#went through all the stages of grief now I'm just laughing my ass off - it's so bad 😂

[jaymber]

I wouldn't have become a Dabi defender if it wasn't so easy

Like, listen, reached the backstory episode and... Duuuuude, it's so bad at depicting Dabi as this " born pure evil without Endeavor's implications" character like it's a joke, right?

"He almost hurt his baby brother."

Social Learning. Huh, wonder how he learned to express his emotions through agression? From the friends he doesn't have, I'm sure. Ugh, kids these days...

"He insulted his mother."

Yeah, I'm sure he learned about his family's situation and the words he used at school.

"He was sexist."

It's sooo weird to see his "women 🙄" comments have been unlearned as an adult.

But nothing. Nothing can outmatch the fact he's referred to as a sociopath.... a disorder you can't be born with, but that you aquire as a coping mechanism in response to childhood trauma.

I'm not mad. I'm amazed it's so badly handled.

[felswritingfire]

Homelander x Chaotic! Hyper Fem!Reader

The Homelander brainrot is real and I hate it with my whole being. I want this man dead, he's so pathetic. Anyway, I haven't watched The Boys but I'm hooked on his character thanks to falling down the rabbit hole with Character.Ai and all the talented writers for The Boys fandom, like? Absolutely scrumptious works. Also I just really wanted to write for a chaotic reader, the hyper fem part came after lmao

TW: This was written with a AFAB reader in mind so there's descriptions of Reader wearing a skirt, no pronouns specified; Homelander's creepiness is considerably toned down for this, but he does break into reader's apartment and actively stalks them; Reader says some saucy stuff; Cussing; Homelander has a panic attack/mental break down; Reader is a horny virgin; Age Gap, it's only mentioned once or twice, but it's still there and prevalent; Gen Z humor- reader is a Gen Z baby, they're in their early 20s

"You didn't tell me that Homelander had a slutty ass waist." The words caught him off guard. They were whispered. Somewhere in the crowd. His eyes fought to stay glued onto the press speaker, his smile twitching ever so slightly.  The comment had hung in his head, floating around like a phantom, even as he took the stage and did his speech perfectly. Like always. He preens as the people clap and cheer for him.  Then the voice chirps out, in the safety of the cheering and the noise: "Homelander? More like Sluttylander, am I right?" He hears a scoff after that, zeroing in on the conversation now: two women. No older than their mid 20s. "Hey, I mean that respectfully." "You know he's like 20 years older than you, right?" "I'll bend him over and make him call me daddy. I'm not a coward." A cackle. He had scanned the crowd while keeping a smile plastered on his lips. He was curious what foul mouth little shit was talking. Until his gaze lands on… you.  You look like the cat that got the cream as you look at your friend who has to hold onto you for support as she giggles and laughs. Your bright eyed gaze moves from her back to him just to tense as you catch his gaze. "Um," you elbow her- Renae- to get her attention and she giggles before she looks and she's freezing too. "He isn't looking at us is he?" She shrugs. "I don't know…" she trails off. You squint before covering your mouth with your hands, talking just loud enough for Renae to hear you but no one else. "Blink twice if you can hear us." It was a joke. There's no way- And then he's blinking. Once. Twice.  "Oh bitch-tits." You want to scream, grabbing Renae's wrist, pushing through the crowd. "Fuck, dude, this is going to be my thirteenth reason, I swear to fuck-"  He watches the two of you go. He shouldn't be interested. You're just some snot nosed kid. But… how you spoke, the chaotic-ness of it all. The way the light caught your hair, the curves of your body, the way that skirt flares up as you scurry away... he's intrigued to say the least…

💫 Homelander wasn't normally so… interested in the general public, but he had been quick to commit your face and voice to memory. He had actually stumbled upon you, finding out you worked at some high-end retail job. You dealt with snooty people and all the while kept up that pretty little customer service smile despite the clear signs of barely concealed frustration searing under your skin. He could smell the heat of your blood and watched you through the building's walls when you went on break and sat down stiffly, just to scream into your hands. It started out as something funny because he found your misery amusing and then the descent into madness started.

