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[crooked-sketches]

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Thank you all so much for the amazing response received for this project! To date, an astounding 30 artists have joined! I could never have expected that kind of response so soon, so I have decided to close the signups early and move forward with the next steps!

Who will we be drawing?

The one and only...

India!!!

Introducing, in order, the artists participating!

@aphfroghat  2. @samrut 3. @ashafox 4. @Winteree 5. @doomspiral 6. @maibluemen 7. @the-heaminator 8. @itstokkii 9. @paperuniverse 10. @ama-the-weeb 11. @j-ellyfish 12. @chaoshiki 13. @viktuurishipper96 14. @theheroinewashere 15. @solareeluna 16. @dis-mr-slovenia 17. @noonartist 18. @umahumahumah 19. @f0rgetf0rgetting 20. @ellmovy 21. @loverboylen 22. @Sukno-enjoyer 23. @k3llyb3an 24. @arnikaaa 25. @currybowls-blog 26. @gybas-blog 27. @aurum-cat 28. @dapotatoauthor 29. @spadeset 30. @lecirueblr

Remember, if you no longer wish to participate or need to pull out for whatever reason please dm me!

Wooo! Now what?

I will draw the starter drawing, blur it, and send it along to the first artist in line! Then, when they are finished, they will send the drawing back to me so I can blur it and send it to the next artist. Who will then send it back to me and so on and so forth.

How will we send you the drawing?

Since the quality in Tumblr dm's is, quite frankly, ass, the drawings will be sent to me via either Discord or email. Depending on your preferences please ask me for my @ or email address via DM.

Remember, each artist has two weeks! But you are welcome to send it to me early if you finish before the two weeks are up!

Some quick rules

The minimum required for your drawing is a lined and coloured piece. NO sketches and NO black and white. Fully rendered pieces are very much appreciated, but lined and flat colour is perfectly fine.

Digital art is preferred however if you intend to do traditional art PLEASE make sure that when you send me the picture of your work that it is scanned and not a simple photograph for maximum clarity.

I will be using a canvas size of 3000 x 3500 for the initial drawing, please keep a similar ratio so that they will all fit nicely on the final graphic!

when it is your turn, I will send you a dm on Tumblr or whichever communication method you prefer. If I receive no response/indication that you have seen the message after one week, your turn will be skipped. Sending updates on your progress isn't obligatory but it is appreciated!

My Dm's are always open for questions of any kind! Or even if you just want to stop by and chat!

Finally, a personal message from the mod.

I really cannot thank all of you enough. You all make the community a little better with every piece of art you post.

This project comes at a very difficult time for me. As well as having some personal issues, my family in Lebanon barely managed to escape the war with their lives, they got out but their neighbourhood is gone and the fate of many family friends remains uncertain. Our family in Venezuela is also severely struggling during this time of unrest, and we are not always able to contact them. I decided to host this project now because Hetalia has always been a deep comfort of mine and has helped me through many personal issues in the past. I longed for a sense of community and wanted to interact with more of you all. I could not have imagined so many of you would be interested in my small passion project, especially so many artists and creators who I have looked up to for years.

In addition to this, I wanted to thank all of you who hold Lebanon, Palestine, and Venezuela in your hearts during this time. It warms my heart whenever I see people in the Hetalia community (many of whom are participating here with us!) uplifting fundraisers, charities, and honest discussion about these events.

Perhaps you don't really care about this small message, but it was important to me to say it.

If you reached this far, comment with a ❣️ and I can't wait to see y'all amazing works!

[bbu-fan-blog]

Hello, everyone. I'm writing this down because it needs to be said, so please read this post.

Billie Bust Up, as a game, brings forth the messages of acceptance, understanding and personal growth. It's a project that has meant a lot for so many people, both for the devs and the fans.

It's the reason this blog exists. And the reason why everyday I see so many creative minds putting forth their own ideas and have a lot of fun with the universe that Ash, Katie and the team has created.

Honestly, it's a beautiful sight to see.

But, as much as it's great seeing so many BBU related fan works come alive, I have to address the need to use awareness about the core of this game.

There has to be the knowledge that the game is ultimately born from the creators' life experiences, struggles and successes. It's a very personal game, where each character reflects a part of the people who worked on BBU.

And that especially includes the characters' LGBT+ identities.

For example, Billie is AroAce (as in, not interested in romance), goes by she/her and they/them and she has ADHD: you wanna know why?

Because Katie wrote Billie after their own characteristics. They based Billie on themselves and how they were growing up.

Barnaby and Fantoccio are both autistic and are written based on Ash's own experience with autism.

These characters' identities were based on real life people: as much as it's fun to write stories and draw fan art about them, when the fan work involves changing their LGBT+ identities or ignoring their conditions, that's overstepping the line. It's like ignoring the creators' very personal experiences in the name of a story.

And I mean it, the devs have expressed on Discord that writing over these elements makes them uncomfortable. I know that many works of fiction are a safe game to explore LGBT+ themes and write characters in new ways. But "Billie Bust Up", being such a personal project, just can't be one of them.

I know that I'm most likely coming off as policing how to enjoy "Billie Bust Up", and that's not something I want to. But I've been noticing people getting harassed over this, even to the point of recieving insults. And I can't stay silent about this.

The BBU fandom is supposed to be a safe space for everyone. So, please, I mean it: be mindful about what you write or draw. If there's any problem, we can talk about it peacefully, without resorting to arguments or harassment. That's the last thing we need.

Please stay safe, ok? Wish you all only good things. 🩵

[messrsrobyn]

Ok nobody I’ve asked seems to give me a direct answer so I figured I’d just voice all my concerns with you? You don’t have to answer everything 😭😭

When it comes to fandom friends how do you move from just being moots to being friend friends? I saw a video you made about it when somebody had asked you a similar question but I’m really struggling with getting them to feel like friends and not just random accounts in my phone.

I’ve seen videos people have made and you guys are sharing jokes in the comments. I saw video of 3 girls that said “Us when anyone hates on mesrsrobyn” and you said like “Fan behaviour” which obviously shows that you’re actually their friend and you’re just teasing them.

