#we love you Darren Hayes

[nerdygaymormon]

Merry Queermas

I have a number of queer playlists, so thought I'd add one for Christmas.

Lesbians

Brandi Carlile - The Heartache Can Wait

girl in red - two queens in a king sized bed

k.d. lang - You're a Mean One, Mr. Grinch (with Glee cast)

Indigo Girls - It Really Is (A Wonderful Life)

Jane Lynch - A Swingin' Little Christmas Time

Joan Jett - Little Drummer Boy

LADIES - Ladies, It's Cold Outside

Mary Lambert - Christmas Cookies (feat. Wyatt Hermansen)

Melissa Etheridge - It's Christmas Time

Raven Symoné - My Christmas Wish

Tegan and Sara - Make You Mine This Season

Gays

Adam Lambert - Please Come Home for Christmas

Barry Manilow - (There's No Place Like) Home for the Holidays

Bearforce 1 - Christmas is Here

Billy Porter - Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas

Calum Scott - White Christmas

Darren Hayes - Last Christmas

David Archuleta - Christmas Every Day

Elton John - Step Into Christmas; Merry Christmas (with Ed Sheeran)

Erasure - Make It Wonderful (Bright Light Bright Light Remix)

Frankie Goes to Hollywood - The Power of Love

Johnny Mathis - It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas

Joshua Bassett - The Perfect Gift

Lil Nas X - Holiday

Luther Vandross - Every Year, Every Christmas

Matt Rogers - Also It's Christmas

Mister Chase and Chris Salvatore - Baby, It's Cold Outside

MNEK - Stopped Believing in Santa

Neon Trees - Holiday Rock

Pet Shop Boys - It Doesn't Often Snow at Christmas

Queen - Thank God It's Christmas

Ricky Martin - Ay Ay Ay It's Christmas

Rufus Wainwright - What Are You Doing New Year's Eve

Sam Smith - Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas; The Lighthouse Keeper

Todrick Hall - Bells, Bows, Gifts, Trees

Wham! - Last Christmas

Wrabel - First Winter

Bi/Pan

Anne-Marie - Think of Christmas

Crystal Bowersox - Coming Out for Christmas

Demi Lovato - I'll Be Home for Christmas

Green Day - Xmas Time Of The Year

Jessie J - Man With the Bag

Phoebe Bridgers - If We Make It Through December

Sia - Santa's Coming For Us; Candy Cane Lane; Snowman

Trans, Gender Nonconforming, Fluid, Nonbinary

Bebe Rexha - Count on Christmas

Big Freedia - Make It Jingle

Miley Cyrus - Happy Xmas (War is Over)

Shea Diamond -Blame it on Christmas (feat. Cyndi Lauper); Mrs. Claus

Drag Queens

Alaska - Everyday is Christmas; Let It Snow (Ivan and Peter Mix)

Alaska, Courtney Act & Willam - Dear Santa, Bring Me A Man

Bob the Drag Queen - Sandra Claus

Detox - This is How We Jew It

Ginger Minj - Winter Wonderland (feat. Gidget Galore)

Manila Luzon, Peppermint & Alaska - We Three Queens

Nina West - Calista

Priyanka - Sleigh My Name

RuPaul - Hey Sis, It's Christmas

The Divas

Amy Winehouse - I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus

Ariana Grande - December; Santa Tell Me; Winter Things;

Ava Max - 1 Wish; Christmas Without You

Barbra Streisand - Jingle Bells?

Bette Midler - Cool Yule

Britney Spears - My Only Wish (This Year)

Carly Rae Jepsen - It's Not Christmas Till Somebody Cries; Mittens

Céline Dion - Happy Xmas (War Is Over)

Cher - DJ Play a Christmas Song

Christina Aguilera - The Christmas Song (Chestnuts Roasting Over An Open Fire)

Diana Ross & The Supremes - My Favorite Things

Eurythmics - Winter Wonderland

Kacey Musgraves - Glittery (feat. Troye Sivan)

Katy Perry - Cozy Little Christmas

Kelly Clarkson - Underneath the Tree

Kylie Minogue - Every Day's Like Christmas

Leona Lewis - One More Sleep

Little Mix - One I've Been Missing

Lizzo - Never Felt Like Christmas

Madonna - Santa Baby

Mariah Carey - All I Want for Christmas is You; Oh Santa

Meghan Trainor - Holidays (feat. Earth, Wind & Fire)

Olivia Rodrigo - River

Taylor Swift - Christmas Tree Farm

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Link to Spotify Playlist of these songs

Link to My Queer Playlist - Part 1 songs from 1939 to 1999

Link to My Queer Playlist - Part 2 songs from 2000 to 2015

Link to My Queer Playlist - Part 3 songs from 2016 to 2019

Link to My Queer Playlist - Part 4 songs from 2021 to present

Link to my Queer Disney Songs Playlist

Link to my K-Pop Queer Playlist

Link to my Queer Religious Playlist

[persepinas]

Starting off Kinktober 2023 @vampirefest with a playlist! Sexy songs for sexy prompts of many types. No set ship so we vibe with every pairing. Whatever feels right, is right. ❤️🖤❤️

No more sunlight. The moon awaits us. ⚰️

Now, on to your knees to click that link, my companion heart.

31 tracks for 31 days.

one: mack loren/if i didn’t know better

I take my time and study your face

Thinking of a different place for it to be while you keep

One hand on my waist, you grip my thigh

Heart starts to race

Like you could taste what I'm tryna hide

two: zolita/holy

I can fight but the devil wins

And I will fall like a saint who sins

Forgive me Father, I am weak

And it's not forgiveness that I seek

three: the marias/hush

Don't think you've made it under my skin

Could never get in

Forget about it

Don't talk so much

Your tongue is burning up

I've had enough

four: elley duhe/middle of the night

These burning flames, these crashing waves

Wash over me like a hurricane

I'll captivate, you're hypnotized

Feel powerful, but it's me again

Come, lay me down

'Cause I know this

'Cause I know this sound

five: saint mesa/lion

You burn everything you see

Gold are your fingers

Leaving traces everywhere you go

Diamonds in your skin

My blood flows

six: chloe adams/dirty thoughts

I'm frustrated

Do you really look good naked

And I know that it ain't that holy

But Lord I need this one night only

The more that I push 'em away

The more that you're stuck in my brain

The more I mentally undress

I confess

seven: king mala/she calls me daddy

She's a little bit psycho

But she follows

When I call in the middle of the night

She's got you wrapped around her finger

You try to linger

But she's already on her way to mine

eight: hey violet/unholy

Say your name while our tongues are tied

Getting shivers all down my spine

We're in bed, we're embedded in my mind

nine: hozier/eat your young

I'm starving, darling

Let me put my lips to something

Let me wrap my teeth around the world

Start carving, darling

I wanna smell the dinner cooking

I wanna feel the edges start to burn

ten: chandler leighton/when you say my name

Does it scare you

That I already know what you're into?

You can say less, I bet I can guess

That'll you say whatever to get me undressed

Double dare you, tell me two lies

Don't need no truths

'Cause I can see right through you

You're no good at pretend

I'm using your tricks that you use with your friends

eleven: dezi/sinner

Lead us not into temptation

Your touch is feeling like salvation

If you're down for misbehaving

If you're liking this sensation

Pin me on your wall like an icon

And I pray that you leave the lights on

twelve: banks/fuck with myself

You're in the corner waiting for my love

I put two walls behind you just to lean on

Kinda need 'em 'cause I stood you up

'Cause I fuck with myself more than anybody else

thirteen: dove cameron/breakfast

I'm sick, yeah, I'm sick

And honestly, I'm getting high off it

Do you wanna see a magic trick?

'Cause you don't know what you don't know

But I know

fourteen: lana del rey/freak

Flames so hot that they turn blue

Palms reflecting in your eyes, like an endless summer

That's the way I feel for you

If time stood still I'd take this moment

Make it last forever

fifteen: ari abdul/taste

I'm begging you, untie this noose

Want your hands 'round my neck

I'm begging you, come be my muse

You're all that I have left

sixteen: ag/terrible thing

Oh honey, you're so cold

I lose my self-control

seventeen: jesse joe stark/fire of love

Your kiss rips through the shadows

Lipstick poisons this black rose

Haunted and torn from the heavens

You pull the petals from my mouth

They fall and tenderly black out

Baby, it's been so lonely

eighteen: zaryah/deep dive

Deep dive into my lips

Heat of your breath takes me into your abyss

Hold tight, I'll fulfil every need

Head up, you got me down on my knees

nineteen: lana del rey/gods & monsters

In the land of Gods and Monsters

I was an angel looking to get fucked hard

twenty: darren hayes/insatiable

Breathe in breathe out, there is no sound

We move together up and down

We levitate our bodies soar

Our feet don't even touch the floor

twenty-one: melanie martinez/high school sweethearts

If you can't handle a heart like mine

Don't waste your time with me

If you're not down to bleed, no, oh

If you can't handle the choking, the biting

The loving, the smothering

'Til you can't handle it no more, no more

Go home

twenty-two: ramsey/daddy

Baby, you're divine, I leave my body

Suckin' on your tongue, gold teeth, come find love

twenty-three: massive attack/paradise circus

Love is like a sin, my love

For the ones that feel it the most

Look at her with her eyes like a flame

She will love you like a fly will never love you again

twenty-four: aeseaes/desire

I'm an old

Desire

Sleeping in your skin

I'll take you over

And let you hide

And let you hide

twenty-five: natalia kills/problem

Sweat, dripping down your chest

Thinking 'bout your tattooed knuckles

On my thigh boy boy boy

Cold shower... you got no power to control

How I make you my toy toy toy

My hips rocking

As we keep lip locking

Got the neighbors screaming

Even louder louder

twenty-six: the pretty reckless/going to hell

Gettin' heavy with the devil, you can hear the wedding bells

twenty-seven: meg myers/desire

Baby, I wanna fuck you

I wanna feel you in my bones

Boy, I'm gonna love you

I'm gonna tear into your soul

twenty-eight: soap&skin/me and the devil

And I said hello Satan, ah

I believe it is time to go

Me and the devil walkin' side by side

twenty-nine: chymes/gity

You can trust in me, no, you don't have to hide

Have anything you want, just tell me what you like

Bring out the devil in you, it can't hide

I feel the fire trapped inside

thirty: banks/gimme

At the rock bottom baby crawl, crawl

I let you lick it from the ground, ground

'Cause I've been drippin' for your love, love

You can call me that bitch

thirty-one: nine inch nails/closer

I wanna fuck you like an animal

I wanna feel you from the inside

I wanna fuck you like an animal

My whole existence is flawed

You get me closer to God

You just have to nod your beautiful head and say yes 🩸🩸🩸

[viornefni]

