#well 🤷‍♀️ if it doesnt make sense it probably doesnt

[sleepless-crows]

the way greed is a big theme in the grisha trilogy. we even have the quote "what is infinite? the universe and the greed of men." and how with the crows, as much as we joke about them doing it for the money, they aren't greedy. kaz goes on the ice court heist to seek revenge. inej goes on it for her freedom and those of others. matthias and nina were bound by honor for the most part. jesper may have needed the money but he isn't greedy for it. and same goes with wylan. but we can see how much greed indirectly influenced them to be in those positions.

as much as inej said that greed was kaz's god. it really isn't. he works for justice, for revenge. against whom? pekka rollins. the one who shows greed more than kaz ever will. pekka duped two young boys and countless many others out of their money, and some out of their lives. he did all the dirty work for the money. and kaz dedicated his life to avenging jordie and later making sure people like pekka don't do it to anyone else. and he goes on the heist for the money, not because of his greed, but to seek vengeance for what greed has done to this world.

the villain in inej's story is tante heleen. through inej, we see how people like tante heleen care about money more than anything else. she makes sure the girls in the menagerie never earn out of their indentures. she physically abuses the girls and then tells them she has to take from the money that they earn whenever there's blood on their bedsheets. and the second that kaz bought out inej to work under per haskell, tante heleen didn't even care and let inej go because she was given a sum. and she even taunts inej that she'll have her back because she knows she can earn from her. she's incredibly vain and greedy and i'm glad inej stole her diamond necklace in the ice court.

jesper's encounter with greed is probably the most common in ketterdam. people in ketterdam feed off of greed and all the dirty desires of the people. jesper's fallen into a lot of debt because of the casinos scattered all throughout ketterdam. and gambling houses are such a dirty means of profit but that's what ketterdam thrives off.

wylan, on the other hand, was disowned by van eck because of his dyslexia, because van eck didn't believe that wylan could properly carry on his legacy if he couldn't read. van eck goes to such severe means to build his empire, to earn as much as he can, as it is the religion of ketterdam. van eck ordered two people to kill wylan and drive him out to keep his reputation clean because if the merchant council only knew his dishonest ways, he would be kicked out and lose everything. he manipulates kaz into thinking he wants to save the world when he would gladly bring it to chaos if it meant he would have the power and the control. and his greedy and selfish ways are how he falls. and wylan helps bring him down.

nina and matthias are the most noble of them all. they went on the heist for both their people to be saved from the dangers parem could cause. but we can trace their place in the crows back to when they met. he was a druskelle and she was a grisha. a generations long prejudice, a war they've always had to face, because of the incredibly warped mindset of the fjerdans. as matthias says, what must it feel like to worship djel, knowing that he gave gifts to another? grisha power could be djel's hand and maybe the otkazat'sya were jealous and couldn't wrap it around their heads. and so with that came greed for control, greed for their god's favor to the point that they've missed what djel truly stood for. trying to justify all inherently evil actions they had to take when it all stemmed from envy and greed.

the greed of men is infinite, ancient, and common. i just find it intriguing how the crows are always described as criminals who will do whatever it takes for the right price but they are the farthest from greedy. they were shaped by greed, not their greed, but the greed that inhabits this world. and throughout the duology, we see how they all work against it in the end.

[amrv-5]

Horrid Horrid Day of the kind so rarely experienced trying to treat it as a dubious comedic blessing and also remember it’s cool to experience stuff even stuff that sucks and makes you (?) feel bad (probably???) freeverse insanity monologue to my own blog so I don’t commit a homicide

most of it death by 1000 papercuts sort of things besides like 3-5 big Actual Genuinely Bad Comically Ridiculous Chaotic Events (middle of the night hotel eviction and subsequent 35 mile relocation to a Diff Hotel for my parents due to the City Of [Redacted] abruptly buying out the rooms (?!) for the one they were in for some sort of emergency housing thing?? (this is real and really happened)) but after 12.5 hrs and then well 999 other things that happened mostly to Me etc.💥💥💥🔨🔨🔨💥💥💥🔨💥🔨😭🔨🔨🔨💥💥💥💥 godddd complicated relationship w parents aside it is so much to be Completely On and doing the Team Emotional Management the whole time whyyy am I the only grownup… can’t be tired or a little annoyed at being subject to last minute undiscussed demands on my time or even Drop The Cheerful Facade Of Bland Enthusiasm For A Second because I’m Ruining Things For Everyone. but also I’ve got 1 week break between semesters formally and I would like to: Sleep In + Get Meaningful Rest. please. Big ideal day plan wld be to sleep for 12-15 hrs read in bed for a few more go for a little run eat some oatmeal lay around watch movie without thinking about annnnyyything important all day. Is That So Much To Ask. Is This An Unreasonable Demand .

