#what am i even saying?

[werebutch]

[irino-jjanggu]

Where are Changgu's intestines? We'll know back from the comercial break 🤗

[dumbassacademia]

I am this close

ThisClose

exceptionally!close!

to just! Snapping! And making a whole new side blog! And about what? about if the Addams family and the Belcher family existed in the same universe! Because I have! So! Many! Thoughts! on what this would be like! And on the one hand I need to get them out of my brain and into the world but on the other I truly feel I would experience great remorse at subjecting the internet to these thoughts

I need someone to bully me Frfr

[ghostofexplosivelime]

my body is a temple?

nah

fuck that shit

my body is dilapidated old house that hasnt been lived in in like 300 some odd years w a family of raccoons living in my large intestine

[ejzah]

I guess it’s fair for Kensi not to like the sound of Mrs. Deeks. But it doesn’t exactly align with her hyphenating her name.

[crispmarshmallow]

I just wanna cry for some reason. And I’m not even sad. Is that weird? Ugh.

[chasedbyhowlingwolves]

google how to come out to ppl irl : (

Make a cake, people will be happy about the cake and therefore about you. It can't fail

[cucoo4cas]

That painful moment where I feel like absolute shit, but the two people who I want to talk to about it will get hurt if I talk about it.

[reach-4-thesky]

Yeah God made the universe clap clap motherfucker we all know that shit

You know who else makes universes? Original Concept writers on this site, yeehaw clap clap to them bitch

[ship-picky]

I keep seeing people taking issue with the reaction of Bellamy/Madi vs Clarke/Madi, and I don't think it's as simple as people are making it? I think there was (and still is) a lot of fear of just how wrong things are going to go for Bellamy/Madi. I think people were braced for them to clash. We've been warned since the finale they WEREN'T going to be on the same "team". So I think it was relief more than anything? It'll still go bad soon, but at least there's a starting point of trust? 1/2

I also think people don’t entirely take the “Dad” title seriously. “Dad” and “Mom” jokes for BC have been around since S1. Madi, for Bellamy, is just more of the same. But Clarke isn’t “Mom” now. She’s mom. This relationship IS her plot. It’s not a cute jokey thing. It’s her emotional arc in a way it won’t be for Bellamy. So I think it makes sense that there’s discourse around one role and jokes around the other. 2/2

squints I’m guessing this is about my reply to a certain post. Well I’m sure if the roles were reversed and Bellamy adopted a small feral child no one would be doubting his Dad status. And no one, and I mean NO ONE, refers to Clarke as Mom in relation to Octavia (wow that’s such a weird thought). But honestly it’s not a big deal, anon. We all get salty about how fandom reacts to stuff. Personally I think the greater excitement level for Dad!Bellamy speaks to how we as a greater society view motherhood vs fatherhood but so what? Who am I and why do you care what I think anyway? 

Your reasons I think are generous but I don’t really buy them. Not for at least a huge swath of fandom. If it’s the case for you and your friends, that’s great. If not, some random chick on the internet isn’t going to stop you or shame you into any other opinion. 

[eegyah]

Convincing myself that I have a reason to be here is so hard. I wish I could stop feeling like a shadow on the wall. I wish I could feel real for once instead of a fading memory. It’s as if my mind has found a way to erase myself from my own narrative. I’m tired of being an apparition instead of someone with a pulse.

[moreteapleaseee]

1:06 a.m.

Is anything even real? what if everything’s just a figment of our imagination? That’s why we see things from a first-person point view because this is our world, literally, our own making.

[youtubersarelife23]

Who's that handsome young fellow? A young polish lad traveling a far.

[voicesofchaos]

I just had 6 porn blogs follow me which has put me really close to 600 followers. Seeimg how people I actually care about unfollowed me recently it is nice to see that lifeless porn bots are there to try to fill the gap in my heart LOL

[takesuhigher]

oooowwwww my finger is dead. i asked my mom to take my blood sugar because i thought i had low blood sugar because i haven't eaten. she stabbed my finger with a needle. ouch! i'm ultra sensitive 😖 turns out my blood sugar BS huh lol is high. 140. BUT i had just eaten my muffins (not very good) and some hot tea. apparently it's a false reading.

[starvinbohemian]

So, today’s episode kind of drove home something for me regarding Paulson and their guilt regarding Will. Mainly, that Sonny doesn’t seem to feel any lol. Paul sure does tho. And that’s strange.

Their New Year’s conversation, leading up to the kiss:

Paul, explaining why he lied about wanting to just be friends: “I didn’t want to put you in a tough spot.”

Sonny, sounding as if he simply cannot comprehend what kind of “tough spot” he could be in that would deter Paul: “What do you mean?”

Paul: “I know that Will is still an issue for us, and if you and I ever got together... you’d feel guilty. And so would I.”

Sonny, ignoring the Will topic entirely: “So you don’t really just want to be friends?”

And later, with his eyes shining like diamonds at Paul as they talk about their kiss: “I don’t regret it. I can tell you that much.”

It goes without saying that Will and his death are and should be factors for Paulson going forward. But shouldn’t we be seeing Sonny processing that? Sonny’s the widower. Instead, the Will stuff keeps being written from Paul’s point of view. Paul is the one shown feeling guilty and worrying about whether they can work passed what came before, but Sonny doesn’t seem to give a damn lol. We’ve seen him pine for Paul, but we haven’t seen him feel bad about it. When he first came back, he said he wasn’t “ready” to date anyone (and that lasted all of a second lol), but he’s never vocalized any issues with dating Paul in particular. Also, with everyone supporting Paulson (now adding even Deimos to the hilarious list of random Paulson supporters alongside Philip and Joey), Sonny-- even on an external level-- hasn’t had reason to be defensive about his and Paul’s feelings. External opposition to a couple is good soap fodder. 

Paul and Marlena have their own relationship now, so today’s scene was fine, but I think it probably would have had more emotional weight if it had been Marlena and Sonny having that conversation. Granted, I’ve been desperately wanting a candid conversation between Sonny and Marlena regarding Paulson and its similarities to Jarlena anyway.  

Honestly, I don’t need to see Sonny wallowing in grief over Will. I could happily never hear his name again. So, I’m definitely not complaining that Sonny is 100% single and ready to mingle with Paul. I don’t even know why I wrote this lol. Why look a gift horse in the mouth? I guess I just don’t want to be robbed of the good, meaty, emotional stuff that this pairing is capable of. I’m also kinda experiencing negative flashbacks to when everything was about Will and his pov, and I don’t want to see that happen again with Sonny, especially not in what should be his own emotional arc.