#went to youtube to get the video (and watch it for the fifth time) and I now find out there's a studio version as well!

[riansdiary]

YOU HAVE IT ALL NOW. END OF STORY. PERIOD. DOOR SLAM!!! (Be Your Own Abdullah!)

Dearest Gentle Readers 💎

Let this be the last Tumblr post that you will read. This is the secret to not wavering and spiraling. Aren't you tired? If yes then continue reading. If not, grab that manifestation by the horns and be stubborn about you having it already no matter what.

I have a little Halloween aesthetic treat for you today and Nancy Wheeler who I love so much from Stranger Things! I've been rewatching Stranger Things to get ready for the fifth season and some parts of it made me think about manifestation. In fact, I have a new analogy coming soon and I'm working on it now.

Before anything, I wanna thank the people who helped me have a better and stronger new mindset about all this. First of all, I'd like to thank @babygothprincess as usual for her deciding post that has really helped me a lot. Second, I am grateful for Taylor Tookes' updated outlook and mindset about manifestation that immensely improved mine as well. I agreed completely with everything she said.

Fun fact: I loved her X account as it really helped my mindset get better and her tweets have helped me a lot. Let me just set up the story. I wanted her to have an updated video about her new way of manifesting now that can be seen on her X account. I just decreed and decided that she's gonna post an updated video about her new mindset and beliefs about the law of assumption and voila! Later on, I went to her YouTube account to watch a video and she has a new video about the exact topic I wanted! Yes, I manifested it. I did that once and relaxed. Told myself that it is done.

The third and last is for Nancy Wheeler from Stranger Things. She helped me become braver and stronger just by embodying her. This is about normal everyday things like when I'm scared of something but also about manifestation. She helped me realize that I need to stand my ground when it comes to my desires and become a badass boss when I decree or decide, affirm or command my subconscious.

This is your reminder to fully claim and accept your desires as yours now. Stop wavering and spiraling. You have to know that you have the choice. The choice to dwell on the old story, circumstances or 3d. Whatever you see that you don't want or the choice to be stubborn in the fact that you already have it, keep saying that you have it now and stop taking bullshit from anything. Not let anything dictate whether you have it or not other than yourself.

Okay now let's move on...

YOU 👏 HAVE 👏 THAT 👏 CHOICE 👏

But do you have the courage and the badass energy to deny what you see and keep telling yourself that you have it now?

"Oh but he said he didn't like me."

"Oh I didn't get into the college I wanted"

"It didn't work. I need to do more."

Who has the power here? You have to remember all the time that YOU ARE IN CONTROL, YOU HAVE THE POWER AND IT WILL GO EXACTLY HOW YOU SAY IT WILL GO.

WHAT 👏 YOU 👏 SAY 👏 GOES 👏

You are the operant power for a freaking reason. You are in control and it's based on if you agree that you don't have it because of what you see or you deny, say no and are stubborn about you having it now.

It's simple. You either agree or disagree. Say yes or no. You have that choice and keep decreeing that you have it now no matter what happens. If that's how you are on the inside, it's done. That is what the 3d would follow if you still use that term. If only you keep telling yourself that and deciding that you have it now.

You already have it no matter what you see. You are the boss and what you say goes. If you say that you have it, you have it now. What I mean is you have the conscious choice to dwell on those things or decide now in this moment that you have it. There's nobody else who can be the best Abdullah for you other than yourself so be stubborn and slam the door in your own face and keep going to the end.

You have to do it for yourself and always go back to deciding that you have it now. You need to be your own Abdullah. No one decides for you if you have your desire or not other than yourself. You have the "choice" to dwell on that or completely claim that desire as yours every time it crosses your mind.

That's all you need to do. Decide it's yours, say "I don't care, who cares? I'm the boss I have the power. I choose. This has no power over me and it doesn't mean anything."

The 3d does not stand a chance if you keep claiming and saying that you have this desire now. The limited dead reality 3d doesn't stand a chance if you decreed that you have it and it is done. Just keep gently reminding yourself that you have it now and it is done because you are the operant power, the boss and the freaking queen or king of this reality.

Just stop separating the 3d and the 4d. That just implies more process. If you truly believe that then that's fine but I'm just here to help and tell you what I learned. If you decided that you have it, you have it period. If you keep reminding yourself that and decreeing that then it has no choice but to manifest anyway. Be careful not to get stuck in the "manifesting" phase. Have it now.

Just think that it is done and you're at the end. Feel how you would feel if it's already done and no it's not emotions. I dismiss and not give any meaning to what's happening around me and I just decree or affirm and assume that it is done. It's already here.

I would then feel like it is already here and feel myself feeling relaxed and contented and calm. Feel it real and feel that it's done.

It's time to stop being a softie and letting anything else outside of you dictate whether you have it or not.

BE 👏 LIKE 👏 NANCY 👏 FUCKING 👏 WHEELER 👏 AND 👏 STAND 👏 YOUR 👏 GROUND 👏

Do you really think that Nancy would be able to properly shoot Vecna if she was worrying and being scared of him? "Oh Vecna said she can't shoot him, he's superhuman and way too powerful!" Do you think Nancy would just agree to that and give up? NO.

It's like Vecna is the 3d when he was in Nancy's mind and the 3d said you didn't have it, would you agree to that? Be honest. Do you know how stupid that sounds? I don't mean that it's just you because I was once like this too. Letting the unwanted invade my mind instead of standing my ground, disagreeing and decreeing that all my desires are here now.

So please. Be your own Abdullah and slam the fucking door in your face, I'm reminding you once more. That means you take what you affirm or say or decree as a fact and it is done because you said it is. Nothing can ruin your manifestations if you already have it. You're the judge of it all, think in your favor and tell yourself that you have it now period! Stop waiting, stop manifesting and start having it now. Feel the feeling of relief and calm or whatever feeling comes up when you think that you have it now and it's done. Don't force it.

You have it, it's already done and it's already here!

No one can take that away from you other than yourself too. It is what you say it is so if you decide or affirm that you have all of your desires now then take that as a fact and feel how it feels now that you know that no matter what happens (unless you let it happen and agree to the unwanted), you have all your desires now and it's already here. Assume that it is. Choose to have it now period. Not in 4d and 3d and separating them. You have it now, it's already here. That's it. It's already done. Just trust in the law and relax.

Do what makes you happy because it will help you take your attention away from the unwanted things you might see. Watch your favorite shows or movies or relaxing vlogs!

Don't let Vecna (unwanted things or circumstances) or yourself take your desires from you from now on. Become Nancy Wheeler, be a boss and stand your ground. You're the operant power of your reality for a whole damn reason.

Have strong will and stop letting anyone or anything else dictate if you have your desires or not. Stop being so weak and letting Vecna a.k.a anything you don't want gain control on how your reality should be or if you have it your desires.

If it's not what you want that you see, deny and disagree. Remind yourself that you have it now.

I kept repeating the key parts of this post so you will really get it ingrained in your brain.

Don't forget that the 3d or your circumstances have no meaning other than what you give it. It doesn't have any meaning except when you give it meaning like if you say that the old story is true and you don't have it. I'm sure all of us made that mistake before. Correct it. It has no meaning. Why not think that even whatever you see means that you have it.

Literally say:

"Everything means I have all my desires."

Yours Truly,

Lady Rian Whistledown 💋

[m00nh1gh]

OLDER

Bsf's dad!Bang Chan x reader

You knew you had a thing for older men but you didn't expect to be in this situation.

Contains: Unprotected car sex, masturbation (f), fingering, there's an age gap, but the reader is legal AND they didn't know each other when she was a minor, just a little heads up.

Word count: 3.1k.

Sleepovers at your best friend's house were always the best. You'd watch plenty of movies (or videos on YouTube) and cook together when her dad wasn't home. You had done all of that tonight and even had a photoshoot for new profile pictures and posts for Instagram. You really went all out for it, too.

Though, there was always one thing that bothered you at those sleepovers and it was the sleep part. Yuna snored a lot and it lead to insomnia for you. You'd usually be okay with it, because you never failed to bring your headphones, but this time, you had let them at your house. 

You grunted for the fifth time in a whole minute before letting go of the pillow you'd been using against your ears to try and muffle the sounds, but to no avail. You decided it could be good to take a little walk in her house. You guys were alone anyway, so it wouldn't bother anyone. 

You slowly opened the door of her bedroom, walked out and made sure to close it behind you. You looked around to make sure her dad wasn't here and went to the kitchen silently.

You poured yourself some water in the glass you used tonight and took a big sip of it. You could finally relax once you were away from Yuna. You didn't even know exactly why snoring irritated you so much. It made you feel bad to complain about it so much, but you just had to.

"Y/n? It's late, why aren't you sleeping?"

You jumped and put a hand over your mouth to stop yourself from yelping. You had never heard him coming in the house, even less walking in the room and leaning against the doorframe. He didn't look annoyed or bored. He was, in fact, smiling at you with a raised brow. It made you blush - as usual - and you looked down.

"Sorry, I couldn't sleep. I just came here to get some water.

- You know it's alright, you should still get some rest though," he placed his coat on the kitchen island as he walked to the fridge, which was right beside you.

His sleeves were rolled up and you couldn't help but to take a look at his arms and hands as he took a plate Yuna and you had prepared for him earlier. He placed it in the microwave for one minute and thirty seconds and then he looked back at you.

"She's snoring again, right?

- Yeah."

He laughed and suddenly, your heart started beating faster. This wasn't right. You shouldn't feel like this around him. He's your best friend's dad, for God's sake!

"I'll be awake for a while more, wanna come to my office? I could use some company. 

- Oh, but I don't want to bother you…

- You won't. I really would appreciate your company. But if you wanna go back to sleep, then it's good too!" His dimples are so hot. His office outfit is so hot. You felt hot.