💫 It was like he went through the five stages of grief. At first he had convinced himself that he keeps watching you out of sheer amusement. And then he started to take in more pieces of you: how you took care of things you treasure; how you cared and cooed at the plants that were in your house; how you talked to that damn fish that your treasured so much; your little mannerisms- things he started to find… cute. Then it was denile: no he didn't find you cute he found you amusing. He laughed when you seethed about your toast burning; how you had a breakdown as soon as you got off work because the crushing weight of living in a capitalistic society came crashing down on you; how you talked to yourself like you were having a full blown conversation with another person- you were amusing. And then came the realization and then rage: how dare you make him feel like this? You were just a sniveling little thing. He was a god. How dare you? And then came acceptance. He was… casual when he accepted it. Like all the turmoil had fallen off his shoulders. He was watching you, taking in how you nurtured your "plant children", how you talked to them and wiped the dust off their leaves. It made his heart flutter.

💫 After that, his casual viewings become much more of a time investment as he pays closer and closer attention to you. Every waking moment he has when he's not busy juggling the press and Vought, is spent watching you. Taking in information and storing it in his brain for safe keeping: what you like to eat; your favorite type of plant; your dream vacation; what type of fish you have (you have a betta. He searched them up. He learned all about them to feel closer to you). 

💫 Soon enough, observing isn't enough. He starts to go into your apartment when you're not home, looking at the coziness of your space. Taking in the scent and looking at your plants and your Betta fish that flares his gills at him. It makes him snort in amusement. How cute. He'll lay on your bed, shoving his face into your pillows and inhaling deeply, moaning in contentment. 

💫 He also starts to "coincidentally" run into you on the streets. He finds it so funny each time you gawk at him. A "holy fuck!" Leaving you as you gesture wildly, "it's fucking Homelander!" 

○ He's not too keen on your potty mouth, but he supposes he can let it slide. He's just as bad.

💫 He smiles his charming little smile as he'll make small talk with you, his hands on his hips as he takes you in. He loves knowing how much stronger he is than you and he has to fight hard to keep from popping a boner. You're so fun to talk to, you say the most out of pocket things:

"Yeah, like, almost got stabbed by a homeless man today. Like, 0/10 would not recommend." You said, looking at your nails. Frowning about the nail polish already chipping. "Yeah, well, not many people put 'being stabbed' at the top of their list of things to happen to them." He replies with a laugh, moving closer to you, taking in that mellow perfume you wear. "I mean, I'm down for knife play, but I'm a classy slut. You have to take me to dinner first." He's flabbergasted. He loves it.

💫 He begins to insert himself into your life, taking up more and more of your free time, you don't even notice it at first. How he just… starts spending time at your home. How you two begin a ritual of movie night every Saturday (he forced Vought to make that day his off day. He was not to be called under any circumstance short of the world going to implode on itself). You have so many emotions in that body of yours and he finds it amusing when you gasp or a look of disgust crosses your face at something a character did. You'd be horrible at poker.

"What the fu-" He has an easy smile on his face as he wraps his arm around your shoulders and places his hand over your mouth. Not threateningly. More playful than anything. You simply hold onto his hand with both of yours as you watch the screen. 

💫 You catch him off guard all the time. Your girly appearance gives nothing away to the chaotic tendencies. You were the closest thing to an actual agent of chaos he's seen. He once watched you, while you were with that little friend of yours- Renae- run across the street as a group of men cat called you, swinging your purse at high velocity speed, yelling: "I'll fucking end your bloodline!" The men were terrified and scurried off screaming "crazy bitch!" You had given Renae a thumbs up, proud of yourself. He also watched you steal a pro-life abortion sign "saying Jesus wouldn't want this" and javelin throwing it into someone's backyard pool before bolting down the street, cackling. Both times in heels. Both times he was weirdly turned on. 

