#we're here we're together we're shooting beams of energy into each others forehead like a. like in those brainwave images

[bookwyrminspiration]

earlier I was thinking about how we both use it/its and are autistic. and how you don’t consider yourself human, and it/its expresses that for you. and I always feel like I’m doing this whole person thing wrong, so I have to remind myself that there’s no wrong way to be human, and it/its pronouns are a big part of that for me.

like!! same pronouns same complicated relationship with being a person with the same root cause but very different feelings and experiences. idk about you but I think it’s cool as hell.

I clearly gotta work on embracing my oddities and not caring what other people think because my first instinct reading this was to further explain and justify myself because I know it's strange.

But like! Yeah! You're right! My pronouns and autism go hand in hand, we both have complicated relationships with the two and how they interact to make us. And how we consider ourselves. And they're not quite the same but they're the same enough we can recognize it in each other and bond over it and go hey! you're like me!

I'm low support needs but that doesn't mean I grew up feeling normal. And the way I processed that without another explanation was that everyone else had something that I was missing, something that made them more human than me. Ergo, I wasn't entirely human. And like. I know logically that I am, and that there's no right way to be human--and I have gotten more comfortable with it--but I don't know if I'll ever be able to hear myself referred to as human without going "wait, not quite." I don't have something I think I am, I just have trouble conceptualizing myself as completely human. And it/its are something that can be anything! They're so loose and vague and free; they don't tie me to anything. They let me be that complicated vaguely human but just not quite thing :)

It's such a weird thing but it's part of how I interact with and understand the world. And I love it! And that's not your same experience, but we both have a way of interacting with our humanity alongside our autism through our pronouns and that's! So so cool!

I just! Am also now thinking about it, and don't have the opportunity to talk about this part of my self conception with someone else on the same wavelength very often so! insert stimming right here because i'm doing that irl at the moment!!