Well anyway I’m being soo dramatic and everything’s really pretty much fine. I cn recognize it’s nice that people went out of their way to make a trip here + want to spend a lot of time together it’s just that due to the Aforementioned Complicated Relationship the Spending Time Together is like. Well u know how wild boars when you stab them you have to have a special Boar Spear with a cross-bar because otherwise they will just keep running up your spear while impaled to Get You, The Spearholder? Well that’s what my relationship w my parents is like in this particular year. Getting stabbed and it sucksss but unfortunately there is the sense that if one keeps going thru the Horrid Feelings there may be some degree of satisfaction (easier or realer relationship? emotional connection? satisfaction of knowing I Tried My Best?) at the other end… but it has to be me (wild boar in this metaphor) doing alll of the work and experiencing the majority of the discomfort in pursuit of unclear ends… ahhhhhh sigh. good reminder I guess that I just still react weird and with maybe a greater than warranted degree of emotional sensitivity to extended intentional infringements on my space + autonomy that don’t take into account that I’m a person with opinions and an inner life and also I Slept Bad and several other problems so I’m much less patient than usual today. condensed: I’m At My Freakin Limit Dot JPEG rn. anyway. ouuughhh. home now going to run a bath (insane. who does that) turn off lights and just sit there in hot water for a while stewing (ha) until I feel less tense + tired (Big Win: reasonably tense + tired ≠ depressed…) maybe light a candle also. I wld bring a book into this if I didn’t know for a certainty I’d drop it in the water immmmmediately and the lathe of heaven doesnt deserve that from me. fuuuck. This probably makes me look insaaaane don’t read this. Or do whatever its my blog though sorry if u followed for fic and are just getting extended musings on my inner mental life + to do lists. In My Defense there’s a read more and if u see this You Clicked It And So Gave Ur Viewing Consent. In conclusion 👨‍👩‍👧🚗🏨🌃😭😔😑🤷‍♀️🙂➡️🛁🕯️📖🛌

[donttalktome-mp3]

HEYYY, so ive written some sparadic aramour fluff and i need ops..? Likey.? No likey..? Edits..? Im really new to this but its fun so 🤷‍♀️ anyways lmk requests or ideas ect xx

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sorry if theres typos or smth doesnt make sense this is just gay mush from my brain-

Lina had been crushing on jane for weeks, no probably months, then it hit her.

As she re read the pages of her journal -she did this on occasion to remind herself, itll all work out- she realised. today was actually, the 2 year anniversary of her crush on jane seymour.

each day she could feel it worsen, to the point where even the thought of jane made her blush

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it wasnt until she heard a splash that she noticed her glass of water was severely overfilled due to Linas excessive staring at jane as she watched tv with anne. 'shit fuck again..?' Her inner monologue recited. Just as she turned around to asess her situation, a very chirpy catherine parr swindled down the stairs, "seem to have dropped something, lina..?" Cathy said with a grimace

"Dont. Call. Me . Lina." The gold queen knew why the others did this, just to annoy her, but clearly thye would get their way.

This interaction caught the attention of the second and third queens who seemed to be deeply engrossed im some reality TV.

"hey babe, whats got you so chirpy.?" Anne questioned

"ohh nothing much" her girlfriend responded with a giggle before going over to the sofa to cuddle with anne.

oh how lina longed for a relationship like that, with jane.

Her eyes tracking the blonde, catalina closely watched as her beloved paused the tv and went upto her. " heyy, how'd you even manage that..?" seymour asked with a smile - picking up an old towel to dry the spilled water-

"O-oh uhm well uh haha i dont know" she offered her hand to take the towel

"nono dont worry ive got it!" Her smile triggered even more blush to crowd aragons face. Something about janes laugh, it just did something to lina.

oh shes so cute

standing back up, the third queen asked "fancy a snack..?" - as per usual aragon interpreted that, not how jane intended she was sure of it - .

trying to 'play it cool' lina just replied with "nahh im- im goood", almost spilling her water a second time.

there it was again that laugh.