💫 He likes how girly you dress. He loves it actually. He loves all the soft pastel colors you wear and the pleated skirts. It makes you look soft and delicate and he's obsessed with it. He has a tendency to pull at the hem of your skirt, flick it up slightly. You just give him a dead stare and lift up your skirt. "Shorts, bitch." You do it every time and he thinks it's funny.

💫 He hates that you're home screen is a collage of Soldier Boy with that stupid cursive font saying: "my daddy is super dead, but he could still hit it <;3". He hates it and then your lock screen is of your fish.

"Why do you have that?" He asks with disdain.  "What?" She asks looking up at him. He rolls his eyes. "Don't play stupid. Why is he your wallpaper? He's dead. He's been dead." Sure, that was his hero but like hell he wanted to see that man's charming smirk on your homescreen. "Soldier Boys is hot." You say it with all the seriousness of someone telling a prophecy. Homelander's eye twitches. "And I'm not." "No. You are. With your slutty waist." She assures him. "But Soldier Boy is the OG daddy." He scoffs. 

● He ends up stealing your phone later on when you're not looking and changing the wallpaper himself, having memorized your password.

💫 For as flirty and raunchy your mind was, you were oddly freaked out of genuine touch. The first time he tried to make a move on you, you screamed and almost gave yourself a concussion with how you fell over the arm of the couch. He was stunned until you explained you had issues with romantic touch. "Daddy issues, am I right?" She tries to play it off with a laugh. He is not laughing. Later, though, he starts to find it amusing, taking the chance to make you squirm and blush is so funny to him. He revels in your pain and embarrassment.

● He has killed people who had done the same. Like, actually snapped a guy's neck for it.

💫 He is NOT thrilled when you talk about wanting to rail fictional characters. He actually gets pouty. Genuinely gets pissy. He tries to ban you from watching anime.

"But. Toji hot." "I don't care if 'Toji hot'. He spits. "Toji is a fictional character. You need a real man that knows how to please you." You look at him, eating a spoonful of cereal despite his protests about eating it so late. You chew slowly and swallow. "Toji's got that potent dad nut. It works, John." Homelander practically chokes on his spit at that.

💫 He lets you call him John. He likes when you call him John. Call him John.

💫 He actually tries to be better for you because you've voiced how you didn't like when people get hurt. He tries. Key word tries to be more aware, to be a better person. Just for you. 

💫 Absolutely goes insane if you praise him. It's all he wants and all her craves. You've casually complimented him once and he's latched onto it ever since. He's infatuated with your praise. He's like a puppy, looking to you after he did a good deed, looking to you when he does a chore right. It's almost better than sex for him. Almost.

💫 He's elated when you let him lay in your lap. Despite how squeamish you were about sex, you craved physical touch and, guess what? So does he! He's obsessed with laying down and taking in your sweet scent, your fingers playing with his hair as you scroll through your phone. He adores the casual touches you leave on him, adore every time you hang onto his arm. He knows you don't mean anything romantic, but it still fills a hole to have a genuine companion that cares about him in his life. 

💫 You've helped him after a breakdown, when his mind felt like it was splitting and his ego was taking in a mind of its own- and then there you were. In all your pretty, pastel colored and pleated skirt glory.