You're in my head

I had plans for the weekend

But wound up with you instead

Back here again

Got me deep in my feelings

When i should be in your bed

You and i go back to like '09 it's like forever

And you were there my lonely nights, yeah, keeping me together

So wouldn't it make sense if I was yours and you could call me your baby

But we say we're just, say we're just

Friends

Just for now

Yeah but friends don't say words that

Make friends feel like more than just

Friends

Just for now

Now I'm over pretending

So let's put the "end" in friends

Friends

Just for now

Yeah but friends don't say words that

Make friends feel like more than just

Friends are not supposed to get too close

And feel emotions that we're feeling now, now, now

We ain't slowing down, down, down

But once we cross the line, there's no denying you and I can never turn around, round, round

Know we'll never be the same

You and I go back to like '09 it's like forever

And you were there my lonely nights, yeah, keeping me together

So wouldn't it make sense if I was yours and you could call me your baby

But we say we're just, say we're just

Friends

Just for now

Yeah but friends don't say words that

Make friends feel like more than just

Friends

Just for now

Now I'm over pretending

So let's put the "end" in friends

V 'FRI(END)S' Release

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Credits:

Director: Samuel Bradley

Production Company: Iconoclast TV

EP: Maeva Tenneroni, Jean Mougin, Guy Rolfe

Head of Production: Kate Sharpe

Producer: Martha Mcguirk

Directors Agent: Yoni Yosef

Casting: Road Casting

Casting Director: Coralie Rose

Casting Assist: Luis Torrecilla, Laura Meredith

Love Interest: Ruby Sear

Production Manager: Chanel Parkinson

Production Co-ord: Alice Hayes

Artist Liason: Jo Thompson

Cast Co-ord: Beth Rubery

Production Assistant: Callum Anderson

Production Runner: Mia Tessema

Intimacy Coordinator: Stella Moss

Movement Director: Yagamoto

Location Manager: Ryan Colaco

Location Assistant: Eser Savrin, Lois Constantinou

1st AD: Ben Gill

2nd AD: Gabriel O’Donohoe

3rd AD: Kitty Rajakulasingham, Aloha Kulieshova

Runner: Kai Rajakulasingham, Joe Heap, Danny Zanre, Anna Kovalevska, Grace Goodworth, Kwesi Mcleod, Darren Sintes, Tyson Douglas, Tiger Brewers

DOP: Jake Gabbay

A CAM Focus Puller: Rozemarijn Stokkel

A CAM 2nd AC: Ania Bahadrian

Trainee: Guillem Zamora

B CAM Operator Day 1: Juanjo Salazar

B CAM Operator Day 2: Jomar O’Meally

B CAM 1st AC - Alex Rawson

B CAM Trainee: Ollie Wesley

Camera Car: Davide Viera

Key Grip: Darren Quinn

Crane Tech: Henry Stone

Grip Trainee: James Quinn

Gaffer: Kieran Brown

Electrician: Shuan Clark, Ed Irvine, John Joe Besagni, Akeel Fleary, Cieran Nash, Amarjeet Singh, Laurent Arnaud

Master Rigger: Lee Doran

Rigger: Joe Parrott, Jamie Brindle, Ryan Ross, Alfie Berry, Scott Allen, Joe Knight

Video Playback: Liam Coles

Playback Assistant: Elvis Mcgovern

DIT: Lilly Palmer

Production Designer: Staci Lee Hindley

Art Director: Nia Samuel

Prop Master: Ezra Piers Mantell

Prop Buyer: Jessa Thorpe, Shopie-Mai Wigans

Art Assistant: Harry Beedle, Camilla Byles, Tom Hope, George Mein, Freya Wentworth, Alice Moles

Home Economist: Olivia Somary

Action Vehicle Driver (Car): Dan Chester

Action Vehicle Driver (Bus): Tom Burnage

SFX; Sean Harland

SFX Technician: Danny Matters

Stunt Coordinator: Jim Dowdall

Stylist: Justin Hamilton

Stylist Assistant: Samela Gjozi, Colleen Finnerty, Lorna Lane, Chris Atkins, Vania Monteiro, Katherine Somavia, Anna Menshykova, Mel Lyse

Hair Stylist: Simon Izard

Hair Assistant: Julie West, Aaron Dorn, Natasha Rose, Natasha Lawes

Makeup Assistant: Sophie Gia Moore, Marta Wozniak

Makeup Trainee: Rebecca Robinson

Medic: Alex Gardner, Richard Drakesford

Paramedic: Lynsey Shewring

Mini Winnego Driver: Phil Rainer

Honeywagon Driver: John Suttion

Production Sprinter: Jos Benschop

Minibus Driver: Rob Higgs, Gavin Baker, Granger Goodey, Dean Cumbers

Label Vehicle: Blerim Morina, Othman Abashikh, Peter Tarling, Steven Smith

Artist Trailer: Paul Haddock

Artist Wardrobe: David Czekalski

Honeywagon Driver: Martin Dean

Wardrobe Truck: Warren Smart

Hmu Truck: Wally Smart

Dining Bus: Andy Byrne

Location Security: Randal Berbick, Billy Bridger, Alan Laney, Kerri Mccann, Malakai Mars, Angelo Evangelou, Richard Johnson, Mathew Richards

Edit House: Assembly Rooms

Editor: Jack Williams

Edit Producer: Phoebe Armstrong-Beaver

Edit Assist: Bruna Manfredi, Tamara Ishida

Post Production: Cheat

Grade: Toby Tomkins

Post Producer: Joanna Dawson, Jen Saunders

Post Sound House: Soundtree Music

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Sound Producer: Neil Athale

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[my-chaos-radio]

Release: January 7, 2002

Lyrics:

When moonlight crawls along the street

Chasing away the summer heat

Footsteps outside, somewhere below

The world revolves, I've let it go

We build our Church above the street

We practiced love between these sheets

The candy sweetness scent of you

It bathes my skin, I'm stained of you

And all I have to do is hold you

There's a racing within my heart

And I am barely touching you

Turn the lights down low

Take it off, let me show

My love for you insatiable

Turn me on, never stop

Wanna taste every drop

My love for you insatiable

The moonlight plays upon your skin

A kiss that lingers takes me in

I fall asleep inside of you

There are no words, there's only truth

Breathe in breathe out, there is no sound

We move together up and down

We levitate our bodies soar

Our feet don't even touch the floor

But nobody knows you like I do

'Cause the world may not understand

That I grow stronger in your hands

Turn the lights down low

Take it off, let me show

My love for you insatiable

Turn me on, never stop

Wanna taste every drop

My love for you insatiable

Turn the lights down low

Take it off, let me show

My love for you insatiable

Turn me on, never stop

Wanna taste every drop

My love for you insatiable

Turn the lights down low

Take it off, let me show

My love for you insatiable

Turn me on, never stop

Wanna taste every drop

My love for you insatiable

Baby, oh yeah

We never sleep, we're always holding hands

Kissing for hours talking and making plans

I feel like a better man, just being in the same room

We never sleep, there's just so much to do

So much to say can't close my eyes when I'm with you

Insatiable the way I'm loving you, oh baby, yeah

Turn the lights down low

Take it off, let me show

My love for you insatiable

Turn me on, never stop

Wanna taste every drop

My love for you insatiable

Turn the lights down low

Take it off, let me show

My love for you insatiable

Turn me on, never stop

Wanna taste every drop

My love for you insatiable, baby

Songwriter:

Oh baby, when I'm looking in your eyes

Insatiable, that we ain't loving you

Ohh, looking at you insatiable, insatiable

For you insatiable for you insatiable

Love for you insatiable

Love for you insatiable

Love for you insatiable

Love for you insatiable

Love for you insatiable...

Michael Woods / Jordan Willey

SongFacts:

"Insatiable" is the first solo single from Australian singer Darren Hayes, the former lead singer of Savage Garden. The song served as the lead single from his debut solo album Spin (2002). It was aired on American adult radio on January 7, 2002 and was released as a CD single in Australia the following week, on January 14. The song topped the New Zealand singles chart for the week of April 21, 2002, peaked at number three on the Australian and Danish singles charts, and peaked at number eight on the Swedish and British charts.

“Insatiable” is in the key of G minor and played at a tempo of 144 beats per minute.

The music video features Darren Hayes watching videos of an actress he is in love with. The video continues with Hayes showing how he grew out his hair and dyed it blonde, which is his natural hair color.

Hayes said in a HuffPost post in 2022 that while US label executives were initially excited about the song itself, after being shown a rough cut of the video, they feared Hayes seemed "too gay" for American audiences. and wanted to “rework” his song. Image “so as not to scare off the fans”.

