#what I've been listening to

[thehappyfeminist-22]

I was tagged by @iridescentalexis and @huffle-ego to put 5 songs I actually listen to and tag 10 people to do the same.

Here are the top 5 I've been listening to lately:

1- Change on the Rise by Avi Kaplan

2- You're Gonna Go Far, Kid by The Offspring

3- Zombie by The Cranberries

4- Second Chance by Shinedown

5- Love Me Like You Do by Ellie Goulding

Everyone I can think of to tag has probably already been tagged, so if you get tagged more than once, feel free to ignore it. No pressure tags:

@sherlockig @ineffabeatlemindpalace @pumpkinspicepirates @piratecaptainscaptainpirates @celluloidbroomcloset @spirker @hang-on-lil-tomato @foopirates @gentlebeardsbarngrill @ofmd-ann

[owlpuddle]

What I've been listening to recently

Just to collect up stray thoughts every so often

- Sweet Smell of Success. The music is really fun, but I read the libretto too and it just... lacks narrative tension. Which is very weird for a noir adaptation. Anyway I picked this up because one of my favorite podcasts is Movie: the Musical (now defunct, rip) and they did an episode on it.

- See What I Wanna See. I incidentally picked this up at the same time and it also has some noir flair. LaChiusa's music is so satisfying to me.

- The Fantasticks. Because I really like the piano in it, and I love the overture, and I aspire to get a keyboard piano soon so I'm making a little list of pieces I'd like to learn.

- I Can Get it for You Wholesale. Already posted about it at length, very weird selection for a revival but I appreciate not just cycling through the same dozen shows to get revived.

- Bernarda Alba. More LaChiusa, really good. All his albums I know so far have this quality of sounding very... put-together, like the shows aren't sung through but may as well be. I read the play along with it and it's very good.

- title of show. Good lord my tastes have changed. I wrote recently that I don't like the musical sound or lyrics of contemporary theatre, and this is... exactly that. I do still like a few songs.

- House of Flowers. I tried this a few years ago and it didn't stick; I thought I'd try again now to see if my tastes have evolved. But the music is just sort of generic; sorry Harold Arlen. Anyway I've accidentally thought of it as House of Leaves a couple times, if someone wants to musicalize that instead.

- Dear World. No idea what's happening but I'm having fun! This show was first pitched to me as "Jerry Herman's version of Anyone Can Whistle," which I'm extremely here for.

- Seesaw. I love Cy Coleman, and Dorothy Fields and Neil Simon are also both here, so it's like getting a little more of Sweet Charity. Also reminds me of Promises Promises because of the brass orchestrations. Hilariously the album is just songs angling to become standards, I don't think I'd recognize it as being a musical at all if I didn't already know.

[hydroxfluff]

"When all this extra time

Cedes to real life

I realize I can't escape

Staring at the fields

If nothing's really real

I'll make the winter now my home"

affirmations

[pisces-bimbo-dyke]

songs i've been vibing to (in no particular order)

Vampire in the Corner - Magdalena Bay

BLOOM - Doechii

HIGHJACK - A$AP ROCKY, Jessica Pratt

booboo - Yaeji

Different Type Time - Cavalier

Frogs - Bolis Pupul

[keets-writing-corner]

Thinking a LOT about Lucifer in the latest Hazbin episode. Idk what I was expecting but not this??

As I was watching my immediate thought was just "huh... Lucifer is kinda of weird..." but as the episode went on I realized the issue

the dude is off the chain depressed, like he says it as a joke but holy cow it is SO BAD

He's manically just creating rubber ducks cuz his daughter really like it that one time but it's empty, it's never good enough but he keeps doing it, maybe cuz he doesn't know how to pass the time otherwise.

like I get the feeling he HAS better things he SHOULD be doing than making rubber duck after rubber duck. At first I was like, "Bruh why isn't the king of hell doing anything?" aaaaand then it became clear...