Also how do you find people who are ok with you not responding all the time (😭😭😭) I’m just genuinely not active very much on any forms of social media. I was in a marauders gc and I was really happy thinking I was gonna make fandom friends but because I wasn’t active all the time they had a bunch of inside jokes I didn’t get and I kinda felt like an outsider.

Most of the people I see you interacting with online seem really cool and fun, so I’m just wondering where to find people like that. Just genuinely from posting?

I’m sure I’ve worded all this so strangely but honestly I’m sad because I’ve been in this fandom for 3 years in November and I have made no real lasting friendships. I feel like you yapping so much LOL

IK THE VIDEO 😭 my besties yup !!

this is long so i'm putting the lil dashy line thingy

i have v limited advice actually bc i don't think i've initiated many of my friendships in fandom?? despite how little i stfu, i'm a shyyy person. i get scared to text first.

my BIGGEST bit of advice is take. it. off. the. app.

i try to get discords mainly (bc i use it most) but once you take it off of tiktok or wherever you met it feels so much less like mutuals. like yes, we met in fandom but now we are discussing our plans for the day and getting to know each other as Robyn not Messrsrobyn.

i made most of my friends from posting !! i made my account as a whole to meet people and (ive been flagging a bit recently actually but) i always try to reply to EVERYONEEE. so most of my friends were just people that commented that i replied to, their name kept popping up in my notifs? boom. friends. one of them said they loved crimson rivers so next time i found an edit i sent it to them.

ALSO !! i'm so bad at replying.

servers im more active in i think, but just... dms? not very good at all. anyone that doesn't respect that or gets mad? 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️ i dont want them as a friend.

like it's frustrating i know! i hate the amount of lil red bubbles i have on every single app but it doesn't mean i value my friends any less and they all know that <3 we don't always have the time or capacity to reply and that's okie.

i tend to get it out the way immediately and test the waters. just a lil "btw i'm really sorry for my reply times! i'm not the best at it but feel free to double text me as much as you want" and always make sure that i follow up on everything that's been said whilst i wasn't replying.

im rambling a bit i fear but the right friends won't get mad at it, or make you feel less important bc of it. it might just take some time to find them but You Will.

i feel like i havent actually given much advice?? i'm genuinely so so so lucky to have found the friends that i have but i did nothing. i think i said in a few of my tiktoks rightttt at the beginning that my dms were open for friends and then i think? hope? that i've kept that energy going of like someone that anyone can message and i'll get back to them (at some point 😭 my tiktok dms are a mess but thats an issue for future robyn) so i've been able to just sit back and naturally find them.

i live by the motto of "the worst they can do is not reply" every time i send a comment or dm to a new person

we're all just losers reading fanfiction !! we all want lil friends to talk to about it so interaction and reaching out gives us that BUT it's the taking it off of the app that takes it from mutuals to friends imo.

this is UNNECESSARILY LONG omg. i never know how to answer these ones but i hope it helps a lil? <3 social interaction is NOT my finest point. potentially my worst i fear.

[chaifootsteps]

I really feel you & anon about KenDraws - when the first allegations about poor workplace treatment came out I thought maybe it was a case of poor management over malicious mismanagement; that a new indie studio had hired a lot of people out of college and not supported them properly or set unrealistic deadlines and failed to account for the fact that people have to work multiple jobs to support themselves (though the sharing of Erin's medical info always disgusted me and there's no way anyone can 'two sides' that imo) - i.e. it was stuff they could learn from and get better about, but for me KenDraws' account was the straw that broke the camel's back.

My jaw was on the floor learning KenDraws was the one who suggested Alastor stay at the hotel for his own entertainment, because that's part of the inciting incident and setup of the whole show. It's the kind of idea and dynamic that you'd expect the creator to come up with and come up with first, and be thought out as part of the story going forwards.

And to credit such an integral part of the show, plus several jokes, as 'additional writing'??? That is not additional writing, that is concept writing and script writing. It really made me mad to see how much of a struggle it was to get even that bare minimum of credit when Viv dropped so many ideas and lines that weren't her idea into the final pilot and covered it up with 'that was early draft stuff/we changed things around'. Reading the Discord logs it's blatantly not that, and if I can get ad hominem for a second there's a really maddening 'I'm too lazy and untalented to come up with this on my own, please help me' wheedling tone in Viv's messages to Ken - the whole 'I'm good at this and not that' thing especially. If you aren't good at it then either focus the pilot around your supposed strengths or credit your co-writers properly! Anyone whose had someone lazy or untalented sponge off them knows how uncomfortable and annoying it is to be stuck with someone like Viv as a boss. It feels like the main reason Brandon gets to be credited as a writer is because he's already a 'name' but anyone Viv considers beneath her it's free game to steal their ideas and fail to credit them when they provide her massive amounts of help because she knows her fandom will merrily throw them under the bus with a minimum amount of prompting from her, and sometimes none at all.

It's why I'm so glad to see Ashley and Michael thrive outside her shadow. I've seen mixed opinions on Faustisse and I'm not up to date with that, but I did see the screenshots about the issues she had getting paid and assuming that's Viv she's talking about, no one deserves to be exploited like that.

Viv mistreats the talent, they go elsewhere - and they don't stop being better than Viv at the thing she's failing so hard at rn. I'm so glad to see the rest of the indie animation scene supporting each other so much: I think this is the sense of community people wished for when Helluva started and why the biggest scandal to hit the fandom felt like it was when the pilot VAs got dropped so unceremoniously. It's just partly a community of people who got burned working for Viv who now have a perfect mental model of what they don't want in their working lives so they can make something better. I hope all the best for the people she's hurt & used

I don't have a think to add to this, Anon. This is absolutely beautiful and well said.

[l0uterstella]

YOTSUBATSUDZURI NO RHAPSODY ANALYSIS

I'm actually not confident with this one so feel free to leave your own thoughts 😭 I have a feeling Red ep 2 will clear some things up so I'll make an update post if it does change significantly (if not then I'll just update this one)

full eng lyrics, Ever Red theory (will help understanding this post) updated: Jun 17 2024

LYRICS

They're striving for freedom, they want to make things peaceful again, to bringing their old life back so they could fully treasure their time with each other.