"John?" You say softly, not approaching him just yet. Giving him the space he needs. "Do you need a hug?" He's breathing hard. He didn't know why he came to your apartment. He thought he was going back to his penthouse in Vought towers. But no. Here he was. And you're standing there, confused about your pretty features. The chaotic side of you is completely gone for the moment. He just stares at you. Of course you'd run to some bitch. A voice hisses in his head. We're a god among men and you come crawling to some fucking-  He squeezes his eyes shut. Your eyes soften. "Come on." You say, your voice soft and gently. A soft coo to him. "Let's sit you down." You open the door wider for him and he trudges in, looking completely drained. He sinks into your couch and you disappear into your room and come out with a fuzzy blanket. The one you wrap around the two of you have movie night. You drape it over him, gently. "It's ok, sweetheart," you say. "I don't know what's happening but you're safe now." He almost scoffs. No one could touch him. He was The Homelander. But… how you said it. It made his chest ache with something heavy. "Can… Can you hold me?" He practically whispers. "Of course, honey." You open your arms up for him. He immediately melts into your hold, his head pressing against the crook of your neck, his hands desperately clinging to the back of your shirt. He sucks in a breath of your scent before he breaks, fat tears rolling down his cheeks as his sobs into you.  He's not a pretty crier. But who is? You run your hand through his hair. Your cheek resting against his head. It feels strange to see a man that could be your father break down. But you had a feeling he was a mess on the inside. All that bravado and charisma making up for an abysmal childhood.  It takes him a while to calm down. His puffy eyes blinking, his blue eyes glassy, he sniffles.  "Oh, sweetie," you coo, swiping your thumb under his eyes to wipe the tear streaks away. "You look like a mess." You say softly, not to make fun of him. Just to state an obvious fact. He sniffles, glaring at you.  You smile at him and he melts.

💫 He won't let you paint his nails, but he wants to paint your nails. He has a pension for picking colors related to him. You make fun of him for it. 

💫 He lets you put accessories in his hair. ONLY when it's movie night. He did accidentally go to a meeting with a hair clip that has rhinestones that spelt 'JUICY' on it. The Seven stayed silent and he was embarrassed as hell when he saw it in the mirror of the window.

💫 HE IS ACTUALLY TRAUMATIZED WHEN YOU FIGURE OUT HE WEARS A BODYSUIT OH MY GOD. HE SUFFERS. THAT'S HOW YOU GET HIM BACK FOR MESSING WITH YOUR FLUSTEREDNESS.

"What's up, my cute stick bug." "Shut the fuck up."  You are the only person allowed to poke fun at him about that. Anyone else would get obliterated.

💫 If you involve him in picking out your outfits, he has hit Nirvana. He has truly seen heaven. He actually has a pretty solid eye for clothes. But he will take the opportunity to coordinate an outfit that has colors that compliment his hero outfit. If you notice, he'll play dumb.

💫 Anyway, congratulations, you have an OP friend. Until he isn't content with just being friends any more….

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[wasabipoptart]

"Honey" and Why Being Loved for the Wrong Reasons Might be Worse than Not Being Loved at All

It's hard to pinpont Roger Miller's style, because he was so prolific and so varied, but I'm not thinking about the silly songs, or the folksy songs, or even the gospel songs...I'm thinking about "Honey." Take a look at these lyrics. There's a LOT going on here, so I'm going to highlight the pertinent passages:

See the tree how big its grown

But friend it hasn't been too long it wasn't big

I laughed at her and she got mad

The first day that she planted it was just a twig

The first snow came and she ran out

To brush the snow away so it wouldn't die

Came running in all excited

Slipped and almost hurt herself and I laughed till I cried

She was always young at heart

Kinda dumb and kinda smart I loved her so

And I surprised her with a puppy

Kept me up all christmas night two years ago

And it would sure embarrass her

When I came in from working late cause I would know

That shed been sittin there and cryin'

Over some sad and silly late late show

And Honey I miss you and I'm being good

And I'd love to be with you if only I could

She wrecked the car and she was sadAnd so afraid that I'd be mad

But what the heck

Though I pretended hard to be

Guess you could say she saw through me

And hugged my neck

I came home unexpectedly

And caught her crying needlessly in the middle of the day

And it was in the early spring

When flowers bloom and robins sing she went away

And Honey I miss you and I'm being good

And I'd love to be with you if only I could

One day when I wasn't homeWhen she was there and all alone the angels came

Now all I have is memories of Honey

And I wake up nights and call her name

Yes now my life's an empty stage

Where Honey lived and Honey played and love grew up

And a small cloud passes overhead

And cries down on the flower bed that Honey loved

And see the tree how big its grown

But friend it hasn't been too long it wasn't big

I laughed at her and she got mad

The first day that she planted it was just a twig...

This is really fucking dark stuff:

We don't know if the woman's real name is Honey, or if that's a pet name.