"No, I'm not going to sleep," you smiled at him before following his lead to his office that was on the second floor. It was the first time you steeped into it and it somehow felt intimate; Yuna had always told you her dad did not let anyone in there while he was gone and now he invited you to sit on the small couch that was settled next to a bookshelf.

"Don't tell Yuna about this, she'll start coming here without my permission," the man sighed as he sat on his chair behind his desk. He turned his computer on and looked back at you while it loaded. "You can do whatever you want, I have books there and other stuff… Just don't touch what's on my desk, not that I think you would anyway," he gave you a wink and a smile as he laid back on his chair, turning his attention back to the screen.

Some time passed since your last interaction with Christopher. You had picked a book from his shelf, but quite honestly, it was just to make yourself look busy. You surely couldn't concentrate on it when you could see him shift on his seat and hear him sigh from time to time, clicking his tongue and grunting. You didn't know what he was working on, but it surely made him frustrated.

You looked at the cover of the book since you didn't even know which one you had picked. That's how uninterested you were about it, but maybe that you should start being, because Christopher's noises made you think some stuff that you shouldn't think about.

"100 Cocktail Recipes; Spice your Drinks Up!"  What the fuck?

"Is everything alright?" You opted on asking, coming to the conclusion that you wouldn't read anything tonight.

"Yeah, yeah. Just work stuff, you know?" He looked rather enthusiastic about you finally talking to him. You guessed he needed a little break from work.

"Yeah, I know," you looked around the room, suddenly feeling really awkward and regretting having talked to him.

"I guess I could take a small break," he sighed and leaned back on his chair, his hands behind his head as he looked back at his screen. "Wanna go on a little drive?

- I'd actually like that, yes," you smiled and you both got up to walk out of the office. 

"Wait just a bit, I'm gonna go change into something else," you nodded and he came back a few minutes later with a t-shirt and simple jeans. The shirt was tight. You didn't even know how it didn't tear because the man is muscular. You shook your head a little to let go of your thoughts and followed Christopher to the entry door.

Once your shoes were on, he let you get out first and he locked the door behind him.

"Let's hope Yuna doesn't wake up," he chuckled and unlocked his car. You smiled and mentally prayed that she wouldn't notice you were out too, walking to the car and getting in the passenger seat as Christopher sat at the driver's seat.

"So, where are we going?

- Anywhere, it's up to you.

- I know a pretty spot somewhere. Let's get snacks and then go there. Yeah?

- Sounds good," you smiled at him and he returned it, starting the engine and driving to a small convenience store Yuna and you went to often. It was the only one that was open the whole night, so when you ever craved something late, you walked there and took whatever you needed. You even became friends with the cashier.

"Hey, Y/n!" Jeongin waved at you and nodded at Christopher. You walked to him as Christopher picked some snacks in the store.

"Is that your dad?

- No, that's Yuna's dad," you looked behind to make sure he wasn't near you and you leaned forward. "He's fucking hot."

Jeongin laughed and shook his head.

"Do you even know how old he is? Not that he looks 60, but that's still her dad.

- He's like in his half 40's, it's alright.

- What are you guys talking about?"

You jumped as Christopher put food and drinks on the counter. Jeongin stayed silent as he scanned the items and you cleared your throat.

"Are you two dating?

- What? No, no!" Jeongin finally spoke.

"That's Yuna's boyfriend," you added, side eyeing Jeongin whose cheeks reddened significantly.

"Am not.

- Not yet," you teased and Christopher laughed.

"I'll be looking forward to our first family dinner with you, then," he paid for the stuff and took the plastic bag after Jeongin put the receipt in it. You said your goodbyes and walked out with a smile still sitting on your face, thinking back to Jeongin's shyness at the mention of your best friend.

"They'd look cute together," Christopher said as you both got back in the car.

"I know, right? But they're both so oblivious that it hurts me sometimes.

- Give them time and eventually, they'll confess."

It was a ten minute drive until Christopher parked his car in an empty parking lot, which was right in front of a small river. There were benches along it and lampposts beside each one of them. It was a pretty spot indeed, but you wished you'd brought a jacket with you if you were to get out of the car.

"We can stay in the car if you want, you're not wearing something adequate to the weather," he remarked and you agreed.

He took out two bottles of water and handed one to you. You opened it and immediately took a sip. You hadn't noticed how thirsty you were, and the water felt refreshing in your throat.

"And what about you? Do you have a boyfriend?

- No, guys at school aren't for me.

- Ah, I see," it was silent for a little moment until you heard him unbuckle his seat so he could turn to you the way he wanted to. "What about older guys? You know, you're old enough to have a little age gap in relationships now."

You played with the cap of your bottle nervously, your heart pounded hard in your chest and you could hear it. "Yeah, I like older men.

- Men, huh?" He smirked and turned your head towards him with a hand placed on your cheek. "Have you tried talking to them?"

You shook your head and hardly swallowed, suddenly needing another sip of water. But, you couldn't move. Christopher looked too beautiful in the dark of the night, with only a small amount of light that hit the side of his face. His lips looked extra kissable and they were still a little wet due to his drink and you felt yourself getting needy.

"No, I haven't.

- Then talk to me," he leaned close to your ear, you could feel his hot breath on your neck and you closed your eyes, "Am I old enough for you?

- Yeah," you whispered, and you swore you could hear his smirk. He looked back at you, and it was hard for you not to look away. He was way too intimidating for you to hold eye contact.

"I knew you'd be a good girl for me," he kissed you shortly once, and then the second one was deep. His lips- God, his lips felt so good against yours. They were so soft and fit perfectly with yours, driving you insane and you undid your seatbelt to get closer to him. Christopher groaned lowly as his tongue entered your mouth, and his hand found its way to your thigh, slowly hiking up your shorts. Well, as much as he could.

You shivered at his touch and softly bit on his lower lip, making a moan escape from his lips and that was it: now you were wet for sure and he broke away from the kiss, looking at you with lustful eyes.

"Tell me what you want," he said, his voice deeper than usual.

"I just want you," you admitted, placing a hand on his chest. It trailed down to the end of his shirt. 

"Then I'll show you how much I want you too," he reclined his seat a little and gestured for you to come sit on his lap. You obeyed and immediately felt him through his pants. He was already half hard for sure.

"So fucking beautiful," he took a strand of your hair between his fingers, then putting his hand at the back of your head to pull you closer so he could kiss you. He slid his hand down your waist, making its way under your shorts. His other hand cupped one of your boobs through your tank top. You whimpered and put your hands around his biceps, feeling his muscles flexing under them.

His lips were so rough against yours that it added an edge of excitement to the moment. You were completely lost in this touch, his hand was back out of your shorts and was settled on your hip. His other one was sliding down your sides, feeling your curves.

"You're going to drive me insane," you hummed against his lips and rolled your hips a little, making him groan and pull you away from the kiss. "Touch yourself, baby," he commanded, moving one hand to grab your ass and squeezing it.

"What?" You asked with a small voice, unsure of what he meant by this.

"I want to see you touching yourself," he clarified, his voice as rough as his touch. A hand under your top now, he found your nipple and teasingly brushed against it. You reacted to it, pulling yourself closer to him, and you nodded, spreading your thighs a little. You slid a hand under your shorts and panties, reaching your clit immediately.

His hand finally pinched your nipple and it earned him a moan from you. "That's it, baby," he breathed. "You look so fucking hot."

You hummed again, rubbing small circles on your clit as you absorbed everything he told you.

"So obedient. You like being my good girl? Like touching yourself for me?

- Yeah," you moaned as your hips bucked up, looking down at him.

"Tell me more," he demanded. He wanted you to beg for him, to show him just how much power he held over you.

"I like being your good girl, only yours," you said, pulling the fabric of your panties and shorts to the side so he could have a glimpse at what was going on under your clothes.

"You're such a tease," he teasingly traced a finger along your wet folds. "Look at how wet you are for me."

You whimpered and stopped touching yourself for him to take over. Your hands went back to his biceps. 

"Do you like being teased?" He asked, a smirk tugging at the corner of his lips. He continued teasing your pussy, ignoring how you tried getting away due to how sensitive you had gotten.

"No," you closed your thighs around his hand. 

"Yes, you do," he said, leaning in to kiss you like a hungry man. His free hand squeezed your breasts, pinching your hardened nipple as he started rubbing on your clit. You moaned against his lips, spreading your thighs for him to touch you better as you tugged at the sleeves of his shirt.

With a low chuckle, he pushed your panties to the side more and slid a finger into your sloppy hole, immediately finding your g spot. "Want me to make you cum?" He assumed you were already ready for a second finger, so he slid another one inside you.

"Yes, please. Please," you breathed out, getting used to his fingers inside you. 

"That's it," he slowly pumped his fingers in and out of you. "Feels good?" He asked, placing hot kisses over your neck as he continued with the right amount of pressure and speed.

"Good," you agreed, lifting his shirt up a little so you could have a look at his toned abs, finally touching the skin. That made him groan again, his fingers digging deeper into you as you touched every inch of his chest. Once your hand reached lower, his hips grinded against it slightly, and you didn't waste another second before unzipping his pants and cupping his dick through his boxers.

He moaned, his hips grinding a little more against your palm. "You're so hot,"

You moaned when his finger brushed against a certain spot inside you and it made you squeeze his cock a little. He lifted himself up a little so you could slide his pants and boxers down a little. Christopher's breath hitched a little and his eyes locked with yours, filled with lust and anticipation. "Fuck."

"Want you inside me, Chris. Please?" You asked, pumping his dick slowly to spread his precum all over his shaft.