"To a future that was/is sure to be bright" (original lyric be translated both ways) = hoping that the future will be "good" (and not broken like the past timeline)

I'm not sure about the whole song but this part specifically could be directed to Hallritt, telling him to relax and not dwell on his mistakes too much

MV

Like Your Melody, this song also uses a bunch of flowers.

Daisy - purity/innocence, childbirth, new beginnings Hydrangea - abundance, heartfelt emotion, gratitude, boastfulness, apologizing Poppies - sleep/rest, peace, death, rebirth White Clovers - "the universal struggle for freedom", protection (shoutout to fragmem discord for helping find them)

More references to freedom and bringing back peace, despite the current cycle of timeline resets (death, rebirth, new beginnings)

The black bee blob thing could represent a Seed, threatening their desire for freedom

Puruth is the photographer and he keeps the photos in an album or scrapbook. Maybe he started doing this to try to preserve memories after timeline resets

The photos having a sketch-like filter to them could hint that the photos aren't complete after a reset, so Puruth has to piece the whole story/image together himself like finishing a drawing, despite him also losing the memories of the past

Matching up with Sanah's line "Our footprints match, no matter how far apart we are", no matter what the knights have the same goal of protecting their lords

The phrase "The Knights ask for nothing in return for their love" doesn't show up in this mv because this song isn't dedicated to their lords, but is instead a message to themselves and their own wants.

[lorezhaze]

✨🌛 Roleplay Inquiry Post 🌜✨

intro & info:

🌟 Lo, 22, he/they, EST time zone

✨ no/minimal triggers and little limitations, 19+ 3rd person literate writing (1+ paragraphs) discord

only (message me for user!)

⭐️ mxm or nbxm, I hardly ever do straight or lesbian ships (I’m just not as good as writing it).

✨ I love world building and knowing the other character’s feelings. I also love getting to know my roleplay partners and becoming friends of sorts, as well as creating playlists and Pinterest boards.

🌟 NSFW scenes and/or undertones/themes at some point. I do like smut, especially paired with angst and certain dynamics, but if that isn’t your thing and our writing styles are otherwise compatible we can always keep it limited or fade to black.

plots i’m willing to explore:

➖ stalker falls in love with someone, all falls apart when things go too well and their obsession crosses paths with them and they eventually go out, but break up. stalker is determined to watch over their lover while also keeping others away from them until they “come to their senses” on their own time.

➖ son of a rich politician falls in love with a narcoleptic sex worker he hires.

➕ alternatively, a older man with a successful career, empty marriage and multiple kids ends up falling in love with a slightly younger intersex and narcoleptic sex worker, the first and only sex worker he hires (think Stan and Angel from Pose vibes)

➖ post-apocalyptic setting, final survivor of a run down camp continues to live among the undead of their loved ones. another survivor from a nearby camp stumbles upon the ruins of the previous camp while scavenging and sees someone alive on the other side of the fence, living with the dead as if they were dead as well. day by day they come back, bringing their new things, trying to bring some life back into them again.

➖ 16th-19th century setting:

➕ enemies to lovers, a member of the royal family ends up falling for a knight that saves their life,

unfortunately, this knight just happens to be the royal’s childhood enemy.

➕ the youngest son of a royal is 7th in line for the throne and has health issues, thus has no chance of inheriting the throne. in attempts to grasp onto any bit of power his father has, the royal marries off his frail and feminine son as a wife to a prince of another territory, an upcoming heir of a throne (loosely inspired by sporus and nero).

➖ hunger games, two people from opposite teams. queer themes; gay men, trans person called upon as their assigned gender at birth.

➖ (theme) ego: unnamed oc gets hurt and temporarily loses their vision. while their wealthy parents look for a medical solution, they have them live in the guest house and hire a caregiver to stop by everyday and take care of them. naturally, character a and the caregiver get close, but there’s a big problem: character a is a superficial, seemingly shallow and straight. the caregiver feels pressured to lie about their identity and what they look like when character a tries to guess what their care giver is like.

— (theme) shameless(?): eldest sibling takes care of their youngest siblings handling all the emotional and financial burdens while also struggling to remain true to themselves. someone comes along that falls in love with the eldest sibling and not only willingly helps, but gets them to enjoy life and focus on themselves again.

➖ (theme) 50 first dates: unnamed oc has memory loss and damaged short term memory -

unfinished/rough draft idea.

I’m more than willing to hear out any of your plots/ideas as well! ✨

original characters (more coming soon!):

Lena - delusional obsessive-compulsive stalker with dangerous tendencies/habits, 26, they/them pronouns (unlabeled).

Celeste - post-apocalyptic OC, unlabeled/gnc, 27, loses their mind after their family, friends and everyone else in their survivalist camp perishes, but continues to live among them as if they’re dead as well, numb and on auto-pilot mode.

Emmy - intersex narcoleptic sex worker, 22, he/she/they pronouns. adopted into and estranged from a wealthy well-known family after their biological father died overseas and they were taken from their mother by the system.

Alexei - trans hunger games victor from district 6 (transportation/metal-workers, modifying the district to work on the production of transportation as well as the train tracks to give them a little bit more of a purpose). name was pulled for the hunger games a few days short of their 19th birthday, which also sparks their journey with their gender identity + presentation.

Feel free to inquire for full bios of characters you’re interested in! I’m willing to modify characters to fit plots/ideas and I’m up to creatingnew OCs entirely!

fandoms/ships i’m willing to explore:

(bolded characters are those i’m willing to write as)

OFMD

- Izzy/Blackbeard

- Izzy/Blackbeard/Stede

- Izzy/Lucius

- Jim/Lucius

HANNIBAL

- Will/Hannibal

MR ROBOT

- Tyrell/Elliot

UNTIL DAWN

- Josh/Chris

- Josh/Mike

SCREAM

- Billy/Stu

KILLING EVE

- Eve/Villanelle

Other beloved honorable mentions include:

Sally Face, Yellowjackets, The Wilds, Sherlock, My Own Private Idaho, Kill Your Darlings, and sometimes Harry Potter.