[compo67]

Hello Friend,

Hope you enjoying the Stars game and that the hockey gods are being kind to them.

Just wanted to stop and say hello, this dreary ass weather (Grea Lakes State here) makes me freaking sleepy all the time and cranky af....lol

Anywho I did have another reason to stop by....I was re reading your Back Pocket verse again for the umpteenth time..lol and I came across a couple of songs that fit for J2 in this verse.. I absolutely love George Michael, he was so freaking talented and I am sad that he has passed...

Here's my thought...when Jensen went to NY with Jared for those 2 weeks, Jared took Jensen out dancing, it took some cajoling and maybe there was a blow job involved, whose to say....NK was right Jared did want to show Jensen off...

So Jared has the DJ at the club play these 2 songs from George, Flawless and Amazing...they are great dance songs...I know it's not the poppy trendy music of todsy....but these songs have meaning, and so I think these were 2 of the songs they danced to

Thank you for bl3ssing us with your wonderful stories, I love the Holiday J2 fic you posted..it's adorable

Tale care Lovely Friend, Happy New Year! May the coming New Year bring you many blessings and good vibes...

P.S....I know no one misses him more than your family, but I miss Henry...

Peace ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

Hello, my dearest!!

I've been holding onto this ask for a bit because I just wanna hug it and squeeze it and hold it close. Thank you so much for sending this, it made my week. <3

I am SO torn about writing either Back Pocket 3 or Minutes Past Midnight 2 next year. I love talking about both those verses, so let's gooooooo.

Omg my sister and I were *just* talking about George Michael! She's a big fan, too!

NK was definitely right--Jared fully intends to show Jensen off at every possible opportunity. And YES they should go to a club to soak up the atmosphere and get a chance to be out. The songs you chose match the vibe I'm going for in my head! :D

Have you listened to anything by Darren Hayes? His music reminds me a lot of George Michael's music. Very similar vibes. Both extremely talented artists.

I have so many songs for BP3 lined up. There's a little bit of everything: Queen, Billy Joel, Nina Simone, Adele, Lady Gaga, k.d. lang, MIKA... and now some George Michael. :)

Thank you for the music recs, my friend. If you have more, please let me know. Even if they don't make the actual fic, I have playlists full of music that inspire me to write certain verses and help while I'm noodling.

I hope you have a wonderful, awesome, amazing New Year. May 2024 bring you lots of love and light. <3

We miss Henry so much over here, too. I'm so appreciative that you keep him in your memories.

Oh, dearest anon. How much I enjoy your company when you pop up in my inbox. <3

[qnewsau]

What Christian Hull thinks of Brisbane's gay dating scene

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What Christian Hull thinks of Brisbane's gay dating scene

Openly gay comedian and content creator Christian Hull has millions of followers on social media.

We caught up with the Brisbane-based funny man for a chat on his new life here and being an “influencer.”

New life and dating scene in Brisbane

You moved up from Melbourne Brisbane five years ago, what’s some of the biggest differences you’ve seen between the cities and people? 

THE WEATHER. I left Melbourne because it was cold, dark and grey. The winters were horrible and the summers were dry and boiling. Honestly, the weather in Victoria isn’t for me. 

When I used to do comedy shows up in Brisbane I would love my time here. Howard Smith Wharves is gorgeous. James Street is just stunning.

I was told Brisbane was boring and there was nothing to do but that’s not the experience I had when I visited. You have access to so much and what sold it for me was Noosa was a short drive away. 

The vibe and the people are so much more chill. Even Noosa is less snobby and more chill than most parts of Sydney and Melbourne. 

Have you got to immerse yourself into the queer and dating scene here? 

I’m the biggest introvert on the planet I hate going out and I’m not a big drinker. I also live alone and love my own company.

I’m not someone who dates. I am a massive whore who tends to operate more in the shadows doing naughty things. 

Let me tell you having spent time in Sydney and Melbourne the men in Brisbane are far more talented in my opinion.

Sure they ‘serve c*nt’ but they aren’t c*nts. I found the men here really friendly and easy to talk to. Also very attractive. 

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Highlights of 2024

You had a crazy 2024 with plane spins, world cruises, your Bad Friends tour and meeting Darren Hayes, what was your highlight? 

2024 was an insane year for me. Highlights include going back to Jarvis Bay on the NSW South Coast.

We used to holiday here as kids and we, as a family of 6 million, rented a place for the week and got to hang out again.

This time my brothers all had kids and we were all grown up and mildly responsible. We don’t get to do that as a family anymore so it was really nice to all be together yelling at each other for a week. 

Other highlights include getting on the famous Ultimate World Cruise and experiencing what being on a cruise liner was like for the first time. IT WAS HORRIBLE! Loud and bright. Imagine a floating nursing home casino.

I don’t mean to shit all over something so popular but this was not a fun experience for me. It is in my highlights only because I stepped out of my comfort zone and embarked on this trip alone. I made amazing friends onboard and had the best time almost dying at different ports in Indonesia. I look back and laugh at how insane this experience was. 

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The downsides

On the downside, you had some troubles around your Fuck Off shop, ran into a cyclone and fractured a rib, what life lessons did you take away from all of this? 

I took away that I am and will always be the biggest disaster of a human. I just end up filming myself have these horrific moments and people laugh at me – I love that my mess of a life brings people joy. Thanks for that!

I’m lucky that I’m able to go on these adventures, try new things and break a rib in the process. The rib incident was only in Noosa and it was because I was trying to get into a boat from the river and fell on a metal pole and injured myself.  

As I always say film everything and never stop the camera. The friends I was with were filming the moment and instead of helping me they just zoomed in and watched me screaming in the river in pain and also in shock because I thought I was going to be eaten by the river sharks. It’s amazing footage.

Shutting down my online store was not a hard decision for me I was well and truly over running a business after 4 years and sales weren’t good and I was losing money. It was the best decision I could have made and I’m so much happier for it now. 

Being an “influencer”

How do you feel about being described as an influencer?

I feel like a bikini model or travel blogger when that term is used. Influencer is a bit of a gross term but I’ll embrace it.

Everyone knows exactly what that is so it’s a fair description of what I do. I wouldn’t ever call myself that. I like to say “I make shitty videos online” when people ask what I do. 

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What are some misconceptions people have about influencers?

None, they are all true. Influencers can be the nicest and also the most entitled. I remember going to an event once, I never go to events and this was one of the first I had been to in years.

I was wandering around saying hello to other creators and influencers and one of them seemed very disinterested in holding a conversation with me. 

We were very different in age and I’m an old grandpa so to be fair I was super boring to them. As soon as they found out I had a big following on TikTok however they changed their tune.

They were all over me asking me to do videos with them and link with brands I had worked with. It was so gross, it’s a lot of social climbing and just using other people to get ahead. I hate that. 

Dealing with fans

You have millions of followers across your social platforms, what are some of the nicest things some of your fans have done for you?

When I closed down my business I had $250K worth of stock sitting in the warehouse and I wasn’t sure I’d sell any of it.

When I announced I was closing and the reasons why, people were so awesome. I ended up selling almost all of the stock. This was such a great feeling and I will forever be thankful. 

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Have you had any odd or worrying interactions with fans though? 

Thankfully not. I have the best and friendliest fans. Some scream ‘FUCK OFF” out their car windows which I absolutely froth at.

Brings me so much joy. I can never tell if it’s said with love or hate. I’m just going to assume love. 

If you could go on tour with any comedian living or dead, who would it be and why?

I don’t think I could go on tour with any of my favourite comedians. The pressure would be too insane. I would kill to MC a show starring Joan Rivers. I got to meet her when she was here in 2009 hosting the Sydney Mardi Gras.

She told me “Find the oldest wealthiest man you can and suck his dick into the will. He will be dead soon and you can thank me later”

Body positivity

You exude body positivity in your content, is that something you’re deliberate about and how important is it to just be yourself?

For 35 years I hated my body and now the scales have tipped the other way. I no longer hate how I look.

I’m about to turn 38 and the last two years have been crazy. I joined OnlyFans and have been very open about my body and sharing a lot of everything.  

I’m a very sexual person so finally being comfortable in my skin has made me even more of a whore with no shame at all. I love it! 

I’m so happy to rock a pair of buddy smugglers at the beach or at my local sauna. People don’t really care it turns out I was my biggest critic. Now I look in the mirror and think “Who is that? I’d like to buy him a drink.”

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What has been your proudest achievement to date? 

Failing English in high school and having the worst spelling and grammar but to have published a best-selling book. Writing my book was such an enjoyable process and the finished product I was so happy with. 

What is coming up for you in 2025?

NOTHING! I don’t make plans things just happen.

Plans make me nervous. I’m excited to have no upcoming comedy tours and no big projects.

I have nothing in the pipeline for 2025. Something is bound to happen and I’m excited to find out what that is. 

