? he doesn’t deserve this slander………….Bye lol