#what did they do when I was raped and impregnated eh? fucking nothing

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three days sober

beautiful park ft my chunky legs (that im slowly starting to embrace because they are physical evidence of my body recovering and no longer being fuelled by chemicals!!)

what a day - had a lie in and then headed into town for a lunchtime AA meeting but was ahead of schedule (absolutely unheard of from me over the past 5-7 years) so spent some time in the park soaking up some rays🥰 AA isn’t my usual fellowship but the steps and meeting format are almost identical - and it was good!! I shared an anecdote of a time I couldn’t pick up any weed so booked a ferry and drove to Amsterdam🥴 they laughed a little too hard (and I was embarrassed, guess I’ll have to share those kinda shares for NA lol) but it then opened the floor for other people to share the insane things they did in active addiction. Was a very positive and uplifting meeting, exchanged numbers with a few women and found out the same meeting is held there every lunchtime other than on Sundays so I will definitely be going back☺️ ran a few errands before I headed home (post office, library and co-op) where I was greeted by a letter stating that the police are dropping all charges against me which means I’ll keep my license and most probably my job too!!!! fucking was not expecting that I was certain they were both gone - I am exceptionally lucky that they didn’t have enough evidence to prosecute. They’re also not doing me for resisting arrest or pursuing charges of unnecessary force being used against me during my arrest (despite me being covered in bruises and there being video footage of a 6ft tall copper slamming me (a not even 5ft girl) face first into the ground… u win some u lose some ig) I’m obviously BUZZING about being able to keep my license and my job, although a bit nervous about returning back to work. One step at a time… P referred to himself as my boyfriend and I’m here for that, I told him he’s gotta ask me properly before we’re officially an item though and he said he’ll “get down on two knees” 😄 we had a long phone call about consciousness and time and the intricacies of the universe, he’s a very clever boy, I’m really falling hard and fast for him.

slowly unpacking my rehab bags and getting housework done (fun stuff) just returning back to civilian life🥰❤️‍🩹 sober life is beautiful

editing to add: boo boo called me the other day when I was fucked up, just called me again now and wants to come spend the night 🥴 higher power give me the strength to say no