You can follow Christian on Instagram @christianhull

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Tania Doko "Harder Now"

When you know, you know There are few things in this world more spellbinding than a great vocal, the captivating magic of a beautiful, resounding singing voice. One of those belongs to Tania Doko, the way she connects, how it carries. Listen and you’ll find out. Music has taken her all around the world, up charts and down winding roads where anything can and has happened thus, chances are you’ve already heard her. Then you’d already know that some journeys continue without an end. Relentlessly forwards, the work of Tania Doko. Harder Now Beauty attracts beauty, the cycle spins to set all meaningful things in motion, drawing from all sorts, even the broken. In fact, the beauty found there radiates a very special light. In July of 2023, Tania Doko released a first single from her EP. It’s called Harder Now, for very good reason, love. She’s two feet firm on Australia’s red soil again, for this, a new chapter in her music. How it all comes together: Her career started early and precisely on a coffee table, cheered on by her proud Italian/Albanian family but thus far, Tania Doko is perhaps best known for her work in the ARIA awarded pop-duo Bachelor Girl. Their success is tremendous and together with James Roche she’s responsible for hit-songs like ‘Buses and Trains’, irresistibly cutting through anything to become the most played Australian composition on radio Down Under over the last 20 years. Signed by Clive Davies, the album ‘Waiting for the Day’ went double platinum. The adventures with Bachelor Girl has been many and continues on to this day. Touring and continuously releasing a string of new material and only this year they released the song ‘Calling out your name’ whilst joining Darren Hayes on the road, a particular relationship that began when Tania Doko toured with him back in 2007. The many adventures with Bachelor Girl lead Tania and James to be cast in leading roles in ‘Tim Rice’s Musical Spectacular’ alongside INXS at one point. Meanwhile and please, do try to keep up Tania Doko also moved to Sweden for ten years, got married, built a family, wrote hit records with The Veronicas, Jessica Mauboy, Eric Bazilian, Taylor Dayne, Delta Goodrem, Sheppard, Tina Arena, to name a few. She’s done Disney film, K-pop and even dabbled in Eurovision hey, at one point she herself was a contestant singing her amply named song ‘Piece of Me’. She performed at the Sydney Opera House with ‘Hear Me Roar’ alongside some of Australia’s finest. She toured with Australia’s ‘Let’s get together’, with Jon Stevens, Ian Moss and Jack Jones, started a successful podcast for exile Aussies in Sweden, was given a role in ‘Seriously. The Pet Shop Boys Reinterpreted’ in Edinburgh, UK, to the great pride and joy of The Boys themselves. Oh my, left to her own devices. She’s been a judge on Channel 7’s ‘Popstars’, an APRA ambassador and you should know she holds a degree in Psychology and Criminology. Helpful in her work for positive change, dealing with troubled youth in Australia. Some of her most rewarding, vital work as she calls it. She’s continuously lent her voice to the European EDM scene, writing and featuring with acts like Leroy Styles, Deep Matter, Gabi Newman. She’s sung to LGBTQ audiences from Manchester’s Pride to Sydney’s Mardi Gras. Then when the world stopped, Tania re-evaluated. There was a very special dream of an album of her own, it grew and just like that, in 2021, Tania Doko and her family moved back to Australia.. Dealing with a longing heart, roots grow long but there’s nothing quite like the source, home. Where do we go now? The welcome was warm. Joining the cast of ‘Fleetwood Mac Orchestrated’, touring all around the country, such beautiful homecoming. Numerous shows with Bachelor Girl and seeing both her and James now shared the same continent, it generated renewed energy to meet the popular demand of seeing them perform live again. But it’s time ‘The beauty’s in the broken’ In Stockholm, from time to time, she would write music for artists with Mattias Lindblom. Often it would fail, in a sense. Perhaps because the music was simply too personal, too perfectly fitting to hand over to anyone else thus, the songs were saved, destined to be Tania Doko’s own. So here we are, it’s 2023. Tania Doko’s first solo material in 15 years, completed. It started with the song Harder Now, a song that musically and lyrically brings you straight into the heartily core of the work. It’s hypnotic, pulsating, tribal. A current and emotional tidal wave to simply, ride, travel with you. Creating the wave The work was finished back home, in Melbourne, Australia. It was produced by Mattias Lindblom and there are some very fine musicians featuring on it. It takes a web spun, from deep devotion to the craft, to capture a moment like this. Then courage, hope and faith to step into oneself, to be genuine. This is Tania Doko, always a forward’s movement. “Out of the heart, comes everything and in the light, it’s golden” Additional Artist/Song Information: Artist Name: Tania Doko Song Title: Harder Now Publishing: Sony Music Publishing Publishing Affiliation: APRA Album Title: The Beauty’s In The Broken Record Label: The Ted Co. Record Label: The Ted Co. Fiona Gulin 61 487 992 333 fi@fionagulin.com.au Publicity/PR: Fi Gulin fi@fionagulin.com.au Booking Agent: Harbour Agency Australia Tony Grace 61 2 9331 5888 tonyg@theharbouragency.com.au Read the full article

[ducksbellorum]

Only If a mix for the big damn crush - arranged by ducksbellorum

listen/download

heart attack - demi lovato Never break a sweat for the other guys When you come around, I get paralyzed And every time I try to be myself It comes out wrong, like a cry for help

call me maybe - carly rae jepsen You took your time with the call I took no time with the fall You gave me nothin' at all But still you're in my way

give your heart a break - demi lovato There's just one life to live and there's no time to wait, to waste So let me give your heart a break Give your heart a break

bleeding love - leona lewis And everyone's lookin' 'round thinkin' I'm going crazy But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you

somethin stupid - frank sinatra oh, the night's so blue And then I go and spoil it all by saying somethin' stupid like, "I love you"

hyfr - drake Do you ever get nervous? Are you single? I heard you fuck your girl, is it true? You gettin' money?

cooler than me - mike posner I used up all of my tricks, I hope that you like this But you probably won't, you think you're cooler than me

cyclone - baby bash Shawty got looks and shawty got class Shawty got hips and shawty got ass

girlfriend - avril lavigne Hey, hey, you, you, I don't like your girlfriend No way, no way, I think you need a new one

hot n cold - katy perry We fight, we break up We kiss, we make up You don't really wanna stay, no But you don't really wanna go

hurricane drunk - florence + the machine And in the crowd, I see you with someone else I brace myself, because I know it's going to hurt

hurt - darren hayes I can take a good intention And turn it on its head I can make you pray to God And wish we'd never met

i’m not calling you a liar - florence + the machine I'm not calling you a ghost Just stop haunting me And I love you so much I'm going to let you kill me

johnny are you queer? - josie cotton I can't help wondering Where I stand I'm so afraid I'll lose you If I can't seduce you

i’m not that girl - wicked Don't dream too far Don't lose sight of who you are Don't remember that rush of joy He could be that boy, I'm not that girl

if i were a boy - beyonce If I were a boy I think I could understand How it feels to love a girl I swear I'd be a better man

hey stephen - taylor swift 'Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you Can't help it if there's no one else

let it be me - ray montagne When all your faith is gone It feels like you can't go on Let it be me Let it be me

take care - drake ft. rihanna I know you've been hurt by someone else I can tell by the way you carry yourself If you let me, here's what I'll do I'll take care of you

the more you ruv someone - avenue q The more you love someone The more you want to kill 'em The more you love someone The more he make you cry

on my own - les miserables And I know it's only in my mind That I'm talking to myself and not to him And although I know that he is blind Still I say, there's a way for us

ride on - celtic thunder I turn to face an empty space where once you used to lie And look for a smile to light the night through a teardrop in my eye Ride on, see you, I could never go with you No matter how I wanted to

sun of a gun - oh land Once burned, twice shunned Too much of your line made me blind. I'd wait all night But you left one too many times.

want you to want me - anggun Sometimes I walk away 'Cause I know that we can't ever be together Sometimes I close my mind I can't keep this love for myself any longer

goodnight and go - imogen heap Why d'ya have to be so cute? It's impossible to ignore you Must you make me laugh so much? It's bad enough we get along so well

i can’t make you love me - bon iver Here in the dark These final hours I will lay down my heart I feel the power but you don't

7 things - miley cyrus You're vain, your games, you're insecure You love me, you like her You make me laugh, you make me cry I don't know which side to buy

zombie - natalia kills I'm in love with a zombie When he put his hands on me Sends chills through my body But then he don't call me

i knew you were trouble - taylor swift He was long gone when he met me And I realize the joke is on me I knew you were trouble when you walked in So shame on me now

wish me well (you can go to hell) - the bouncing souls Say goodbye Kiss my ass I hope you die Wish me well You can go to hell

[my-chaos-radio]

Release: November 4, 1996

Lyrics:

She's taking her time making up the reasons

To justify all the hurt inside

Guess she knows from the smiles and the look in their eyes

Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one

They're saying

Mama never loved her much

And daddy never keeps in touch

That's why she shies away from human affection

But somewhere in a private place

She packs her bags for outer space

And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot

To come (and she'll say to him)

She's saying

I would fly you to the moon and back

If you'll be if you'll be my baby

Got a ticket for a world where

We belong

So would you be my baby

Ooh-ooh

She can't remember a time

When she felt needed

If love was red then she was colour-blind

All her friends they've been tried for treason

And crimes that were never defined

She's saying

Love is like a barren place

And reaching out for human faith is

Is like a journey I just don't have a map for

So baby gonna take a dive and push the shift to overdrive

Send a signal that she's hanging all her hopes on the stars

(What a pleasant dream) just saying

I would fly you to the moon and back

If you'll be if you'll be my baby

Got a ticket for a world where

We belong

So would you be my baby

Ooh-ooh

I would fly you to the moon and back

If you'll be if you'll be my baby

Got a ticket for a world where

We belong

So would you be my baby

Ooh-ooh

Mamma never loved her much

And daddy never keeps in touch

That's why she shies away from human affection

But somewhere in a private place

She packs her bags for outer space

And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot

To come (and she'll say to him)

She's saying

I would fly you to the moon and back

If you'll be if you'll be my baby

Got a ticket for a world where

We belong

So would you be my baby

Ooh-ooh

Songwriter:

I would fly you to the moon and back

If you'll be if you'll be my baby

Got a ticket for a world where

We belong

So would you be my baby

Ooh-ooh

Daniel Jones / Darren Hayes

SongFacts:

"To the Moon and Back" is a song by Australian pop duo Savage Garden. It was released in Australia on 4 November 1996 as the second single from their self-titled 1997 album. It was the follow up to their hit "I Want You". It won the 1997 ARIA Music Award for Song of the Year. The song became the band's first number-one single in their native country, reached number three on the UK Singles Chart, and peaked at number 24 on the US Billboard Hot 100.