✨⭐️ Message if interested and interact to boost! 🌟✨

[cmkinkbingo2024]

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[smashalltheguitars]

this is not a call out. this is not a call to action. rbs are fine if you want for whatever reason but please do not tag people or signal boost, this is so i can get everything in the open and people can make their own decisions about hen and about me.

in september, i helped write volcano shake em up. i joined a server for my chemical romance - the gerard way pussy indulgence - and i made fast friends with people i still care about so much it hurts. one of them was Hen.

Hen moderated the gwpi. i liked her. she's smart, funny, confident. i wanted to be her friend. in the early days of the gwpi, i had a brief disagreement with another server member. i literally cannot remember what we disagreed about. it was small and resolved itself quickly, but not before hen messaged me to tell me her thoughts on the situation: that i was in the right, and she liked that i stood up for myself.

this is when i fucked up, and i kept fucking up for a while. i made a group chat. hen, myself, and several others i roped in without really discussing anything. i wanted their approval. i wanted to be in the right. i felt like i was getting a good grade in discord. i had friends for the first time in years.

none of that justifies it. i was cruel, about people i disagreed with, about strangers, about people i called friends to their face. and when the people in the server weren't annoying me, hen and i went looking for other targets. we were never outright insulting to their face, or at least i kept telling myself we weren't - just little things, jumping into arguments to defend each other, venting privately to let off steam, and of course saying unbelievably vile things about people who did not deserve it.

as time went on, the group chat started to get used less and less often. hen and i tended to be the ringleaders, and as winter set in and i started struggling more with seasonal depression i was just online less often and muted a lot of servers and chats. slowly it started getting more and more frequent that close friends would message me along the lines of "am i overreacting for being upset, or was hen really rude in the server." it was always small things, a meme she didn't like had to be spoilered, someone's special interest was insulted, she was snappy and dismissive about a conversation she joined in the middle of. it was always small things, like she was just having a bad day or upset at something unrelated, and i hoped she was doing okay.

what was, for me, the first thing that was big enough for me to talk to her about how she was acting, happened when we were goofing off in gwpi. hen came online in the middle of it, immediately told us to stop, threatened to delete the server, and left quickly - leaving a brief wake of other people, people who were usually inactive in gwpi, who agreed with her and told us off.

it felt VERY familiar, and it made all the small things feel just as familiar. i just hadn't been on that side of it before. i thought to check a different server, one i'd had muted, and sure enough, we were now the ones being vented about. once i spoke up in that thread, i got heartfelt apologies from most people in that server. one person in particular took steps to reach out, work with the server mod, add new rules, and lock the thread since it was breeding such negativity. i am not a forgiving person and apologies mean almost nothing to me; their actions made me think that could change.

hen apologized for forgetting i was in the server she was venting to. she said nothing about what was said to my face or behind my back.

to be blunt, i let that resolve too quickly. i did self-reflect long enough to admit i was being a hypocrite for asking for kindness and to leave the old group chat, but i had trusted hen and considered her one of my favorite people, despite everything. i was still deep in a mental health episode, had just lost someone i considered a close friend, and didn't feel like i could handle losing another. again that does not justify it. i refused to do what i had just demanded of others. i stood by and did what was easiest instead of what was right, and i said it would all be okay and did nothing about the rest of the server members she had been hurting.

i thought everything had been resolved, even if i was not happy with the resolution, until back in that same server she had been venting to. in the middle of a conversation, hen made a joke about changing the name of gwpi 'to see how long it would take them to notice,' with the followup of, verbatim, "Why get a discord full of people if not to perform experiments on them." up to this point, however she acted behind our backs, she had still claimed the gwpi members as her friends; additionally, being watched, experimented on, or gaslit like that can very easily be a psychosis or paranoia trigger. hen knew that that is something i (and a few others in the server) struggle with, as i had previously trusted her to the point of letting her know i was having a psychotic episode and asking her to sit on voice call with me until i could ground myself. that is a HUGE act of trust.

the response i got when i expressed why i was not okay with this, after several instances of 'it was a joke,' was "I’m sorry that you took it that way but I would personally not be offended if someone said that about a group I was a part of." again, verbatim. that conversation ended unresolved and a few days later, she left every server we share with very little warning. i wished her as well as i could bring myself to and tried to move on with my life and hopefully do better going forward. that was the last i had heard from or about her until this afternoon when paramoreworld's post came to light and showed that apparently the pattern is continuing.

i don't have a real reason for posting this except that i am tired of dealing with it in fragments. this is only what i was personally involved in, it says nothing about what other people have dealt with from either or both of us, but at least now it's in one place.

[multiplicity-positivity]

Haii

Do u have any tips for getting better at communicating and switching (we haven't fully switched for longer than a few minutes that I know of)

We're still living at home sorta want/need to mask a bit but I'd like to be able to switch out for at least a little bit and explore our headspace more

The only thing I'd be worried about would be if we can't control who fronts and when coz that would cause problems so if u have any tips for that then that would also be great (although I know it's probably not something that can really be controlled too much)

Really any tips on communication and switching would be great heh

Thank uu :33

Hello,

As far as controlling who switches and when, I don’t have much advice. Our system cannot control switches, and only our gatekeeper has any sort of access to controlling that aspect of us. Perhaps, if your system also has a gatekeeper, you may ask them about letting other members front more?

As far as building communication, we do have some advice.

We advocate for therapy a lot here, but for good reason. A therapist can help guide your system towards more regular, healthy communication. Seeing someone outside the body regularly who knows about the system, is educated in psychology, and can provide an outside perspective on your system and how it functions can be incredibly beneficial and a great boon for internal communication. If you aren’t already seeing a therapist, perhaps try seeking one out.