The dude is disassociating so bad he can barely hold a conversation let alone remember information. He clearly WANTS to, he wants to be involved with his daughter so bad, he wants to care about the things she's doing so bad, but his depression keeps interfering. It's like he can only hear every other word and he grasps onto the ones he does hear semi-out of context. Like you can see every time he catches something that he hadn't before and he just "well shit I didn't catch that part"

and that's why he reacts so weird when people talk to him. He is struggling so bad to engage with the conversation he's only getting 50% of it

does that look like the face of a man who knows what the hell the conversation is even about??? he is STRUGGLING

like Charlie spent so long telling him about the hotel, and he STILL didn't understand what she wanted. Yeah it comes off as ditzy but literally I've been in that position where your brain just "nope, not doing this right now" and nerfs your conversation comprehension. So as someone who's BEEN in that position, to me it feels exactly like what he's dealing with. He's sorta engaged with the conversation, but only as much as his brain will allow

For example, when I'm dealing with this, this is what someone talking to me feels like this where the crossed out parts are what I missed and bold is what I catch, "Hey! You know I was thinking for dinner we could either make some chicken with rice? But if you don't feel like cooking, pasta is super easy and you love that right? What do you want to do?" you can kinda get that someone is trying to talk to you about dinner, and towards the end you get the impression that they asked something that needs your input so you can decently put 2 and 2 together and try and pass off, but crucial bits were left out, I would have no idea that either chicken or pasta is in the conversation only having heard "rice". When someone is just talking at me, I can decently pass off as being engaged but the second I'm required to participate in the conversation I'm screwed. Seem familiar? At which point I have 2 options, try to give a bullshit answer, or admit that I missed what they were saying and ask them to repeat

Lucifer, unfortunately, is trying so damn hard to hide that he's dealing with like 24/7 dissociation, so he can't admit that he's missing entire chunks of the conversation, hence his really weird replies. He does eventually get the full picture and then he and Charlie start having the real conversation

Also, the Alastor/Lucifer rivalry was hilarious but also really indicative of more of what Lucifer is dealing with

Alastor is, unfortunately, really good at picking up people's insecurities, and thanks to Charlie's description earlier and watching Lucifer clearly trying to overcompensate, he immediately picks up on the fact that Lucifer KNOWS he struggles to be a good dad (we know cuz it's cuz of the depression, hard to be engaged when your brain keeps turning off) and decides to rub salt in the wound by pretending he's been acting as a surrogate father to Charlie. Now why Alastor decided to pick a fight with the king of hell is beyond me, I do not understand Alastor (and I LIKE IT) (maybe it's cuz Alastor thinks he's hot shit and was expecting Lucifer to at least have heard of him but Lucifer just treats him like a nobody? who knows)(why would Lucifer listen to radio anyways when he can't even pay attention to a conversation it'd just be white noise)

But yeah I just was expecting someone who oozed either charisma or presence and instead I got a depressed dad who's dissociating so bad he can barely function and be present in his life. The only thing it seems he CAN do is make rubber ducks cuz his daughter really liked it that one time

Idk Lucifer is tragic to me. Whatever the full details of what heavan did to him absolutely broke him and he can't deal with it. He's aware of it, and he doesn't know how to fix it, so he tries to over compensate and sorta makes an ass out of himself but no one says or does anything cuz this guy is supposed to be THE king of hell

Suddenly it's making a lot more sense why he just rolls over and lets heaven do what it wants and even told Charlie to go in his place the start of the show. He's not in any headspace to hold a basic conversation let alone negotiate! He didn't even know who Alastor was, he's been so out of touch

idk I like him, he seems sweet, I hope Charlie brings some light back into his life. He really needs to get out of that rubber duck room