After the international success of their debut single, "I Want You", there were high expectations for the song as its follow-up. During the song's first charting in the US after its release there in July 1997, the song entered the top 40 of the Billboard Hot 100 for only one week, peaking at number 37 the final week of August 1997. In the United Kingdom, the single was originally released in September 1997, and there it failed to chart in the top 40, stalling at number 55 for one week.

Subsequently, "Truly Madly Deeply" became an international hit, reaching number one on several music charts, including the Billboard Hot 100 and the Adult Contemporary charts, where it broke the record as the longest-running single to that time on the Adult Contemporary charts. While the song did not initially experience success in the US, the success of "Truly Madly Deeply" inspired Savage Garden and Columbia Records to remix "To the Moon and Back" in 1998 and release it again.

In the wake of such success, the band decided the song had greater potential to become a hit than its first chartings had borne out, and so instead of mining a fourth single from the album as they had for the Australian market, they decided to mix a shorter edit of "To the Moon and Back" and re-release it internationally in 1998. This time the song peaked at number 24 in the US. In the UK, the single debuted at number three, becoming Savage Garden's biggest hit in the country. This prompted the re-release of their debut single, remixed as "I Want You '98".

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'I was in so much pain': Darren Hayes on new memoir Unlovable

New Post has been published on https://qnews.com.au/i-was-in-so-much-pain-darren-hayes-on-new-memoir-unlovable/

'I was in so much pain': Darren Hayes on new memoir Unlovable

At a time when he was one of Australia’s most successful pop stars, Darren Hayes says that he was wearing a mask.

In his new memoir Unlovable, the former Savage Garden frontman said he created “a carefully curated superhero – an amalgamation of all the popstars who had came before me” including “hair by Elvis and Michael Jackson” and “stage moves by Madonna”.

“Everything about me was armour to protect me from being seen,” he wrote.

Darren explained the persona was one he’d created many years before, to help him escape a traumatic childhood in suburban Queensland. That childhood was one plagued by domestic violence, homophobic bullying and a struggle to accept his own sexuality.

“My solution was to dissociate and just become a pop star, because I thought that would make everything better,” Darren told JOY.

“Spoiler alert, it didn’t.

“I live with a severe depressive disorder. Because of my childhood, I have complex post-traumatic stress disorder.

“The way our brains survive sometimes, we don’t even register [traumatic experiences]. We just lock it away. But you carry it around for so long, then you’re stepping over landmines and everything is a trigger.

“I’m 52 now, and I feel very joyous and happy. At the age of 50, I was in so much pain, and it just became enough.

“I had tried everything. The only thing left was revisiting these unresolved traumas that I’d never processed.”

Darren Hayes pays tribute to his brave mother

Darren Hayes lays bare those traumas in often harrowing detail in Unlovable. He came home to Brisbane to launch the book on Saturday night.

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Before now, the singer had used his music as an anonymous outlet.

Savage Garden’s song Two Beds and a Coffee Machine is “about being on the run with my mother and my siblings, living in hotels, trying to run away” from his alcoholic and violent father, Darren explained.

The new memoir, Darren explains, is about navigating and surviving trauma and the importance of “breaking the cycle” of abuse.

The book is dedicated – and a tribute – to Darren’s loving mother, who’s 79.

“She was the first person to read it. We both agreed that [telling this story] is worth it in the service of letting other people know that they’re not alone,” he said.

“You also can survive this if you can just put some of the shame down. Because it’s not yours to carry. It’s your abuser’s.”

‘We were taught to be ashamed of ourselves’

Speaking to Joy 94.9, Darren Hayes recalled being severely bullied at school and the toll of both internalised and externalised homophobia.

Darren recalled a teacher calling him into her office and using “a slur I didn’t quite understand”.

“She closed the door. And she said, ‘You’re a little fairy, aren’t you, Darren Hayes?'” he recalled.

“When we’re children, figures of authority, and especially teachers, they’re gods to us.

“Everything in me just felt so rotten. There was this feeling that this adult was repulsed by me.

“[Queer people] were told that something that we were, we had to be ashamed of. We sensed that other people were repulsed by us.”

‘That’s what makes you amazing’

Darren Hayes said every child “deserves to feel loved and safe” and gives a simple message to queer young people.

“We are all born happy. You don’t enter this earth cynical [or] afraid,” he said.

“It’s only the things that happen to you that leave those fingerprints upon you. But it’s possible to return to that.

“The thing that might make you a target of bullying… that’s what makes you amazing. Eventually you will find a chosen family that celebrates that about you.

“Everyone has something about them that is your reason to be here. If that’s what you’re being bullied for in your current circumstance, one day, someone is going to say, that’s the thing I love most about you. Just hold on to that.”

Listen to the full chat with Darren Hayes on JOY. Darren Hayes’ Unlovable is out now.

If you need support, help is available from QLife on 1800 184 527 or online at QLife.org.au, Lifeline on 13 11 14, Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800, or beyondblue on 1300 22 4636.

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get to know me

@beautifulhigh tagged me in this one too... literal months ago! Oops?

rules: tag nine people you want to get to know better

three ships: Buddie, Ineffable Husbands, Janto, 2 of the most recent and one I loved the mostest.

first ship: Oh god, it was probably Scott and Charlene in Neighbours!

fave color: Purple

last song: For Good (Wicked OBC)

last movie in the theater: Ant Man and the Wasp Quantumania

last show: TV or Theatre? TV - all the bikes! All of them. Theatre - Allegiance.

currently watching: 9-1-1 OG, (am behind on Lone Star), the Mandalorain (I'm also behind on that!)

currently reading: Saved fanfic!

currently working on: The MotoGP 9-1-1 AU that no one asked for...

current obsession: 5 sleeps til we see Darren Hayes again... Front Row... And 4 sleeps til we see Russell Howard!

[ljaesch]

AeschTunes Revisited: May 29, 2007

This is the playlist for the May 29, 2007 broadcast of AeschTunes Revisited: The KLF – “America: What Time Is Love? [12″]” Madonna – “Beautiful Stranger [Calderone Radio Mix]” Lasgo – “Alone [Ian van Dahl Remix]” Bosson – “We Live [Engines Garage Mix]” Darren Hayes – “Strange Relationship [F3 Mix]” Billy Joel featuring Oscar the Grouch – “Just the Way You Are” Moby – “Porcelain [Torsten…

[le-sad-demiurge]

you might regret this

green is for folk song renditions that I particularly like. sometimes songs from a soundtrack are under their actual writer/performer, sometimes just the OST

tried to limit it to one song per whatever folder it came out of, but not always possible, also tried to avoid any that are too obvious (everyone likes Footloose, there's no point)

this is heavily pruned. there's 1000 folders of music in my hard drive and I love half of them

yes this is overkill, I like occupying myself with busywork so it's no skin off of my back

ABBA ~ Gimme Gimme Gimme

Adrienne Bailon ~ Big Spender

Akai Tori ~ Lullaby of Takeda

AKB48 ~ Sugar Rush

Alaw ~ Santiana

Amaany Clarke ~ Kill Shot

Amy Winehouse ~ Rehab

Anberlin ~ Unwinding Cable Car

Antii Martikainen ~ To Valhalla!

Aqua ~ Like a Robot

Arany Zoltan ~ Oró sé do bheatha bhaile

Art Crew ~ Леле, Яно (Cover)

Avalon ~ Testify to Love

Avril Lavigne ~ Complicated | Here's to Never Growing Up

AWOLNATION ~ Kill Your Heroes ||| THISKIDSNOTALRIGHT

Ayumi Hamasaki ~ Evolution

BabyMetal ~ Shanti Shanti Shanti

Bayonetta OST ~ Fly Me to the Moon ||| Mysterious Destiny

Beast In Black ~ From Hell With Love

Bee Gees ~ Flesh and Blood | For Whom the Bell Tolls | The Bridge

Belinda Carlisle ~ La Luna | Summer Rain

Black Future '88 OST ~ Streetlights

Black Hill ~ a wild river to take you home

Black Rebel Motorcycle Club ~ Little Thing Gone Wild

Blondie ~ A Rose By Any Name

Bloodywood ~ Tunak Tunak Tun Feat. Bonde do Metaleiro (metal cover)

Boney M ~ Bang Bang Lulu | Daddy Cool | Rasputin

BRADIO ~ スパイシーマドンナ

Brave OST ~ Noble Maiden Fair (A Mhaighdean Bhan Uasal)

Breaking Benjamin ~ Blow Me Away

Bring Me the Horizon ~ in the dark | MANTRA | sugar honey ice & tea

Britney Spears ~ Make Me...feat G-Eazy

Camille Saint-Saëns ~ Danse Macabre

Capital Lights ~ His Favorite Christmas Story

Caramell ~ Ooa Hela Natten

Carly Rae Jepsen ~ I Really Like You

Casey Edwards ~ Devil Trigger feat. Ali Edwards

Celtic Woman ~ Siúil a Rún

Chasen ~ Castaway

Christopher Tin ~ Mado Kara Mieru (feat. Lia, Aoi Tada, Kaori Omura) | Témen Oblåk (“Dark Clouds”)

CHVRCHES ~ Miracle

Circus-P ~ iNSaNiTY feat. SF-A2 & Kaito

CL ~ Hello Bitches

Clamavi De Profundis ~ Veni Veni Emmanuel

Crusher ~ ECHO feat. Gumi

CupcaKKe ~ Barcodes

Daft Punk ~ Instant Crush | The Grid (Instrumental)

DAOKO ~ ダイスキ with TeddyLoid

Darren Hayes ~ Crush (1980 Me)