It's implied she committed suicide and he came home and found her.

The man is caught in a grief loop and is unable to process or move forward.

Even as a small child I understood this song to be about a woman who suffered from clinical depression that was exacerbated by a partner who didn't take her seriously. This man just does not get it. He infantilizes her, laughs at her, and brushes off her mood swings as "embarrasing," "silly," and "needless." He gives her a puppy for Christmas and refers to his life as a "stage where [she] played." His memories, which are "all [he has]," are saccharine snapshots from a fairy tale. The angels came? What the fuck, dude.

One has to wonder how often this particular scenario played itself out in the days before women had access to prozac, birth control, and agency. How many women stayed in miserable marriages because they had no other options? Conversely, how many men also stayed in miserable marriages with no clue that their partners felt trapped?

My sister said I had it all wrong, that in her mind Honey simply wised up and took the puppy and left his gaslighting ass, courtesy of Angel's Moving Company. I like that story better.

[thediamondtimes]

Adaman comments on future S/O's body

I wrote an entire ass story about this. It was so good, I loved it and tumblr refreshed the page and I lost it. I can't rewrite it, It was way too much. I'm just gonna do it like this.

You finished building a new and bigger trough for the pasture in Jubilife. Adaman was in town and offered his help in carrying it. You carried the middle while Adaman and Rei carried either end.

The diamond clan leader and Rei panicked when the trough broke. It broke in the middle, drenching you completely and leaving the men each carrying one half of a broken trough

Adaman's breath hitched when he caught sight of you and he looked away as his ears burned a bright red.

Your body was so beautifully outlined, the delicate curves accentuated by the fabric being flush to your skin. Any bit of white on your outfit was now a window, your skin clinging to it and visible through it.

You excused yourself to get dressed in something less drippy. Adaman and rei waved and Commander Kamado left headquarters to see what the commotion was.

The two leaders began shooting the breeze and you were naturally a topic... then he said it.

He didn't MEAN to say it. He was thinking it and damn it was a persistent thought. He just said it:

"You should have see those gorgeous child bearing hips."

Rei was embarrassed but Kamado just laughed it off.

"Maybe YOU are the one that should have been splashed with cold water, hm?"

It took a while for Adaman to realize he was embarrassed by what he said.

As you were making a new trough, putting it into place, filling it, he realized just how ashamed he felt of saying something like that about you.

Kamado stuck around to help this time, shooting Adaman a knowing look every so often. Really, any time that you did anything.

Adaman left the town that day, Kamado telling him that they would return the favor by helping the Diamond Clan house the water pokemon that were effected by a dry spell in the region... and cheekily telling him that you would be at the Diamond Settlement bright and early tomorrow.

In his tent back home, Adaman was nervous all night. Melli inserted himself in the situation, listening intently as his leader spilled his guts. It was good to get it off his chest and though Melli could be insufferable sometimes... he could definitely be trusted.

"I don't know what happened. I just said it."

"You need to be more careful." Melli scolded, "What did you even say?"

"I just commented on..." He started, his voice becoming hungier as he went on. "You know her... voluptuous child bearing hips-"

"Is this a bad time!?" Of course Arezu walked in RIGHT then. Adaman buried his face in his hands.

"How many people are going to accidentally hear me say that today!? Should I just announce it to the whole clan?"

"Did you say that to Y/n, what did she say? Was she upset?"

Adaman didn't even get to answer. Melli stepped in with a spirited defense.

"Why would she be upset?! It's an HONOR for her to bear Adaman's children. She should be thankful he even thinks so-"

"The hero of Hisui is going to have Adaman's children!?" Sabi popped her head into the tent, scaring all three of them "Congratulations!"

"EVERYONE GET OUT OF MY TENT"

Adaman tried to think about anything else. His fuck up was the only thing playing in his mind.

The next morning, you arrived to help, with blueprints for an artificial lake to help get swamp pokemon through the dry season.

Adaman was excited to start, though he was clearly distracted by something.

It wasn't until you noticed Sabi just staring at you that you learned what.