[owlbelly]

so. i understand where the sentiment "listening to an audiobook is the same thing as reading the book" is coming from - i mean, yes, the bottom line is you are taking in the same words in what is possibly a more accessible (or maybe just more enjoyable) format for you! and i'm 100% in agreement that "book snobs" who say "no you didn't really read it" if you listened to the audiobook are full of shit. ofc you should engage with stories in whatever way works for you, there is no moral or intellectual superiority to reading words off a page vs. listening to them

but it also is different? an audiobook is a performance. choices a narrator makes about line readings can drastically influence the meaning of the lines. even just different voices, accents, etc. - there are creative choices being made by the person delivering the words to you, and that affects your experience of the story in a different way than if you were making those choices in your own head. it might even change the way you visualize what's going on!

this isn't a bad thing it's just An Actual Thing & i think it's worth talking about. it rubs me the wrong way when people act like accommodations (and for many people audiobooks are an accommodation) always result in a completely identical experience, or even that they should, & if you suggest that people accessing media in different ways are having different experiences it's somehow ableist

anyway on rare occasions i really enjoy audiobooks but mostly they are much less accessible to me than words on a page (i need to be able to reread, flip back and forth, go at my own pace) & i also just really strongly prefer to encounter a text on my own before hearing someone else's performance of it, if possible! again i don't think it's "better" to read a physical book i just think it is a Distinct form of experiencing a story & acting like the two things are entirely the same is sort of doing a disservice to both

[hydroxfluff]

"Sidewalks, brownstones, and street posts They line my dreams in complete rows On cold days she wears a pea coat While staring out from the east coast"

[blueboyluca]

“When I first heard it, from a dog trainer who knew her behavioral science, it was a stunning moment. I remember where I was standing, what block of Brooklyn’s streets. It was like holding a piece of polished obsidian in the hand, feeling its weight and irreducibility. And its fathomless blackness. Punishment is reinforcing to the punisher. Of course. It fit the science, and it also fit the hidden memories stored in a deeply buried, rusty lockbox inside me. The people who walked down the street arbitrarily compressing their dogs’ tracheas, to which the poor beasts could only submit in uncomprehending misery; the parents who slapped their crying toddlers for the crime of being tired or hungry: These were not aberrantly malevolent villains. They were not doing what they did because they thought it was right, or even because it worked very well. They were simply caught in the same feedback loop in which all behavior is made. Their spasms of delivering small torments relieved their frustration and gave the impression of momentum toward a solution. Most potently, it immediately stopped the behavior. No matter that the effect probably won’t last: the reinforcer—the silence or the cessation of the annoyance—was exquisitely timed. Now. Boy does that feel good.”

— Melissa Holbrook Pierson, The Secret History of Kindness (2015)

[babacontainsmultitudes]

He's a used car salesman. He has a heart of gold. He can't parallel park. He has two gay witch italian dads. He chops the wood. He has a magical talking cat mom. He's an assassin. He isn't an assassin. He's actually the cat from earlier. He's trans (female cat to male human). He's been shot through the heart. He was in Dewar. He was not in the war. He was in Dewar. He's on his last of nine lives. He just had a marble shoved down his throat. He's even bisexual. I didn't say his name, but he popped into your head, didn't he?

[charliespringsleftconverse]

🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨

Lately, I've been listening to Taylor Swift. To no one's surprise. 😂

Uh. Off the top of my head...

No Body, No Crime by Taylor Swift

Loved You Before by Peach PRC

Fictional by Khloe Rose

Would've, Could've, Should've by Taylor Swift

Champagne Problems by Taylor Swift

[hydroxfluff]

"To the passerby

Glad for a road this clear

To roll though the state at a decent rate

by the startled deer"

Road trip!!

[glo-shroom]

yes & no by Natalie Wee | Trigun Ultimate Overhaul

[alinelie]

excuse him, he's a little needy

[hydroxfluff]

"A view of the stars go askew And you start wondering where you went wrong You're driving around, when it's all burning down Playing just the right song"

Day 29, done and done

[robertphilip]

And all I really want is just a little respect.

[excali8ur]

I wonder what kind of music Mona would like