"Alright, baby," he hissed a little at your touch. "If that's what you want. But I can't guarantee I'll be gentle," he warned, guiding himself to your entrance once your hand had left him. You nodded and pushed yourself down on his dick a little so his tip was already inside you. You moaned and put a hand on the back of the seat for support as you sunk down painfully slowly.

Christopher lost some of his patience and grabbed your hips harshly, thrusting into you sharply without warning. You gasped and threw your head back, feeling the stretch of his dick clearly. It hurt for sure, but you didn't say anything. He knew to give you some time to get used to him. He brought you closer and started kissing your neck. "Told you I can't be gentle," he mumbled as he softly nibbled at your skin.

"Can move," you said, rolling your hips against him. He moaned and guided you, giving a small slap at your ass as you rode him. It was your first time, but by Christopher's moans, you guessed you did good, and you found the hem of his shirt to tug at it. 

He got the hint and quickly got it off, throwing it at the back of the car, completely forgetting about it and giving his complete attention to you. Your hands quickly found their way to his upper chest, pawing at the skin. "Fuck, Chris," you moaned against his ear.

His eyes rolled back as you touched him and moaned in his ear that way, picking up the pace of your movements as he guided you on him. "Yeah, feel good, baby? Like having sex with older men? They're better at it, right? They have more experience… I know what's good for you," his lips trailed down your collarbones, and you moved so he could mouth your boob through your top. He softly bit, making your back arch and you lost control of yourself, becoming unstable on top of him.

He cursed and held your hips up, now he was the one pounding up into you at a rapid and rough pace. Everytime his pelvis met your clit, it sent waves of pleasures throughout your whole body and you felt yourself coming closer to your orgasm.

"Shit, gonna cum," he said in a whisper almost and you moaned in response. "Gonna cum soon too, baby?

- Yeah," you agreed and rubbed your clit as he continued thrusting into you. Both of your movements became sloppy and right when he was about to release, he pulled out of you and fucked his own fist until he came all over his stomach. With that vise in front of you, your orgasm hit you fast and your hips stuttered above him as he was still riding his own orgasm out.

"Fuck," you whimpered and collapsed on him. You were both panting heavily and he was now stroking your hair softly.

"Y/n, you're fucking crazy," he said and you laughed.

___

One of my fav chapters frfr

[calciumcryptid]

Fuck it, We Are Internet Famous AU. Let's go-

After his grandfather passed, Q entered a major depressive episode. He was close with his grandfather, a famous artist, who taught him everything he knew. In a way, he was raised more by his grandfather than his parents (although they deeply loved him). Q retains his desire to paint, to make art, but now it is bittersweet and his grandfather's shadow hangs over every studio session.

He starts streaming to the core five group chat to try and get into the groove. Tan, perpetual recorder, recorded the streams. One night, while bored, Tan edited one with inside jokes and references the group found funny. After a collective viewing experience, Chain suggested uploading the video to YouTube and its how Q's YouTube channel (MaestroQ) was born.

Q has two channels. One is for edited down and planned content, while the other contains his live streams. He gains a bit of a reputation as a semi-anti Bob Ross due to his more sarcastic and snarky remarks despite remaining calm throughout. The live streams gain popularity because people use them to fall asleep, and the shorter videos are edited down down to a process-video and a condensed highlight reel. Art has become fun for Q again.

Meanwhile, Fang and Phum have become popular because they are rich and attractive young men who do some modeling on the side. It doesn't help Phum (accidentally) befriended royalty (Damn Beer) and a popular streamer known for gaming (Mick), which increased the brothers fame.

Matt is another popular streamer known for gaming and art streams, and Toey is his roommate who is known through association. The two have been roommates for years, and Toey crashes Matt's streams constantly (which lead to an iconic series where Matt makes Toey play horror games, except Toey is completely unaffected). Toey finds Q's painting streams relaxing and falls asleep to them.

Now where do the ships fit into this?

Simple: TanFang.

In this universe, TanFang met when they were adults, post-graduation. While I don't have the exact details, their first meeting comes about because Tan approaches Fang due to Fang being vaguely familiar to him. Naturally, Tan assumes Fang went to high school wit him and thought he should say hi. Fang didn't, and is displeased about being interrupted for the fifth time that week. Naturally, this leads to some punches being thrown.

Of course, they get passive aggressive about it.

[ Pun here! Q is sorry about the delay, but we had to take Tan to the doctor. He got punched. Don't worry! He is fine! While he is out of commission, I thought I'd show him up with my editing skills! :D ]

Phum makes a post about taking his older brother to the doctor, and Fang follows up about making a smooth recovery.

Tan and Fang end up having their followup checkups on the same day, where they figure out the misunderstanding. Fang offers to treat Tan to lunch since he was the aggressor, and Tan agrees. Soon they are texting everyday, and a month later they are dating.

They soft launch their relationship and everyone in Fang's comments are commenting about it being the "Maestro Q Editor Guy".

It was a moment in social media.

Out of protectiveness and curiosity, Phum looks up the channel Tan edits for. He watches a couple of videos, but doesn't get that far into the catalogue before he goes to play football with Tan. If Phum got a little farther in the catalogue, he might have seen Peem's little side series where he goes to scenic water locations and does landscape paintings alongside Q.

Instead, Phum finds out about Peem the canon way where he accidentally destroys a painting Q and Peem finished for a video (or maybe a video card). Q and Tan watch in awe as Peem loses it on Phum, kicking him in the nuts, then running off.

Cue more passive aggressive vague posting.

(I think it would be funny if Phum and Q had Internet beef but their fans were unable to figure out why. Randomly one day this accidental influencer and the painter started to quote tweet each other.)

At this point, Toey is friends with Fang and Phum (through MickMatt) and gasps when he realizes Phum is why the latest video has been delayed and bullies his pseudo-older brother into apologizing ("I had a restless night of sleep. Why would you do that to me? *lethal puppy eyes*"). Phum, begrudgingly, does through Tan. Peem mocks him a little ("Now was that so hard?") and says Phum will be forgiven if he helps Peem with a video idea.

Phum agrees ("Whatever you say gorgeous.") and Peem uses Phum as a model for a portrait. Afterwards, Phum asks Peem on a date ("Since I am forgiven, can I take you on a date? *lethal puppy eyes*). Peem agrees because he thought Phum wasn't serious only to be thoroughly swept off his feet. Phum can't stop taking pictures of Peem, and he hard launches Peem as his boyfriend. Peem is pretty, and people need to know Phum scored.

It was also a moment in social media.

Afterwards, Peem becomes fond of Toey, and it (finally) clicks for Toey that he can meet Q through Peem and Tan. Tan is ecstatic for their friend groups to officially meet, unaware of Toey's mission. At the meet-up, Toey harnesses the power of the sun directly at Q. Q, naturally, becomes romantically constipated about this.

Toey suggest Matt should do an art stream with Q, and Matt agrees. The live stream goes well, and Q leaves. Toey notices Q left his pencil box behind, and rushes to give it back. After staring at his pencil box for a bit, Q admits he knows Toey has feelings for him but he has never returned anyones romantic desire before (oh no, where did these demiromantic feelings come from?) and he doesn't know what to do. The two promise to take it slow together, and start dating.

Chain and Pun were the first ones who got together in this timeline, because the viewers picked up on the undertones between and it opened Pun's eyes to his feelings being returned.

Mick and Matt were the second couple to get together in this timeline, as they were online gaming rivals who were teamed-up at a convention's live gaming event. After they won, they started dating. Toey has never third-wheeled harder.

[marisabread]

I was watching YouTube the other day and came across a video with suggestions of things to do with OC's and one of them was making clay figures of them and my mind went "What if I tried that with my version of the listeners?"

So here I am now...sitting at my desk touching clay for the first time since fifth (?) grade and trying to make, at the very least, a torso and up figure of my guardian. I am very much new too this, and am very nervous about the end result but hey! Can only get better from here, right? Tutorials will surely help me.

As I'm writing this my brain had an idea and now I might instead choose Pandora, who knows? We'll see tomorrow.

Thank you GBA, as your channel and stories have given me motivation for trying new stuff like this!

[krissielee]

This past Thursday, Casey Mcquiston was in my town for an event at the library. They were a block from my job—of COURSE I was gonna go!

I headed over right after work and ended up third in line, and it was great to make a few friends while we waited (I got there stupid early lol). Once they let us in, we had the chance to take photos with a balloon arch and with some signs the library had made which I completely forgot about because my goal was getting a good seat. Got a few little trope stickers and CMQ book cover magnets (except The Pairing was a pin) before heading in for a place to watch them speak. I ended up front row, right in front of them.

To be fair, that part wasn’t planned; there were two seats so they could’ve been not right there lol. I lucked out.

Regardless, it was a wonderful talk. I love them???? Like, obviously I love them, but they’re a joy to listen to. They spoke a bit about their writing process and had a few fun anecdotes to share.

A few things they mentioned:

-They are working on their fifth book. It is NOT the same thing they hinted at during the Pairing Tour. It is also NOT a sequel to anything. It is something adult, romantasy, and a bit of speculative fiction in the way OLS was speculative fiction.

-All they can say about the RWRB sequel is that a sequel was announced and that there is some part of a script somewhat written to some degree.

-It’s a LOT harder to write RWRB in this current political climate. They said it was hard before, but that this time around it’s worse. They want it to give hope—just as the first book did—but getting into a good mind space is tough.

-Apparently, the first time they met Nick on set, they had gone to the bathroom and he hid around the corner to jump out and introduce himself to them.

-Their favorite trope is forced proximity.

-If they weren’t a writer, they’d be a booze cruise DJ. Also, they have their boating license in two states.

-They blame You've Got Mail for their love of romcoms, as that was the first movie they went to see in theatre with their mom.