DC Lacroix ~ Devil's Son

Dead Or Alive ~ Hooked On Love | Something in My House

deadmau5 ~ Drama Free feat. Lights

Death Grips ~ Beware

Deborah Cox ~ Absolutely Not

Def Leppard ~ Action | Make Love Like a Man | Undefeated

Dixie Flatline ~ Just Be Friends feat. Megurine Luka

Doja Cat ~ Like That feat. Gucci Mane

Doll Patrol ~ So You Could Breathe

Don't Panic OST ~ Don't Panic Theme (instrumental)

Dragon Force ~ Soldiers of the Wasteland | Through the Fire and Flames

Dzivia ~ Dzikaje Palavańnie (Wild Hunt)

Eartha Kitt ~ I Want to Be Evil

Electric Light Orchestra ~ 10538 Overture | Evil Woman

Elfen Lied OST ~ Lilium

Ella Roberts ~ The Bonnie Banks of Loch Lomond

Ellie Goulding ~ Lights | Only You

Ensemble Trakia ~ Aishinko, Pilya Shareno (Aishinko, You Motley Bird)

Evanescence ~ Whisper

F-777 ~ Flower Bazooka | Memories 2 | Sramai (ft. Bog, Snapski)

FalKKone ~ Fragrant Plants (remix)

Family Force 5 ~ Love Addict | Zombie

FamilyJules ~ Butterfly (feat. Adriana Figueroa) (metal cover)

Faun ~ Blau Stunde | Diese kalte Nacht | Walpurgisnacht

FEMM ~ Astroboy feat. Honey-B & W-Trouble | Fxxk Boyz Get Money

FireCityFunk ~ Surrender to Me

Fireflight ~ Unbreakable

Fitz and the Tantrums ~ MoneyGrabber

Five-Eaux ~ Lullaby of Takeda

Florence + The Machine ~ Drumming Song

Francesca Battistelli ~ Free to Be Me

Frode Fjellheim ~ Cantus Eatnemen Vuelie

Garbage ~ Supervixen

Genitorturers ~ Lecher Bitch

Ghost ~ Dance Macabre (Carpenter Brut remix) | Square Hammer

Girls' Generation ~ Lazy Girls

Grimes ~ Kill V. Maim | We Appreciate Power

Halestorm ~ Love Bites (So Do I)

Hanz Zimmer ~ Through Heaven's Eyes

hatsuko ~ A Tale of Six Trillion Years and Overnight Story feat. IA

Heather Dale ~ Hero | Mordred's Lullaby

Helly Luv ~ Bale Bale

Hildegard von Blingin' (bardcore covers) ~ Hurt | Pumped Up Kicks | Somebody That I Used to Know

Hoàng Thùy Linh ~ See Tinh (Cukak remix)

Icon For Hire ~ Get Well | Off With Her Head

Ida Maria ~ Scandilove

Ilona Sekacz ~ Northanger Abbey theme

In Extremo ~ Krummavisur

Insane Clown Posse ~ Explosions

Jars of Clay ~ Dead Man (Carry Me)

Jerry Galleries ~ Shape of You (80s Remix) | 狂ってる (Mad)

Jessie J ~ Do It Like a Dude

Jimi Hendrix ~ Crosstown Traffic

Joe South ~ Hush

Jon McLaughlin ~ So Close

Jonathan Thulin ~ Dead Come to Life (feat. Charmaine)

Jonathan Young ~ Hello Kitty (metal cover)

Jumpstyle ~ Loituma

Kaoru Akimoto ~ Dress Down

Karl Jenkins ~ Adiemus

Kat Deluna ~ Run The Show feat. Don Omar (Spanish)

Kate Bush ~ Cloudbusting

Katy Perry ~ Chained to the Rhythm feat. Skip Marley | Circle the Drain | E.T.

Kesha ~ D.I.N.O.$.A.U.R.

KidneyThieves ~ Taxi Cab Messiah

Kimbra ~ Come Into My Head | Warrior

Lady Gaga ~ Applause | Judas

Lana Del Rey ~ High By the Beach | Summertime Sadness

Left 4 Dead OST ~ Your Brains

Lil Mariko ~ Don't Touch feat. Full Tac

Lindsey Stirling ~ Activate | Roundtable Rival | Senbonzakura (cover)

Loreena McKennitt ~ All Souls Night

Máddji ~ Dawn Light

Marilyn Manson ~ Disposable Teens

Mariya Takeuchi ~ Plastic Love

Mayumi Tachibana ~ Belladonna of Sadness theme

Metro Station ~ Shake It

MGMT ~ Electric Feel

Michael Sembello ~ Tear Down the Walls

Mike Oldfield ~ Crime of Passion feat. Barry Palmer

Mindless Self Indulgence ~ Straight to Video

Miriam Stockley ~ Perfect Day

Mitsunori Ikeda ~ Fallen Angel (ft. Aimee-B)

Muse ~ Supermassive Black Hole

My Bloody Valentine ~ Only Shallow

My Chemical Romance ~ The Sharpest Lives

Nana Mizuki ~ Secret Ambition

Nick Phoenix ~ Splitsar

NicoNicoDouga ~ Happy Synthesizer feat. Neko96 & Kagamine LEN

Nightwish ~ Nemo

Nochiura Natsumi ~ Renaisentai Shitsurensha

Nomico ~ Bad Apple!! (extended)

OneRepublic ~ Counting Stars

Owl City ~ Fireflies

Pasha Parfeni ~ Soarele şi Luna

Pentatonix ~ Mary, Did You Know?

Phil Collins ~ In the Air Tonight

Poppy ~ Church Outfit | Money | Play Destroy feat. Grimes | Say Cheese

Powerwolf ~ Stossgebet

Rainy Ram ~ I=FANTASY feat. SeeU (Demo)

Red Velvet ~ Huff n Puff

Reliant K ~ Devastation and Reform

Rob Thomas ~ This is How a Heart Breaks

Rob Zombie ~ Dragula

Roby Save Environment ~ Wish I Could Be Yours, Swain

Royal Scots Dragoon Guards ~ Auld Lang Syne

Ruby Friedman Orchestra ~ I'm Not Your Friend

RyanDan ~ Tears of an Angel

Sabaton ~ Night Witches

Sean Dagher ~ Leave Her, Johnny

Selena ~ Enamorada De Ti

SEREBRO ~ Mi Mi Mi

Shakira ~ Peligro

Shiny Toy Guns ~ Ricochet!

Shloime Taussig ~ Kedai

Silva Hakobyan ~ Sasna par

Sissel ~ Molde Canticle

Skillet ~ The Last Night

Sleigh Bells ~ Kids | Riot Rhythm

Smile.Dk ~ Butterfly 09 (United Forces Airplay)

Solid Base ~ Come 'n Get Me

Soundgarden ~ Black Hole Sun

Stefanie Scott ~ Hit Me Up

Stereo Alchemy ~ God of Love | Monster of the Sky

Sturgill Simpson ~ Sing Along

Superchick ~ Stand In the Rain

Taylor Dayne ~ Tell It To My Heart

Tchaikovsky ~ Dance of the Swans

Tears for Fears ~ Everybody Wants to Rule the World

The Darkness ~ One Way Ticket

The Donnas ~ Take it Off

The Dreadnoughts ~ Roll the Woodpile Down

The Letter Black ~ Hanging On By a Thread | Sick Charade | Smothering Walls

The New Seekers ~ I'd Like to Teach the World to Sing

The Offspring ~ Slim Pickens Does the Right Thing

The Pussycat Dolls ~ Flirt

The Shangri-La ~ Remember (Walking in the Sand)

The Swan Princess OST ~ Far Longer Than Forever

Thomas Bergersen ~ Avalanche (duet remix) | One Million Voices | Starvation | Xunia

Thousand Foot Krutch ~ Let the Sparks Fly

Tiggy ~ Abracadabra

Tinasha ~ Party Favors

Topa ~ Oysya Thousand

Toto ~ Don't Chain My Heart

TRONICBOX ~ Love Me Harder (80s remix)

Two Steps From Hell ~ Flight of the Silverbird

UCD Choral Scholars ~ Mo Ghille Mear (My Gallant Hero)

Un Chanson Ouigour ~ Joyful Dance

Uppermost ~ Revolution

Urusei Yatsura Italian Dub theme

Valrvn ~ Krummavísur

VocaCircus ~ Our Belief feat. SF-A2 Miki

Voces Thules ~ Krummavísur

WALK THE MOON ~ We Are the Kids

Weezer ~ Feels Like Summer

Wagakki Band ~ Senbonzakura (metal cover)

Yang Mi ~ Love of the Support theme (i think that's correct)

Yoko Oginome ~ Dancing Hero (Eat You Up)

Yoko Takahashi ~ Cruel Angel's Thesis

ZOEgirl ~ Dismissed ~ Even If ~ With All of My Heart

八王子P ~ Kimagure Mercy (can't for the life of me find whoever made my favorite version of this song)

Ooh I appreciate the music rec (and flattered that you trust my taste) but my means of listening to music is comically inefficient, not sure how else to describe it. My thousands of tracks do not indicate which album they are from, I just kinda listen on a song-by-song basis. It's a very inelegant system.

Amazing. You remind me of my friend who only listens to music through a type of automated YouTube to mp3 program. He knows the names and artists because he only listens to old country and South Park Mexican, so he just has them memorized. He’s 21 going on 70 and I’m terrified of his power.

So instead of albums, what are a few of your favorite songs??