Additionally, there are other things you can do to boost inner-system communication, like:

- attempting to communicate externally. Writing notes, setting up a PluralKit and a system discord server, keeping a journal, and leaving voice memos are all excellent ways to begin communicating with each other. With this, keep in mind that patience is key. You may not hear from other system members immediately, but if you keep that line of communication open and functioning, you may start to hear from each other often

- attempting to communicate internally. When you have time to spend by yourself in a calm, quiet environment, try reaching out to your system members. Don’t be too discouraged if you don’t hear back initially, and don’t assume that not hearing anything back means they aren’t hearing your message. Practicing internal communication regularly can help build connections and make communication easier in the future.

- reducing internal self-hate. This was a massive obstacle for our system, one that we’re still struggling with. But our host’s self-hatred was often deflected or aimed towards other members of the system. If you are the host and deal with this, your headmates may be wary or hesitant to interact with you. Try working on some self-compassion, and it may help your headmates feel more comfortable interacting. If you are in this situation, you may have to work on rebuilding trust before you can hope to have better communication with your system.

If you are the host, and if you have never fully switched out before, perhaps learn more about specutien, frontstuck, and median systems. It may be that you will never be able to fully switch out and enter the headspace. In our system, our host can switch out occasionally, but not of his own volition, and he does not enter our headspace. Rather, he goes into a sleep or stasis and has no memory of his time not fronting when he fronts again. That is just the way our system works. Trying to force your system to work in a way that it doesn’t may be detrimental to your system as a whole, so please exercise caution and be careful. Remember that all systems are unique, and your system might function differently from other systems you know.

With regards to masking, I’m linking this post made by a couple members of my system in which they discuss masking a bit. For me, I can mask easily enough by adopting a few mannerisms of the host and trying to speak with a “host filter” (if that makes sense). So far I’ve been able to slip by undetected around people with whom it is not safe for us to be open about our system.

I do apologize that this post got a bit long and out of hand. Good luck with everything.

🖋 Cecil

[dymagamwedd]

name :      iris pronouns :        she/her preference of communication  :    discord most active muse :     right now, ferry and chauvelin. it tends to fluctuate depending on my mood and what's going on in life at the minute. ferry muse is highest right now because... picket lines. say, have you thought about joining a union? experience / how many years :     oh, god. been around on tumblr rp since at least 2011, and i roleplayed on ff.net, facebook, foopets, and skype before that. if you really wanna go back further, i started roleplaying through gmail instant messenger with my school friend back when we were twelve. i've been at this hobby for ages. platforms you use :    tumblr and discord. best experience  :    man... probably the process of creating my OC lewis anwyl and his whole story / network of characters. that got me through some rough times in the pandemic. i'm less active on his blog now because of phd pressure, but i still write him a lot on discord. my original angry little welshman before ferry came along. rp pet peeves :      uhhhh i've got a few, but one that really grinds my gears is when people assume things about your muse that aren't true and just refuse to listen when you gently tell them that they're godmodding a bit. i had it a lot with lewis, where people would just assume because he's a Ye Olde Medical Man that he must treat patients horribly, hate women, and think every ailment should be treated with cocaine. it happened at least half a dozen times. everyone brings their own understanding and biases to RP, that's only natural, but if someone tells you 'hey you're assuming things about my muse that aren't true,' listen to them. if muses are making the assumption IC, that's fine! i love conflict! but it's when that spills over into OOC that it starts to become a pet peeve for me. fluff,  angst,  or smut :     i love all three, but it depends on mood and muse. some muses just aren't very interested in sex, so i don't write smut with them. others don't let themselves get into fluff situations, so i don't write fluff with them. sometimes i'm in the mood for angst, sometimes i need some cathartic cuddling content. it's all a matter of situation. plots or memes :     plots. i really struggle with memes that have no context attached to them. usually, even if a meme is entirely out of the blue, i will end up messaging to plot just a bit before i answer it. long or short replies :      medium, 2-3 paragraphs. i do love when people get inspired and write really long replies, but i just... cannot handle that as a sustained thread. not to pull the 'my life is so hard' shit, but doing a phd involves an insane amount of reading and writing. when i want to wind down from a stressful day of research, i don't really want to face a full draft box of 8+ paragraph replies. these days, i prefer to keep it concise. are you like your muses :    there's a bit of me in a lot of my muses, especially ocs. there's a bit of me in ferry, there's a lot of me in millie. nothing about me in jacob, though, fuck that guy.

tagged by :       @polarean thank u <3 tagging :  uhhhh i'm lazy. i'm sharing the means of production with the workers of the world. aka, steal it from me.

[tialys]

long-term partner search

Hey, I'm Noeul, 26, they/she/he, MST Arizona. Author of 15 years, artist and roleplayer, here and there. Wanting to get into collaborative writing again after dealing with a recent breakup, it helps me cope tbh. I'll try to keep things concise.

- First things first because this is very important: I'm extremely hesitant on romance, in that shipping my characters with yours. Toxic past partners and me already pairing my ocs together, I'm sorry but I'm trying to be a bit more open with it. Just don't come at me wanting do strictly romance, and we can talk. (This isn't a "no", I'm still willing to discuss it, but it can't be the central focus)

- Please always assume that I'm busy; I work security and have to manage a healthy work-life balance. I might not always be around to chat, and my responses to the RP can vary from once every other day to once a week. I'll let you know of any changes, though.

- That said, I DO love to get to know each other! I might not be as verbose and I can tend to come off apathetic, but I love sharing playlists, memes, art, pinterest boards, what-have-you. Don't be afraid to send me anything not pertaining to the RP.

- I am primarily a multi-para to novella writer, and my style of writing can lean more into the cryptic, flowery and poetic range, third-person past-tense. It is just my flavour of creativity, and I don't expect you to be as verbose/detailed. Really.

- I exclusively use my own OCs, and don't make new characters for the RP. No exceptions. They can all be altered and whatnot to fit virtually any plot/setting though, I tend to keep their relationships to each other the same however. The vast majority of them are also trans/nonbinary.