Obviously they said more over the course of their talk but those were a few fun ones. My details may be a little off on the grounds that I was a little starstruck, but the general overview is correct.

I’m hoping the library will YouTube the video like they do with a lot of their Enters the Chat series (they have their TJ Klune video uploaded, for fans of him, and Mark Oshiro, among others), because I want to watch it again.

Anyway, after the talk, they did a book signing, and since I was way up front, I ended up basically last in line—which is fine, because you know, yay new friends, and also it was chill to wait. The host, Jeff Adams, came over to chat with us while we waited, too, and he thanked my new friends and me for being up front and clearly engaged in the talk (side note: who wouldn’t have been engaged????), but he also spoke with Casey back in 2019 just before RWRB was initially released on the Big Gay Fiction Podcast that he hosted, so we got a little insight that way. Anyway, he’s SUPER nice and we nerded out for a few minutes because he’s big into accessibility which is a big thing I care a lot about as well, so yay, connections to keep in touch!

Once he left because he wanted to get home (valid), we just hung out in line: me, the friend I got to come with me, and this adorable little ball of anxiety college girl that I will love and protect for the rest of my life. She was the actual last in line because we decided she deserved that honor.

Casey was an angel, though. They were obviously tired by that point, but they still marveled at my AGCD-coded tabbed to hell and back book, and they loved my Alex Bearmont-Diaz. He was the hit of the night lol. So many people wanted his picture and I was told multiple times he needs his own Instagram account, haha.

There were no posed photos, but the staff were taking people's phones and snapping shots of our interactions. Like I have 41 photos of the few minutes I got with them!

Anyway, long story short … if you ever have the chance to meet Casey, do it! They’re just absolutely wonderful. 🥰

[bobblestheninja]

If my adblock has to be broken on YouTube I would like to be able to choose the kind of ads I get. Because some of the ones I just saw was tolerable, the other nope. In no particular order, with some added as I go

First ad (catalyst for this post): Sour patch kids, like 10-15 second or so at most. Soft music, people dancing around, not too loud. 7/10, doesn't disrupt my video watching too much, doesn't make me angry, and you know what, those things are tasty.

Second ad: Royal Canin, 6 seconds, calm and quiet. Doesn't really disrupt anything, wouldn't wake me up if I was watching stuff to fall asleep. 8/10

Third ad: Meta sunglasses. I don't know how long, but it makes me ANGRY. If I never hear that person say "Hey Meta" again it will be too soon. 5/10, and the 5 is simply because it reminds me how much I hate Facebook and it's good not have fondness for that site.

Fourth ad: some website designing site. like 40 seconds, tells me about how it uses AI for its site and rambles about its features. 2/10, only gets points because it at least tells me which stupid website to avoid in order to avoid AI

Fifth ad: Purina, Dear Kitten. Wasn't an ad I was forced to watch, I went and looked for it because it's a cute series of videos and makes me giggle. 9/10, only reason it loses points is because of length. If I was forced to watch it repeatedly I know I would get annoyed.

Sixth ad (type): the video game ads. They're so LOUD and LONG and it's so ANNOYING. Completely disrupt everything. 1/10.

Seventh ad (type): car ads. I don't care about the most modern cars, even if I did I don't have that kind of money. These ads suck. If you're gonna advertise cars give it to whistlindeisel and have him do a durability test. See if your best in class robot car can handle shit. 2/10, simply because they often have a nice voiceover.

Eighth ad (type): Allstate insurance ads with the mayhem guy, these ads amuse me. If I gotta watch an ad let it have a guy saying "I'm a raccoon" and messing up an attic. 10/10, where did ads like this go, I miss them.

If allowed I would opt in to short ads (only one per video) and would likely actually sit through them if they were only like 5 seconds, not disruptive/overly loud/whatever, or actually amusing. Let me have some control, instead of having to listen to techbros talk about AI.

I may not buy the things, or care about the ads, but at least I wouldn't be getting pissed off every time I went to a new video.

[missyourflight]

hello coming directly from your ao3 comments to your inbox to continue being unhinged your world building in space persuasion was sooo good, and i would love love to hear about the space media that inspired you! i also thought you translated SPACE so so well to F1, and i would love to hear just in general about how you went about making it feel so complete and real! and do you have favourite little details that didn't get a lot of airtime in the fic that you want to shine a light on to make me feel even more insane?

thank you kay!! 💖✨

i love love stories set in space - probably my favourite space film is sunshine (2007) but that is not really the vibe of space persuasion lol. i did make a lil visual inspo pinterest board which features the space casino from the last jedi, the hostesses from the fifth element, the casino de monte carlo and the blue lagoon in iceland (i saw a youtube video while i was warming up to write this fic and i was like, this needs more lake, and also someone take me to the spa pls). daniel's skiff is basically a lift from disney's treasure planet (i looked up some windsurfing terminology and i have Not retained it) and i watched the wachowski sisters' speed racer for some wacky races inspiration. the fleet is somewhere between battlestar galactica and star trek (don't worry about it). unfortunately the whole massive ramp/platform in the middle of the lake setup is heavily influenced by the triwizard tournament, because as loathsome as jkr is sometimes images from childhood stay with us! sticking the rest of this under a cut whoops

secret little details... the whole offscreen galex plot of them trying to pick up max's investigative slack in the background lol (and also they're in love). the annoying AI in daniel's room is my version of michael (sorry not sorry) and max's AI that kind of has his accent is supposed to be like a reminder of his mum (he also keeps the scrap of fabric from his mum's dress and his sister's bracelet with daniel's dogtags). i tried to somewhat mirror the structure of persuasion where there's the big incident at the centre of louisa's fall (daniel's crash in the fic) and then the back half of the story is about them coming back together.

when i write AUs i like to try and use related imagery so in the story there's like the three main strands of space stuff, casino/gambling stuff, and austen/period drama stuff, and all of it made me like unreasonably happy. my favourite space imagery is probably the stuff about comets - daniel remembering them watching comets together on the outpost and then thinking about getting to touch max every few years like a comet returning. favourite gambling image is probably daniel calling himself a bad bet, and also when he describes zak as a busted flush. so many self-indulgent austen references and half-references but a few i like are daniel telling alex he barely recognised max - shoutout wentworth describing anne as so altered he should not have known her again. any time daniel flexes his hand that's 2005 darcy. daniel lying down on the floor is johnny flynn knightley. daniel giving max the dogtags when the only thing he had to offer was himself/wentworth having nothing but himself to recommend him. and so on! daniel half-hoping when he touches max's hand at the gala a ref to the wentworth letter, half agony half hope etc, and then max's version of the letter as well obvs

also it's not austen without dancing imo so rule of three: when daniel bumps into max outside the spa they do an awkward shuffle-dance to get past each other; the actual gala where daniel asks max to dance but max thinks it's a joke; when they fuck and daniel thinks of it as a dance they've always known the steps to.

also i could have probably built up to a bit better but i like the lil bait and switch in the race where he thinks fernando's going to get him but actually it's jenson! and after he called him sweetheart and everything

lol thank you lovely kay for affording me the opportunity to go off about it!! 🪩

[sonsband]

As Catiny’s main vocalist - who do you think has the spiciest vocals in kpop right meow?

How spicey do you mean?

(also if you like discussions of music I sometimes do those on my side blog changdyke and would love to talk about vocalists or music with people! okay shameless plug done)

Well, the spiciest vocals come from Changmin, who is a level 2 spicey boy at MOST. I mean, the 240105 Music Bank high note for "Down"? I don't know how half the boy groups didn't immediately vaporize as soon as he did That. I know it was probably just that he didn't hit the note at first, but he made it sound so good with that dissonance resolving into whistle register? (I would say something about Nissan Stadium Forever Love but until that's back up on YouTube I refuse to contemplate it so I don't burst into tears) But I'm a hater and don't like him so don't put him on the list.

EXID's Solji might not be active right meow, but she just did that musical so she counts!

Of course BTOB, Eunkwang and Minhyuk especially, I mean, "Boom" era was everything to me.

All of A.C.E, obviously, the world is a little brighter for their comeback. I can't wait for Donghun to absolutely devastate me again, but friendly reminder for your daily required viewing of their It's Live performance of "Goblin".

WayV's Xiaojun, I know Mujin Service is pitch corrected but the sheer emotion in "Ashes" is too much. He doesn't need to do as much as he does at all times, but thank god for it.

Does Forestella count as kpop? Because they've got the spice and the spicey vocals. All of them, but Woorim's wife was right to lock him down after that performance of "Bad Romance".

I might be ride or die for Seonghwa Main Vocal When, but back in like February 2021 I said San from Ateez strained a lot and he said "why would you say such a thing? btw hi lesbians" and just immediately went fuckin insane. I'm bummed it happened after they stopped actively promoting it but I will never shut up about how when he gets a mic for "Turbulence" he saves the whole song with that modulation to keep it from being a diminished fifth. I know he's a great dancer but he's vocal line for a reason. Watch "Breathe" btw.

SPEAKING OF "BREATHE"!!!! [edit: I got too excited to jump into IU that I forgot to finish this, sorry, I know it's a Lee Hi song] Lee Hi is that good good alto and the fact she had that voice at debut? We Love Altos.

IU!!!!! GIRL!!!!!!! No list of spiciest vocals would be complete without IU. "Love Poem" should be a UNESCO World Heritage piece of culture. I love her and I can't believe you're keeping her hostage and away from us, Addy.

Fun fact: DK is actually short for "DyKe rights" (editor's note: this is not true) and my sister will let me blast "Hot" in her car specifically so we can vocalize along with his chest voice there. He's got such a good ear.

The Boyz genuinely has some power vocals. Why do you think his name is SANGyeon? That video of him singing in a parking lot plays behind my eyes while I try to fall asleep.