[darrenhayesoneandonly]

Darren Hayes new photo and post on Facebook. We feel you D, we’re all having difficult times 😢

“I’m blue today. It will pass but I’ve learned if I can sit in these feelings for a moment, I know that’s better for me long term than trying to ignore it. It might help you if I share how I feel. Maybe it will encourage you to share how you’re doing. This is a photo of me on the rooftop of a car park near my home. Since March last year we’ve been in lockdown. Not always state mandated but always science informed. Today will be another 4000 deaths in America to Covid; the most contagious it’s ever been. For us it’s meant no gatherings, hangs, hugs, movies, restaurants, bars, no stores besides groceries.

This photo is the one last remnant of my old life: my daily walk to coffee. I order it via an app and pick it up contactless then head to an unused car park to be outside and feel somewhat free for the time it takes to drink it. The car park is unused because most of the local stores and food places on the street went out of business. It’s a ghost town a lot of the time. The grocery store, the coffee place and a few strange boutiques remain open but largely the street is unrecognizable from before.

I used to know most of the people in my local cafe; we’d meet most afternoons and shoot the shit. I haven’t seen my coffee buddies in 10 months. Many were age 50 or older and were among the first to take social distancing seriously. Those who didn’t eventually caught the virus.

My god daughter is gonna be 4 this year. Since birth I had seen her at least once a week. When she was 3 months old I started babysitting her one day a week. It was a privilege I can’t even describe. I got to experience parenting in some form, from diaper changing and bottle feeding all the way through to watching Peter Pan with her for the first time and searching our garden for fairies. I haven’t seen her without a mask and from a distance in 10 months. At first we didn’t see her at all but it’s hard to explain to a 2 and a half year old why you suddenly disappeared from her life. So our compromise was a socially distanced porch or park visit (when they were open). This was incredibly strange. Again, explaining to a toddler why you are masked, why you can’t touch them, why they can’t come within 6 feet of you, is tough. I imagine lots of grandparents know this strange sadness. Right now we aren’t even risking that because of this new strain of highly contagious virus and the risk to others by taking unnecessary trips in the car. I really miss my time with her. Mostly because I knew it was fleeting. As soon as she was old enough to go to school full time our 1 day a week adventures were going to end. I’m just sad Covid took almost a year of those special moments.

I don’t even drive anywhere anymore. Right now hospitals are full to capacity with Covid patients - so an automobile accident that resulted in injury is both an unnecessary risk and a potential strain on the already overloaded health care system but also the chance you may not even qualify for treatment. I’m now so used to wearing a mask and being isolated they I fear this cautious behavior is now my personality. Exercise helps when I can jump over the barbed wire fence of depression; it does a good job of preventing a lot of behaviors that you know will help but seem exhausting and unavailable when you’re sitting in a storm cloud.

Music helps. When I can spend time in my studio I can disappear into a fantasy neon world and that’s been a place I crave. Again, only when I can summon the muscle memory to scale that wall of darkness. 4 years of incredible political tension have taken their toll on my body. I’m sure once a new government finally settles in some of the anxiety will fade but I think right now I feel traumatized. I’ve had Covid come within inches of my family and that’s been heartbreaking. One of my best friends lost her Dad, who was a cancer survivor, and she didn’t even get to say goodbye. His name was John and our whole family adored him. I know of a lot of former colleagues or industry acquaintances who passed - and a number of good friends who have survived, having contracted it and beaten it. Still, living in a country that has no central plan, no consistent messaging, is of little comfort. And yeah I do fear contacting it. We still don’t know the long term effects of surviving this monster but evidence suggests permanent lung and heart issues.

As a singer, the idea of being intubated is an additional fear because a steel rod forced down your throat has little regard for fragile vocal cords: nor should it. At that point you’re just grateful for breath. When I hit publish on this post I will go home, wash my hands, hug my dog, kiss my husband and maybe head to my magical place for a while. This is a temporary moment of discomfort and it will pass. But I think it’s helpful to be honest about how we feel in these times. I know all pain is relative. I know I’m lucky, I’m privileged and I’m lucky to be alive. I’m grateful for your comfort; yes from you. I’ve drawn enormous strength and warmth from the many of you I’ve had the privilege to speak with on social media or on Instagram live. I love that we share a common history, I love that you have let parts of my expression be a part of your life’s adventures. You’re certainly fused with mine. I love you. Be kind. Especially to yourself.

[queenmiarys]

Good day people, I hope you all had a wonderful start to your New Year and it continues. I want to thank everyone who takes the time to read my work, and thanks to all who like it. Please excuse any typos or grammar mistakes

Book: TRR

Summary: Aliania returns to the Palace and she and Liam spend time together. The newcomer confesses her feelings to Drake.

Pairings: Liam x Aliania (mc), Drake x Riley (oc)-kinda

Rated:M

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Word Count 3, 025

All characters belong to pixelberry, but Aliania Perez belong to me

Warning: Strong sexual content, Drinking and deception. This content is for persons over the age of 18 and older. You are advised not to read if you're under the age of 18

Song inspiration for Liam and Aliania

I would like to thank @dcbbw for pre reding and doing some editing for me and giving me some good ideas, I really appreciate it.

Song inspiration for Liam and Aliania

Song inspiration for Drake and Riley

Blinded Lines, Part 2

Liam and I were in a weird place:Two days after making love, he announced that he was looking for a wife; he ended our relationship, saying that I needed to give Drake a chance. I can hardly look at Drake without feeling super guilty. I tried to be a good girlfriend to him, but I can't when another has my heart.

It’s been almost two months since the last time I was at the Palace. Drake and I were walking down the hall, and there he was looking all good. It looked as if Liam had been working out more or something. He stood with a dark headed woman named Riley, Drake told me as we approached them, whom I avoided speaking to. It seemed as if time had stopped. I couldn't breathe.

"Please, can someone get me some water?'' She said just before passing out.

Drake went to fetch the beverage, while Liam stayed with Aliania. He asked Riley to get Bastien.

"Aliania are you okay?”

"Thanks but I got it. Enjoy your little date."

"We need to talk, meet me in our room later? Please, Aliania.” before she could answer Riley and Bastien emerged.

"Are you okay Ms. Perez?" Bastien asked

"Yes, I think I just need something to drink, although I haven't eaten anything today. Oh, there's Drake now."

"Sorry it took so long, I got you something to eat and drink. I know you, Perez; when you are stressed you don't eat.”

Liam let Drake take over, after all she was Drake's girlfriend. He got up and walked over to Riley, wrapping his arm around her. My blood was boiling, I closed my eyes so I wouldn’t see them

Drake and I made our way to his room, where I laid down for a while after I ate the food he got me; when I woke up, at 9pm, Drake was watching me sleep.

"Oh my God, Drake! I slept from 3pm until now?" Omg Liam, he probably thought I stood him up.

"I need some fresh air, I'm going for a walk. "

"After your episode today do you really think that's a great idea?"

"I'm okay."

"I can come with you." She placed her hand on his arm."

"Drake baby, while you’ve been amazing today, I just need some space please don't take it personally. "

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I wandered down the hall, and as I reached the east hall, I took a deep breath as I got closer to the door. I opened it, and there Liam sat shirtless, I must say he looked so sexy his muscles were more tone then before.

"Hey, my love, I didn't think you'd come. We need to talk.” He was wearing my favorite Creed cologne, while smooth jazz played softy in the background .

"Are you okay? Or did you just want get me away from Riley? He smirked

"I am okay as long as I got the job done, she's not really into you.

"How do you know she's not?"

"I'm pretty sure the way she looked at Drake when he returned says it all."

"Really? So you're not just jealous over her liking Drake?"

"I'm not, because I love you and only you."

"Can you stay with me tonight?" I haven't been able to touch you in almost two months! Please stay? I need you."

"I will, I miss you so much, let me just text Drake and tell him I went home."

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Riley sent Liam another text but still no response

She made it down to bar to see Hana and Maxwell already there.

It was late, and Drake found himself at the bar. Not alone; Riley and Maxwell and Hana were all there. Drake smiled a greeting to the others, feeling happy he had a chance to see Riley again

"So, where's Li?”

"I'm not sure,he's not answering my calls or text.

"So no Aliania tonight?" Max asked.

"She went home."

"Are you sure?" Max asked

"Beaumont, what do you mean?"

"I saw her car outside, that's all."

Maybe she took a cab." He didn't say anything to the others. but he had a feeling that his girlfriend was lying about something.

He tapped her a quick text

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"You like what you see?" Liam asked with a chuckle. "That's the third time you’ve looked at me like that."

"Well I must admit, you looking damn good." She smiled.

"Honestly, I been hitting the gym extra hard for last few weeks now." I try my best not to think of you and Drake and no matter how hard I try,all I see is him touching you and doing other things and it drives me crazy. "

"Honestly we only been together once since the last two months, I ended up stopping him right in the middle, you had announced that your looking for a wife, I had to really process this

"I love you too, but are you sure? I mean, I know you don't want to ruin my relationship with him, but I made this bed. I gave in to loving you, so I must face the consequences of losing my best friend."

"I believe he'll be mad, but there is a certain person who can pull him through, I'm telling you Riley really likes him, she likes you but it's not the same as Drake."

" It's okay, I don't have feelings for Riley meeting her in NY, I mean for most part it was to try to get over you, I didn't know Maxwell would convince her to come here."

"You really have no feelings for her?

"Aliania my love, honestly I only have eyes for you, I know what's expected of me but I don't know if I can do it if your not by my side.

"We've been here for over an hour. I'm hungry, how about you?"He asked.

"I could eat something. I want scallops, roasted potatoes, and mixed greens”. He looked up at her and smiled.” What? I didn't eat much today."

Someone brought the food up.

Riley watched from a corner of the hallway.