(I also have a lot of cop OCs, so if this is a trigger for you or makes you uncomfortable, it's best not to interact with me)

- I love found family, and I love large casts of characters! I can do one char against one char, however I tend to struggle as I enjoy bringing in my other OCs throughout the story to spice things up. Again, I'm an author, so it really shows after a while, lol.

- I don't much for boundaries/triggers, I just ask you don't powerplay and try to take over my characters. Please do let me know of your limits.

- I absolutely adore sci-fi, urban fantasy, high fantasy and dystopia. High-action, drama, dark and gritty are my go-tos, but I also enjoy more lighthearted and hopeful themes, things in-line with Studio Ghibli and whatnot. I primarily like to focus on my current main story (urban supernatural with a focus on the unknown, with an extensive history that I'm always more than happy to elaborate on), and have a handful of side projects/AUs that always need developing. If none of those suit your tastes, I am perfectly willing to make a new world and/or write in your universes!

- I'm really not into fandoms, aside from Star Wars and Destiny.

- I write over email > Google docs > Discord.

Feel free to reach out below, as I don't check this account often:

Discord: joonmyeon

Email: 1hyogie@gmail.com

Thanks for reading~

(Also, if you contact me, I'd appreciate a password [moon] in your message so I know you read this in full. Asking for romantic pairings off the bat will result in a block.)

[embarressment-erradicated]

we should delete the term proshipper from existence. we NEED TO STOP USING IT.

also who the fuck used "I'm using it to cope :(:(:(" as an excuse to literally just read and write fiction. who started that, don't do that, that isn't going to help your point.

if someone is disgusted by you enough that they cut ties with you, you aren't going to reach them by saying you're using it to cope. maybe you can appeal to the defense that it shouldn't be censored, or whatever I don't know that person, you do, but all in all, it's a loosing battle if someone is in a state of shock, only after the fact can you maybe reconcile.

it isn't worth most of the time though, people can and will be irrational, and you have to accept that. we're living in more and more irrational, hateful times as the days go on, you need to fight against that, you need to live for the sake of living.

you need to stand up for what you think is right, but do not assume you must win every battle, some people just suck, some people just don't know any better, some people believe whatever they want to believe about you and will never listen to you about who you are and what you do.

do not use the term proshipper, it does not mean anything to anyone, it is not a phrase to rally behind, you are not going to get anywhere, it is seen as a dogwhistle for pedophile who fucks dogs. not as a stance against censorship that is plaguing our world.

the old internet paved over and sanitized, the blood soaked vestiges of it left to rot in a corner.

where things came from ignored and forgotten, spaces dead and gone, lost to time.

not every place is sweet, some are bitter and hateful, some can not be described as good for society.

and yet they are still forgotten no matter what, the past is gone, the struggles are gone, a new generation begins and half of the ideas that the previous had are lost and replaced.

sometimes this is good, sometimes this is bad, but you can not let people forget that this debate hasn't changed, it's simply morphed and undergone a new shade of paint.

people have forgotten the horrors of the paths they walk, of the lines they tread, of the actions they repeat without realization.

this is not a new debate, it has been going on since civilization began.

do not let people tell you that being against censorship is bad, do not let people tell you that enjoying fiction is bad.

even if it's incestuous, even if it's pedophilic. even if it's sadistic.

do not dance around the things you enjoy to read, be honest but be safe. being anti censorship also means realizing that things you don't want to read still need to be protected.

there is a difference between thing that show violence and things that call for violence. learn the difference or else you will fail to realize that people you don't want are in your spaces.

you do not want the nazi in your group, you do not want the terf in your group. this will not help you, this will only protect them.

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also for the love of all that is good and interesting, do not treat online messages as secure, you can and will find your discord messages crawled through by staff, you can and will find your internet presence monitored. by isps, websites, literally anyone in the world who might have an interest.

stay secure, find a safe and secure service to use to talk, I hear matrix is pretty good, though I have not used it yet. use tor for anything that might be illegal in your area. vpns also work but tor is more secure all in all.

make back ups of everything you have posted online that you want to keep, it does not seem like an issue until your tumblr blog is removed and you can't find anything of it.

stay safe, stay cautious, but to not let it turn into paranoia.

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have a good day all who read this. live until you can't live anymore and then live anyway.

[alexander-nachtflug]

Session Five

Around this time, we set up a communal channel on a Discord server to preserve the documentation of our Immersed development process. We also had a group call to discuss which sound effects worked best for our performance. We settled on:

Aeroplane takeoff. 

Seat belt sign chimes.

Aeroplane cabin ambience.

Aeroplane encountering turbulence. 

Aeroplane crash landing. 

A photo of our chosen sound effects as MP3 files.

Once we were all back in university the following week, we began having timed rehearsals of our performances and incorporated the sound effects. 

One of our lecturers informed us that the initial aeroplane takeoff sound we had chosen was recorded from outside the aircraft. This did not make sense, considering we followed the plane and the passengers on their journey. We found a recording filmed from inside the cabin and used that to match the continuity of the rest of our cabin sounds. 

In practice, we realised the plane crash sound effect was too extreme as it made the ending less ambiguous than we wanted. Arlo advocated that a plane crash sound ending the piece would detract from the message of climate change, and therefore, we decided to remove the sound from our piece. 

Additionally, we decided not to continue with the cabin ambience as we struggled to find a balance where the sound did not overshadow the dialogue or where the sound was played at a high enough volume that felt believable. As we could not fully commit to having the sound play realistically without disrupting the clarity of our lines, we decided only to use the sounds we had chosen, as they felt more impactful in isolation and helped further represent the divide in the stages of the flight's journey. 

We also decided to carry on our set whilst in character at the beginning of our performance rather than during a blackout, as we wanted to build the suspense before the takeoff. During rehearsals, we experimented with how the chairs would be brought onto the stage altogether, in pairs of two or individually, with the next passenger not entering until the previous passenger was set up and seated. This widely varied our runtimes. Ultimately, we decided to have everyone enter together to emphasise the confined space further. 

A photo of us as an ensemble cast discussing how to move and construct our new set.