[jiminrings]

call me cruel but i cant wait for jk to feel hurt during the one month break and realise how oc feels, because him not telling sora about being married is lowkey on the same level as oc telling the world she’s single idc…🤷‍♀️ if jk wont tell people his relationship status proudly then how can he expect oc to do the same! cos even if its about ocs fame…its not like he had to tell sora her full name and any details? just that hes married!

also eunwoo….👀 im curious why oc is getting blamed for him and jk falling out. jk said him and sora outgrew each other, but never that that they outgrew at the same time? i lowkey think she has lingering feelings but is just too scared to make the first move since jk doesnt love her anymore, and since they are exes she probably knows him well enough to sense that.

also im wondering if eunwoo thought jk broke his cousins heart by moving onto oc, which wouldnt surprise me since jk clearly has the worst communication skills with everyone he interacts with in these chapters 💀

ur right ur right lol oc practically just reciprocated what jungkook did but kind of (read:absolutely) in a more public, career-defining way 😁😁 also the eunwoo bit.... im afraid that he’s just a naturally bitter casualty from jungkook n sora’s breakup!! he idolized jk too much as a brother figure but his actual blood relation to sora complicates it worse... so the next big thing to do for him was to pin all the blame on oc, and remove the fault from both jk and sora :// “jk clearly has the worst communication skills with everyone he interacts with in these chapters” STOPPPP U DID NOT HAVE TO AIR HIM OUT LIKE THAT I MEAN IT’S TRUE BUT U JUST MADE IT FUNNIER 😭😭

[urmuminnitt]

Idk if you read the whole thing but what he said was a shit take for someone he calls a friend. He basically said how he would never change and then his team don't try to change him, which okay fair, but then he goes on saying 'unlike other driver like George who let their new team change them and make them less fun.'

Then he said it would be better if people could see the old him, that he would be more popular 🙄 if he was the old George. Like George already has fans turning on him for being at Merc and PR63 kinds of jokes about him being fake, he doesn't need a friend to basically traah talk him in a magazine because he's doing better than at Williams. Lando talks a lot about his struggles with fame and stuff but then turns around and does this... like why..

Also merc fans can multi task, we can care about both drivers and the shit show that is this sport.

ok ok im really not qualified to make much of a comment on this, i read the interview thing that someone posted and was like ok 🤷‍♀️

i mean i wouldnt even call myself a fan of lando? i dont really have anything against him i just dont think about him unless its a team thing so before you say anything im not biased at all. infact i probably prefer george? the thing is these are two drivers i dont think too much about in the first place.

i mean idk? listen im not a mercedes driver and im not a mclaren driver, im not in the positions they're in. maybe thats just the way the teams work, i mean it makes sense.

mclaren are more chilled, obviously still focused on winning or getting good points but their naturally going to be more chilled out.

mercedes is a massive team, most probably more pr stuff more media coverage, and with them used to being at the front, paired with the issues they’ve been having, theres probably a much more serious approach? Mercedes are really knuckling down at the moment so its no surprise to anyone that their drivers are maybe affected by that. Lando’s never had much of a way with words so i guess he’s just trying to get that across.

i will agree with you on his popularity comment, it certainly wasn’t necessary, it isnt a popularity game, especially from a drivers point of view as well, the aim is to win and drive well, not to see how funny you can be. Like i said i think lando can be a bit like that sometimes with his words and sometimes i feel like he can be a bit, idk, cocky? i cant think of the right word but im sure you’re aware that sometimes he can be a bit like that, i dont wanna say sometimes he thinks hes gods gift necessarily because i dont think its to that extent but its one of the reasons why i dont really like him as much as other drivers.

i feel like, i mean ill give him the benefit of the doubt, stuff like this happens all the time with the media, i highly doubt there was any bad intent there, the first part i get, the second part was a bit pissy of him to say but im sure it was in a jokey way like something you would say to your mate like “ohh maybe if you didn’t have your nose stuck in a book we’d be having more fun and you’d be a bit more popular” kinda thing yknow? but it doesnt really justified the comment. it was a stupid thing to say

i do totally get where you’re coming from, i really didnt like lando for a while over the no sympathy for daniel comment he made last year but at the same time lando and daniel are good friends now, im sure he didn’t want to intentionally upset daniel as im sure he doesn’t want to intentionally upset george

i think at this point maybe just accept lando really doesnt have a way with words, maybe i just think that and brush it off bcuz i dont tend to think about him but yeah.

idk 🤷‍♀️

edit : ok on later speculation, yeah ok he was a bit cuntish ill give you that. second shorter comment on it that probably makes more sense