"...Sabi... is everything alright?"

"...You don't LOOK pregnant." That caught you off guard. Adaman just froze.

He scooped her up quick but she just kept talking.

"Adaman, where did you put the baby-"

"Sabi, please, you have no idea what you're talking about-“

"Does this have anything to do with the 'child bearing hips' comment yesterday?" He was not expecting you to say that. He let Sabi go, going through all the stages of grief at once. He wasn't sure what to say or how to proceed. Finally, he spoke.

"....Kamado told you, didn't he?"

"Rei told me."

"Dammit."

You just laughed.

[theoriginalladya]

Real Life rambling beneath the cut. (just venting, don't mind me. it's all part of the process.)

Twenty-three years ago, I made the biggest decision of my life and married the man I thought I'd spend the rest of it with. Six years ago, almost to the day, I filed for divorce because he chose to make the stupidest decision of his life. October 8th is not a good day for me.

Though it's been six years, I still remember that year/time well. Discovering what happened. Having to deal with his betrayal. Realizing I was the one who had to make the decision to divorce because he wasn't going to.

Looking back now, it's easy to see the stages of... well, grief, I guess, I went through at the time. Denial. Anger. etc. Most of the time these days, I can live with it, but every October 8th, it comes back and hits me very hard. I want to spend all day holed up somewhere it's dark and just cry all day. Scream. Let it all out because it's like reliving it all over again. That's how I feel right now.

But today, before I remembered the date, kiddo reminded me we needed to make a stop on the way to work. So we got up, headed down to his college campus, and he picked up his diploma. His very last act as a student at that school. He came back to the car and we both stared at it for a moment. Though the date on his graduation is NOT today, I am really hoping that my heart will remember that it IS today that it's official - he is a college graduate. He busted his ass for this, struggled through several of his classes to get this far, met some of his best friends during the process.

The other thing I want to remember from this: He woke up short on sleep (I tell him he'll get used to this but he's young and not willing to listen lol) and was trying not to be grumpy at me. As we left campus, we ran through McD's for breakfast and spent the majority of time in line at the drive thru laughing our asses off at stupid ass jokes, puns, weird shit our tired brains were coming up with. When I dropped him off fifteen minutes later, he was in a far better mood. By the time I arrived at work a half hour later, I had a text from him telling me "Thank you, Mom. I'm in a much better mood. Love you. See you tonight."

Getting married wasn't the wrong decision. Neither was getting pregnant on my wedding night. (lol it CAN happen apparently :P) Having our son was not the wrong decision. Without him around, our marriage wouldn't have lasted four years. Instead, I got sixteen of some pretty good times (when he chose to be there) and a damned good kiddo out of it. Kiddo and I have made things work for us since the Ex left. Hasn't always been easy, but we've found a path. And I'm DAMNED GLAD he's been here. He's smart, funny, and I don't know what I would have done without him.

So hopefully, starting next year, I can look at October 8th differently. It's not the day I got married, or the day that marriage fell apart, but the day my kid got his college diploma and his real life as an adult, out of school, working a job he likes, having a pack of good friends - all of that really started.

C'mon, brain, work with me here...

[arceus-insanity]

I apply this to all of the LoV and more

I wouldn't have become a Dabi defender if it wasn't so easy

Like, listen, reached the backstory episode and... Duuuuude, it's so bad at depicting Dabi as this " born pure evil without Endeavor's implications" character like it's a joke, right?

"He almost hurt his baby brother."

Social Learning. Huh, wonder how he learned to express his emotions through agression? From the friends he doesn't have, I'm sure. Ugh, kids these days...

"He insulted his mother."

Yeah, I'm sure he learned about his family's situation and the words he used at school.

"He was sexist."

It's sooo weird to see his "women 🙄" comments have been unlearned as an adult.

But nothing. Nothing can outmatch the fact he's referred to as a sociopath.... a disorder you can't be born with, but that you aquire as a coping mechanism in response to childhood trauma.

I'm not mad. I'm amazed it's so badly handled.