[snnydcysarch]

GETTING TO KNOW YOU

respond to the following prompts out of character. then, tag nine others that you would like to get to know a little bit better.

--- ROLEPLAYER NAME ;; lumi

--- ROLEPLAYER PRONOUNS ;; she/her

--- MUSE NAME ;; sonny munroe

--- PREFERRED COMMUNICATIONS / discord or tumblr messages for out of character chat? ;; discord for mutuals just cause i never get my tumblr ims

--- EXPERIENCE / how long you’ve roleplayed ;; ah shit... i want to say since like.... 2012??? i was a baby and should have not been here kjbrgskjgbrekg

--- PREFERRED ROLEPLAY TYPE / fluff, smut, or angst? ;; yes

--- PET PEEVES AND DEALBREAKERS ;;

plagiarism. whether it be a character or a plot idea, don't steal from anybody. people work hard on their characters and plots. i understand not many plots can be considered original, but everyone comes up with their own twists. stop stealing.

white washing. as a poc person, i have dealt with a lot of racism both irl and on tumblr. it was to a point i took two years off of this hellsite. so do not change a poc character into a white one. we've been erased as it is. and if you struggle trying to match a character to its race, do not feel afraid to ask someone for help on it. there are also websites that show you an fc's ethnicity as well.

not knowing where the line is between mun and muse. they are two completely different things.

god modding. for the love of all that is chuck, do not control what anyone else's character does!! we all control our own characters and that's how it should be. this also means doing something crazy that someone else may not approve of so if you want to do something, ask first.

force ship, simple as that

anon hate. seriously, that kind of negativity should never be welcomed nor encouraged. we all come here to escape as it is so just let everyone have fun writing.

people acting better than others. i'm sorry but no one is superior over anyone else.

lack of communication. we're all grown adults here. if there's a problem, just communicate.

trash talking someone's portrayal. realistically, we all interpret canon characters differently than others and that is okay. no one's version is right or wrong. no one is the "chanel/walmart" version.

shit stirrers. people don't get along sometimes, it happens. but don't be someone who fuels the fire between two people when all they wanted was to clear the air and talk.

rushing people to reply and shaming them when they don't reply fast enough. everyone has real lives and can't always get to it. now a simple nudge to let someone know they replied maybe weeks later just in case they missed it is fine. but if you're going to put pressure on people? stop.

using mental health as an excuse to be a shitty person. many people here suffer with different kinds of disorders and that is no one's fault. but that does not mean it's a pass to be a horrible person. you choose how to treat people around you. you choose whether or not to be a good person.

i can go on and on, but we don't have time for that so here is the rest of the list on the top of my head: self victimizing, ignoring triggers, trying to control your rp partners, bullying, not understanding that rping is a hobby and not a jobby, lack of respect for female characters both canon and oc, ect.

--- PLOTS OR MEMES? ;; yes

--- LONG REPLIES OR SHORT REPLIES? ;; it actually depends on my mood and on the thread. i love long replies cause there's more to work with. but short replies are fun for crack energy.

--- BEST TIME TO WRITE? ;; when my muse is strong kjhbsrekjgbkb

--- ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE? ;; i would say a little bit! just like sonny, i do everything i can to make people happy, even if it means wearing myself out. i also find myself being treated poorly by people i am close with irl just like sonny and her castmates. clumsy? oh absolutely. but also like sonny, i'm not afraid to stand up for myself and my friends. sonny is a lot friendlier than me tho krebgksrjebg

STOLEN FROM : @vitaegratis

TAGGING : YOUUUUUUU

[isbraveandwild]

A lot of words to say, in short, that I’m a bad friend.

After what must’ve been some good year and a half, I checked into my Avistaz account again. I wanted to watch a Japanese movie based on a book I read earlier this month and couldn’t find it anywhere (legally) so I had to crumble to my old piracy habits. Nice movie, nice book. Some things I wasn’t a big fan of, but overall, nice watch.

That was not the only thing I did for the first time in some good year and a half this week. Just two days before I had a dream with an old internet friend of mine. I woke up and thought ‘holy shit, I should check into her’ and so I did. Had to download discord again, and after some struggle figuring out my login and password, there I was. First thing I did back in that hell of a .. whatever it is .. was leaving all my servers and deleting all the messages sent in the time I was not around. Did not concern me in the year I was away, does not concern me now. I looked for the server my friend and I had and that was gone too, before I could get my hands in it. I get it, I dipped, no one was using it, but it made me sad.

Whatever. So, I messaged that friend I dreamed with. It took maybe 15 minutes for her to reply. That was nice. Maybe I should check into all the internet friends I ghosted, huh? Logged into twitter for the first time in almost 2 years. My timeline looked like a fever dream.

I couldn’t recognize a single one of them. Different profile pictures, different interests, different names. I didn’t say anything. Took the first hour or so to go through all of their accounts trying to pick up on cues of their old selves in the haze of their new personas. Some I could link to my old friends; some I had no clue. It was a fruitless task, so at some point I gave up and just tweeted it out. Does any store have ‘sorry I disappeared for 2 years and no longer recognize any of you, how are you guys doing?’ cards?

Some reintroduced themselves to me so I could figure out the rest too. I can’t pinpoint who’s missing, but I also don’t think they’re all there. But I’m sorry to repeat myself and also to sound this cold: did not concern me in the (2) year(s) I was away, does not concern me now.

That friend, the dream one, was my closest friend for some two years. Talking to her again was natural, but it felt different. We changed a lot on the course of our friendship (we were 17 when we met and we’re 23 now) but we were together to witness those changes as it happened. With me deciding on taking an impromptu sabbatical year off of the internet, there’s a lot I missed. When we’re talking and the conversation nears a dead end, I panic. Come up with the first thing I can possibly think off. Preferably related to one of her interests so it gets her to talk and me to simply answer. I’m afraid she notices I’m having a hard time talking and thinks I’m sucking up to her or not being genuine. Maybe I am not. But I do want to talk to her. I do want to listen to her. I just am trying to figure out how.