Shownu simply does not get the credit he deserves as a vocalist. His voice is more subtle, so maybe not particularly spicey, but he's my husband and I will not let him go unappreciated on this list. What's the opposite of spicey? That's how I feel about I.M, except he's actually got interesting vocals, he's technically weaker but I think that makes him more interesting vocally. Plus he's the King of Vocal Fry (complimentary).

Another vocal fry master -- Taehyun from TXT. I feel so much about that kid. Most of it good.

For the hags, all of 2pm! (I'm not taking antipsychotics right now so I'm allowed to be delusional and they're active in my heart.) "Make It" was THE song of 2021, no notes at all. And "ADTOY" had no right to be that good. Also we love grown men being grown up spicey.

Woodz, don't talk to me about enlistment if I don't acknowledge it then it isn't happening. The live versions of "Chaser" and "Trigger" and "Accident" and and and and? I think his harmonizing gets overshadowed sometimes by his vocal power, especially since he has to harmonize with his backing track rather than another singer, but bro... bro... Also he was the closest to a Changmin "Mirotic" note, I will ignore any arguments to the contrary.

Red Velvet's Seulgi has really good vocals when she's given the chance to flex them, I really wish we could hear more from her. Underappreciated, tbh.

Highlight's Dongwoon, do we need to talk about that performance of "Fiction" again? Because I will talk about that performance of "Fiction" again. And I choose to believe his scene in "Good Luck" is part of the most watched section because of that little C# Major moment. Yeah his only other band mate Yeoseob is good but I gotta give the crown to Dongwoon. Also his outfits from last May's concerts were so spicey.

I'm so excited for Chungha's comeback. I know she's not really appreciated for her vocals since she's definitely a pop vocalist, but "Play"! I'm not even mad when she uses playback on music shows, she's in chest voice enough.

I can't believe I'm about to put a manlet on this list but Hui's got the spice. He's got the vocals. He deserves. That's all.

And how about Doyeon from Weki Meki. Siyeon from Dreamcatcher (omg that "Overdose" cover). Ailee, obviously. BB Girls Yujeong. Sistar just as a whole but especially Hyolyn, "Layin Low" changed me as a person and I swear it wasn't just the Nicole Kirkland choreo.

Okay I've just powered through so many Vocalists that my brain's been turned to mush. Tell me what else you think!

[cescalr]

When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! Then, send to your last ten people in your notifs (anonymously). You never know who might benefit from spreading positivity <3

Giggling. This is either one hell of a coincidence, or i know out of 3 people who this has gotta be (I hadn't even gotten to the fifth one yet <3). Hehe!! hello totally random mysterious nonnie who sent me this out of the blue!!! Also I've done this before and am about to do another one that is. Stored away in my askbox.... so I'll try for no repeats, but I can't promise that. My memory type is of the sieve classification.

Fanvideos!!! I never shout this out publicly for fear of The Evil DMCA but I adore fanvideos. [LA/G/P/Etc]MVs, Edits, whatever you wanna call em. Fanvids are the bestestest. <3 Soooo cool. so cool. Have a link!

Also sometimes I make terrible anvs myself!! This is the only one truly worth watching It Is My Magnum Opus, I love that vid. It Loops!! These are my most recent WIPs before I lost access to SVP and therefore all my hard work and understanding of editing software in one fell swoop. Yeah.... Learning Davinci is. Slow. Going. Like a snail. Stuck in molasses. I have so many ideassssssss ugh. Ugh! moving on. I love fanvids. They bring me great joy. Next!

2. I loveeeeeeee graphic design. it's a passion of mine /referential joke, but yeah - I do it a lot, or at least I used to; haven't had a need or a chance in the past couple years. Shameful, really. I need to find some time and an excuse to make more of them. Have more links!

CescaLR - Hobbyist, General Artist | DeviantArt

Graphics Galore!

3. kind of obvious, but writing! 1,389,937 is no random number; it's my wordcount on AO3! Wowzer. Hadn't checked that in a hot minute. I got a degree in this shit [Creative and Professional Writing, and absolutely to brag, 1st class with honours! I earned that shit. My 3rd year sucked so bad I had to repeat it, and my first two years were 2020 and 21. Yeah. I'm proud I stuck it through! Bunch of stuff went down I'm not gonna ramble about on main, but damn that was not a super fun 4 years of my life. Met some cool people though! Always a plus.], I better enjoy it lol.

4. Again, obvious, but video games! As a measure of how many I've played since I was a wee babe, 41,851 is my xbox gamerscore alone [I remember the original 360 UI, which I liked much better compared to it's later iterations], not even glancing at steam stats, or the amount of time I put into the various nintendo consoles I've owned (every DS up to 2DS, which I thought was stupid. I want to close that thing! It has a lid for a reason!!), plus the brief possession of a ps2 then a ps4 several years later (I used a ps3, but never had one in my house). I own a VR headset. I Love Gaming So Much. Oh and I have 2k+ hours in the Sims 4. Somehow. And roughly an equal amount in all the versions of skyrim Xbox+PC->Present. Yeah. I don't even play them that much! Which sounds insane to say, but I really don't. I spend more time writing, watching youtube vids, randomly browsing the internet's various fun time wasters, and I used to spend a hell of a lot more time reading - literally lugging around A4 copies of books to school to read in like the 5 minutes between classes. Lol. Lmao. People will really have the wildest conversations in earshot when you're Just Trying To Read, Here, Bud, Do You Really Want Me Knowing That Secret Information About Your Family?. So. Yeah I really don't know how I manage to be as prolific in this as I am, but it's true!! I love video games!!!!!! When I was 10 and my dad told me people make their livings writing stories for video games I started crying tears of absolute wonder. It's one of his favourite memories lmao I just seemed so awed at the prospect lmao! Don't remember that. Glad he does! Video game link thing; currently having my absolute entire soul drained trying to figure out rinworld despite being unable to see a single bit of that HUD. (861) Lore Harbor - YouTube is doing some pretty fun storytelling in the engine [which is what it's for; RW is sold as a story generator moreso than a game, though it's absolutely a colony management sim at its core its also very reliant on your own ability to improv a narrative, which i adore. i love improv so much.]!

5. My favourite evil little creature is the black footed cat, who is a dangerous little adorable killing machine <3 every time i see one of these i immediately start beaming. I'm forever cursed with overactive tear ducts so it's likely they'll start burning too. they're so cute. oh my god. They're teeny teeny tiny. Baby. Murder baby, but still a baby.

Bonus;

Some extra graphics under the cut, namely book covers and tumblr stuff from the archive (my decade-old files stored religiously on SSDs. *slaps PC* this shit can hold fanfics over 14 years old, babey!).

Covers!! Some for use on FFN, some for use on Rolescape (which does not exist yet), made for testing purposes! I'm on the creative team. It's Neat.

FFN; 2 covers and the profile pic:

Rolescape; three potential front covers and the chapter covers:

As always, iterate iterate iterate. I definitely like the mirror one most, though. Also no they're not cropped, it's just that the Hourglass one is a different size (I used that one on FFN, I think, which has different ratio req for the images than RS).

Blog graphics!

^unfortunately this last one is broken atm on the actual page, which is why the screenshot is so.............. wide. I have a normal widescreen 16:9 monitor aspect ratio, not an ultra-wide. Ah well.

Grace remains my one actual singular ever blog graphics request!!!!!!!!!!! So she holds a special place in my heart. I learnt to manip for her. If you can't tell what the manip is That Is The Point (It's her vampire mouth/teeth. actress doesn't have those). I wouldn't do it the same way now but these were the requested colours. I made icons and everything and it never got used LMAO oh well. Good practise nonetheless!

The braeden one was just for fun, saw a cool PSD and really wanted to use it [In A Crowd Of Thousands by someresources and cotton candy by anamakes, who has moved to anasbobashop]. Wanted to see what I could do with this tumblr code floating around that has a funky angled posts scroll... or at least the idea of that as the code itself appears to have disappeared into the aether or presumably the JavaScript ban, alas. Technically the image is the promo but like, that's what I was trying to sell - the blog would have looked basically identical. Don't know why I just said 'sell' i will do anyone whatever graphics they want for free all the time. I love Design TM. [well. Not whatever they want. I have limits! And boundaries! but for free, for sure.]

Youtube:

Can you sense a uniting colour scheme or-

^ first proper 'promo' graphics I made for Malia, I think! On her own blog, anyway. Plus it's sibling multi-promo for my several blogs. Damn. I forgot the order of creation... manymuses was made before don, I think. Hold on Oh my god!!! Baby cesca's graphics!!! I found them!!!

wow that looks so bad <3 I love it

world's worst multi promo. I nailed malia's icon though ngl.

ANCIENT stiles blog!!!! Compare with the current look. I've come so far <3 Do ignore some of the side pages. Tumblr fucked me over when they removed JavaScript and yes, I've asked. they simply refuse to give a girl a break I'm afraid </3

good lord why did i even save that

???

Goddamn. very proboards rp forums of me (that's where I come from!!! the homeland!!! I was FFN -> Proboards -> Tumblr in my trajectory. Probably explains a lot about me.) Also yes I was doing all my work in paint.net, it's an excellent programme.

I found the REAL og malia promo!!!! god. wow. You know i was like ... 16 when I did this. Max. 2016, 2017? Around then. And I was 15 in 2016. So.

Crossed Coyote my beloved <3 I made this PSD colouring in literally 2018 and I never looked back. Perfect Malia colouring.

Last two;

The absolute OG Stiles graphics. Oh my god look at those. Cackling. Could you tell I was a teenager that wrote predominantly angst fanfic or what?

Anyway. That's all the images I can give. Yeah! Graphics!! Since I ran out of images and I still kind of want to gush about this, have my links:

it's crowded here.