She remembered when Maxwell gave a tour, he said no one stayed in that wing of the Palace, but she was curious to whom was using it. Making sure no one was around, she pressed her ear to the door; she made out Liam's voice, but she barely heard the female's voice. Riley hung around the doorway for about 20 minutes until she saw a guard walking the wing’s hallway. He asked her what she was doing there.

She replied she had gotten lost, which wasn’t a total lie. When the guard led her to her room, she saw Drake was knocking on her door.

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"There you are Brooks, don't tell me you got lost again. Well, you'll learn.”

"Yeah, I was for a minute, but Spencer showed me the way.Thank you Spencer."

"So do you want to go get some real food? I heard a new American restaurant just opened up in the Square. It’s called Wayne's Chicken and Waffles.

"Sure,I’d love to. I really haven't ate much, because a certain someone stood me up for dinner." He won't even answer my calls or texts."

"It's something you might need to get used to; I mean, if you marry him he is the king and gets very busy at times."

"Do you think he's seeing someone?"

"Why would you ask such a thing?"

"It might be my imagination, but he seems kinda distracted. I don't have his full attention."

It crossed her mind when he changed. Liam was getting to know her, but today he cut their date short as soon as Aliania came around. But that couldn’t be the reason because Aliania was with Drake.

How could she choose him over Drake? Riley thought.

She and Drake ate, then went to the beer garden where they spotted Maxwell with a female.

"Drake, can we speak?" Max asked

"What's up, Beaumont?"

"What the hell do you think you're doing with little Blossom?

"What? We’re just friends, nothing more."

"Are you sure? I believe she likes you. I caught her checking you out the other day."

Drake tried not to look excited about Riley checking him out.

"Beaumont why don’t you and your date join us, you'll see for yourself nothing is going on. "

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After a delicious dinner, Liam and Aliania watched a movie before falling asleep. Aliania woke up around 2am. Liam had been watching her sleep for about an hour, sitting in a chair next to the bed. "Hey, why are you over there?"

"Just watching the most beautiful woman in the world sleep.I couldn't sleep with so much on my mind lately, especially you my love."

She smiled. "You've been on my mind as well. I can't stop thinking about you, no matter how hard I try. I had a dream that you married someone who wouldn't let you see any of your friends. This lady was so evil towards you. Drake woke me, saying I was cursing in my sleep. Don’t look at me like that, we didn't sleep together. He just thought I would sleep if he was there, and I did for a minute but after he woke me I couldn't go back.For weeks now this social season has been bothering me."

"I'm sorry to worry you, it's just I need to marry and have an heir; it would fulfill my duties, but what I feel for you is not just a duty, I'm actually in love with you." You consume my every thought. "Enough about that, let's focus the rest of our night on us."

Come here my love?" I miss everything about you, no other can compare."

She sat in his lap, and he wrapped his arms around her while caressing her breast. He moved his mouth, kissing her neck and nibbling her earlobes a whimper escape her, he continued to get her worked up, She felt her body relax under his touch. He scooped her up and took her to bed. Her eyes closed as he dipped between her legs.

It had been almost two long months of not touching her, seeing her; he wanted to make her never want anyone else but him. He worked his tongue before inserting his finger deep inside of her; he worked his finger making her come multiple times.

He knew what he was doing.

He smiled as she came a fourth time.

"Shit, Liam! You are an amazing lover. I want to taste you, please?"

Aliania wrapped her lips around him, stroking him up and down. She loved satisfying the man she loved. Liam looked in her eyes as she took him all in.

He was now ready.

He pulled her up and flipped her over, licking her from the back before he slipped inside. "Damn baby, you're so wet and you feel so good."

"Yes, my king! Oh yes! I missed you too.”

He had her lay on her back as he entered from the side. She loved every inch of him.

He pulled out and rolled off the condom. " I want to feel you, If that’s okay. I have another condom if you say no.”

"Yes, My king she said almostout of breath. I've been wanting to feel you.”

He slipped back in and she wrapped her legs around him. He pulled himself into standing position while holding Aliania in place,he could feel himself getting harder, he started lifting her up and down they both could feel every inch of each other, she closed her as his movement because more rapid and faster, he was definitely in the zone, she tried to protest saying she was too heavy, but he just laughed." My love, do you know I lift weights heavier than you? He said a little out of breath.

He walked the room while pumping inside her a few more times before he could feel his own release coming, Both collapsed on the bed after Liam laid her down. After all, Liam was 6'4 and she was only 5"3.

"That was incredible." Liam praised.

"Yes, my king it was."

"My love, please don't feel guilty. I can tell you that you do."

"Sorry, but I can't help it, my king. I mean, what we're doing is not right yet we can't stay away from each other.You can't stand to see me with him, and I can't stand to see you with any other woman. We need to tell him because I want to just be yours."

"I'm only yours, my love. I've tried to move forward, but as long as you're around I don't see that happening. I only see us getting married, us having children, us together forever."

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Riley and Drake returned about 4 am, both tipsy but not too drunk. Once they got to Riley's room, she stood for a minute.

"Thank you, Drake. My date abandoned me, and you came to my rescue. I know at first you hated me, but I hope we're good now."

"Brooks, why do you believe I hated you?”

"Well you're so mean sometimes Drake, I just assumed.”

"Look Brooks, I'm sorry if I made you feel any kind of way. I had to get to know you first. See, the world I lived in for all my life wasn't the best, so my walls are always up.”

She took Drake's hand. "Please don’t get mad at what I'm about to say?"

"What's that?"

"Ali doesn't deserve you, she's not good for you. How could she have a man as incredible as you, and not value you." It wasn't a question, it was a statement.

" But you just met her, Riley. You don't know her."

"I don't need to know her.I know plenty of women like her, and she doesn't deserve you.”

Riley stood on her tiptoes and kissed Drake; he pulled back. "Brooks, you know I have a girlfriend."

She let out a sigh. "I know, but I can't help how I'm starting to feel for you. I mean I've tried to fight my attraction to you, I've tried giving Liam a real chance. But honestly, his heart is somewhere else. It seems like he forces himself to spend time with me."

"Brooks, what are you talking about?"

"Well Liam is sweet, but he only kisses me on the cheek. I went to kiss him and he pushed me away, like he’s keeping me at arm's length because he's waiting on someone better to come along. He's canceled a lot of dates he's planned with me. It's like he's sabotaging finding a wife."

"Interesting, Brooks. Li is usually a smooth operator."

Drake laughed out loud. “Look, it's almost 5; I’d better be going. Get some rest okay?”

"Okay, I will and thank you for a good time. I wish we could have gone further." She winked before disappearing into her roo.

The wheels in Drake's mind started turning: The way Perez reacted when she saw Riley with Liam; how she had been behaving the last month. She had definitely been keeping him at arm's length. Since Liam’s announcement two months ago, Perez hardly wanted to be bothered.

He found himself at Liam’s door. Drake knew Liam got up around 5am, but no answer. He was still standing in front of the door when the maid arrived to do her morning cleaning.

"Good morning Estelle?" "Is Li having a meeting this morning?”

"I'm not sure, Mr. Walker. His Majesty did not stay here last night; I came earlier and his bed was not slept in.I just went to get a few things; since His Majesty is not here, we will deep clean his quarters.”

"Oh okay, I'll let you get to it."

It didn't make sense, Liam not in his suite.

Riley was with me, that's the only woman he's showed any interest in.

Perez had disappeared.

Max said her car was still here. She said she took Liam asked someone to take her home after what happened earlier

That explanation came through in a text that she had sent Drake after he texted her about her car. He got to his room, and crashed down on the bed, for a few minutes before taking off his clothes. He fell asleep, forgetting to shower.

Iit was now 5:30.

Riley on the other hand, couldn't sleep. All she could think about was who Liam was with.She also thought how nice it would have been if the kiss she laid on Drake had been returned. She thought of how good Drake must be in bed.

He was so fine. She could see his ripped chest through his shirt he wore.

Riley got up and made her way to east hall; this time when she got to the room, she was in luck. That was most definitely Liam leaving the room. But, she wasn't prepared for what she saw next.

Stunned and in shock, Riley stood with her mouth open in disbelief.

Aliania came to the door with a very revealing nighty on; there was no mistaking that they were indeed involved with each other.

Author's note: hello everyone I would like to ask what Riley's next move should be?

Confront Liam or Aliania?

Confront both?

Go to Drake?

If you don't like any of those ideas please, tell me your opinion of what Riley should do next you can inbox me or leave a comment.

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@bebepac @shewillreadyou @mom2000aggie @tessa-liam @ao719

[dearly]

"[The label] were obsessed with controlling my image in a way they had never been before," says Hayes, recalling a time when Columbia filmed an alternate storyline for his "Insatiable" music video featuring a scantily clad woman sexually pursuing the singer — without telling him. "It was almost as though I was muted, and that video was put on my tab. It was a million dollars."

Soon enough, the label ceased promoting Hayes in most of his major markets. He retreated to the United Kingdom in 2004, seemingly the only country to fully embrace him as an artist at the time. "I couldn't work out, at the time, why I went from having six months of, like, 'We need you in the country to do all the TV shows and live appearances,' to suddenly, 'We're pulling you from all that stuff,'" he explains. "Because I had friends at the label, some of whom were queer, I found out a year or two after the fact what the trickle-down opinion was."

In recent years, Hayes was struck with a few bolts of unexpected inspiration to make new music. After seeing Luca Guadagnino's Call Me By Your Name and taking in the plot points about gay romance and Elio's relationship with his father, he "left the cinema in floods of tears" and quickly went to the studio to write the charming "Let's Try Being in Love." Soon, Hayes felt compelled to craft a full new album — completely by himself, determined to avoid outside opinion.

Savage Garden's Darren Hayes Says Homophobic Music Executives Controlled His Image: 'I Was Muted'