When I was 3, or maybe 4, I befriended a girl at school. She was the sun of my solar system, and I revolved around her for almost 20 years Carefully crafted my personality so she’d like me, curated all my interests so she’d think I’m col, heck, I even convinced my parents to send me to the same super expensive high school she was going to attend once we graduated middle school. In return, I was maybe her closest friend for a while, and of course I was, because who wouldn’t want around someone whose personality is basically adoring you? She liked having her ego stroked, and I had no self-respect, so I was the ideal sidekick.

One day she said something... bad. I was sleeping over at her house. We had just started uni together (of course). I was still revolving around her clueless and careless of anything else. Then she blurted out something I would not dare to repeat and could not bother to explain the context of, but imagine something along the lines ‘but Palpatine isn’t that bad’ if you were a jedi or ‘Voldemort isn’t even that fascist!’ if you were Hermione (sorry for the Harry Potter ref in god damned 2023, couldn’t think of anything else). I couldn’t argue with her because I was so taken aback, and so surprised too. I laughed it off and said I was tired so I was gonna go sleep already. We turned off the lights. I cried myself to sleep.

You see, I was obsessed with this girl. So that was hard to deal with. I thought maybe I had misheard it. Maybe I was going insane. Maybe she didn’t mean it like that. But for the next few years, every now and then she would say something of the sorts - and it was always when it was just the two of us. One day she slipped in in front of another of our friends. When I went out with this specific girl again, just us two, she brought up the incident. So you heard that too?!

It took 4 years between that first comment until we last talked for the last time (her birthday, last year), so when the fall out came around, I was already over it. It was like saying goodbye to something already long gone. Totally over it, yeah, but just this month I cried in the middle of the night because the thought of that kid I loved so much thinking I’d grow up to leave her behind without a care for it made me feel like my heart was ripped out of my chest. She was once an extension of my own self as much as I was her shadow. Now she is nothing. I don’t miss her current self, wouldn’t change a thing about our friendship going sour. And I am well aware our relationship dynamics was never great. But, gods, I miss that little girl. Maybe as much as I miss the little girl I was.

Tomorrow is my last break day before the term starts and on the very first day of this break, I told myself I would talk with two other friends about why the actual hell things were so weird between us. Of course, I did not do that. I had been wanting too for longer than the break, but I did not need the added stress, so I waited until my classes were over. Then they were, but my friends weren’t, so I thought out of respect I should wait for them as well. Then theirs were, but stuff was heavy for them in other areas, and I did not want to bother, then....

At what point consideration stops being that and starts being excuses?

I have tomorrow still. Maybe I will text them. Maybe I won’t. Regardless of what I do, I will regret it. Life for me is none but a bunch of regrets piled up on top of the other and I’m fine with that. Or whatever.

[straycatboogie]

2023/04/30 English

BGM: Lenny Kravitz - Stand By My Woman

This morning a friend on Discord asked to me as "Hey disco cat, why do you write your journal?". It's a difficult question to answer for me because it is too primal. Basically, I have been bullied or suffered because of losing any faith in every relationship, therefore I have had a huge difficulty of making friendship during this life. Now, I am having a lot of friends everywhere. Discord, MeWe, Facebook, and this real world. That's because of that past illness I had to face. And, I started my diary because I just wanted to share my life with those friends who are in this whole world (yes, this might sound too hugely but they are in all over the world. France, Indonesia, Brazil, etc). In other words, there is no any huge idea except that. Just I want to show this strange person's honest life and that's an ultimate pleasure for me. I want to let you know some Japanese language's basic knowledge, some pieces of funny Japanese culture, or a page of a romantic bookaholic and pervert person's life.

Recently I have been suffered from a mental pollution. Having chaos in my head, and being tired completely. TBH my mother had sent me a LINE message, but I couldn't answer properly therefore my mother felt something from that. A friend sent me a LINE message about that. Ah, great inspiration of her. Or as an ancient Japanese idiom says, "mothers are great". Today I met my mother at AEON and talked a lot face to face. I remember... after I graduated from a university, I couldn't be a hikikomori so started my work. But I had to face severe problems at that workplace (at that period, I couldn't imagine what an autism should be. That's out of my imagination). My parents didn't understand me so they said "quit such a pitiful job", "try to be a square government staff". But I accepted that advice from them as "too much", so I kept on working. I felt almost dead with my work... at last, my mind got broken up, and tried to end everything.

Oh, when I met some "trendy" theory of "adult children", I thought it must be the source of my problems because my life was too hard. In short words, I blamed my parents completely. Everything was my parents' fault. We Japanese say this as "poisonous parents' problems". Indeed, at that time I lived with my parents but I even hated facing them in a house actually. Yes, I had to earn money and get out of that house, but I couldn't do so. Finally, I chose escaping from everything and drinking a lot of alcohol. I had been soaked into alcohol. I remember we - my mother and I - made struggles. I even said "you should separate from me mentally" and "Why? Why did you born me?"... Of course, now I never think that my parents are poisonous. Indeed, maybe the way of bringing me up could have some problems. For example, when I couldn't go to the school, or almost chose a hikikomori life, my parents didn't allow those withdrawal. I got anger with them, indeed... but, every person can make mistakes. Every parent must try to make their theory of bringing their children to be perfect every day. I guess so. And, as a immature child, I am also making mistakes every day, really often.

Thinking about that, now I won't say that my parents must be "poisonous parents". I NEVER say so. In my case, it must be influenced from a completely unknown issue "autism". They couldn't learn from anything like textbooks therefore must meet huge hardship. Indeed, thinking as "everything must be my parents' fault so I am no wrong" would sound really sweet for me. Or saying "that's the government's fault" or "this world's" might be another lifehack. Indeed, that's actual one. We can't be completely responsible for our lives' results as happiness or unhappiness. Because that is almost saying like "I can control my life and be responsible for any results because I am almighty". But I want to remember a primal principle. "Nobody is perfect", or as R.E.M. says "everybody hurts". Everybody lives their hard life. I want to remember that fact in the corner of my mind. That's a exact realism. I have to be adult to remember that precious truth.