Casual and simple style blog, because I needed a less specific look than I usually go for given it's a multimuse and not more.... specific. I don't love the main page but I think it gets interesting in the side pages. Or it *used* to, before Tumblr revoked everyone's JS rights.... sigh. Please forgive that I was in the middle of reworking some pages that had broken due to updates or just needed changing (the other blogs page, mainly, for the latter) when I was suddenly unable to save any changes anymore. Lol. Lmao. Fs in the chat. This is a common theme for the rest of the blogs. I'm going to start with the more underwhelming ones.

Magus Museum

This one didn't even get it's feet off the ground. Sadge. VERY happy with that background image/header image, though!!!!!!!!!!! Seen best on the rules redirect page... which takes you to manymuses' broken ass rules page. tragic.

Poseidon; 'Lord of the Earth.'

I am SO HAPPY WITH THIS ONE. I think it's SO GORGEOUS. AAGH. Tumblr i am pleading at this point give me back my beautiful girl javascript I promise I won't kill your servers

D ᴏ ɴ

a semi-recent partial revamp of this one has occured! Sort of. Several side pages are still as they were before, and thus a little borked. I'm slow, but i am working on it. My fella <3 Making the colouring was pretty fun! Aly at * /themes & resources. has made some truly excellent codes! To note: on every page on every blog all codes should be credited, but a lot of authors use fonticons for that and sometimes those packs break, and as they tend to put the links as very tiny little things, I can lose track of them if they break :(. So at least once a year I go through and check. But rn I think they're all functional! Fingers crossed. Anyway: Don's great. I make a lot of manips for him.

Not sure why I could upload that! Hope it works. These scenes are kitbashed together. It's like playing with action figures but via video. <3 There's... a little visual glitch in this one that bothers me only a tiny amount because im pretty sure i only know it's there because i stared at this for weeks on end. Don't ask. It's mostly because very few editing software UIs are made with blind people in mind. Funny, that! Wonder why a visual editing tool might not think about blind people using it. Lol. Ah well! Such is my lot in life. In the last shot of Don the colour on the side of his head in shadow noticably changes. Sighhhhhh. Still very happy with it though <3

maiden-hours

silly little extra sideblog to the next up on the list (one the earthshaker is also a sideblog to!) that's not even a little done </3 but it's closer than magusmuseum <3. Which is not saying much </3.

вιя∂ѕ σƒ α ƒєαтнєя ƒℓσ¢к тσgєтнєя

you might be able to tell that coffee has made one of my favourite themes (another one is Knuckle Sandwich; the one I'm using on ShadowedStilinski, by 𝔣𝔩𝔬𝔴𝔢𝔯𝔰 𝔟𝔩𝔬𝔬𝔪, [Shiloh]). It's soooooooooo versatile. I adore it. And yes, I did fc Stewart and Pattinson as siblings. I found a picture where they looked eerily similar and rolled with it. Lots of manip making needed for this one! And cool little banners. I love the... like, shattered mirror effect on the main page. My greek blogs are the prettiest bunch IMO. I love mythology <3.

Last! RP blog. You're not getting away that easy.

Not So Holy.

Had to do a quick fix to the main blog page with a new code when the old one broke, so it's not looking it's most polished atm as I didn't have time that day (and then neglected) to do it properly. Still; I like the colouring I made! It suits the Vibe of SPN well. I also dabbled a bit with the carrd trend going on in the RPC when making this, so that's something unique abt this one... redirecting you to a completely different website for no discernible reason. Lol. Lmao. Will probably not change this, but I do think it's kind of silly in retrospect. It looks fine, its easy for me to read, I'm lazy. It's funny half the pages just take you right back to where you came from (the hellsite itself) though! Why did i do any of that. Most of the links back to the tumblr are to unfinished pages...... sigh. JS ban really put a wrench in all my plans and motivational cogwheels.

Cesca's RP Resources.

my first rph blog. No, I don't know why I have two? The whims and throughlines of past cesca's mind are a mystery to all and sundry, especially present cesca. They're also not my problem! That's for future cesca to figure out, if she ever decides to. RN i just assume shadowedgraphics is for my work, while scresources is for things i find that i use and-or like. Which makes sense to me! Anyway; really quick and lazy blog revamp which I literally forgot! I did! i was expecting a worse looking blog than I got. Silver linings? Anyway. At least it's cohesive with my style for personal blogs, now.

Mythos!

For my original fiction <3 worldbuilding and scraps not intended for publishing otherwise. Alas i actually need to be able to finish the blog to use the damn thing, and tumblr hates me personally /joke. oh well! I still think she's pretty even if she doesn't display properly <3

Cesca's Simblr.

nukl sammitch again!! <3 My simblr, atm. Thinking of revamping it........ again. Do like it though! <3 just want to use a newer, better sim of mine as the mascot. Thinkin of my c!joel one.............. he's one of my best. Anyway; it's not like i'd have much to revamp, most of the pages aren't finished thanks, once again, to our reoccurring nemesis the javascript ban. Grr arrgh shake my puny fist up to the sky as if something exists out there to witness my impotent rage /frustrated joke to feel better about this grave annoyance! Also you can tell it's been ages since I worked on most of these because i am 20 no longer. 4 years......

Noli pati a scelestis opprimi

ANCIENT BLOG. ancient! I forget she even exists! By the way that's the latin for don't let the bastards keep you down but grammatically correct when compared to the usual latin version people throw around. The more you know! Anyway. I made this a long time ago and honestly she's a dead blog. a corpse. I just believe in archival so I've left her be. Like in a museum or something. Or more like taxidermy. My eyes hurt looking at this these days </3 the curse of degenerative eyeballs.

This Tumblr Thing.

Ye ol' faithful!!!!!!! The blog you're currently visiting. My enjoyment of neon is at constant war with my light sensitivity, thank you for asking! I make it work. The tag page is really pleasing to look at for me. Colours <3. Thank tumblr itself (for once in it's lifetime) for the colours i use the most for everything - the goth rave tumblr theme changed me fundamentally as a person /joke but yeah for real i yoinked my palette straight from the dashboard. I love goth rave so much you don't understand

[crowscommunion]

A lot of people don't know this, but you can also sort viewers by area, age, and gender as listed on their account. Whether they're a returning viewer, whether they watched the video multiple times, if they're subscribed and returning or not, what means they took to view the video, etc. What websites they externally clicked to view my video, what method of messaging or what social media sites they've shared my videos, and the exact date of each occurrence. I can see if someone either one time or repeatedly viewed my videos via Playlist. What search terms they typed in to get to my videos.

Knowing that demographic has been pretty useful.

A majority of my normal views are from browsing data, unless someone specifically went out of their way to go to my channel- which would be kinda out of the ordinary, especially for Short videos, because most people happen upon YouTube Shorts via their suggested algorithm. The things I post are typically happened upon by people using browsing or search terms, my page generally isn't the type of page people would go directly to my page to click on my videos from there. Even my subscribers, and vast majority of them still turn up as browsing data, because it was suggested to them on their For You page.

So really anything outside of that browsing data, especially on my unlisted videos, isn't normal.

Especially if one of my videos from a few months ago gets 4 direct link views and 2 channel page views in one day, while all of the other days have no new data.

I do check back every week or so, sometimes monthly, to see which videos have new data. There's a page to view all videos which recieved one or more views, and when one of my videos from 5 years ago that's unlisted ends up on that page, it's pretty noticeable.

Especially when no one can access them without a direct link to them. If it were a share link I had previously posted, it would show up as "external" and I would be able to view the website it was shared on.

But I can see what websites, whether it be snap chat, discord, Facebook messenger, etc, I can see where the link was shared to result in the view.

Like messenger, for example, is one of the most frequent places my video has garnered a direct link view. I don't use messenger to share my videos.

Even back when I had about 150 subscribers.

It doesn't really make sense for this old one to have three times as many channel page views as I had subscribers at the time, and having direct link views measuring a fifth of the channel page views is not how that usually happens.

That one had 479 views altogether, more than half of them someone went to my channel to view, and only has 380 unique viewers, meaning one view short of a full hundred of those views were repeat views. A little over 20% of the views on that video were repeat views, which is absurd.

That shit is creepy, man.

How many times do you usually view a video?

Usually once. No normal person goes back and commits to 100 views of a video they've already seen, people don't do that. Especially when these repeat views are from a person not subscribed to me who is from my area.

And eerily enough, 18 (about 50%) of the search views were someone had specifically searched my name, and my name isn't one other people really have. So factor that into the browsing data, which adds an additional number of views attributed to someone specifically going out of their way to view that video.

To put that into perspective, only 32 of the video views were from people clicking from their regular suggested videos or by browsing. In any of my regular video topics, a majority of the views are from browsing and suggested videos, or searches using terms relative to the video, like "cat" or "cute."

That's why it's so jarring.

[eurovision-revisited]

Eurovision 2007 - Number 25 - Marie Lindberg - "Trying to Recall"

Marie Lindberg was a schoolteacher with a song in her, and that song was, specifically Trying to Recall. In 1998, the year she embarked on her career as a teacher, she sat down with her guitar and came up with this song. She must have known she was on to something, but at the time it would appear that her new career was her priority and she shelved it.

Her musical life had been nurtured by attending her local municipal musical school and initially taking up the accordion, but later taught herself the guitar. Her husband was also a member of dansband Date - who themselves had already appeared at Melfest. Perhaps it was this connection that finally convinced her to submit her song to Melfest in 2005 - a year when there was a slot reserved for female composers.

That slot went to Nanne Grönvall, but SVT encouraged her to try again. She did try again in 2006 without luck, then finally in 2007, she was picked and Trying to Recall would be heard by the Swedish public.

Maybe SVT knew it would do well, even though this is not what you'd think of a Melfest song. It's a traditional guitar-picked, singer-songwritten song of a relationship breaking down. Images of small sadnesses adding up to a big emotional bruise even as the lyrics are reflecting and accepting of the situation. There's no turn or twist. There's no getting back together again. There's only

I'm not sure it's gonna be you and me any more.

which is possibly the single most devastating sentence ever sung at Melodifestivalen.

Even as the nerves get to Marie's voice, the tenderness and fragility is apparent. It's quite, quite beautiful, even if it's not what you'd typically expect to hear here. That beauty, vulnerability and honesty left their mark on the watching public.

It had been placed in the second semi-final up against the more conventional appeal of Jimmy Jansson and Swedish superstars The Ark, and still it managed to finish second. Marie qualified directly for the final with a huge televote. In that final, which was possibly one of the most starry ever, she finished fifth.

Even though Marie was entirely outside the record industry, prior to Melfest she had contacted a record company and they agreed to publish both Trying to Recall as a single as well as Marie's debut album. Straight after Melfest, the single went to number four in the charts and her album went to number one.

Not only was the music special, but Marie's story and journey from being an elementary school teacher in Munkedal to the stage of the final of Melodifestivalen, surrounded by glam and schlager and then to the top of the album charts was itself something that filled newspaper columns that spring. As someone has written in the YouTube comments underneath this video, this kind of thing doesn't happen any more.

Ultimately she was a one-hit wonder and returned to teaching, but what a hit it is.

[anewtemporaryspace]

Pattaya impressions

The hotel is nice to look at, it is cylindrical and ringed with semi circular balconies, and from far away the balconies give the impression of waves, like a standing wave pattern in one of those physics diagrams about light.

We have the morning off but I have forgotten to bring my charger and cannot install Slack on my phone. Afraid of being left behind, I roam the hotel hoping to run into someone from the group. I go out to the pool but it is too hot and too bright. A little girl with down syndrome is playing with her sister in the shallow end of the pool. Occasionally she will stop and scream. Her mother says something in Thai - presumably don't scream, in a gentler and more unbothered tone than I think a Singaporean mother would. The girl and I make eye contact. Not for this reason - but rather because it is getting too hot - I get up and go out to the lobby instead.

I sit on a bench just outside the lobby and watch people enter and leave the hotel. Some of these people are very old and very fat. Maybe they've come here to retire. A fat old couple dressed in beach clothes wander out together. The doorman greets them with a smile that drops once they have their backs turned. Then two fat women alight from a van. Each one is carrying a bag of fruit: Pineapple, mangosteen, and other tropical fruit. Later a black lady comes out from the hotel. She sits at a table and smokes a cigarette alone. I make eye contact with her too, when she is on her way back inside. I wonder what these people will do if/when they get lung cancer. Will they be treated in a hospital here, or will they go home?

I go back out to the swimming pool, and this time I run into two of my coworkers. One of them is Thai and the other one has moved to Thailand from India with his wife and his parents. He is Sikh and wears a yellow turban. I find out that there is another swimming pool on the fifth floor, and the three of us take the lift up to see it. The Sikh coworker takes photos of the pool from all angles, and I wonder why he is so obsessed with pools until he tells us this story of the strangest thing that ever happened to him. Once, while on a trip with his coworkers from his previous company, he went on a banana boat ride. As a prank, the driver took them all the way out to sea then capsized the banana boat. Since he couldn't swim, he wasn't able to paddle back to the boat. He had his life jacket, but all he could do was float. Everyone else got on, and no one noticed he was gone. They returned to the shore while he bobbed up and down, getting pushed further and further out to sea by the huge waves. Like this he remained for a long time. He shouted for help but no one could hear him. The banana boat ride operator went out to lunch. He felt himself getting weaker... and then, out of nowhere, a European man appeared. The European man picked him up by the back of his life jacket and brought him back to shore.

"This is the strangest thing that has ever happened to me."

The incident left him with a phobia of water - until he overcame his phobia by watching youtube videos and teaching himself to swim. Hearing this story, it made more sense to me that he could not stop taking photos of the pool.

[luminescentwind]

1048.

Just watched Unedited Footage of a Bear. So far I've seen Alan Resnick's alantutorial YouTube series, This House Has People in It, and now this.

I've loved every one of them, although alantutorial is still probably my favourite, mainly because of the sheer dedication that went into it. That, and the twist, of course. But there's also something about the overall vibe of it, how you're not sure if Alan (the character) is a bit dumb or if he straight-out has a severe mental problem. Seems to be the latter towards the end. Then there's that little room they put him in and how much more disgusting it keeps turning with every video. The thought of that rotating leg in the darkness still sends shivers down my spine.

The thing that actually stuck with me most about Unedited Footage of a Bear was not the plot itself but a drum beat that can be heard at about the 03:50 time mark, when the ominous doppelgänger appears. Just sublime music. Tried to find it but it hasn't seemed to be released officially. A pity. But in my short web expedition to try and find it, I somehow ended up somewhere entirely different.

Turns out a guy has been uploading videos to YouTube, for years, of himself sitting and smiling in front of the camera. Each video is about four hours long. Not malicious at all, but it does seem quite strange. One of those weird YouTube rabbitholes.

And here's where it gets interesting: on his fifth video, sounds can be heard somewhere in the house, and suddenly a guy opens the door just behind him and says hello. It was a burglar who had just broken into the house. The sitting and smiling guy, Benjamin, continues to sit and smile at the camera, and the burglar closes the door and leaves. Must have been absolutely creeped out. Then, in another video, he straight out pees himself and continues smiling. I get it must be some kind of meditative state for him but god it's strange to look at. In a way, it does seem like something Resnick might pull out, except that there's no sign that would lead anyone to believe —I think— that this might be some kind of bigger production.

On a separate note, earlier today I also watched a short documentary about the Kowloon Walled City in Hong Kong. I started reading about the city after looking up where the inspiration for Kakurenbo (another short film I love) had come from. Interestingly enough, the documentary was in German, so it gave me a chance to practice my listening skills. Living in that place must have been a nightmare, but I find it so interesting that it never collapsed or exploded, given just how unstable and topsy-turvy everything was in there. Poor water and electricity supplies, illegal work taking place, no light but a few lightbulbs here and there. The whole thing is just amazing.

Things like these keep me forever interested in learning more about humanity. We seem to never run out of new things to learn.

[froggayzfartz]

Hi Starry!! I hope your doing good✨✨

Oh woah Korean barbecue 🍖 sounds sick! (Lmao that meat emoji) I always wanted to go to one of those. Was it the full deal where they like cook it infront of you? I cant remember the last time i went out to eat lol.

I had to get up early today so now i have extra time for a mindful moment

maybe your lucks working im straight chillin with my kitty rn🥴 (not straight tho lol) whishing you all the joy back at you✨💕✨ im addicted to finding gifs or making them hehe l like to have one for every mood

Yas new year good vibes⭐️✨

Omg funny you mentioned your fic🥴 i may have read the whole thing last night i was gonna dm you about it😄 ITS SO GOOD SKFDGAJFBJVNS! im so invested ngl. Your so good at imagery like its so viby in my head. I absolutely love the scenery and tyler snuggling with the cows 🐄 is everything to me. And the way he cooled them off with his ghostyness *chefs kiss* it kinda reminded me of my town except i wish i could snuggle the cows😆 and he scared josh!? Heheh i cant wait to see how they interact and oh my god joshs stickers on everything is so real!And the ❄️ snowy oh ms believer scene was 😭it was stormy when i read it and it was so calming cant wait to find out more of his lore😏 and debby😭😭 and jim😍😍😍 i hope tyler gets to pet him😞 poor guy. I kinda pictured their apartment like the one in Goofy Boss its a gay anime lmaooo just kinda (lol oh ms believer just came on) let it simmer ill be here

I totally get talking to your friends about your special interests thats how some of my old friends are it doesnt hit quite the same

That makes total sense that it would take a while to chill after moving out. Redefining chilling and happiness i suppose. Like you dont know quite how much your enduring till you truly get to treat yourself? Ty for rooting for me🥴🫶🫶 i appreciate uu

Im bulding a list with the stuff you mentioned too😄😂

AAH you like free😄 i got really obsessed with it when i was in like fourth or fifth grade LOL i dyed my hair red and trying to cut it like Rin 🙂‍↕️(it looked rough) i just rewatched it recently i also hadnt seen some of the newer seasons. Dans haru body pillow😂😂 One of my dark secrets is in forth grade i made my mom buy me a levi body pillow from attack on titan😑*shaking my head* he made me feel better about that lol. And omg your rommies so cool for that😆 i wouldve loved to see that. 50% off?? Oh i just looked it up and watched the first two😂😂😂 i will be watching them all i cant believe i didnt know this existed 😂 thank youu🫶

Ooo yeah Inuyasha is hella enticing i love his kitty ears. Its goin on the list

Rurouni Kenshin sounds so good omggg its going on the list too.😝Ive never heard of it. I totally get what you mean i had a lot of characters like that. Like jude from 6teen for example hense the name 😵‍💫

Oh dang that sounds cool i love watching video essays maybe ill try to find it. Sounds fun😄

My youtube is shared with my brother and rn there just old doll videos from when i was a kid lolll and some songs from the clancy show. But im hoping to be making more videos soon especially with a new camera. Hehehe thank you😆💕

Your pen pal

Jude🙀

Howdy, Jude! What's good? :)

(this is a modified version of the game "what doin'", in which you ask your friends "what doin'?" and it facilitates a conversation. I never know what to ask about in asks, so I'm playing what doin'. But I figure asking "what doin'?" would probably provide a boring answer like eating food, so I modified it to "what's good?" which pretty much opens up the floor for you to talk about what ever is good in your life right now :)). Sorry if this seems very autistic, I'm probably very autistic, and I decided to embrace it today.)

Omg hiiii Starry! (Idk if thats cool i love all your names lmk) :3

Im so glad u sent this im also very autistic so i have a hard time initiating conversation. 😆 As for whats good in my life right now hehe um🤔 my cat 🐈‍⬛ (as always). OH and dans mullet lmaoo. Got my lisence recently besides that just basking in the winter depression currently drawing and playing totk🙂. How about you?🥴 How are you doing whats good in your life right now? Id love to know🫶

[the-firebird69]

Watch "Footloose (1984) Trailer #1 | Movieclips Classic Trailers" on YouTube

This is one of my favorite movies and his two he says and he loved it we had a lot of fun and we danced and it was a fun movie to watch and then fighting over stuff too and it was a joy we went to the movie theater and something like grateful valley in Worcester it's kind of a depressed area but people loved it and they're dancing outside a little bit more carefree they're drinking but they had a good time and started seeing some rude s*** and we're dancing a little and then they got rude so we left so he was kissing me in the car and we drove away and at that time he had it was me Melissa and they had borrowed the car and he can't remember which one it was since the Delta 88 I think and they're kind of getting in the way they drove around and they tried to get in the way it was too fast so we're leaving and they start screaming we all want to dance with you so I said not right now you crazy people and they laughed really you don't know what they're going to do their behaviors little rough at times so we left and we heard that some of them were sad because there's were mean and listen to some elements around it's dangerous and they looked at me find clothes and they got mad and they found out who they are and where and it was awful it was terrible people got hurt and we had a tough time after that it was just because we went and had to do some night and they wanted to make a big deal out of it because thier jerks

Mop caa

Will your father and mother and we say had a good time you saw her ruined it and it was them and everyone's after them now from that last comment they're not going to leave it down now and yeah a few comments before I added up to this now they're going after the ship and BJ went around and Mac was angry but he said okay go in there and they're having fire fights and they're very bad

Olympus

It's a couple of announcements of the fighting is very heavy in the North country is intense and there are four mega ships that are getting ready and the fifth that is big they are going to probably be ready right around the time of Oblivion the movie and yeah that's coming up it might not seem like a lot but even 1% or so down here and on the Eastern seaboard it's like 2%. That's a lot of people and people are wondering why I was saying it when this event occurs the moloch will be blamed partially is there involved and it looks like you're trying to get them up and out which is ridiculous they don't have a way to infiltrate but it's going to look that way and the movie freeze out or day after tomorrow forces people down so you see it and the clothes do it again and it actually gets rid of all the warlock is it on the East Coast they're almost pretty much all pushed out including for Florida and it happens in within a week and a half or so 2 weeks and then those ships are going to launch it's a huge event for us and you'll be surprised how much work they've been doing the next row of ships they're going to get ready that would be the Midwest and we think they'll try and get them out there before they launch. And that movie I am the highway it's audioslave they go out and back like five times and it was looking at it's different vehicles different people and it's always cuz Jason's like the whole thing he's just a baby and he knows what's going on yes okay stuff's getting ruined. We don't think our son is going out there and it's too crazy it's a war zone and it's not worth it he went out there might make it way too hot but we have to see what it is he's going to be sitting next to one if he doesn't get money he can't move away from it there's a couple things but we know what our plan is and it's decent and afterwards just be a pain in the next two so we're looking at this and we know what happens and you can't tell from the video and he thinks the last one would be the clip to look at that's true so some mystery and he's okay with it wants to know but wait. It brings us back to the schedule we do think that the freezer and such would happen first I'm trying to push people out of the North and on the West Coast they say they might be a freeze out there and it really show One sub. But James bonds I might be somewhere off of Alaska and there was a submarine in that movie and it comes up through the ice and it looks like that ice castle might be some place to assembly 20 ft device and second mirv too

We published now is very important

Thor Freya

Goid

Mac

Yes good

Hera Zues

Olympus

[barry-j-blupjeans]

For the Monster Mash prompts- 10 and Blupjeans please :)

10. Zombie? Nah, that’s just my buddy. 

--

Barry had a boring life and he was not afraid to admit it. He worked the night shift at a graveyard, which meant he never went out anywhere (not that he ever wanted to). He ate oatmeal every evening before work and brought along a bag of granola to munch on during the night. He liked collecting and pressing flowers because it was an excellent way to have something to look forward to. He ate TV dinners afterward and watched a collection of shows that hadn't had any new epsodies in about thirty years. The most exciting thing he had to do was tell people to get off the grass.

Tonight was no different than any other night. He had done his second perimeter patrol and was working his way through the rows. He went passed the cracked stone pillar that Mr. and Mrs. Johnson were under and took a right at the marble stone of Hewy Louis's grave. They really needed to cut the grass sometime soon, but Barry supposed they wouldn't do it until the fifth of next month like they always did. Still, it was long enough to tickle his ankles, and if it got any longer, it'd be hard to see Percy Gate's grave from where the marking sat in the ground.

Another turn. And another. Barry absentmindedly tried to dislodge the piece of oat that was stuck in his teeth. He rounded section E off and shone his flashlight over it one last time before making his way toward section F. The sooner he got through with this round, the sooner he could go back to his post and watch a cooking video on youtube that went way over his head.

Yes, Barry Bluejeans was a boring man with a boring life. Nothing cool or exciting ever happened to-

Chunch.

Barry turned, his flashlight held high. He scanned the rows of section F, trying to find where the sound came from. A raccoon, probably, or an opossum. Maybe a deer, if he was lucky. It wasn't unusual to get animals in here around this time of night, but one must have hit a headstone or walked over a marking, because that was definitely not the sound he usually associated with the critters around here.

Chunch!

Okay, no, that wasn't an animal. That sounded more like shifting dirt. Barry tilted his right ear up, listening for something more. He turned when he heard the sound again. It wasn't coming from section F, but rather the secluded path leading between it and section C. The tall grass had worn away to dirt over here, leaving an empty space next to the fences. It was a good few dozen feet away from the nearest graves and as Barry approached, the sound got louder.

The hairs on the back of his neck stood up as he got a closer look. A fair bit off the beaten path, there was a decent size bump in the ground. There were no animals in sight and, thankfully, no people either. The last time someone had tried to grave rob, he had nearly shit his pants out of fear. For a moment, the graveyard was silent except for the crickets and Barry's breathing.

There was a loud thump beneath his feet and he scrambled back, nearly dropping his flashlight. The mound of dirt shuddered and shifted, overturning slightly. And then there it was again- the crunching, shifting sound of dirt. It happened once more, and then twice, getting louder as more dirt overturned.

A mole, Barry thought wildly. It's a mole. It's expected from some kind of zoo and inhabited the graveyard, which is normal and totally fi-

Something shot up from the ground and Barry fell back with a yelp, this time definitely dropping his flashlight. He hurried to pick it up, but his hands were too sweaty to get a grip on it the first time, so he had to try again. In the dark, he could make out another thing emerge from the ground, creating a hole in the dirt. By the time he got the flashlight back in his hands, a larger part of it was emerging.

It was a head. And hands- arms, now- pulling themselves up from the ground. Their skin was a warm brown but it was covered in dirt and grass and bits of rock. They settled their elbows on the ground and pulled the rest of their body up, disrupting the ground. There were leaves and twigs in their- in her hair, as if she had just been running through a forest. When she finally got all the way out, she kneeled, panting. Her clothing was ripped, bloody in someplace. Barry felt a little sick.

Finally, she seemed to notice him. No. No, she noticed the light first, and squinted up at it, before realizing he was attached to it. They stared at each other.

Her eyes were so bright.

What was the protocol for this? Barry had been working here for so long that he couldn't even remember what the rules and regulations folder looked like. What was he supposed to say to his boss? "Heyyy, this is my friend, I know she looked super dead and zombie-like, but it's chill, I promise. We're buddies now! Also, ignore the huge hole in the ground please"? How in the world was he supposed to phrase that??

"Where-" she cleared her throat and it turned into a coughing fit. Maybe she wasn't dead? Did zombies near to breathe? She certainly needed to breathe and she was gasping for air like she hadn't had it in years. Which like, maybe? No, no that didn't make sense. She was alive. Normal, alive woman who came out of the ground and needed his help. Barry shuffled towards her, patting her hard on the back. A glob of dirt came out of her mouth.

"My name is Barry," Barry said. "Who- how can I help you? What can I do?" She took another large breath and it came out in a wheeze.

"Where's Taako?" she panted. "I- I need Taako-"

"Are you... hungry? Or-?"

"No," she said, jerking her gaze toward him sharply. "My brother. Taako. Where is he?"

"I- I don't-"

"He's probably looking for me," she said, now looking over Barry's shoulder as if Taako would be right there. She tried to push herself back to her feet but stumbled and fell back down. Barry caught her before her knees could take the brunt of the damage.

"Careful," he said. "I can help you look for him. Maybe we should, uh, call the police or-"

"No," she said, with such finality that Barry didn't even question it. "Taako was- Taako was right here, by the- the... where are we?"

A lack of oxygen from being buried alive could probably cause brain damage, Barry was pretty sure. Barry pursed his lips. Was this like, a dementia situation, where you shouldn't tell the person what was actually accurate and went along with what they wanted? Better, uh, better safe than sorry, Barry figured.

"Where do you think we are?" he asked. The women looked at him like he was the insane one. Yeah, sure, whatever, he couldn't fault her. He'd probably be mixed up too if someone had tried to bury him alive.

"Long Oak Forest," she said. "Where do you think we are?"

Ohhh, boy. This was going to be a long night.